My Big Fat Fabulous Life Season 13 Episode 1

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00:01How you going?

00:02Previously on My Big, Fat, Fabulous Life.

00:06I'm going into a new decade.

00:07I'm turning 40.

00:09And on the highway of life, I am stalled.

00:15The only thing that scares me about being 40

00:16is not having a partner.

00:17Also knowing, like, I'm probably not

00:19going to have kids because I'm still single.

00:21Everyone else in my life is zooming past me.

00:23I'm a childless woman in the midst of a midlife crisis.

00:26And I'm only making it a joke because if I don't laugh,

00:28I'll cry.

00:29Even my brother, of all people,

00:30has now entered into a serious relationship.

00:33Have you told her you love her?

00:34Yes.

00:36So I have got to change my gears to get

00:38headed in a positive direction.

00:40I want to do a big trip.

00:41We're all going to go to Spain.

00:42Oh!

00:44Cheers.

00:45Lordy Lordy, Wendy and Toddy are 40.

00:46Woo!

00:49I would love to be able to see you and Karen get married.

00:52The pressure is intense.

00:55You love my life.

00:56Seeing my brother this happy, it makes me

00:58hopeful for me, you know?

01:00Like, maybe it doesn't all go downhill from here.

01:03Yay!

01:04We lose my day!

01:05We lose my day!

01:05Maybe it doesn't all go downhill from here.

01:12You know?

01:13You know?

01:14While we all are trying to make them happy,

01:15we're handed off for sure.

01:16Hi, everyone, welcome to pineapple dance studios. I know how excited you all are. I know I am. We've got Whitney

01:41And y'all know this is Todd

01:46Thank you for your enthusiasm. This is honestly one of the most exciting days of my life

01:57I have somehow secured an opportunity to teach at the world-renowned pineapple dance studios in London

02:04And of course I had to bring Todd with me and our arms are gonna go swing right swing left

02:10Okay, and you see this a little bit of an undulation

02:12They're a little bit kind of hanging behind your body. Even if you have a big old dump truck as I do

02:20These are the studios where some of the most famous pop stars in the world

02:25Rehearse for their shows and their concerts like Madonna

02:29Beyonce all the actors and dancers from the West End one two three four. This is a big deal

02:35Oh, I have chills

02:37Roll and roll and roll and roll. I see you girl. Don't play with me

02:44She said

02:48Uh-huh ten years ago was the first time that I actually stayed in Covent Garden and I would pass pineapple and they have this iconic

02:54window in the front and I was fat and

02:57and I would just stand there watching these beautiful amazing dancers inside and I thought to myself I

03:04Should sign up for a class six seven. Where are we on eight?

03:08But I didn't have the gumption to do it

03:12So fast forward ten years later

03:15And I looked up pineapple and I thought I'm gonna slide in the DMS

03:19So I did and I'm thinking how can I scheme so that I could bring like a big girl dance class to pineapple dance studio?

03:25And the person wrote back and they were like, yeah, like you just have to pay like for a studio

03:29I was like, oh

03:31Okay

03:47The studio manager said we've never had a class sell out this fast

03:51Would you consider doing another one the next day? And I was like

03:55Pop it so moral of the story just do it just slide in the DMS

04:02I've never been to a dance class here. I always thought it was for skinny girls

04:06So it's been really just joyful because it's so inclusive. You don't feel like you stick out like a sore thumb

04:12It's made me remember how much I miss clubby

04:15I

04:17Usually hate the mirrors, but I don't feel self-conscious

04:19So I'm actually being in touch with my body and actually feeling quite sensuous

04:24I'm seeing my boyfriend later tonight, so he might be for a right old time

04:35The Brits have a reputation for being like prim and proper, but that's clearly not the case

04:40The big girl dance circle has never been freaky here

04:55At this point I wish I had packed about five more suitcases and brought the cats because I don't know what's keeping me from just staying here indefinitely

05:03indefinitely

05:22Hi, welcome home

05:25I'm so happy to see you

05:27I'm finally back home after being in London for three weeks, and it was so amazing

05:35The culture it's so full of life and excitement and I took more dance classes

05:42I hung out with the owner of pineapple Debbie. I made friends. Where are we?

05:47There you go like this girl ma belle. Where's your man? We had a blast I

05:52I truly had the time of my life. I just didn't expect it to be this like transformative experience

05:59But it's really got me thinking about the bigger things that I want in my life

06:05The trip looked amazing on social media. I was so jealous. It was actually

06:11So good. Did you see the video of the dance class I posted? Yeah, it was so good and that little girl was absolutely

06:18Precious I'm dead over her her name was Penelope. Oh my god, and you know, it made my ovaries just

06:26ache

06:27One of my favorite students in London was this little girl named Penelope

06:32She was everything the confidence the sass

06:36Penelope are you my best and most favorite student?

06:39Yes

06:40When I looked at Penelope, I just thought about what it would be like

06:46To have a child of my own

06:49It made me think about like

06:51Putting my daughter in dance lessons or like

06:54You know stuff like that. So you're thinking about motherhood again?

06:56My gosh

06:58Is it time to revisit?

06:59Yeah, but of course I just wish I could meet someone naturally and it just happened naturally

07:05Yeah, but if you want something I mean sometimes you have to work really hard for it even if there are obstacles

07:10I know

07:12Since I turned 40 I have been taking major stock of my life

07:17And I never imagined that I would still be single with no children

07:21And I think I've come to accept that that traditional way of motherhood is not going to happen for me

07:28I was talking with my British friend Mabel in London

07:31She has a child who she describes as the love of her life

07:35She had him as a single mother and listening to her story really kind of gave me the kick in my ass that I think I needed

07:42I'm running out of time and if I want a child I have got to take this by the reins and do it myself

07:48Would you revisit adoption?

07:52I don't know that I have a choice

07:53I mean, I'm certainly just as crazy and just a single and just as fat

07:58Actually, I'm not quite as fat, but I'm still too fat

08:01Before this I looked into adoption which unfortunately I was told I was not a good candidate for

08:07I also froze my eggs which would leave me with two options one being surrogacy and the other being IVF

08:12Both are super expensive and big commitments and don't really feel like great options for me

08:19So I was researching, um, artificial insemination

08:25For real, like, have you thought about it?

08:28Mm-hmm

08:29Oh my God

08:31I'm shocked to hear Whitney talk about insemination

08:33But I think she has always clung to the idea of motherhood on and off throughout the years and

08:39Now that she's turned 40 if she's gonna do this, I think it's kind of now or never

08:44How does that work?

08:46I mean, I have to source the...

08:49The material?

08:50The materials

08:52I have to source the materials

08:54Would you source them naturally?

08:55I've thought about this like of all of my male friends who I could ask for their source material

08:59Mm-hmm

09:01And don't take offense

09:02Well, I've, I've, if you say Todd over me, I will

09:05But if it's anybody else

09:06No!

09:07Don't say buddy

09:08No! Never!

09:10Whenever, please

09:11No, but I honestly think I would rather it be someone I don't know

09:14It could be special with someone that you know

09:16Yeah

09:17But I also think, and you get in with the dynamics of like, oh, this is actually your child

09:21And is, are you Uncle Tal or are you Daddy?

09:23Exactly

09:24You know, like, I think it would just be better to like, be more detached

09:27And I do know that you can shop for it online

09:30I've had friends that have done that, a lesbian couple

09:32Oh, really?

09:33I remember like, looking at profiles with them

09:34Oh my God, it's like dating but for

09:37Terrible

09:40I'm so relieved that Tal's being supportive

09:43Of course I know that having had PCOS for 25 years

09:46That greatly impacts my fertility and my ability to get pregnant

09:49However, in the last five years, I have started getting a cycle

09:52And it's semi-regular

09:55So I feel like artificial insemination might work

09:59Oh!

10:00Daddy!

10:02Oh, you had a great time

10:06I just told Tal, I said I barely talked to Dad while I was gone

10:09Well, how did your dance class go?

10:10It was amazing, it was everything

10:13I'll tell you all about it

10:14Where are you going?

10:15Going to the gym

10:16Good for you

10:17I'm not going to be gone long

10:18An hour or so

10:19Good to see you, Glenn

10:20See you, Tal

10:21Come on, baby girl

10:23My father has lived with me full-time since my mom died

10:26And it's working out great for both of us

10:28Oh, by the way, I ordered us food on the way

10:30Oh, thank you

10:31I renovated the downstairs bedroom at his house

10:33Because I wanted him to feel like he could move there if he wanted to

10:37Wow

10:38But I just think he's happier living with me

10:40And with Todd living upstairs and all of the animals

10:42We really have some semblance of like a big, crazy, chaotic, happy family

10:47So fill me in

10:49Okay

10:50I just want to hear about your trip

10:51Yeah

10:52It was absolutely amazing, invigorating, affirming, the Britishmen

10:57Were they into you?

10:58Talk to me

10:59Did you like meet or connect with anybody?

11:01I mean, I had a little, I don't know, I guess it was like a little fling

11:07That's for us to share, that's kimbap

11:08Okay

11:09Here's yours

11:10Thank you so much

11:11You're so welcome

11:12I did have like a real life meet-cute when I was in London

11:16I was in a pub and this guy just approached

11:19And I thought, oh my god, this is the first time this has happened to me in so many years

11:23That some man in the wild just approached

11:26So we had a nice evening together and it was fun and it made me feel like, okay, all hope is not lost

11:32Maybe just have to move to London to find a man, no big deal

11:35I mean, it looked like you were thriving over there

11:38It was really fun

11:39And everybody was so great, like I went out to dinner with the students

11:42Had an amazing time

11:43And you like hardly ever socialize here

11:45Exactly

11:46And just to even like get up and go into Pineapple

11:48And just be around the energy and all the artists and the creativity

11:51I just felt like I was living

11:52That's what your life should be

11:53Yeah

11:54Are you thinking about moving there?

11:59I just, I don't know

12:00My time in London just made it really clear to me that I am in a rut here in Greensboro and I'm not happy

12:08I feel like I have two very distinct paths in front of me and they're very different

12:14I can stay put, try to start a family or pick up, start somewhere new, recalibrate all my expectations in life

12:23Either one of these paths require action and I need to make a decision

12:27Because I'm not getting any younger and something has to change

12:31Hi, big boy

12:33Mommy loves you, Hench

12:38Can you come see Uncle Tao?

12:40Hi

12:41Why is he wheezing?

12:42Hench, are you okay, honey?

12:44Honey?

12:49Why is he doing that?

12:51Why does he feel so skinny?

12:53See?

12:54You feel him?

12:55He feels skinny

12:56Yeah

12:57Oh no

12:58I need to take him to the vet I think

13:02Oh gosh

13:03He's not breathing right and he seems too skinny to me

13:05Like he's breathing heavy, it's labored and it's scary to me

13:11Y'all, can we stop? I need to take Enchie to the vet

13:14Yeah

13:17There's an emergency vet on Battleground

13:19Yep

13:20Just, he's not, he's being weird

13:22Okay

13:23I've had this cat for 17 years and I know when something is wrong with him

13:28Something's wrong

13:30It's okay

13:32Honey

13:33Hey

13:40I'm going to pursue artificial insemination

13:43You miss brother?

13:44Yeah

13:45You miss big boy?

13:46I know

13:47I know

13:48After I dropped Henchie off at the vet

13:50The doctor called me with his

13:51I know

13:52I know

13:53I know

13:55I know

13:56I know

13:57I know

13:58I know

14:00I know

14:04You miss brother?

14:05You miss brother?

14:06Yeah

14:07You miss big boy?

14:09I know

14:10After I dropped Henchie off at the vet, the doctor called me with his test results and said that he was in congestive heart failure

14:24failure. And I asked if there was a chance that he wasn't going to make it through the

14:31night. He was on oxygen, and she said yes. So my dad and Todd and I jumped up and ran

14:38over there. And I held him the whole time, and we, you know, stayed with him a long

14:48time to say goodbye to him. And he died in my arms. And I just told him how much I loved

15:01him. And I just told him, thank you for being with me for 17 years.

15:18Sweet girl. Oh, Whitney's here. Sweet girl. Hey. My God. I'm sorry. I'm Henchy. I can't

15:39even. I'm dead over it. Hi, Karen. Hi, Whitney. I didn't know you were here. Yeah, so sorry

15:47already heard about Henchy. I know. Thank you. I got your flowers. Thank you so much.

15:51I know how much that hurts. It's the worst. I feel like my brother is always on the phone

15:57with Karen. I bet they're like middle schoolers who fall asleep on the phone together. I personally

16:01think it's gross. And the weirdest thing about my brother's relationship with Karen is that

16:06it's actually a thruple. And the third person is my dad. Well, I have some interesting news.

16:13I guess Karen and I have some interesting news. Oh. Does that mean you guys are getting engaged?

16:22No. No. You're pregnant? Oh, my God. Oh, no. No, we are, we're, we're going to move in

16:30together. That is the least exciting option of those three. It's all I can handle. It's a good

16:35step in the right direction, though. If we can live together, we can handle each other

16:3824-7. I think it's a good thing. She's trying to domesticate me. Someone has to.

16:43He loves a vacuum now. I do like that vacuum. Well, you know, when we were in Spain, I was

16:50hoping for a proposal. Really? I didn't get that. You didn't? No. Right over my head. I did not

16:56propose to Karen in Spain because I think that I was feeling a little pressure from my father.

17:01And it would have been, like, a really nice moment. But, you know, we're going to live

17:05together first. You know, make sure we don't kill each other. I don't think we will. And

17:09we both are sure that we are going to get married one day. But we're not going to do it on anybody

17:16else's timetable but ours. Well, I was hoping that, you know, we'd have a short romance, a quick

17:25engagement, and grandchild on the way. So you're telling me that you're living in

17:31sin? Not officially yet. Yeah. Yeah, not yet. How long is that going to last? As long as the lease

17:37is? Well, one can hope. At least. Nobody can decide if you want to renew, you know? Karen, I will not

17:44let you renew a lease without a ring on your finger. Hold on. Ashley's calling. And I'm so glad you

17:52called. Oh, oh, well, I'm glad you're glad. I just saw your post. Oh, my God. Todd was crying. Dad

17:59was crying. Who would have ever thought we would get to the point where Todd's crying over a cat? I

18:03know. Hi, Ashley. Hey, who is it? That's Daddy. Oh, hey. Yeah, we're here with Whitney and

18:10Thank you, Dad. Hunter. And Hunter's girlfriend is also on FaceTime, so, and you're on speaker. And

18:16don't forget, we're here with Whitney. I haven't actually seen Ashley in probably over a year, which

18:26might sound crazy, but there's no bad blood between us. We text, we keep up with each other, we send

18:31voice memos, but Ashley has two small children, a full-time job and a part-time job with no BS

18:37active. She's busy. I'm busy. So I'm glad she called. Do you want to get together? I mean, I would love to

18:43get together. Let's just hang out and catch up in person instead of talking about no BS

18:47active. We got more things to talk about. Just text me. Okay. Bye, everyone. Bye. Love you,

18:52Whitney. Bye. Bye. So how was London? It was actually amazing. I felt alive. And I came to

19:02several realizations in life. One of them being there's more that exists outside of Greensboro.

19:08Yes, there is. Number two is I feel like I have this one thing.

19:13that I need to sort out and either do it or put it to bed forever.

19:18And what is that? Well, I'm going to

19:20pursue artificial insemination.

19:35Well, I was kind of hoping that you would do the

19:37traditional method. Well, that involves a man, though.

19:42I know. That's what I mean. Obviously, I'm not going to find a man. I'm coming up on my 41st

19:48birthday. There's no more time to wait here. You've got to have somebody to help you raise

19:52a child. I mean, it's better. No, you don't. Well, I mean, it's better.

19:55You had a kid, Daddy. If life puts you in a position where you couldn't raise that child,

20:00and look who we got, Angie. I'm living a love about Dad is the hypocrisy.

20:08Look, everybody's laughing.

20:10No, I'm not.

20:11I would like for Whitney to take the more traditional approach is to have a man get married

20:19and have a child, even though Whitney keeps throwing it up in my face that I didn't exactly

20:24do that myself. Are you sure you really want to have a baby all by yourself with nobody to help you?

20:31Well, you live with me.

20:32Well, I know, but I mean, Mitch.

20:35Two men and a baby.

20:36Yeah.

20:37No, I'm serious. This is something I need to do for myself. Until I intentionally try to get pregnant,

20:42I am not going to be able to move on in life.

20:43You should definitely do it. You should definitely try to have a kid. I don't see why not.

20:47And that way, 10 years from now, you say, I did try that. It didn't work out.

20:49See?

20:50At least I tried.

20:50Thank you, Karen.

20:52Because this is the thing. I don't want this to be like, oh, I never found a man.

20:56Well, you need something from the man, so...

20:58Well, yeah, you get it online.

20:59You get a catalog?

21:00You can get sperm, and then you inseminate.

21:04How are you going to go about that?

21:05Well, since I don't have a...

21:06Since you're going to go to, like, a clinic or something?

21:08Can we change the subject?

21:11I know that I have to do what I need to do for myself with the support of my family or without it.

21:19I want a baby. I'm going to take someone's sperm, and we're going to make it happen.

21:23Goodbye, Daddy.

21:23You're hypocritical, Daddy.

21:28This is artificial...

21:31What are you...

21:33I just thought we could do, like, the turkey baster method.

21:39I've never had a money shot like that!

21:53Hey.

22:03I miss you.

22:08You're so glad you're back.

22:09When I was in Linden, my trainer, mentor, and Jessica's dad, Will, died after a long battle with cancer.

22:23Oh, you want to go sit down?

22:25Yeah.

22:25Talk?

22:29I'm hurting so much for her.

22:31You know, Will was such an important figure in my life, and he was her father.

22:35So, there just aren't any words.

22:39Your dad was a special person.

22:42He gave me so much strength and confidence and power.

22:47And he also made me do some dumb , like, the sled again.

22:51We'd be working out, and he'd be like, all right, the sled, and I'd go, sled again!

22:53And he would go, sled again!

22:55And he could never count my reps.

22:56It was always 12.

22:57It was always 12.

22:58It was always 12.

22:59My relationship with Will has been very impactful for me.

23:05I've known him since 2011.

23:07We started working out together.

23:08I lost 100 pounds in eight months.

23:10I gained it all back, but, you know.

23:12Prior to meeting Will, I didn't think I was literally capable of doing anything.

23:16And he told me that I was an athlete.

23:19Ah!

23:20That's an APR.

23:21What'd you do?

23:22Daddy!

23:23Daddy!

23:24Daddy!

23:25Daddy!

23:26He made me run up them stairs downtown.

23:28That's what I was about to say.

23:29I think that would be traumatizing.

23:30Do you know that I couldn't do that now?

23:32He always pushed me outside of my comfort zone.

23:35Just think in there.

23:36Keep stepping.

23:37Keep stepping.

23:38I don't know how on earth I let that man talk me into the things that he did.

23:41Yeah.

23:42No, I feel the exact same way about it.

23:43You know?

23:44Remember when we were doing the song?

23:45Yeah.

23:46Jessica?

23:47You're trying to push it into it.

23:48I swear, I'm barely touching it.

23:49Go easy, easy.

23:50I'm barely touching it.

23:51Easy, easy.

23:52You guys got to drag just the tip of your teeth.

23:55Not everything in life gets powered through.

23:58Some things you have to finesse through.

24:00You got to try to gouge the log off.

24:01Oh my God.

24:02Dad.

24:03Seriously.

24:04Not everything in life can be powered through.

24:06Oh my God.

24:07Some things have to be finessed.

24:10One thing that I love the most about Will is the way he empowered me.

24:14And he didn't just see me for my size.

24:17He saw me for me.

24:21The first thing he said after the oncologist told him that there wasn't anything left that

24:26they could do.

24:27He asked what was going to happen to the gym and if I'd train his clients.

24:31So, obviously, you know, it was definitely important to me to get back in here.

24:36And maybe it just hasn't hit me yet.

24:39But every time I want to talk to him and I realize I can't, it really messes me up pretty

24:44bad.

24:45Yeah.

24:46Next, we're going to have Robert Gordon.

24:51My dad was just a really special person.

24:57Not just because he was my dad, he just never met anybody like him.

25:06He asked if I would train his clients for him and I told him it would be my biggest honor

25:11in life.

25:13It's going to be really hard to inspire people the way that he inspired people.

25:17But if he believed that I could do it, then I must be able to do it, right?

25:28I wish we had more time.

25:29I know.

25:30I love you so much.

25:31I'll see you again in a couple days, I'm sure.

25:32Oh, yeah, stop.

25:33I love you.

25:36I know that Jessica is going to be grieving for a long time.

25:39I'm still grieving my mother after two years.

25:42And I think the hole that Will is leaving is huge.

25:46See you soon.

25:47So I'm going to do everything I can to support her in every way possible.

26:03Hello.

26:04Hello.

26:05Hi.

26:06Hi.

26:07Goosey.

26:08That's Uncle Tim.

26:09Oh, look.

26:10She's got her champagne.

26:11She thinks you're going to take her out.

26:12Look at her.

26:13She's sweet girl.

26:14I brought some things that might cheer you up.

26:16Is it food?

26:17No, unfortunately not.

26:18Since we were talking about artificial insemination, I thought we could do a little, like, rehearsal

26:24test drive.

26:26Whitney seems very hesitant about the idea of just going for it and trying to get pregnant on her own.

26:31So I'm here to try and give her all the confidence and support she needs to motivate her.

26:37Are we simulating insemination?

26:39What are we doing?

26:40The turkey baster method, right?

26:41Yeah.

26:42I don't think you actually use a turkey baster.

26:44Tal didn't come up in here with all of these at-home insemination contraptions.

26:51I also brought some condensed milk.

26:53And then this is artificial off.

26:57What do you mean?

26:59I don't claim to be, like, a reproductive expert by any means.

27:06But I didn't know there were so many accouterments involved.

27:09Tal!

27:11Tal!

27:12That won't get you pregnant, but it is a lot of fun.

27:15It's going in my nipples.

27:17Tal!

27:18Ew.

27:25Wait, wait, but that was not.

27:27I've never had a money shot like that!

27:38Goosey, you shouldn't be here for this.

27:41I do appreciate what Tal is attempting to do.

27:46Normally, you'd be going into the process of baby-making with a partner of some kind.

27:51And hopefully, some excitement.

27:53Hold on, I'm just going to my bathroom.

27:55But I am going into this process alone with a lot of fear, anxiety, and I think that Tal is just trying to help me find the joy.

28:09We've taken our friendship to a whole new level.

28:11And I thought it couldn't get any weirder, closer, or more disgusting.

28:15And then it did.

28:16And then it did.

28:17Ashley's going to die.

28:18Wait, you're talking to Ashley?

28:20Oh, my God.

28:21Well, I mean, we haven't seen her in a year and a half, probably.

28:26I mean, we talk, like...

28:28Things were just, like, super awkward, because we had that huge blow-up, and we've had, like, nothing to do with each other since then.

28:36I didn't know that y'all were still in touch.

28:41Ashley and I had an interaction that really spiraled out of control.

28:45We were in public together, and she waved at me, and I didn't see her, so I didn't wave back.

28:52And she texted me to confront me about this, and it escalated into a very nasty disagreement to the point where we both said some pretty ugly things to each other and made some pretty personal attacks.

29:06I know it was stupid, but this was not the first time Ashley and I have had a big blow-up fight, so maybe there were tensions from the past that had built and built and just created this explosion.

29:19And now we don't speak, we don't communicate, we have blocked each other.

29:24We have had zero points of connection in almost two years.

29:28I don't know, it just makes me a little uncomfortable thinking about y'all, like, hanging out or talking to each other after what happened.

29:37I should probably go.

29:39Don't go!

29:41I'm feeling pretty pissed off. I'm feeling hurt.

29:44I guess Whitney has the right to carry on with Ashley however she wants to.

29:49I just thought she was on my team.

29:58I have known that Tal and Ashley, they're not just on the house, it's game over for their relationship.

30:05But I would never cut off my relationship with Ashley completely because of their conflict.

30:12And I hope that's not something that he would want.

30:15Tal and I are gonna have to talk about this.

30:21Tal and I had slight ficus the other day.

30:23Why?

30:24Basically I just mentioned that we were gonna hang out or something and he said he was uncomfortable.

30:27Uncomfortable.

30:28I was like, am I not supposed to be talking to Ashley?

30:30One of my boundaries needs to be not being in the same space as Tal.

30:54This is exciting. I love online shopping.

30:56I know you do.

30:58Sperm donors with pictures.

31:00I am beginning my journey into artificial insemination and this will be my first foray into the world of purchasing sperm online.

31:09I have been thinking about this so much.

31:12I'm ready to take the next steps.

31:15I don't have to take this person to dinner first.

31:17I just buy their sperm and then I just use it.

31:20All the sperm donors I know to do it because they need the money.

31:22How many sperm donors do you know?

31:24Six.

31:25All of my male friends that are in my orbit, they all have some characteristics that I would love for my child to have.

31:32Like your physical attractiveness, your athletic ability, your intelligence, your humor.

31:36That child would be the best dancer on the face of the earth and have the bluest eyes.

31:40I don't want to be involved in the creating of that.

31:42You wouldn't give me your sperm?

31:44The hell are we going to have to go through this again?

31:47We've moved on from that.

31:49All right.

31:50So, find a donor.

31:52Okay.

31:53Look at you.

31:54Where's the rest of you?

31:55It's all here.

31:56No, it's not.

31:57Not from last time I saw you.

31:58It's here.

31:59You got my coffee.

32:00It is.

32:01We used your members.

32:02No, but we did not get her strong.

32:03I don't know how to do that.

32:04Nothing's changed.

32:05Correct.

32:06I invited Ashley because I don't know, honestly, why I invited Todd.

32:11Like, why is Todd here?

32:13Now, that's the question I don't have an answer to.

32:16If anyone's going to help me, let me know.

32:19I definitely need a female to do it.

32:21And since Ashley and I haven't caught up in so long,

32:23I figured this was as good an opportunity as any.

32:27Where's Harpy?

32:28Can we FaceTime her?

32:29She's at school.

32:30Oh.

32:31Oh, right.

32:32It is the middle of the day.

32:33Let's see pictures of the babes.

32:35There they are.

32:36Look at Auggie.

32:37So tall.

32:38But Auggie's 97th percentile for height,

32:40and Harper is, like, 22nd.

32:42So, like, they're about to do it.

32:44How is it?

32:45How is it?

32:46It's about 22nd.

32:47So, like, they're about to cut it up.

32:49How funny.

32:50Ashley's definitely one of those friends for me.

32:51Like, it doesn't matter how much time has passed

32:53since we last saw each other.

32:55Once we're together, it's like everything is the same.

32:58Nothing's changed.

32:59I might as well have seen her yesterday.

33:01I wish I'd gotten to see Henshi one more time.

33:03I know.

33:04And always sweet.

33:05Are you going to get another kitten?

33:06Probably.

33:07Yeah.

33:08I feel like.

33:09Oh, I want to help you pick out a kitten.

33:10Yeah.

33:11Well, what I really need you to help me pick out first

33:12is some sperm.

33:13Like, human sperm or cat sperm?

33:16Human.

33:17I had been pretty much convinced that I ought to try artificial insemination.

33:22Artificial insemination?

33:23Yes.

33:24Okay, wow.

33:26Like, this is a little bit crazy.

33:28But knowing Whitney, I'm also, like, not totally surprised.

33:32Like, are you about to, like, buy it online?

33:35Yeah.

33:36Okay.

33:37I'm just looking.

33:38Like, it's not like I'm going to be pregnant tomorrow.

33:39They don't have overnight shipping?

33:40No.

33:41Okay, let's see if we can just search.

33:44Find donor.

33:45If she wants to have a baby and pick out sperm on a website and have it delivered to her

33:51house and inseminate herself, I support that.

33:55Let's pick out sperm.

33:57Okay, filter by personal preferences.

33:59Okay, hair color.

34:00Anything but brown.

34:01I feel like not red.

34:02Actually, I dated a redhead.

34:05I remember.

34:06Look, I'm not going to be picky.

34:08Red's fine.

34:09My criteria for a donor, I feel like, is pretty straightforward and simple.

34:15Okay, race.

34:16Um, I'll just select all.

34:19I absolutely do not care what color this child is, what color the eyes are, the hair

34:24is.

34:25Obviously, I want the person to be healthy with no genetic diseases.

34:30Okay, now this is important.

34:32Height.

34:33We're going 5'7 and up.

34:34The only thing is that I'm only 5'2 and I just don't want to bring a child into this

34:40world that is like as short as me because it's hard being this short.

34:43Okay, let's look at donor number one.

34:45Picking a sperm donor is absolutely the most overwhelming thing that I have ever experienced.

34:52It is like a dating app on steroids.

34:55Derek has spent a total of three years on education.

34:58Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

35:01Allergies.

35:02Pollen and cats.

35:04Oh, no.

35:05He's out.

35:06He's out.

35:07I'm picking literally the father of my child, right?

35:11And not just a guy for a one-night stand.

35:13And so, more than the physical, I really want to know, do they have a high IQ?

35:17You know, is this the brain of somebody that I would pick in the wild?

35:20How many books does he read?

35:22He doesn't read?

35:23Oh, my God.

35:24I have never been more discouraged in my life.

35:30I think I have a cursed womb.

35:32Whitney Thor and the Cursed Womb.

35:34I have to reevaluate.

35:35I thought this was going to be super easy.

35:37Like, click, add to cart.

35:38I mean, you have guy friends.

35:40Would one of them not, like, maybe be down for that kind of situation?

35:44Let's go through them.

35:46Buddy, no.

35:47Todd, no.

35:49Tal, no.

35:50How is Tal?

35:51Oh, God bless him.

35:52Tal and I had slight ficus the other day.

35:54Why?

35:55Basically, I just mentioned that I had spoken to you or that we were going to hang out or something,

35:58and he just had, like, a big reaction, and I think he said he was uncomfortable.

36:02Uncomfortable?

36:03It's never been an issue, so I was like, am I not supposed to be talking to Ashley?

36:06And then he left my house, like, in a way.

36:09About that?

36:10Mm-hmm.

36:11I haven't talked to him since.

36:12I have no desire to, like, rekindle a friendship, but I hate that he feels that way or that it

36:18affects you.

36:19Like, I don't want bad things for him.

36:21I didn't know that he would react that way.

36:24I don't think it's a secret that Tal and I had a falling out.

36:29I mean, he really blew up on me.

36:32His reaction caused irreparable damage to our friendship.

36:37I think maybe one day Tal and I will get to the point where we can, like, be in the same room.

36:44But I just think for now, one of my boundaries needs to be not being in the same space as Tal.

36:53I think it's hard because it's like, in some capacity, we all have been connected for 25 years.

36:57Yeah.

36:58But we also have not always been really close, like, everybody in this friend group.

37:02If Tal and I didn't have mutual friends, we both would have just gone our separate ways and never thought about it again.

37:07But it's, like, just a little more sticky because we have mutual friends.

37:12But, like, that's really it.

37:13I'll talk to him.

37:14I'm sure we'll work it out.

37:16The friendship group has, honestly, it's not.

37:21It's not a group anymore.

37:23We've been friends for over 20 years.

37:25Things are going to change.

37:27Relationships are going to evolve.

37:29Some of them are going to end.

37:30Tal and Ashley had this falling out.

37:33Buddy's married and lives out of town.

37:35Like, just the way things were, I don't think it's ever going to be again.

37:40I do feel like, though, this thing that, like, tethered me to Greensboro, to home,

37:47it's just not really there anymore.

37:52Ashley really hurt me, and you knew that.

37:54It just feels like you're not on my team.

37:56No, there's no teams, Tal.

37:58I know that you .

38:00I've never been caught in an argument between Tal and someone else, and it is messy.

38:04Maybe I'm not the friend that you need right now.

38:07You ready?

38:21So, because if we're going to teach this, then we need to have it down.

38:25Teaching at Pineapple Dance Studios in London had me feeling so inspired and excited with dance again.

38:30So I feel like I really need to be on my choreography game.

38:34And roll slow and cinch it.

38:36And roll slow and cinch it.

38:38It just reminds me that there is an entire world of opportunity out there outside of Greensboro.

38:44All right, come towards me on the floor like.

38:47On the floor?

38:48Yeah.

38:49Like cinch it's like.

38:50No, not cinch it's like.

38:51Wait, do an interpretive sperm dance.

38:53You're the sperm.

38:54I'm the egg.

38:55Well, there'll be a lot of.

38:59Hold on, Lord Jesus.

39:00It's Tal.

39:01Hello?

39:02Hey.

39:03Hey.

39:04Hey.

39:08I've been trying to call you, text you.

39:10I know.

39:11I haven't really wanted to talk.

39:13Well, I figured that.

39:15I have been trying to get a hold of Tal since he stormed out the other night, but he has not answered my calls.

39:20He hasn't texted me back.

39:22And I know he's pissed, but I truly do not understand why that is directed towards me.

39:29I'm just still really upset because Ashley really hurt me and you knew that.

39:34I feel like you're taking sides here and that it's not mine.

39:38I'm not taking any sides.

39:40I didn't understand that there was an expectation that I would never communicate or see Ashley again.

39:46Just because I'm still in communication with Ashley, which I have been this entire time, does not mean that I'm not a friend to him.

39:53And the implication otherwise is frankly pretty insulting to me.

39:58You know how she came at me out of nowhere.

40:03You know, from what she said and from what you said is that it was a dumb misunderstanding.

40:08And I know you felt attacked basically for her even questioning whether or not you purposely ignored her.

40:16I understand that.

40:17But at the same time, like you you told me yourself that like it spiraled out of control and you said a bunch of that you wouldn't probably not say again if you had, you know, the chance to do it over.

40:26And I'm not saying who's right and wrong, whatever.

40:28But maybe this is you've got a lot of anger that's been built up for a long time over things between you and Ashley.

40:35And I just want to make sure you're not misplacing it on me.

40:39And I did see Ashley and she really did say that she wished you well.

40:43Well, I don't want to talk about her.

40:45I'm not misplacing anything.

40:48It just feels like you're not on my team.

40:50There's no teams, Tal.

40:52I know that you.

40:53That's bull .

40:54Maybe I'm not the friend that you need right now.

40:56Well, no, Tal, that is so drastic.

40:58I don't think it's that I'm not the friend that you.

41:05I cannot believe he just hung up on me.

41:10I have never been caught in an argument between Tal and someone else, and I don't like it.

41:15It is messy.

41:17Something is seriously wrong here.

41:20What?

41:32This season on My Big Fat Fabulous Life.

41:35What is that?

41:36A cooler?

41:37It's...

41:38Look at how big it is.

41:39I've never tried to get pregnant ever in my life.

41:42I'm 40 years old and now I'm trying.

41:44What is that?

41:45Got it ready for the new coming baby.

41:48Three, two, one.

41:52When I found out that you were still in communication with Ashley, I felt really betrayed.

41:57What if I was there and I mediated it so nothing went sideways?

42:00I don't want to have a conversation.

42:03I know you're just jealous because you're crazy.

42:06It's off for the rest of my life.

42:07I don't care.

42:08Honestly, the friend group is in shambles.

42:10Did I tell you about my Belle?

42:12My friend from England?

42:13Welcome to downtown Greensboro.

42:15This is a city, right?

42:16This is a city.

42:17It's more like a big town.

42:18I've always said that Greensboro is like a nice place to raise a family.

42:21However, as a single 40-year-old woman, it's not really the vibe for me.

42:26You need to get out with it, like now.

42:27I know.

42:28I know.

42:29You can really find yourself here.

42:30I love all of this.

42:31I made new friends, Sabrina and Corinne.

42:34They live in Salem.

42:35They're like two kindreds.

42:36You're just going to uproot and go with your fun new friends.

42:40I'm asking you, are you leaving?

42:42I have no idea.

42:43I just don't want you to make a decision you regret.

42:46Whitney moving away from Glenn?

42:48I don't see that happening.

42:50She wants to take care of Glenn.

42:52Have you talked to daddy?

42:53I've been calling him all day.

42:54He hasn't answered me.

42:55I'll just go into the security camera.

42:57Oh, my God.

42:58Call 911.

42:59Call 911.

43:00Daddy?

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