Evil Lives Here Season 18 Episode 2

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00:00The one thing that I was afraid of for those five and a half years became my

00:09reality that day and I think that's also just still hard to grasp. He had reached

00:18his limit of ways he could hurt me and I think he was desperate and didn't know

00:24what else to do and I think he did that because he knew that that was my worst

00:30nightmare. I don't know I just...

00:54It does make me feel guilty just because it's just really just a simple fact I

01:03think what if I just never took him seriously.

01:11I hold a lot of that guilt on myself and it's been...

01:15I'm sorry.

01:24You

01:54This is me and Teddy.

02:06That was my real first relationship.

02:10First person that I fell in love with.

02:14But this is not a happy memory.

02:19I actually remember this day,

02:21and I was kind of leaning away from him

02:24because this was not too long after one of the times

02:27that he actually put his hands on me.

02:30I just look so uncomfortable.

02:33I'm just not happy at all.

02:42And he was trying to overcompensate for that

02:45by being more affectionate.

02:46And I think I just was so naive at that point in life

02:53that I just kind of took it to the extreme,

02:55and I didn't realize how broken he was.

02:58And the fact that a 17-, 18-year-old girl at that point

03:01could not fix that.

03:04If I could change bringing Teddy into my life,

03:07I would do anything to change that.

03:09And now that I realize that,

03:14it's like, damn, like, sorry.

03:17Oh, this is my...

03:47a high school graduation photo.

03:51Um, my grandma, she came from D.C.

03:54So my dad was really happy.

03:56Um, my sisters came, my mom.

03:59This is probably one of his proudest days.

04:04I can kind of even see it just on his face.

04:07I did graduate with honors.

04:09I had a 3.9.

04:12So I got, like, a special cord

04:14for my ROTC achievements also.

04:17Um, and then I was part of one of our, like, school clubs

04:20for our academics,

04:22so I also got a cord for that one.

04:24So they were, yeah,

04:26they were really, really proud this day.

04:31I'm like, wow, this is great.

04:32I'm finally, like, I made it.

04:34I love my dad so much.

04:39He was just, like, the rock of our family.

04:44He would randomly, throughout the week,

04:46we would go play basketball.

04:47But after a while, I started to get better.

04:51So he's like, okay, I'm going to take you

04:52and we're going to play,

04:53but I'm going to, like, watch from over here.

04:57And he would just show me little things,

04:58like, he showed me how to change an oil filter,

05:01how to change my own oil,

05:03how to change a tire.

05:04He would always tell us, like,

05:05if I'm ever not here, you know,

05:07I want to make sure that you'll be able

05:08to take care of yourself and do these things.

05:12He always sacrificed for us.

05:15For me, my mom, my sisters,

05:16our whole family, really,

05:18anybody he cared about, he sacrificed so much.

05:38It was very disappointing for me

05:40to have to leave the Air Force Academy.

05:43I was very hurt.

05:44Like, I was, like, heartbroken.

05:45I called my parents from Colorado crying.

05:48They gave me the opportunity to leave,

05:50go home, and come back

05:52and, you know, just restart next year

05:53with the next class.

05:56But then that summer

05:57is when me and Teddy started dating.

06:01When I first realized my feelings towards Teddy,

06:03there were definitely the butterflies

06:05and just little things that, you know,

06:07anything new that he might say or do

06:09would, you know,

06:11just make me feel, I don't know,

06:13like, like, just butterflies, I guess.

06:16So it was good at first.

06:21It's almost like Teddy was, like, an outcast

06:23in his family.

06:25They just didn't treat him

06:27like my family treats each other.

06:30It made me feel bad.

06:31It made me feel like, you know,

06:33anytime someone needs help,

06:34I just want to help.

06:35So when I saw him, you know,

06:37having these family issues,

06:38I'm like, okay, maybe I can help.

06:39Something that I thought would be a good thing

06:41backfired.

06:45I think it makes me so emotional

06:47because I just wish I could go back

06:49to that time.

06:50That was, like, such a

06:52pivotal point.

06:54I feel like if I would have just made

06:56one different decision,

06:58that maybe everything that happened

07:00with Teddy wouldn't have happened.

07:01One day, I remember my dad had told me

07:19that he saw Teddy at a fast food restaurant.

07:23He walked into the restaurant.

07:25He saw Teddy.

07:25He was there with another female.

07:28They were holding hands.

07:28This was maybe about six months or so

07:34after I had told my parents

07:35that me and Teddy were dating.

07:38So I did ask Teddy about the whole girl

07:41at the fast food restaurant.

07:43And, of course, he claimed

07:44that it was just his friend.

07:46He gave me this whole speech.

07:48And, you know, you're the only person

07:50I want to be with.

07:52It was kind of like a love bombing of words.

07:55I covered for Teddy so many times,

07:59especially, you know,

08:00I tried to do everything I could

08:01to make him not look like

08:03the type of person that he was

08:04clearly showing everyone he was.

08:08I didn't want to accept the fact

08:11that the person that I thought

08:13I was in love with at the time

08:14was possibly doing something wrong.

08:17Teddy had gotten in a few fights

08:34before we met.

08:35So I just heard, you know,

08:37about how he could be

08:38a little confrontational.

08:40And I think I definitely

08:41should have paid that more attention,

08:42but I didn't see it as necessarily

08:44a red flag at that time.

08:46So I remember this night,

08:50me and Teddy,

08:51we were with a bunch of friends,

08:52and there was this guy

08:53just being overly pushy.

08:55Yo.

08:57What's up?

08:58He was just like,

08:59what's, you know,

09:00what's your number?

09:00What's your name?

09:01And just not letting it go

09:02when we ignored him.

09:04I just wanted to know your name.

09:06Teddy zooms over,

09:07and he's like, what's up?

09:08Like, you messing with my girlfriend?

09:10So they get into it.

09:11Teddy just hit him one time

09:13and knocked him out.

09:16Everybody was just like

09:20this whole big thing.

09:21Everybody's like,

09:21oh my gosh.

09:24That was the first time

09:25I saw him hurt somebody.

09:28And I feel like

09:28at that moment in time,

09:30I'm like, okay,

09:31maybe your bad reputation

09:33could, you know,

09:35protect me somehow.

09:37Like, he's a protector

09:39kind of person.

09:39And so in my mind,

09:40I'm thinking like,

09:41okay, maybe this is like

09:43my dad.

09:45I thought, okay,

09:46maybe I can help him change.

09:49I see these bad things,

09:50but that doesn't mean

09:51you have to be

09:52a bad person forever.

09:54Because now that I'm older,

09:55I'm like, okay,

09:55you could have de-escalated

09:57that situation differently.

09:59I definitely should have

10:00taken that as a red flag.

10:02I think back then,

10:03I thought of it as,

10:04you know,

10:05this like grand thing

10:07that you've done for me.

10:08Like, oh, you protected me.

10:09Like, oh, wow.

10:11Like how, you know.

10:12But now it's,

10:14it was kind of almost

10:16a form of control,

10:17I feel like.

10:19Kind of using that situation

10:21to make me feel safe,

10:22even though I wasn't

10:23really safe with him.

10:28When we first started dating,

10:35Teddy had got in a few fights,

10:38you know,

10:38just some negative situations

10:40back then.

10:41At that point,

10:42his temper,

10:42nothing had got better.

10:43We were starting to argue

10:45here and there.

10:47And yeah,

10:48my parents found out

10:49a couple times

10:49about the altercations

10:50I got in

10:51because of Teddy

10:53and, you know,

10:54they were upset

10:54and I was, you know,

10:55I was disappointed in myself.

10:57That's when it just

10:58really started to be like,

10:59okay, this isn't

11:00what I thought

11:00it was going to be.

11:02I broke up with him

11:03and I started dating

11:05someone else.

11:08I went to a party

11:10one night

11:10with the guy

11:11that I started,

11:13you know,

11:13recently talking to

11:14after I cut Teddy off.

11:16The next thing I hear,

11:17someone's like,

11:18oh, Teddy's outside.

11:21In my mind,

11:22like maybe he's,

11:23maybe it's a coincidence.

11:25But then they're like,

11:26he's not just like

11:27outside chilling,

11:29like he's outside

11:29with a bat.

11:33Me and my,

11:34a couple of my homegirls,

11:35you know,

11:35walked over to Teddy

11:36and were like,

11:37you know,

11:38what are you doing?

11:38Like, what's,

11:39what's all this about?

11:40What are you doing here?

11:41I came here to get you.

11:43We're leaving.

11:45Teddy basically told me

11:47I'm leaving with him.

11:49He was coming there

11:50to show either me

11:52or the new guy

11:53I was trying to talk to

11:53that like,

11:54oh, you can't have her

11:55type of thing.

11:57And I'm like,

11:57oh my God,

11:58she's coming here

11:59and he's going to beat up

12:00the guy that I just

12:01started talking to

12:02for no reason.

12:03He's a dead man.

12:07Either I get in the car

12:08or it's going to be

12:09some sort of altercation.

12:12This is what's going to

12:13satisfy him.

12:14Let me just do it.

12:15Okay.

12:16Okay.

12:17Come on.

12:18It was scary at the time.

12:23He like begged and pleaded,

12:25please talk to me.

12:26You know,

12:26we can make it work.

12:28It was almost like an apology,

12:29but almost like a,

12:31you have no choice

12:32but to forgive me

12:33and take me back.

12:35I ended up leaving with him

12:37that night.

12:37We talked and I decided

12:39to take him back.

12:40You know,

12:40I believed the things

12:41he told me about

12:42how he would change

12:43and what he would change.

12:45I saw the things

12:46that were wrong,

12:47but I didn't think

12:49that it would become

12:50an aggression towards me.

12:53He was so,

12:54you know,

12:55already into controlling me

12:56that I,

12:57there was nothing else

12:58I could do

12:59to leave him alone

13:00that probably wouldn't

13:01have resulted

13:02in something bad happening.

13:04So yes,

13:04it's a lot of weight

13:06to carry

13:06and I need to release it

13:08somehow,

13:08but it's easier

13:10said than done.

13:11The whole reasoning

13:27behind moving

13:28to Greenville

13:29and with Teddy

13:29was to try

13:30to get him away

13:31from all the bad things

13:33that he was doing.

13:34I just felt like

13:35he has so much

13:36more potential.

13:38When we first

13:39moved in together,

13:41it was good,

13:42but then things

13:42changed after that.

13:44One day,

13:45we were kind of

13:46in the common area

13:47of the house

13:48and just going

13:49back and forth,

13:50arguing.

13:51No!

13:52No!

13:53You need to start

13:53contributing!

13:54It was kind of

13:55just a regular

13:56argument,

13:57but I said something

13:58and he just kind of

13:59came rushing at me.

14:03That's at that point

14:04when he pushed me down

14:06and started choking me

14:08on the floor.

14:12I'm like,

14:13what's going on?

14:17I couldn't really

14:18fight back.

14:20It just happened

14:21so fast

14:21and I, you know,

14:22look at him

14:23in his face,

14:24it's just,

14:26it's anger.

14:28It doesn't look

14:29like he's in control.

14:32He would call me

14:33a bitch

14:34or, you know,

14:36you or just

14:38anything that he could

14:39to degrade me

14:41as much as possible

14:42in that moment.

14:43And then I also

14:44thought, you know,

14:45if you try

14:46to fight back,

14:47he might hurt you

14:49even worse.

14:50So I just,

14:52just kind of

14:53let it happen

14:54and just waited

14:55for it to be over.

15:01Probably held me down

15:03for at least

15:0315 seconds,

15:06long enough

15:06to where I literally

15:07had no air

15:09left in my lungs.

15:09I thought,

15:10okay,

15:10I'm about to pass out.

15:11And that's when he

15:12released me

15:13and we kind of,

15:15I sat there

15:15for a while.

15:17I didn't move.

15:21I just never

15:22experienced

15:23so much hate

15:24from someone before.

15:26Just the feeling

15:27that I felt

15:27in that moment

15:28when it was actually

15:29happening,

15:30like,

15:30I could feel

15:31like hatred.

15:35I'm like,

15:36and my mama,

15:36I could have just died.

15:38By the time

15:39he did come back,

15:40he like helped me

15:41get up

15:41and brought me

15:42like some water

15:43and he was very

15:44apologetic.

15:45He was crying.

15:48So I think

15:48it was just,

15:49just him trying

15:50to persuade me

15:52that he was

15:53so sorry

15:54that it wouldn't

15:54happen again.

15:57He knew

15:58I had a good heart

15:59and he used

16:00that to his advantage.

16:01And I didn't want

16:04to call

16:04and tell my parents

16:05because I thought,

16:07you know,

16:08oh, this is only

16:08one time

16:09and if I call

16:10the police on him,

16:11we'll never be

16:11together again.

16:13I just tried

16:15to keep it

16:15between us

16:16and protect him

16:16yet again.

16:17I thought,

16:18okay,

16:18this was just

16:18a mistake.

16:19I didn't die.

16:20It's okay.

16:21It'll be okay.

16:21It's kind of

16:22what I told myself

16:23and not knowing

16:24that this was

16:26going to become

16:26like a whole thing

16:28at that point.

16:31they told us

16:43that they would

16:44be searching

16:44the house.

16:45at that time,

16:46Teddy was

16:47dealing with

16:49different things

16:50with people's

16:50bank accounts

16:51and he had

16:53the credit cards

16:54that weren't

16:54in his name.

16:55They ended up

16:56first arresting

16:57Teddy.

16:58I was arrested

16:59for possession

16:59of stolen goods

17:00since the credit cards

17:02that Teddy had

17:03were actually

17:03in my room.

17:05at that moment,

17:09that's when it

17:10kind of really

17:10hit me like,

17:11what is going on?

17:13I'm like,

17:13this is not

17:14how my life

17:15was supposed

17:15to turn out.

17:16I'm like,

17:16I did everything,

17:18you know,

17:18growing up

17:19just to make sure

17:20that this moment

17:21didn't happen.

17:22It kind of was

17:23like a reality check

17:24and it made me

17:26really look at Teddy

17:27like, okay,

17:28is this,

17:29is it you?

17:30Like,

17:30are you the reason

17:31why these bad things

17:32are happening to me?

17:32I've never had

17:33this happen before.

17:35The only thing

17:36I was worried about

17:37was how disappointed

17:39my parents were

17:40going to be.

17:47That next day,

17:49my parents were

17:50supposed to be

17:50driving to come

17:51to this like,

17:52really big,

17:52like, honors award

17:54ceremony at ECU.

17:56Like, you guys

17:56are supposed to be

17:57picking me up

17:58to go to this

17:59ceremony and instead,

18:01you're picking me up

18:02from the county jail.

18:05It really put things,

18:08I think,

18:08into perspective

18:09for me at that point.

18:10I was definitely ashamed.

18:12I was embarrassed.

18:16My dad blamed Teddy

18:18for the arrest

18:19because I never had

18:20a history of

18:22getting into trouble

18:23or really just

18:24doing anything wrong.

18:26He felt like

18:26had I not been

18:27with Teddy,

18:28my life would have

18:29been taking a different

18:30turn at that point.

18:30I saw something

18:33in him

18:34that I wanted him

18:35to see in himself

18:36and instead of me

18:37changing him

18:38into that person

18:39that I thought

18:39he could become,

18:41it's like he slowly

18:42started changing me

18:43into the person

18:45that he wanted me

18:46to be

18:46and the person

18:46really that he was.

18:53Teddy ended up

18:54getting six months

18:55that he had to serve

18:57in jail

18:57and I got

18:59about 18 months

19:00of probation.

19:06Honestly,

19:08once he went to jail,

19:10I moved back

19:10with my parents.

19:14So my dad,

19:15he definitely

19:15was just supportive,

19:17you know,

19:17no matter what.

19:18At the same time

19:19that he's like,

19:20you know,

19:20consoling me,

19:21like giving me a hug,

19:22like, oh, it's okay.

19:23He's also telling me,

19:24like, okay,

19:24it's okay,

19:25but you need to figure

19:26out what you're gonna do.

19:28So it was like,

19:30you know,

19:30I'm like, okay,

19:31now I need to

19:32figure out the next step.

19:34Kind of saw

19:35how life could be

19:36without Teddy

19:38and it was actually

19:39a lot better.

19:40So I just saw

19:40a lot of positive changes

19:42and as soon as

19:44he got back out,

19:45everything just went

19:45back downhill again.

19:55So this is when

20:11we went out

20:12one of those times

20:13to the country.

20:15I didn't really think

20:16anything of it

20:17at that time,

20:18but after putting it

20:19into perspective,

20:20it's like,

20:20what were you

20:21practicing for?

20:22He always made sure

20:24he had a gun

20:25from the time

20:26that we first

20:28started dating.

20:29He was actually

20:30very insecure,

20:31probably the most

20:33insecure person

20:34I ever met.

20:37He did like to come off

20:39as, like,

20:39the tough guy.

20:41I think that he thought

20:42that that made him

20:43look like a,

20:44like, macho man

20:45or like the cool dude

20:47and the guns

20:49didn't make me nervous

20:50until close to the end.

21:04Right after that time,

21:05after Teddy got out of jail,

21:07we were starting to argue

21:09here and there.

21:11All the negative things

21:12were really starting

21:13to kind of show themselves more.

21:17We got into an argument,

21:18probably, again,

21:19something minor.

21:21He tried to push my head

21:23into the trash can.

21:28It was just bleeding

21:30as soon as he did it

21:31and instead of him,

21:33you know,

21:33are you okay

21:34or get me a towel

21:36or anything,

21:37he went to the room

21:38and, like,

21:39started packing his stuff

21:41and panicking

21:42and meanwhile,

21:44I'm just, you know,

21:44sitting on the floor bleeding.

21:47He was more concerned

21:49with himself getting in trouble

21:51than the fact

21:52that he just gashed

21:53my head open.

22:02This photo

22:03is probably

22:04a day or two

22:05after the day

22:07that Teddy

22:08bashed my head

22:09into the kitchen counter.

22:10So that's the scar

22:12and I had to get, like,

22:13five stitches.

22:16It wasn't, like,

22:17a direct, like,

22:18don't tell anybody.

22:20It was more so, like,

22:21him putting it

22:22into the scenario

22:23of, well,

22:24if you tell somebody,

22:25I'm going to go to jail,

22:27I'm going to get in trouble.

22:28He knows how much I care,

22:30so instead of him saying,

22:31oh, don't tell on me

22:32because this or that,

22:33he's making me feel like

22:34I would be the one

22:36holding him back

22:37if I told on him.

22:39It's like he was

22:40playing this mind game

22:42because he knew

22:42I wanted the best for him.

22:45You know,

22:46he was a master manipulator.

22:50So when my mom asked

22:52what happened to my forehead,

22:53I actually told her

22:54that I slipped on a rug

22:55in the kitchen

22:56and I fell

22:57and I hit my head

22:59and that was

22:59kind of the story.

23:01She didn't believe it

23:02because she knows

23:04that I was an athlete

23:05my whole life

23:06and I never really

23:06had clumsy spells

23:08where I just tripped

23:09or fell.

23:12It just solidified

23:14exactly what I already

23:15said in my head

23:15that this will never work.

23:17I have to find a way out.

23:24Like, the main kind

23:26of argument

23:26when it's a domestic

23:27violence relationship

23:28is, oh, why,

23:29why didn't you just leave?

23:30Um, and it's just,

23:32it's really not that easy.

23:34You can literally

23:35just take your feet

23:36and walk away

23:37but who's to say

23:38that once you do that

23:39that that person's

23:39actually gonna leave you alone?

23:41But you never know

23:42what might be

23:44around that corner.

23:46I had this gut feeling

23:48that the day

23:49you try to leave him

23:50he's gonna find a way

23:51to hurt you

23:52even worse.

23:54And he's gonna

23:55knock on my mom's door

23:57and then he's gonna

23:57shoot my mom

23:58and then he's gonna

23:59knock on my sister's door

24:00and shoot her

24:01and all my nieces

24:02and nephews

24:02and my other sister.

24:03That was,

24:04that was literally

24:05what played out

24:06in my head

24:06of what would happen

24:08if I left him.

24:10So,

24:11I'm just like

24:12to avoid all that

24:13I'll just

24:14stay

24:15and

24:15deal with

24:17whatever it is

24:18that he may do

24:18because that's

24:19better than

24:20what I in my gut

24:21feel like

24:22the outcome

24:23is gonna be.

24:23after that incident

24:39my parents

24:40really noticed

24:41what all

24:42had been going on.

24:44So at that point

24:45that's when

24:46you know

24:46my dad was like

24:47no he's

24:47he can't

24:48you know

24:49he can't do this

24:49and I want to

24:51you know

24:51go forward

24:52with pressing charges

24:53but I didn't

24:55want to leave him

24:56but there was

24:58nothing that

24:58my dad could

24:59actually do.

25:00So he did try

25:01but

25:02me being of age

25:04you can't really

25:05you know

25:06call for somebody else.

25:07So it was just

25:08kind of like

25:09he felt helpless.

25:10so one day

25:18we were at

25:19the townhouse

25:20somebody knocked

25:22on our door

25:22the police officer

25:25came to

25:26me and Teddy's

25:27townhouse

25:28said he was like

25:30why

25:30why is the police

25:31here?

25:33He was very

25:34paranoid

25:34and I kind of

25:36went into

25:37like a panic

25:37because Teddy

25:39mind you

25:39is right there

25:40with both

25:41of his guns

25:42like he always

25:46does when he

25:46doesn't know

25:46who somebody

25:47is that

25:47comes to the

25:48house.

25:48He has both

25:49of his guns

25:49in his hand

25:50and I walked

25:51out the door

25:51and the cop

25:53he has no

25:54idea

25:54and I'm just

25:57panicking

25:58kind of trying

25:59to figure out

25:59how to get

26:01rid of the

26:01cop without

26:02telling him

26:04that Teddy

26:04is standing

26:05behind the

26:05door with

26:05a gun.

26:08Well you know

26:08your dad

26:08wanted me to

26:09come and check

26:09on you

26:10so I was

26:10like uh-huh

26:11I'm like yes

26:11I'm fine

26:12I'm fine

26:13everything's

26:13fine

26:13and then he

26:14kind of

26:15I think he

26:16could kind

26:17of feel

26:17that I was

26:18trying to

26:19be short

26:19and rush

26:20the conversation.

26:22In that

26:23moment when

26:24I was talking

26:24to the cop

26:25I was

26:25convinced that

26:26Teddy would

26:27shoot him

26:28right then and

26:28there and

26:29not care at

26:30all

26:30just

26:30to save

26:33himself.

26:33I

26:35just

26:35kept

26:36assuring

26:36him

26:36everything's

26:37okay.

26:38Okay.

26:40You know

26:41eventually

26:41he ended

26:42up leaving.

26:44I just

26:45knew

26:45it

26:46couldn't

26:46last

26:46but so

26:47much

26:47longer.

26:48After

26:49five years

26:49of lying

26:51to people

26:51about

26:52what you've

26:53been doing

26:53and all

26:53these things

26:54and it

26:54seems like

26:55everything

26:55is trying

26:56to come

26:56to light

26:56I felt

26:57like

26:57I'm

26:58like okay

26:58my parents

26:59know

26:59like okay

26:59the police

27:00came by

27:00so I'm

27:01like okay

27:01maybe this

27:02is the

27:03time where

27:03I need

27:04to finally

27:04figure out

27:05how to

27:05leave him

27:06alone.

27:08But it

27:08was

27:09it was

27:09just no

27:10more rope

27:10left at

27:11that point.

27:23Oh

27:23this is

27:25Fatboy

27:26this is

27:27our puppy

27:28that we

27:28got

27:29and yeah

27:30I love

27:30Fatboy

27:31he was

27:31cool.

27:33He was

27:33a really

27:33good dog

27:34he didn't

27:35really do

27:35much

27:36but I

27:38was like

27:39okay

27:39you're

27:39just

27:40that's

27:40just

27:40you

27:41I'm

27:41like

27:41that's

27:42your

27:42personality

27:43I'm

27:43like

27:43you

27:43like

27:44it

27:44I

27:44love

27:44it.

27:46When

27:47we

27:47went

27:47and got

27:47the dog

27:48you know

27:48it was

27:48Teddy's

27:49idea

27:49he was

27:50in love

27:50I

27:51was

27:51in

27:51love

27:51but

27:52as

27:52time

27:53faded

27:53a couple

27:55months

27:55went by

27:56and

27:56he

27:58started to

27:58treat

27:58Fatboy

27:59different

27:59he

27:59wouldn't

28:00feed

28:00him

28:00he

28:02would

28:02actually

28:03beat

28:04the dog

28:05he

28:07you know

28:07eventually

28:07ended up

28:08killing

28:09him

28:09after

28:14probably

28:1530 minutes

28:16or so

28:16after I

28:17saw

28:17Fatboy

28:17I

28:18cried

28:18I

28:18went upstairs

28:19and cried

28:19first

28:20I didn't

28:20want to

28:21watch him

28:21bury

28:21Fatboy

28:22so I

28:22ended up

28:23just

28:23leaving

28:23in the

28:23house

28:24for

28:24the

28:24day

28:24so

28:24I

28:24didn't

28:25have

28:25to

28:25watch

28:26that

28:26and

28:29when

28:29I

28:29got

28:29back

28:29he

28:30just

28:30acted

28:30like

28:30nothing

28:31happened

28:32like

28:32everything

28:32was

28:32normal

28:33and

28:33just

28:33go on

28:34about

28:34life

28:35so

28:35he

28:37saw

28:38that

28:38I

28:40had

28:40something

28:40else

28:40that I

28:41cared

28:41about

28:41and it

28:42wasn't

28:42him

28:43and

28:43he

28:43got

28:44jealous

28:44you know

28:45even

28:45though

28:46it's

28:46a

28:46dog

28:47he

28:48got

28:48jealous

28:48of

28:48the

28:48dog

28:49and

28:49it

28:50made

28:50me

28:50a

28:51lot

28:51more

28:51fearful

28:51of

28:52him

28:52and

28:52the

28:53things

28:53that

28:53he

28:53would

28:53be

28:53capable

28:54of

28:54I

28:55used

28:56to

28:56watch

28:56a lot

28:56of

28:56crime

28:56stuff

28:57and

28:57they

28:57always

28:57said

28:58that

28:58you know

28:59people

28:59that

28:59have

28:59these

29:00real

29:00issues

29:01they

29:01start

29:02off

29:02with

29:02animals

29:03that

29:06stuck

29:06in my

29:07head

29:07that

29:08he

29:08was

29:08kind

29:08of

29:08on

29:09a

29:09pathway

29:09to

29:10more

29:12than

29:12an

29:12animal

29:12and

29:13it

29:14did

29:14scare

29:14me

29:14I

29:15looked

29:15at

29:15him

29:15completely

29:15different

29:16I

29:32think

29:32that

29:32the

29:34thing

29:34that

29:34I

29:35asked

29:35for

29:35the

29:35most

29:36was

29:36to

29:36just

29:36be

29:37able

29:37to

29:37safely

29:39get

29:40away

29:40from

29:40him

29:41and

29:42my

29:42family

29:43also

29:43and

29:44I

29:45could

29:45never

29:46see

29:46a

29:46way

29:46no

29:46matter

29:47how

29:47many

29:47different

29:48scenarios

29:48I

29:49would

29:50put

29:50together

29:50in

29:50my

29:50head

29:51no

29:52matter

29:52how

29:52many

29:52different

29:53ways

29:53I

29:54would

29:54think

29:54of

29:54how

29:55to

29:55possibly

29:55leave

29:56him

29:56it

29:57always

29:57ended

29:58with

29:58him

30:00hurting

30:01somebody

30:01that I

30:01cared

30:02about

30:02I

30:04was

30:04more

30:05okay

30:05with

30:05something

30:05happening

30:06to

30:06me

30:06than

30:07something

30:07happening

30:08to

30:08my

30:08family

30:08I

30:10didn't

30:10want

30:10the

30:10person

30:11that I

30:11brought

30:11into

30:11their

30:12life

30:12to

30:12hurt

30:13them

30:14so

30:19right

30:19around

30:20the

30:20beginning

30:20of

30:212020

30:21after

30:22everything

30:23happened

30:23with

30:23Fat

30:23Boy

30:24me

30:27and

30:27Teddy

30:27broke

30:28up

30:28so

30:38there

30:39was

30:39one

30:40time

30:40me

30:41and

30:41Teddy

30:41were

30:41actually

30:41arguing

30:42and

30:43he

30:43again

30:44choked

30:44me

30:44to the

30:47point

30:47where

30:48I

30:48had

30:49bruises

30:50around

30:50my neck

30:50from

30:51his

30:51hands

30:51and

30:51my

30:52face

30:52was

30:52purple

30:53and

30:53blue

30:54blotchy

30:54and

30:56then

30:57he

30:57takes

30:57the

30:57broomstick

30:58and

30:58starts

30:59beating

31:00me

31:00with

31:00the

31:00broom

31:01after

31:07that

31:07I

31:07got

31:08up

31:08and

31:08I

31:08started

31:08packing

31:09my

31:09stuff

31:09you

31:10get

31:10your

31:10ass

31:11up

31:11here

31:11he

31:13screamed

31:13at

31:13me

31:13to

31:13come

31:14upstairs

31:14and

31:15something

31:17just

31:17went

31:17off

31:17in

31:17my

31:18head

31:18like

31:18don't

31:18go

31:18upstairs

31:19I

31:20don't

31:20know

31:20why

31:20I'm

31:20just

31:20like

31:20no

31:21I'm

31:21like

31:21I'm

31:21not

31:22I'm

31:22not

31:22coming

31:22upstairs

31:23I'm

31:26like

31:26okay

31:26yeah

31:26he's

31:26about

31:27to

31:27get

31:27his

31:27gun

31:27and

31:27he's

31:27about

31:28to

31:28come

31:28down

31:28here

31:28and

31:28kill

31:29me

31:29is

31:30what

31:31I

31:31was

31:31thinking

31:31and

31:31the

31:31only

31:32way

31:32I

31:39this

31:40overwhelming

31:40feeling

31:41just

31:42don't

31:43talk

31:44to him

31:44don't

31:44say

31:44anything

31:45just

31:45run

31:46and

31:47that's

31:47what

31:47I

31:47did

31:47dreamer

31:49when I

31:51finally

31:51make it

31:51out of

31:52the house

31:52I've

31:52made

31:53it

31:53far

31:53enough

31:53out

31:53of

31:53his

31:54eyesight

31:54to

31:55where

31:55I

31:55can

31:55now

31:56call

31:56somebody

31:56to

31:57come

31:57and

31:57pick

31:57me

31:57up

31:57and

31:58I

31:58can

31:58get

31:58away

31:58from

31:59him

31:59dreamer

32:03dream

32:04a

32:08little

32:08bit

32:08of

32:08time

32:08goes

32:08by

32:09I

32:09call

32:09my

32:09dad

32:10I

32:10tell

32:11him

32:11you

32:11know

32:11what

32:11happened

32:12and

32:13he

32:13said

32:13immediately

32:14he's

32:14like

32:15I'm

32:15on

32:15the

32:15way

32:15where

32:15are

32:15you

32:16at

32:16I

32:17started

32:17to hear

32:18Teddy's

32:18car

32:18I

32:21would

32:22just

32:22kind

32:22of

32:22try

32:22to

32:22duck

32:22or

32:23move

32:23to

32:23the

32:24side

32:24or

32:24see

32:24if

32:24I

32:24could

32:24see

32:25him

32:25and

32:25position

32:26myself

32:26to

32:26where

32:27he

32:27can't

32:28see

32:28me

32:28so

32:36I

32:36did

32:36hide

32:37all

32:37the

32:37way

32:37until

32:38you

32:38know

32:38my dad

32:39made

32:39it

32:39to

32:39me

32:39I

32:42get in

32:43the car

32:43we pull

32:45off

32:45he was just

32:47here

32:47we gotta

32:47go

32:48we probably

32:49didn't make

32:50it

32:50like 500

32:53feet

32:53we make a

32:55right

32:56and Teddy

32:56is coming

32:57that's him

32:58Teddy

33:00literally

33:01swerves

33:02into our

33:02lane

33:03head on

33:03so we

33:04hit each

33:05other

33:05head on

33:06and I

33:06am looking

33:07at him

33:07in this

33:08moment

33:08when our

33:08cars

33:09are just

33:09literally

33:10touching

33:10like

33:10this

33:11and I

33:13look at

33:14him

33:14and I

33:15say

33:15what the

33:16are you

33:17doing

33:17stop

33:18he didn't

33:20stop

33:20and in

33:23that moment

33:24I saw

33:25him pop

33:25his trunk

33:26and I

33:26told my

33:27dad

33:27he has

33:27a gun

33:28that he

33:42had already

33:42got out

33:43of his

33:43car

33:43with his

33:44rifle

33:44knowing

33:45what he

33:46was about

33:46to do

33:46I did

33:51get out

33:51of the

33:52car

33:52to try

33:52to run

33:53and stop

33:53him

33:53but I

33:54couldn't

33:54make it

33:55to him

33:55fast

33:55enough

33:56and he

33:59shot my

34:00dad

34:00and at

34:11that point

34:12when I

34:14did run

34:15around the

34:17car

34:17towards

34:19Teddy

34:19he actually

34:20stopped

34:20shooting at

34:21my dad

34:21for a

34:22second

34:22and pointed

34:23at me

34:23and I

34:25looked at

34:26him

34:26and he

34:26didn't

34:27shoot

34:27me

34:27he

34:28just

34:28went

34:28back

34:29to

34:29shooting

34:29at

34:30my dad

34:30by the

34:32time I

34:32got to

34:33him

34:33I

34:33grabbed

34:34it

34:34and I

34:35it's

34:36like

34:36he

34:36like

34:38he

34:38just

34:38kind

34:38of

34:39snapped

34:39out

34:39of

34:40it

34:40I

34:45didn't

34:45really

34:45think

34:46about

34:46it

34:46you

34:46know

34:46it

34:47was

34:47my

34:48first

34:48instinct

34:49was

34:49just

34:49save

34:51my

34:51dad

34:52dad

34:54dad

34:55dad

34:56stay

34:57with

34:57me

34:57at

34:59that

34:59point

34:59I'm

35:00thinking

35:00that

35:01you know

35:02there's

35:02still

35:02some

35:02chance

35:03that

35:03he

35:04would

35:04be

35:04alive

35:05I

35:06love

35:06you

35:06dad

35:08I

35:09did

35:09actually

35:10hear

35:10my

35:10dad

35:10take

35:11his

35:11last

35:11breath

35:11I

35:13told

35:13him

35:14I

35:14loved

35:14him

35:14and

35:15that's

35:15when

35:15I

35:15heard

35:16like

35:17the

35:17last

35:17sound

35:19like

35:19he

35:19was

35:19trying

35:20to

35:20say

35:20it

35:20back

35:20but

35:21he

35:21couldn't

35:23and

35:24that

35:24was

35:24it

35:26I

35:27was

35:27just

35:28screaming

35:28at the

35:29top

35:29of my

35:29lungs

35:30I

35:31was

35:31just

35:31in

35:32shock

35:32I

35:33didn't

35:33really

35:33understand

35:34what

35:34had

35:34just

35:34happened

35:35and

35:38Teddy

35:38he

35:39asked

35:39me

35:39if

35:39I

35:40would

35:40take

35:40a hundred

35:41thousand

35:41dollars

35:42to

35:42tell

35:44the

35:44police

35:44that

35:45he

35:45was

35:45protecting

35:46himself

35:46against

35:47my

35:47dad

35:47the

35:53audacity

35:54you

35:55must

35:55have

35:56to

35:56say

35:56something

35:57like

35:57that

35:57to

35:57somebody

35:58after

35:58what

35:58you

35:58just

35:58did

35:59leads

35:59me

36:00to

36:00believe

36:00even

36:00more

36:01just

36:01how

36:01evil

36:02he

36:02is

36:03because

36:03how

36:03could

36:04you

36:04do

36:05that

36:05to

36:05somebody

36:06and

36:06then

36:06turn

36:06around

36:07and

36:07make

36:07it

36:08seem

36:08like

36:08money

36:08could

36:09fix

36:09that

36:09I

36:14could

36:15only

36:15think

36:15about

36:15one

36:15thing

36:16at

36:16that

36:16point

36:17and

36:18that

36:18was

36:18the

36:19fact

36:19that

36:20my

36:20dad

36:20was

36:20sitting

36:21there

36:21lifeless

36:22because

36:22of him

36:23I've

36:28been

36:28trying

36:28to

36:28make

36:28it

36:28make

36:29sense

36:29and

36:30no

36:31matter

36:31what

36:31I

36:31come

36:32up

36:32with

36:32or

36:32why

36:33he

36:33did

36:33it

36:33just

36:34it

36:36doesn't

36:36make

36:37sense

36:37and

36:37if

36:37you

36:37wanted

36:37to

36:38hurt

36:38me

36:38why

36:38didn't

36:38you

36:39shoot

36:39me

36:40too

36:40so

36:48so

37:01this

37:01is

37:02Teddy

37:02four years

37:03after

37:04being

37:04arrested

37:05he just

37:07the

37:08nothingness

37:09the

37:09soul

37:09is

37:10still

37:10there

37:10I

37:12know

37:12for a

37:12fact

37:13he's

37:13not

37:13coping

37:14well

37:14in

37:14prison

37:14I've

37:16actually

37:16spoken

37:17to

37:17people

37:17that

37:17have

37:18seen

37:18him

37:18in

37:18prison

37:19and

37:19he's

37:20not

37:20doing

37:21good

37:21I'm

37:23not

37:23afraid

37:23of

37:23what's

37:24going

37:24to

37:24happen

37:24when

37:24he

37:24gets

37:24out

37:24of

37:25prison

37:25in

37:2535

37:26years

37:27but

37:27he

37:28should

37:28be

37:28afraid

37:28of

37:28what's

37:29going

37:29to

37:29happen

37:29when

37:29he

37:29gets

37:30out

37:30of

37:30prison

37:30this

37:47is

37:47me

37:48and

37:48my

37:48dad

37:49when

37:49I

37:49was

37:49probably

37:50I

37:52was

37:52probably

37:52in

37:52like

37:53fifth

37:53grade

37:54we

37:55went

37:55out

37:55to

37:55D.C.

37:56we

37:56would

37:56just

37:56go

37:56random

37:57places

37:57sometimes

37:58like

37:58without

37:58really

37:59anything

37:59to do

38:00or

38:00any

38:00plan

38:00yeah

38:02he

38:02was

38:02he

38:02was

38:02a

38:02very

38:03caring

38:03person

38:04just

38:05in

38:05general

38:06and

38:07I

38:07guess

38:07maybe

38:08that's

38:08where

38:08I

38:08get

38:08it

38:08from

38:09my

38:11dad

38:11did

38:12everything

38:13he

38:13could

38:13to

38:13protect

38:14me

38:15my

38:15sisters

38:15my

38:16mom

38:16he

38:17if

38:17he

38:17was

38:17given

38:18the

38:18opportunity

38:18to know

38:19what

38:19the

38:19outcome

38:19would

38:20be

38:20he

38:20would

38:20do

38:20it

38:20again

38:21you

38:21know

38:22he

38:22was

38:22just

38:22he

38:23was

38:23fearless

38:30so

38:37this

38:37is

38:37my

38:40dad

38:40we

38:44got him

38:44cremated

38:45this was

38:45his wishes

38:45you know

38:46he always

38:46said that

38:47he didn't

38:47want to

38:47be

38:48buried

38:50in the

38:50ground

38:50so

38:51he

39:06always

39:06said

39:06he

39:06didn't

39:06want

39:06to

39:06be

39:07in

39:07the

39:07ground

39:07and

39:07he

39:08was

39:08always

39:09that

39:09person

39:09that

39:10liked

39:10to

39:11be

39:11different

39:12places

39:13and

39:13you know

39:13moving

39:14around

39:14and

39:14stuff

39:15so

39:15we

39:15promised

39:17him

39:18that

39:18one

39:18day

39:19we

39:19would

39:19get

39:19his

39:19ashes

39:20spread

39:21all

39:21over

39:22the

39:22world

39:22and

39:24we

39:25you know

39:25piece

39:25by piece

39:26we've

39:26been

39:26doing

39:27that

39:27so

39:28that's

39:29that's

39:30what we

39:30did

39:30and

39:31just

39:31like

39:32with

39:32our

39:32necklaces

39:33like

39:35right now

39:35he's

39:36in

39:36he's

39:37in

39:37Texas

39:37he's

39:37in

39:38Georgia

39:38he's

39:39in

39:39North

39:39Carolina

39:40he's

39:40everywhere

39:41right

39:41now

39:41so

39:42I

39:43think

39:43he's

39:44somewhere

39:44sitting

39:45watching

39:46me

39:46right

39:46now

39:46so

39:47so

39:57this

39:58is

39:58another

39:59little

40:00urn

40:00so

40:02we

40:02put

40:02some

40:02of

40:02his

40:03ashes

40:03in

40:03here

40:03so

40:04if

40:04we

40:04just

40:04want

40:04to

40:04you

40:05know

40:05take

40:05him

40:06with

40:06us

40:06if

40:06we

40:06go

40:07somewhere

40:08that

40:08can't

40:09take

40:09you

40:09know

40:09all

40:09of

40:10him

40:10we

40:11can

40:11always

40:11take

40:12our

40:12little

40:12urn

40:13so

40:13we

40:13always

40:14have

40:14him

40:14with

40:14us

40:15yeah

40:19definitely

40:20my

40:20guardian

40:21angel

40:21now

40:22I

40:24just

40:25feel

40:25that

40:25he's

40:26always

40:26with

40:26me

40:27like

40:27it

40:27just

40:27gives

40:27me

40:27motivation

40:28to

40:29do

40:29things

40:30I

40:30probably

40:30wouldn't

40:31have

40:31done

40:32and I

40:32know

40:32that

40:32that's

40:33him

40:34I

40:36do

40:36still

40:36talk

40:36to

40:36my

40:37dad

40:37all

40:37the

40:38time

40:38whenever

40:39something

40:40I

40:40have

40:40like

40:40a

40:40good

40:41accomplishment

40:41I'll

40:42like

40:42dad

40:43guess

40:44what

40:44like

40:44this

40:45just

40:45happened

40:45or

40:46if

40:46I'm

40:47really

40:47probably

40:48especially

40:48when I'm

40:49sad

40:49you know

40:49I'll

40:50definitely

40:50always

40:51make sure

40:53I say

40:53something

40:54to him

40:54even

40:54when I'm

40:55just

40:55feeling

40:55okay

40:55I'll

40:56just

40:56sometimes

40:56just

40:56talk

40:57to

40:57him

40:57I

40:57know

40:57he's

40:58he's

40:58listening

41:12this

41:14this

41:14is

41:14Teresa

41:15she

41:16looks

41:16scary

41:17this

41:18woman

41:18had

41:18no

41:18emotion

41:19for

41:19me

41:20her

41:21child

41:21she

41:22was

41:22ripping

41:22my

41:23innocence

41:23away

41:24from

41:24me

41:24and

41:25using

41:25it

41:26against

41:26me

41:26if

41:27my

41:27own

41:27mother

41:27couldn't

41:28love

41:28me

41:28then

41:28who

41:28could

41:29her

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