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One Night in Idaho The College Murders Season 1 Episode 4
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00:00That night, I had left an apartment complex near the King Road house at 4 a.m.
00:18And I remembered thinking to myself that it was eerily quiet.
00:24Usually, you can see the last remnants of people leaving a party.
00:30But it was silent.
00:37This is going to sound really weird, but that night, me and Emily woke up in the middle of the night.
00:43As soon as I woke up, I saw Hunter locking the door.
00:48I don't think I've ever locked that door.
00:52I felt like there was something pulling me towards doing that.
00:56I hustled up and got home as quick as I could.
01:02It was like my intuition was telling me something was wrong before I even knew.
01:05I was born.
01:06I was having to do it.
01:06It was like my illusion is a result.
01:08The problem cause affidavit revealed.
01:09The Probable Cause affidavit revealed
01:34what Maddie, Kaylee, Zanna, and Ethan
01:37were doing that night before they died.
01:42It's painted the most detailed picture yet
01:44of what happened that night.
01:49A few weeks after that night,
01:51Dylan had expressed to me what happened.
01:55She heard Kaylee and Maddie come home
01:58and she heard them chit-chatting on the couch for a while.
02:04The couch was on the wall of her bedroom.
02:08And she was pretty much sleeping through it.
02:13The surviving roommates, Bethany Funk and Dylan Mortensen,
02:18confirmed that all members of the King Road residents
02:22were asleep by 4 a.m.
02:24That's with the exception of Zanna Kurnodal at 4 a.m.
02:29Doordash drops off an order for Zanna.
02:33At 4.05 a.m., a white Elantra is seen
02:36driving in front of the King Road house,
02:39making a turn and then parking.
02:41And cell phone data shows that Zanna was on TikTok
02:45around 4.12 a.m.
02:47That is when Dylan hears some commotion kind of upstairs.
02:52She thought she heard someone say,
02:55there's someone here.
02:58She looked out of her bedroom door on the second floor
03:01and didn't see anything.
03:04Dylan said that she remembered hearing crying.
03:07And she thought she heard a male voice say,
03:10it's okay, I'm going to help you.
03:13Video from next door at 4.17 a.m.
03:15captures the sound of a whimper and a loud thud.
03:19A dog barking can also be heard on the footage.
03:23Dylan opens her door for a third time
03:25and she describes seeing a man with bushy eyebrows.
03:29This person walked past her bedroom
03:32and out the sliding glass door of the back room.
03:36She said that she just scaredly closed the door.
03:40Like, boom.
03:47Dylan got really scared.
03:50She was trying to lock her door
03:53and she started calling Bethany
03:55calling Xana, calling Ethan,
03:58calling Kaylee, calling Maddie,
03:59trying to see if anyone's awake.
04:02She's like, what the hell's going on?
04:04Someone needs to get up and tell me who's here.
04:07Eventually, she just decided to go for it.
04:10And she made a run for it
04:12to Bethany's room down in the basement.
04:17Dylan was like, did you hear any of that?
04:19And Heather was like, no.
04:22And so I think that
04:24Dylan was probably just like,
04:27I must have imagined it.
04:30And if you didn't hear anything,
04:31then let's go to bed together safely.
04:36I think that she 100%
04:38heard the murders of Xana and Ethan.
04:41I am confused on how one of the roommates saw him,
04:44but then the cops were not called until noon.
04:47Eight hours.
04:49We're in between.
04:50I just, I have no words.
04:52When we hear stories about people
04:54faced with something that's unexpected,
04:58that's scary, that's happening,
05:00that could be threatening or dangerous,
05:02and they act in ways we wouldn't expect,
05:05it's actually exactly
05:07how we should expect them to behave
05:12because you're not going to be necessarily
05:14thinking logically or rationally
05:17in the manner that you would,
05:18like, you and I are sitting here
05:19and talking about it.
05:20Folks are not going to understand
05:22that this behavior
05:24is the behavior of somebody
05:25who's just experienced trauma.
05:26I'm sure Dylan and Bethany
05:29see these hurtful comments
05:32and they can't really say anything back to it.
05:35But, you know,
05:37they are not speaking out
05:39for obvious reasons, legal reasons.
05:44And that's what the public,
05:47I don't think, necessarily understands.
05:49I think it's very important
05:52for everybody to know
05:54that what if doesn't matter
05:56because if she had known
06:00what was going on,
06:01it would have been too late anyways.
06:08It wasn't until the morning
06:10when she realized,
06:12holy shit,
06:13that couldn't have been a dream.
06:16And that's when I got my phone call
06:18from her.
06:20They hadn't even gone upstairs
06:21or anything.
06:22She just called and said,
06:23something weird happened.
06:25I thought it was a dream.
06:27I'm not quite sure anymore.
06:29I tried to call everybody
06:32to wake them up
06:33and no one's answering.
06:35I was like, okay,
06:36I'll come over.
06:38That morning,
06:39Emily had said, like,
06:40Dylan wants us to come over.
06:42And I remember
06:43when I set foot in the house,
06:45Hunter was like,
06:46get out, somebody call 911.
06:47Dylan was the one
06:49that was on the phone
06:50with 911.
06:51And I had to take the phone
06:52from her
06:52because she was so
06:53completely hysterical.
06:56They're like,
06:57what's the address?
06:57What's the address?
06:58What's the address?
06:58I was like,
06:591122 King Road.
07:04Police entered the house
07:05and went up to the second floor.
07:08They went into Zanna's bedroom
07:10and found her and Ethan
07:13dead with stab wounds.
07:17Police then went up
07:18to the third floor
07:20and into Maddie's bedroom
07:21where they found
07:22both Maddie and Kaylee
07:23in Maddie's bed
07:25dead with multiple stab wounds.
07:29I believe what you're going
07:29to find out
07:30is that this killer
07:31was stalking
07:32a particular individual.
07:34Maddie could have been
07:34an intended target
07:35because both Kaylee
07:36and Maddie
07:37were sleeping together
07:38in Maddie's bedroom.
07:40Maddie would have been
07:41the first person
07:42the killer had access to
07:43when they entered
07:44the room over here.
07:46If that's true,
07:47then does that mean
07:49she was the target?
07:52They said the attack
07:53was targeted.
07:54Then they said
07:55they're not sure
07:56if one person
07:56was targeted.
07:57I don't know how
07:58he would have found them
07:59to stalk them.
08:02We don't hang out
08:03with Wazoo people
08:04so I just don't know
08:05how they would have ever
08:06met for him
08:08to stalk them
08:09and I don't know
08:09how he knew
08:10where they lived.
08:17One of the things
08:18that makes this case
08:19strange is that
08:20most often
08:21the perpetrator
08:23knows the victim
08:24but we still do not know
08:26if Koberger did it at all
08:28and if he did it,
08:30if he had a relationship
08:31at all with these victims,
08:32did he know them at all?
08:36Those are answers
08:37we don't have yet
08:37because when it comes
08:39to Brian Koberger,
08:40we know very little
08:41about him officially.
08:44A lot of what we know
08:45really just comes
08:46from his records
08:47at school,
08:47the fact that he applied
08:49for certain internships,
08:50that he was fascinated
08:51with what motivates people
08:53to commit crimes.
08:55He was someone
08:56who traveled to school
08:57and then bounced
08:58so you didn't really think
09:00too much of him
09:00and you would try
09:02to get personal
09:03and he wouldn't
09:05give you much.
09:06He never had any friends
09:08he really associated with.
09:10I don't think
09:10too many people
09:11paid much mind to him.
09:13I mean,
09:13people say,
09:14oh, he was a loner
09:15or, you know,
09:16he allegedly
09:17had problems with girls.
09:19My exact words
09:19for that were,
09:21this person has trouble
09:23with women.
09:23And when you look
09:25at the victims,
09:27they're attractive.
09:29They're involved
09:29in Greek Roe.
09:31They look like
09:31the kind of kids
09:32that were popular,
09:33you know,
09:33surrounded by friends.
09:43My supervisor
09:44pulled me aside
09:44in her office.
09:45She's like,
09:45off the record,
09:46what do you think
09:46happened here?
09:47And I said,
09:49I think this was an incel.
09:53The definition there
09:56is involuntarily celibate.
09:58So this is a sort of person
10:00that cannot connect
10:01with the other gender sexually
10:03and maybe feel
10:05some resentment
10:05toward that gender.
10:08Haley Ouellette
10:08says they met in 2015
10:10when he took her
10:11to a movie,
10:12then insisted on
10:13escorting her
10:14to her dorm room.
10:16He kept trying
10:16to tickle me
10:17and I would ask him
10:20to stop
10:20and he would get
10:21very serious.
10:22I proceeded
10:23to pretend
10:23to throw up
10:24in the bathroom
10:24hoping that he'd leave
10:26and then he messaged me
10:28and he said
10:28that I had
10:29good birthing hips.
10:30I still think
10:31the more we find out
10:32that this was incel rage,
10:33rage against women
10:34because of his history
10:36with women
10:37starting in high school
10:38where the girls
10:39would be bullying him.
10:42Certain men feel like
10:43they are owed
10:44a relationship
10:45with a woman,
10:46that that's not something
10:47they should have to earn,
10:48it's something
10:48that they should be given.
10:50I did hear
10:51about a situation
10:52where Koberger
10:53had followed
10:54a student out
10:55to her car
10:58like trying
10:59to flirt with her
11:00and she reported it
11:01to someone
11:03in the criminal
11:03justice department.
11:05At Washington State University,
11:07he starts getting
11:08into altercations
11:09with students
11:10and we find out later
11:11that he was fired
11:13from his TA ship.
11:14He got more feisty
11:15and belligerent,
11:16even arguing
11:17with his professors
11:18until December 19th,
11:21Brian Koberger
11:22is officially terminated
11:24by Washington State University.
11:27And I'm pushing him
11:28for documents.
11:28I want to know
11:29about the stuff
11:29about Koberger
11:31with the girls,
11:31if that's true.
11:32I want to see his record.
11:34But again,
11:34it's just tricky
11:36because there's rumors
11:37about his behavior
11:38at the school,
11:39but none of it's verified
11:40until we have
11:41the documentation.
11:41At DeSales University,
11:47some of the people
11:48that Brian and I
11:49studied that
11:49were serial killers
11:51were Ted Bundy,
11:53Jeffrey Dahmer,
11:54Ed Kempfer,
11:55and Elliot Rodger.
11:59So Elliot Rodger,
12:00he was a young man
12:02in college
12:04that was basically jaded
12:06and hated his life
12:08because he lacked
12:10the attention
12:10from friends,
12:12family,
12:13and most of all,
12:14women.
12:16So Elliot Rodger,
12:17one day,
12:18first he invited
12:18some people over
12:19that he claimed
12:20to be friends with.
12:21He stabbed them to death.
12:23He then went out
12:24with firearms
12:25to a sorority
12:26and killed a number
12:28of women in a sorority.
12:30He then drove around,
12:32shot multiple other people
12:33in public,
12:34and he ended his own life
12:36in his vehicle.
12:37But after the fact,
12:39there was a written
12:40manifesto,
12:41and he basically
12:42tells you,
12:43this is what I did,
12:44this is why I did it.
12:46Roger's sexist rants
12:47are part of a culture
12:48that breeds violence
12:49against women.
12:50Roger wrote,
12:51all of those beautiful girls
12:53I've desired so much
12:54in my life
12:55but can never have
12:56because they despise
12:57and loathe me.
12:58I will destroy.
13:00After Brian Kohlberger
13:01is arrested,
13:02I start thinking,
13:03okay,
13:04Papa Roger,
13:07Elliot Roger,
13:08if you listen to some
13:09of the manifestos
13:10of Elliot Roger,
13:12he talks about
13:12hating all the girls
13:14from Alpha Phi,
13:15the same sorority
13:17that Kaylee was in.
13:19Brian was interested
13:21in a lot of things
13:23that we learned,
13:24but he did have more
13:26of an interest
13:27in Elliot Roger.
13:28I talked to other
13:29girls in the class
13:31where we were all
13:32bothered by what
13:33Elliot Roger did,
13:34but Brian did not
13:36seem bothered.
13:37Incel,
13:38in my professional opinion,
13:39this is a particularly
13:40dangerous version
13:41of misogyny
13:45because incel communities
13:47have this presence
13:49in an online space.
13:52They can say things
13:53and provide support
13:55for things that perhaps
13:56they wouldn't do
13:57in a face-to-face context
13:58because they would be
14:00concerned about
14:01what the social consequences
14:02or the repercussions
14:03would look like.
14:04And because it's immediate,
14:11the speed,
14:12the algorithm,
14:14the echo chamber,
14:15and the anonymity
14:16perhaps leads people
14:17to think that their ideas
14:18are not so extreme.
14:21Elliot Roger
14:22was glorified
14:23and valorized
14:24and martyred
14:25among communities
14:27that were coming together
14:28in these online spaces.
14:29It was just so terrible.
14:55For a while,
14:56there was actually
14:56a subreddit called
14:57Brine Nation.
14:58It was sort of
15:04this Brian Koberger
15:05fan club
15:06where people were
15:07posing all these theories
15:08about how he could
15:09be innocent
15:10and writing him
15:11letters in jail
15:12and women sending him money,
15:14which is really
15:16something else.
15:21We know
15:22with the advent
15:23of social media,
15:24people are becoming
15:25more lonely,
15:27more isolated.
15:28So I think
15:34this problem
15:35is likely growing
15:37as we see people
15:38become more isolated
15:39due to technology.
15:42When they
15:42caught Brian Koberger,
15:44there was like
15:45all the fake accounts
15:46that came on Instagram
15:47pretending to be
15:48Brian Koberger.
15:49And I got a DM
15:50from one of them
15:50that was like,
15:51hey, it's Brian,
15:52sorry for killing your friends.
15:53And I like read it
15:54and I was like,
15:55what the f-
15:56what the hell?
15:58Or somewhere
15:58seeing that
15:58and I was like,
15:59I can't believe
16:00like somebody
16:00sat down
16:01and wrote that.
16:03It almost was like
16:04scary.
16:04So I was like,
16:06this is like,
16:07means that people
16:07are like capable
16:08of like copycatting it.
16:09until there is
16:17a mechanism
16:17to stop this kind
16:18of thing
16:19from happening
16:19on social media,
16:20it's always going
16:21to continue happening
16:22and it's going
16:22to get worse.
16:24I mean,
16:24since this case
16:25specifically,
16:26the King Road house
16:27has basically become
16:28a tourist attraction.
16:29This is where
16:30Brian Shepag Kohlberger
16:32murdered
16:33Kaylee,
16:35Zanna,
16:36Ethan,
16:37and Maddie.
16:37It's not a,
16:38it's not an art exhibit.
16:40It's, you know,
16:41this happened.
16:41It's real.
16:42We feel it.
16:49I can only imagine
16:50how hard it's been
16:51for them at times.
16:53You know,
16:53the suspect is in jail
16:54just down the road
16:55and whenever
16:56there's a trial thing,
16:57there's media cameras
16:58on camp
16:59as it's overwhelming.
17:06We start with
17:07breaking news
17:07out of Idaho
17:08where prosecutors
17:09have filed
17:10to seek the death penalty
17:11against the man
17:12accused of killing
17:13four University
17:14of Idaho students.
17:16Wow,
17:16the state must really
17:17feel they've got
17:18like a rock-solid case
17:19to go after
17:20the death penalty.
17:21They've certainly
17:21got what it takes
17:23to seek
17:23a capital punishment here.
17:25They're saying
17:25that his acts
17:26were especially heinous
17:28and that he has
17:28an utter disregard
17:30for human life.
17:31If they're able
17:32to prove
17:32just one of these
17:33factors,
17:34Ryan Koberger
17:35could be put to death.
17:42Because
17:43this is a death
17:45penalty case,
17:46there are dozens
17:47of court hearings.
17:49And so it's going
17:50going to take
17:50much longer
17:51than other types
17:53of cases.
18:00So,
18:00Ms. Taylor,
18:02where do we start?
18:03Your Honor,
18:03in this case,
18:04we have a lot of records
18:05that we have to go through.
18:07I know that the court
18:08has heard about
18:0951 terabytes
18:10of information
18:12that we've received.
18:13There is no possible way
18:15I can even read
18:16or watch everything
18:17I have now
18:18or react to things
18:20that are still coming in
18:21if we're to have
18:22a deadline
18:23in time for trial.
18:24It's impossible
18:25for us to do it.
18:27But we are not
18:28going to be ready.
18:30The defense
18:30has,
18:32more than the prosecution,
18:33said it's going
18:34to take them longer
18:34to prep for trial,
18:35that they're not ready yet.
18:37That's not uncommon
18:38in most cases,
18:39but at this point,
18:41they're the ones
18:42who are pushing
18:42the timeline back.
18:43I don't understand
18:45why he can ask
18:48for more time
18:49because I wish
18:50I had more time
18:51with my son.
18:53I don't,
18:54I can't buy more time.
18:58There's absolute frustration
18:59in that they're
19:01just buying time.
19:04They're trying
19:04to find loopholes.
19:06Every day
19:07is just longer
19:08and longer.
19:10You keep putting it off,
19:11I mean,
19:12what could happen?
19:13And the more
19:14you put it off,
19:15the more can happen.
19:23So the trial's
19:24been postponed
19:24indefinitely.
19:26We just don't know
19:27how long we're actually
19:28going to have to wait.
19:34No matter
19:35what the reality is,
19:37until the trial's over,
19:38this is going to have
19:39a huge impact
19:40on Moscow.
19:40It was kind of like
19:42dying down a little bit
19:44because nobody heard
19:45anything new
19:45and then it kind of
19:46started again.
19:47It's kind of how it's been.
19:49Like a new thing
19:50comes up
19:50and then it dies down again
19:51and then there's a new thing
19:52and then, you know.
19:56I mean,
19:56can you imagine
19:57you're a student,
19:58you're trying to just
19:58concentrate on your classes
20:00and now for over a year,
20:02anytime you turn on the TV
20:04or go on social media,
20:05it's like all about this case.
20:06People just couldn't
20:07let this case go.
20:10I need to see
20:11something besides
20:12theories,
20:13pings,
20:14and one piece
20:15of touch DNA.
20:16It just doesn't make sense
20:17to me that someone
20:17who has studied
20:18criminology for years
20:19would leave what's been
20:20described by police
20:21as a messy crime scene.
20:22This entire court
20:24is a sham operation
20:26to cover
20:26for people who really did
20:28what happened
20:29in Moscow, Idaho.
20:31I was under the impression
20:32that it would stop,
20:33but it didn't.
20:34the first thing
20:35that pops up
20:36when you Google my name
20:37is still my name
20:38connected to four murders.
20:40I'm getting ready
20:42to graduate here soon
20:44and I don't even know
20:45how that's going to affect
20:46my ability to get a job.
20:48There's still websites
20:49where me and Emily
20:51are getting called killers.
20:53Even after posts,
20:55like,
20:56co-worker being arrested,
20:57it's just like still
20:58these two are behind it.
21:01Idaho 4 murders,
21:02quick look at Emily Allant
21:03and Hunter Johnson.
21:05Emily Allant was,
21:06for a while at least,
21:07dating this dude,
21:08Hunter Johnson.
21:09There's a bunch of speculation
21:10that Hunter and Kaylee
21:11had a thing on the side
21:12which angered Emily
21:13and that was tied
21:14to the murders in some way.
21:16There's almost this expectation
21:17or pressure
21:19when you go through
21:20something like this
21:20that you're supposed
21:22to remain poised
21:23and respectful
21:23and I didn't want to
21:25because to me
21:26these people didn't
21:27deserve respect.
21:28This is her house.
21:29They were causing
21:29so much unnecessary pain
21:30to the community
21:31and eventually
21:33it just became too much
21:34and I did go private
21:35because I,
21:37as one person,
21:38couldn't take it anymore.
21:43I ended up deleting
21:44TikTok,
21:45Instagram,
21:46and like every news
21:49media outlet
21:49on my phone
21:50just because I didn't
21:51want to look at it.
21:53It's like I'm trying
21:54to grieve
21:55in any way possible
21:57and you guys
21:58are not helping with it.
22:03I'm not a huge
22:04social media
22:05person anymore.
22:07I just,
22:07I don't go on it
22:08very much.
22:09All my, like,
22:10social media is private.
22:12I had no,
22:13I had no desire
22:15to talk to anyone
22:16about anything.
22:18I think that
22:19most accounts
22:20were on public.
22:22You don't really think
22:23to put it on private.
22:25But there is
22:26so much information
22:27that is out
22:28in the world
22:29about you
22:30that you don't
22:30even know
22:30or post,
22:31especially when
22:32you're in a small town
22:33and you're posting
22:34where you are.
22:35People are going to be
22:36able to figure out
22:36very quickly.
22:38So I put my account
22:39on private.
22:41When they were making
22:42rude remarks
22:42about my friends
22:43who are no longer here,
22:45I didn't want
22:47to be on social media.
22:48I didn't.
22:50And I,
22:50in social media,
22:51I,
22:52I feel like I have
22:54a love-hate relationship
22:55with social media.
22:56People post
22:57the good,
22:59happy times.
23:00Nobody wants
23:01to post
23:01a picture of them
23:03crying at 2 o'clock
23:04in the morning
23:04because they're still
23:05grieving their friends.
23:09I think that
23:10the only thing
23:11that mattered
23:11was
23:12peace for families.
23:15our family's view
23:19was just to stay
23:19out of it.
23:20Like,
23:20we're going to do
23:21what we do best
23:22and just be
23:24with each other.
23:26And we don't need
23:27the media
23:27for anything.
23:29It's not like
23:30they're going to help us
23:31bring our brother back.
23:32The very first thing
23:38I told my kids
23:39when this heinous
23:40thing happened
23:41was like,
23:42this won't sink us
23:43as a family.
23:44We'll figure it out
23:44together.
23:49We'd spent
23:49five months
23:50in the depths
23:50of hell.
23:52And then we just
23:53realized,
23:53okay,
23:53we just have to
23:54figure out
23:55how to move forward.
23:55So we just
23:56made a deal
23:57with each other
23:58that from that day
23:58forward,
23:59for our kids,
24:00for our family,
24:01for our friends,
24:02that we would
24:03wake up every day
24:03and put our
24:04best foot forward.
24:13You forget
24:14you have a choice.
24:15You have a choice
24:16to get up
24:16and to live
24:17your best life.
24:18But I still
24:20can't imagine
24:21what it must be
24:21like to be
24:22Maisie and Hunter.
24:30So,
24:38I mean,
24:41to have that
24:41kind of a bond
24:42with your sibling,
24:44you know,
24:44somebody you don't
24:45know life without,
24:46then have them
24:47gone.
24:48But it is
24:50what it is,
24:51honestly.
24:55There's never
24:56a moment
24:56in my life
24:57now where
24:58the thought
24:58of Ethan
24:58not being here
24:59isn't there.
25:00Like,
25:00that thought
25:00is just
25:01engraved in my
25:02head that
25:02he's not here.
25:04And it's
25:04something that
25:05I don't think
25:05will ever go away.
25:08It kind of
25:09sounds bad to say
25:10back to normal,
25:11but I think
25:11we both
25:12kind of just
25:13try and
25:13pretend like
25:15it's normal.
25:17I feel like
25:18that's mostly
25:19why I just
25:20don't pay attention
25:21to anything else
25:21because
25:22I just focus
25:24on, like,
25:25the good things
25:26about him.
25:26not
25:28what all
25:30else is going
25:31on.
25:39After the
25:40memorial,
25:41we were
25:41going to meet
25:42up at the
25:43cemetery and
25:44try to find a
25:45place to put him.
25:45it was very
25:51hard for me.
25:54I
25:54told Stace
25:58that
25:58we can't do
26:00this right
26:01now.
26:02This isn't
26:03going to happen.
26:03Do you
26:05put him
26:05in a
26:06little
26:07crematorium?
26:10This
26:11wasn't right.
26:11Just not a
26:12place where
26:12you
26:12put your
26:15where do you
26:16put your
26:16kid?
26:18Right?
26:19Where do you
26:19put your
26:20kid?
26:20So I
26:21decided
26:24that
26:25the best
26:26place for
26:27him to
26:27be
26:27was
26:30home.
26:31so he
26:41will sit
26:42in the
26:43basement
26:43until one
26:47of us
26:48pass.
26:52He's
26:52safe.
26:53And I
26:59can
27:00go down
27:05and talk
27:05to him
27:05anytime
27:05I want.
27:10And I
27:11do.
27:11this is
27:27where
27:28Madison
27:28grew up.
27:30This is
27:30where she
27:30lived.
27:35We didn't
27:36honestly get a
27:37lot back
27:37just to be
27:39wasn't able
27:43to come
27:43back.
27:45So the
27:45stuff that
27:46was able
27:46to come
27:46back I
27:47went through
27:48and like
27:49oh some
27:49of this is
27:50silly some
27:50of this is
27:51very sentimental
27:51like I
27:52still have
27:52the yellow
27:53sweater that
27:54she was
27:54wearing that
27:54day.
27:57The sleeves
27:58are still
27:58rolled up.
27:59so I
28:03found this
28:04sweatshirt
28:04when we
28:05went down
28:05it was the
28:06first family
28:06weekend and
28:08Maddie really
28:09wanted this
28:09sweatshirt and
28:11it wasn't her
28:12size we
28:13couldn't find
28:13it and I
28:14found it
28:15like a
28:15total
28:15different
28:15place and
28:16when I
28:17found it
28:17I was
28:17like Scott
28:18look we
28:19found the
28:19sweater and
28:21then I'm
28:23on video
28:24with her and
28:25she's cutting
28:26it.
28:26I'm like
28:28we were on
28:29FaceTime
28:29I'm like
28:30what are
28:31you doing
28:32she's like
28:33this is how
28:34everything is
28:34worn mom
28:35I'm like
28:36okay I
28:36gotta get
28:36used to
28:37this I
28:37gotta let
28:38it be
28:38but yes
28:41super glad
28:43we got that
28:43back.
28:46I feel like
28:47the struggle
28:48getting to
28:49this point
28:50was I
28:51can't do
28:51this.
28:54I just
28:55can't.
28:56but it's
29:00just not
29:01mentally
29:01healthy to
29:02waste time
29:03other than
29:05laughing about
29:06Maddie
29:06talking about
29:08Maddie
29:08it's really
29:10all we do.
29:12There is
29:13very little
29:14place in my
29:16heart for
29:16holding on
29:18to anger.
29:19That's not
29:19what you
29:20heal from.
29:21A year
29:25ago I
29:25couldn't have
29:26spoken to
29:26you at
29:26all.
29:27I
29:27couldn't
29:28have
29:28articulated
29:29any of
29:30this.
29:32And it's
29:32taken
29:33friends
29:33family
29:34time
29:35to slowly
29:37creep out
29:37of that
29:38really
29:39really bad
29:41place.
29:41and it's
29:44also
29:44reminding
29:45myself
29:46like
29:46how
29:47would
29:48Maddie
29:49and
29:49Kaylee
29:50want to
29:51see me?
29:52Would they
29:52want to see
29:53me crying
29:53in my
29:53pajamas
29:54and can't
29:54get out
29:54of bed?
29:55Or would
29:56they want
29:56to see
29:57me talking
29:57about them
29:58and how
29:58happy
29:59and how
30:00amazing
30:00they are?
30:03And that's
30:04a struggle.
30:07You never
30:08know how
30:08strong you
30:09are until
30:09strong is
30:10all you
30:10can be.
30:13This has
30:14always been
30:15her space
30:16always will
30:16be her
30:17space.
30:18And
30:19it's a
30:21place to
30:22come and
30:22just feel
30:23at peace
30:24feel her
30:25presence.
30:40in the
30:53place.
30:54365 days since my life changed forever.
31:13All of our lives changed forever.
31:16I read somewhere that once you lose someone you love, you gain an angel.
31:21But we have four amazing angels watching over all of us every day.
31:31Ethan was very, very witty.
31:36I think that was the most noticeable thing about him.
31:40He's just always trying to be funny.
31:43And I loved that about him.
31:45Minions! Tonight we steal the moon!
31:48I remember all, you know, the different memories that we shared.
31:53Shit.
31:58Anytime that I go to Taco Bell, I think of Ethan.
32:02That was his favorite place by far.
32:04He was the first person I saw that opened up.
32:07He pre-opened up all of his Taco Bell packets so that he wouldn't have to stop eating.
32:12He could just feast.
32:13And I remember I thought that was the funniest thing.
32:15And now every time I go to Taco Bell, I make sure that I, you know, pre-open like four or five first, you know.
32:21So I don't have to stop.
32:23I could go on and on about the person Zanna was, but the little memories are what replayed in my head over and over.
32:34Her backflips she would attempt, which usually resulted in her failing and popping right back up, laughing, yelling, I'm okay.
32:41Zanna loved music.
32:44We called her DJ Zan all through college because she had the best music to play and she was always playing it.
32:52She would bring her MacBook almost everywhere and it doesn't matter where we were at, she would get on any chair and just stand with her laptop.
33:00A lot of things come to my mind when I think about Maddie.
33:05Me and my friends would always reenact how she would dance and we have so many videos of it.
33:10Just kind of putting her hand out and like bouncing like this.
33:14She just never cared who was watching.
33:16Kaylee always had such a happy and joyful outlook on life.
33:27She was just ambitious and wanted, I think she just wanted to experience anything and everything she could.
33:33And that was how she was going to live her life.
33:38She decided it and she just did it.
33:41Whenever there's like a nice sunset or like really pretty sunset, like we'll always text each other and be like, oh, Kaylee's saying hi.
33:59As I sit back and think of all the memories, I've learned dwelling won't do anything.
34:03It's important to remember all the good times and be grateful for the relationships we were all able to form with Ethan, Zanna, Madison, and Kaylee, even if it was for a short amount of time.
34:15To know Ethan, Zanna, Madison, and Kaylee was to love Ethan, Zanna, Madison, and Kaylee.
34:23We will now take a moment of silence.
34:33I think that the world has made their idea of who Kaylee, Maddie, Zanna, and Ethan were.
34:41And so I think it's important to still emphasize like who they were as friends and who they were as people.
34:46They aren't just these victims.
34:51I don't think there'll ever be a full acceptance and closure of this horrible thing that happened.
35:03Wouldn't you put that sweet soy glaze thing in here now?
35:22Oh, I don't know.
35:22Read about it.
35:25We graduated and we've been in Boise since 2023, February.
35:31We just have been like putting pieces together since everything, like slowly.
35:38We were forced to like grow up.
35:41And there was never like, you never get like told when you're going to have to grow up.
35:45It's just like that was when it was for us.
35:50There's no longer thoughts of the world being a sweet, great place that you always know and truly believed it was.
35:59But, you know, I had long life goals for myself.
36:07I had a vision of what I wanted my life to look like.
36:11And I've given up on some of my goals just because I realized I'm a different person.
36:18I'm still working on the new me to be able to get to a place to set goals again.
36:27I hang out with a completely new group of people at U of I now.
36:36And it's kind of sad to say that, but it's just was like at the time, it was nice to be with people that like honestly didn't personally know them, which is so weird to say.
36:50It's a very bittersweet moment to say goodbye to my apartment.
36:59This was my first off-campus housing apartment.
37:02I loved it.
37:04Now I'm moving out.
37:06This is my spare bedroom.
37:11This window faces 1122 King Road.
37:22They still have the same caution tape up 368 days later.
37:28It's a constant reminder that that's a crime scene that is still ongoing.
37:44My first two weeks back into school, I didn't handle it very well.
37:48It's been a long road of emotions and rollercoaster rides.
37:55It's like separation anxiety almost.
37:59Finally, I'm doing pretty well, though.
38:01A lot of people really helped me out and helped me get my life back on track.
38:07But my window is on the very end of our fraternity, which faces the opening of where that house is.
38:16So I wake up every morning and I open up the blinds.
38:21And that house is the first thing I see boarded up, looking like shit over there.
38:28I just want it to go away so I don't have to look at it anymore.
38:31It's a haunting reminder of an unthinkable tragedy that soon the house at 1122 King Road will stand no more.
38:49The University of Idaho is saying in a statement,
38:52There is still so much speculation about what really happened in that house.
39:14When the trial comes, I will probably be very nervous.
39:23I've never had to deal with something like this.
39:25But at the end of the day, I want justice.
39:28Justice for the families and for the friends.
39:30I would feel the most closure if the suspect actually admits he did it or it's confirmed in the trial and he gets put in jail forever.
39:46Would be nice.
39:47I don't follow the case at all anymore.
40:07I don't have care in the world to keep seeing everything be untrue.
40:15I think the hardest part about this process is nobody has it right.
40:26And it's frustrating to see so many people talk about Brian Koberger.
40:35I think he's a loser that shouldn't get talked about at all.
40:39I think the only true story should be about their lives.
40:42Getting the story out there feels right because it's really important that I'm the one telling it instead of some random-ass person.
40:54There's just parts of it that need to remain just ours.
40:59You know, we care that we are the ones who tell his story and capture his true spirit.
41:03I loved, I love those girls.
41:08We're not going to talk in past tense.
41:11I will love them.
41:13I'll remember them.
41:14I will cry about them.
41:16I will continue to keep them alive.
41:19I will wonder them.
41:35I will do love them.
41:37I will do love them.
41:38I will do love them.
41:39I will do love them.
41:40I will come to try them until they are alive.
41:43But you are摯ков, you should win a king.
41:46Amen.
42:16Amen.
42:46Amen.
43:16Amen.
43:46Amen.
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