Agnes Grey by Anne Brontë

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Agnes Grey  Author Anne Brontë Adaptor Rachel Joyce Producer and Director Tracey Neale  Game of Thrones star Ellie Kendrick stars in Rachel Joyce's adaptation of Anne Bronte's debut novel.  This is the story of Agnes, aged 19 and determined to take care of herself and help the family finances. But what can a young girl with no money, no connections and no prospects do?  How does a young woman find her way in the world..? She has to become a governess.  So begins Agnes’s journey of self-discovery and a search for love...  Omnibus of five episodes.  Cast Agnes Grey ... Ellie Kendrick Mrs Grey ... Juliet Aubrey  Mr Grey ... John Bowler Mrs Bloomfield ... Catriona McFarlane  Mr Bloomfield ... David Sterne Tom ... Felix Lailey  Mary Ann ... Amy Jayne Leigh Edward Weston ... George Watkins  Mr Hatfield ... Luke MacGregor Rosalie ... Keziah Joseph  Matilda ... Natasha Cowley Mrs Murray ... Karen Bartke  Nancy ... Alison Belbin  BBC Radio 4. 2017  Do you enjoy the variety on Oldtuberadio? Like, Share and Subscribe to be notified of our new shows #radio #crime #thriller #drama To Support this channel please visit https://www.buymeacoffee.com/oldtuberadio https://ko-fi.com/oldtuberadio98 https://www.patreon.com/oldtuberadio https://locals.com/Oldtuberadio

Transcript

00:00:00When I was small, I had a kitten, a soft, sweet little thing.

00:00:30We played all day.

00:00:36It was a sheltered life.

00:00:40Sometimes, my mother told me stories of her past, and I longed to see more of the world.

00:00:48And then I grew up.

00:00:54Everything.

00:00:56All of it?

00:00:58Yes.

00:01:00All gone.

00:01:05Mama?

00:01:08Your father made an investment in sugar.

00:01:14He did it in good faith.

00:01:17But the ship went down.

00:01:20So did the cargo.

00:01:20We've lost everything, Agnes.

00:01:25The coach house and stable were let.

00:01:30The two maid servants dismissed.

00:01:33To save expense, my sister and I undertook to keep the garden in order.

00:01:37All the cooking and household work was done by my mother and sister, with a little help from me.

00:01:43I say a little because I was still a child in their eyes.

00:01:46My father tormented himself.

00:01:48It's my fault.

00:01:50If I hadn't invested.

00:01:53You wanted to give us a better life.

00:01:56But you warned me not to.

00:01:57I wish, John, Agnes will hear.

00:01:59And Mary.

00:02:00It breaks my heart to see you work so hard.

00:02:05When I think of the sacrifices you made.

00:02:08Write to your family.

00:02:10I'd rather starve.

00:02:11Your father might help you.

00:02:13You and the girls.

00:02:14He turned his back on me when I married you.

00:02:16Do you think I want his help?

00:02:19You need to rest, John.

00:02:20You're making yourself ill.

00:02:22No money.

00:02:23No money.

00:02:26What have I done to you?

00:02:29And the girls?

00:02:31How will we survive?

00:02:34Thus, his mind preyed upon his body.

00:02:37Until, action by action, his health was seriously impaired.

00:02:42I had to think of a way to help.

00:02:44Could I do that?

00:02:47No, it's too heavy, love.

00:02:49Could I clean the range?

00:02:51I'll do it later.

00:02:53What can I do?

00:02:56Help your sister?

00:02:57Mary says she doesn't need me either.

00:02:59Oh, why don't you feed the cat?

00:03:02You're so good with her.

00:03:03So kind.

00:03:05I began to form an idea.

00:03:09Governess.

00:03:11No.

00:03:14I won't even hear of it.

00:03:15I like children.

00:03:16You don't know any children.

00:03:18I like animals.

00:03:19You think they're the same?

00:03:21I don't pretend I could instruct girls of my own age, but little ones I could.

00:03:24You've barely left the front gate.

00:03:26I'm 16.

00:03:27Girls of 12 have more experience than you.

00:03:29That's because you never let me do anything.

00:03:34How would you cope in a house full of strangers with a whole parcel of children, yourself included,

00:03:40and no one to look to for advice?

00:03:42You wouldn't even know what clothes to put on them.

00:03:47You've no idea how lonely it is.

00:03:51A governess is not one of the family, and she's not one of the servants.

00:03:54She's not even considered a rational living creature.

00:03:59She's nothing.

00:03:59Over the weeks, my father's health deteriorated.

00:04:11Do you need water?

00:04:15Yeah.

00:04:21You're a good little one.

00:04:24I want to do something.

00:04:27I want to be a governess.

00:04:30Agnes?

00:04:34He's not getting any better, is he?

00:04:39You have to let me help.

00:04:43And so, my mother promised to assist me with my endeavours.

00:04:46She wrote to my father's relations,

00:04:49her own relations she had dropped all communication with,

00:04:52and I was found a position with the two young children

00:04:54of a certain Mr and Mrs Bloomfield.

00:04:57She's not good.

00:04:58She's not good.

00:05:00She's not good.

00:05:01She's not good for me.

00:05:05It's not so far away.

00:05:09So there's no need to cry.

00:05:11You see?

00:05:19I have to make my way in the world

00:05:21How long and tedious the week seemed as I prepared to leave

00:05:26And yet, as my last night approached

00:05:31A sudden anguish seemed to swell my heart

00:05:35Goodbye, Glock

00:05:40Goodbye, window

00:05:47Goodbye, rug

00:05:52Goodbye, father

00:06:00Agnes

00:06:02I'll wait for you

00:06:05I could scarcely keep my eyes from overflowing

00:06:11Now remember all I've told you

00:06:18I will

00:06:19Always address the children as miss and master

00:06:21I will

00:06:21Parents do not like to be told their children's faults

00:06:23I know

00:06:24Don't answer back, never punish, your job is to submit

00:06:26I'll remember

00:06:27I love you, darling

00:06:30I love you too, my boss

00:06:33Look after father

00:06:35And Mary

00:06:36Write to me

00:06:38As we drove along, I thought about the new life ahead of me

00:06:44And my spirit revived

00:06:45Yet when we entered the lofty iron gateway

00:06:49When we approached the new but stately mansion

00:06:52I wished it were a mile or two further

00:06:54There was no retreating now

00:06:56But if Mr. and Mrs. Bloomfield were kind people

00:07:01I might do very well

00:07:03What is the matter, Mr. Bloomfield?

00:07:08The mutton is the matter, Mrs. Bloomfield

00:07:11I trust you will like the fish

00:07:12What kind of fish?

00:07:13I don't know what kind of fish

00:07:15I just told the cook to get fish

00:07:16Well, that beats everything

00:07:18A lady professes to keep house

00:07:20And doesn't even know what fish is for dinner

00:07:22You are not eating, Miss Gray

00:07:26I'm not hungry

00:07:29You have not been away from home before?

00:07:32No

00:07:32Your father was a clergyman?

00:07:35Yes

00:07:35I gather he is ill

00:07:36Your mother was from a good family

00:07:40But she married beneath her, I think

00:07:41And then he lost everything, isn't that right?

00:07:45Your poor mother

00:07:46I wonder she doesn't like to her family for help

00:07:48I suppose that is why she sent you away

00:07:51You will find the children not advanced in their attainments

00:07:54But they are clever and very apt to learn

00:07:56Especially our son

00:07:58He is the flower of the flock

00:08:00His sister is... delicate

00:08:03The following morning, I met my new charges

00:08:07Ow!

00:08:09Take that!

00:08:09Ow!

00:08:10Take that!

00:08:10Just let her out of the animal

00:08:11I was only brushing your head

00:08:12No, I'm in

00:08:13Take that!

00:08:14Take that!

00:08:15Die!

00:08:16Nice!

00:08:16Die!

00:08:17Die!

00:08:17Master time!

00:08:18Take that!

00:08:19What are you doing, Master Tom?

00:08:21Stop it!

00:08:21Killing pretend animals

00:08:23Take that!

00:08:24Take that, why?

00:08:25Die!

00:08:25Because there are no real ones

00:08:28Mya!

00:08:29Ah!

00:08:30Tom!

00:08:31Stop it!

00:08:31No, no, you can't strike her

00:08:33I must keep her in order

00:08:35It's not your business to keep her in order

00:08:37Well now

00:08:38Go and put on your bonnet

00:08:41I don't know, Master Tom

00:08:43It looks like rain

00:08:44I want to go outside

00:08:48I must go where they chose to lead me

00:08:53I must run, walk or stand exactly as it suited their fancy

00:08:57And they seemed to prefer the dirtiest places

00:09:01I was in constant fear

00:09:03Please pray, what in the devil's name are you doing?

00:09:06I can't get an incel

00:09:07But I insist on their being got in

00:09:09They're not even wearing coats

00:09:10They wouldn't put them on

00:09:11They won't listen

00:09:12Come in, you filthy brats

00:09:14Or I'll horse whip you

00:09:16There, you see?

00:09:19It's easy

00:09:20But for me, it was not so

00:09:26In vain over the following weeks

00:09:29I argued, coaxed, scolded

00:09:31In vain I was kind

00:09:33In vain I was angry

00:09:34Mary-Anne apparently preferred rolling on the floor

00:09:38To any other amusement

00:09:39Whilst her brother liked making bird traps

00:09:43Papa says birds are a nuisance

00:09:47And what do you do when you've caught the birds?

00:09:50Sometimes I give them to the cat

00:09:52Sometimes I slice them up

00:09:55The next one I mean to roast alive

00:09:58Why would you do such a horrible thing?

00:10:01To hear it scream

00:10:04Does your father know?

00:10:07He says it's being a man

00:10:09And your mama?

00:10:10Oh, she doesn't matter

00:10:12She's a woman

00:10:13I was exhausted

00:10:15I was lonely

00:10:17But I told myself

00:10:19I was doing this for my family

00:10:21My dear Agnes

00:10:24Your father is no better

00:10:27But yesterday we took a short walk

00:10:30To see the wild pansies

00:10:32Mr. Richardson from the next parish

00:10:36Has dropped by a few times to see Mary

00:10:38I believe they are growing fond of each other

00:10:41We speak of you all the time

00:10:45Your loving mother

00:10:48Very quiet in here

00:10:54Thank you, sir

00:10:56I was just reading a letter

00:10:58What are the children doing?

00:10:59They're grounding eggshells, madam

00:11:00I beg your pardon?

00:11:02They wanted to take some from a nest

00:11:03I said no

00:11:04I found these broken eggs instead

00:11:06And now they are mashing them

00:11:08They are pig-pigping

00:11:09You're giving my children broken eggshells

00:11:12I didn't see the harm in it

00:11:14To mash?

00:11:15I didn't want them hurting anything

00:11:16But birds

00:11:17There's no harm in children hurting birds

00:11:20Otherwise you make cowards of them

00:11:22After this, Mr. and Mrs. Bloomfield

00:11:26Were continually looking in

00:11:28To see if the schoolroom was in order

00:11:29And as the children were continually littering the floor

00:11:33I spent all my time on my hands and knees

00:11:36Winter turned to spring

00:11:39Come with me, Marianne

00:11:42Yes, um

00:11:43Look what I have

00:11:44They're slings

00:11:45Careful, Master Tom

00:11:47They're tiny

00:11:48Give one to me, Tom

00:11:49No

00:11:50They're all mine

00:11:52What are you going to do?

00:11:54I'm going to roast them

00:11:55One by one

00:11:57Tom, take them back to the place where you found them

00:11:59I order it

00:12:00Call me Master Tom

00:12:03I won't call you anything until you take those birds back

00:12:05I will not

00:12:06Then I will

00:12:07You daren't

00:12:08If you do

00:12:09I'll call Mama and Papa

00:12:11I don't care

00:12:12I shall do what I think right

00:12:14I shall turn them slowly over the flames

00:12:17What are you doing with that stone?

00:12:24At the risk of making myself sick

00:12:26At the risk of incurring the wrath of my employers

00:12:30I lifted the stone

00:12:33I closed my eyes

00:12:37You dropped it?

00:12:40Yes

00:12:40On a nest of birds?

00:12:43I am stunned, Miss Grey

00:12:45When a boy's amusements consist in hurting other creatures

00:12:52It is my duty to interfere

00:12:55You hardly showed mercy

00:12:56You killed them in the most shocking manner imaginable

00:13:00I didn't want to

00:13:03I was trying to save the pain

00:13:05The truth is, Miss Grey

00:13:06That since your arrival

00:13:07The children have made no improvement

00:13:09Though they are superior to most children

00:13:11They are behind in attainments

00:13:13Their manners are uncultivated

00:13:15And their temper's unruly

00:13:16Please

00:13:18Please, you are dismissed

00:13:19And so I sought my home again

00:13:23Unable, after all my boasting

00:13:26To keep my place for as much as a year

00:13:28No matter what the next family were like

00:13:32I had to try again

00:13:34With my father ill and our fortunes lost

00:13:50I had decided to leave home

00:13:52And make my way in the world

00:13:54A governess?

00:13:56You have no idea how lonely it is

00:13:58Come in, you filthy brats

00:14:00Or I'll horse whip you

00:14:01And the next one

00:14:02I mean to roast alive

00:14:05You are dismissed

00:14:06For a few months I remained at home

00:14:09In the quiet enjoyment of liberty

00:14:11And genuine friendship

00:14:12But it could not last

00:14:14I needed to find more work

00:14:17But why, Agnes?

00:14:19Our dads are almost paid

00:14:21Father's no better, Mama

00:14:23He can't work

00:14:25The best I can do is look for a new situation

00:14:28And supposing the next child tries to torture a bird

00:14:32Not everyone is like the Bloomfields

00:14:35No

00:14:36Some are worse

00:14:37Even if I should stumble on such a family again

00:14:41I have all this experience now

00:14:43Well, my darling, you are not easily discouraged

00:14:47I'm glad of that

00:14:49After the Bloomfields

00:14:51I would think you'd had enough

00:14:53The advertisement was written and dispatched

00:14:58Of the two parties who answered it

00:15:00Only one would consent to give me the sum

00:15:02My mother bade me name as my salary

00:15:04But, Agnes, this family lives over 70 miles away

00:15:08At least I will see something of the world

00:15:10And these are not young children like the Bloomfields

00:15:14They're barely a few years younger than you

00:15:15But they're more respectable

00:15:17They won't treat me like a servant

00:15:19No

00:15:20They will treat you worse

00:15:23But it was agreed

00:15:25I would become governess to the family of Mr. Murray of Horton Lodge

00:15:30No matter what they were like

00:15:33I must do my best to keep this situation

00:15:35The 31st of January was a wild, stormy day

00:15:40There was a strong north wind with snow whirling through the air

00:15:44You won't stop at home

00:15:50One more night

00:15:52It can't

00:15:53Right

00:15:56I will

00:15:58Often

00:15:59Let me know how father is

00:16:01Married to you

00:16:03And

00:16:05If there's any

00:16:07Change

00:16:08I'll send for you

00:16:12Goodbye, my love

00:16:17Go on now

00:16:22All day I sat in the carriage with the cold, sharp snow drifting through my veil and filling my lap

00:16:29At length, we arrived before the stately portico of a large house with long windows

00:16:35What lay ahead of me this time

00:16:41Hello?

00:16:51Hello?

00:16:51Is anyone here?

00:16:57Bloody hell

00:17:02Who are you?

00:17:04The governess

00:17:05I thought you were a damn ghost

00:17:08I'm just cold and wet and quite tired

00:17:15Mama

00:17:16She's here

00:17:18The new one

00:17:19Oh

00:17:21Are you it?

00:17:24Mum

00:17:25You look even more ill than the last one

00:17:27It's been a long journey

00:17:29Indeed it has

00:17:30We expected you this morning

00:17:32Mum

00:17:34Well, you're here now

00:17:36Matilda

00:17:36Yes

00:17:37Mama

00:17:38Rosalie

00:17:40Stop gazing at your affection

00:17:42And take a candle

00:17:43Show the new governess her room

00:17:45I followed a strapping girl of 14

00:17:50With her short frock and trousers

00:17:52And her sister, Rosalie

00:17:53A very pretty girl of about 16

00:17:56To a small but comfortable chamber

00:17:58I warn you, Miss Brown

00:18:02We don't like lessons

00:18:04It's grey

00:18:05What?

00:18:06My name

00:18:07She's called grey

00:18:09Bloody hell

00:18:11Wait till I tell the stable boys

00:18:13Alone at last

00:18:18I sat down beside the fire

00:18:21And gave in to a hearty fit of weeping

00:18:23It was with a strange feeling of desolation

00:18:36Mingled with the strong sense of the novelty of my situation

00:18:39And a joyless kind of curiosity as to what would happen next

00:18:43That I woke the next morning

00:18:45I felt dropped into an unknown land

00:18:49Completely isolated from everything I'd known before

00:18:52When I raised my blind

00:18:55A wild, white wilderness was all that met my gaze

00:18:58Miss grey

00:19:00There are a few rules I need you to understand

00:19:04You will remember your station

00:19:06And exercise no authority

00:19:08Is that clear?

00:19:10Yes

00:19:10Mrs Murray

00:19:11You will be mild and gentle

00:19:13Always

00:19:13Yes

00:19:14You will address the girls as Miss Murray

00:19:16And Miss Matilda

00:19:18They are not your friends

00:19:19Of course

00:19:20And remember

00:19:21If they do anything improper

00:19:23It is not your place to punish them

00:19:25Make them as happy as you can

00:19:28Miss grey

00:19:28And I dare say you will do well

00:19:30What lessons shall I begin with?

00:19:34French?

00:19:36Music?

00:19:36What do they know?

00:19:38No

00:19:38They don't know anything

00:19:41They're girls

00:19:42And so I began my stay at Horton Lodge

00:19:46Matilda cared nothing about the cultivation of her mind

00:19:50Oh, damn it

00:19:52This is just plaguing nonsense

00:19:54I'm going outside

00:19:57And Rosalie knew all her charms

00:19:59French, grey

00:20:01Why do I need to learn French?

00:20:05Whilst receiving my instructions

00:20:07Or repeating what they had learned

00:20:08They would lounge upon the sofa

00:20:10Lie on the rug

00:20:11Stretch

00:20:12Yawn

00:20:13Talk to each other

00:20:14Or look out of the window

00:20:16The fact is

00:20:18I don't need to know all this

00:20:20One day I'll be married

00:20:21It's the devil of a nice day

00:20:24Can't I go riding?

00:20:27I sometimes felt degraded by the life I led

00:20:30But for the sake of my family

00:20:32I smothered my pride and struggled on

00:20:34Weeks turned to months

00:20:36My father's health remained the same

00:20:39But I kept my post

00:20:41One afternoon

00:20:44As I was entering the schoolroom

00:20:46I happened to catch the two sisters in conversation

00:20:49I guess she's not bad

00:20:51She doesn't shout

00:20:52She doesn't say anything nice

00:20:54No, but she doesn't say anything horrible

00:20:56She never hits us

00:20:58When she's in a nice mood

00:20:59She talks

00:21:00She almost looks pretty when she smiles

00:21:02She's always thinking of what's right and wrong

00:21:05She has such a liking for good people

00:21:08Yes, that is a bit bloody tedious

00:21:10But that's what they have to do

00:21:12Old maids

00:21:14Won't she get married?

00:21:17Of course not

00:21:18She's a governess

00:21:19They had not even noticed me

00:21:22Standing there

00:21:23I left the schoolroom without a word

00:21:28At eighteen

00:21:33Miss Murray was to make her debut at a ball

00:21:35Which her mama proposed

00:21:36To give to all the choice nobility in the district

00:21:39And she was not the only one who was excited

00:21:42I was going home for Christmas

00:21:44Grey

00:21:47What are you up to?

00:21:50I'm reading a letter from my mother

00:21:51She's telling me all the things they're going to do

00:21:53Well, do stop

00:21:54I'm sure my talk must be far more interesting

00:21:57What do you want to tell me?

00:21:59I want to talk to you about the ball

00:22:01But we talked about it yesterday

00:22:03And the day before

00:22:04Grey

00:22:04You simply must stay

00:22:06You can't go home for Christmas

00:22:07I need to see my family

00:22:09But then you will miss the ball

00:22:11Don't you want to see me in my dress?

00:22:14I should like to see you very much

00:22:15But I'm sure I shall have many opportunities

00:22:17Of seeing you equally charming

00:22:19At numerous other balls

00:22:20And I cannot disappoint my family

00:22:23By postponing my visit

00:22:24My sister's getting married

00:22:26Is she?

00:22:27When?

00:22:28Next month

00:22:29I want to help in her preparations

00:22:31And spend a little time with her

00:22:32Who's she marrying?

00:22:34Mr. Richardson

00:22:34Mr. who?

00:22:36The vicar of a neighbouring parish

00:22:37Is he rich?

00:22:39Rich?

00:22:40No, he's comfortable

00:22:41Handsome?

00:22:42Decent

00:22:42Young?

00:22:44Middling

00:22:44Oh, mercy

00:22:46What's his house like?

00:22:48A quiet little vicarage

00:22:49With an old-fashioned garden

00:22:50Oh, stop

00:22:51You'll make me sick

00:22:53How can she bear it?

00:22:55She's very happy

00:22:56And will she go about

00:22:57In a plain shawl

00:22:58In a straw hat

00:22:59Carrying bone soup

00:23:01To poor people?

00:23:02I expect she will

00:23:03Our mother does

00:23:05Oh, I would rather die

00:23:07There's nothing for it, Grey

00:23:10I'm going to have to get myself a lord

00:23:13Despite Rosalie's protestations

00:23:17I went home for Christmas

00:23:19Agnes

00:23:21Mother

00:23:22Let me look at you

00:23:26How's father?

00:23:27No better, no worse

00:23:29But you

00:23:29You look so grown up

00:23:32Oh, come here

00:23:34Oh, happy Christmas, my love

00:23:37You can imagine my delight on being at home

00:23:40My happiness while there

00:23:42I helped my sister prepare for her wedding

00:23:45I sat with my father

00:23:47When I first met your mother, Agnes

00:23:50I couldn't believe how beautiful she was

00:23:54I couldn't believe she would ever look at me

00:23:59She was the squire's daughter

00:24:02I know

00:24:03But she did

00:24:04She looked at me

00:24:08She did

00:24:10Marry for love, Agnes

00:24:15Only for love

00:24:19When the time came to depart

00:24:25I hid my face

00:24:27And waved

00:24:28Back at Horton

00:24:34Rosalie and Matilda were full of their news

00:24:36Now, Grey

00:24:38Shut the door

00:24:39And I'll tell you about the ball

00:24:40No, dammit

00:24:41Let me tell her about my new mayor

00:24:43Such a corker

00:24:45Can I take my coat off first?

00:24:47Though I'm sorry, Miss Matilda

00:24:48You haven't stopped swearing in my absence

00:24:50Grey

00:24:51You never saw

00:24:52Or even dreamt about anything like the ball

00:24:55There were two noblemen

00:24:57Three baronets

00:24:58And five titled ladies

00:24:59The ladies, of course, were of no interest to me

00:25:02But I was just charming

00:25:04Wasn't I, Matilda?

00:25:05You were middling

00:25:06Everyone wanted to dance with me

00:25:09I made so many conquests

00:25:10I should think one would be enough

00:25:12And only if it was mutual

00:25:14Oh, don't preach now

00:25:15There's a good creature

00:25:17Sir Thomas Ashby couldn't keep his eyes off me

00:25:20And neither could Mr Hatfield

00:25:22The rector was at the ball

00:25:23He didn't dance or anything

00:25:24Though I could tell he was dying to ask for my hand

00:25:27By the way, he has a new curate

00:25:30What's his name?

00:25:31Easton

00:25:31Weston

00:25:32Whatever

00:25:33I can sum him in three words

00:25:35Dull

00:25:35Ugly

00:25:36That's two

00:25:38You'll see him for yourself at church

00:25:40He really is so frightful

00:25:42I was curious to see this new dull and ugly preacher

00:25:46My opportunity came one Sunday

00:25:49Miss Rosalie rushed me outside

00:25:51Well, what do you think?

00:25:54What?

00:25:55Mr Weston

00:25:56I have no idea

00:25:58I haven't heard him preach

00:25:59But isn't he ugly?

00:26:02He didn't strike me as ugly

00:26:03The only thing I noticed was the way that he read the lesson as if he meant it

00:26:07Oh, yes

00:26:08That's all he's good for

00:26:09Thank heavens I am not dependent on him for amusement

00:26:13Oh, no

00:26:14Don't look up

00:26:15What's wrong?

00:26:16Mr Hatfield is coming right towards us

00:26:18Pretend we're talking

00:26:20We are talking

00:26:20Yes, but pretend it's interesting

00:26:22Miss Murray

00:26:23Let me help you into your carriage

00:26:26Thank you, Mr Hatfield

00:26:28What a lovely sermon

00:26:30One has to give the uneducated members of the parish something to think about

00:26:34Half of them can barely string three intelligible words together

00:26:37I sometimes believe, Miss Murray, that were it not for the likes of such as yourself

00:26:43My gifts would be lost on a parish like Horton

00:26:46Are you safe, Leanne?

00:26:50Safe and sound

00:26:51I hope to see you soon, Miss Murray

00:26:55Well, I'm always walking with my book and visiting poor people

00:26:59I'm sure our paths will cross in front of the park gates on Tuesday morning

00:27:05Goodbye, Mr Hatfield

00:27:08In front of the gates, Tuesday morning

00:27:10Miss Murray

00:27:15Something's missing

00:27:17Where's the governess?

00:27:25Bloody hell

00:27:26Who are you?

00:27:27They are not your friends

00:27:29There's nothing for it, Grey

00:27:30I'm going to have to get myself a lord

00:27:33Marry for love, Agnes

00:27:35Only for love

00:27:37I had kept my post as a governess for over two years

00:27:42Yet never did I see one creature to whom I could open my heart or speak my thoughts

00:27:48My companions were a pair of ignorant girls

00:27:52And as I could not seem to make them better

00:27:55I began to fear they would make me worse

00:27:59Mama says we have to go and visit the poor

00:28:03It's right that you should visit those less fortunate than yourselves, Miss Murray

00:28:07Oh, don't be so tedious

00:28:08Can't you go?

00:28:11Me?

00:28:11It's so smelly down there

00:28:13They talk about such terrible things and half of them are damn dying

00:28:18Who are you supposed to be visiting?

00:28:20Nancy Brown

00:28:21She has a horrid eye infection

00:28:23And a cat

00:28:24Please go, Grey

00:28:26You like being good

00:28:28Accordingly, I went

00:28:30And found Nancy in a small little cottage

00:28:33Thick with smoke

00:28:34But as tidy and clean as she could make it

00:28:36My eyes is no better, Miss

00:28:38But I am a deal easier in my mind

00:28:41Oh, what's that?

00:28:43Do you know Mr. Weston?

00:28:45The new preacher?

00:28:47Maybe you haven't seen him, Miss

00:28:49Not to talk to

00:28:50I hardly ever see anyone to talk to, Nancy

00:28:52Except the young ladies at the hall

00:28:56He's not like the rector

00:28:58Last time Mr. Atfield came to visit

00:29:01He only stayed long enough to ask if I had seen Miss Rosalie

00:29:04And then he kicked the poor cat right across the floor

00:29:08Mr. Weston is different

00:29:12How?

00:29:14Well, I thought him not so pleasant looking at first

00:29:17Rather a bit crossish

00:29:20But he spoke so civil-like

00:29:24And when the cat jumped on his knee

00:29:26He just stroked him and gave him a smile

00:29:29Does he visit you often?

00:29:32He comes all the time

00:29:33You would like him, Miss Grey

00:29:36He's like you

00:29:37He's a good, kind person

00:29:41In returning to the lodge

00:29:43I felt happy

00:29:45I was glad to see the world was not all made up

00:29:48Of Bloomfields and Murrays and Hatfields

00:29:51I had something new to think about

00:29:54That Sunday was a day of peculiar delight for me

00:29:58I liked to listen to Mr. Weston

00:30:02I knew who's not handsome

00:30:04His dark brown hair was not carefully curled

00:30:08Like Mr. Hatfield's

00:30:09And yet he was not ugly either

00:30:13Excuse me

00:30:16Hello

00:30:17I think you dropped this

00:30:20Oh, my glove

00:30:23Yes, in the pew

00:30:25Thank you

00:30:29Mr....

00:30:32Weston

00:30:33I know

00:30:35And you're the governess at the lodge

00:30:36Miss Grey

00:30:38Can I stay?

00:30:43Yes

00:30:43May I walk you to the carriage?

00:30:48I saw then that he could smile

00:30:50And very handsomely, too

00:30:53The next visit I paid to Nancy

00:30:56I found her in some anxiety about her cat

00:30:59I tried reading, but she was not distracted

00:31:02Timmy's been gone all day, Miss Grey

00:31:05It's the gamekeepers I'm worried about

00:31:08If they find him, they'll set their dogs on him

00:31:11Who could that be?

00:31:16Excuse me, Miss Grey

00:31:17The only other person who visits is

00:31:20Mr. Weston

00:31:23I saved Timmy

00:31:24I saved Timmy, Nancy, from the hands

00:31:25Or rather, the gun

00:31:26Of Mr. Murray's gamekeeper

00:31:28God bless you, sir

00:31:30Let me take him

00:31:31Oh, Timmy, you naughty thing

00:31:34They'll be worried sick

00:31:36Miss Grey

00:31:38I had no idea you were here

00:31:40Mr. Weston

00:31:42You'll both stay till this shower gets awkward

00:31:46Here, Mr. Weston

00:31:48You sit there beside Miss Grey

00:31:50It's raining

00:31:55Yes

00:31:57What a lot

00:32:00Mr. Weston, you must let me brush those cat hairs from your coat

00:32:05You'll stay for tea

00:32:07Oh, thank you, Nancy

00:32:08But I've another cottage to visit

00:32:09Miss Grey, I hope you'll make my peace with Mr. Murray

00:32:15He was nearby when I rescued Timmy

00:32:17And treated me to some ungentlemanly language

00:32:21I fear I retorted a trifle too warmly

00:32:25I hope you didn't fall out with the master for the sake of Timmy

00:32:29It's no matter, Nancy

00:32:30I said nothing very uncivil

00:32:32And now I really must go

00:32:35Good evening, Nancy

00:32:36Miss Grey

00:32:37Good evening, Mr. Weston

00:32:39But please don't depend on me for making your peace with Mr. Murray

00:32:43I never see him

00:32:44At least he never speaks to me

00:32:47I'm the governess

00:32:48The loss is all his

00:32:52This time, it was my turn to smile

00:32:56Miss Murray now went to church twice on a Sunday

00:33:01Because she so loved admiration

00:33:03She could not bear to lose a single opportunity of obtaining it

00:33:07If weather permitted

00:33:09She and Matilda would walk home

00:33:10There was always a chance of being accompanied by a captain somebody

00:33:14And lieutenant somebody else

00:33:16I, of course, always walked behind

00:33:20Catching sight of wild pansies on such an occasion

00:33:24I tried to reach one

00:33:26Allow me

00:33:28Mr. Weston

00:33:30Yeah

00:33:31Thank you

00:33:33Do you like flowers?

00:33:35Some more than others

00:33:36Bluebells

00:33:38Pansies

00:33:39They remind me of home

00:33:42It must be a great comfort

00:33:45To know you have somewhere to go back to

00:33:47I couldn't live without it

00:33:48The ties that bind us to life are tougher than we imagine

00:33:52You might be miserable without your home

00:33:54But even you could live

00:33:56The human heart is like India rubber

00:33:59A little swells it

00:34:01But not much can burst it

00:34:03You speak from experience

00:34:05My mother died a few months ago

00:34:08I'm sorry

00:34:09My home now is a little hired room in Horton

00:34:13You don't know what happiness lies ahead of you

00:34:16That's true

00:34:19And neither do you

00:34:23Good afternoon

00:34:25Well, great

00:34:29No wonder you lingered behind

00:34:31We see it all

00:34:33We know now why she's so fond of visiting poor people

00:34:37She goes to flirt with Mr. Weston

00:34:39As for the pansy

00:34:42I pressed it between the leaves of my Bible

00:34:45I have it still

00:34:47It was around this time

00:34:51Miss Matilda purchased a puppy

00:34:53She soon became tired of Snap

00:34:55And allowed me to take care of him

00:34:57One morning we were playing in the park

00:35:00When we caught sight of Miss Rosalie

00:35:02The rector, Mr. Hatfield

00:35:05Saunted at her side

00:35:06Snap!

00:35:08Snap!

00:35:09Come back!

00:35:11Get off!

00:35:12Get off, you horrid thing!

00:35:14Snap!

00:35:15Snap!

00:35:16Snap!

00:35:17Snap!

00:35:18Snap!

00:35:19Snap!

00:35:20Snap!

00:35:21Snap!

00:35:22That's right!

00:35:23When shall I see you again, Miss Murray?

00:35:24At church, I suppose

00:35:25Unless your business chances to bring you here again

00:35:28precisely the same moment I pass by

00:35:31I could always have business here if I knew when and where to find you

00:35:36Oh, be off with you

00:35:38Good God!

00:35:39Where did she spring from?

00:35:41Grey has a habit of being in places even when you think she isn't

00:35:44She's practically invisible

00:35:46Goodbye, Miss Murray

00:35:47Goodbye, Miss Murray

00:35:48Goodbye, Miss Murray

00:35:49Did you ever see such a man?

00:35:53I thought I should never get rid of him

00:35:54Your mama thinks you ought not to go beyond the path

00:35:56Oh, mama is so tiresome

00:35:58I wish you would go down on his knees tomorrow

00:36:02just so that I could prove it to her

00:36:04I could never fall in love with him

00:36:06Then why do you encourage him?

00:36:07I must have someone to flirt with

00:36:09But Mama won't let me flirt with anyone except Sir Thomas

00:36:13for fear it will put him off

00:36:15And Sir Thomas is the greatest scamp in the whole of England

00:36:18Everyone knows that

00:36:20Does your mother?

00:36:21Of course

00:36:22But it's no great matter

00:36:25He'll be alright when we're married

00:36:27I only wish he was not so ugly

00:36:29Then I should think Mr Hatfield would be a better husband

00:36:32And so he would

00:36:34If he were Lord of Ashby Park

00:36:36But he isn't

00:36:38And Ashby Park is what I must have

00:36:41I shall just have to enjoy as much flirting as I can

00:36:44before I get there

00:36:45She talked no more to me about the rector

00:36:48But I could see that her mind, if not her heart

00:36:51was fixed upon him still

00:36:58Are you unwell?

00:37:00The truth is, I'm thinking of a poor person

00:37:04and I would like to give him some money

00:37:06but Mama would not approve

00:37:09You want me to go?

00:37:11I will just stay here

00:37:12I won't go anywhere

00:37:14Oh, please do it, Grey

00:37:17And take that mangy dog, will you?

00:37:20I delivered the half crown

00:37:21and read to the cottager a little while

00:37:23and then I hurried back

00:37:25Of course, there was no sign of Rosalie

00:37:27But instead

00:37:29Miss Grey

00:37:30Mr Weston

00:37:31At least it's not raining

00:37:34No

00:37:35Who's this?

00:37:37Snap, Miss Matilda's dog

00:37:38But she doesn't like him

00:37:39No one does, except me

00:37:41I like him

00:37:44I think you like animals

00:37:47I have a cat

00:37:48at home

00:37:50And once I...

00:37:51What?

00:37:52I lost my post for trying to save some birds

00:37:55Grey!

00:37:56Grey!

00:37:57That's you!

00:37:58I should leave you

00:38:00You will never guess you came upon me

00:38:01just after you had gone

00:38:03Was it by any chance Mr Hatchfield?

00:38:05I took care not to compromise myself

00:38:08But the wretch chose to interpret my amiability his own way

00:38:11And you'll never guess what

00:38:12I think I have an idea

00:38:13He proposed

00:38:15And?

00:38:16What did you say?

00:38:17I said I couldn't possibly marry him

00:38:19He looked as if he could have died

00:38:21He asked if money would have made any difference

00:38:23I said he could be the richest man in England

00:38:25I still wouldn't

00:38:26You said that?

00:38:27You have to put these men down, Grey

00:38:29Then what did he do?

00:38:30The arrogant wretch accused me of flirting

00:38:32He begged me not to mention our conversation to anyone

00:38:35Yes, yes, I said

00:38:36And then he ran away

00:38:37Longing, no doubt, to get home and cry

00:38:39I wouldn't be surprised if he burst into tears before he got there

00:38:42But you've broken your promise already

00:38:44How?

00:38:45You've told me

00:38:46You don't count

00:38:47You're in a very odd mood

00:38:49I suppose you're envious

00:38:51I shall go and tell Mama

00:38:55I did not envy her

00:38:57I was disgusted at her heartless vanity

00:38:59But the following morning at church

00:39:02She was despondent

00:39:05Perhaps she missed Mr. Hatfield's attention after all

00:39:10You are alone once again, Miss Grey

00:39:13Yes

00:39:15And yet you are surrounded by people

00:39:18I'm not in their class, Mr. Weston

00:39:22Or rather they consider themselves as moving in a very different sphere from me

00:39:26Are you so unsociable that you cannot make friends?

00:39:31No, but I never made one yet

00:39:33And in my present position there's no possibility of doing so

00:39:37The fault may be partly in myself, but I hope not altogether

00:39:42The fault is partly in society and partly in your neighbours

00:39:46And partly too in yourself

00:39:48But your pupils should be companions for you in some degree

00:39:51To some degree

00:39:53But I cannot call them my friends

00:39:55Nor would they think of bestowing such a name on me

00:39:58Perhaps you are too wise for them

00:40:01Do you read?

00:40:03Reading's my favourite occupation

00:40:05Mr. Weston

00:40:07Please, call me Edward

00:40:11Maybe you and I can be friends

00:40:15Are you off to visit the port, Mr. Weston?

00:40:18I am on my way to see one of my parishioners, Miss Murray

00:40:23It's so wonderful, the work you do

00:40:26It's my vocation

00:40:28I'm the same

00:40:30I'm always visiting poor people

00:40:32Aren't I, Grey?

00:40:34I could not speak

00:40:36I saw the bright smile with which she looked into his

00:40:39I trembled

00:40:41Oh, poor Grey

00:40:43She looks cold

00:40:44I must take her home, Mr. Weston

00:40:47Thank you for walking with us

00:40:49The pleasure was all mine

00:40:51Goodbye, Mr. Weston

00:40:53Yes, goodbye

00:40:55There

00:40:57I knew I could do it

00:40:59Do what?

00:41:01Fix that man

00:41:03What in the world do you mean?

00:41:05I mean that he will go home and dream of me

00:41:08I have shot him, Grey

00:41:09I have shot him, Grey

00:41:11I have shot him through his little heart

00:41:16Mr. Weston is different

00:41:19Maybe you and I can be friends

00:41:21I have shot him, Grey

00:41:23I have shot him through his little heart

00:41:27I was Grey, the governess

00:41:30I was supposed to feel nothing

00:41:33And yet it could not be so wrong

00:41:36To love Mr. Weston

00:41:38If only from a distance

00:41:40Beloved

00:41:42It was one of the gloomiest of April Sundays

00:41:44None of the Murrays were disposed to attend church

00:41:47Except, of course, for Rosalie

00:41:49I went with her

00:41:51For there I might look without fear

00:41:53Upon a form and face more pleasing to me

00:41:56Than the most beautiful of God's creations

00:41:58Oh, thank God that's over

00:42:02Follow me to the porch

00:42:04Is there someone you're hoping to meet?

00:42:06Maybe

00:42:08As I picked up her bonnet and prayer book

00:42:10My heart was beating fast

00:42:12I, too, was hoping to meet someone

00:42:15The carriage is just over there at the gate, look

00:42:19Well, I am not going out in that rain

00:42:21But everyone is gone

00:42:23Lord Ashby is not here

00:42:24And the rector looks busy

00:42:25Who gives a big about the rector?

00:42:28I've moved on

00:42:30Mr. Weston!

00:42:31Miss Murray?

00:42:32Miss Grey?

00:42:33Mr. Weston

00:42:35What awful weather

00:42:37Only a shower

00:42:38I shall probably catch my death

00:42:40I just had to come to church

00:42:43You read so...

00:42:45Nicely

00:42:49Please, take my coat

00:42:51Would you mind putting it round my shoulders, Mr. Weston?

00:42:55My poor arms are so cold

00:42:57I just can't lift them

00:42:59There

00:43:03Thank you

00:43:05I wonder if you would be so kind

00:43:07As to come with me tomorrow

00:43:09To visit a poor, sick old lady in the parish

00:43:13She really is so poor

00:43:15So sick

00:43:17Who exactly is this person, Miss Rosalie?

00:43:21A poor, sick one

00:43:23It would be my pleasure

00:43:26Shall we say ten o'clock?

00:43:28Ah, here comes Forbes, my umbrella

00:43:31Thank you, Mr. Weston

00:43:35Can I offer you my coat, Miss Grey?

00:43:37No, thank you

00:43:39I love rain

00:43:40Oh, but you'll get...

00:43:42Soaked

00:43:48I would have sent the footman back for you, Grey

00:43:51If I had known you'd get so wet

00:43:52It's nothing

00:43:53It's like sitting with a giant puddle

00:43:55Oh, there he is

00:43:58Mr. Weston

00:43:59Goodbye

00:44:01Goodbye

00:44:03Mind

00:44:05Why did he look up?

00:44:06Perhaps because we almost ran him into the ditch

00:44:08Stupid ass

00:44:09He doesn't know what he's lost

00:44:11What has he lost?

00:44:13A smile from me that would have raised him to the seventh heaven

00:44:16Well, what a shame he missed that

00:44:18I mean to take up with Mr. Weston

00:44:20Instead of Mr. Hatfield

00:44:22Did you hear, Grey?

00:44:24I heard

00:44:26The ball at Aspie Place takes place on Tuesday

00:44:28Mama is certain Sir Thomas will propose

00:44:31But if I am to be married so soon

00:44:34I must make the best of the present

00:44:35I must do all the flirting I possibly can

00:44:39Hatfield will not be the only clerical man to lay his heart at my feet

00:44:43I shall have Weston too

00:44:45And what will you do if he asks you to marry him?

00:44:47I don't want to marry the man

00:44:49I just want him to feel my power

00:44:51Why can't you feel your own power without making other people do it for you?

00:44:55What?

00:44:57You talk such riddles, Grey

00:44:59And you're dripping

00:45:00I said nothing for the rest of the journey

00:45:03But back in my room at Horton Lodge

00:45:05I threw off my wet coat and hat

00:45:08And I admit

00:45:10I wept

00:45:14It was the evening of the ball at Ashby Hall

00:45:17Well, Grey, how do I look?

00:45:20Beautiful

00:45:22Look at the two of us

00:45:23In the glass

00:45:25Me so dressed up

00:45:27And you so ordinary

00:45:30You really do look like a ghost, Grey

00:45:36Well, wish me luck

00:45:39Mama is convinced this is the night

00:45:42Lord Ashby has to propose

00:45:44I do wish you luck

00:45:46I wish you all the luck in the world

00:45:49I'll tell you all about it in the morning

00:45:52I was made to love

00:45:55And yet here I must sit

00:45:57Silent and plain

00:45:59Whilst others around me found one another

00:46:02And were happy

00:46:06Grey, are you awake?

00:46:10They did it

00:46:12I am going to be Lady Ashby

00:46:14The wedding is set for six weeks time

00:46:16That's very soon

00:46:18But think how lovely I will look in my bridal dress

00:46:21And then there will be the honeymoon

00:46:23And all those people to meet

00:46:24And every night a new man to dance with

00:46:27Won't you be dancing with Sir Thomas?

00:46:29That's the only problem

00:46:32Miss Rosalie

00:46:34It's all wonderful, of course

00:46:37Very wonderful

00:46:39I just wish the wedding wasn't happening so soon

00:46:43If you're not sure, Miss Rosalie

00:46:46You don't have to marry him

00:46:48What?

00:46:49And be like you

00:46:51Of course I shall marry him

00:46:53I'm only sad because I have hardly any time to flirt with Mr. Weston

00:46:57And break his little heart

00:46:59I had no more pity for her

00:47:01She deserved Sir Thomas after all

00:47:04She began her project to ensnare Mr. Weston at once

00:47:08Letters came every day from Sir Thomas, but these she barely looked at

00:47:12Her time was taken up suddenly in visits to the sick and poor

00:47:16I'm off to another humble dwelling

00:47:19I could come

00:47:21No, Grey, you stay here

00:47:23Do some knitting or something

00:47:25I'll take Matilda

00:47:27She embraced every opportunity of meeting Mr. Weston

00:47:30And tried every art to fascinate him as if she really loved him

00:47:34Afterwards she took great delight in telling me all about it

00:47:37Of course he was there

00:47:40Lord Ashby

00:47:42Mr. Weston

00:47:44What did he say?

00:47:46He wondered why you were never with us anymore

00:47:48And thought you must have very delicate health as you come out so seldom

00:47:51He didn't!

00:47:52Matilda, you're talking nonsense

00:47:53Rosalie, what a lie

00:47:54He did, you know

00:47:55And you said

00:47:57Stop pinching me

00:47:59And Rosalie told him, Grey, that you were quite well

00:48:00And there was no need for him to worry about you

00:48:02But you're always so buried in your books

00:48:04You take no pleasure in anything else

00:48:06But that is not the case

00:48:08If you had said, I'm so busy I cannot leave the house

00:48:10That would have been nearer the truth

00:48:12You could take walks, if you wanted

00:48:16It's not my fault if you're plain and quiet and no one notices you

00:48:19Only those who have felt like me can imagine my feelings

00:48:24As I sat with an assumption of smiling indifference

00:48:27Listening to the accounts of those meetings and interviews with Mr. Weston

00:48:31Which they seemed to find such pleasure in describing to me

00:48:35Nobody knew him as I did

00:48:38Nobody could appreciate him as I did

00:48:41Nobody could love him as I...

00:48:44Might

00:48:46At least I was my little dog

00:48:49Snap!

00:48:52Snap!

00:48:53Come here, boy

00:48:55There you go

00:48:57Are you saying goodbye to him?

00:48:58Why would I say goodbye?

00:48:59Haven't you heard?

00:49:01Father's given him to the rat catcher

00:49:03He's fetching Snap today

00:49:05What?

00:49:07But everyone knows how the rat catcher treats his dogs

00:49:10It's an animal, Grey

00:49:12No, you can't

00:49:15Snap!

00:49:16Snap!

00:49:18Snap!

00:49:20Two days later, my mother wrote to tell me that my father's health was worse

00:49:24Wherever I looked, I seemed to see black clouds

00:49:31And the angry muttering of a storm that was about to burst

00:49:37June came

00:49:38Rosalie was married

00:49:41There's no going back

00:49:43I'm a married woman

00:49:45I've come to receive your congratulations and then I'm off

00:49:48So?

00:49:50Why don't you congratulate me?

00:49:52I can't congratulate you until I know whether this is really for the better

00:49:57But I hope it is

00:49:59I wish you true happiness

00:50:05You sound like a poem, Grey

00:50:07Well, goodbye

00:50:09The carriage is waiting

00:50:11Goodbye

00:50:13Lady Ashby

00:50:14I will miss you

00:50:20I will miss you

00:50:22Dear, strange thing

00:50:24I will miss you more than you'll know

00:50:27I really loved her then

00:50:29And forgave her from my heart all the injury she had done me

00:50:33Now that Rosalie was married, her mother turned her attentions to her sister

00:50:40She asked me to focus on her feminine side

00:50:43Oh, this is absurd

00:50:46This knitting is all holes

00:50:48That's because you dropped all your stitches, Miss Matty

00:50:51Can't we go chasing dogs?

00:50:53And she had no interest in the other ladylike pursuits I suggested as the weeks wore on

00:50:58Oh, this book

00:51:00It makes me want to kill myself, it's so dull

00:51:03We could speak French

00:51:06Speak what?

00:51:07Or we could practice deportment

00:51:09I'd rather stick pins in my eyes

00:51:11The walk?

00:51:12The stables?

00:51:14You're banned from the stables

00:51:16Do I have to take a hat?

00:51:18And your parasol

00:51:20Bloody hell, Grey

00:51:22It's so goddamn dull being a woman

00:51:25On one of these walks, we chanced to meet Mr Weston

00:51:29I felt my heart throb violently

00:51:31But I think he hardly glanced at me

00:51:34I was soon calm enough

00:51:36Have you heard from your sister, Miss Murray?

00:51:40She was in Paris when she last wrote

00:51:42She seemed very well and very happy

00:51:44I hope she will continue to be so

00:51:47Prince! Prince, come back!

00:51:49He spotted a hare

00:51:53I doubt she'll stop him killing it

00:51:56I doubt she wants to

00:51:58I haven't seen you for a while

00:52:01No, I...

00:52:03You've been kept busy?

00:52:05Yes

00:52:07I missed your company

00:52:09How's Snap?

00:52:10Oh

00:52:13He got taken to the rat-catcher

00:52:17I am sorry

00:52:20Do you think Lady Ashby will be happy?

00:52:23I cannot tell

00:52:26Sir Thomas may be a better man than I suppose

00:52:30But from all I've heard and seen, it seems a pity

00:52:34It was her mother's wish, I suppose

00:52:39It was her own too

00:52:41She laughed at my attempts to dissuade her

00:52:43Oh, you did attempt it?

00:52:45Then at least you have the satisfaction of knowing it was no fault of yours

00:52:49As for Mrs Murray, I don't know how she can justify her conduct

00:52:54Some people think rank and wealth the chief good

00:52:58If they can secure that for their children, they think they have done their duty

00:53:02Look what I am!

00:53:04Was it your intention to save that hare?

00:53:08Or to kill it, Mrs Murray?

00:53:10Did you not enjoy the fun, Mrs Gray?

00:53:13I didn't watch, Mrs Matilda

00:53:15What about you, Mr West?

00:53:17Where is he?

00:53:19Damn fools gone!

00:53:21But a few days later, we saw him again

00:53:25Miss Gray

00:53:27Bluebells

00:53:29I have hardly seen you these last two months

00:53:31But I have not forgotten that you like them

00:53:33Thank you

00:53:36I was told you are a perfect bookworm, Miss Gray

00:53:40It's damn true, she always has her face in a book

00:53:43I don't

00:53:45You shouldn't believe everything you are told, Mr Weston

00:53:47I hope this is not true at any rate

00:53:49Why?

00:53:51Do you object to a woman studying?

00:53:53Not at all

00:53:55But I object to someone devoting themselves so much to one thing that they lose sight of everything else

00:54:07Good morning, ladies

00:54:08Odd fellow

00:54:12Hmm?

00:54:13Always turning red and running off

00:54:15Can't see what Rosie saw in him

00:54:18I'm famished, Gray

00:54:21Let's find cake

00:54:23It was a simple act of goodwill

00:54:26But it gave me a cheerful evening

00:54:28A night of pleasing dreams

00:54:30And a morning of felicitous hope

00:54:33But alas, that hope was quenched in a moment by a letter

00:54:38Bad news?

00:54:42It's from my mother

00:54:44You look ill, Gray

00:54:46It's my father who's ill

00:54:49I need to go home

00:54:51You can't go home

00:54:54It's not the vacation

00:54:56I need you here

00:54:58I'm sorry, Miss Matilda

00:54:59I have to see him one last time

00:55:05I don't want to marry the man

00:55:08I just want him to feel my power

00:55:10He wondered why you were never with us anymore

00:55:12I missed your company

00:55:13It's my father who's ill

00:55:15I need to go home

00:55:16I need to go home

00:55:21We're so glad to see you

00:55:23Percy, can I see him?

00:55:29Agnes

00:55:32Oh no

00:55:34He spoke your name

00:55:36I'm too late

00:55:39My father's remains were consigned to the tomb

00:55:43Mary returned with her husband to the vicarage

00:55:47With sad faces and sombre garments

00:55:50My mother and I are sat making plans for the future

00:55:54Your grandfather has been so kind as to write to me

00:55:59Your father?

00:56:01I thought he disowned you when you married

00:56:04He did

00:56:05He says he has no doubt

00:56:10I repent my unfortunate marriage

00:56:13If I confess I was wrong

00:56:15He will make a lady of me again

00:56:17And remember my girls in his will

00:56:19He says that

00:56:23Will you pass me paper and ink, Agnes?

00:56:25I want to answer him straight away

00:56:28Here

00:56:30I want to tell him he is mistaken

00:56:32He is mistaken

00:56:34He is mistaken in supposing that I regret the birth of my daughters

00:56:37Or the thirty years that I passed in the company of my best and dearest friend

00:56:43I no more repent the hours and days and years we spent together than I repent life itself

00:56:50I loved your father

00:56:54Do I have your consent?

00:56:59Do I have your consent?

00:57:01She wrote the letter

00:57:03From that day we heard no more of our grandfather or his money

00:57:07But my mother had always been a practical woman

00:57:10She had new plans

00:57:12A school?

00:57:14You and I?

00:57:16By the sea?

00:57:20He looked shocked

00:57:22No

00:57:24He wanted to see the world

00:57:26Yes

00:57:30I do

00:57:32I do

00:57:35We can sell up

00:57:37With your savings and mine

00:57:40We can buy a new house

00:57:42In some fashionable resort

00:57:45Take in a few young ladies as boarders

00:57:48And as many day pupils as we can find

00:57:51You mean I'll never go back to Horton?

00:57:54Only to say goodbye

00:57:57After all there's nothing to keep you there

00:58:00What do you have to lose?

00:58:03And so I returned to Horton to hand in my notice

00:58:06I sat with Miss Matilda

00:58:08I heard Miss Rosalie's news

00:58:10But there was really only one person I wished to see

00:58:14But one day followed another

00:58:17I walked

00:58:19I visited Nancy

00:58:21I did not see him except of course at church

00:58:25And then we never spoke

00:58:27And now the last Sunday was come

00:58:30And now the last Sunday was come

00:58:33And the last service

00:58:35I was on the point of melting into tears

00:58:38It was over

00:58:40The congregation was departing

00:58:43And I must follow

00:58:44Tomorrow

00:58:46I hear you're leaving, Miss Gray

00:58:49Tomorrow

00:58:51So soon?

00:58:52My mother's bought a house in Scarborough

00:58:54I suppose you'll be happy?

00:58:57To go?

00:58:58I suppose

00:59:00In some ways

00:59:02What could make you regret it?

00:59:03Did you suppose I dislike this place?

00:59:05You told me

00:59:07You said you could not live happily without a friend

00:59:09I said I could not live without a friend in the world

00:59:12It was not so foolish as to think I should have one always near me

00:59:15And besides, we cannot leave a place where we have lived three years without some feeling of regret

00:59:21But you said once that the heart is like India rubber, it bounces back

00:59:25Yes

00:59:27Though I'm beginning to believe it may tear a little

00:59:34It is possible, of course

00:59:35I mean, we might meet again

00:59:37I don't see how

00:59:38It's a long way

00:59:40Would it be of any consequence to you?

00:59:43I should be very glad to meet you again

00:59:47The truth is I want that more than anything

00:59:50Miss Gray

00:59:52Miss Matilda is waiting, I must go

00:59:54Scarborough, you said

00:59:58And so I went to join my mother

01:00:01I set myself with befitting energy to discharge the duties of this new life

01:00:06And for the first few weeks I was not unhappy

01:00:09But...

01:00:11It is possible, of course

01:00:13I mean, we might meet again

01:00:16His words rang in my ears

01:00:18They were my secret solace

01:00:22Time wore on

01:00:23I'm more on

01:00:27Agnes, a letter

01:00:29For me?

01:00:30The writing on the envelope seems to be a gentleman's

01:00:35You're trembling

01:00:37I'm not

01:00:38You can barely hold the knife

01:00:39Do you need my help?

01:00:41No

01:00:42Oh

01:00:45Bad news

01:00:48It's from Mary

01:00:50Is something wrong?

01:00:52Ah, no, she's, um

01:00:55Well, it's a lovely letter

01:00:58Her husband must have written the envelope

01:01:01Were you expecting someone else?

01:01:03To write?

01:01:05No

01:01:06I'm not expecting anything

01:01:11How could I have dreamt that he would write?

01:01:14What grounds had I for hope?

01:01:19Early in June I received another letter

01:01:22But this time I knew the hand

01:01:24Of course, Grey, I have been living a terribly wicked life

01:01:28But I find I miss you

01:01:30I want you to visit

01:01:32There are plenty of books for you to read

01:01:34I forget whether you like babies or not

01:01:39Anyway, I have one

01:01:41Write by return of post to say you will come

01:01:44But this time

01:01:46Comes my friend

01:01:48Ashby Park was not far from Horton

01:01:51I might see Mr. Weston again

01:01:54I might at least hear his news

01:01:57I replied

01:01:59In the affirmative

01:02:01Matilda is still wild

01:02:06But she has a very fashionable governess

01:02:08You should see Matty

01:02:10She dresses like a lady

01:02:12But don't worry, she's still swearing

01:02:17And how are the other people getting on?

01:02:20Who live in Horton?

01:02:22Nancy, for instance

01:02:24Who?

01:02:25We used to visit her

01:02:28Oh, the poor people

01:02:31Yes, they're still around

01:02:33And, um, Mr.

01:02:34Most of the young men are heartbroken, you know

01:02:37Why?

01:02:39Because I'm married

01:02:41I saw a great deal of one of them when we were in London

01:02:45He followed me like a shadow

01:02:47You needn't look so shocked, Grey

01:02:50I was very discreet

01:02:52But, you know, one can't help being admired

01:02:55Poor fellow

01:02:57He was not my only worshipper

01:02:59But my husband hurried me down to the country at a moment's notice

01:03:03Where I'm to play the hermit, I suppose

01:03:05For the rest of my life

01:03:08Mr. Hatfield

01:03:10What's become of him?

01:03:12The rector?

01:03:14Oh, he made up to an elderly spinster and married her

01:03:18Hoping to find solace in her gold

01:03:22And, um, Mr. Weston?

01:03:25Who?

01:03:27The curate?

01:03:29Oh, the sweet ugly one

01:03:31He's gone

01:03:33Gone from Horton? Why?

01:03:35Where is he now?

01:03:37I haven't a clue

01:03:38He went about a month ago

01:03:39A new parish, I suppose

01:03:40But now I'm positively must go and dress

01:03:44If I turn up at dinner looking like this

01:03:46I shall never hear the end of it

01:03:48You're fine as you are, Grey

01:03:51You always were

01:03:55The following morning we took a walk in the park

01:03:58Before my carriage arrived

01:04:00I detest him

01:04:02Who?

01:04:03My husband

01:04:05You detest him?

01:04:06Yes

01:04:08Yes, I do

01:04:10And I despise him

01:04:12And if you knew him, you would not blame me

01:04:15Rosalie

01:04:17I know you warned me

01:04:19I wish I had listened, but Mama was so sure

01:04:22And then, I thought he adored me

01:04:25But he keeps me here like a prisoner

01:04:28Whilst he has his betting books and his gaming table and his opera girls

01:04:32Not to mention his wine

01:04:35Oh, my dear Rosalie

01:04:37I...

01:04:39I tried to comfort her before we parted

01:04:41The best way to enjoy yourself is to do what is right

01:04:47Right?

01:04:51It's a bit late for that now

01:04:53He liked you

01:04:56Weston

01:04:57Weston

01:04:59I treated you both badly

01:05:01I would give 10,000 worlds to be my old self again

01:05:07It was with a heavy heart that I left poor Lady Ashby in her princely home

01:05:14I was happy to be with my mother again in our White House by the sea

01:05:21For the first time, it felt like home

01:05:25Waking, I thought how pleasant it would be to take a solitary walk along the sands while the rest of the world was in bed

01:05:33Light shone on the smooth, wide bay

01:05:38The waves sparkled as if wild with joy

01:05:40SNAP!

01:05:44SNAP!

01:05:46What are you doing here?

01:05:48Your dog remembers you, Miss Grey

01:05:50What?

01:05:52Mr Weston

01:05:54You rise early?

01:05:55I...

01:05:57I...

01:05:58Like to walk here

01:06:00In what part of town do you live?

01:06:02I never could discover

01:06:04Where do I live?

01:06:07Have you forgotten?

01:06:09No

01:06:11I live just the other side

01:06:14We have our school now

01:06:16We're doing well

01:06:18I heard as much

01:06:20I walk the town every day

01:06:22I could just never find you

01:06:25Well...

01:06:27Here I am

01:06:29Yes...

01:06:30Here you are

01:06:32You don't ask why I'm here?

01:06:35You can't suppose I'm rich enough to be on holiday?

01:06:38I know you left Horton

01:06:40Did you know I got the living of another parish?

01:06:43About two miles away

01:06:45I didn't hear that

01:06:47No...

01:06:49I have a house too

01:06:50Five pounds a year

01:06:52In fact I've nothing to complain about

01:06:54Nothing except solitude, of course

01:06:57And...

01:06:59Wishing for a friend

01:07:03Well...

01:07:05I suppose you'll find one

01:07:07You must have many opportunities now

01:07:09For...

01:07:11Making friends

01:07:13There must be...

01:07:15Lots of ladies in your parish

01:07:17There are...

01:07:18To suit me

01:07:21Snap!

01:07:23I won't offer to restore him to you, Miss Grey

01:07:25I like him

01:07:27Oh...

01:07:29I don't want him now

01:07:30He has a good master

01:07:31I'm happy

01:07:33You take it for granted that I am a good master

01:07:38The truth is...

01:07:39I know all the ladies in my parish

01:07:41And several in this town too

01:07:43But not one of them

01:07:45Will suit me for a friend

01:07:48There is only one person

01:07:50In the world that will

01:07:52Agnes Grey

01:07:54You told me once

01:07:56You led me to believe

01:07:58There was nothing in the world

01:08:00You wanted so much

01:08:02As for to make a friend

01:08:03My friend

01:08:06Could I be that man?

01:08:08You could

01:08:11Could you love me?

01:08:13Agnes?

01:08:15I do

01:08:17Will you?

01:08:19Yes

01:08:21Edwin

01:08:23Yes

01:08:26I will

01:08:33You

01:08:34I am

01:08:36I am

01:08:39You

01:08:41And

01:08:43If I am

01:08:45I am

01:08:47E

01:08:48I am

01:08:50I am

01:08:52I am

01:08:54Is

01:08:57You

01:08:58I am

01:08:59I am

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