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( NEW LOVE ) Beyond the Limits of Love Season 1 Episode 5
Beyond the Limits of Love Season 1 Episode 5
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00:00We make each other happy in the moment,
00:02but it's really hard to see clarity
00:05when it comes to a future with you.
00:07I want to be married now, and at the end of this experiment,
00:10there has to be a decision.
00:11She wants some money for the rig, money for the house,
00:14money for the kids, before even taking the next step.
00:17I'm just like, I just want to be with you.
00:21You've been so committed to me for so long.
00:24Give someone else a shot and see if maybe the connection you
00:27have with me is something you can see yourself
00:30having with someone else.
00:33So you think there's a chance that we could be engaged?
00:36Sure.
00:37It completely, like, changes my life.
00:38Oh, so I didn't just change your timeline.
00:40You revolutionized my whole world.
00:43Things are so great and so awesome and so seamless,
00:46and I wish we could take us and see how we deal with, like, sex.
00:54I think whether we wanted it or not,
00:55we're all learning things about ourselves and our partners
00:58and our relationships and what we want.
01:00And don't want.
01:01And don't want.
01:01Don't want.
01:02I feel like you say shit on camera to make me look bad, mate.
01:06What have I said on camera that makes you look bad because...
01:08I don't really want to talk about it right now.
01:10You just accused me, so you can't accuse somebody and run away.
01:13I cannot be the person that you want me to be,
01:16and I cannot feel bad about that.
01:19I'm asking you to act like you care.
01:22What the fuck am I going to do?
01:25My ex, she was the closest to marriage, I feel like I could get.
01:29But I just feel like, okay, I'm bored.
01:32Vanessa's a fake person.
01:34I wish Ray would know that this girl is not here for the right stuff.
01:38I think you're beautiful, and I know what you're thinking.
01:41The person who I thought loved me came here and then slept with that person.
01:48My problem is with the person my significant other let inside of her.
01:53I have to understand why she trusted you enough to let you fuck her.
01:57So we all go sit down at the same table, and Vanessa did not ask me not a damn question.
02:14She got grilled at our place.
02:17Oh, like in your setting?
02:18In my setting as well.
02:19And you got the brunt of that, I'm assuming?
02:21Duh.
02:22Sorry.
02:23It was hard.
02:24Ours was super shady.
02:26Yeah.
02:27Ours was more upfront.
02:28Like, she just turns to Vanessa and is like, where are you with Ray?
02:32Like, are you into her?
02:33Are you not?
02:34And then she laughs and smiles and looks around and tries to be very, like, huh.
02:39But then there's some information shared.
02:42And then everyone's like, so does that mean that you're into her?
02:45Does that mean you're not?
02:46Like, now you're conflicting yourself.
02:47And then she just...
02:48What information shared?
02:49That is for you and her at another time.
02:54Huh?
02:55That's for you and Vanessa at another... during your time.
03:00Okay.
03:01You want me to tell you?
03:04I mean, I get it.
03:06If you want me to, I can.
03:07I don't need you to.
03:08Okay.
03:09Because I'm like, I will, but I don't want to.
03:14Did you find out tonight?
03:17Okay.
03:18So you do want to know.
03:19Oh, God.
03:20Vanessa and Ray had sex.
03:24Vanessa was saying that it was not, that there's no sexual attraction between Vanessa and Ray.
03:38And then Lexi being like, then how did you end up having sex?
03:44Is it platonic?
03:45Is it romantic?
03:46Is it sexual?
03:47Or is it none of the above?
03:49And she's saying it's none of the above.
03:50So I'm like, so you just, like, fuck this girl or have sex with this girl for fun?
03:54For what?
03:55Or are you just here to fuck anybody around out of who knows why?
03:59Who knows why?
04:00No one knows her intention.
04:01She didn't have anything to say about that.
04:04I don't know.
04:05At some point, Tiff.
04:06She's like, but I would never just, like, fuck someone just for the sake of it.
04:11For no reason at all.
04:12It's like, I'm not in my 20s where you go to a bar and you just, like, grab somebody just for fun.
04:16Like, we're here trying to figure out what we're doing with the people we came here with, what we want in our life.
04:21Like, it's just so much deeper than that and that's not the point of this.
04:24Absolutely.
04:25Obviously, I still care about her and love her.
04:28I don't want to be this, like, naive, like, stupid girl that, like, just, like, feels good feelings about Vanessa.
04:34And, like, I was trying to be like, Mildred, Mal, Sam, whoever is at this fucking table, let's not talk about Vanessa.
04:42I don't want to talk about Vanessa anymore.
04:43Like, this is not why I'm here.
04:45I was like, you know what?
04:46I'm gonna fucking get up.
04:47Like, I'm so tired of all this bullshit.
04:48Like, I'm not Vanessa and, like, Vanessa's not here to talk for herself.
04:52Why are we even talking about her?
04:54Are you fucking kidding me?
04:55Like, go tell, go fucking throw a beer in her face.
04:58Was you and I's relationship brought up at all?
05:01I think that I dodged.
05:03It was frustrating for me as hell.
05:06Mm-hmm.
05:07Very frustrating.
05:09What a night.
05:12I'm sorry it's rough.
05:14Sorry, too.
05:15I'm just sad.
05:17I'm sad, too.
05:20I miss when we were just happy.
05:22We are.
05:23We are.
05:24It was just a rough night.
05:25You feel that way?
05:26Yes.
05:27I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
05:34Are you excited to come home?
05:36Yeah.
05:37Yeah.
05:42Do you wanna go to bed with me?
05:46I would love to.
05:49I'm just so happy.
05:51I've got it bad, bad, but it feels so good.
06:10Betcha my night was worse than yours.
06:12You look comfy already.
06:14I am.
06:15Okay, comfy.
06:16Now I'm good.
06:17Rough night.
06:22Rough night.
06:23I knew Lexi was gonna be there, but I didn't realize, like, she was gonna get her people on her side.
06:30Okay, this is, like, what she said, okay?
06:32Okay.
06:33And it shocked me.
06:34She said you were bragging about how I was inside of you to her.
06:39Okay.
06:40Can you believe that?
06:41I can't imagine myself bragging to that.
06:43You put your fingers inside of Ray.
06:45Oh.
06:46She kept saying that we fucked.
06:48The way she said it was, like, vulgar, and I was like, that is not Ray.
06:51Oh, my God.
06:52I'm, like, literally so uncomfortable right now.
06:54Yeah.
06:55They were, like, making me defend it, like, but why did you do it?
06:58And I'm like, I don't know.
06:59And they weren't, like, taking that as an answer.
07:01And what more of an answer can I give?
07:03It didn't mean anything.
07:04We don't have this romantic us or, like, whatever connection.
07:08And then they apparently somehow thought that was worse.
07:10We did what we did.
07:11Like, I'm not, I wasn't pressured.
07:13I'm accountable for it.
07:15Yeah.
07:16We both are.
07:17It was consensual.
07:19I was attacked from all ends.
07:23And I don't fucking know.
07:25It was awful, Ray.
07:43I hate that it feels like it's all on me.
07:45What do you mean?
07:46If I had never figured Vanessa out, if she ever would have slept with Ray.
07:51What?
07:52Do you think that she's out to get you?
07:54Yeah.
07:56I really don't like her.
08:00That's what's dangerous about her.
08:02There was obvious shift in energy.
08:04You talked about it, and it, like, puts you in a weird space.
08:06And you have to know that.
08:07Like, I didn't want to talk about Vanessa so much.
08:10And it's just not fair.
08:14You literally have to let it go.
08:17Yeah.
08:26Is there enough room here for you?
08:28It's gonna be okay.
08:35I'm really tired of her being a part of my life.
08:48By her you mean?
08:49Vanessa.
08:50Hey, Zoe!
08:59Zoe!
09:00Zoe!
09:02Zoe!
09:04Hi.
09:05Hi.
09:06Hi.
09:07Hey.
09:08How you doing?
09:09I'm good.
09:10How are you?
09:11I am good now.
09:12How was it?
09:13Oh, man.
09:15Um, Lexi was getting into it with Vanessa.
09:18It was really difficult.
09:19Like, nobody held back.
09:21Good.
09:22That's really good.
09:23Nobody held back.
09:24So...
09:25That's a really good thing to do.
09:26Like, never hold back on what you have to say.
09:27I got to talk to Sam, and very desperately frustrated.
09:31I asked her, I really need your advice.
09:34I have been trying to talk to Ossie, and I just haven't been able to get past Ossie.
09:41The way I reacted to you accusing me earlier, maybe I shouldn't have never acted the way
09:48I did.
09:49Maybe I should have been more calm and more patient.
09:51But I think that, right now, we owe each other to actually have a conversation.
09:56I hope you know how much I care about you.
10:02Despite what has happened.
10:06Like, I'm real, man.
10:08But what has happened, because we haven't talked about it.
10:11I could tell you I care about you a lot, too.
10:13But if you care about me, then we should have a conversation.
10:17I'm asking for you to, like, open up and communicate with me.
10:22And I think that...
10:23We are.
10:24We are.
10:25And now we're all...
10:26All serious, and okay, but...
10:28We don't have to be serious.
10:29That requires communication.
10:30That requires owning up to our responsibilities.
10:37We actually both signed up for this, so...
10:39We did sign up for it.
10:40I'm not saying that I didn't.
10:42I'm just saying I'm surprised.
10:44You're surprised.
10:45Okay, that's a good feeling to have.
10:46You're surprised.
10:47I was just trying to stay on a high.
10:49Like, I just walked in this door.
10:51But what makes you think that our conversation can be a high?
10:54Why do you think that our conversation is negative?
10:57Your tone.
10:58Is that how you associate confrontation?
11:00Your tone of voice.
11:02My tone of voice can be so many different levels.
11:05I can have emotions.
11:07You can.
11:08Just because the way you associate your life
11:11with being calm all the time and quiet,
11:13that doesn't mean that I am like that, Elsie.
11:15We're different.
11:17We're very different.
11:18Exactly.
11:19And it's okay if I raise my voice.
11:20Absolutely.
11:21It doesn't mean I'm an angry woman.
11:22It just means I want to be heard.
11:24It's also okay for me not to be ready to have this confrontation.
11:28Like, after I just came back from, like, a night out with my buds,
11:32like you say, and, like, now we're doing this,
11:35and I'm not ready to do this.
11:36I'm not ready to, like, I'm...
11:39I want to go back out, actually.
11:41Can I just go back out?
11:43Like...
11:44I mean, I don't know if you're asking me or you're telling me,
11:46but I'm not in charge of you.
11:48I am. I know you're not.
11:49And I think...
11:50I mean, you're just showing that you, like, run away from these, like...
11:52Okay.
11:53If that's what you call it.
11:54You just run away from everything all the time.
11:56Sure, sure.
11:57It's madness.
11:58That's what you want to believe.
11:59That's fine.
12:00Okay.
12:01That's what you're actually actively doing right now, your baby.
12:03Sure, sure.
12:04Is this what you do to Sam?
12:05Yeah.
12:06Wow, is it?
12:07When she wants to talk and she's hurt?
12:08Yeah.
12:09I don't know.
12:10Is this what you do to her?
12:11You wanna ask her?
12:12Is this what you do to Sam?
12:13You talked to her tonight?
12:14I did talk to her tonight.
12:15Yeah.
12:16I'm not willing to talk to you when you're in this mode.
12:18Well, this is the only mode I have, so...
12:20It's madness.
12:21It's madness.
12:22I'm not going in the hallway and chasing her.
12:25I'm just letting y'all know right now.
12:26It's madness.
12:27How do you come to me?
12:32It's been two weeks since my trial of marriage started, and I have been myself.
12:37And maybe because I've been too raw with this experience, I haven't been noticing her.
12:41I haven't been noticing that she's not who she is.
12:45Because I've been thinking this whole time that she's being also authentic like me.
12:49I emotionally invested so much energy in her.
12:53And I don't want this in a marriage.
12:55It's madness.
12:59It's madness.
13:12I'm afraid there's no way out of this.
13:17It's a black bar.
13:19What's that?
13:20Last night was the last straw.
13:30last draw. I got to take care of myself. I have to prioritize my mental health.
13:36We've had those you know awesome amazing like time stand still moments but I
13:43don't want to be married to someone who couldn't communicate with me effectively.
13:48Couldn't give me what I needed in order for us to talk.
13:53So I'm just trying to grab everything and get the fuck out of here.
13:58I am not running away. I am taking care of me first for the first time in a long time.
14:17I came here to find out if I'm ready for marriage and I thought I had resolved it
14:22but now I feel like I don't want resentment.
14:29I don't want drama. Far from that. Marriage isn't the thing that I made it out to be.
14:35I'm not ready for it. Maybe I'm not ready for it ever.
14:42I am not ready for it ever. I am not ready for it ever.
14:49It's a free life.
14:51What?
14:52Hi Zoe. Zoe.
14:58Hey Mildred. I wish this experience went better than it did for the both of us. I was really wanting this to work. It's a shame it had to end this way.
15:01Thank you for all the laughs and discoveries we had. Wish you all the best. Aussie.
15:18Aww.
15:26Aussie's things are gone.
15:29And, like, I mean, it doesn't make a difference for me. Like, I have no type of emotion when it comes to it.
15:38This was Aussie's and she just, like, left it there. Like, she could have placed it back there so that it's not in my way.
15:45Aussie leaving has nothing to do with me. Like, I mean, that's what you want to do, then that's fine, you know?
15:52Um, yeah, I just don't. I just, you know what I do? I just really, really, really fucking wish that she would fucking take out the trash.
16:00Like, I really do wish that. Because in this fucking trash, there's fucking tampons in here.
16:06Um, I don't know, is there a way I can call Sam so she can come take Aussie's trash?
16:12Because she likes to pick up after her, I bet.
16:15You need to be free, okay?
16:27I just wish you would have talked to me or listened to me when I was going through something, you know? Like, regular partners do.
16:40I'm having all these, like, feelings from, like, being abandoned in my life, you know?
17:01My mother abandoned me when I was five years old, and then my father left, and then, you know, it just...
17:08I lost my godmother at 12 years old, and it just kept going and going and going, and then I got married, and then they left.
17:14It just feels like that again.
17:16I don't want to be here alone because I don't want to start telling myself that I did something wrong, or that it's my fault, because it's not my fault.
17:24And I don't want it to feel like it's my fault, and it is feeling like that, and I don't understand why.
17:29I don't want to be here alone.
17:31I've known Blair since I was five years old. She's, like, my best friend. Are you nervous? A little? A little bit?
17:49A little. It's cute. Yeah. Hey! Oh, my God! Hello! Hi! I'm so excited. Come on!
18:09Hi! How are you doing this year? I'm cute. I love that. Thanks!
18:16Welcome in. How have you all been doing? Good. Like, crazy round? Yeah, definitely.
18:23Tell me everything. You know, I mean, I've been wanting to, like, start getting ready to have a family, like, be married and everything, and Vanessa's, like, not on that same boat.
18:33Something that intrigued me about Xander is just, like, how on the same page we were, like, wanting kids and starting in the family.
18:41Even down to, like, if we had children, what would we feed them? I'm, like, vegetarian for sure. Yeah.
18:45So many things aligned, but I was like, okay, there actually could be something here. Yeah.
18:51Is that weird to see? Just what you just saw? Honestly? No.
18:55Yeah. Just because I know it's been, like, a struggle for you. Definitely.
18:59It all seems to be comfortable and, like, clicking for you guys.
19:02It's scary, but it's real. Would you say that you're happier right now than you have been in your relationships?
19:07Mmm. Loaded. Loaded.
19:10I will say yes. This is, like, what I've been, like, looking for, that I didn't know how much that I needed.
19:15Yul and I are getting along so well, so, like, did I come here with the right person at all? Like, that's what I have to figure out.
19:23I will say.
19:24If you didn't come here with the right person, I mean, I think you found.
19:29Like, they should have catched.
19:31I can tell you're genuine. And that's something that I think I have struggled with Vanessa for the longest time.
19:38Right.
19:39It's just been hard. Not saying I fully dislike her, but, like, when Vanessa gets in situations where she is not in a comfort zone, she acts up.
19:49She puts on a show, kind of me, me, me. I don't know. It's just nice. It's refreshing. To me, it just seems natural.
20:01Cute. Awesome. So beautiful.
20:04It's a heart strawberry. I'm so jealous.
20:06Oh!
20:08We didn't know this would be, like, the best days of our lives every day.
20:12Right.
20:13No.
20:14I think we're both pretty taken aback and shocked by, like, the genuine connection and feelings, and I'm like, oh, shit. This is real.
20:21Yeah.
20:22Freaks me out.
20:23Stressful, right?
20:25It's crazy.
20:26I need to go to the bathroom. I'm gonna eat all your sushi.
20:30Eat it. Let's go, you foreign girl.
20:33I honestly wasn't expecting this to happen.
20:38Me either.
20:39When you told me you were coming here.
20:40Yeah.
20:41I love her, though.
20:42I mean, you always, like, change my life.
20:44I just feel like Spearman has changed my life.
20:46Oh, my God.
20:47And, like, it's just, like, it's wild.
20:49Oh, my God. I love that. So do you think you're falling in love?
20:55Are you really asking me that? Duh.
20:58Yeah.
20:59I feel like, yes, I still love Vanessa.
21:01Yeah.
21:02And, yes, she still loves Mal.
21:04But we also are, like, starting to fall for each other.
21:07I don't think you've started to fall. I think you have fallen.
21:11Have y'all said that yet?
21:13Okay.
21:14Why?
21:15I feel like when she says it and when I say it, like, it's gonna, like, really mean something, and it's probably gonna, like, change our lives for the rest of, like, forever.
21:23You're scared to dive in.
21:24Like, that'll be you fully letting go.
21:26Definitely.
21:28Wow.
21:29So scary.
21:38Um, my favorite Disney princess was Belle.
21:40She's aight.
21:44But I think it's also because, like...
21:46She's, like, a six.
21:47Like, the reading and kind and compassionate, I think...
21:51Oh, okay.
21:53Like, she was very gentle towards the beast.
21:56He was like,
21:58And she was like...
21:59Calm down.
22:00Hey, that's, like, my life.
22:01It is your life.
22:02Actually, you know what? I was just thinking that...
22:06Tiff and I, we really had the rockiest of stars.
22:10It was just completely in the dark as to how our relationship was going to develop.
22:16But now, there's been a nice change of energy, and Tiff and I are having so much fun.
22:23We're really on the same team here, and I think that that's what we're both looking for.
22:28I have a serious question.
22:29Mm-hmm.
22:31What's the sexiest and least sexiest name?
22:35Don't say Aussie.
22:37The sexiest name?
22:38I would say, off the top of my head, like, Tiffany.
22:41Is this actually a compatibility test?
22:43Maybe.
22:45Bertha?
22:47Oh, yeah.
22:48Or Barthomiel?
22:49Gertrude.
22:51I like the name Gertrude.
22:53But, like, in a sexy way?
22:57This isn't about liking names, but...
22:58So, Sam, when you get turned on, do you just, like, imagine, like, a Gertrude, like, right there?
23:02No!
23:03That was my, like, least sexy name.
23:05Like a Gertrude, like, caressing your hair?
23:07No, that was...
23:08My name's Gertrude.
23:09That was...
23:11What just happened right now?
23:13Oh, my gosh, I need to put this air on.
23:16I just got hot now.
23:17Like, I'm sweating.
23:18I'm nervous.
23:21Oh, my gosh, was that our first time having intimacy?
23:25No, it wasn't, actually.
23:26It was Gertrude that was doing it.
23:31Oh, my gosh.
23:33I cannot.
23:40Tell us what's going on.
23:41We have no clue.
23:45I'm looking for my hell yes.
23:46I want somebody that's gonna give me,
23:48hell yeah, you're the person for me.
23:50You're the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.
23:52I don't need to ask any more questions.
23:54There's no ifs, ands, or buts.
23:55And if there are, we'll figure them out when they come.
23:57Were you ready to get married to Ray?
23:59I was ready to get married.
24:00I saw that life for us.
24:01She was coming into this the person I wanted to spend my life with.
24:04But Ray wasn't ready.
24:05I had gotten my, I'm ready to move in, but, or like, you check all my boxes.
24:10I still want to get married.
24:14And I think one of the beautiful things about Mal is Mal has shown me that everyone's hell yes looks a little differently.
24:21I was the one who received the ultimatum.
24:23I did want to be married.
24:24I really thought that you need to have, like, all your ducks in a row.
24:27What does you buying a house look like with this person and having children?
24:31What does that look like?
24:32Logistically, I just wanted everything to, like, align before just proposing.
24:37It was never a no for me.
24:39It was just a timing thing.
24:40Also, I know my partner at the time to show up in relationships really strong.
24:45She's like, when she's in love, she's in love.
24:47I was also like, what makes me so different than, like, where you've been?
24:49Why am I the one now?
24:50So it seems like every relationship she was in, she's like, okay, let's go to the next step.
24:55From my perspective, yes.
24:57But I am ready for marriage.
24:58I would do marriage.
24:59There obviously are big differences I think we're both realizing between our exes and the people we're living with now.
25:05Well, they're probably a lot different.
25:07Very.
25:08You both know each other's exes because you dated them.
25:10I dated Ray too.
25:11Yeah.
25:12So how was that?
25:13She's cool.
25:14She's a nice girl.
25:15She's very nice.
25:16How's she doing?
25:17Oh, you don't know?
25:19Ray's doing all right.
25:24Um, she's having herself a bit of a time.
25:28Ray did have, like, an intimate moment with someone else here.
25:33The girl that Ray's living with.
25:36She's living out her dreams of being an actress.
25:38So you're not sure she's here for the right reason?
25:40I'm about as close to sure as I could be.
25:42Then don't you feel bad for Ray putting that predicament?
25:44I feel horrible.
25:45I feel horrible for her.
25:46I think there's still some blame there.
25:48You know, I can't blame Vanessa for what happened.
25:49Yeah, but if she's like that actress, some actresses are really good.
25:52What happened between her and Vanessa is a me and Ray problem.
25:55It's not a me and Vanessa problem at this point.
25:57You think Ray feels bad about what happened?
25:59I'm just not sure.
26:01I mean, you were broken up.
26:05And what about your, um, ex?
26:07She's with, she's with a nice person.
26:10Okay.
26:11She just happens to also be with the person that Ray's living with's ex-girlfriend.
26:15Yeah.
26:16Oh, yeah.
26:17Oh, my gosh.
26:18All three of you are intertwined.
26:19Yeah.
26:20Welcome to the queer female experience.
26:21Well, that means that y'all are attracted to the same type of people.
26:24That's true.
26:25I'm happy you're meeting Mal because, like, in any regard, she's going to be a part of
26:30my life forever.
26:31Like, I feel so sure of that.
26:35I agree.
26:36She's not going anywhere.
26:37I have to tell you from my heart, I don't think you know enough yet to know what it's
26:44really like to be in a so-called marriage or to be dating.
26:47Seriously.
26:48I mean, yeah, we're scared because I think you guys may be rushing into it if you think
26:52that you're going to be able to get married after this.
26:54That's a lot.
26:55I mean, marriage is not easy.
26:57I'm sure you're figuring it out.
26:58We've been having the best time.
26:59And I don't think if we were together for six more months, I don't think it would change.
27:03I think it's great that you guys are getting along, but I don't think you guys are ready
27:06for any next steps.
27:07That's just my belief.
27:08Do you feel that?
27:09I mean, are you ready to make such a commitment to each other like that?
27:14I don't see why every single piece has to be in order before you get married.
27:19It's just weird seeing that you were ready, you weren't ready.
27:22So now you've got to figure out, are you ready?
27:25I would trust her that if we were to take that next step, we can figure out the day-to-day
27:31stuff.
27:32I think what's important is I know where she stands on family.
27:34I know where she stands on children.
27:36I know where she stands on financial goals.
27:38Culture.
27:39We know where we stand on culture.
27:40Yeah, absolutely.
27:41Those things we're very in sync about.
27:43I think what's really awesome about us is like, to me, it's really important that
27:47I learn how to show up best for you.
27:49That makes me cry.
27:50That's very, very kind.
27:51And she does the same thing.
27:53Black women's hair is a thing.
27:55It's kept us from getting promotions.
27:57It's kept us from getting jobs.
27:58My natural hair, just the way that it is.
28:00And Lexi's like, okay, our hair looks different.
28:02What do you need from me as your wife to support you?
28:04And I'm like, this is wild.
28:05It's not like, can I touch your hair?
28:07It's not like a weird thing like that.
28:09She's just like, what do you need from me?
28:10And potentially like equip our children too.
28:13So I love it here.
28:14I'm like, this is, this is what it's about.
28:17That means a lot because most important thing for us, we want Lexi to be happy.
28:21We want her to be with someone that makes her happy, makes her the best version of herself.
28:26And whoever that is, we will love you and support you.
28:29And that's it.
28:30We just want our kids to be happy.
28:31I've sold a lot of engagement rings over the last 30 years.
28:34I have had people come to me that have known each other for five days.
28:38I've had people that have been dating for nine, 10 years.
28:41And it's always interesting to me because sometimes the least likely couples make it.
28:46Sometimes the most likely couples fizzle quickly.
28:49And there's no rhyme or reason.
28:54I think Lexi's amazing.
28:55I think that she would make a great wife.
29:02I have to take a workout.
29:03All right, okay.
29:04Let me give you guys love.
29:05Let me give you a loving.
29:06I hope to see you again.
29:08Thanks, Mel.
29:09Of course, nice to meet you.
29:10Nice to meet you.
29:11Really nice to meet you.
29:13Have fun.
29:14Okay.
29:15Bye-bye.
29:16I have to say she's great.
29:18She seems really, really nice.
29:19I knew you guys would love her.
29:20Very sincere and very kind.
29:22And I think she really cares about you.
29:24I know.
29:25Do you see yourself?
29:26Do you miss Ray?
29:27It's been a little hard the last few days with Ray.
29:30I'm going through a lot.
29:31But, like, what Mel deserves is for me to be present here
29:35and then deal with where I see myself with Ray.
29:38There's a big part of me that really loves Ray.
29:41She's somebody I have always seen myself spending my life with.
29:44You know, I've envisioned kids and all that with her.
29:47I love Mel.
29:48Genuinely.
29:49Well, I think Mel's great and I adore her.
29:51Like, whatever happens, happens.
29:52We're going to be supportive.
29:53I mean, we still care about Ray.
29:55She has spent time with us and we're going to love whoever you're with
29:58because that person makes you happy.
30:00That's what I'm here for.
30:01I came here for love and I'm trying to figure out if that's what I'm going to end with.
30:05And I don't know.
30:09No one understands the way that you move me.
30:13It's very hard to describe my dad because he's this, like, successful businessman,
30:25but he's also a big goofball.
30:27So, I don't know what version of Mark we're going to get today.
30:30You haven't seen him in a while, so I'm happy that you get to have this moment.
30:33I'm happy you're here for it.
30:34And I get to share in the moment, yeah.
30:35Yeah.
30:36The man, the myth, the legend, Big Papa has arrived.
30:41Dad!
30:42Hey, great to see you.
30:44Hi, Mark.
30:45Nice to meet you.
30:46Nice to meet you.
30:47Oh, we're going with the handshake.
30:48We're going with the handshake.
30:49I'm from East Coast.
30:52We would hug, but I don't know that everybody does.
30:55Nice to meet you.
30:56Great to see you.
30:57So, the reason that we're both here is that we were both given an ultimatum.
31:02by our ex-girlfriends, Sander.
31:05She does want to get married.
31:06Yeah.
31:07She's been so clear about that.
31:08And for a long time now, I've been like, oh, I don't want that.
31:11And it's not even just, I don't want to marry her.
31:13It's just, I don't even know if I want to get married.
31:15Did you share that sentiment?
31:18Um, mine wasn't as similar.
31:21I've always wanted to get married.
31:22Yeah.
31:23Um, I just didn't know if I was ready yet.
31:26A marriage, it's forever.
31:28You're saying yes to a forever.
31:30And I don't know when I'll ever be ready.
31:32Yeah.
31:33When the institution of marriage started, people didn't live to be 80, 90 like we do now.
31:39True.
31:40They died at 25 or 30.
31:42So, it wasn't a quote-unquote life sentence quite in the same way.
31:45Forever.
31:46I've heard people say marriage should be like a lease, like a seven-year lease.
31:49Yes.
31:50At the end of the seven years, you decide whether you want to renew it or not.
31:53If you don't, you both walk away.
31:55So...
31:56And this is where I get my idea of marriage.
31:59No.
32:00You know, I'm divorced for 15 years now.
32:03I've dated a little bit.
32:05A little bit.
32:06At the two or three month mark, I think that they see a different future than I do.
32:10I end the relationship.
32:12Time is so precious.
32:14Be selfish.
32:15Yeah.
32:16You better be.
32:17That's the reality or else you're trying to make someone else happy.
32:21Exactly.
32:22That's so true.
32:23I'm in the IT field.
32:24And the one thing that I will tell you that comes out of IT is 99% right is 100% wrong.
32:30I'm curious.
32:31If you were to get married again, what would the percentage you were looking for be?
32:34100%.
32:35No question.
32:36No question.
32:37If you think about it, the person giving you the ultimatum is 100% sure.
32:43They want you.
32:45They want to spend their life with you.
32:47And you, you know, ideally, they want you to feel that way back.
32:52The ideal situation is you come out of this knowing yourself better and knowing what you
32:57want.
32:58And if that's harmful to someone else, that may be a gift to them as well.
33:02Yeah.
33:03But thank you so much for listening to me.
33:04Okay.
33:05Mm.
33:06Mm.
33:07Mm.
33:08Without a song we hit the ground.
33:09Mm.
33:10Mm.
33:11Mm.
33:12Look at us now.
33:13Look at me now.
33:14Look at me now.
33:15Look at me now.
33:16Look at me now.
33:17Look at...
33:18Look at me now.
33:19Look at me now.
33:20Look at me now.
33:21Somebody might look at me now.
33:22Date night.
33:24I'm gonna be tie-dying my thongs.
33:26Oh, okay. Kidding. T-shirts for sure.
33:32This was fun. This was good. I know. I'm excited.
33:35I haven't done this in a long time.
33:37All right. Hair is up. We mean Miss Nez.
33:41Do you want a v-neck?
33:43No.
33:44It's such a queer thing not to show your clavicle,
33:47and people don't understand that.
33:49So I'm not showing this. Like, I am serious.
33:53I feel like I go to sleep at night having fun with you,
33:57and I wake up in the morning having fun with you.
33:59That's probably the cheesiest thing I've ever said in my life.
34:04You flirting with me?
34:07To me, the stability is fun, and I'm happy,
34:10and I'm calm and in peace.
34:14Trust, stability, honesty.
34:17I feel like that you are, like, all those things.
34:21You know what I mean?
34:22You're blushing.
34:23Hmm?
34:24You're blushing.
34:26Yes.
34:27So you heard my past of, like, feeling like I fall in love fast,
34:34and the up and down, and the chaos that comes with it.
34:39And here I go tearing up.
34:41Um, I'm scared of feeling in love with you so soon.
34:48It's, it's scary, because I don't, I don't know, it's just scary.
34:53It's definitely scary.
34:54It also scares me to think about, like, what you're feeling
34:58and, like, where that's gonna go, you know?
35:00And, like, but it's hard to not think...
35:01Where it's gonna go when?
35:02Like, after this?
35:03Mm-hmm.
35:04It's the future, right?
35:05I don't feel like that I fall in love easily,
35:07but I feel like that this experience has worked so well already,
35:12and I, I, like, texted you last night,
35:17and I said that we weren't just the byproduct of the experience,
35:20and...
35:21Yeah, it was random.
35:22Like, what is she sipping on?
35:24But I feel like, like, we're not just that.
35:26Like, we're like...
35:27We're not.
35:28I love you.
35:34I'm not alone.
35:35I'm feeling that way.
35:36I...
35:39It's terrifying, but I love you.
35:47I know that I've, I've known for a while that I, I've loved you.
35:50For a while?
35:52Which is weird and scary, and, like, it didn't make sense for a long time.
35:56But it's also, like, those moments, like, where I, like, just, like, look at you,
35:59and then you look at me, and you're like, what?
36:01Mm-hmm.
36:02And I'm like, I love you.
36:04It's like I got a rainbow inside of my head.
36:08I know it's not over yet.
36:11Cloudy skies and I'll just shine, shine.
36:16Give me grain, don't lighten up my soul.
36:20Falling higher, never gonna let me talk and watch me speak.
36:25I let my life in, I let my life in color.
36:32When you think you're gonna break, break.
36:38Shake off what was yesterday.
36:41Hi.
36:42Okay.
36:43Okay.
36:44Alicia's one of my best friends.
36:45Alicia is the person I call when it comes to, like, life decisions,
36:48and the decision to marry someone is the biggest decision of my life.
36:52Comfortable there?
36:53Or do you wanna sit here?
36:54Yeah, I'm okay right here.
36:55Okay.
36:56Are you good there?
36:57Yeah, I'm good here.
36:58Felicia, this is Lexi.
37:00Lexi, this is Felicia.
37:01And, Lexi's, um, this, I'm her wife right now.
37:06I'm introducing Lexi to my entire circle, my entire community.
37:11That is what I'm doing.
37:13So, you live with this person for how many weeks?
37:17Three.
37:18And then you decide between three to four years of being in a relationship
37:23versus three weeks of with another person?
37:26Yes.
37:28What?
37:29I chose this.
37:30Like, I know what's happening here.
37:32It's late twice if you're not safe.
37:35This isn't the Get Out movie.
37:37Like, everything's fine.
37:38I've never seen you shocked about anything.
37:41We've known each other for, I don't know, like, 12-plus years.
37:44We were in college.
37:45I think we met in, like, 07.
37:47Do you wanna know how old I was in 07?
37:49No, I actually don't.
37:50No, I do wanna know.
37:51I need to know.
37:52Oh, God.
37:53In 07, I was 11 years old.
37:55Well.
37:56So, how old are you now?
37:5924.
38:00Years old?
38:01For one month.
38:03Oh, that's a cute red flag.
38:05Waving in the wind.
38:06I'll leave it at that.
38:08I'm shocked because Yoli has been that person.
38:11Like, that's my homie.
38:13I think for me, it's just been a matter of timing.
38:16I just wanted to make sure I could provide all the things that I thought marriage comes with.
38:21But I think, like, as we've had more conversations,
38:24I think her views of marriage are changing.
38:27Yeah.
38:28Okay.
38:29For sure.
38:30Mm.
38:31I can tell you, for me, I want Mal to be a part of my life forever.
38:36I, you know, it's lovely.
38:39Mal is such a lovable person.
38:41Mm-hmm.
38:42And she's good and kind to everyone.
38:44But I feel like a lot of people confuse Mal's kindness for something else when it's simply
38:51just her being a good human.
38:53And a lot of women would be like, oh, big girl, you know, I feel like she's feeling me,
38:58when it's not really like that.
38:59Like, for nothing else, like, what we have in this process, Mal is always honest with me.
39:06You just can't negate the love Mal has for Yoli, you know what I mean?
39:10Fair.
39:11If Yoli were to come in here right now and be like, F all this, let's do it now, what would you say?
39:19We would have a lot to talk about, I can tell you that.
39:21So it's gray.
39:22Yeah.
39:23Yeah.
39:24It's gray right now.
39:42Hey!
39:43Hey!
39:44What's up?
39:45What's up?
39:46How are you?
39:47Good.
39:48How are you doing?
39:49Hi.
39:50Who are you?
39:51Sam.
39:52Nice to meet you.
39:53Very nice to meet you.
39:54We haven't met yet, but...
39:55No.
39:56I don't know what's going on, so fill me in.
39:59Oh, my God.
40:00How you been?
40:01I've been good.
40:02Yeah?
40:03Yeah.
40:04Who are you, Sam?
40:05Somebody's got to fill me in.
40:08Yeah, yeah, yeah.
40:09Where's Mildred right now?
40:11I couldn't tell you.
40:12I don't know.
40:13So you guys broke up?
40:14Yeah.
40:15We broke up.
40:16So I broke up with my ex, too.
40:19Okay.
40:20And then, coincidentally, my ex is Mildred's spouse.
40:25Why did you do this?
40:26Um, I did it because Mildred and I were constantly going back and forth in cyclical patterns and we weren't getting anywhere.
40:33I felt like I had to join this experience in order for us to gain more clarity if there's anyone else out there or if it's actually our problems that we need to work on.
40:42I feel like that makes no sense.
40:44Tell me.
40:45How so?
40:46I don't know.
40:47I feel like that's, like, a cop-out.
40:48Like, because if the relationship isn't working, then you should end it, right?
40:51Maybe you're, like, hanging on to something that either might be over or will be one day just to, I don't know, because you're not ready to let go, maybe?
41:03I don't know.
41:04I don't know.
41:06Breaking up with Mildred, it's not going to be the last time.
41:09They're very on and off.
41:11I don't think it's healthy.
41:12I don't think that Tiff and Mildred are right for each other because they can't communicate.
41:17And if they want to be together, they have a lot of work to do.
41:20So you're in a trial marriage right now?
41:21Mm-hmm.
41:22So how did you end up together?
41:23I mean, we honestly had such a good connection, and I, like, sense of humor is also one of my tops, and so, and Tiff was, like, making corny jokes, like, every single date.
41:34I got a goofy side.
41:35I got a dark side.
41:37I got a, you know, like, a wild side.
41:39I, like, literally just threw it all on the table.
41:40Yeah.
41:41What I really liked about her was that she was just like, oh, okay, sure.
41:44What else do you have?
41:45Like, you know?
41:46You know, some people would, like, be, like, running for the fucking door.
41:48Yeah.
41:49Are you guys hooking up right now?
41:50Um, no.
41:51We haven't.
41:52Why?
41:53No.
41:54Um.
41:55Why?
41:56Good question.
41:57How, how's your sleeping arrangements?
41:59We have to share a bed.
42:00You share a bed?
42:01And you haven't done anything?
42:03Sam!
42:06You haven't slept together?
42:07No.
42:08Have you kissed?
42:09No.
42:10So how do you know if the intimacy is there or not?
42:12We don't.
42:13You can't buy the car without you.
42:14I know.
42:15We haven't even, like, held hands.
42:16Hold hands right now.
42:19She's waiting for you.
42:21Can you hold hands real quick?
42:22No!
42:23I'm not doing that right now.
42:24Uh-uh.
42:25Yeah.
42:26Yeah.
42:27I spilled my drink because I just got nervous because, here.
42:29I'll hold your hand.
42:31That's all you had to do.
42:32I know.
42:33It doesn't have to be sexual.
42:35Tell her.
42:36Then what's the whole point if it's not gonna be sexual?
42:38Intimacy doesn't have to just be sexual.
42:40Yeah.
42:41I'm just saying, why throw yourself into this and not at least try something?
42:47I mean, I'm noticing her body language and you, and I think that you're the one that's closed off and not her.
42:55Tonight, try to kiss each other, try to touch each other, try to be intimate.
43:01And if you don't like it, then be like, fuck it, I tried, right?
43:07I don't know about that.
43:10No, but I just want to ask you a question.
43:13If she was to, tonight, touch you, cuddle you, try to kiss you, would you turn away?
43:19Running in circles like a hamster in a wheel.
43:24Trying to be the perfect human for each other.
43:28No.
43:29I'm back to love.
43:32I'm back to love.
43:34I'm back to love.
43:38No.
43:39I believe, I believe, I believe with something special.
43:44No, I will do it all for you.
43:51You're so big in a hole.
43:53A scale of one at a time, how glad are you that you're tired and not come and wash this away?
43:59I don't know, that sounds pretty hot to me too.
44:02Mmm!
44:03I'm watching my roller in with you in the water.
44:06Picture this, a hot day in Hawaii.
44:10Mm-hmm.
44:27Maybe you should close your eyes.
44:29OK.
44:33Sandra, there's a fucking ring in there.
44:34I'm screaming.
44:36Very loud.
44:37Bitch.
44:40When do I look?
44:41Now.
44:49Oh, it matches my nails.
44:51You thought about it so well.
44:52I know.
44:53I knew it was your color.
44:54It's so special.
44:55Shove it in there.
44:56Oh, my God.
44:57It fits like a glove.
44:59Give me your love.
45:00Give me your love.
45:01Oh, oh.
45:05The moment I saw you, I knew you would change everything.
45:12Oh, oh.
45:14Give me your love.
45:15Oh, oh.
45:16Give me your love.
45:17Give me your love.
45:18Give me your love.
45:19Oh, oh.
45:20Oh, oh.
45:21Oh, oh.
45:22Oh, oh.
45:23Oh, oh.
45:28I'm, like, seeing how much stuff I had written since this started.
45:32Wow.
45:33I feel so long ago.
45:35I mean, it's crazy that this is going to be our last night together.
45:39I know.
45:40I know.
45:41I'm really going to miss being able to just, like, talk about things and just be open.
45:47It's nice to be able to have a deep connection with you and to be able to be vulnerable, but
45:53in a way where you cannot feel so judged and you can just kind of show up as you are.
45:59And then it's kind of actually scary thinking about that, going back in with our exes, because
46:04you're just like, damn, like, am I going to have this chill, safe space?
46:09Am I going to, like, um, are my feelings going to be validated?
46:13I think that's huge.
46:14What I will say from the bottom of my heart is that you're beautiful, strong.
46:19Thank you so much for being my first wife ever.
46:23We popped each other's wife cherries.
46:26Aw.
46:28Thank you so much.
46:34Are you going to have withdrawals?
46:35Yeah, a little bit.
46:36Like, we're not confident.
46:37You're going to see me, like, crying a little bit?
46:40She's going to be like, oh, maybe it's going to be okay.
46:42I'm not crying about you.
46:43I'm not crying about you yet.
46:44Yet?
46:45I like how you unconsciously said yet.
46:50It was Tiff and Sam this entire time.
46:55They're going to come up with some ship name for us and, like, combine Tiff and Sam into
47:03something.
47:04Yeah.
47:05Sam.
47:06Yes.
47:07Stiff.
47:08Stiff.
47:09That's better.
47:10That's so good.
47:11Stiff.
47:12At The Choice, I felt like I made a mistake.
47:16The only thing I could think about was Mildred.
47:18But now, I've gotten more comfortable with Sam.
47:21And I feel like there's a sense of trust there.
47:23There's a sense of growing understanding of someone where I feel the safety to just kind
47:31of bring myself to the table.
47:33And this is how I feel like we should have been this entire time.
47:37I feel like tonight I'm on Big Spoonie.
47:40I'm waiting.
47:41Oh, it's still surprising me even to the very end.
47:53No one ever taught you how to open up.
47:57I do feel very awkward doing this.
47:58What is that?
47:59Your leg?
48:00I felt something stiff.
48:01Oh, my God.
48:02I can't.
48:03Well.
48:04Hey, that's good progress, though.
48:05Where she went from, I don't even want to touch your hand, to what you Big Spoonie.
48:18I don't even want to pull a suitcase out.
48:31I'm a very last minute packer.
48:33I'm doing it.
48:34You're doing it.
48:35Wow.
48:36Okay, I normally wouldn't put it on the bed.
48:39Oh, throw it on there.
48:40We're not going to, like, lick this, are we?
48:42What's your plan?
48:43After you put that down, you're like, okay.
48:45Sounds fun.
48:47Doesn't it?
48:48What should I pack first?
48:50Start with all the things that are on the floor.
48:53Meh.
48:54I'm going to start in the closet.
48:55The only way I can come across is if I roll into my eyes.
49:00Excuse me.
49:01Excuse me.
49:02Let me make this as full body of an experience as I can.
49:05Hold on.
49:06Okay.
49:07You're good.
49:08You're good.
49:09Okay.
49:10I'll get a suitcase out.
49:11Aye, aye, aye.
49:14I feel like tomorrow when we move back in with our exes is going to feel real heavy, huh?
49:19We'll see.
49:20I think the next three weeks are going to, like, really tell me a lot.
49:23Yeah.
49:24I was really excited this morning thinking about how I was going to get to see Lexi again,
49:29but that's also me thinking, like, everything's normal.
49:32But, like, I know that's not going to be what the air is when we first see each other again because of the night that happened here.
49:41I don't know.
49:42I'm just feeling a lot of anxiety.
49:45Now we have to see what does our future look like together.
49:48How do we get back to our normal, and is that what we want?
49:51The next three weeks are going to be a lot, a lot for us to kind of figure out how we fit back together, or do we fit back together?
49:58There's just so many questions that I think will be answered within the next three weeks for both of us.
50:04What are you going to wear the first night that you see your ex?
50:09Are you going sexy?
50:10Underneath the dress?
50:11Yeah.
50:12A bra and panties.
50:14Same.
50:15I'm normal.
50:16That's what I was thinking, too.
50:17That's what I was thinking.
50:18It's just so weird to, like, pack outfits and think, this is what I'm going to wear when I have a really big conversation.
50:24Mm.
50:25I feel like I really want to plan it out because I don't want to say anything that's, like, too, um, leading towards, like, obviously I want to be with you and marry you.
50:35Like, why, though?
50:36I just don't get that.
50:37She's been, like, claiming you so hard.
50:39Like, why can't you do that?
50:40That's what all of our ultimatum givers are waiting for.
50:44It could be embarrassing, but...
50:45I like hearing that, Ray.
50:47That's it.
50:48Like, my life will change.
50:49You know, whatever, whatever she's coming at this with, like, it's going to be life-changing.
50:55That's a big thing.
50:58So I've got to look hot.
51:01You're so hot.
51:10Ah!
51:11What is in there?
51:12What did you do?
51:13I just used a finger.
51:14That's crazy.
51:15I acted surprised.
51:16I wasn't.
51:17I'm like, ah!
51:18I'm assuming you have the same mindset where there's not one person for everyone, right?
51:33There's multiple people you can love.
51:35Like a soulmate?
51:36Mm-hmm.
51:37You think you have multiple soulmates?
51:39Yeah.
51:40I think you can.
51:41I think you're one of mine.
51:44I do.
51:46Oh, shit.
51:48You don't need to say it back.
51:49It's good.
51:50I'm fine.
51:53Just sitting up here on my ledge.
51:55That's a lot of pressure.
51:58How do you know that?
51:59How do I know?
52:00I don't know.
52:01Have you ever met somebody this easy three weeks in?
52:06No.
52:07Do you think that's coincidence?
52:08Experience?
52:09Or...
52:10I don't know.
52:13Now I know what a good marriage looks like for me.
52:16Does the marriage with the person I came with look like that too?
52:19I could see a world where we could be together.
52:22I could too.
52:23Actions are going to speak louder than words.
52:26Do you want to get ready for bed?
52:28Last night.
52:29The very last night.
52:30I'm breathing deeper.
52:31Like I'm underwater.
52:32See the people flaker.
52:33Like plane.
52:34It's my final night with Mal and it's really bittersweet.
52:35I think I'm trying to hold on to every last moment with Mal because we have something
52:51really special.
52:52Mal's my wife until they forced us to sign the divorce papers.
52:55I'm not thinking about the next three weeks because I'm focusing on the moment I'm in
53:00now.
53:01And I honestly wish this kind of didn't end.
53:04Never been that kid, ooh.
53:06Scared of the phone.
53:07So sexy.
53:08Used to wait for the lightning to a strike.
53:13Because we only have tonight.
53:14Like, you know, I'm just feeling more.
53:19I'm trying not to shy away from you.
53:22Getting to that next step.
53:24Yeah.
53:26I didn't know this conversation would go there.
53:32And next week, I will be a mess.
53:37I know.
53:38It really sucks for me to be like, leaving.
53:42You're not going anywhere for me.
53:45I don't want this to end.
53:51Yeah.
53:52I don't know how to deal.
53:53I don't know how to best deal with what's happening.
53:58I tend to pull away from, like, the people that I love because it hurts to know what we're
54:06doing.
54:07It's really me just trying to protect myself.
54:09From what, though?
54:11Feeling.
54:12Feeling sad.
54:13I had the best trial wife that I could have.
54:18Choosing you was easy.
54:22Having to let you go sucks.
54:27Like, I have to.
54:28Fly and cry.
54:34Sunshine.
54:51Margot, are you crying?
54:52You should be.
54:54She's leaving us.
54:55Don't tell her that.
54:56Don't tell her that.
54:57You want to cry?
54:58Use your words.
54:59Go ahead.
55:00Tell her.
55:01I know.
55:02She sat down.
55:04She's like, well, I didn't know that part.
55:14You're looking at my lips.
55:15What, you want to kiss them?
55:18Keep looking at them.
55:19Don't call me out.
55:21Give me more time.
55:22Give me more time.
55:29Not bad.
55:32Coming here, I did not in a million years think that I would fall for another person.
55:38I am scared because I wasn't in the worst place with my ex.
55:44She's going to want to pick back up where you guys left off.
55:46I mean, I imagine, right?
55:47I think.
55:48We don't know.
55:49Like, we don't know.
55:50But, like that, I mean, Mal's family.
55:52Mal's amazing in so many ways, but we also still haven't made the move with the commitment.
55:57Mm-hmm.
55:58So, I'm just kind of like.
55:59I mean, that's definitely how I have felt with Vanessa.
56:02Like, meeting her in high school, and then we were given this chance.
56:05Like, when both of us had recently come out, and like, it just felt very like, oh, like,
56:09of course, like, this is going to be like my partner forever.
56:12But, like, she doesn't want to get married.
56:14Like, okay, well, you don't want to get married to me, though.
56:16Obviously, she should want to get married to me, right?
56:18100%.
56:19I mean, I'm tired of it.
56:20Like, I'm tired of feeling that I'm not enough, and that I am not getting the opportunity
56:25to show up, like, how I want to, which is how I feel like I've been able to do it for
56:29the past three weeks with you.
56:30Really?
56:31I feel like we're already, like, ready to be committed.
56:35It's just hard to be telling both the people that we love that we have this thing,
56:40and we've had it for, like, a whole three weeks while we haven't talked to them.
56:48I'm worried about your ex putting her claws into you.
56:51You're going to let her, like, fuck you up?
56:53I don't mind.
56:54No.
56:55I promise.
57:00I really am scared to think about what it's going to be like when you're back with your
57:04ex.
57:05Mm-hmm.
57:06I am worried that, like, it's going to be as amazing as our past three weeks, and that,
57:11I don't know, that I could actually, like, lose you.
57:18I could feel like I'm, like, the right person for you.
57:21Do you feel that way?
57:22Yeah.
57:24But I want you to decide what's best for you, you know?
57:29I don't want Mal telling you either.
57:31Like, I want you to decide.
57:32You have touched and impacted my life in so many ways, and you've showed me... God, I hate...
57:42Um...
57:43No, you've just showed me that I, I guess I'm not, like, difficult to love.
57:52You're literally just so effortless and easy and wonderful.
57:56You're just, you're so fucking great.
57:58Thank you for loving me the way you do.
58:10I'm gonna miss you so much.
58:12Me too.
58:13What are you gonna miss?
58:18Your soft lips.
58:19I love you.
58:20I love you.
58:22I love you.
58:24I don't know how I'm gonna sleep without you tomorrow.
58:29This is the moment.
58:35This is the moment.
58:37I love you.
58:39I love you.
58:40Oh.
58:43Oh, God.
58:44Don't want to lose you, do we?
58:46It's just so messed up.
58:48They're literally gonna, like, probably pry me off of you.
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