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Evil Lives Here Season 18 Episode 1
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00:00It really started in 1988, I saw a small little blurb about a truck driver and a sexual assault
00:19that had happened in Texas. A mother and her daughter were broke down on the side of the road
00:26and a truck driver pulled over and he raped them both, put them back in their car and left them.
00:34They showed a sketch of the truck and it was Blaine's truck.
00:41And all the bells went off for me. I've just carried it with me for so long and it just felt
00:48like it was time to talk to somebody about it. And so I am in no way trying to ever say that
00:56I can compare myself to Blaine's other victims. I can't imagine, like, what they go through
01:08on a daily basis. I just know what I go through on a daily basis from what he's done to me.
01:17I've always thought of Blaine as the boogeyman. I've tried to explain, like, horror movies and that
01:30kind of thing do not scare me because I know who the real boogeyman is. I know who the real monster is.
01:37And when there's no storyline and there's no Hollywood, no cameras and things like that,
01:44and you know someone like that is out there, I can't sleep. I just can't sleep.
01:51I just can't sleep.
02:13This is probably around the time that Blaine first came into our lives.
02:39I would be about five years old, and prior to this, it had just been the three of us, my mom and my sister and me.
02:46Blaine was a long-haul trucker that would sometimes be gone for days.
02:50But I remember him coming around was, like, it was exciting.
02:54It was awesome to have any male figure around.
02:59As a young boy, I didn't even realize that I was missing a father figure.
03:02I played, you know, Little League baseball, so you see every other boy there with his dad.
03:15Dad shows up to watch him play.
03:16Um, so the few times that Blaine made it to my games, it was big.
03:22Like, so any time that those holes were filled were important.
03:30He seemed like, uh, Superman.
03:34He had his foot on the pedal kind of personality about everything.
03:39When my mom first started dating Blaine, he was pretty decent, but that kind of changed after they got married.
03:51Sometimes you can see the monster that's in front of you, and you can tell, you know, you just know that he flew under all those radars.
03:59He flew under every radar possible, and he had everybody fooled.
04:02We lived in an apartment complex with other families and young kids my age.
04:26One night, the kids that all lived in the apartment complex, we were all sleeping on the grass.
04:31Everybody just had blankets and pillows, but it was pretty late, and, uh, the silence was broke.
04:38You could hear, like, a quiet grumbling, um, and nobody really knew what it was.
04:44And it just kept getting louder.
04:48And from one direction, it was Blaine in the green machine.
04:54It was a 1977 Chevy, but it had a Corvette engine in it, and so it was unbelievably loud, it was unbelievably fast, and he came flying past all of us.
05:11By then, everybody's awake.
05:12Everybody knows it's him that went by, and the sound kept going until it was almost gone.
05:18By then, police cars, two of them, came past us.
05:23And they were pushing their cars to the limits, too, but they didn't have a chance.
05:31And the sound kept going, and then it came back and got louder again, and Blaine came from the other direction, flew into the apartment complex.
05:40You could hear him slam on the brakes and screech the tires, parked the truck, and you could hear his cowboy boots, click, click, click, and came running past all of us, put up his hand, said, hi, kids, and just went into the apartment and shut the door.
05:58They never found him, they never caught up to him, but it was something that I'll just never forget, like, the sound of that engine, and, like, seeing it go past it, something that you only see in movies.
06:14It didn't seem like Blaine's running from the police.
06:16He must have done something super wrong.
06:18To all of us, it seemed great.
06:22It's only looking back now as an adult that I realized how dangerous and irresponsible all of that was.
06:28I don't think he cared about dangerous at all.
06:32Blaine liked toying with police.
06:33He liked toying with people in general.
06:35He would do things without thought of consequence.
06:40It was just another game.
06:42Yeah, this is a picture of me and my sister.
06:59During this time, like, if I needed something, I'd go to my sister.
07:02If I had a problem, if I'd go to my sister.
07:06But it's hard that we don't have a relationship.
07:10Her and I have just...
07:14We've never...
07:17We've just never addressed the real reasons.
07:23I don't have anybody else.
07:25And that's something that we just had to deal with.
07:28Had to deal with a lot of years of silence.
07:30One morning, my sister and I were watching Saturday morning cartoons.
07:40Pretty sure we were fighting over the station.
07:43So he decided that our punishment for fighting over the TV would be to punch each other in the arms.
07:50That's enough.
07:50Basically, for my sister and I to punish each other, that way he didn't have to.
07:57But he would still get to watch.
08:00Like, he just...
08:01It made it, like, such a competition that you weren't really thinking about the consequences.
08:06Or if you were going to get hurt.
08:08Or if you were going to hurt somebody.
08:10It's not like I could just say, no, I don't want to do this.
08:13You know, that was it.
08:14That was what you were doing.
08:15And the more we started punching each other, the more it kind of became personal for my sister and I.
08:20Like, it wasn't about the TV anymore.
08:23As it would go on, I was really taking the worst of it.
08:28The more it started to hurt, the more I started to cry.
08:32And you kind of had rules for it.
08:35Whatever arm you punched with was the same one that you had to take to punch with.
08:39And as longer it went on, the more violent it became.
08:45There was a lot of happiness and pleasure in Blaine's face while we were doing it.
08:51A monster forces children to fight against each other.
08:56A maniac.
08:57A hunter.
08:58A predator.
09:00All of those things.
09:03And looking back on it, he was like that when he got there.
09:06You know, this wasn't something that came on gradually for him.
09:10All this, whether he knew it or not, all this stuff was already mowing around in his head.
09:15He just had to have an outlet.
09:16And the outlet was my sister and me.
09:21He was...
09:23practicing to be a monster.
09:26This would be our race team.
09:41This is chariot racing.
09:43That would be Blaine in the chariot.
09:46And that would be me right in front of the chariot.
09:49You can barely see me.
09:50It was something that my grandfather started in our family.
09:55So every Saturday was race day.
09:57This is what country people do with their farm horses on Saturdays.
10:01It was fun.
10:02It was amazing.
10:03And nobody fights on that day.
10:05I wish every day was race day.
10:15When we would race our horses, Blaine had a helmet that he would wear in the chariot.
10:19And it was green.
10:21But we changed colors from green to yellow.
10:25So we bought 99 cent spray paint.
10:29Spray painted the helmet.
10:32And it was in our back washroom drying.
10:35And I went back there to get something.
10:40But I had, like, bumped it.
10:45And it fell off.
10:46So I picked it up and set it right back on there.
10:50Later on, when Blaine and my mom got home,
10:55all I heard from the back room from him was, like,
10:59what happened to the helmet?
11:00I always felt like I had to walk around eggshells around Blaine
11:05because it always changed.
11:08I never knew what I was going to be in trouble for.
11:10You just never knew what Blaine you were going to get.
11:12So you never knew what punishment you were going to get.
11:15I just, I knew it was all downhill from there.
11:19And decided the punishment was going to be to get hit
11:22with this rubber cooking spoon that my mom used.
11:30And I still remember to this day, like,
11:32he called it taking the position.
11:35I'd have to, like, bend over and put my hands on my knees
11:38and get ready for the spoon.
11:43Blaine enjoyed every minute of it.
11:47The more he saw you struggle or the more that he saw you
11:50in pain, the longer it took.
11:54It was the worst physical pain that I had felt.
12:00Up to that point in life.
12:05I can still hear the sound of it.
12:06I can, I can hear it hit me.
12:08I can hear how the sound that it would make
12:10as it was coming to hit me.
12:12And he just kept hitting me.
12:16It was miserable.
12:20Just knowing that the next one's coming.
12:22And that no one's going to stop him.
12:36And again, I'm sitting there in the middle of a punishment
12:38that I just don't understand.
12:41I don't get it.
12:42My mom was mad about it, but it wasn't,
12:48she wasn't mad because, like,
12:50did you see what you did to him?
12:52Or do you know how bad you hurt him?
12:54She was mad because she thought
12:55somebody was going to see it.
12:58So after that, it didn't, it didn't stop anything.
13:01It just made it so he had to be more creative
13:04and find ways to punish me
13:06without actually hitting me.
13:20As I got a little bit older,
13:22my mom and Blaine decided that I needed to do chores
13:25and started giving me a few responsibilities,
13:27which is fine.
13:28But one of my first responsibilities
13:30was to sweep out the garage.
13:34And I remember sweeping it
13:38and I remember doing a pretty good job.
13:41And I didn't know it,
13:43but the whole time I was doing it,
13:45he was watching me.
13:49And I swept everything up
13:51except for the last little bit
13:53that's usually there
13:55that nobody can get
13:56with a broom and a dustpan by themselves.
13:59And I remember taking the broom
14:00and just kind of pushing it off to the side.
14:04So he asked me what I was doing.
14:17And he's like,
14:18did you sweep it all up and get it out?
14:19And I said, yeah.
14:20Yes, sir.
14:22I was watching you.
14:24And so because I had lied to him
14:26or I didn't tell him the truth
14:28the way he wanted to hear it,
14:29I guess,
14:30he decided to punish me because of that.
14:34Now, come on!
14:40So we had this, like,
14:41small crawl space under our house.
14:43It was like walking into a big,
14:45like, grave,
14:48like a big dirt grave.
14:49The air doesn't move in there.
14:54It just has dead spiders,
14:57dead mice.
14:59It just was a really desolate,
15:01horrible place.
15:04So that room,
15:07oh, man.
15:13He didn't even go down in that room.
15:15Like, nobody in the family
15:16would go down in there.
15:21I often didn't understand
15:23what it was I was being punished for.
15:27I still didn't understand why.
15:28I just...
15:30I didn't get it.
15:33Like...
15:35You just can't do that to somebody.
15:37I cannot go into crawl spaces
15:42to this day
15:43because I know I'm not there.
15:46I know I'm not in that room.
15:49But it's...
15:49It stops me
15:51and it freezes me
15:52and I feel trapped.
15:57When I was in that room,
16:00there was no escape.
16:02There wasn't, like,
16:03oh, if I can wait
16:04until he walks away
16:05and I can sneak out
16:05and stuff like that.
16:06No, there was no doing that.
16:10But I wasn't even able
16:11to talk to my mom
16:11about the abuse
16:12and I wasn't able
16:13to open up
16:13and say anything, like,
16:14you know,
16:14that had been going on
16:16that, like...
16:16Because she was there
16:17for the majority of it,
16:18so I don't really know
16:20that, like,
16:20there was anything to tell her.
16:22It just felt lonely
16:23because my mom was,
16:25uh, she was, like, mute.
16:28Like, the way she dealt
16:29with it was by being silent.
16:33I didn't feel safe anymore.
16:35I really didn't.
16:36I didn't feel safe.
16:46So, this is a picture
16:48of me in the background
16:49and right here
16:50in the bottom,
16:51this would be our bird.
16:53But I think this one
16:56slipped past my mom.
16:57I think if she would have known
16:58that this was Blaine's leg
16:59right here
17:00and that that was
17:01any part of him,
17:02she just would have
17:03thrown it away.
17:04my mom destroyed
17:05anything with Blaine in it.
17:07And those would be
17:09his cowboy boots
17:10right there.
17:13Those are the boots.
17:14Those are...
17:14That's the boots
17:15that I would get
17:16kicked...
17:16kicked with
17:1710,
17:1812,
17:2015 times a day.
17:22Because of my mom
17:22intervening over him
17:24hitting me with that spoon.
17:25He didn't like really
17:26spank me
17:26or physically
17:27like beat me
17:29for a while.
17:31But it was okay
17:32to kick me
17:33with the side
17:33of his boot.
17:34And if I flinched,
17:35he'd do it again.
17:36And if I tried to move,
17:37he would do it twice more.
17:39But it was humiliating
17:42to have to like
17:43stand there
17:43and wait
17:44to take it.
17:47Because it would happen
17:48in front of my mom
17:48or my sister
17:49and...
17:50So it was just humiliating
17:55in front of everybody.
17:56My real father
18:14had moved to California.
18:16So every summer,
18:17my sister and I
18:18would go and see him
18:18for the first couple
18:19months of the summer
18:20and then come back home,
18:22get ready for school.
18:24But there was
18:25one particular year
18:26I did not go.
18:30It had been like a...
18:31probably like a week,
18:33week and a half
18:33since my mom
18:34had talked to my sister.
18:36And so my mom
18:37tried to call my dad
18:39and my dad was saying,
18:40well, she's going
18:42to live with me now.
18:43And she doesn't want
18:44to talk to you.
18:45She doesn't want to have
18:46anything to do
18:46with you anymore.
18:48I'm going to fight
18:49for custody.
18:49She's going to live with me.
18:51And so my mom
18:51started freaking out
18:52and wanted to speak
18:54to my sister.
18:56He wasn't having it.
18:57My dad wasn't having it.
18:59Put her on the phone.
19:02So Blaine got on the phone
19:04and Blaine told him
19:05that like,
19:06I do have about
19:08an hour
19:09to make plane reservations
19:10or I'm going to be
19:11on your front doorstep
19:12in 12 hours
19:13and you won't like it
19:14if I get there.
19:16The things I heard him say
19:18scared me
19:19because I knew
19:19that he was capable.
19:23It wasn't yelling
19:24over the phone.
19:26It was the most convincing,
19:28scary, soft tone,
19:32evil thing
19:32that you could imagine
19:33a person saying.
19:35But it was the really,
19:36the calm
19:37and scariness of it
19:39that made it real.
19:41It was terrifying.
19:43And he hung up
19:44like my sister was home
19:46like two or three days later.
20:00It was like,
20:01I guess it could be
20:01considered a family night.
20:03We were just sitting
20:04and watching TV.
20:05We were watching PBS
20:06during fundraising time.
20:11It kind of started off
20:12like we were joking
20:13about how nervous
20:14the girl looked
20:15and how she kept
20:16fumbling over her lines
20:18and like,
20:18oh my gosh,
20:19this is live TV.
20:20She's terrible.
20:22And so Blaine decided
20:24to make it
20:25more fun for him.
20:27Call now.
20:28Call the number
20:28on your screen.
20:29You'll see.
20:29He said,
20:31you guys watch this.
20:33And he called
20:33the pledge number
20:34and within a few minutes
20:36he had convinced
20:37the people at PBS
20:38that he was going
20:39to donate
20:39a large amount of money
20:41and that he just
20:43wanted to thank
20:44the girl
20:45that was on TV.
20:47Thank you so much.
20:48And he went
20:51from thanking her
20:52to telling her
20:52that like,
20:53I'm going to hunt you down
20:54and gut you like a fish.
20:56I could see
20:58the fear
20:59on that lady's eyes
21:01on live television.
21:02I was more terrified
21:03when I heard him
21:04talking to that lady
21:06that way
21:06because it was just
21:07so attainable
21:09for Blaine.
21:10Like,
21:10it sounds real.
21:13But he scared
21:14this woman
21:15and the absolute terror
21:17that was in her face
21:18was really funny
21:19for him.
21:20to make that switch
21:22and to flip over
21:23into, like,
21:25demon mode,
21:26I guess,
21:26it just,
21:27it was very easy
21:28for him.
21:29She's leaving.
21:39I try to, like,
21:40think of any of his,
21:42like, female victims.
21:43Like, I, I,
21:44I just can't even imagine,
21:46like,
21:47the whole,
21:48that had to have been
21:50left in their existence
21:51from,
21:52from him
21:53just being
21:54in their world
21:55for a few minutes.
21:56And,
21:57man,
22:00I,
22:01I feel so bad
22:02for
22:03every,
22:05everybody that
22:06he hurt.
22:09I,
22:10I can't apologize
22:11enough,
22:12but I doesn't,
22:13I know it doesn't
22:14really mean a whole lot.
22:15I'm not his advocate,
22:17not his lawyer.
22:18I, I don't,
22:19I don't know how it feels,
22:20but I, I, I,
22:22I've been hit by that train.
22:33As I got older,
22:34Blaine started taking me
22:35out on the road with him.
22:38Those times,
22:40Blaine was different.
22:41I didn't have to worry
22:49about getting kicked
22:50and to have to take
22:51the position
22:51or get hit
22:52or, you know,
22:53I didn't have to worry
22:53about him backhanding me
22:55or just anything
22:56when we were in the truck.
23:02For me,
23:03it was amazing.
23:03I was seeing the world
23:05from a semi-truck.
23:06I get to eat beef jerky
23:10and trash food
23:11for a couple days
23:12and soda
23:12and he would treat me,
23:14we'd get along,
23:14he would treat me like,
23:15more like a friend.
23:17He treated me like,
23:18almost like an equal.
23:23So one night,
23:24we had just gotten
23:25onto the freeway
23:26and we were on the freeway
23:27for maybe seven
23:28or eight minutes.
23:29A highway patrolman
23:30started waving for us
23:32to pull over.
23:32So as we were
23:37getting pulled over,
23:38Blaine reached back
23:41into the camper
23:41part of the sleeper
23:42and he grabbed a handgun
23:44and put it
23:49underneath my seat
23:51and told me to sit on it
23:52and told me that
23:53unless the cops told me
23:54to get out of the truck
23:55to stay where I was sitting.
23:59I don't know
24:00if he'd stolen the gun
24:01or committed a crime with it,
24:02but he definitely
24:03didn't want them
24:03to see it.
24:05You don't question it,
24:06you just,
24:06you do what you're told.
24:10And so he got out
24:12and he talked to them
24:13for a few minutes
24:14and then one
24:18of the police officers
24:18opened up the driver door
24:20and said,
24:21your dad's getting arrested
24:22and his boss is coming
24:25to pick up the truck
24:25and take you home.
24:28And so that was it.
24:30Like, Blaine was under arrest.
24:35Blaine's boss
24:36bailed him out immediately.
24:37We were back on the road
24:38as planned
24:39and Blaine never even
24:41said another thing
24:42to me about it.
24:43I still don't know
24:43what they pulled us over for.
24:44He never told me.
24:46My mom never spoke of it.
24:47So it got swept
24:48under the rug
24:49as far as like
24:50it was none of my business,
24:52but it was,
24:53they were looking for him.
24:54And he would spend
25:10like extended times
25:11away from the truck.
25:14Like during the times
25:14when I was sleeping,
25:16sometimes it just,
25:17I would kind of wake up
25:18and realize the truck
25:19wasn't moving,
25:20but it was running.
25:20But Blaine wouldn't be
25:21in the truck.
25:22And I knew better
25:23than to get out
25:24and go wandering around
25:25and looking for him.
25:27You know,
25:28we weren't just pulling over
25:29and taking a break.
25:31But in residential areas,
25:32we were kind of like
25:33pulled over
25:34and stopped
25:35for large,
25:36weird,
25:37just odd amounts of times
25:38like when we should be
25:39driving or going
25:40and getting another load
25:41and coming and dropping it off.
25:43We're like
25:44in a neighborhood
25:45for no reason.
25:46So it was like
25:49not just the amount of time,
25:50but like the odd times,
25:52like the witching hours,
25:54you know,
25:54that people are out
25:56doing bad stuff.
25:57Those were the times
25:58that he was saying
25:58that he was working.
26:00But there was just,
26:01there was gaps.
26:02My mom came
26:16and picked me up
26:17from school one day,
26:18which was very,
26:19very odd
26:20because I would walk
26:21every day.
26:22And when I got
26:23into the car,
26:24she was crying
26:24and like,
26:25like sobbing,
26:26kind of crying.
26:27And had been all day,
26:30her eyes were puffy
26:30and stuff.
26:31I could tell she was a mess.
26:33And so she's like,
26:35I came and picked you up
26:36because I need to talk to you.
26:38And so she just
26:40like blurted it all out.
26:43She says,
26:43like,
26:44I'm just telling you
26:45that like Blaine's
26:46not coming home.
26:51And I probably
26:52was one of the first people
26:53that she was able
26:54to talk to about it.
26:55So she kind of
26:56just exploded
26:56and said that Blaine
26:59had cheated on her.
27:00I remember in my head
27:04thinking like,
27:04well, you know,
27:05what are we going to do now?
27:06And so my mom,
27:07you know,
27:07reassured me
27:08that she was going to,
27:09that I'm here
27:10and it's just me,
27:11you and your sister again.
27:13And it had been a long time
27:15since I'd heard her say that.
27:16And so there we were,
27:17like we were at that.
27:19I didn't feel,
27:21I didn't feel relief
27:22because I,
27:24like I said,
27:25over the few years
27:26leading up to that,
27:27I didn't feel
27:29100% safe
27:30with my mom either.
27:34I didn't want him
27:35to come back,
27:36but he was,
27:37he was my dad.
27:38He was my father figure.
27:40That was,
27:40that was,
27:41that was what I was dealt with.
27:43It was different
27:47for my mom
27:48and for my sister.
27:50They experienced
27:51their own thing.
27:52You know,
27:52my mom lost her husband
27:54and to my sister,
27:55she lost a stepdad,
27:56but I lost my father figure
27:58and my,
27:59and my stepdad.
28:01So,
28:02it was a punch.
28:04It was a big punch.
28:04I went through
28:17a really
28:18crazy stage
28:20over the immediate
28:21fallout from that.
28:24I,
28:26I had a,
28:29a small little cubby hole
28:32that was above my closet.
28:34and I felt safe.
28:48And so,
28:49I would like hide up in there
28:51and I would sleep up
28:52in that cubby hole.
28:56So,
28:57it was just easier
28:58to like hide
29:00and,
29:00all that time
29:16he punished me
29:16and would isolate me
29:18and make me be more myself.
29:21and in the end,
29:25that's the only place
29:28I got any peace.
29:30That's the only way
29:30I would feel
29:31okay.
29:34As if I closed
29:35everybody off
29:37and closed everything out.
29:38I really believed
29:59that Blaine was gone
29:59for good.
30:01It had been about
30:02two years
30:03since he left
30:04and
30:05one morning
30:07I woke up
30:08and
30:09surprise,
30:12he's back.
30:15He was there
30:16with his bathrobe on.
30:18He said,
30:19like,
30:20and this is something
30:20that I haven't told you,
30:21he never called me my name.
30:22A piece of
30:28never called me my name.
30:32He had a nickname for me
30:34and I just don't want to say it.
30:36I just,
30:37I don't want to repeat it.
30:39He said,
30:40hi Ryan,
30:40but instead of Ryan
30:41he called me that nickname
30:42that he always called me.
30:43So,
30:44it was almost like
30:45going all the way back
30:46and there he was.
30:50It was like the gut punch,
30:51like a little bit of disgust,
30:52a little bit of like
30:53the bewilderment.
30:55Why are you here?
30:57My mom just told me.
30:58Blaine hired a private
30:59investigator a long time ago
31:01and he knew where we were
31:01at the whole time.
31:04He seemed like a,
31:06like a kid
31:08with a big old lollipop
31:09in his hand.
31:10He was happy.
31:11You could tell that like
31:11he was back with my mom,
31:14like that little
31:15smirky smirk.
31:17He was there to stay.
31:18It didn't seem like
31:19he was leaving that day
31:20or anytime soon.
31:22I don't get scared
31:27when I watch
31:29horror movies
31:31because
31:33those people
31:34are,
31:36they just,
31:36they're not as scary
31:37as
31:37like
31:39my stepdad.
31:40it was.
31:50When Blaine came back
31:52into our lives,
31:52I was a little bit leery
31:53of his intentions.
31:56But he was trying
31:57to just be a father
31:58and a husband.
32:00But I think
32:01that's what makes him
32:02the most dangerous
32:03because he had
32:06all of the masks
32:07that were necessary
32:08to fool everybody.
32:13Blaine said that
32:14he was working
32:14two different
32:15part-time jobs
32:16and so
32:17he would go away
32:18for long stretches
32:20of time.
32:21and then one morning
32:24he left
32:25and he just
32:26didn't come back.
32:31A couple days
32:32went by
32:32and
32:33then there was
32:34just a small
32:35clipping that my mom
32:36had cut out of the paper
32:37and she's like,
32:38here,
32:38I need to show you this
32:39and she just
32:39showed it to me.
32:40She didn't say a word.
32:41It just said
32:42local man
32:43has been arrested
32:45for rape.
32:49When I read it,
32:50I was almost like,
32:51okay,
32:52like,
32:53that's horrible.
32:54Like,
32:54local man arrested
32:55for rape.
32:56I'm like,
32:56what does this,
32:56what does this mean?
32:57She's like,
32:57it's Blaine.
33:03And
33:03it's like,
33:05I feel like,
33:05like,
33:08the color,
33:08like,
33:09leave my own face.
33:13And the story was,
33:14like,
33:14Mr. Nelson
33:15is accused
33:17of 17 rapes
33:18but is admitting
33:19to over 100
33:20nationwide.
33:22And you hear
33:23something like that
33:24and you're like,
33:25like,
33:25and it just doesn't,
33:27it doesn't register.
33:29It doesn't register,
33:30like,
33:31like,
33:31because I know
33:32what damage
33:35he did
33:35to our family.
33:38Now there's a,
33:38there's like 100
33:43other families
33:44out there,
33:45100 other women
33:48that have to try
33:50and explain that
33:50to their children
33:51or to their husbands
33:52or,
33:53you know,
33:53if they don't have
33:54any of that,
33:54like,
33:54they,
33:55there are 100
33:57other women
33:57out there
33:58that,
33:58they don't have to do
34:02well,
34:03so, um,
34:16I'm looking at a police report
34:17from Ogden police.
34:20In 1983,
34:24he went into an apartment
34:26with the intention
34:27of stealing money
34:28or purses.
34:31A girl was asleep
34:32with no clothes on.
34:35He took advantage
34:36of her
34:36in the moment
34:37and raped her.
34:38and that is
34:40what started him.
34:43Number two
34:44was the Apple Grove
34:45apartments.
34:46He said the girl
34:47had two children
34:48and believed
34:49this rape occurred
34:50in 1984.
34:55One of the worst
34:56things that's on here
34:57is that
34:58the dollar amounts
34:59are there
35:00from the women
35:00that he stole.
35:01And he got into
35:02a purse
35:02and stole $2.
35:05And he got into
35:06a purse
35:06and stole $17.
35:07Number six,
35:13Nelson explained
35:14how he entered
35:15the house
35:15and had intercourse
35:17with the victim.
35:24Number seven,
35:26Nelson said
35:27that the keys
35:27were left
35:28in the door
35:29and had intercourse
35:32with the victim.
35:37I think there's
35:42at least 25
35:43in this report.
35:44That's all the ones
35:45that I see
35:45in this report.
35:48Nelson explained
35:49that there were more
35:50but at this time
35:51he doesn't remember
35:52where they are.
35:53Nelson said that he would
36:04pick the houses
36:05by the looks
36:06of their yards
36:07the cars around it
36:09and he would simply
36:11go from house
36:11to house
36:12and checking doors.
36:13He said that
36:14you would be surprised
36:15the amount of doors
36:16that people would
36:17leave open.
36:18It also became
36:21a game
36:22to see if the police
36:24could catch him.
36:27Why did you
36:27last there?
36:29Because I was
36:30a witness to game
36:31to playing
36:32playing games
36:33with the cops
36:33by driving 100 miles
36:34an hour past me
36:35and running
36:35from the cops
36:36and you can see
36:37no matter what it was
36:38whether he's out
36:39like playing a board game
36:41or whether he's
36:42like violating
36:43a woman's life
36:44it's still a game
36:46it was still a game
36:47to him
36:48and that's just not fair
36:49to any of these women
36:50like I hate seeing
36:52I hate seeing it
36:53like this
36:53because you know
36:56that behind every one
36:56of these black marks
36:57is somebody's name
36:58I
37:01it
37:02it just
37:03it's
37:03it's another
37:04it's just
37:05it's another gut punch
37:06and I
37:07I feel horrible
37:10I can't
37:11I can't even put
37:11into words
37:12how I feel
37:12I don't know
37:32it's been
37:32a minute
37:35since I
37:36like
37:37even talked to my mom
37:38my sister
37:39like we don't have
37:39a relationship
37:40like at all
37:41I just don't want
37:43to face it
37:44or talk about it
37:45I wish my mom
37:47would have said
37:48anything
37:48that's something
37:49that came from
37:50in here
37:51that
37:52that wasn't
37:53something that she
37:55felt like she had
37:56to say
37:56because that's what
37:56parents say
37:57like I'm sorry
37:59you're messed up
38:00in this
38:01I'm sorry
38:01that this is your
38:03life now
38:04but we're gonna
38:05get through it
38:05kind of thing
38:06it just
38:07it didn't happen
38:08I just want
38:11to say to my mom
38:11and my sister
38:12that if they do
38:13end up seeing this
38:14that um
38:15I know you both
38:18have a story too
38:19and
38:21I would like to hear it
38:23before it's too late
38:24after Blaine left
38:37it took a while
38:38but I started
38:39to find a little
38:40bit of relief
38:40the monster
38:42was gone
38:43I don't know
38:46if it's gonna
38:47do any good
38:47to tell my story
38:48after so long
38:49um
38:50but
38:51there's a lot
38:53of people
38:53out there
38:53that
38:54probably never
38:56caught
38:56their boogeymen
38:57and
39:03so I don't know
39:05it may do
39:06nothing to come
39:08and talk to you guys
39:09in the end
39:10but hopefully
39:10it will
39:11like
39:11um
39:12for some of his
39:14I don't know
39:14for me
39:15for some of his
39:16other victims
39:16for my mom
39:19and for my sister
39:19that still
39:20don't want to
39:22acknowledge any of this
39:23it's like
39:27still walking on
39:28thin ice
39:29there's spots
39:30and there's times
39:31if you
39:31sometimes if you stop
39:32you might hear a couple
39:34cracks underneath you
39:34but you gotta keep moving
39:35or you're gonna fall
39:36and there are some days
39:38where
39:38it swallows me whole
39:40um
39:45but those are the days
39:46that I
39:47um
39:48will try to find
39:49some
39:50solace
39:51with my children
39:52or
39:52with my grandbaby
39:54I have such a
39:57beautiful wife
39:58and family
39:58that
39:59they don't deserve
40:00for me to
40:02wallow in it
40:03um
40:04they deserve for me
40:06to be present
40:07you know
40:09maybe there's
40:10maybe there's
40:12a kid
40:12out there
40:13that's locked
40:15in a
40:15crawl space
40:16or something
40:17that
40:17the next time
40:18they get out
40:19they'll call somebody
40:20or they'll say something
40:21and it won't happen
40:23anymore
40:23that you're
40:34committed a violent
40:35act
40:35yeah
40:35but my life
40:37I cut her
40:37with a broken eye
40:38I just felt
40:39helpless again
40:41like
40:42I just wanted
40:44to get to her
40:45he
40:46grabbed a hold
40:47of me
40:47and threw me
40:49down on the bed
40:50and was choking me
40:51I'm thinking to myself
40:53I'm pregnant
40:54and he's trying
40:55to kill me
40:56I've seen this look
40:58right before
40:59he explodes
41:00people call him
41:01a monster
41:02and keep
41:02calling him evil
41:04it's probably
41:05because it's true
41:05my mother was
41:07strangled
41:08so severely
41:10her lunatics
41:11was snapped in half
41:12as far as
41:13I'm concerned
41:14I don't have a brother
41:15I hope God
41:16does not have mercy
41:17on his soul
41:17he got that
41:19gun
41:20and he started
41:21beating me
41:22with it
41:22he was like
41:23a monster
41:24when they just
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