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  • 5/22/2025
EastEnders 22nd May 2025

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00:00Music
00:30No.
00:31Be quiet.
00:33Right, let's go get that.
00:34Let's go get that.
00:35Let's go get that.
00:36No!
00:37OK.
00:38All right, keep checking.
00:39No!
00:43No.
00:46Why shall I?
00:48I'm not going to bed, no.
00:49No!
00:50No!
00:51No!
00:53No, we're not.
00:54No!
00:55No, go away.
00:56Can you help?
00:57No, no.
00:58No.
00:59You can't make me.
01:00You're just my sister.
01:01But you have to do what I said to mommy.
01:03You're not mine.
01:04I don't care.
01:05Go away.
01:06Can you please just brush your teeth?
01:07Please!
01:08No!
01:09Listen, love.
01:10No!
01:11Come on, come on.
01:12Kids, mommy's upset, all right?
01:13We've got to be quiet for her.
01:14I don't want to!
01:17That's mine!
01:18No!
01:19No!
01:20No!
01:21Stop!
01:22You're going to wake mother.
01:23Just quiet.
01:24Yes!
01:25No!
01:26No, another girl.
01:27No!
01:28No!
01:33No!
01:34Go!
01:47No!
01:48No!
01:49No!
01:50No!
01:51Thank God!
01:53I don't know.
02:23Yeah, it's okay.
02:39You okay?
02:44Let me help you out.
02:45No, it's all right, honestly.
02:47No, no, I'm all right, thanks.
02:48Oh, you've got a baby.
02:49You've got a newborn baby.
02:51I'll help you out.
02:53You gonna be all right?
02:54Yeah.
02:55Put the light on.
02:56Oh, no, I don't wanna wake him up.
02:59Oh, he's gorgeous.
03:02It's hard though, isn't it?
03:04It's hard though, isn't it?
03:05Having a newborn.
03:06I mean, it's great.
03:07It is great.
03:08I hardly remember.
03:09It is great.
03:10I hardly remember.
03:11How do you go?
03:12With your kids.
03:13How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:15How do you do it?
03:16Well, the truth is...
03:17I don't...
03:18I don't...
03:19How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:20How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:21How do you do it?
03:22Well, the truth is...
03:23I don't...
03:24I mean, right now, I'm...
03:25I'm not at all.
03:26Sorry.
03:27I should be.
03:28I wanna be.
03:29I don't know.
03:30It's hard though, isn't it?
03:31It's hard though, isn't it?
03:32Having a newborn.
03:33I mean, it's great.
03:34It's great.
03:35It's great.
03:36I hardly remember.
03:37How do you go?
03:39I mean, with your kids.
03:41How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:43How do you do it?
03:44Well, the truth is I don't.
03:46I mean, right now I'm not at all.
03:51Sorry.
03:52I...
03:53I should be.
03:54I want to be.
03:55be. I do too. More than anything. Do you ever think about Abby? What? What happened to her out there?
04:07Yeah, of course I do. I've got to walk past it every day. Me too. What happened to Bradley,
04:16I think about him more and more since Martin died. That's understandable. You think you can
04:25forget the past, the things that have happened, the guilt. Guilt? Don't you feel guilty?
04:37Are you having a dick? No. Because I know I had a drug problem last year and I wouldn't
04:46deny that. It's just, if I'd have known what was going to happen, I'd never would have.
04:53Why? What's happened? Nothing. Nothing. It's Jimmy. He's blind. Oh my God. Lauren, I'm so sorry. I just found out about it as well.
05:19But, uh, well, we're going to be all right. And it's me and Peter. We're going to be okay.
05:27Yeah, of course you will. Of course. Of course you will. I mean, I'm so selfish. My problems,
05:35what are they? I just, I find it hard to be there for the kids and to let go of, of, of the grief. And
05:44I'm going to be a good mum. Just like you. Going to be a good mum. I have to be.
05:53All right. Let me, um, I want to go see to Jimmy because if he starts crying now, then he'll be
06:03crying all night. Well, you could try walking him round in the buggy. I used to do that with Lil.
06:08Oh, she was all right. Misery guts and all. Thank you, sis.
06:15Oh, she was all right.
06:17Uh...
06:18Ah...
06:19Ah...
06:23Uh...
06:37Uh...
06:38...
06:39Uh...
06:39Uh...
06:42Uh...
06:43Yeah, all right, darling. It'll be ten minutes.
06:58Cheers, love.
07:04Laura's for the wicked.
07:08You all right?
07:09Uh, yeah.
07:11Yeah, I'm fine. I, uh...
07:13I just wanted to say thanks for earlier, you know, Charlie and that.
07:19You know, you were right. I need to step up, so...
07:23That's what I'm going to do. I'm going to sort myself out for me kids.
07:26That's good. That's great.
07:29Are you sure you're okay?
07:30Yes, I'm fine. You don't need to keep asking, all right? I'm not sick.
07:33I'm just some tired cat.
07:36But anyway, it doesn't matter. I'm back, all right?
07:38I'm putting me kids first. I'm putting me family first.
07:40And I just...
07:42Well, I just wanted you to know.
07:43All right.
07:44But I'm here, yeah, if you need anything.
07:46Well, I don't. I don't need nothing.
07:48In fact, I'm going to look after you for once.
07:51So come round two hours for dinner tonight.
07:55Tonight?
07:55Yeah, tonight.
07:56Come round, then we can just all sit together and eat and talk.
08:00And it'll just be like old times, like normal.
08:02Oh, yeah. It's a bit late, though, isn't it?
08:03Cat, I'm making an effort.
08:04All right, I'm just going to...
08:05I'm popped to the minute, Mark.
08:06I'm going to slap something in a pan.
08:07And if you ain't hungry, you can just have pudding or something, like ice cream.
08:11Please.
08:12Right, yeah, I'll just finish up here first, yeah?
08:14No, you're finished.
08:15All right, look, done. Finished for the day.
08:16Go and get Alfie, and I'll see you in 20 minutes.
08:19Bring the kids, yeah?
08:20Yeah, all right.
08:20Hello, this is Peter's phone. Leave a message.
08:27Hey, uh, I'm just wondering where you are.
08:31Um, I hope you're all right.
08:34I just wanted to let you know that we're home now, so...
08:37Just call me, yeah?
08:48Hey, this looks delicious.
08:49You're going to have to tell me what the recipe is, darling,
08:51because I'm going to assist on this every night.
08:53Well, fish fingers, stick them under the grill, burn them,
08:56and then frozen peas.
08:57Yeah, yeah, yeah.
08:58Well, it's done.
09:00It's crunchy.
09:01Oh, I've got ice cream.
09:02Oh!
09:03Chocolate budge.
09:04I've got caramel swirl, strawberry, mint, coconut,
09:08chocolate sprinkles, and then eat as much as you like.
09:11Yeah, yeah, yeah.
09:11No, no, boys, not now.
09:13No, don't listen to her.
09:15It's my house, my rules, all right?
09:17If your nan was here, she'd go nuts.
09:19She, uh, she loves nothing more than a bowl of bicep.
09:24Talking of which, I've given Harvey the boot.
09:27It's sacked.
09:28Oh, God.
09:29Yeah, nice one.
09:30Hey, Stace, you all right, darling?
09:31Has anyone seen my jacket?
09:32I hung it on the banister.
09:33I'm always losing some.
09:35It'll turn up.
09:35No, I need it.
09:36I need it now.
09:37Stace, I might have took it to the lingerie.
09:39What?
09:39It's in the bag.
09:40No.
09:42No, I hung it on the banister.
09:44He finds it in the pocket.
09:45I think you can't.
09:46What?
09:46Are you stupid, Freddie?
09:47What is wrong with you?
09:48Don't blame him.
09:49It's not his fault.
09:50I won't even know.
09:51Mum?
09:52All right.
10:01I'm using the technique.
10:02No luck, dear.
10:09Which machine did Freddie use?
10:11Pardon?
10:11Freddie just bought a load of washing over.
10:13Well, where is it?
10:14In there.
10:15What do you think?
10:16You can't stop it.
10:17I'm excited, Stace.
10:18Well, I have to.
10:19My phone's in there.
10:20I need my phone.
10:20No, no, no, no.
10:21You can't.
10:21I don't want me to go for something.
10:22No, no, no.
10:24Stace, Stace, Stace.
10:24No.
10:25Oh, shh.
10:28Try this to sleep.
10:29Thanks, Nils.
10:30Keep an eye on the kids, yeah?
10:31Yeah, good luck.
10:35Where's mum going?
10:37Mate, she's just nipped over to the lingerie because this donut here has put her phone in the wash.
10:41Can you believe it?
10:43Won't it work anymore?
10:44Yeah, it's going to be fine.
10:45It's going to be all right.
10:45Listen, how do you fancy some ice cream, yeah?
10:48She won't be able to call you?
10:49Mate, of course she will.
10:50It's going to be all right.
10:51Okay, I'll tell you what.
10:53Come and sit down here.
10:54Park it.
10:55Right down here, buddy.
10:57Come here.
10:58You can talk to your uncle and I'll feel you, yeah?
11:00What's the matter?
11:01I've done a bad thing.
11:03Bad thing, eh?
11:05What have you done?
11:07I know a secret.
11:08What kind of secret?
11:09Okay.
11:10Right.
11:11What kind of secret?
11:12Daddy.
11:13He's coming home.
11:15Listen, there is nothing I can do.
11:21You're just going to have to be patient.
11:22What are you doing?
11:23I need that phone.
11:25I need it.
11:26It's got my photos and everything on it.
11:27It's going to be ruined.
11:28You don't know that.
11:29Yes, I do, Kat.
11:29I do.
11:30That is all I've got left of him.
11:32Martin, that's all I've got left.
11:33His voicemails.
11:34That's it.
11:34I need it, Kat.
11:35I need it.
11:36Calm down, yeah?
11:37Come home with me and we'll talk.
11:38No, I'm not coming home.
11:39I'm sitting here until that is done.
11:47Come on, buddy.
11:49You tell me anything, all right?
11:50I promise you I'm getting into trouble.
11:52Okay?
11:59Right.
12:00What's this, then?
12:02Daddy's phone.
12:03The police came around and gave it to Nan.
12:06She hid it in the cupboard under the stairs.
12:07I took it.
12:11All right.
12:12What, does anyone know you've got this?
12:16All right.
12:17Hey, what's on it?
12:18Do we know?
12:28Which needs to be sectioned?
12:29What do we do, then?
12:29What do we do?
12:32That's not going to happen, all right?
12:36Stacey.
12:37Would you like a cup of tea or a glass of water while you're eating?
12:42Hi.
12:43Be all right, Stacey?
12:44Okay, tomorrow.
12:45Yeah, they're good.
12:46They're good.
12:46Yeah, where's Kat?
12:48Oh, okay.
12:50Lily was a little bit upset.
12:53I'm going to go now.
12:54Give you all some privacy.
12:56Okay, yeah, thanks.
13:02All right, Lilz?
13:05I think I've got to show you something.
13:08Well, show me this.
13:09Okay, it's Martin's phone.
13:13Arthur had it.
13:13You've got to hear this.
13:17I can't wait to see you.
13:19The kids are excited, too, and we won't make any mistakes this time.
13:23No messing around.
13:25All I want is to be with you.
13:26Be together.
13:27Be your wife.
13:31When did she leave it?
13:32About three hours ago.
13:35I don't understand.
13:37I don't get it.
13:38What does it mean?
13:51Mom, we know what you've been doing.
13:54Where'd you get back?
13:55You've been talking to Dad.
13:57Sending him messages like he's still alive.
13:59I just want to lie in bed with you.
14:03Sunday morning, cuddle, talk.
14:07Maybe I'll go down, get us a cup of tea, a slice of toast.
14:10That's enough.
14:12But that's it.
14:12You give me that phone, Lily.
14:13Give it to me.
14:13Why are you doing this?
14:14No one's bothering us.
14:16Have you gone completely mad?
14:17Please, Lily.
14:18Why are you torturing yourself like this?
14:21Can't you see what this is doing to me?
14:23To us, to the kids, do you even care?
14:25It's got nothing to do with you.
14:26It's got nothing to do with the kids.
14:27It's got nothing to do with me and Martin.
14:29Stacey, Arthur's had the phone.
14:30He's been listening to the messages, every one of them.
14:33Let's just get rid then.
14:35What?
14:36It's fine.
14:36Let's just get rid of it.
14:38Dad's dead.
14:39He's gone.
14:40The phone might as well go too.
14:43Stop, stop.
14:44Don't go to the car.
14:45Get it.
14:45What are you doing, cat?
14:46No.
14:47Stacey, leave it.
14:48No.
14:49Stacey, what have you done?
14:51Come on, go home.
14:52Just go home.
14:53Go after her.
14:54Okay, okay.
14:55What have you done?
14:57Bills, hold up, darling.
14:59It's okay.
15:00Are you okay?
15:01It's just that your mum's really upset at the moment.
15:02Oh, who ain't?
15:03I've lost my dad and I've been looking after these kids all on my own.
15:06Yeah, I know.
15:06Listen, I get it, all right?
15:07No, you don't.
15:09I'm the kid.
15:09She should be looking after me, not the other way around.
15:12Bills.
15:12You're having an episode?
15:21Maybe you need professional help.
15:22I'm not having an episode, cat.
15:24All right, I know the signs.
15:25Yeah, but all this...
15:26I'm not crazy.
15:28I know mine's dead.
15:38You do?
15:39Yes.
15:39So why?
15:42Why all this?
15:48Aren't you a bit old for that?
15:52You all right?
15:54What's happened?
15:57Nothing.
15:59Just my mum.
16:01Oh.
16:03What's she done?
16:04She messed up.
16:06Big time.
16:06Yeah, well, you know what it's like.
16:10You've got a kid.
16:11I've got a kid.
16:13It's not easy being a mum.
16:15Sometimes you do miss that.
16:16Yeah, sometimes.
16:17Not all the time.
16:20Is she really that bad?
16:24I wouldn't write a lot.
16:26We all make mistakes.
16:29I know I have.
16:29Yeah.
16:31Yeah, of course.
16:33I'm not stupid.
16:34I know she's not the worst in the world, but...
16:40Being around her...
16:41...is making me a worse mum to Charlie.
16:45It's the truth, Lauren.
16:47It's not fair.
16:48It's not right.
16:48I have to put my daughter first.
16:53Isn't that what a good mum would do?
16:59The first time I left a message, I was screaming down the phone.
17:03I was so angry that he'd left me on my own.
17:06And I know it's crazy, but it just...
17:08It felt so good to let it out.
17:10So I left another one, and then I realised it had been listened to.
17:17And I knew it couldn't be him, but I couldn't work it out.
17:23I left another one.
17:26And it just...
17:28It just felt good to not be alone.
17:31And the more and more I did, the more it felt like we still had a chance.
17:42That he was still alive.
17:45But you know he ain't.
17:47I know.
17:49I know it ain't real.
17:53I just really wanted it to be.
17:57You can't carry on like this, you know that.
18:01It's really affecting the kids.
18:05Arthur thinks his dad's coming back and that you and Martin are gonna get married.
18:09You can't have this.
18:12You've got to put a stop to it, Stace.
18:15Before it's too late.
18:31It's broke.
18:42It's broke.
18:44All my photos, all the voicemails, they've gone.
18:49They've just gone.
18:52No.
18:52The most amazing thing that happened at the hospital earlier.
19:21I managed to feed Jimmy.
19:25Like properly.
19:26He latched on properly.
19:28Like it was the easiest, most simplest thing in the whole wide world.
19:32It was...
19:32It was so cute.
19:36We're gonna be okay.
19:39He's got me.
19:41He's got you.
19:43We're in this together.
19:44We're in this together.
19:48Aren't we?
19:48We're in this together.
19:49Yeah, of course.
19:51Of course.
20:06What are you doing?
20:09Leaving.
20:10What?
20:11Where are you going?
20:13Lily!
20:14I'm not angry.
20:18Are you having a bad time?
20:19I get it.
20:20So why are you going then?
20:23Charlie.
20:24You dropped the ball, Mum.
20:26And I can't keep looking after this house and these kids and Charlie.
20:31I can't do it all anymore.
20:32You don't have to do it anymore.
20:33I'm here.
20:34No, Mum.
20:34It's too late.
20:36I love you, but I've got to put my daughter first.
20:40Where are you gonna go?
20:42I'm staying at Ryan's.
20:46She's sending a cab to pick me up.
20:48What now?
20:49I'm sorry, Mum.
20:51I called him.
20:52I was upset.
20:53He insisted.
20:54It's...
20:54It's gonna be your end, innit?
20:57This is crazy.
20:59Lily, you don't have to go.
21:00This is your home.
21:02I'm feeling better now.
21:03I'm gonna...
21:04I'm gonna do better, all right?
21:06I'm gonna go back to work.
21:07I'm gonna do everything.
21:08I'm gonna put tea on the table.
21:09All the things that a normal, boring old mum like me does.
21:13Mum, nothing's going back to normal.
21:15Not until you let go.
21:18Not until you let go of Dad.
21:22You need to move on.
21:23I need to move on.
21:26I'm sorry.
21:26I don't want to hurt you.
21:27I don't.
21:28I just...
21:29I don't want to let go of him either.
21:31But I have to.
21:34We both have to.
21:35Can't we do that together?
21:38No, you have to do it for yourself.
21:40I'm trying.
21:41Try harder.
21:42I'm doing my best.
21:44It's not just the grief, Lily.
21:46It's...
21:47It's the what?
21:47It's...
21:48It's the guilt.
21:49It is the guilt.
21:50Guilt for what?
21:51Everything.
21:53Your dad died trying to save me.
21:56Just like Bradley did.
21:58I tear families apart.
22:00I am poisoned.
22:02I'm toxic.
22:03All I do is hurt people.
22:04Oh, Mum, that's not true.
22:09It's not true.
22:12Bad things happen.
22:14That doesn't make them your fault.
22:17You have to see that.
22:19You have nothing to be guilty for.
22:22Do anything.
22:23Yes.
22:23You just have to let it go.
22:30You just have to let all of it go.
22:34And you'll be okay.
22:35I know you will.
22:37Can't you stay?
22:38No.
22:40Not until you sort this out.
22:43You can't be a mum to me.
22:45And I can't be a mum to Charlie.
22:52I have to go on.
22:56It's okay, I'm not.
23:00No.
23:03Can you help me?
23:04No.
23:15No.
23:25Thanks.
23:26Thanks.
23:27Thanks.
23:27You will come back, won't you?
23:39Please.
23:41I hope so.
23:44You need to sort yourself out first, then.
23:48If not for me and Charlie, for you,
23:52we're gonna lose everyone.
23:55For good.
23:57I love you.
23:59I love you too.
24:27I love you too.
24:31I love you too.
26:08So do we.
26:09Come here.
26:11Don't be scared.
26:15Everything's gonna be all right.
26:22You should just take your mommy a long time to say goodbye to your dad.
26:28You're right, but I'm here.
26:31And I love you.
26:34And I'm your mom.
26:36That's all that matters.
26:41I'll tell you when we pick these photos up, eh?
26:48Clear up this messy room.
26:50And then tomorrow we'll go and stay with Auntie Lynn and have a little break.
26:56Get some peace and quiet.
26:57Tell you what, let's put them in this box.
27:03We can put them in this box and then every now and again we can take them out and have
27:09a little look at them.
27:11And remember what a lovely dad he was.
27:14How lucky we were to have him.
27:18Can be our special thing.
27:24Just me, you and Lil.
27:25Yeah?
27:26All we gotta do is say goodbye.
27:27Goodbye, Dad.
27:28Goodbye, Dad.
27:29Bye, babe.
27:30I miss you.
27:31Bye, babe.
27:32Goodbye, babe.
27:33Goodbye, father.
27:34Goodbye, Dad.
27:36Goodbye, babe.
27:36Bye, babe.
27:37I miss you.