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EastEnders 19th May 2025

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00:00Music
00:12Come on, come on, you know, you know what you're meant to be doing, don't you?
00:26Come on, please, it's alright.
00:56Music
01:21Mum? Mum, are you awake? Mum, please. I hope I'll keep crying. She said she wants you. Mum, please.
01:40Why didn't you tell me he was asleep in there?
01:52Well, he's not crying, so I thought he was just a shame. Why would they? He literally never sleeps. I swear, he's been crying so much recently, I thought I'd just block it out. You know, like people when they live next to airports.
02:14Well, don't forget him settled. Best mum ever.
02:22Oh, I thought the formula was just for emergencies.
02:25Yeah, well, it is, but I ran out of express milk and I was up half the night trying to get him to latch on, so.
02:35Oh, so maybe it's time to try something new. We can get one of them, er, er, prep machines. That would help with the night feeds, maybe. Think about it, me, my boy, a back catalogue of movies I've never gotten around to watching.
02:46Hang on, I'm not saying that I'm ready to give up breastfeeding. I just thought about using the formula, but then I managed to pump some milk and then I got him off in the end. I mean, you've seen him in there.
02:58Peter, I really need to give this my best shot. I mean, he's not exactly had the best start in life, has he? Because of me.
03:05What if the way he is is... what if there's something wrong with him?
03:10Like what? Being too perfect?
03:17Oh, I think you're amazing.
03:22It's just... with Louis, it was a bit more natural. I mean, not easy, but...
03:28Yeah, just like this.
03:31The whole babies are different. That's what they say, isn't it?
03:35Just get yourself up to bed. I'll get Louis off to school and I'll take care of his nibs when he eventually wakes up.
03:39Oh, I'm on the shopping list. Nappies, ready meals, methadone from the chemist.
03:49No, go on, look. You do the school run, I'll quickly get dressed and then I'll just bring him with me to get all this, yeah?
03:56Fine. Our boys are very lucky to have you.
04:00She wouldn't even give her a hug. No, I don't get it. Last week she was out of bed.
04:08I think it's the ha-ha thing. What it's done to Nan. She just really knocked her. I could kill that Cathy.
04:14I don't think I'm ever going back to that Cathy. Unless I'm starving, but...
04:18Lily! Yeah, just come in!
04:20Look, I've got to get the kids a school put. And I've got to do a load of washing.
04:24And if I don't get some food in this house, we're all going to starve.
04:26Do you know what I can do? School run?
04:28Yeah, you've got to buy a clue.
04:31Then what about the nam factor? I just think if we told Aunty Cat...
04:35No. No, we don't tell anyone. Not even Aunty Cat. Do you understand me? No one.
04:40Kids, come on! I'm off for breakfast!
04:47Peter still hasn't messaged me back just cos these mums are walking, talking, sex lies and videotape.
04:51I mean, he hasn't got to punish the rest of us.
04:53He's hurting. We let him down.
04:55Speak for yourself. I'm not a member of the jolly adulterers club.
04:57No offence.
04:59I was thinking about checking in across the road, but...
05:01It might be best to give my pet a space.
05:03Could go the same for Peter.
05:04Well, he's got a newborn.
05:05I mean, he needs us. He just hasn't realised it yet.
05:06Hmm.
05:07That's great, Whit.
05:08You'll feel better when you're up there.
05:10Of course I won't tell anyone where you are, come on.
05:13Right, just give me a call when you're settled.
05:15I'm sorry.
05:16I'm sorry.
05:17I'm sorry.
05:18I'm sorry.
05:19I'm sorry.
05:20I'm sorry.
05:21I'm sorry.
05:22I'm sorry.
05:23I'm sorry.
05:24I'm sorry.
05:25I'm sorry.
05:26Let's settle.
05:27Speak to you later.
05:28Is everything alright?
05:29Listen.
05:30I know you mean wrong.
05:31Just please stay out of this.
05:32I ain't gonna tell you what to do.
05:33But, it's like what Sharon said.
05:34Whatever we owe to each other, we're both her family.
05:36You look stressed.
05:37Who else have you got to talk to around here?
05:38No.
05:39No.
05:40It's weird.
05:41She's found a permanent place for her and the girls up in Inverness.
05:45But, she's worried Nicola's gonna find out where she is and she'll have to move on again.
05:46Maybe you should go up there.
05:47Maybe you should go up there.
05:48Give Whitney some peace of mind.
05:49Give Whitney some peace of mind.
05:50Spend some proper quality time with Dolly.
05:51Do you think Ravi will have something to say about me swerving on the road?
05:52I'm sorry.
05:53I'm sorry.
05:54I'm sorry.
05:55I'm sorry.
05:56I'm sorry.
05:57I'm sorry.
05:58I'm sorry.
05:59I'm sorry.
06:00I'm sorry.
06:01I'm sorry.
06:02I'm sorry.
06:03I'm sorry.
06:04I'm sorry.
06:05I'm sorry.
06:06I think Nicola's gonna find out where she is and she'll have to move on again.
06:11Maybe you should go up there.
06:13Give Whitney some peace of mind.
06:15Spend some proper quality time with Dolly.
06:17Do you think Ravi will have something to say about me swerving all my shifts?
06:22I ain't talking about just going for a day or two.
06:26It seems to me all there is for you around here is trouble.
06:30That's not all there is.
06:35It don't have to be forever.
06:38Think about it.
06:51I was just dropping off some bits of a little Jimmy.
06:54Never could resist buying baby clothes.
06:56What's that then?
06:57Bradbury?
06:58I thought me and you were starting to understand each other.
07:00But now push comes to shove and you seem to have sided with everybody else.
07:04What do you expect?
07:05Poor Cathy.
07:06Well, poor Jean actually.
07:08My issues with Ian and St Cathy shouldn't affect my relationship with Peter and the boys.
07:14It's not just down to me.
07:15Can you not talk to Peter?
07:17And let him see I'm a mum above everything else.
07:21You know how much those boys mean to me.
07:24I've got a newborn.
07:25I'm sleep deprived.
07:26My boobs are leaking.
07:28And to be honest, even on a good day I would rather stick my head in an oven than get involved in your family drama.
07:35Let me help you, Lauren.
07:37I can spend time with little Jimmy and I did help bring him into the world, didn't I?
07:42Nice try.
07:43I think I remember I did a lot of the hard work.
07:46Just go.
07:47I've got things I've got to do.
07:48Out of all my kids, Peter is the only one who didn't turn his back on me.
07:53Even when he thought I was dead, you know, I was still part of his life.
07:57I know he deserves so much better, but I'm his mum.
08:01And no matter what I do, how much I let him down, nothing can change that.
08:06I know everything I do affects my kids.
08:09I mean, imagine in 20 years time, if little Jimmy wasn't speaking to you, how heartbroken you'd be.
08:14Please, Lauren, as a mum, don't cut me out of their lives.
08:20I thought you might like one of these.
08:35I would have too, by mistake.
08:38Must have forgotten I was on my own.
08:41Not a lot of dementia humour about, you've got to take it where you find it.
08:45You spend so much time looking out for other people.
08:49I thought I'd return the favour.
08:51That's very kind of you.
08:53I set all these reminders.
08:55The thing keeps buzzing the whole time.
09:01It's Claire's birthday.
09:02It's 40.
09:04It's mine on Saturday.
09:0667.
09:07How did that happen?
09:09Time was we'd celebrate our birthdays together.
09:13So why you don't give her a call?
09:15You might be wondering why you didn't send her a call.
09:17No.
09:18We had a falling out a while back.
09:20I don't think she'd want to hear from me.
09:22Yeah, sometimes it's all the more reason to reach out.
09:28How's your name?
09:30I don't know.
09:31Why'd you ask?
09:32Well, I was just wondering how she was doing.
09:35Yeah, she's fine.
09:36When I'm fine, we're all fine.
09:40Hey then, Lynn.
09:41Lovely to see you.
09:43You know, I know things must be tough at the moment with me moving out, but it hasn't changed
09:48how much I care.
09:49Oh, leave off, Arv.
09:51The only thing you care about is you and that old tart.
09:54Don't talk about Kathy that way, please.
09:56I'm glad you're here, actually.
09:58Saved me a trick.
09:59Your final pay slip.
10:01I'm not giving wages to someone that treats my family like dirt.
10:05You can't do that.
10:06It's called Cat's Cabs, so I can do what I like.
10:09So you turn around and crawl back under your rock.
10:17Scumbag!
10:20Hold on a minute.
10:22Am I you at school?
10:23I am.
10:25Free period.
10:26I've got to get back.
10:32Can I get a decaf latte, please?
10:35Dad, take away.
10:36All right.
10:37All right.
10:38All right.
10:39You all right?
10:40Come on.
10:41Oh.
10:42He said I was going to pop round and say congrats on that, but it's just one of them unwritten
10:48rules, you know, don't go knocking on a door with a sleeping baby inside.
10:51Well, we ain't got to worry about that, because this one doesn't like to sleep.
10:57God, I'll tell you what.
10:58It seems like a million years ago that I thought it was a no-ball.
11:02How often do you get to go see her?
11:04Not as often as I'd like, you know.
11:08I might be spending a bit more time with them, actually, thinking about getting a place
11:12up near Rip for a while.
11:13Oh.
11:14She would probably love that, having your support.
11:18How is she?
11:19I know I don't really have a right, but I do miss her.
11:20Yeah, she's good.
11:21Loves being a mum.
11:22I mean, you must be an expert.
11:23Now it's number two.
11:24What's that?
11:25Louis was a dream.
11:26This one, this...
11:27Every time I pick him up, he doesn't really like that.
11:28But then when I put him down, he don't really like that.
11:29It's just like...
11:30He doesn't really...
11:31He doesn't want to be anywhere near me.
11:32And I thought the same as you.
11:33I thought this time would be easier, but it's not.
11:34It's like a thousand times harder.
11:35OK.
11:36OK, OK.
11:37It's very, OK.
11:38Please, OK.
11:39Listen.
11:40No offence but you're a name that mate.
11:41That's what Peter keeps saying.
11:43Louis was not like this.
11:44Oscar wasn't like this.
11:45Oscar wasn't like this.
11:46Oh, have you ever made me a life-man?
11:47No, don't you?
11:48Yeah.
11:49I think I was not like all this.
11:50But this just passed away.
11:51This one, this...
11:52Every time I pick him up, he doesn't really like that.
11:54But then when I put him down, he don't really like that.
11:55It's just like he...
11:57He doesn't really...
11:58He doesn't want to be anywhere near me.
12:00And I thought the same as you, I thought this time would be easier.
12:03Oscar wasn't like this either.
12:05All right. All right.
12:07Go and get us some gear bag.
12:13Good luck with everything, yeah?
12:15I'm really pleased with you.
12:19Yeah, I just, um,
12:21all I ever wanted to be was a dad that my kid deserves.
12:33Thanks.
12:39Yeah, they started shouting about beans on toast
12:41the moment we walked through the door.
12:43Kat, drop this off.
12:45Oh, I meant to pick it up from the launderette,
12:47but I had to get the food and get Charlie and everything and just...
12:50Hold on.
12:51So you've been to the launderette,
12:53you've done the food shop, you've dropped off and picked up Charlie.
12:57You bunked off school, didn't you?
13:01Yeah.
13:02No.
13:03So what?
13:04I doubt Mum even answered the phone when they called her.
13:06She don't care, why do you?
13:07Because it's school, Lily.
13:08Half terms next week.
13:09If I have to stay off till then, I will.
13:11You can't.
13:12I know that you don't want anyone to know about Nan,
13:14but this is too much.
13:15Your dad would be heartbroken if he could see this.
13:21Right, someone should be looking out for you.
13:23Freddie, wait.
13:24No, Freddie, please just wait a minute.
13:32Why do you want me to sit down?
13:50Come on, let me sit down.
14:06What's the matter?
14:07Nothing.
14:09Come on, I can tell something's up.
14:11Oi, you can tell me. I'm no one.
14:14I don't know what you say to me.
14:16It's no big thing. It's just the usual.
14:20Whenever there's drama in my house, everyone knows everything except for me.
14:24I'll never get told anything.
14:27It's a bit like this book,
14:29Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson.
14:31You read it?
14:33No, I haven't read that one, actually, mate.
14:36I'm doing it for GCSE.
14:38It's about this girl who never feels like she fits in,
14:43even with her own family.
14:45Especially with her own family.
14:47It can't be easy.
14:52And then she meets someone,
14:54and it's like she gets...
14:56There's a whole other world out there.
14:59It's a romantic thing, the two of them.
15:01That's not the most important thing.
15:03But what matters is she only needed one person.
15:08Just one person who never asked her to change,
15:12makes her feel like she belongs.
15:15Must be nice, that.
15:16Absolutely.
15:18What matters is she only needs a few hours in the house,
15:20but she is already in the house.
15:22It's easier to visit...
15:23It's easier to visit...
15:23it's easier to visit...
15:24it's easier to visit...
15:25It's easier to visit...
15:26...
15:32Hello.
15:35Hello.
15:36Right, I've just spent the last few hours cleaning this place from top to bottom,
15:40so please, no poon armies from you, mister,
15:42and no crisp packets from you, please.
15:45That's all.
15:48Yeah, it's from my mum. She left it at the front door.
15:50I know. I saw her earlier.
15:52Can you, um, just tell her to leave me alone, please?
15:55Well, what's she said?
15:56Just take him. I need to take this.
16:01I love you, ma'am.
16:15I got you.
16:20I still want to know what my mum has said to you.
16:24She just...
16:26She wants to see the boys.
16:27She kept going on about how you've never really cut the apron ties
16:32and even when you thought she was dead.
16:35What?
16:36And then she said that everything that she's done has an effect on you
16:39and that you deserve so much better.
16:44Look at me, Peter.
16:48Look at who I am.
16:50Is it any wonder that Jimmy doesn't want to be anywhere near me?
16:52Is it any wonder that something is not right with him?
16:56What, right? What are you talking about?
17:00That better not be her.
17:01Oh, I'm so sorry to barge in.
17:25I just wanted to drop off a little present
17:27for Jimmy, for me and Annie.
17:35I can come back, you know, if it's a bad time.
17:38No, no, it's fine, it's fine.
17:40He's just...
17:41He's unsettled a lot.
17:42But I think we're hitting our stride, aren't we?
17:44No, we ain't hitting our stride.
17:45If anything, it's getting worse.
17:46It just feels like that because you're so tired, though, don't it?
17:48No, it feels like that because it's true.
17:51Ever since he's been born,
17:53there's something off with him.
17:56He's unhappy all the time.
17:58He's 14 days old.
18:00So if there is something that is making him unhappy,
18:02then it's pretty obvious what it is, isn't it?
18:04It's me.
18:05Why don't you take Jimmy for a bit
18:08and I'll stay here with Lauren.
18:10Cheers, Trace Tuck.
18:19Keys to my cab and the office.
18:23Thought you might want them back.
18:27You know, I would like to stay in touch with the family.
18:30It's, uh, it's not going to happen, is it?
18:31No, you made your bed with coffee in it.
18:35Don't worry, I'm sure they'll all be fine without you.
18:38You never did bring much to the party, did you?
18:40Well, finally, I've been looking for you everywhere.
18:43Annie Jean and Mo went to stay with Fat Elvis.
18:46We haven't seen either of them for three days.
18:48Stacey won't come out of the room,
18:49she won't even get out of bed,
18:50and me and Lily are looking after the kids on our own,
18:52and we can't.
18:54Kat, we need help.
18:59It's me.
19:02It has to be me.
19:05I'm his mum.
19:06If he's unhappy,
19:10then how can it not be to do with me?
19:14How long have you been feeling this way?
19:18Since he's been born.
19:21Maybe even since I found out I was pregnant, actually.
19:27Babies are meant to have parents that are going to protect them,
19:29not put them in danger before they're even born.
19:33You haven't put him in danger.
19:38What would you call taking morphine when you're pregnant, then?
19:43What was I thinking?
19:44Taking methadone.
19:46Methadone doesn't harm him,
19:47and it helps you stay sober for your boys,
19:49you know that.
19:49I'm an addict.
19:55My kids have got an addict as a mother.
19:58Yeah.
20:00So I have mine.
20:03Look,
20:04you've made mistakes, right,
20:06but you've overcome so much as well.
20:11Listen.
20:11I know it's easier said than done,
20:16and I'm not sure I'm even all the way there yet,
20:19but...
20:20at some point,
20:22you're going to have to stop hating yourself.
20:25I was just on my way to see you.
20:44I know you told me not to,
20:46but...
20:47I'm the parents ever listening.
20:51You know what?
20:51I remember being up more like you and your sister.
20:55I had one of you in each arm,
20:57and I'll tell you what,
20:57I would have happily,
20:59happily sold either one of you
21:00for a decent night's kit.
21:03Look,
21:03I know this,
21:04this family's a mess,
21:07and I know we're a disappointment to you,
21:10but...
21:10Listen.
21:14I don't want anything, okay?
21:17I just want you to know that I'm here.
21:25Lily?
21:37Is this true that your nan's done a flit
21:40and your mum's just locked herself away for three days?
21:42Don't look at you,
21:43it reminds me.
21:45We thought she was getting belle.
21:48You know,
21:48she come out for a bit last week,
21:49but she...
21:51She just...
21:52She took a few steps back.
21:56Come here, sit down.
21:58Come.
22:00Listen.
22:02You talk to me, all right?
22:03I'm always on your side.
22:05Always.
22:06Always.
22:10I remember...
22:12You know when nan locked herself in the bathroom?
22:15Mum was so scared,
22:18and the people came back to take off to hospital,
22:20and...
22:21Yes, no.
22:21That's right.
22:22They did.
22:23Oh, yes, I do.
22:26Mum?
22:28So,
22:29Lily's just told me that, um,
22:31your mum's packed up and left.
22:34Another thing we can give Harvey credit for, eh?
22:36Mum, why don't...
22:37Right.
22:41I don't get this.
22:42So she just gives your nan the nod,
22:45and then just locks herself away.
22:46Well, nan would've done her left
22:47if Stacey didn't say that she could handle everything.
22:50Has she been taking her meds?
22:52What?
22:52Why?
22:53Why does that matter?
22:53I just need to know, Lily.
22:54Has she been taking her meds?
22:56You're gonna ring someone, aren't you?
22:57Oh, yeah.
22:58You are gonna ring someone
22:59and get her taken away again.
23:00No.
23:01No, no, no.
23:01I'm just trying to help you.
23:02I don't believe you.
23:03You should go.
23:04Get out.
23:05Lily!
23:06Get out!
23:06Get out now!
23:07Get out!
23:08Get out now!
23:09Get out!
23:12Lily!
23:13Lily, you won't give me the remote!
23:16Peter seemed over the moon
23:17when I told him
23:18that I might stop breastfeeding.
23:21Like he was relieved.
23:24Like I've been poisoning the baby or something.
23:29I used to feel like Mick
23:31was watching my every move in the Vic.
23:35Every time I reached for the vodka,
23:36is she serving a punter
23:38or having a sneaky swig?
23:39And was he?
23:43Of course not.
23:45It wasn't him.
23:46It was me.
23:47I was just so scared
23:49I wouldn't be able to resist.
23:52How can I trust myself and my kids
23:54when I can't even trust
23:55that I'll stay off the drugs?
24:01Are you off drugs?
24:03Yeah, of course.
24:04And are you spending every waking minute
24:07doing everything you can
24:08to give your boys the best possible life?
24:13Every minute is a waking minute
24:15for me at the moment.
24:17And why are you still doubting yourself?
24:20You are fighting every day
24:23and winning.
24:27Have some confidence in yourself, Lauren.
24:29I've still got this niggling feeling
24:34that something's not right
24:36with Jimmy.
24:37And every time I mention it to Peter,
24:38he just shuts me down.
24:41So speak to someone else.
24:44Look, I...
24:45I always knew there was something different
24:48about Ollie.
24:50Everyone said I was wrong.
24:51But I knew there was something.
24:56And I was right.
24:56Nothing beats a mother's instincts.
25:03Nothing.
25:10Yeah, you all right?
25:11I can't stay here.
25:14Whitney and...
25:16Dolly, Brittany.
25:17I deserve to be happy.
25:20Further away from Nicola Mitchell,
25:22I am the better.
25:23If I were you,
25:24I'd be on the first train to Inverness.
25:26Well, maybe not the first train.
25:29That's something I've got to sort out first.
25:31Like what?
25:32Chuck a spare pair of boxes in a bag?
25:34Job done.
25:35I never wanted Barney
25:36living with them psychos.
25:38And I thought, you know what?
25:38They're his family,
25:39as long as he's happy.
25:40But he ain't happy.
25:42He wants to be as far away
25:43from them as possible.
25:45When I leave,
25:46I'm taking Barney with me.
25:48Hello, Bella.
25:49All right, where'd you get all this from?
25:58Oh, we nipped out.
26:00I didn't fancy cooking.
26:02Penny will be back with Louis
26:03from football limit as well.
26:04Don't worry, I'm not staying.
26:06Smells good, though.
26:08Should I...
26:09Should I make him a little bottle?
26:10Actually, I, uh...
26:14I wanted to keep trying to breastfeed.
26:17I know we've been struggling,
26:18but I miss Mum, and...
26:21I need to start trusting myself.
26:22Jane, it's Kat.
26:34Can you call me
26:35as soon as you get this message, please?
26:37Cheers.
26:39I can't believe she's done this.
26:40I don't care that she's been dumped.
26:43Why didn't you tell me earlier, eh?
26:47I'm sorry, all right?
26:48Just, um...
26:50We'll deal with it in the morning,
26:51and even though Stacey's the way she is,
26:53I'm sure Lily can cope for one more night.
26:56What was that?
26:58Help! Help! Help!
27:00What?
27:01What's happened?
27:02I don't know.
27:03I was just putting clothes away
27:04in Arthur's room,
27:04and I come back,
27:05and she must have fallen off the bed
27:06and caught her leg or something.
27:08I don't know what's happened.
27:09Tell me, like, listen,
27:10it's just a little cut, right?
27:11There's no broken bones.
27:12Let's just get her to hospital, yeah?
27:14Just get her checked out, yeah?
27:15It's all right. Don't worry.
27:16Sorry.
27:19She, uh...
27:20She seems...
27:21She seems a lot better.
27:23Whatever you said,
27:23that must have really helped.
27:24Oh, I mainly just listened.
27:27I think part of her is worried
27:29that her addiction
27:30has affected the baby somehow.
27:33Right.
27:34I hope...
27:35I helped her see that, you know,
27:36we can struggle with things
27:37and still be good mums.
27:40Oh, and she needs sleep.
27:41Yeah.
27:41Two weeks in with Nancy,
27:42and I was hallucinating insects
27:45and accusing Mick of all sorts.
27:46No, I'm on it.
27:47Don't worry.
27:49She's not...
27:50She's not totally wrong, though, is she?
27:54I mean, this sort of thing
27:55runs in families.
27:56If she...
27:56If she stays clean
27:58or if she relapses,
28:00they'll never escape it.
28:04I mean,
28:04like you and all,
28:05Lauren being an addict
28:06is going to affect the boys
28:07their whole lives.
28:08She's not going to affect the boys.
28:16She's not going to affect the boys.