T.R.R.M. A Dark Blue Perfume. (1997)

deaddogsdam

First broadcast 15th August 1997.  A middle-aged man is still haunted by a love affair from his youth which almost ended in murder.  David Ryall - Bill Susannah York - Liz John Castle - Mark Peter Helmer - Removal Man Sara Markland - Sarah Rowena Cooper - Sheila Linda Quinn - Cleaner Charlotte Avery - Young Katherine Mark Mordue - Young Mark Tina Marian - Doctor Nick Marshall - 1st Thug William Oliver - 2nd Thug Helen Rimmer - Woman in Pub Bridget Armstrong - Old Katherine Chris Barfoot - The Protector Joanna Jeffrees - Prostitute Laurence Richardson - Man in Pub

Transcript

00:00.

00:30I remember not to set the clock.

01:00But how do I turn off the alarm in my head, Liz?

01:10How can you sleep like that?

01:14When you're working, you think, my God, I'll take it easy when I retire.

01:19But I never thought taking it easy would be so bloody hard.

01:24How do you do it?

01:29Liz?

01:36Deposit box to sign for, Mr. Roberts.

01:411963?

01:45Just a minute.

01:48Could I order a new...

01:51The Guardian?

01:53He's organised.

01:56Already ordered his paper.

02:00Top of the range, Range Rover.

02:03Money and no one to spend it on.

02:05I can't help seeing people as customers.

02:08It's exactly the house I would have chosen for him if I was still in the game.

02:11Four bedder, all en suite, sauna with all the trimmings.

02:14I wonder how much he paid for it.

02:17None of my old mates know.

02:20Went through a London agency.

02:27It's Sarah.

02:28Calm down, darling.

02:29I'm perfectly all right.

02:30I'll make her some coffee.

02:36Shut up, Dad.

02:37I'm not saying a word.

02:38That'll be the first time.

02:39It's all right.

02:40I know my place.

02:41Just tell me this, so that I don't put my foot in it.

02:42Is this it?

02:43Have you finally left him?

02:44You're not doing the lawn now.

02:45No.

02:46What?

02:47What?

02:48What?

02:49It's Sarah.

02:50It's Sarah.

02:51Now, calm down, darling.

02:52I'm perfectly all right, Mother.

02:54I'll make her some coffee.

02:55Shut up, Dad.

02:56I'm not saying a word.

02:57That'll be the first time.

02:58It's all right.

02:59I know my place.

03:00Just tell me this, so that I don't put my foot in it.

03:02Is this it?

03:04Have you finally left him?

03:05Just tell me this so that I don't put my foot in it.

03:07Is this it?

03:08Have you finally left him?

03:10You're not doing the law now, are you?

03:11No, I'm going to see how much you pay for the house.

03:14300,000.

03:1525.

03:1610 are on it.

03:17Done.

03:19I don't know how you've put up with him for 23 years.

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04:03What's wrong?

04:04Get an ambulance.

04:06Come on.

04:07Come on.

04:08Come on.

04:09Come on.

04:10Come on.

04:11Come on.

04:12Come on.

04:13Get some help, Nick.

04:14What's wrong?

04:15Get an ambulance.

04:16Come on.

04:17Come on.

04:33Come on.

04:34Come on.

04:35Come on.

04:36Come on.

04:37Come on.

04:38Come on.

04:39Come on.

04:40Come on.

04:41Come on.

04:42Come on.

04:43Come on.

04:44Come on.

04:45Come on.

04:46Come on.

04:47Come on.

04:48Okay, madam.

04:49Madam, thank you.

04:50Thank you, sir.

04:51Would you like to stand back now?

04:52We'll take it.

04:53Thank you very much.

04:56Bye.

05:03Sarah.

05:20How's your mother?

05:21About the same, Mrs. Peterson.

05:23So terribly sad.

05:25But life has to be lived.

05:26Tell her we miss her desperately at the cathedral shop.

05:29Takings are abysmal without her.

05:31I will.

05:32Um, what do you know about our new neighbor?

05:35Nothing.

05:36He's a bit of a mystery.

05:54Don't bother with that.

05:57It's only a junk room.

05:59Good morning.

06:00Oh, thank you.

06:01Oh, thank you.

06:02That is very good.

06:04Oh, thank you.

06:05Oh, thank you.

06:06That is very generous, Mr. Roberts.

06:08I'll make sure you're invited to all the social gatherings.

06:12Oh, thank you.

06:13Oh, thank you.

06:14I'm sorry.

06:15That sounded rather rude.

06:16I'm sorry.

06:17That sounded rather rude.

06:18It did.

06:19I mean, I'm not a social person.

06:20Oh, you will be welcome.

06:21Oh, you will be, Mr. Roberts.

06:22Don't you worry about that.

06:23Oh, you will be, Mr. Roberts, don't you worry about that.

06:25This is a very friendly area.

06:26Nobody keeps themselves to themselves here.

06:27I see to that.

06:28Nobody keeps themselves to themselves here.

06:29I see that.

06:30You are sitting with me.

06:31And I'm not a friend.

06:32I'm not a man.

06:33I'm not a friend.

06:34Oh, my God.

06:35Oh, my God.

06:36I'm a young gal.

06:38Oh, not a man.

06:39I'm sorry.

06:40You're here to your aunt.

06:41Oh, dear.

06:42Oh, dear.

06:43Oh, dear, I'm not a son, sir.

06:44Oh.

06:45Yes.

06:46Lord.

06:47Oh, dear, my God.

06:48Well, dear, I am so generous.

06:49I'll be back in the kitchen of the room.

06:50Well, thank you.

06:51What, dear, sir.

06:52You're here to the student.

06:53It's really nice.

06:54Thank you, dear.

06:55themselves to themselves here.

06:56I see to that.

07:00Have you any relatives here?

07:02I've no relatives at all.

07:05Oh, well, that makes friends all the more important.

07:12What made you choose Manchester to retire to?

07:16I stuck a pin in a map.

07:18Well, almost.

07:21When one's lived abroad a long time,

07:22one tends to have a rosy picture postcard memory of England.

07:26Mine was that of the Cathedral Close at Manchester.

07:29Autumn, of course, with the leaves just turning.

07:35What a lovely story, Mr. Roberts.

07:43I don't believe a word of it.

07:46There's, uh, something not quite right about you,

07:52Mr. Roberts.

08:07You're writing something.

08:09Just doodling.

08:10Good.

08:11That's good.

08:13Yes, yes.

08:14Take my mind off things.

08:16Keep me occupied.

08:17Don't be so patronizing, Sarah.

08:19Mum, you're in a real state, aren't you?

08:24No, I'm not in a state.

08:26What I feel is guilt, if you really want to know.

08:31Guilt?

08:33When I woke up that morning and your father kept

08:35prattling away, all I could think of was, how the hell am I

08:40going to spend the next 20 years of my life listening to this?

08:45And then that was it.

08:47It was as if I'd made a wish.

08:48Oh, come on.

08:49Come on, that silly mother.

08:51Yes, I know.

08:52I know, it's silly.

08:54But it's how I feel.

08:54Come on, come on, Mum.

08:57Look, you're coming to dinner with us and a few old friends.

09:03No, I really can't, Sarah.

09:05Mother, are you going to stay cooped up in here

09:07for the rest of your life, just doodling?

09:12You've got to start rebuilding your life.

09:16Promise me you'll come.

09:23Doodling.

09:27Doodling.

09:54Doodling.

10:56I'm sorry. I thought you were someone else.

12:26I thought I told you...

12:28Hello?

12:46Liz, have you got a moment?

12:48Ah, Sheila, yes.

12:49Liz, are you all right?

12:51Yes, I'm fine.

12:53Good.

12:54Because the cathedral shop rotor has been absolutely decimated by flu and I'm desperate for your help.

12:58Ah, I'm sorry, I can't, Sheila.

13:01And it's just what you need, something to take your mind off things.

13:04I'm afraid I really don't think I could cope at the moment.

13:06Oh, poor Liz.

13:08I'll come right round.

13:09No.

13:10No, no, no, no.

13:11It's all right.

13:11No, I will...

13:12Don't worry.

13:12Don't worry. I'll do it. I'll be there. It's all right.

13:14Oh, you are kind. I knew you would. Goodbye, darling.

13:18I'll be there.

13:48I'll be there.

14:18Now, this will help you to sleep.

14:41Do you believe in ghosts?

14:43I haven't done a prescription for them, I'm afraid.

14:48Last week I saw a woman I haven't seen for 25 years, only I couldn't have done.

14:53She was exactly as she was then.

14:55When I knew her, I had a kind of breakdown, and I'm afraid it's happening again.

15:10Try and mix more with other people.

15:12That really would be better for you than any medicine.

15:16Try and mix more with other people.

15:19I've watched her.

15:20He was so good.

15:21Listen to me.

15:22You're not the one.

15:24He's so good.

15:25I'm sorry.

15:26When she was so good.

15:27When she was so good.

15:28fool.

15:29You're not the one.

15:30Yeah.

15:31Oh, my God.

16:01Maureen, I'm going to take my coffee break now.

16:31I'm on the run, too.

16:48She'll never find us here.

16:50You know better than I am.

16:52I'm totally antisocial.

16:55What are you running from?

16:57The look in Sheila Peterson's eyes.

17:01She does a very good job.

17:11I never really thanked you.

17:13For what?

17:15For trying to save Bill's life.

17:22When I lived on the other side of the world, this is the view I always remembered.

17:28I thought you'd never been here before.

17:32Imagined, I mean.

17:33Imagined.

17:36There's a poem by Philip Larkin about an earl and his countess.

17:42It's over here.

17:44Side by side, their faces blurred, the earl and countess lie in stone, their proper habits vaguely shown as jointed armor, stiffened pleat.

17:58Only an attitude remains.

18:00The stone fidelity they hardly meant has come to be their final blazing, and to prove our almost instinct almost true, what will survive of us is love.

18:12Do you know a lot of poetry by heart?

18:18Only that, and the usual school stuff.

18:21Dirty British coaster with a salt cake smokestack, butting through the channel in the mad march days.

18:26Right, I think the next bit is that Philip Larkin, you know, the top, just that, because we haven't gotten that yet.

18:36Good.

18:37Next.

18:38Right.

18:38The knight and his lady, and I want the couple in, use the zoom.

18:42It's a lovely picture.

18:43Good.

18:44Good.

18:45Lovely.

18:51Wow.

19:17A bit stodgy.

19:30Good stuff, though.

19:31Really good.

19:32Not stodgy at all.

19:34You shouldn't be reading that.

19:35I'm sorry.

19:41It's just doodling.

19:43Nonsense.

19:44Don't do yourself down.

19:45I've only ever written an estate agent's waffle.

19:50Garden has creative opportunities if you can get rid of the builder's mess.

19:54It's a great idea, seeing the cathedral through the eyes of the people who built it and worshipped there.

19:59So much better than the books you have in the shop.

20:02Do you mean that?

20:03Of course I mean it.

20:15I'm sorry.

20:18I shouldn't have done that.

20:21Why?

20:23Liz.

20:25Liz?

20:27What is it?

20:30You know nothing about me.

20:31That's what's so wonderful.

20:36I know everybody in this bloody town.

20:40The kiss.

20:42The kiss of life.

20:45Just like you tried to give Bill.

20:49An awful thing to say.

20:51Why shouldn't I say it?

20:53We hadn't had sex for years.

20:55I've forgotten what it was like.

20:57God, I've drunk too much wine.

20:59I've been a good wife.

21:07And a very, very good mother.

21:12And I'm not much else.

21:13Hello.

21:24It's Liz.

21:25I'm sorry I can't get to the phone, but leave a message and I'll get back to you.

21:29Hello, it's Liz.

21:31Sorry I can't get to the phone, but leave a message and I'll get back to you.

21:36Mother, it's me. Are you there, Mother?

21:42Mum, it's me.

21:46Hello, Mother.

21:48Mum, it's me.

22:16I'd like to look at the earliest.

22:45I'd like to look at the early 60s edition of the paper, please.

22:48I want a cup of coffee.

23:05Hello, darling.

23:07Nice surprise.

23:09What's that perfume?

23:11D'Art Blue.

23:13Do you like it?

23:14It doesn't do anything for me.

23:16It's not meant to.

23:19Mother, what's happening?

23:21What do you mean?

23:23Well, it's two weeks since I've seen you.

23:25You don't turn up at my dinner party.

23:26What do you think I felt like?

23:29Angry enough not to invite me again, I hope.

23:34Darling, I'm sorry.

23:35Of course I want to see you, even Tony.

23:38But not your father's friends.

23:40Not at the moment.

23:43What is going on, Mother?

23:45I'm having an affair.

23:50That's all.

23:51I'm having an affair.

23:53That's all.

23:55I'm having an affair.

24:00Please.

24:02he's only been dead two months

24:27my great regret is that i didn't have an affair when he was still alive

24:32hello mrs harrison

24:38it might have done us some good mother this may sound so stupid so so so motherly

24:47do you know what you're doing

24:52i don't think i do

24:56that's the fun of it

24:57well why wouldn't mark come to dinner with us

25:01it was him that stopped you wasn't it he's odd rude

25:06sarah stop it i saw him outside just now and he rushed past me totally ignoring me

25:11he probably didn't recognize you darling i'm sorry i have to get these books back to the library

25:28so

25:35i

25:37i

25:39I don't know.

26:09Professor Roberts, thank you for your contribution to the Cathedral Appeal Fund.

26:15Your previous connection with Marchester has come to our attention, and in these circumstances,

26:21the Cathedral cannot accept your donation, which is returned herewith.

26:27She's my favourite, so I always keep her to the end.

26:35Yes, such a serene place after all she's been through.

26:40Of her sixteen children, nine lived.

26:43And she wrote, I love them all, including the ones I shall only meet in heaven.

26:51All right, that's it.

26:54Thank you so much.

26:56Bye-bye.

26:57See?

26:58Wasn't I right to get you back here?

26:59You bring the Cathedral to life, Liz.

27:02I'm not stupid enough to believe that that's why you're so happy.

27:06Liz, I'm afraid you're going to need a little of that serenity.

27:12He comes from Marchester.

27:13Chose a place to retire to with a pin.

27:14He comes from Marchester.

27:15Chose a place to retire to with a pin.

27:17He was born here on the wrong side of the river.

27:44His real name is Mark Richardson.

27:47As soon as I saw him, Liz, my antennae were out.

27:50When I was a journalist, I sat through enough cases in that dreary courtroom,

27:54but I remembered those eyes.

27:56Don't they unnerve you?

27:58So I knew he hadn't been a couple of paragraphs but top of the page.

28:01Murder or rape.

28:03He didn't kill his wife.

28:05But for the grace of God, the bullet missed.

28:07He intended to.

28:09Intention, that's what matters, Liz.

28:11That's why he got eight years.

28:14They never found the gun.

28:29He swore then that he would return.

28:31For God's sake, Sheila.

28:33Stop talking in headlines.

28:35Oh, I'm awfully sorry, Liz.

28:38It must be a terrible shock.

28:40Yes, well, what you need is a chronicle.

28:45Now keep it for the dean.

28:48Sheila, it happened 20, 30 years ago.

28:55He's a different person.

28:57People don't change.

28:58Rubbish!

28:59I've changed in two months.

29:01Mark's lovely.

29:03He's lovely, Sheila.

29:05You don't know him.

29:06Liz, I knew a lot more than you did.

29:09Do you know what he's been doing with himself for the past 20 years?

29:12Yes.

29:13He's been a financier.

29:15Financing what?

29:20He's leaving.

29:24He's phoned Bill's old firm to put the house on the market.

29:30You're trying to drive him out, aren't you?

29:32Don't be stupid, Liz.

29:33Yes, you are.

29:34And you're loving it.

29:35Well, I'll tell you something.

29:37He's not going to leave.

29:39Oh, he will.

29:41He knows I'd have sold the story to the paper already.

29:44Why didn't you become one of those foul tabloid journalists?

29:51I suppose even that would have required a certain talent.

29:55You're a cow, Sheila.

29:57A nasty, poisonous cow

30:00who lives on gossip and other people's misery.

30:05Phew.

30:07I've been longing to say that for years.

30:13Liz.

30:16Liz.

30:18Liz, don't be such a fool.

30:21You don't know what you're getting into.

30:34You don't know what the issue happened.

30:36They're personally outside now.

30:38How did I have hoped

30:45why should I have guessing?

30:46Please don't bother trying to find her

30:47She's not there.

30:49Well, let me tell you

30:50about the way she looked,

30:51the way she acted,

30:52the color of her hair.

30:54Her voice was soft and cool.

30:57Może she's not there.

30:59Mom!

31:00Ah!

31:30Mark?

31:38I know you're there.

31:43Please open the door.

31:46Mark?

31:49I'll be in.

32:00Oh, thank God. Bloody cold out.

32:05You're going out?

32:10Please, don't drink any more. It'll only make things worse.

32:15Here.

32:19Aren't you afraid?

32:22Of what?

32:23Me.

32:25The demented would-be killer.

32:27Tabloid imagination.

32:30Is it? I was demented.

32:33Was. Was.

32:36The only thing I'm afraid of is you're not telling me anything about all this.

32:41How could I?

32:43Would you have had anything to do with me if you'd known?

32:46That's why I took another name, built a different life abroad.

32:51Property deals.

32:53All honest.

32:54No-one will believe that now they know I'm a criminal, will they?

33:00I do.

33:04I think you do.

33:06Yes.

33:14Why did you come back here?

33:15I was born here.

33:16That's all.

33:18And really imagined the past was dead and buried.

33:22Well, you're not going to leave, are you? Just like that.

33:26Mark.

33:28What is it?

33:30You don't want anything to do with me.

33:32I do.

33:34I do.

33:35I'll stay.

33:48No.

33:50No, I have to be by myself.

33:54To think.

33:55Is there someone else?

34:00No.

34:02Why did you say that?

34:25I just want to be dead in the past?

34:26I do.

34:31I know you were going to die.

34:33You don't know me.

34:35I do.

34:36You're not going to die.

34:38You're not going to die.

34:40It's like you're not going to die.

34:42I'm going to die.

34:44I do not know you're not going to die.

34:46But you don't need to die.

34:48You do not want to die.

34:50I hope you do that.

34:51Let's go.

35:21Let's go.

35:51Hey, up. What have we got here, then?

35:59A bit long and a tooth.

36:01Mature.

36:02So's my mother.

36:04All right, darling, where are you off to, then?

36:06Off down the pub, are you?

36:06Come on.

36:07Come on.

36:08Come on.

36:10Come on.

36:11Come on.

36:12Come on.

36:13Come on.

36:18And here's a voice.

36:20To have a little chat tonight.

36:25I don't want you worried, baby

36:30We can make everything all right

36:34Listen to my plea, baby

36:36Bring it to me

36:40Because I need your love, babe

36:47You're gonna be your love, babe

36:55Thank you. Thank you.

37:09All right, time for us to liven things up just a little bit now.

37:12Carry on with a bit of Motown.

37:13Sorry, love, let's take it now.

37:31Calling out around the world

37:35Are you ready for a brand new beat?

37:38Summer's here and the time is right

37:42We're dancing in the street

37:44Hi!

37:45Oh, I'm ready.

37:47You're around there, aren't you?

37:48We're just around the world

37:50Lovely, darling.

37:53I'll tell you about it.

37:54One thing you learned in prison.

38:09Are you all right?

38:09What the hell were you doing in a place like that?

38:14I followed you.

38:15Liz

38:15If it's prostitutes you want, you should observe

38:18Liz, Liz

38:19Who are you waiting for?

38:21Girl I told you about, Catherine

38:23The woman you tried to kill?

38:26Yes

38:26Don't touch me

38:28If that's who you love, go back to her

38:31You can't love a ghost

38:33I've seen her twice

38:56As real as you are

38:58Just as she was then

39:00But I thought

39:02Isn't she dead?

39:04No

39:04I know her address, her phone number

39:07Why didn't you go and see her?

39:11I've tried, I can't

39:12It's as if it's

39:15happening all over again

39:17As if

39:21I'm being taken over

39:22I didn't know you smoked

39:25I don't

39:30I did then

39:32We used to meet here

39:37Just there

39:40It was here she told me

39:44Quite casually

39:45She was pregnant and it wasn't mine

39:46When she came back

39:50I thought

39:52It's not true

39:53It's a joke

39:54But all she wanted was a cigarette

39:56Was that part where you used to meet her?

40:12I got drunk there

40:16The night I tried to kill her

40:42Mom, Mom, what is it?

41:02Are you all right?

41:05Are you all right?

41:10Mom

41:11Oh, my God.

41:41Oh, my God.

42:11That perfume you gave me, she used it.

42:29Oh, my God.

42:31Was she like me?

42:34A bit.

42:37You're much nicer.

42:39Oh, I was always nice.

42:41And older.

42:43Oh, of course I'm older, you fool.

42:48And so is she.

42:49The woman you knew isn't there anymore.

42:51I know that.

43:01No.

43:03You see her as she was.

43:05But that beautiful skin is a mass of lines.

43:09She's got bags under her eyes and a scraggy neck.

43:12You don't want to believe that, though, do you?

43:13Of course I do.

43:14You want her still to be there.

43:16You want that illusion.

43:18That's why you won't go and see her.

43:20Because if you did see her...

43:22I'm finished.

43:24No one will ever want to speak to me in this town again.

43:34Invite me to their dreary parties.

43:35Offer me their sympathies, their condolences.

43:36You got me out of a rut I've been in for 25 years.

43:37I'm going to get you out of yours.

43:38Phone her.

43:39Go on.

43:40Phone her.

43:41Later.

43:42No.

43:43You won't do it later.

43:44Do it now.

43:45Get me the knife.

43:46Get me the knife.

43:47Get me the knife.

43:48Get me the knife.

43:49Get me the knife.

43:50You know by heart.

43:51You know by heart.

43:53Four, seven, three.

44:06Two, six, four.

44:08Two, six, four.

44:10You know by heart.

44:12Four, seven, three.

44:15Two, six, four.

44:18Two, six, four.

44:22Stupid.

44:24I told you it's stupid.

44:26I know it's stupid. Now leave me alone!

44:38I'm sorry.

44:42Mark, young Catherine's in your head.

44:46She's old now.

44:48But you have to see it.

44:50You don't have to phone.

44:52Just walk along the street, that's all.

44:54Do it today.

44:56And I'll meet you at the cathedral after work.

44:58Otherwise...

45:00Let's just forget it.

45:16Let's go.

45:18Let's go.

45:20Let's go.

45:22Let's go.

45:24Let's go.

45:26Let's go.

45:28Let's go.

45:30Let's go.

45:32Let's go.

45:34Let's go.

45:36Let's go.

45:38Let's go.

45:40Let's go.

45:42Let's go.

45:44Oh, my God.

46:14Oh, my God.

46:44Sorry, mister.

46:58Let's go.

47:28Mother!

47:34Mom!

47:51Captain?

47:56Don't you know me?

47:58Don't go!

48:28Something happened.

48:40My daughter always catches that train.

48:49Catherine.

48:58I don't know what she's doing.

49:02I don't know what she's doing.

49:04Well, let me tell you about the way she looked.

49:06The way she acted.

49:08The color of her hair.

49:10Her voice was soft and cool.

49:12Her eyes were clear and bright.

49:14But she's not there.

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