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00:009-1-1, what's the address of your emergency?
00:06I need an officer out to my place regarding my brother, Raymond Cervantes.
00:12There's blood all over the floor.
00:15He took off with his soon-to-be ex-wife.
00:18I don't know if it's her blood.
00:23My life today, it's not what I imagined it would be.
00:26And due to him attacking me that night, and as many times as I was strangled and beaten,
00:33and all the times I went without oxygen, I have memory loss, I have a traumatic brain injury,
00:39I possibly suffered a stroke that night.
00:43I'm going to have to live with this for the rest of my life.
00:48That of everything that I could forget, I wish I could forget this, but it's something I'll never forget.
00:56I didn't think I was going to get upset.
01:03I thought I was going to be able to do this without crying.
01:05This is actually the knife that I had that night, the knife that Ray gave me and had me start carrying.
01:31When Ray first gave me the knife, he kind of taught me how to use it.
01:37It was more of a hearing gesture, like, I want you to be okay if I'm not around.
01:41If anything happens, I want you to be able to defend yourself and protect yourself.
01:45I think it's very ironic that the thing that he gave me to protect myself with
01:50is ultimately what I use to protect myself against him.
01:54I fully 100% believe that Ray is evil.
01:59I think it's very important.
02:29This is a picture of me and Ray.
02:44We're still smiling in this picture, so.
02:50It just makes me remember that there were good times.
02:54We had so much fun in the beginning.
02:56We spent a lot of time together, and we hung out and played games.
03:01In the beginning, it was just a lot of fun then.
03:05I don't know, I just feel stupid saying there were good times.
03:08Like, how could there have been good times?
03:10But, I mean, there were.
03:14I think from the very moment I met him, he was playing a role.
03:21Looking at this picture, if I could go back, I would tell that girl to run as far away.
03:26From that man as she could.
03:27The day that I met Ray, I mean, living in Ohio, and I have my house with my two kids,
03:54I was pretty kind of lost and broken and just searching, I guess, for myself or something.
03:59I was single.
04:00I had just gotten out of a relationship, and I didn't know who I was anymore.
04:06I really didn't feel like I had a purpose in life.
04:09I just was kind of existing and floating through life.
04:13Meeting Ray was completely random.
04:18A mutual friend of ours had a gathering at her house, and I had one over there.
04:23He was nice and funny, and he seemed caring, and he seemed like he was attentive, and just,
04:30he seemed like a nice guy.
04:31I don't think I've ever really laughed so much with anybody.
04:35I didn't want to stop talking to him.
04:36I didn't want him to go home.
04:39I was kind of opening up to him about what was going on in my life, and he said he'd be
04:45there and kind of helped get me through it, and just kind of seemed like a very, very caring
04:49person, and that made me want to get to know him more and spend more time with him.
04:54I did not realize that I was literally giving him everything that he was going to use against
05:00me on a silver platter.
05:01Maybe it's because you're so lost.
05:03They seem so perfect.
05:04I don't know.
05:05I thought I was opening up and actually connecting with someone.
05:09I didn't.
05:10I didn't know who he was going to turn out to be.
05:12Pretty early on, I knew that he had been previously married, but he had been divorced for a long
05:30time.
05:31We were pretty much together almost every day, and we would go fishing and go walk and hang
05:36out in the parks, go out to the bars and have drinks.
05:39One night, Ray and I were out at the bar drinking, and then all of a sudden, Ray opened up a little
05:44bit about his past to me.
05:47There's something I got to tell you.
05:48Ann told me that he had a kidnapping charge that he had spent some time in jail for.
05:54After he said that, I really didn't know what to believe.
05:57Something with no problem.
05:59I was, I think, still in, like, just shock, and my heart sank.
06:03He told me that his ex-wife was dating somebody new, and that person had hit their child, one
06:11of their sons.
06:11So he went over there to fight the person and drug him out of the house and beat him up.
06:18So he told me that he got a kidnapping charge for dragging the guy out of the house.
06:23Not the best thing, but in my mind, it was, okay, I guess you're defending your kid.
06:30I mean, not the best way to do it, but okay.
06:33I understand maybe I wouldn't go to that extremes, too, but you're sticking up for your kid, and
06:40it was a long time ago, so I'm not going to judge you on something that you were honest
06:44with me about.
06:44But I think that should have been my warning sign.
06:48I wish I would have known the full story, and I really wish I would have asked more
06:54questions.
06:54I wish I would have been not so trusting.
06:58Later on, his ex-wife contacted me, and we've talked, and I do know what the real story is.
07:04He actually kidnapped her and took her to a cemetery, drug her around by her hair, and
07:09told her to pick out her own grave.
07:14We had gone to a birthday party, and there was a guy that came on a motorcycle.
07:33I love motorcycles.
07:35My parents have motorcycles.
07:36I grew up around them.
07:37It had been a long time since I had taken a ride on a bike, so I was pretty excited about
07:44it.
07:45I asked him to take me for a ride around the block on his motorcycle.
07:49Would you mind?
07:50Not at all.
07:52Ray actually was standing right there when I asked, and apparently that was not the correct
07:58thing to do.
08:00Kind of didn't look happy, but he didn't immediately yell at me or anything like that.
08:05He just kind of was a little sulky, and then I just all of a sudden noticed that he was gone.
08:11At first, I just thought, I'm like, oh, okay, he got mad about something.
08:16So I didn't, yeah, I didn't think it was that big of a deal.
08:20Then I realized he actually left me at that party, and I had to get a taxi home.
08:24I mean, I guess I should have thought he left me there, but I was just, I really honestly
08:33didn't know why.
08:34I'm like, okay, what's going on?
08:37Let me go home and find out what's going on.
08:39When I got home, he told me how disrespectful that was, that I should never, ever disrespect
08:50him like that again, that no man was going to take his lady out on a bike.
08:55And then Ray got very, very upset.
08:57You thought you were slick?
08:58It was just a motorcycle ride.
09:00And we get into an argument, and he just all of a sudden came at me from behind.
09:06He had my shoulders pinned down.
09:10I'm remembering the look on his face, how mad and angry he was.
09:16It was scary and shocking, like this whole other side of him that I had not ever seen
09:22before.
09:23He was punching me in the face.
09:25I remember asking him to stop, you know, telling him to stop hitting me.
09:34But then I finally got away.
09:36I ran down to my neighbor's house.
09:39They came down to help me, but he had taken off.
09:42And the neighbors wanted to call the police, but I didn't let them, and I did not call the
09:46police.
09:47At that time, I was just, I didn't, I was embarrassed.
09:50I was confused, and I really still at that time was struggling with, that's not really
09:56him.
09:57And then Ray began sending me messages, apologizing and promising to change and be a better person.
10:04He even encouraged me to call the cops on him.
10:06He told me that I should call the cops on him because he deserved to be in trouble for
10:10what he did.
10:11And I told him, no, I wasn't, I'm not going to do that to you, because at the time I saw
10:16it as remorse, not manipulation.
10:20But that's how good of a manipulator he is.
10:25Like, I thought maybe, you know, that was just a one-time thing.
10:29People have bad nights and do stupid things when they're drinking, so I fully did believe
10:33that it was not going to happen again.
10:37I wish I knew then what I know now.
10:41Ray God wanted us to work on our relationship.
10:50We didn't continue to try to work on being a couple.
10:53At some point, we started talking about marriage, and we decided that we were just going to go
10:58downtown and get married.
11:01I was very nervous, very hesitant, very second-guessing myself, but at that time kind of scared to not
11:08go through with it because I didn't want to upset him, and I didn't know how he would
11:12react if I told him that I didn't want to anymore.
11:16So I went through with it, and we got married.
11:19Once we got married, Ray moved into my house with me.
11:23Some things were pretty good at first, and we got along pretty good, had a lot of fun.
11:26I thought that being married would make us closer and make our relationship stronger.
11:31I didn't think anything bad was going to happen again.
11:34In the morning, I was trying to wake him up, and he was sleeping, and I was shaking him
11:54on his back, and he kind of rolled over, and my hands kind of got trapped between him and
12:02the couch, and when I pulled my hands out, it scratched his back.
12:06It wasn't anything serious.
12:08He just kind of looked at me, and I just woke him up and told him it was time to get up and
12:11go to work.
12:12It's a little awkward, but not, like, hostile or anything like that.
12:17I, again, didn't think anything of it and went about getting ready for my day.
12:24And all of a sudden, there is a knock on the front door, and it's the police.
12:33He called the police and told them that I had attacked him.
12:39I remember, like, I was thinking, what, are you serious?
12:42Like, what is going on here?
12:44Like, we weren't, there was no yelling, there was no fighting.
12:46I'm like, I don't understand this.
12:47Like, I didn't, didn't do anything.
12:49I didn't put my hands on him.
12:51They're like, well, he has scratches on his back.
12:52I was like, I literally was waking him up on the couch.
12:56Hey!
12:57I explained to them exactly what happened.
13:00He just kind of stood there and let it all happen.
13:03I'm like, are you kidding me right now?
13:06Like, you're taking me to jail over a scratch on somebody's back.
13:11He didn't try to help me at all until I was in the handcuffs.
13:15Ray, please!
13:16All right, officers, all right.
13:19Then he would try to be the savior and, oh, please don't arrest her.
13:23I didn't mean to call you guys.
13:24It wasn't that bad.
13:26And then it was the nice guy that was going to save me from the situation that he put me in.
13:32I was furious.
13:33It didn't make sense to me why he did this to me when I didn't call the police on him when he had beaten me so terribly before.
13:43Looking back, I think Ray was just trying to teach me that I had to do what he wanted, that it was his way, that if I didn't comply with him, that I was going to be taught some kind of lesson.
13:58He was going to do something to show me that I did something wrong.
14:00Shortly after Christmas, my daughter had a friend staying the night.
14:22It was one of those nights he was on the couch, I was in the bedroom.
14:24We weren't really hanging out or talking.
14:26When I got home and I first got my daughter and her friend situated in her bedroom and go and look at my room, and I was just, like, kind of shocked.
14:36The bedroom door had been kicked in, my mattress has been flipped over, he's rifled through all of my things, there's things thrown about the room, like he's searching for something that I don't know what he's searching for.
14:53It looks like a mini tornado had went through my bedroom.
14:56So then I asked him, like, what's going on, where are you doing that?
15:00What is wrong with you?
15:03He just immediately starts telling me that I'm hiding stuff from him in the bedroom, but he can't tell me what I'm hiding.
15:09I know you're sneaking around!
15:10What are you talking about?
15:11We get into an argument, he always wanted to know what I was doing and where I was, and I guess he felt like he didn't know something.
15:18And he pushes me down on the couch.
15:21I'm very upset, you know, I don't know what he's going to do, like, you know, he gets angry and goes off on the deep end.
15:26And he's kind of antagonizing me, like, you know, what are you going to do?
15:30So I have my little pocket knife in my hand, and I'm telling him, if you put your hands on me again, I said, I'm going to defend myself.
15:37I'm going outside, you know, get out of my way.
15:39I kind of just walked around him and went outside to the patio.
15:46I didn't know this at the time, but my daughter had saw Ray push me, and she called the police.
15:56So, the police show up.
15:59They told me that Ray had showed them a video of us arguing in the kitchen with me with a knife in my hand, and I took a step towards him, which was threatening towards him, so that they had to arrest me for domestic violence.
16:14He just had his phone in his hand.
16:16My plan when I was coming home was to go to the courts first and file separation, because once I had those separation papers, I could legally get them to make him leave my house.
16:40And then the COVID pandemic hit.
16:47The courts were not going to be open.
16:49There's nothing I can do.
16:50It was literally like walking on eggshells, not knowing what to do and how to act.
16:57During this time, there was quite a few nights that I slept with my bedroom door locked.
17:01And I dreaded, just absolutely dreaded the fact that I was going to be stuck in the house with this person 24-7.
17:11I don't know what he would do if I finally do leave him.
17:16I was terrified.
17:17The Ray that I first met, I don't think it truly exists.
17:28I don't think any part but the manipulative, evil, mean, abusive person exists.
17:36I think it was all just lies and manipulation.
17:39I didn't want to let Ray know what I had planned because I didn't, I didn't trust him and I didn't know how he would react and I was just trying to maintain and survive and play the role and continue to plan my escape.
17:52I decided I'm not going to sit at home and deal with this.
18:07So I got a hold of some friends and I went and hung out with some friends for the night.
18:12I wake up in the morning and I call my mom on the way home.
18:18My mom tells me that I need to get home because he had killed my dog.
18:29And I don't even remember the drive home.
18:31I just remember getting there and just like, what the f**k?
18:35I don't need to take pictures.
18:49I'm just going to video everything.
18:51So that is a video that I took the day that I came home.
19:07And it just shows just the pure destruction of my house and all my belongings and my, you could see the dolls, my grandparents' dolls with their heads missing.
19:22And I mean, I knew he was a violent person, but I guess I didn't know the extremes and the level that his violence could get to.
19:30And I didn't think he would literally go from one end of the house to the other and break everything in his path.
19:39I got into my bedroom.
19:41That was where he murdered my poor dog.
19:49I didn't, that back wall.
19:52That was, uh, that was jaggy, splattered against that wall in my bed and right where I laid my head every night to sleep.
20:11This is my dog, Shaggy.
20:16He was just, he was one of my best friends.
20:20He was just such a freakishly large shih tzu.
20:24He slept at the end of my bed, right at my foot in my bed, between me and the door, because he had to protect his mama.
20:31He was my furry soulmate.
20:35Ray murdered him.
20:36He took his poor little body and beat him against the bedroom walls and tied a scarf around his neck and hung him from a tree in my backyard.
20:46You can see the purple pieces of scarf.
20:55I felt like, sadly, Shaggy sacrificed himself that night to save me that night.
21:02Because if it wasn't going to be Shaggy, it probably would have been me if I would have came home.
21:07I hate that, but...
21:11It's how much he loved me and how much I loved him.
21:14My parents, when they were going through and cleaning the house and kind of trying to get it cleaned up,
21:35they found knives tucked around the house.
21:38Under the couch, under the living room, coffee table, by the front door, just stashed everywhere.
21:51We later found a security camera that he had set up in the corner of the house.
21:58And, um, on this security camera, you can see him assaulting my daughter.
22:08That night, I told my daughter to stay at her friend's house and to stay away from the house,
22:12but there was one point in the night that she needed her phone charger, so she went back down to the house.
22:18And he didn't want her in the house.
22:22Ray punched my daughter in the face and pushed her out the front door into a truck.
22:29I could tell by watching the video that he was waiting for me to come home
22:32because he'd be sitting on the couch and you would see headlights come across the front windows
22:37and he would get up and jump to the windows and look out the window and see what car it was.
22:41I fully believe that his plan that night was why he set the camera up, was for me to come home,
22:50find my dog hanging from the tree, come into the house with no context,
22:55and him defend himself and kill me that night.
22:59At least that's what I think was his plan that night because I don't know why else
23:02you would have knives tucked all around the house and every corner of the house.
23:07When Ray got out of jail, he was living at his sister's house and I had moved a new apartment with my kids.
23:27I had not told Ray where I had been living, but one day I got a text message from him
23:34with the picture of the front of my building.
23:36I think he was sending me a message that he could find me at any time if he wanted to.
23:44When I got his text message, I didn't at that time think very much of it.
23:49I had so much other things going on in my life.
23:53I didn't really take it as seriously as I probably should have at that time
23:57because looking back now, I feel like that was just the start of his plan to do something to me.
24:13It was a Sunday night.
24:14I was at home and Ray had been sending me messages
24:18and trying to get me to come over to his sister's house.
24:21Ray sent me photos of signed divorce papers
24:25and I thought that that was his way of telling me that we were done
24:30and this relationship was over.
24:34He was telling me that he was very sorry for everything that he had destroyed in my house
24:39and he wanted to try to make some things right
24:42and he had $1,000 to give to me.
24:46I told Ray that I would meet him, but I had some ground rules
24:49that I was not getting out of the car.
24:52That I was going to bring my knife to protect me
24:54and I was not staying very long to talk to him.
24:58Driving over there, I just all of a sudden got this sinking feeling of dread in my stomach
25:04and I regret not turning around.
25:08He walks up to my driver's window and he hands me some money through the window
25:25and I think it was like $400 or so.
25:27Then he said he has the rest of the money, the rest of the $1,000 for me in the garage
25:33and if I'd go in the garage with him, he'll give me the rest of the money.
25:38I walked into the garage and he walked in behind me.
25:46Shut the door.
25:48Immediately punched me in the side of my head
25:50and said, you really thought I was letting you go home tonight?
25:56I mean, I immediately thought, what the f*** did I just get myself into?
26:00I have my phone in my hand and I have the knife tucked in my waistband
26:06so I'm trying to get the knife out
26:09and I just have this sinking feeling that this is not going to turn into a very good situation.
26:15His eyes looked pure black.
26:18He just looked evil.
26:20Like he just, this pure rage and hatred.
26:24I've seen him look mad before but never like that.
26:28He starts strangling me from behind
26:35and I can't breathe and I don't know what to do
26:38but I've still got the knife in my hand.
26:40So I look to my right and the only thing I can see is his thigh.
26:47So I, um, I stabbed him in his thigh.
26:53And he pulled me out and he threw me down onto the ground
26:56and pinned me down and had my arms pinned down.
27:02Ray was telling me that he would stop strangling me if I gave him the knife.
27:06I'm not giving him that knife.
27:08So I took it and I threw it as hard as I could.
27:15But, uh, he didn't stop like he said he would.
27:21He continued to strangle me and at that point, uh,
27:28I'm pretty sure I died for a moment
27:30because, uh, I wasn't there for I don't know how long
27:36but where I was was great.
27:43It was just the most euphoric place you have ever been
27:48and the most calm and peaceful
27:51and just light and bright.
27:53and it's like
27:55from those moments that I experienced
27:58I'm not afraid to die
28:00anymore, if that makes any sense.
28:06But then I came back too
28:07and he had all of my hair
28:10wrapped around his fist
28:12and he was dragging me.
28:14and I remember thinking in that moment, I was like,
28:18I just want to go back
28:19to where I just was.
28:20Like, just take me back there.
28:22I don't want to be
28:23doing this right now.
28:25Then I realized I had to keep fighting.
28:28I'm screaming for somebody to help me.
28:33I'm screaming that he's trying to kill me
28:36and he's telling me that nobody is going to hear me
28:38and nobody is going to come and help me
28:41that I'm going to die that night.
28:43And sitting on this toolbox
28:45is this big eight inch metal seat clamp.
28:49And he grabs that and he hits me
28:53on the left side of my face right here
28:56a couple of times with a knife.
28:58And he's like, oh, I'm going to die that night.
29:00I'm going to die that night.
29:01And a couple of times with that,
29:07I could instantly feel the side of my face swell.
29:15I can hear all the sounds.
29:18I can hear myself struggling.
29:23I can hear myself gasping for my own breath.
29:25No one should ever have to hear something like that.
29:28I can hear myself begging for my own life.
29:31No one should ever have to hear that.
29:34But then he takes an electrical cord,
29:37cuts the end off a bit, ties it into a noose, and starts chasing me around the garage with this electrical cord noose.
29:51And I know that I cannot let him get that around my neck.
29:54I know if I let him, I know if he gets that around my neck that I don't have my knife, I don't have anything, and what am I going to do to fight an electrical cord?
30:06So I just keep running from him and running from him.
30:10And as I'm doing this, I'm looking up, and I notice that there's already a noose hanging from the rafters.
30:20So I feel like I'm like, he's going to hang me and then hang himself.
30:23Like, what is going on?
30:25I know I'm in trouble, and I just want to get out of there.
30:30Still shocks me.
30:32This is a picture of the C-clamp that I was beaten with.
30:42Yeah, I still, I still just don't understand, like, why you would pick up something like that and hit somebody with it, and how it didn't do more damage.
31:12To me.
31:13Yeah, this was fairly early into it when I got hit with this.
31:27Three and a half hours of not knowing whether I was going to live or not.
31:39I was able to get away and out of the garage and get into my car and get it started, but the gear shifts stuck.
31:45And by the time I tried to get it in the right gear, Ray was right there.
31:50He reached in and grabbed the keys.
31:53He forced me to get over in the passenger seat so he could drive and take off with me.
31:57So we leave there, and he's telling me that he just wants to go and talk to me, that he's not going to hurt me anymore, that he just wants to go talk to me.
32:09After he took me from his sister's house, she called him and he answered and he told her that he just wanted to go have a heart-to-heart talk with his wife one more time, but that he wasn't coming home and that he loved her.
32:24911.
32:27911, what's the address of your emergency?
32:30Hi, I need an officer out to my place.
32:34Regarding my brother Raymond Cervantes.
32:36I just walked out to my garage where he was.
32:40There's blood all over the floor.
32:43He has known his ex-wife, he actually took her to a cemetery and told her to pick out her grave.
32:52He was in prison for that.
32:53He was in prison for that.
33:23The fishing spot that he took me is a desolate area that is a path between two cornfields.
33:32If you didn't know that this place existed, you wouldn't be able to find it.
33:39Like, I'm in the middle of nowhere.
33:42Already been beat, strangled multiple times, hit with a C-clamp.
33:46Told multiple times I'm never going to see my kids or my dogs again.
33:50And then driven here.
33:53You could scream out there for hours and nobody would ever hear you.
33:57And we're still not even there.
34:01You can still see my tire tracks from the other night.
34:05I'm literally thinking that there's nobody out here that can help me.
34:09There's nobody that can hear me.
34:11And now we're by the water. What is he going to do now?
34:14And then brought here.
34:17That is where I almost died.
34:20And then he picks up a piece of driftwood and starts beating me in the head.
34:25That's a shoe print.
34:27You can see this is where I'm struggling.
34:33You can see it all.
34:36All right.
34:37Every time he strangled me or was on top of me, it was don't quit moving.
34:48Nope.
34:49Don't give up.
34:50If you get moving and you give up, you're dead.
34:53And then he keeps telling me, bitch, why won't you just pass out?
34:58Why won't you just pass out?
35:02And he wants me to look at him and he keeps telling me to look at him.
35:05And I won't look at him.
35:06And he's like, look at me.
35:08I want to watch your eyes like I watch Shaggy's.
35:15I look down and I see where I stabbed him at.
35:19So I took my fingers and I just dug.
35:23It just kind of made me distracted him enough that I could break away from his chokehold.
35:34So I get away from him.
35:36And I get to the back of my car and I'm kind of leaning against it.
35:40And I'm looking at my surroundings.
35:43And I remember just telling myself and my head to run.
35:46And my brain is screaming that.
35:49But my body's not listening.
35:53I physically, I have nothing left.
35:58I have been fighting for hours.
36:01I am exhausted.
36:03I am messed up.
36:06I knew that if he attacked me one more time, I wouldn't make it.
36:13This whole night, he just had this sense of rage about him.
36:18And for this moment, I didn't sense that.
36:21So I tried to reason with him.
36:29I told him, I said, look at the stars.
36:31I said, they're so pretty.
36:34So why don't we just look at the stars together.
36:36I told him that he had the money, we had my car, we could just run away together.
36:41And then I said, but?
36:42I said, I think I'm dying.
36:44I said, I really need to go to the hospital.
36:47I said, can I please, please go to the hospital?
36:51And amazingly, he agreed.
36:52I was like, I will tell him I got in a car accident.
37:06I said, I'm not going to tell him that this was you.
37:07I promise.
37:08I'm not going to tell him it was you.
37:09And I got halfway in between the car and the emergency room doors.
37:11I turned and I looked at him.
37:12And I told him, I said, if you think for a second, I'm not telling him this was you.
37:13You're crazy.
37:14And I ran into the emergency room.
37:15This is a picture of me that night in the hospital.
37:21You can just see how misshapen my head is.
37:22You can, you can, you can, you can, you can, you can't see what's going to do.
37:25And I got halfway into, between the car and the emergency room doors and I turned and
37:27I looked at him and I told him, I said, if you think for a second, I'm not telling them
37:29this was you, you're crazy.
37:30And I ran into the emergency room.
37:35This is a picture of me that night in the hospital.
37:39You can just see how misshapen my head is.
37:44I mean, my eyes are almost swollen shut.
37:47I think there were a few audible gasps when people saw me
37:51because it was just, I think, such a shocking thing to see.
37:56It reminds me how lucky I am to have made it through that night.
38:00I mean, it doesn't even look like me.
38:04It just doesn't even look like me.
38:09A person shouldn't look like that,
38:12especially from someone that was supposed to love them.
38:30That is Ray's mugshot the night he tried to kill me.
38:39I don't like looking at this one.
38:46Oh, I don't like those eyes.
38:49That one gives me chills.
38:57I don't, yeah.
38:59That is, that captures the evilness of him, I think, perfectly.
39:10Just the look in his eyes, the look of hatred.
39:13He just looks mad and angry and evil.
39:18My life will never be the same after meeting him.
39:20I will live with lifelong consequences and medical issues
39:24because of the man in that picture.
39:26During the sentencing, the judge said about Ray that he's been doing this a lot of years
39:46and that he has seen a lot of things,
39:48but he now knows what the depths of an empty human soul looks like.
39:51There's still a chance that he can get out in my lifetime,
39:56and I don't think that he should ever be able to.
40:02I fully 100% believe that Ray is evil.
40:05I believe that he is an evil, soulless person.
40:08I would never feel safe if he was ever out on the streets again.
40:10I always believed in the best in people.
40:20Not anymore.
40:21I just, I look at people and see the worst.
40:26I guess I have a little bit less faith in humanity after this, unfortunately.
40:33My life today is not what I imagined it would be.
40:36I don't like the memory problems.
40:39I don't like the stuttering.
40:42I'm still healing and still figuring out how to live with all of this stuff.
40:47I feel like I'm exposing myself for a lot of people to judge
40:52and look at me the wrong way
40:54and say the typical things that people say about domestic violence relationships.
41:00But I also know that it can help a lot of people and bring a lot of awareness.
41:07I always thought of myself as being independent and strong,
41:11and I would never take that from anybody, and then it happened.
41:16Still just take it day by day and still try to just survive, I guess.
41:21Going through something like that definitely empowers you
41:24and makes me feel stronger.
41:26I can face any situation.
41:29It may not be easy, and you may have to fight like hell,
41:32but you'll get through it.
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