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00:00that day I felt like I'd lost my entire immediate family that I lived with for years I just felt
00:11like I didn't even have a mother anymore I don't feel bad for her for being in prison because of
00:19what she's done but I just I really want my mom back and that's kind of what I'm looking for
00:28whenever I talk to her
00:30I mean she took
00:58two lives and she can't ever get those back and no one's ever gonna forget that or forgive her for it
01:08yeah I've never seen this photo I never saw what she looked like that day
01:28she looks lifeless
01:38she has the face of my mother but I don't feel like her soul is there
01:47I don't know
01:56you
02:06I grew up in hot springs Arkansas for most of my life my early childhood was definitely
02:36positive my mother and I we were pretty close my dad wasn't really around very much he's a truck
02:42driver and he would be home maybe once every two weeks but it didn't seem like there was any problems
02:49going on ever when it was me her and my dad we were pretty happy family nothing really seemed wrong usually but I didn't really see it but there there were problems for sure
03:02there was one night that I was just kind of doing my own thing as a typical kid and then just all of a sudden my mother started yelling at my dad
03:09there was one night that I was just kind of doing my own thing as a typical kid and then just all of a sudden my mother started yelling at my dad
03:16when I first heard it I was in the other room and I just peeked around the corner and I just peeked around the corner and I didn't know what was going on I didn't know why
03:23after all I died she was standing over him and while he was standing over him and while he was sitting in a chair he was completely silent he didn't try to stand up for himself or argue back
03:30but I was just kind of doing my own thing as a typical kid and then just all of a sudden my mother started yelling at my dad
03:34when I first heard it I was in the other room and I just peeked around the corner and I didn't know what was going on I didn't know why
03:41after all I died she was standing over him and while he was sitting in a chair he was completely silent he didn't try to stand up for himself or argue back or anything
03:53you're gonna just sit there and then she threw her ring across the room
03:57and that scared me a little bit
04:07I saw my mom's face during that moment and her facial expression just completely changed into something I had never seen before
04:16and I was so confused I was just so angry at my mom because I had never seen her like that
04:24ever be mean to my dad over anything I didn't understand it
04:31Get out! Get up and get out! Get out!
04:39Later on my mother told me that she found out that my dad was having an affair with another woman
04:45and that he was about to actually have a child with her
04:49and I was completely shocked
04:52she was you know blaming this other woman
04:55she was also gathering in her mind that my mom and my dad were meant to be together
05:04and nothing in this world could separate them
05:08that was the beginning of my mom's obsession really of my dad and the other woman being together
05:17and things just kind of went down from there
05:22so this is me and my little sister Megan it's the day after she was born
05:31I think it was the very first time me holding her too
05:37I was just ecstatic
05:52you know I saw my dad walking down the hallway with my little sister in his arms
05:58just the biggest smile on his face
06:01it was a really good day
06:03I was about nine and a half years old in this picture
06:07that was what I had always wanted was a close sibling
06:12and I was just really ready for the future
06:17the future that's kind of what I was you know was in my head all day that day
06:28I am trying my best to hang on to the good memories
06:31because it seems like the majority of her life was just all
06:36it was all bad
06:38and I couldn't do anything to change it
06:59I'm sorry
07:00in anything
07:07that I just I
07:08I couldn't get her out of that situation
07:10I just couldn't get her out of that situation
07:12because I was a kid myself
07:14and I didn't know what to do
07:17and I
07:18I didn't realize how
07:20just how toxic it was in that household
07:23before it was too late
07:25it was after my sister was born
07:32my mom told me that
07:34she planned on having the baby
07:37in order to keep my dad
07:39because she had the feeling that
07:43he was kind of trying to be on his way out of marriage
07:47out of the house
07:48and leave my mom and me
07:50so she had to find a way to try to lock him in
07:54so it was only a year after my sister was born
08:07that I was just in my room doing my thing
08:11all of a sudden
08:12she kind of bursts into my room in tears
08:16and sits down on my bed with me
08:19and she told me
08:20my dad
08:21pretty much just made it
08:23official
08:24like
08:25I'm leaving
08:26I don't love you anymore
08:28he hadn't really loved her since I was born
08:30and he only stayed because of me
08:33she blamed the breakup of their marriage
08:35on this other woman
08:37she's a boxer
08:39this other woman was just trying to pull him
08:42out of his family
08:44to be with her
08:46at the time I did want to comfort her
08:51I just didn't really know how
08:53because I was so young
08:55I knew she was upset
08:56and it wasn't just her fault
09:00but then my mother's facial expression
09:03changed quite a bit
09:05she needs to know how this feels
09:09she started talking about the other woman
09:13put her in her place
09:14and what she wanted to do
09:16to kind of get back at her
09:18to hurt her
09:19and what she told me was
09:21she had the idea of throwing nail
09:24like a big box of nails in her driveway
09:27my mother was escalating with her anger
09:30her anger and her violence
09:32somebody has to
09:36I was very scared
09:38whenever my mom told me
09:40because even though everything had gone on
09:43between my mom and my dad
09:45and the affair
09:46I've always thought my mom
09:47as being this loving caring mother
09:49that would never try to hurt anybody else
09:52in any sort of way
09:54for my mom to think of revenge
09:56is this her true, her true self
10:02almost every day
10:03she would be complaining to me
10:05and venting
10:06she just couldn't let go of the idea to hurt her
10:11and it had me really, really scared honestly
10:14because I didn't know what was going to happen next
10:26so this picture is of my grandmother
10:30and my baby sister Megan
10:32at this point
10:33I think my sister is about three months old
10:36and it's right around the time
10:38that my grandma first got to meet her too
10:42she loved her new grandchild
10:45so she definitely wanted to cherish
10:47the time that she had as a baby
10:51we actually had to move in with my grandmother
10:53after my mom and dad divorced
10:55because we couldn't afford to live on our own
10:58and it was definitely
11:01rough at the beginning
11:02trying to adjust to it
11:05not only that
11:06it was just my grandma was always in pain
11:08from her health problems
11:10and what she was going through
11:12and you know
11:13she was getting older in age
11:16in her early 70s
11:20I mean we loved each other
11:22and she would already know that she would protect me
11:25in any way possible
11:27but we could never afford to move out of my grandma's house
11:31so that kind of built up inside of my mom
11:33and it definitely led to my mom and my grandma butting heads a lot
11:38my sister definitely didn't have a great childhood because of my mother
11:48she just gave in to her anger and punished her
11:51spanked her, yelled at her
11:54it was a daily thing
11:55can we go play?
11:56i'm busy
11:57my mom didn't want to go outside with her to watch her and play
11:58my mom would always just put it off
12:00you know
12:01like go sit down
12:02play with her toys
12:03watch tv
12:04just don't be in my way
12:05don't get on my nerves
12:06and she just gave in to her anger
12:08and punished her
12:09spanked her
12:10and she just gave in to her anger
12:11and punished her
12:12spanked her
12:13yelled at her
12:14it was a daily thing
12:15can we go play?
12:16i'm busy
12:17my mom didn't want to go outside with her
12:18to watch her and play
12:20my mom would always just put it off
12:22you know
12:23like go sit down
12:24play with her toys
12:26watch tv
12:27just don't be in my way
12:29don't get on my nerves
12:31it always seemed like my mom was
12:34um
12:35at her wit's end
12:36and anything that my sister did
12:39it was
12:40it was wrong
12:41my mom was always screaming at Megan
12:44what did i say about toys on the table?
12:47we were always walking on eggshells
12:50because my mom was so frustrated and angry all the time
12:54can't you just be quiet?
12:56you know
12:57she was a very serious woman whenever she would get on to us
13:02and um
13:03i hated seeing my sister go through that
13:06so i felt like i couldn't
13:08talk to her
13:09um
13:10or bring anything up to her that might frustrate her
13:14even more
13:15um
13:16because i felt like she was going to lash out at me
13:18and you!
13:19i was scared of my mom
13:21don't you know better
13:22it was just
13:23it got to the point where i didn't know how to be comfortable in the house
13:28because i didn't know how my mom was going to react
13:32i did love to see my dad because it was something different i could get away from my typical everyday life at home and we usually went out and did something he would take us out to eat and maybe go go karting or something
13:51but i always dreaded having to come back home because for the rest of the night my mom would not stop asking about him
14:12how was it?
14:15like what exactly did y'all do?
14:18did he say anything about me?
14:20what did he say?
14:21what'd y'all talk about?
14:23not much
14:25not much
14:26we were trying to visit
14:28as
14:29father and daughters
14:31we weren't
14:32talking about my mother
14:34um
14:35and that
14:36made her feel
14:37really like
14:40and i would say enraged
14:42you know
14:43and she wouldn't let it go
14:45goodnight
14:46she wanted to know every single detail of what we did and what we talked about and it had nothing to do with her
14:59and as time went on
15:01you know at first it was the anger and blaming my dad and my stepmom for everything that happened
15:07and she
15:10still couldn't accept that
15:13you know my dad
15:15was never going to come back to her
15:18she just
15:20went deeper and deeper into her depression
15:22over it
15:24so for megan's birthday we decided to do it at a little park in town
15:40um
15:41we invited my dad
15:42and i didn't have any idea that my stepmom was going to be there
15:48almost the entire time my dad was talking to my stepmom and that really frustrated my mom
15:53my mom
15:57my mom was very very tense because she was frustrated with the whole scenario and she couldn't do anything about it
16:04but it was very unhealthy how much she was trying to hold on to him
16:11and she just shouldn't have been doing that
16:15towards the end though whenever we were wrapping it up my stepmom
16:20uh
16:22i think she had said a few words
16:23uh
16:24under her breath
16:25you know i'm not sure what exactly it was but it was towards my mother
16:29she always liked that
16:30and it just completely enraged her
16:35and she went to the back of our suv and pulled out a big wooden rod that i didn't even know was there but she had it in her hand
16:51you got something to say
16:53ready to
16:54to strike her with it and it really scared me it scared everyone
16:59i'm right here
17:01you know i couldn't stop her from doing anything i was
17:04i was just you know pleading to her mom please don't do this and my dad noticed that and he you know threatened to call department of human services on my mom and my mom just kind of raced back in the car
17:21and my mom still has that wooden pole in her hand
17:24and she threw it pretty hard back into the suv and it almost hit my sister in the head
17:30it was just very scary to me and i didn't know what to do
17:38i was upset because i was scared of what just happened and what's going to happen next i had no idea
17:51i don't think we ever really talked about it after that day
17:55it was just kind of shoved to the side after that
18:00this was the first time that i really saw my mom act this way as violent as she did
18:06but it definitely wasn't the last time
18:15so eventually my mom did start dating again
18:18she got on a few you know dating websites and met a couple of different men
18:25i was definitely happy that she was trying to move on from my dad and not just spend all of her time at home
18:33my mom felt like my grandmother was always in some kind of pain because of her health
18:40so it became more and more where she was asking me to babysit every night um every weekend
18:48you look nice
18:51i had kind of a long-term boyfriend in high school and we hadn't seen each other outside of school for a couple of weeks
18:59so i asked like hey i haven't seen him in a while um outside of school can we um hang out
19:06and my mom there was no hesitation about it she said no i'm going out and doing things with my boyfriend
19:15i tried to tell my mom what i wanted and um how i felt and she just snapped back at me every time saying that i need to do what i'm told
19:27it's not a discussion
19:30it's not a discussion
19:33she told me that i needed to take responsibility but
19:37with it being my sister you know it wasn't my my child you know it was hers i felt like it was supposed to be more her responsibility
19:45she put her needs and wants above mine
19:48so eventually she wouldn't be gone for just the evenings she would be gone for a couple of days
19:58and i would just have to keep staying home with my sister and i couldn't really go out and do anything
20:07i did want her to be happy but at the same time she had been gone so often i felt like i was running the house
20:19over time it just kept getting more and more intense between us
20:25after a while me and my grandmother agreed that he needs to be out of our lives
20:44what is that
20:46it was very difficult for me because i knew that she would just push my opinion to the side
20:53mom he's not good for you
20:56you haven't a damn clue what's good for me
20:59but i really did communicate with her that i don't think that he is right for our family
21:07you brat
21:09it just doesn't sit right with her i guess
21:12and she got pretty furious with me at that moment
21:15she started screaming at me which really frightened me
21:19i was trying to defend myself but i couldn't do it without crying
21:23i couldn't keep my emotions from pouring out
21:26why are you doing this
21:28it escalated pretty quickly
21:30shut up
21:32and then she pushes my seats
21:35i tipped over
21:37but i almost hit my head in the side of the fridge
21:40it was very shocking to me i really had no words after that
21:47like i was just
21:49flustered by the whole thing
21:51i was definitely
21:53thinking like
21:55like how can my mother do this
21:59she didn't apologize for what she did
22:00and i was really kind of giving up on having a good relationship with my mother
22:10i was at the point where i didn't really trust my mother
22:13i didn't know what to do
22:15you know i didn't know what to say to her
22:17to get her to try to change
22:21that day in the kitchen was really the first time that she was ever that violent towards me
22:27and i was very very deathly afraid that it was going to happen sometime soon again
22:38after that incident i didn't feel safe in that house
22:41during that time that she was gone it was honestly very very peaceful in the house
22:58it was just me and my grandmother
23:00you know i went to school every day we just came home
23:03i mean i missed my sister of course
23:05but overall it was pretty nice honestly
23:07it was just me and my grandma in the house for those two weeks
23:11so when she came back i was a little disappointed
23:15i expected her to um just grab some more of her things and go back with her boyfriend
23:26and that's what she said that she was doing at first
23:28looks like we're here to stay
23:31but she had admitted that she was actually moving back
23:38and that her boyfriend had basically kicked her out
23:41so my mom asked me if she could sleep on my bed
23:45and she was all dirty and sweaty and she didn't want to take a shower
23:49and i asked her to either take a shower or i can change my sheets again and that made her snap immediately
24:02how dare you speak to me that way
24:04don't want to help your own mother
24:07hey look at me when i'm speaking to you
24:10she basically was like why did you say that why are you treating me this way um why don't you just go live with your dad
24:21and i was honestly okay with it you know i i wanted to be out of the house
24:26so i went ahead and started packing my things and that was one of those times that i you know stood up for myself
24:33hey and she didn't like it
24:35listen to me i'm speaking to you
24:38and it made my mom so angry that she grabbed an empty beer bottle that was on the side of the table
24:44lifted it over my head and threatened to hit me with it
24:48forehead
24:50at that point i'm so scared that she's actually going to do something to me
24:56and i didn't know what else to do and i didn't want to stay and find out
25:03go ahead
25:05run
25:07get out of here from saying hello
25:09i knew that this house was a very toxic place and i knew i needed to get out of there
25:14i was 18 and i had no obligation to ever live there again
25:20so i took my chance to get out of there and i knew it was for the best
25:24i realized the best time was when she was picking up my sister from getting off the bus
25:34which gave me about a 10 to 15 minute window to go in and just grab my things and leave
25:49so that's what i did
25:55during that moment when i was in the house
26:00i noticed that my sister had actually ran past my mom to get home
26:06and i was able to you know tell her hello and you know i love you i miss you and i'm you know i'm sorry things had to happen like this
26:17you know i'll i i'll see you later and that was it
26:22i do think about that moment a lot
26:27that was the last time i ever got to tell her i love her and hug her
26:34it was hard to leave my sister there
26:37i knew my mom didn't treat her very well either
26:40looking back on that moment now it makes me you know really sad that that that was the last moment i you know i know i i could have come back and um you know i feel like i could have done more
26:58but at the same time i didn't know how to i didn't know how to get around my mom and um you know just do better for my sister
27:10i'm gonna say this
27:13god does not like a marriage that is split
27:28once you marry you're married for life
27:32okay
27:34your dad and i have been split up for
27:37seven years
27:40and
27:41a woman is coming in and is coming in the middle of both of us
27:46okay
27:48which is the devil
27:52she's acting like a completely different person than what i knew
27:57i felt like
27:59maybe maybe i should record this in case something does happen
28:03and we need some kind of explanation or you know something to
28:10to show like how it was leading up to what had happened even if i didn't know that that was going to happen the very next day
28:18i
28:26i
28:27didn't quite understand him
28:29because he was
28:31he was very distraught and
28:34he was saying you need to come to your
28:36to your grandmother's right away something happened and i'm like what what happened
28:42i don't know what's going on is there an emergency and he is in tears
28:48i just didn't understand what was going on
28:51and um he briefly told me that
28:55your mom
28:57killed your sister and your grandma
29:00just in that moment i could not feel anything i i didn't believe it was real at first
29:04i was like am i dreaming
29:06and i just i feel like i'm melting i can't feel anything i can't think of anything else
29:16real at first. I was like, am I dreaming? And I just, I feel like I'm melting. I can't feel
29:26anything. I can't think of anything else. I'm just bawling and in tears because I don't
29:31understand how any of this could have happened. So I go ahead and call my dad and I tell him
29:42what happened that my mom killed my sister and my grandmother and he, I've never heard
29:50my dad ever, ever in tears until that day. And I hate that I had to be the one to tell him.
30:12Y'all clear the house before we do anything else? Two people cover the house and two people
30:20go to the dog? Might help us if we don't know where this at.
30:23.
30:30I'll go ahead and call him.
30:35Yes, sir.
30:36Who's got it covered?
30:40Do you have anything on you?
31:05Yeah, I had never seen that before.
31:12All right, stand up.
31:14I could see all the, you know, all the blood all over her, just, yeah.
31:26Never thought I would see that. After she did what she did, she was, she went underneath
31:33the house to try to set the, the rest of the house on fire. It seemed like she knew what
31:39she was doing because she had that plan and she was, it seemed like she was possibly trying
31:44to cover her tracks.
31:46I've never been in camp here with cats in my life.
31:50No, get here. Get used to it.
32:05Me and my mother, the night before everything happened, she was telling me that there was
32:10an emergency and I need to come home right away. And I was telling her, well, I'm sorry.
32:16I'm not coming home right now unless there's someone that's injured or dying.
32:21Listen to me, Kristen. Come home. Listen to what I said.
32:27I cannot come home right now, Mom.
32:30She was trying to get me to come home more than anything. And I don't exactly know what
32:37for at the time.
32:40I'm dead serious, Kristen. If you just listen to me.
32:46You're making absolutely no sense.
32:48Yes, I am making sense.
32:51And I told her time and time again, no, I'm, I'm done with living there with, um, just under
32:59that toxic roof. It wasn't healthy and I didn't want to be around it anymore. And she seemed
33:06to be getting completely outraged because I wasn't listening to her.
33:10You're just making no sense.
33:12To you, I'm not making any sense. To me, I know I am.
33:19Me and my dad spoke about, um, my mother because my mom had called him, um, prior to calling
33:25me to, um, she was trying to get his help to apparently come get, come get the Christmas
33:32tree to help her put it up.
33:35That, that was a lie. And we knew that after everything had happened because the Christmas
33:40tree was up in the house.
33:43She was, um, ultimately trying to get both of us there. Never in a million years would've
33:49expected her to do what she did.
33:52This picture is of the funeral. I had to pictures printed out, my, my favorite picture of my sister
33:57that I took. And really the only decent picture that I could find of my grandmother.
34:02This picture is of the funeral.
34:07I had two pictures printed out.
34:11My favorite picture of my sister that I took
34:15and really the only decent picture
34:19that I could find of my grandmother.
34:23This day, it was a very hard day for me
34:26because, you know, it was, you know,
34:30it was me trying to say goodbye
34:34and everyone else trying to say goodbye,
34:36but it, you know, I never actually got that chance
34:40to tell them bye.
34:43There was a lot of people there that I didn't know,
34:46so I was still really uncomfortable,
34:49but thankfully my family that was around me
34:53made it a little easier to deal with.
34:58It was definitely difficult to do.
35:01I don't know.
35:02I was just hurting, because I know she was
35:04trying to relieve her of her pain, I guess.
35:08Is that what you're...
35:10I guess, I don't know, I was just hurting,
35:13because I know she was hurting every day.
35:17You know?
35:18I just hated to see her in pain.
35:19But Megan wasn't in pain.
35:20No, Megan wasn't in pain.
35:21No, Megan wasn't in pain.
35:23No, Megan wasn't in pain.
35:25But I was irritated with Megan because...
35:26Were you planning on doing anything to me, though?
35:32I don't know.
35:33I don't know.
35:34I was just angry.
35:35Why were you trying to get me over the night before?
35:37I don't know.
35:38I was just angry.
35:39Why were you trying to get Dad over?
35:40Why were you trying to get Dad over?
35:41I don't know.
35:42Why were you trying to get me over the night before?
35:43I don't know.
35:44I was just angry.
35:46Why were you trying to get me over the night before?
35:47Why were you trying to get me over the night before?
35:49Why were you trying to get Dad over?
35:51I had hopes to getting back to your Dad.
36:00I don't know.
36:03Why were you, uh, trying to get Dad over?
36:10I had hopes to getting back with your dad. I don't know.
36:17I still loved the man.
36:20To me, it was like she was using him.
36:24She doesn't love the man.
36:27You know?
36:28She, uh, she took my life away, Krista.
36:32And everything I, that ever amounted to me away.
36:43I, I mean, I know my mom has always hated my stepmom since the day that, you know, she found out about their affair.
36:53It didn't really make sense for her to bring that up when I, all I was thinking about was, you know, I was grieving about my sister and my grandmother that I just lost.
37:05And I was talking to the person that took them away from me.
37:09It, it, I mean, it shows me that she never really, truly cared about anybody but herself.
37:17I, I hate the fact that my sister was running away.
37:22That she just, she saw it coming and she couldn't get away from it.
37:27You know, my grandmother, she was, I believe she was in bed when it happened and I think she was asleep.
37:33So, um, you know, I, I hope it happened fast for her and that she didn't suffer.
37:37But my sister, I, I think she went through a lot of pain, um, in the few last moments that she had.
37:44And I hate it, I just, I sometimes wish that my mom just had to go through the same thing that she put them through just so, you know, she could realize, really realize the, the pain that she caused because it's just, it's not fair.
38:06And they did nothing wrong.
38:08I want her to hear from me that she completely ruined my life and she flipped it completely upside down.
38:19And she is never going to get that forgiveness from me, even if she were to beg.
38:36So this picture is of me and my little sister, I believe it was the first day of my sister going to kindergarten.
38:53And it was the first day of 10th grade for me.
38:58So we were both pretty excited just to have each other on the bus going to school and, you know, getting to share that little bit of experience with each other.
39:06Yeah, we were really happy.
39:09It was, it was a bonding moment for me and her, but she didn't get to do a whole lot of growing up, whereas, you know, I did.
39:17And it makes me really sad that she didn't get to.
39:20It, it is hard to reflect on these moments, um, because, you know, she is gone now, but by the same time, you know, it, we were happy in that moment.
39:36And, you know, I, I, I didn't, I didn't want it to end.
39:42I feel like I, we both missed out on a lot.
39:47I mean, if I could go back and, um, talk to her one more time, you know, I would probably tell her I love her about 50 times, um, before I couldn't anymore.
39:57You know, she, she just had so much life and it was taken away.
40:02I hope that people that watch this, um, you know, really try to pay attention a little bit more to their loved ones and make sure that they're doing okay.
40:25Because you really never know what's going to happen and you never know, um, who you're going to lose in, in just an instant.
40:38I'll have my, my moments where, you know, I'm grieving a little bit more, um, on some days than others.
40:44And it, you, you, you can never predict it.
40:47You know, it's just going to happen when it, when it wants to.
40:50But I, you know, I, I know I'm going to be okay and I know I'm gonna, um, you know, live a, live a good life after, after everything's happened to me.
41:00I'm going to make it that way.
41:01I'm going to make it that way.
41:12911, what's the address of your emergency?
41:14I need an officer.
41:15There's blood all over the floor.
41:17He took off with his soon to be ex-wife.
41:19My life today, it's not what I imagined it would be.
41:22I have memory loss.
41:23I have a traumatic brain injury.
41:25I hate that I'm going to have to live with this for the rest of my life.
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