- 7/4/2025
Wes Bell
By Matthew Broughton.
A dark and compelling play about a lonely young man who finds a home amongst eccentric strangers, but his inability to deal with the truth of their lifestyle leads to dreadful, shocking conclusions.
Jason ...... Shaun Dooley
Daisy ...... Natalie Press
Wes Bell ...... Jamie Foreman
Lisa Bell ...... Juliet Cowan.
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By Matthew Broughton.
A dark and compelling play about a lonely young man who finds a home amongst eccentric strangers, but his inability to deal with the truth of their lifestyle leads to dreadful, shocking conclusions.
Jason ...... Shaun Dooley
Daisy ...... Natalie Press
Wes Bell ...... Jamie Foreman
Lisa Bell ...... Juliet Cowan.
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00:00Where's Bell?
00:10By Matthew Broughton.
00:25That must look stupid in the park.
00:27My rubbish hair, my trousers baggy around my arse and t-shirt tight over my belly, my thin legs.
00:37People must think I look like a clown.
00:39Or they would, if anyone was looking at me.
00:45Every day now I walk in circles, past the dead trees, whatever the weather, the wind, the drizzle, the white skies.
00:52I go over what happened.
00:54Where's Bell?
00:55Well, Lisa Bell.
01:00Others.
01:01Essex.
01:03It hurts.
01:05There's nothing else I think about.
01:06Every day.
01:07I hoped it would get less painful over the years.
01:10But it hasn't.
01:11My name is Jason.
01:19I became part of the story of West Bell when I came down from the north.
01:22And going back wasn't an option.
01:24I was moving from place to place, following work, labouring on building sites.
01:27Nothing skilled.
01:29It's a job where they don't ask too many questions.
01:30You know, they take you on, leave you to it.
01:32It's a sad little life when you're 17, but it suited me.
01:36I wanted a low profile.
01:39Essex was just somewhere I ended up.
01:41Could have been anywhere.
01:42I didn't earn much, so I'd be in cheap digs and small and dirty with smells that gave me headaches.
01:49I'd spend no time in them and I went to a pub most nights.
01:51That's how I met Wes.
01:58He was the first person to take a real interest in me and want to be my friend.
02:07But what I know now that I didn't know then is that Wes was also a very, very bad man.
02:19Perhaps the worst kind of man there is.
02:21Like a pork chop.
02:26He gnawed it.
02:28I mean, I've heard a fox who's chewing their legs off, but not people chewing their arms off.
02:32Stick another vodka in there, please, Tony.
02:34Coming up.
02:35I wouldn't want to bite my own arm off.
02:37No, you wouldn't, Tony.
02:38But that makes me reckons he did.
02:40He said he tripped over in a forest and fell into a bear trap arm first.
02:44And the evidence is on his side.
02:46I mean, he ain't got an arm anymore, has he?
02:48And he did go to Canada.
02:49We got the postcard.
02:50But he's a bullshitter.
02:52That's just the way he is.
02:53He's a prick.
02:54You don't know when to believe him.
02:55Then again, it could very well be true.
02:59I'd have a problem doing that.
03:01I could chew your arm off on your tongue.
03:02Act of kindness and all that.
03:04I wouldn't have to take the sink my teeth into your arm for the greater good.
03:07But my own arm?
03:08Nah, that'd be a very different matter.
03:11I don't think I'll get as far as the bone.
03:12It'd be too weird.
03:15Didn't Mickey move back to Ireland?
03:16Yeah.
03:17Anyway, his wife said he lost it in a car door accident.
03:20What's that shit said?
03:21I was feeling self-conscious.
03:24He was staring at me.
03:25Bite a lager, please.
03:26Coming up.
03:27You in a trade, mate?
03:29Builder, yeah.
03:30Takes one to know one.
03:31I'm not sorry I keep this brick dust on your trousers.
03:34You working on the new flats?
03:35Yeah, up the hill.
03:36Staying in the B&B?
03:37That's right.
03:38Most of the boys up there have got a woman on the go.
03:40And she's married.
03:41Have you got a special lady?
03:43No, not really.
03:44Gay, are you?
03:44No.
03:45Do you like tits?
03:46I do, yeah.
03:47Me too.
03:48Tits and bunk-ups.
03:49I'm married.
03:49What's your favourite type of bra?
03:52This is a bit...
03:53Go on, what do you like?
03:55I don't know.
03:56Silky ones, I suppose.
03:57Silky ones.
03:58Ooh, fetish bloke, are you?
04:00Bondage boy.
04:01No, I'm not an expert.
04:02I was just saying...
04:03What are you talking about silky bras for, then?
04:05Do you wear them?
04:06Transvestite on a night off, are you, mate?
04:08Do they do bras for boys of your height?
04:10No, I'm not...
04:10I didn't say...
04:13You're getting me out of here.
04:16Your face!
04:18If I was you, I would have told me to piss off five minutes ago, eh, Tone?
04:22Got to take a wind-up if you drink in here.
04:24Here you go, mate.
04:26Pretty funny, I suppose, aren't you?
04:27Let me buy you a chaser for that pint, all right?
04:30Shake my hand.
04:31What's your name?
04:32Jason.
04:32Ah, my name's Waste Bell.
04:38They call me Daisy.
04:40That's what they called me.
04:42I'd been going for two days.
04:44I needed a wash.
04:45I fell asleep on the train.
04:48That's when someone stole my bag with all the money I'd saved.
04:52It was a long way.
04:54After the train, there was a bus.
04:56At the last stop, I got off and started to walk.
05:00Didn't know where I was.
05:02Didn't know where I was going.
05:04I just walked.
05:06My feet felt raw.
05:07They hurt so much.
05:09But I kept on.
05:11I felt terrible and knackered, but I knew I was doing the right thing.
05:14If I didn't know where I was, then no one else would know where I was either.
05:19If they didn't know where I was, then they couldn't find me.
05:25Soon, I thought, I'll just fall over and pass out.
05:29Someone will find me on the side of the road and phone an ambulance.
05:34There was blood in my shoes.
05:36I was dirty all over.
05:39Dirty inside.
05:41But I was still going.
05:43It was getting dark.
05:46I don't like the dark.
05:48I got to a crossroads.
05:51There was an orange street lamp, a red telephone box, and a blue bench.
05:56A woman was sitting there.
05:57I sat down.
05:59It was over.
06:02The woman smiled at me.
06:05This is the person who will call the ambulance, I thought.
06:08And that's the phone box she'll use.
06:11The woman was Lisa Bell.
06:13Wes bought me drinks all night.
06:17He insisted.
06:19He talked about sex.
06:21It was his favourite subject.
06:22He wanted to know how many girls I'd slept with.
06:24Had I been with a prostitute?
06:25What was my favourite position?
06:28Later, I was drunk.
06:29I didn't notice.
06:30He followed me into the toilets.
06:32At the urinal, he looked round my shoulder.
06:34I don't think I dreamt that.
06:39By ten, the pub was busy.
06:41Oh, look over my shoulder.
06:43Now, don't make it look like you're looking.
06:46Stalled at the bar, see ya?
06:47In the boob tube.
06:49Boob tube?
06:50Dark out.
06:51Wearing red stockings and a men's skirt.
06:53What do you think?
06:54Oh.
06:55I don't think she's wearing any.
06:57Did she just cross her legs?
06:58Yeah, she did.
06:59That's my sister.
07:00She's looking at me.
07:01Perhaps she likes ya.
07:04Has she got a boyfriend?
07:05What do you think?
07:07She's coming over.
07:07Act natural.
07:09All right, Wesley.
07:11Mmm.
07:12Born cocktail?
07:13Give him a try, sis.
07:15Mmm.
07:16Tasty.
07:17Who's your new friend?
07:18Got big muscles, hasn't he?
07:19Hello, handsome.
07:21Her name's Lisa, Jason.
07:23How are you, Lisa?
07:24Do you like my legs, Jason?
07:26They're my fourth favourite part of my body.
07:28Lovely pins, aren't they, Jason?
07:30Very nice.
07:31I'm proud of their smoothness.
07:33Here, put your hand on them.
07:34Have a feel of the skin.
07:38Uh, they are smooth.
07:42That's it.
07:43And if you feel upwards, that's it.
07:45Good boy.
07:46All the way.
07:47Up to my house.
07:51I can't remember how they got me back to their house.
07:55I was blind drunk.
07:56I could barely walk.
07:58But within 15 minutes of meeting Lisa, I was in her bed.
08:02And she was in it with me.
08:04And we were doing it.
08:07Oh.
08:08I can't.
08:11That's Jason's step.
08:13Keep banging.
08:14Don't blow it, yeah.
08:15Oh, that's the spot.
08:17Keep it there.
08:18Keep it there.
08:19I can't.
08:20Keep it there.
08:21Don't blow it.
08:22Oh, hit that more.
08:23Hit that more.
08:24Good boy.
08:25Go on, my son.
08:26Eh?
08:28Ignore him.
08:29Keep it there.
08:30Keep the water on.
08:31Keep going.
08:31Don't blow it.
08:32Ignore me.
08:33I'm not here.
08:33Oh.
08:34Oh.
08:35Oh.
08:35Oh.
08:36Oh.
08:36Oh.
08:36My feet were throbbing.
08:40I was on the blue bench.
08:43Lisa looked at me.
08:44I don't know why.
08:46I wasn't worth looking at.
08:47But she did.
08:49She really looked at me.
08:51Then she leant over.
08:53She had a soft face.
08:55And her voice was quiet.
08:56She asked if I was all right.
09:00I started to cry.
09:02I'd done so well holding the tears back all that time.
09:06But she cared.
09:08So they came out.
09:09I really sobbed.
09:11I said sorry for being dirty.
09:13She told me I needed looking after.
09:17She put her arm around me.
09:20Right around me.
09:21It was so long since anyone had touched me like that.
09:25I started to cry again.
09:28Some of our neighbors were watching as we came down the street and went into the house.
09:33She ran me a bath and lent me perfume to help with my smell.
09:35I lay in the hot water, really still.
09:40Hoping that I wasn't being too much trouble or outstaying my welcome.
09:45Lisa's son, Ian, made soup from a tin.
09:49Really thick soup.
09:52Ian was younger than me.
09:53About thirteen.
09:55But seemed older.
09:57He had a naughty face.
09:59When you looked in his eyes, you could tell he was smart.
10:03He didn't say much.
10:04But he did whisper in my ear.
10:07He said he liked my black hair.
10:10Those were the first words he said to me.
10:12It was a sweet thing to say.
10:14And it made me blush.
10:17Lisa said there was a lodger living in the house, too.
10:20But he wasn't around.
10:21He was either at work or in his room.
10:24Lisa was like an older sister, the way she talked.
10:27She asked me if I had a boyfriend.
10:29And how old I was.
10:31I added a year to make myself sixteen.
10:34She said I could stay overnight if I wanted.
10:37She could tell I had problems.
10:40But no questions.
10:42Then she said she was sure it would be okay with her husband, too.
10:45I didn't want him to come home.
10:48He might not want me in his house.
10:52Why would he?
10:54It was selfish of me.
10:55But I couldn't help feeling like that because everyone had been so nice.
10:59And I didn't want it ruined.
11:01I sat with Lisa and Ian watching the telly.
11:05The living room was nice.
11:07All bright because they had a fluorescent light.
11:09It buzzed, but it made everything look clear.
11:14Lisa's husband was due home any time.
11:17Woke up the next morning and didn't know where I was.
11:20In the sunlight, the bedroom was a shock.
11:22The burgundy and gold wallpaper, maroon carpet, faint smell of excrement.
11:28Lisa looked ugly with her makeup smeared all over her face.
11:31I had a headache like a bus was parked on my face.
11:33A dry mouth and my balls were very sore.
11:35You wait, mate.
11:39You want to go again?
11:41Oh.
11:43Is it morning?
11:45You slept like a corpse.
11:51Your makeup has...
11:53We've done 12 positions.
11:55Don't be offended if I smudge my lipstick.
11:58Morning, morning.
12:00How are we all doing?
12:03You've caught me in bed with your sister.
12:05She's not my sister.
12:10She's my wife.
12:12Eh?
12:12Role play, weren't it?
12:13Yeah, sometimes with father and daughter or total strangers.
12:16Makes it more exciting.
12:18Oh, I'm ready to go again.
12:20What time is it?
12:22Never mind the time.
12:24You two have a Donald Duck while I put the breakfast on.
12:27Have a fry-up, shall we?
12:29Look, I know what you're all thinking.
12:32Yes, they were eccentric, but the swings are, aren't they?
12:35They were friendly.
12:37Odd.
12:38Harmless.
12:39Welcoming.
12:41And it was a big breakfast.
12:42There he is.
12:52Good shower?
12:53Yeah, thanks.
12:55Sit down, Jay.
12:55Sit down.
12:56Just about to dish up.
12:59Sugar in your tea?
13:00Uh, just one, please.
13:02I bet this is better than that B&B.
13:04Oh, you hear stories about them places.
13:08I couldn't get any worse.
13:09Let's...
13:10Mmm.
13:17Mmm.
13:18This bacon's good.
13:20Yeah, so's the sausage.
13:21Stop it.
13:22Ha ha ha.
13:26How long you contracted with doing those flats?
13:28By the week.
13:29So you don't know where you are with a contract like that?
13:32What do you think, Lisa?
13:34I'll ask him.
13:35I know you're dying to.
13:37We don't want to see you back in that B&B, mate.
13:40Not while we've got a spare room here.
13:43Yeah, but...
13:43Never mind about the money.
13:45Yeah, we'll sort something out.
13:47I didn't have many options.
13:50The decor of the house was crappy.
13:52It had plastic horses and ducks everywhere.
13:55But not worse than the B&B.
13:57I moved in that afternoon.
14:00Right, here we are, then.
14:01That's the wardrobe.
14:02That's the bed.
14:04Stop me if I'm blinding you with science.
14:06It's much better than I'm used to.
14:08Our bedroom is directly above.
14:10I'll keep the noise down.
14:11Oh, it's not your noise I'm worried about.
14:13Make as much racket as you like.
14:14There's something I want to talk about, though.
14:17I can give you what I pay.
14:18No, no, no.
14:19Not that, Chase.
14:20It's Lisa.
14:21I'll pay her a visit every now and then.
14:23Upstairs.
14:24No, keep her happy.
14:25She's got a big appetite.
14:27She's been in magazines, you know.
14:29I mean, she's not a bad looker, is she?
14:31Hey.
14:33And that became the deal.
14:35Once or twice a week, more,
14:37if no one down the pub was willing,
14:38I slept with Lisa.
14:41Huh.
14:42Like part of the rent.
14:45I didn't mind.
14:46I wasn't wild about it,
14:47but I didn't mind.
14:48I could get turned on by a whistle back then.
14:51But it wasn't just that.
14:53It was Wes.
14:55He really wanted me to stay.
14:58He wanted to be mates.
15:01That's what grew between us.
15:03A friendship.
15:04For God's sake, be nice about it.
15:06Why, what has he done?
15:07You'll see.
15:08Took him hours.
15:09Oh, here he comes.
15:13Ta-da!
15:16What do you think?
15:19You've baked me a cake.
15:21To celebrate your moving in.
15:23Look at the icing on that.
15:25It's got cum on it.
15:27Should have been welcome,
15:28but I had problems with the icing bag.
15:30I'll cut us all the slime.
15:31Happy days!
15:34You actually made me a cake.
15:37Don't get emotional.
15:38You haven't tasted it yet.
15:40I'll tell you what I'll go nice with this.
15:42Vodka.
15:44We spent my first night getting drunk in the sitting room.
15:47Oh, with the buzzing fluorescent light.
15:50I'd only been there a couple of days
15:51when Wes asked me to help him on one of his jobs.
15:53Be quick of the two of us.
15:58Here, can you lay bricks?
15:59I've seen it, Don.
16:00Haven't they taught you on site?
16:02No, they don't have time.
16:03Yeah, job and done, is it?
16:05That's a shame.
16:06You need core skills to be an all-rounder like me.
16:09I'm only a labourer.
16:11You'll soon pick up, Brick Lane.
16:12Jason, I'm going to tuck you under my wing.
16:19So, he tucked me under his wing.
16:22He taught me how to lay bricks that afternoon.
16:26Wes was cheerful and chatty and likeable and crude and rough.
16:31He made you laugh.
16:33After that, I did more jobs with him
16:34and each time I learnt more skills,
16:36so the next step felt natural too.
16:39He asked me if I wanted to go full-time with him.
16:44It made perfect sense.
16:46So, I quit my labouring job.
16:49No, listen, come, a toast.
16:51So, Wes Bell and his apprentice.
16:55Wes Bell and his apprentice.
16:57Hey!
16:57Cheers!
16:59You dozy kid!
17:03And all this time, of course,
17:05I was shagging his wife.
17:09Hit me with it, Jason!
17:13Go on!
17:15Slap it hard!
17:17And in case you hadn't noticed,
17:18my gag slipped off.
17:21Oh, that's better.
17:25Before I moved into the house,
17:28I was on a missing list.
17:30And I was very...
17:32unhappy.
17:33And suddenly,
17:35I went from being alone
17:37to having a place to live,
17:38a permanent job
17:39and a friendly little family.
17:42All in one go.
17:43And it was a family too.
17:46Wes,
17:47Lisa,
17:48their boy,
17:49and me.
17:51There were a couple of guest rooms too
17:52where people came to stay at different times
17:54and the bells kept an open door policy.
17:57Waves and strays would come and go all the time.
17:59Always temporary though.
18:01I became a permanent fixture.
18:02I didn't see much of their son, Ian.
18:06I didn't go downstairs much.
18:09It was an unusual set-up.
18:11Especially the sex.
18:13But I got into the rhythm of life in the house.
18:17Although in saying that,
18:18my upbringing had taught me to trust no one
18:19and if I'm honest,
18:21that hadn't changed.
18:22And then he came in.
18:26Lisa's husband,
18:27Wes.
18:29He introduced himself.
18:31Friendly and nice,
18:32with a big smile.
18:34He wasn't surprised to see me.
18:36He was pleased.
18:38He thought it was right that I should stay.
18:40He said there was a room downstairs
18:42in the basement with a bed
18:43and it was a shame that it was going to waste.
18:46He wasn't angry.
18:47He wasn't angry at all.
18:50The way he reacted to me
18:51made me want to cry again.
18:54He told me to make myself at home.
18:57As he said it,
18:58he put his hand on my shoulder
18:59and I flinched.
19:01Wes said sorry straight away
19:04and I said sorry.
19:06And that made us both laugh.
19:08A little bit.
19:09And smile.
19:10A little bit.
19:13And before I knew it,
19:15it was bedtime.
19:18All families have their own rules
19:19and ways of going about things.
19:21I noticed that Wes did a lot of the chores
19:23around the house.
19:25Lisa's favourite position
19:26was lying on the settee
19:27in front of the telly
19:27watching a video,
19:28twiddling her hair,
19:29picking fluff out of her belly buttons.
19:31All right?
19:34Wes's not moving up.
19:36He's gone to the supermarket.
19:37Oh, good.
19:38We've run out of chips.
19:40You had a busy day?
19:44Are you trying to say something, Jase?
19:46No.
19:47Sounded like it.
19:49It's just...
19:51Look, Wes has been at work all day.
19:53Then he has to go to the shops.
19:54I mean, what have you been doing?
19:56Mind your own fucking business, you prick.
19:59What goes on between me and Wes
20:01is between me and Wes?
20:02If you don't like it,
20:03you can pack your rucksack.
20:06They had their own rules.
20:09I had to accept that.
20:11My bedroom didn't have a window
20:13and it was a little bit damp.
20:15But it did have a sink
20:17and it was peaceful down there.
20:20Silent.
20:21And it was my room.
20:24Lisa had given me a t-shirt
20:25to wear as a nightie.
20:27It had a picture of Donald Duck on it.
20:30I didn't do what I normally do
20:31when I'm in bed.
20:33I didn't cry.
20:35I liked lying there.
20:37No one knew where I was.
20:39No one could find me.
20:40Then there was a tap on the door.
20:44Wes came in.
20:46He sat on the edge of the bed.
20:48He had a mug of hot chocolate.
20:51He said he could tell
20:53that I'd had trouble in the past
20:54and he assumed it was my dad.
20:57I sipped the thick chocolate.
21:00Then he wanted to kiss me on the forehead
21:02and I didn't mind.
21:05So he did.
21:07And then he went.
21:10I slept for the first time in ages.
21:13It was a miracle.
21:15I was being saved.
21:18They weren't faithful to each other sex-wise.
21:21Not like normal couples.
21:22But they were devoted to each other.
21:25I think I was envious.
21:28I never dreamt that that would happen to me.
21:33Stop doing that.
21:34It's irritating.
21:35Piss off, you fat bitch.
21:37You stink like a toilet brush.
21:38You stink like fish crap.
21:40Go knob a ant.
21:42Go sit on a tramp's bone.
21:45Only difference between you
21:47and a bucket of shit
21:47is the bucket.
21:49Feeling randy, are we?
21:50Not for your chip-a-lota, thanks.
21:52Get stuffed.
21:53Up your arse.
21:55Give us a wank.
21:59Alright.
22:00But you've got to be done
22:00before slept with your master, chef.
22:05From the moment they met,
22:06they hit it off.
22:07I was on the disco floor.
22:11She was coming out of Carsey with her mate.
22:14I gave my brother a nudge and said,
22:16look at her.
22:17I didn't notice him.
22:18They went over to the two spotty boys
22:20who were next to the squash table.
22:21Squash table?
22:22Lemon squash.
22:23It was a scout art.
22:24No booze allowed.
22:24I'd had half a bottle of vodka before.
22:26How old was everyone?
22:27Fifteen, mostly.
22:29I was quite a bit older.
22:30My boy put his hand on my bum.
22:32I've seen enough.
22:34I was ready for his nod,
22:34but as we started to lean in,
22:36this hand came between us
22:37into the boy's face,
22:38pushing him away.
22:39Very firm.
22:40I was very Lee Marvin about it.
22:42I told him to get stuffed.
22:43Boy went off,
22:44so it's just me and this bloke
22:45with lots of hair.
22:45He legged it.
22:46Quite comical.
22:47I didn't know who Wes was,
22:48but I liked the way he said
22:50get stuffed.
22:51We stared at each other for ages.
22:54Felt like a week.
22:55He looked vulnerable.
22:57And violent.
22:58That was Kurt Douglas back then.
23:00I had a spinning feeling,
23:01but we wasn't dancing.
23:03I took her outside.
23:05His fingers round my arm.
23:06Where did you go?
23:07Up to the horse fields.
23:09Horses?
23:10Straight out the lane.
23:11Into the biggest field.
23:12We still hadn't said a word to each other,
23:14but it was very romantic.
23:15You can see the hole of Essex
23:16from that field.
23:17Bowrell Hill.
23:19It's quite high up.
23:19Essex spreads out beneath you.
23:21All the street lamps shining.
23:22You feel you own it.
23:24You're part of it.
23:25Puts you in awe.
23:27Really romantic.
23:28He sort of marched me there.
23:30Great spot.
23:31He lifted my skirt up.
23:32It was one of those nights
23:33where you could see all the stars.
23:35Looked me over,
23:36touched me,
23:36then undid himself.
23:39A meeting of minds.
23:40Last about seven seconds
23:42and his penis was tiny.
23:47Seven seconds of ecstasy, darling.
23:49Oh, I've never been so disappointed.
23:51Oh, it was all worked out.
23:52And he had a smile on his face.
23:54Well, job done.
23:55Anyone else would have been ashamed.
23:57Have we got that far?
23:58There have been times
23:59it's gone off before I've left the house.
24:03Men don't talk like that.
24:05I was pretty Tom Hanks about it.
24:07It was different.
24:08Charming.
24:09She wanted to know
24:10if it had last longer
24:11if we waited for a bit.
24:12He said no.
24:14If you can't have a laugh
24:15about these things,
24:16you might as well
24:16kick your own head in.
24:18For future reference,
24:19I asked him
24:20if he was the jealous type.
24:22No, your limitations.
24:24I've found my Mr. Wright.
24:26And that was how you met?
24:28Mad, didn't it?
24:30They met like animals.
24:31The next morning,
24:34I went up to the kitchen
24:35and Wes was there.
24:36He gave me a cup of tea
24:37and a bowl of Cocoa Pops.
24:40He said he'd had a conversation
24:41with Lisa
24:42and they both agreed
24:43that if I wanted to stay,
24:44I was welcome.
24:46I could pay my way
24:46by doing jobs.
24:48Laundry, ironing, cooking.
24:50Like a housekeeper, sort of.
24:53I've never been a lucky person,
24:56but I felt lucky that morning.
24:59Lisa was so pleased
25:00when I said yes
25:00that she gave me the perfume.
25:02The one she'd lent me.
25:04A big bottle.
25:05I said I'd wear it every day.
25:08I did.
25:10I got on well with everyone.
25:13Lisa and Wes were brilliant.
25:16I didn't have to answer
25:17any questions.
25:18I didn't have to go back.
25:20The house was perfect.
25:23It was my home.
25:26I got fed up
25:27with having sex with Lisa.
25:28I did it,
25:29but I didn't fancy her.
25:30I wasn't the only person
25:31she was having sex with either.
25:33How once a week
25:33they'd do their trick
25:34in the pub.
25:35One step, mate.
25:36That's it.
25:39Come on, Wes.
25:40Bring him up.
25:41He's coming.
25:42No, not that door, mate.
25:44Up the stairs.
25:45You all right out there?
25:46Sorry, Jase.
25:48I'm not drunk.
25:50No, of course you're not.
25:51Go on up there.
25:53Don't take your trousers up
25:54until we get there.
25:56Oh, no, don't worry.
25:57You might as well leave them on.
25:59Bye.
26:00It happened once a week
26:01at first,
26:02but slowly,
26:03gradually,
26:04over months and months,
26:05it went from once a week
26:06to twice a week
26:07to three times a week
26:08until they were bringing
26:08people back every night.
26:10I could never be sure
26:11exactly what was going on.
26:12Why are you some Indian men?
26:14I'm bald.
26:15I thought you wanted African men.
26:17I want varieties.
26:19Poles, Portuguese.
26:20I want women as well.
26:21I've had a woman for weeks.
26:22What's the matter with you?
26:23All right, don't do your nut.
26:24Don't you do your nut.
26:26And don't let me down, Wes.
26:28Don't let me down.
26:29Don't let me down.
26:32Soon the men weren't
26:33only coming at night.
26:34It was any time.
26:35They all had to pass my room.
26:37I stopped going upstairs for sakes.
26:39I couldn't face it anymore.
26:42Right.
26:43I'll fix our fuse in the kettle.
26:45Anything else you need doing?
26:46Oh, I love this song.
26:47Yeah.
26:51So, is there anything
26:52that needs doing?
26:53Only me, Jason.
26:55I need doing.
26:59Oh, you're on the gin.
27:02So what?
27:03You haven't been up
27:04to see me for ages.
27:05No.
27:06I thought we had an agreement.
27:07Well, you know, you're always
27:09so busy with others.
27:10Well, that's not the point, is it?
27:14Should I...
27:18Oh, let's not piss about, Jason.
27:19I was getting bored
27:20of your moves anyway.
27:23Let's not worry about it.
27:24Okay.
27:27Are we okay?
27:29Where's the lights
27:30of you being around?
27:32We're mates.
27:33Yeah, we'll leave things there.
27:37Unless things change.
27:39Found it hard to look at her.
27:41It was the thought of all those
27:42naked bodies in her bed.
27:43All that sweat and rubbing.
27:46Wes?
27:47Yes, mate?
27:49Is Lisa a prostitute?
27:50I suppose she is, yeah.
27:55I saw a man giving her money.
27:57It must have been in his 70s.
27:58A bit scabby.
28:00Well, she caters for every taste.
28:03I don't shag her anymore.
28:05I noticed.
28:07It's a shame.
28:08But it's up to you, Jase.
28:11Lisa's got her needs.
28:12I like to see her looked after.
28:15Don't worry about it, mate.
28:18Not going to come between us
28:19being pals, is it?
28:21Lisa was putting on weight.
28:23And I don't think she was
28:24washing herself properly.
28:25She used strong perfume.
28:27And that was the smell
28:27of the staircase.
28:28Now, perfume and sex.
28:32The men coming to the house
28:33were desperate.
28:36One of my jobs
28:37was to go to the local shop.
28:39It was nice being trusted
28:40with money.
28:42But I didn't like going out.
28:45People stared at me
28:46and whispered to each other.
28:47Made me feel awkward.
28:49Sometimes they said things.
28:51A woman stopped me
28:52in the street.
28:54She was old
28:54and seemed nice at first.
28:56She wanted to know
28:57if I was all right.
28:59I said that I was.
29:00She rubbed my arm
29:01and told me to get away
29:02from that house
29:03and those people.
29:05I walked away.
29:07She started shouting
29:08nasty things.
29:09She called me
29:10a filthy pig.
29:12I wanted to get back
29:13to the house.
29:14I was walking fast
29:16and was trying
29:17not to cry.
29:18A gang of girls
29:19across the street
29:20saw me
29:20and started shouting things.
29:22One of them
29:23threw a stone.
29:24It caught me
29:24on the side of the head.
29:26They came over
29:27and blocked my way
29:28and pushed me
29:29until I fell on the floor.
29:30Then they spat at me.
29:32I was terrified.
29:34I ran back to the house,
29:35shaking.
29:36My whole body.
29:38I couldn't stop
29:39the shaking.
29:41I couldn't control it.
29:44Ian found me
29:45in the laundry room
29:46curled in a ball.
29:48He wanted to know
29:49if Wes or Lisa
29:50had done something to me.
29:52My head was bleeding.
29:55It was when we were
29:56working together
29:57that Wes was at his best.
29:59He was always enthusiastic.
30:01He loved work.
30:04He was always
30:04decorating the house too.
30:05The cellar
30:07and the garden
30:08were his favourite places.
30:10Always had a project on.
30:12But every few months
30:14he liked to change things.
30:16With Lisa spending
30:17more time in bed
30:18the bedroom
30:19became Wes's focus
30:20for a while.
30:21I'm not there.
30:22I'm over there.
30:23No, wait a minute.
30:24This place has been
30:25out of four.
30:26Yeah, I want to party
30:27in the field.
30:28Oh, is that why
30:28you want a fridge?
30:29For nibbles?
30:30Nibbles, you know.
30:31People don't like warm wine.
30:33You want to get
30:33Jason and drunk,
30:34is that it?
30:34It's the only way
30:36you'd keep him
30:36on his back.
30:37Don't bring me into it.
30:38I want to get peace
30:39like a party.
30:40What's Jason got to do
30:41with it?
30:41You tell me what
30:42Jason's got to do
30:43with it.
30:44Nothing.
30:44That's what Jason's
30:45got to do with it.
30:46Nothing.
30:46I just want a bar.
30:47We've got a bar.
30:48Not up here, we haven't.
30:50You want a bar
30:51in your bedroom.
30:52Oh, don't you?
30:53Hey, let's use
30:54your imagination with me.
30:55Oh, wait a minute.
30:58I'll use my imagination
31:00and I'll give you a bar.
31:02That is what I want,
31:07you stupid sod.
31:20Oh, you'll give me
31:22an heartache one day.
31:23You will.
31:24All right.
31:25All right.
31:27And I'll take care of it.
31:28You know I'll do
31:31anything with you.
31:31Oh, thanks, Liz.
31:34You're very welcome,
31:35darling.
31:36Another thing, right?
31:37I want a big screen
31:38on that wall for porn.
31:41Yeah?
31:42Right.
31:45Of course Wes and Lisa
31:46hadn't done anything to me.
31:48That's what I told Ian.
31:50Then I told him about
31:51the girls in the street
31:52and the pushing
31:53and the spitting
31:54and the stone
31:56and the old woman.
31:56I didn't want
31:58to go back outside
31:59but he made me.
32:02He had his naughty face.
32:04When he had that face
32:05he wasn't scared of anything
32:06and looked a lot older
32:08than he was.
32:09We went looking
32:10for the girl gang
32:11but they were gone.
32:13We found a couple
32:14of teenage lads
32:15on the corner instead.
32:17They made a comment
32:17as we passed.
32:19Ian spun around
32:20straight away
32:21and started shouting
32:22at them.
32:23I was glad
32:24he was on my side.
32:25He was half the lad's size
32:27but he was ready
32:28to fight.
32:30He went after them
32:31pushed them
32:32screamed at them.
32:33He was wild
32:34with anger.
32:35The boys were scared
32:36and walked off.
32:39I was shaking again
32:41like I do.
32:43Ian put his arm
32:43around me
32:44and said everything
32:45would be all right.
32:47He was only little
32:47but he made me
32:49feel better.
32:50I said I was amazed
32:51how angry he got.
32:52He said he got it
32:55from his mother
32:55and father.
32:58I had a dream
32:59one night
32:59that the house
33:00was a stone
33:00and everyone
33:02was an insect
33:03under it
33:04crawling around
33:06in the shadows.
33:08We all had
33:09the same eyes.
33:13The men
33:13visiting Lisa
33:14got worse.
33:16They had those
33:16eyes too
33:17when they passed
33:18me on the stairs.
33:20Dirty
33:20and dead.
33:24Things happened
33:25at night
33:25so I didn't
33:26always know
33:27when I was
33:27dreaming
33:28and when I
33:29wasn't.
33:42Bloody
33:43was the
33:48at night.
33:49So
33:51I
33:53was
33:55at night
34:00.
34:01I
34:02was
34:02but
34:02I
34:02was
34:03I
34:03was
34:04that
34:04I
34:05was
34:05I
34:06was
34:07was
34:07that
34:07I
34:08was
34:08all
34:09was
34:09what
34:09I
34:10was
34:11I
34:11was
34:11What are you doing, Wes?
34:15Feeling a bath.
34:16What? This is a bedroom.
34:18Not anymore. It's a bathroom now.
34:21You know it's half three in the morning.
34:22Yes.
34:24Lisa wants another bathroom.
34:27I thought I heard crying and a rat.
34:30You must have been dreaming.
34:31It's half three in the morning.
34:34What, am I dreaming now?
34:36I don't know.
34:39You're working late.
34:41No, I'm not, Jase.
34:43I'm working early.
34:53In every street, there's that house.
34:57I'm the one mothers tell kids to stay away from.
35:01I was living in that house.
35:05We got back to the house.
35:08Ian told me to wait in the hallway while he went upstairs.
35:11I could hear him going up and up and up right to the top to Wes and Lisa's bedroom.
35:18I'd never been up there.
35:21When he came down, he had a bottle of gin from Lisa's fridge, he said.
35:27We went out again.
35:29He took me along a lane, up the hill, and into a field with horses.
35:33It was called Bower Hill.
35:37High up, we could see the whole of Essex.
35:42Ian opened the bottle.
35:44I had two sips and started giggling.
35:47Ian had a gulp.
35:48He giggled, too.
35:50We laid on our backs on the grass and giggled.
35:53We stayed there for ages, talking about nothing.
35:56After a while, I realized we were holding hands.
36:03We looked down over Essex.
36:05The houses.
36:07The streets.
36:08The fields.
36:10All tiny below us.
36:12It was like Essex belonged to us.
36:15Ian leant towards me.
36:16And I thought he was going to kiss me.
36:20But he didn't.
36:22He whispered in my ear.
36:24He said he liked my black hair.
36:27Just like before.
36:29The first words he said to me.
36:34When it got dark, it was time to go.
36:39I'm thinking of moving out.
36:44We're yelling, aren't we?
36:45Things are changing, especially Lisa.
36:48You know what she's like.
36:49She gets bored by normal stuff.
36:52I'm not sure what normal is anymore.
36:54I don't know what I'd do without you.
36:58Did you drill a hole in my bedroom wall?
37:00I did, yeah.
37:01In spiral.
37:02So you can look in?
37:03That's right.
37:04What for?
37:04I got the wrong wall.
37:06I thought it was little Ian's room.
37:08Oh.
37:09You've got to keep an eye on them, haven't you?
37:11Just like my daddy kept an eye on me.
37:13Just like my daddy and me.
37:14Just like my daddy.
37:15Me.
37:16You've been doing a lot of drilling, Wes.
37:19Spy holes spice up the love life.
37:21Two-way mirrors.
37:22Digital video.
37:24Lisa had two blokes on the go the other night.
37:26But she said it felt like three because I was watching through an hole.
37:31Makes me feel like I'm involved.
37:34It makes me feel like I'm...
37:35God.
37:38Look.
37:42Listen to me.
37:44I'm going to be honest.
37:47I want you to stay, Jase.
37:48You mean a lot to me.
37:51You're my best mate.
37:52I love you.
37:54Not in that way, though.
37:58I only heard the good things that Wes said to me.
38:00My best mate.
38:01Mean a lot.
38:02I was flattered.
38:03I decided to stay in the house because I believed in Wes.
38:07And anyway, I...
38:09I don't think I could have left even if I wanted to.
38:12I didn't know how to leave someone who...
38:17Loved me.
38:20When we got back, the house was quiet and dark.
38:23We cracked inside on our tiptoes.
38:27Suddenly the lights came on and Lisa and Wes appeared.
38:30They didn't look happy.
38:32They told me to go to my room.
38:34And Wes grabbed Ian's arm really tight.
38:37Wes took Ian upstairs.
38:39Lisa watched me go down to my room.
38:42They were right.
38:44We'd done wrong.
38:46I put on my Donald Duck Nighty and got under the duvet.
38:50I thought about Ian.
38:52How much I liked him.
38:55We'd had such a nice day together.
38:57I hoped he wasn't in too much trouble.
39:00I drank some of the gin, too.
39:03I felt guilty.
39:04I couldn't sleep.
39:06I couldn't sleep for ages.
39:09So I got up and went upstairs.
39:13I could hear noises.
39:16When you live with odd people, you become odd, too.
39:18You're part of it.
39:19You can't see yourself anymore.
39:21Nothing is clear or straightforward.
39:23I remember that night in the springtime.
39:29I was in bed.
39:31And the sounds in the house were as bad as ever.
39:33Coming from above.
39:37I was in another dream.
39:39I mean, who did they have up there?
39:40Well, Filthy Animal was up there tonight.
39:42It was really late, but people were up.
39:46I thought I could hear Ian's voice.
39:48But I wasn't sure.
39:51The sounds were desperate.
39:53I heard struggles before in the house.
39:55Lisa liked to experiment.
39:56But this time, it was different.
40:01It was the sound of unhappiness.
40:05It was the sound of a heart breaking.
40:06Oh, Jesus.
40:19I went out into the landing.
40:41That's where the noise was coming from.
40:43Upstairs.
40:43I had a choice.
40:50Go up.
40:53Or go down.
41:01I started to climb the stairs to see if I could find Ian.
41:04To see if I could help.
41:07But someone was coming down.
41:10But I was going up and someone was coming down.
41:12I'd made my decision.
41:14I wanted to get away from that sound.
41:18But there was someone on the stairs.
41:20Coming up.
41:21Blocking my way.
41:25She had a T-shirt with Donald Duck on it.
41:29She was a tiny thing.
41:31White skin and sad eyes.
41:33With beautiful black hair.
41:36He was a huge man.
41:38A giant.
41:38He was so big he could pick me up with one hand and swallow me whole if he wanted.
41:45Her look.
41:47The way she looked at me.
41:50Did she think I was going to...
41:52He was crying.
41:54It was like meeting a ghost.
41:56Or an angel.
41:58I could still hear Ian.
41:59I had to go up.
42:01But the giant was in my way.
42:02I was moving away from the sound.
42:05But she was going to face it.
42:08This tiny girl.
42:11That's when I did something.
42:13He looked very serious.
42:14I shook my head.
42:15And put my hand up.
42:17He shook his head.
42:18Meaning, don't go up there.
42:21That's what I was saying.
42:22He was certain.
42:23I shook my head.
42:24So I stopped and didn't go up.
42:28And we stood there facing each other.
42:31Eventually there was silence again.
42:33And after a while.
42:35The noises went away.
42:40I looked at her.
42:41Hoping that she might smile.
42:44But she didn't.
42:46She went back down the stairs and disappeared.
42:51And I sat there for an hour.
42:53And nothing happened.
42:57Except somewhere I could hear.
43:00Wes.
43:01Whistling.
43:05He whistled when he was working.
43:09Ian ran away in the night.
43:12That's what Lisa said the next morning.
43:15I never had the chance to say goodbye.
43:19No one talked about him after that.
43:21But I missed him.
43:25The next day I had a bad time at the shop.
43:28A woman shouted at me.
43:30Called me dirty.
43:31And said that I was Wes Bell's whore.
43:34I wasn't.
43:36When I got home.
43:37It was my turn to cook the dinner.
43:40I was doing egg and chips.
43:41But I made a mess of it.
43:43The egg yolks broke.
43:44And the chips burnt.
43:46I hadn't done a good job.
43:47And I felt ashamed.
43:49Wes didn't mind.
43:49He'd eat anything burnt or not.
43:51But Lisa was angry.
43:53She grabbed me by the arm and ripped my top.
43:56I had to stand there in my bra.
43:58With Wes looking and everything.
44:01She shouted at me.
44:02She slapped me on the face.
44:04And when my head went down.
44:06She hit me on the top of my head.
44:09Her ring cut me.
44:10There was blood.
44:11I didn't have much to do in that house.
44:15Why couldn't I get the little bits I did have to do right?
44:19Why did I have to be so shaky and clumsy?
44:22Why did I have to be such a stupid, lazy little cow?
44:26A stupid, lazy little tramp off the street.
44:29I kept apologizing.
44:31I was really sorry.
44:33I'd messed everything up.
44:35She screamed at me.
44:37Wes told me to go to my room.
44:38And I went straight there.
44:42I had to leave the house.
44:46Wes came down to my room later.
44:48He brought me a chip sandwich because he knew that I hadn't finished my dinner.
44:52She just had a temper sometimes.
44:54And it was her time of the month.
44:56So she was a bit over the top.
44:59He made me feel a lot better.
45:00I asked him if he would tell Lisa how sorry I was that I mucked everything up.
45:06I'd do anything to make things all right again.
45:09He gave me a kiss on the forehead and said it would all be forgotten by the morning.
45:15Then he smiled and winked and went.
45:19It was still quite early, so I wasn't ready to sleep.
45:22I read my book instead.
45:24The one Lisa had given me.
45:26By Jilly Cooper.
45:27I didn't let that girl go up the stairs, but perhaps that was just me being stupid.
45:34Wes was my friend.
45:36Wes was her father.
45:39I stayed in the house.
45:43I was still reading Jilly Cooper when Wes came back.
45:47He didn't knock.
45:48He came in and stood in front of me.
45:51Didn't say a word.
45:54Kissed my forehead.
45:55Then he started whistling.
46:00What did I really imagine was going on?
46:03I put Jilly Cooper down.
46:06Wes was whistling quietly.
46:09He had a black plastic bin bag.
46:11I thought he was collecting rubbish.
46:14But he wasn't.
46:15All I could smell in there was the perfume I was wearing.
46:22Lisa's perfume.
46:24I don't think he meant for me to die.
46:28Not then.
46:29I think it was an accident.
46:32Sort of.
46:34But my lungs tightened.
46:36Fast.
46:38You don't last long without air.
46:40There was pain.
46:45But it was over quickly.
46:49I was dead.
46:52I stayed in the house for a long time after that night.
46:55But it was different.
46:58I wasn't part of the family anymore.
47:01I was like a ghost in the house.
47:02Like I didn't exist.
47:08Then one day the police came and took Wes away.
47:12An anonymous tip-off.
47:14A concerned neighbour.
47:18Then they sent people round to dig up Wes's garden.
47:20It's nippy out there.
47:32They're going to dig into the night.
47:35They've got lamps.
47:38They started with mechanical diggers but...
47:41Now they're using spades as well.
47:44They kept Wes in.
47:47Arrested.
47:48They said so.
47:49They told me they dug for what.
47:51Have they found any more?
47:53Another two.
47:56They're digging deep.
47:58They blow a whistle when they find one.
48:02The diggers stop.
48:05Six so far.
48:08And you've been watching all day.
48:10I can't look away.
48:14Six.
48:16Doesn't look good, does it?
48:19How was he?
48:24He was making jokes.
48:26He had them all in love.
48:33Seven.
48:38No one came in.
48:40No one looked for me.
48:41I was left in the room all the next day.
48:45Lying there dead in my Donald Duck nighty.
48:49Then another day passed.
48:53The day after that, Wes came in.
48:55He put me into a huge green waste bag.
48:58And carried me over his shoulder.
49:01The sun had gone down when he took me into the garden.
49:03It must have taken a lot of work to dig that hole.
49:09When the police finished in the garden, they started on the house.
49:14They dug down under the floorboards and into the foundations.
49:18They looked inside the walls.
49:20They turned the place into a shell.
49:21They took me in.
49:25Questioned me at length.
49:26Investigated me.
49:29They weren't interested.
49:31They said I hadn't known what was going on.
49:33I didn't...
49:34But...
49:35But if...
49:36If I told that girl not to go upstairs,
49:40then surely that proves that...
49:41That I must have known something.
49:43I wasn't alone under the ground.
49:49Ian was there with me.
49:50And others.
49:53When they found me,
49:55the police were gentle.
49:57They reached in and pulled me out.
49:59It was a blue sky that day.
50:03One of the policemen cried when he saw my Donald Duck nighty.
50:07They had a box made of strong cardboard to put me in.
50:10They carried the box carefully to a van.
50:14And the van took me to a room that was cold and had a fluorescent light.
50:18I stayed there for a long time.
50:22Lisa denied everything.
50:26Wes accepted all responsibility.
50:29Twelve bodies were discovered in all.
50:32Four of them were killed before I arrived at the house.
50:36I felt responsible for them too.
50:38Daisy is not my real name.
50:43They couldn't identify my remains and no one had listed me missing.
50:47A police scientist nicknamed me Daisy because of the duck on my t-shirt.
50:51It was Donald, really.
50:52But they called me Daisy.
50:55When Wes was on remand,
50:57the prison officer followed a trail of blood leading from the showers to Wes's cell.
51:02When he got there, he found Wes sitting in a chair with his back to the door.
51:05It looked like he was waiting for someone.
51:06In fact, he had been kicked to death.
51:12Six different pairs of boots had done it.
51:16The guards had liked Wes.
51:19It was a laugh.
51:21If someone wrote the story of my life,
51:24they wouldn't know what to call me.
51:25When Lisa heard about Wes,
51:28she tried to rip her own eyes out.
51:32She was sectioned under the Mental Health Act.
51:36At a trial, she got life.
51:39Later, she found Jesus.
51:41But they won't be letting her out.
51:45Daisy isn't my real name.
51:48Daisy is the name they called me.
51:51I went back to the police.
51:52I wanted to give another statement.
51:54They had to understand that I was guilty.
51:58I told them everything again.
51:59Everything.
52:00About the conversations in the van,
52:01the men on the stairs,
52:02the perfume and sex,
52:03the building work,
52:04the nights down the pub,
52:05the porno films,
52:06the holes in the walls,
52:07the soup in the kitchen,
52:08the fluorescent light that buzzed,
52:11the Donald Duck before breakfast,
52:12the insects under the stone,
52:13the story of how Wes and Lisa first met
52:15and how I wished that they had never met
52:17because maybe that was what had done it.
52:19Then I told them about the look
52:20the tiny girl gave me
52:21and how I saw that look
52:23every time I closed my eyes.
52:25I told them about her beautiful black hair.
52:28About the way I shook my head.
52:31About sitting on the stairs
52:32and the whistling.
52:32And I told them about the I love you.
52:34I told them about the whistling.
52:36I told them everything.
52:39And they believed me.
52:40Well, they said that none of it was my fault.
52:44They didn't understand.
52:46They said,
52:47how could you have imagined
52:50what was going on?
52:55I told them that I was a coward.
52:59And that that tiny girl
53:00was going up the stairs to fix it all
53:03and that she was brave.
53:05And I was weak.
53:07I must have known what was going on
53:10because I shook my head.
53:12I knew what was going on.
53:13I knew what was going on.
53:16But I didn't know who I was
53:18because I fell for Wes.
53:21Because I was lonely.
53:24My real name is Beth.
53:27I went back to the house
53:36with a can of petrol
53:37to burn it to the ground.
53:39There was too much security
53:40keeping the drunks out.
53:42I couldn't get near it.
53:45I went to the horse field
53:46up the lane.
53:48Sat on the grass.
53:52You could see all the stars
53:53that night.
53:54Bower Hill.
53:55It looks down on Essex.
53:59You see it all
54:00spread out beneath you.
54:02All the street lamps shining.
54:06It made me feel alone.
54:09I poured the petrol over my head
54:11then let her match.
54:13It only hurt for a second.
54:15And once you've burnt
54:16your nerve endings off
54:17it stops hurting.
54:19But then there's no turning back.
54:22I went to it like a candle.
54:23The boy who fed the horses
54:27found me first.
54:29Then the police came.
54:34The coroner released
54:35what was left of me
54:36to the state.
54:37A man from the council
54:39came and collected me
54:40in my box.
54:42He took me to a local
54:43crematorium where I was
54:44cremated.
54:45If someone told the story
54:50of my life
54:50I wouldn't be
54:52the main character.
54:58I walk in the park now.
55:01The dead trees
55:01the white skies
55:03my baggy trousers
55:05my thin hair
55:06and big belly
55:07like a clown.
55:11I'd look stupid
55:12if anyone looked.
55:18I hoped the pain
55:19would ease
55:20over the years
55:21but it doesn't.
55:24The man took my ashes
55:35into the gardens
55:36attached to the crematorium.
55:38It was bright and sunny.
55:41A lovely day.
55:44He scattered me
55:45among the grasses
55:45and the flowers.
55:48Some of me
55:48drifted away
55:49in the wind.
55:49If someone told
55:54the story of my life
55:55I wouldn't be
55:56the main character.
55:58They wouldn't even
55:59give me the last line.
56:13In Wes Bell
56:14Jason was played
56:16by Sean Dooley
56:17Daisy was played
56:18by Natalie Press
56:19Wes Bell
56:20was played
56:21by Jamie Foreman
56:22and Lisa Bell
56:22was played
56:23by Juliet Cowan.
56:25Wes Bell
56:25was written
56:26by Matthew Broughton
56:27and it was produced
56:28and directed
56:29by Sam Hoyle.
56:30Wes Bell
56:31was first heard
56:32on BBC Radio 3.
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