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00:00Are you serious?
00:02Yeah.
00:03Yeah, I thought this...
00:04I thought this might actually be some good news.
00:09I owe you an explanation.
00:12Allison!
00:14Jason!
00:15Get an ambulance!
00:16How dare you go around saying things about my son.
00:19Your whole family owes me.
00:22You fucking owe me.
00:24I know, it wasn't my fault.
00:27I left that night.
00:30No!
00:36God, Daniel.
00:38How did you want this to play out?
00:40I don't know, I didn't think, obviously.
00:42What if this life had been us?
00:44Who the fuck are you?
00:45Nothing happened.
00:47You say so.
00:49It was really good to see you again.
00:52I don't want to run from the past anymore, Dan.
01:00I don't know.
01:02I don't know.
01:08I don't know.
01:10I don't know.
01:12Playing with the ball of twine that you call my heart
01:17Oh, but baby, is it so hard to tell the two apart
01:23And so slowly you unwind me until I fall apart
01:29I'm only living for the hour
01:38That I see your face, and when that happens
01:43I don't want to be no close-up place
01:47Till we get to the right
01:49When will she be back?
02:02She's not coming back.
02:08She didn't say anything about leaving
02:10She talked to you about it, right?
02:16She left me an hour
02:17None of this makes sense
02:23I did something happen
02:26You don't just up and leave home at 17, Peter
02:30Look
02:33Whenever she's settled, I'm sure she'll be in touch
02:39How are you so calm?
02:44Because I can guarantee you
02:45Wherever she is now
02:50She's happier than she were here
02:54I got her a birthday present
03:05Who are you?
03:10He's just leaving
03:11I'm Alison's boyfriend
03:12Yeah?
03:16So she left you and all
03:18Don't worry too much about it
03:21She would probably shagging a few lads
03:24Fucking bitch
03:26Stop it
03:27Thought too much of her sin
03:28She'll say in the real world
03:31She'll get her comeuppance
03:32Ungrateful cow
03:35And this one
03:37Off to the army
03:38You give them everything
03:42And they're happy to just leave you on your own
03:46Selfish brats
03:48And they're happy to just leave you on your own
04:18See you
04:45Dear Daniel, you've probably already worked out from the postmark, I'm in Ireland, it's
05:13really cool, eh? There's a great music scene, you'd love it. I miss you and I'm so sorry
05:19I didn't come see you before I left.
05:25Hi Mark, that's fine.
05:29Hiya.
05:32Can I help you?
05:33Yeah, just three pints please and just join us for a drink, yeah.
05:38That's my pro slope, eh?
05:40Oh, just a little bit of a drink.
05:43Hey, give her a break.
05:46We're just messing around her.
05:49I'll get these, yeah?
05:51Really? Yeah?
05:52Thanks.
05:54Bye.
05:57They're dickheads.
06:02Can I buy your drink to say sorry?
06:04No, thank you. I'm working.
06:06That's not an Irish accent.
06:10Are you from England?
06:14I'm busy.
06:16No worries.
06:18I'm staying in some digs near here.
06:21I'll see you about.
06:25I'm Michael.
06:26By the way.
06:28Nice to meet you, Michael.
06:29I know he loves me.
06:43But sometimes it just feels suffocating.
06:52He's used to being in control.
06:54I know he loves me.
06:54But that's your job, right?
07:03To be in control.
07:06But you can't control another person.
07:09I mean, he...
07:10You tracked my phone.
07:13You followed me.
07:14Can you explain your thinking behind that, Michael?
07:17Oh, look, I don't think it's that unusual to have a family tracking plan on iPhones.
07:23I know a lot of people who do that.
07:25But you didn't tell Alison or Stella that you had that plan.
07:30Hmm.
07:31You do accept that Alison is allowed her privacy.
07:35Of course I do.
07:41But...
07:42Alison is so...
07:45You're so in yourself...
07:50That sometimes I just feel like I'm trying to find you.
07:55And if that's suffocating...
07:57Yeah, I'm sorry.
08:00Do you feel like you'd shut yourself off to Michael, Alison?
08:05No.
08:12Maybe.
08:13I'm...
08:15Not consciously.
08:19But there's some stuff that...
08:22He doesn't ask about.
08:25I mean, you've never even asked about my past.
08:28You don't want to talk about that.
08:31Why do you just accept that?
08:32So, I mean, the suffocating you or I'm giving you too much space.
08:38Like, which is it?
08:40There's work here.
08:42But there's also love.
08:44I can see that.
08:45There we go.
08:59How's Alex getting on?
09:01Oh, he's good.
09:03He is planning to go to the Highlands with his mate for half term.
09:07Yeah, I do not know how much studying he's doing here.
09:10That sounds familiar, doesn't it?
09:12But he is happy.
09:16Married my remits when Dan moved out.
09:18I was not.
09:19Yes, you were.
09:20Not as bad as you stuck in that shed all day with your pigeons.
09:23That's not true.
09:24He cried, you know.
09:26You did.
09:27Right, I'm going to go check the oven.
09:30Not in my name, eh?
09:32No.
09:33Got to go on myself.
09:34Have a waz.
09:35Bill.
09:36See you later.
09:37Watch it.
09:38Mind your rate.
09:39I'll see you later.
09:50I'll see you later.
09:52Bye.
10:05Bye.
10:05Bye.
10:06Bye.
10:08Bye.
10:08Bye.
10:08Bye.
10:09I wasn't expecting you back from America so soon.
10:13You meant to be there for a few weeks.
10:14Yeah, even longer.
10:16I just had to come back and sort some stuff out.
10:22Is everything okay?
10:28No.
10:30Not really.
10:31Well, I see.
10:37You must have had that.
10:39With Bill, right?
10:41Weren't there moments where you were ready to just give up?
10:46I don't understand.
10:49I get that two people don't change at the same time, but...
10:53What if you haven't changed?
10:56What if you're just not...
10:58on the same page anymore?
11:04I'm lost, love.
11:07It's okay.
11:08It doesn't matter.
11:16Well...
11:16Marriages are hard, aren't they?
11:19Times would happily strangle Bill, but...
11:22Well, all that matters is...
11:26that you're honest with one another and...
11:29I'm sure everything will be fine, love.
11:31I'm sure everything will be fine, love.
11:31because I have to be happy with one another...
11:35I'm sure everything will be fine as well.
11:39So what, are you?
11:45I can't see what happens.
11:47It doesn't matter what happens.
11:48All right, I'm on.
12:03See you later.
12:04Bye.
12:18Hey.
12:28Hey.
12:29Hey.
12:30Just checking in.
12:33How's counseling?
12:38How did you know we're at the counselors?
12:40I'm not a complete moron.
12:41Well, you're not a moron at all.
12:46You know, sometimes you just need some help with your problems.
12:52That's all.
12:54Dad and I love you very much.
12:55You know that, don't you?
12:57This has got nothing to do with you or Thea.
13:03But all this kicked off when all that stuff happened.
13:08No, I didn't, darling.
13:10I promise.
13:11This is our own stuff.
13:16Are we going to keep doing this?
13:28Avoiding each other?
13:30I think I'm just afraid of what's going to come out when we start talking.
13:43She, um, lives in Sydney.
13:57This author that you pretended you didn't know.
14:01There are no direct flies to New Zealand, Carol.
14:11There is so little we have in common anymore, Dan.
14:13But the inability to lie well is still true for the both of us.
14:19And, uh, did you go there to see her?
14:25Look, it was a stopover on that route to see Jack Leonard.
14:31And, yes, I did see her when I were in Sydney.
14:39Well, it's not like you think.
14:41Right?
14:42When we were kids, we were together, and she left Sheffield suddenly, and I just wanted to know why.
14:49And that were it.
14:50Why didn't you tell me that?
14:52You could have.
14:54I don't know.
14:55I don't know.
14:56I don't know.
14:57I don't know.
14:58You're right.
14:59I should have been straight with you from the start.
15:01I should have been.
15:02But, you know, we've been going through this weird space, and I just felt like this was my thing.
15:06I needed some answers.
15:08Honestly, Kai, we're no more than that.
15:11We've been together for decades.
15:15You've never even mentioned her.
15:19Why not?
15:22I'm sorry, Kai.
15:36We'll make it better.
15:40Look, I'm sorry, but you were so fucking boring at the moment.
15:45Come on, one party.
15:47I need a wingman.
15:49You don't need a wingman.
15:50Right, there's that bird from that convent school.
15:53Rose Summer.
15:54I don't know.
15:55And you get to think I'm nice and respectable.
15:57I'm definitely not helping with that.
15:58Right, seat dull.
16:00Come on.
16:03Here, isn't that?
16:04Peter.
16:05Peter!
16:06I didn't know you were back.
16:09Has there been any words from Al?
16:12Is she okay?
16:13Look, mate, I have to get on.
16:14He's not stopped pining for her, the idiot.
16:16For fuck's sake.
16:17What's fucking wrong with your family?
16:18Eh?
16:19Why won't you tell me where she is?
16:21My mum's died.
16:22Jesus.
16:23I'm sorry.
16:24I'm sorry.
16:25Let's just leave her.
16:26Come on.
16:27Okay.
16:28Let's just leave her.
16:29Come on.
16:30Okay.
16:31Let me get her for you.
16:33Hello?
16:34Hi, Al.
16:35Peter.
16:36Listen, er...
16:37I've got bad news.
16:39What's wrong?
16:40What's wrong?
16:41It's...
16:42It's...
16:43It's mum.
16:44Let me get her for you.
16:56Hello?
16:58Hi, yeah, Al.
17:00Peter!
17:02Listen, er...
17:04I've got bad news.
17:06What's wrong?
17:08It's... it's Mum.
17:10She, er...
17:14She died.
17:18She fell down the stairs.
17:26When... when's the funeral?
17:34Tuesday.
17:36So... I'm gonna owe you the money for your flights.
17:41But if you don't think you can do it alone...
17:44I'll...
17:45I'll come over and get you.
17:48Why is it so soon?
17:50Can't we wait a week?
17:54She was seeing that prick Baxter again.
17:57He were weird when she died.
18:00He'd already been under the funeral directors.
18:03Baxter didn't tell me for two or four days she was dead.
18:09I'm gonna come over.
18:11And he's going around now working like the Chief Moiner.
18:18I can't...
18:21I can't come home.
18:22For you, I can't come home.
18:24What are you talking about?
18:26I'll pay you, Al. You don't have to worry about...
18:28I'm not coming back!
18:29I can't...
18:30Look, I know you're upset.
18:31I... I understand.
18:33But she was our mum.
18:35Now listen.
18:36You have to do this.
18:37Even if you're angry with her.
18:39Yeah?
18:42Trust me.
18:44You'll regret it.
18:46She fell down the fucking stairs while she was drunk.
18:49She was drunk.
18:50I'm not going to a funeral.
18:51You're positive.
18:52Like a hundred percent.
18:53You were so reluctant before.
18:54What happened?
18:55Yeah, I just...
18:56I just made up my mind.
18:57Babe, I could kiss you.
18:58This is great news.
18:59I'm gonna get onto the PR company.
19:00Confirm all the interviews.
19:01And we're gonna sort you out some lovely hotels.
19:02Okay.
19:03And, uh...
19:04Will it just be you?
19:05No.
19:06No.
19:07No.
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19:50Michael, I said I wanted to talk about something important.
20:05I know, I know.
20:06I just wanted to do something nice for you.
20:10It's still loud, isn't it?
20:11Some bubbles.
20:13You may recognize this.
20:15Tasmania.
20:16Yeah, Tasmania's favorite.
20:19Oh!
20:19That would be great.
20:22Here we go.
20:23Ladies first.
20:25You did a nice big pour.
20:28Thanks.
20:31Okay, and on a mask.
20:35There we go.
20:37Cheers, my love.
20:38Cheers.
20:41Please, please.
20:43Yeah.
20:47Need a bit more of this, huh?
20:49Being a couple.
20:52Hmm.
20:54I love you.
20:58I know.
21:03So you told Cas that you're doing the tour?
21:07Yes, I did.
21:09Yes, I did.
21:10I was thinking.
21:12I am due.
21:14A lot of leave.
21:17What if I came with you?
21:20That's what I wanted to talk about.
21:22Oh, really?
21:24You thought that too?
21:26Yeah.
21:26I thought it might be a good idea for us to have some time apart.
21:42Alison.
21:42I want to do this on my own, Michael.
21:47What about Thea and Stella, with everything she's been through?
21:57Stella's stronger than you think.
21:58It really doesn't matter how hard I try, does it?
22:11It really doesn't matter how hard I try, does it?
22:11You've changed.
22:17Yes.
22:20I have.
22:25I have.
22:32Stephen, you have to stop ringing me.
22:39I have to go.
22:42Who was that?
22:43Ah, a telemarketer.
22:45Did you get the steaks?
22:47I did.
22:48I did.
22:49Also got us a lovely bottle of red, so I thought we could, you know, put these on and try and
22:55have a nice night in.
23:00That is nice.
23:09Got your phone.
23:20Got your phone.
23:20She was by myself in a helpless way to you
23:31I love you
23:37I love you
23:43I love you
23:48I love you
24:18There's something you need to tell me.
24:32You sure you don't want something to eat?
24:34No, no, I'm fine. I'm all right.
24:36Well, you can stay here as long as you like, son, you know that.
24:40But you are going to have to sort it out eventually.
24:43Yeah, yeah, well...
24:45I don't know.
24:48Mum, did I ever get any letters?
24:55What?
24:56It was just Alison said that she sent me letters.
25:00Did they come here or are they at you now?
25:05Did you put them up for me or something?
25:11What?
25:13Oh, it was so long ago now, all of that.
25:18Mum, what did you do?
25:29You're my son.
25:32Wouldn't you do hope to protect your Alex?
25:38No, tell me that you didn't do that.
25:40I'm sorry, Dan.
25:44I did what I thought were best.
25:46She had a hold on you, that girl, and...
25:48Well, she broke your heart. I knew she would.
25:51I were right.
25:53It were better she were just gone.
25:56No, no, no, you had no right.
25:58Do you understand me? You had no right to do that.
26:00You couldn't even get to imagine what she'd gone through.
26:03I realise that now.
26:06I've even realised it at the time, but...
26:12I was scared of losing you.
26:16Well, where are they? Did you keep them?
26:18Oh, Mum.
26:24It would have made everything different.
26:26Like, my whole life.
26:28You were only kids.
26:30I didn't think...
26:31Yeah, you didn't think, did you?
26:32Dan!
26:33No, I've seen it. You didn't think!
26:36I mean, my whole life.
26:37Oh, Dan, I'm sorry.
26:40Don't go home.
26:41Get away.
26:50Ah!
26:56Alright.
26:58Okay, go away.
27:02See ya, honey.
27:04Alright, honey.
27:08I can't believe so much.
27:10See ya.
28:11Where is she, Peter?
28:24Ireland.
28:27She's working in a bar in Dublin.
28:32Ireland?
28:33Yeah.
28:34Right.
28:42I'll have to get on, mate.
28:43I have my savings, and I'm selling all my records.
28:55You've been working for a long time on that American trip, son.
28:57But I'm worried all that are.
28:59The flights are expensive, and even if they stay in a hostel...
29:01I'll lend you a few, Bob.
29:02You won't be short.
29:05You will?
29:06Yeah.
29:08You believe she's worth it, and so do I.
29:11Your mum will have to wait for a microwave, mind.
29:14Hey, hey, hey.
29:15Cheers, brother.
29:16It's all right.
29:18Appreciate you.
29:19Go get her.
29:20Have you heard from your brother?
29:31Yeah.
29:31Mm-hmm.
29:32He wants me to go home.
29:36What's your choice, Alison?
29:38Now, I'm sure Peter loves you, but you said it yourself.
29:41He's got to live his life.
29:43Because if you do go back there, he's going to feel like he needs to look after you, isn't he?
29:48Yeah.
29:49How's he going to do that when he's in the army?
29:53I don't know.
29:57Like, we always looked out for each other, but...
30:00Now, I mean, it's not like this is my long-term plan.
30:03I love it, but I don't even know anybody here.
30:06Yeah. You're the first friend I've made, and you're going back to Australia.
30:09Yeah, the greatest country on earth.
30:17You're beautiful when you do that.
30:20You should smile just like that on our wedding day.
30:28You barely know him, eh?
30:30I know you.
30:32You're just like me.
30:33You've travelled over here on your own, looking to see the world.
30:38You're fun, Alison Connor.
30:39Hey there, you with your side face, we're all in my place, you're little.
30:51Jesus Christ.
30:52I've been thinking, hear me out.
30:59My parents are really well connected.
31:01My dad's got me this internship at this hospital in Sydney.
31:04Well, I reckon he could get you something, and you would love Australia.
31:09I'd look after you there.
31:10Like, it is pretty far from Sheffield, but it would be a great adventure.
31:13I don't know if it feels cute.
31:19Yeah, and what about who's that woman you've been writing to?
31:21Is it Sheila?
31:23Yeah, wouldn't it be good to see her?
31:24Oh, what's your thing?
31:28It's Michael.
31:31I
31:41I
31:42I
31:43I
31:49I
32:20Oh, so I'm delighted to hear from you.
32:42Are you in Ireland?
32:44Is that right about, do you, eh?
32:46Travelling already?
32:47Yeah, I guess I got the bug.
32:50That's why I'm ringing, really.
32:51I've, well, I've met somebody, and he's Australian, and he's suggested...
32:58No.
33:00Are you coming out here?
33:02Would that be weird?
33:03Weird?
33:04Look, I'm getting a spare room, ready as we speak.
33:14It was just one night.
33:16I was drunk and really upset about us.
33:20And this work colleague of yours, he offered you his penis to cry on, didn't he?
33:23It's not quite the same, is it?
33:25No, it's not the same, Kat.
33:26I made a mistake.
33:27I didn't try halfway to meet an ex that you've never told me about.
33:32A woman that you've seemingly not been able to get over for the past 20-odd fucking years.
33:40Well, look, I'm sorry.
33:43I think we just need to face up to it.
33:48We've grown apart, Dan.
33:51I don't know, I guess when Alex was there, he was something that we were both focusing on, but now, who are we?
33:57I mean, when was the last time we even had sex?
34:01I don't mean plain vanilla lights of sex.
34:04I mean actual, proper fucking...
34:06And that's why you went with him, was it?
34:08Proper, lusty, fucking sex.
34:10Jesus Christ.
34:22Come on.
34:23I'm sorry, right, but I don't want it to be like this.
34:27Okay.
34:33I know you, Dan.
34:36I'm not letting you use this as your get-up clause.
34:40You're not as angry as you're acting.
34:43You're at it somewhere else.
34:48It's on her.
34:53Look, it doesn't matter who's done what, who's right or wrong.
34:57I wanted something different, too.
35:02That's why I suggested the States.
35:04That's why I...
35:06Did what I did.
35:09If we'd been happy, it would never even have entered my mind.
35:16But I meant something to you when you went to Australia.
35:19And that's just facts.
35:30So...
35:31So what are you saying?
35:33I think you know what I'm saying.
35:34I love you, Dan.
35:44I know you love me, too, but...
35:46We're not in love anymore.
35:50I'm not saying it doesn't hurt.
36:00But we don't have to settle for this.
36:05Yeah, it's just...
36:07I think I'm just...
36:09You know, I just don't want to lose you, Kat.
36:12You know, and I don't want to lose Alex, and...
36:14You know, and I don't want to lose my life.
36:16No, you don't want to lose your life.
36:19I'm sorry.
36:20Come on.
36:25We're family.
36:28I can't...
36:30Yeah.
36:31We always agreed we would be on the same team.
36:39Um, we'd make plans together.
36:41You know, decide things together.
36:43You agreed.
36:45You made the decisions.
36:46You just let me think I was making them, too.
36:50Excuse me?
36:52It's about control.
36:54I see that now.
36:56What are you talking about?
36:58Michael has a way of doing things where he talks to you as though you're already on the same page.
37:04Like, recently I said I had to talk to him about something important,
37:07and he ambushed me with champagne and crudité, so I'd be on the back foot.
37:12Sorry, I forgot.
37:13My wife doesn't like romance.
37:15He's a wing clipper.
37:16He shuts me down.
37:17Are you kidding me?
37:18I practically had to beg you to come here for a second session so that we could talk.
37:22If anything, you're shutting me down.
37:24Michael doesn't make me do anything.
37:27And yet I always seem to end up doing exactly as he pleases.
37:31Like with Sheffield, for instance, I should have gone back to resolve things,
37:34but he was too afraid that he'd lose me.
37:36How do you come out with the stupidest things sometimes?
37:39Maybe we need to take a short break.
37:41I'm sorry.
37:42This was his idea.
37:44I should have been honest from the start.
37:46I need a break from this marriage.
37:56I'm done.
37:58Why don't you just be honest with us, Alison?
38:00This isn't about me.
38:02It's the old boyfriend.
38:05The one you fucked the last time you abandoned your family.
38:11Fuck off, Michael.
38:12Fuck off, Michael.
38:42Fuck off, Michael.
38:48Come on, Michael.
38:50What are you doing?
38:53Fuck off, Michael.
38:55Oh, my God.
39:03I'm not looking here.
39:06I'm not looking.
39:10It's both in the house.
39:12I bet you miss home comforts like they say.
39:18Oh, well, Sheila's always getting stuff sent over, thank you.
39:22She loves serving me heart attacks on a plate.
39:25Of course.
39:27Sheila, how is she?
39:29She's, well, she's good.
39:31She's, um, cookie as anything, but...
39:33She was asking after you, actually.
39:39I can't believe it.
39:41Three whole weeks.
39:43Well, some of it in London.
39:46Oh, well, we'll come down and see you if you like.
39:48Won't we, Peter?
39:49I'd love that.
39:50Yeah.
39:52Are you two OK if I nip out to work?
39:55Oh, yeah.
39:56Yeah, we'll be fine, we'll be love.
39:57Yeah, of course.
39:58Lovely to meet you, Alison.
39:59Oh, you too.
40:01Oh!
40:03Peter's always talking about you.
40:04I feel like I know you already.
40:06Well, why? I can see how happy you both are.
40:09And I really hope that I get to know you more.
40:11Yeah, of course.
40:14See you later.
40:16Take care.
40:17Yeah, you too.
40:25Peter is lovely.
40:27Ah, he's the best.
40:28Can't believe he is in uni now.
40:38Ah, yes.
40:40And Stella's almost ready to leave the nest.
40:42You did well with them girls.
40:50No.
40:54Well, Thea, she's never been any trouble.
40:58But Stella, she's, um...
41:01Well, Stella's Stella.
41:03She's not without her problems.
41:04We all are them.
41:15Peter, I'm sorry.
41:17I'm sorry.
41:18My God, what do you have to be sorry for?
41:21No.
41:22No.
41:22No.
41:23It shouldn't have been more of a living.
41:25No.
41:26Oh, I wish...
41:27I wish I had made you feel more welcome to come and visit.
41:31I wish I'd...
41:33I dealt with things differently back then.
41:36You're here now, Alan.
41:37That's all that matters.
41:38I don't know what happened to bring this all on now.
41:54I don't know.
42:00Son, it's been building this tension between Michael and I.
42:08And then...
42:12Well, I had, um...
42:14I had a blast from the past.
42:18And...
42:19And it shook me.
42:22What was a blast from the past?
42:25Oh, just...
42:26Just somebody I used to know.
42:32Wouldn't be called Daniel, would you?
42:37What makes you say that?
42:38It took him a long time to get over you.
42:48And I figured...
42:50Went looking for you that first time.
42:53He'd try again.
42:55What do you mean the first time?
43:01He was broken-hearted.
43:02And I told him he'd gone.
43:08The next thing I heard, he booked a ticket to Dublin and...
43:12He was there for a few days.
43:14He'd come back without you and...
43:15And you never mentioned it for...
43:19I don't know, I just...
43:26I wonder...
43:28If he ever really got over you.
43:31He followed me.
43:36He never even replied to the letters.
43:38Because he...
43:40He never said anything.
43:44He was a good life.
43:48It's rare to love somebody that much so young.
43:50Do you mind if I pop out for a little bit?
44:03Not at all.
44:04I'll be back.
44:05I'll sleep in here.
44:06Beautiful dreamer, wake unto me.
44:17Starlight and dewdrops are waiting for thee.
44:25If misery walked...
44:28Just...
44:29Skips a break, then.
44:31Your marriage is over.
44:32Cry me a river.
44:33Cry you a river?
44:34What, have you been taking counsellor lessons or something?
44:37It's been coming, son.
44:38That's all I'm saying.
44:39It's no surprise, is it?
44:43I love you, Katra.
44:44Don't get me wrong.
44:47Because you were never really the one.
44:49Bloody hell.
44:50It's like everybody knows more about me life than I do.
44:58Dad, can I ask you something?
45:00Hmm?
45:00Did you know about the letters that Alison wrote back then?
45:09And my mum chucked him in the bin before I could see him.
45:15No, I did not.
45:16Your mum's a wonder, son.
45:24But she is prone to acting before she thinks.
45:29What can I say?
45:31She didn't know I offered you alone to go to Ireland.
45:34It's a long time ago, put it behind you.
45:36Seems like there's some things you can't move on from.
45:47You know what my biggest regret is?
45:53Is that I just didn't fight for her.
45:59Alison, I mean...
46:00She's had such a hard life, and nobody fought for her.
46:12You're looking down the barrel of a divorce and still thinking about your first love.
46:17I should be telling you some of it.
46:21Oh, she's married now, isn't she?
46:24Happily.
46:24Yeah.
46:27I mean, to be honest, they were right, Swat.
46:29Yeah, it's too soon for all that.
46:34I need time to, you know...
46:35Be miserable?
46:36Yes, Dad, be miserable.
46:43Anyway, I'm drunk at you.
46:44Not drunk enough.
46:47Come on.
46:48Let's go to a pub.
46:49You can pine for the love of your life.
46:52With a proper pint in front of you.
46:53Yeah.
46:59I'm sorry, Mom.
47:13I'm sorry, Mom.
47:27I'm sorry, Mom.
47:36I'm sorry, Mom.
47:40Listen to me.
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48:42Hello, Mrs. O'Toole.
48:45Alison.
48:51Er, will you best come in?
48:57Is tea okay, Alison?
49:07Yeah.
49:08Thanks.
49:11You've changed your hair.
49:13Yeah.
49:14Obviously the sun suits you.
49:16Oh, well.
49:16Took me a few years to adjust.
49:20You sound like one of them and all, don't you?
49:22I should report for you.
49:25Oh, yeah.
49:25Thanks.
49:32So, um, you're just, uh, back to promote your book?
49:37Yes.
49:38Milk?
49:39Please.
49:40Tell me when.
49:42Ah, that's perfect.
49:43Sugar.
49:44Yeah.
49:44And you're married?
49:51I am.
49:52I am.
49:53You've got kids?
49:54I have two.
49:55I have two girls.
49:56Oh?
49:56Yeah.
49:57Been busy.
49:57I have been busy, yeah.
49:59It is crazy you remember it now with Daniel after all this time.
50:11Well, he meant a lot to me.
50:16You were so young.
50:20How old were you and Bill when you got together?
50:23Well, that were different times, wouldn't it?
50:31Just deaf kids.
50:38I'm staying with my brother, Peter.
50:40How?
50:41He told me that, uh, Daniel came looking for me after I'd left.
50:45I think when, you know, when you have kids, you just, you want to do anything to protect them.
51:09You want them to have the, the very best of things.
51:28Can I just say, Alison?
51:33I am so very sorry.
51:38I am.
51:39About all of it.
51:46There were problems back then.
51:51You were being a good mom.
52:00But I'd very much like to talk to Daniel now.
52:09Just saying, I know things, son.
52:23I know, Dad.
52:24You're always just saying.
52:26You have one shot at life.
52:27Yeah, okay, yeah.
52:28Let me finish.
52:29You pay made a mess of things when you were kids.
52:33I'm not saying either of you wasted your life.
52:36You made the best of it.
52:37But it hasn't worked out.
52:41Oh, well, thanks for that, Dad.
52:43You're not kids anymore.
52:45That's what I mean.
52:47It's like my pigeons.
52:50We all make our way home eventually.
52:52It's just taking you longer.
53:00She's your home, son.
53:02She's your home.
53:02She's your home, son.
53:05She's your home.
53:05She's your home.
53:06She's your home.
53:06She's your home.
53:08She's your home.
53:08I can do it for dinner.
53:08She's your home.
53:08She's your home.
53:09So, you know what?
53:10I was just going to say.
53:10Yeah, I was just going to say I booked somewhere for dinner, we can eat in if you need a bit
53:26more time.
53:27Oh, yeah, that'd be great, um, I just have something to do, uh, first, or not, I can't
53:38decide.
53:39Where are you?
53:41I'm standing out the front of a pub, deliberating whether I'm not to go in.
53:47Oh, yeah, you know, if you're off to drink, it's not a good idea to go to a pub.
53:51Oh, Christ, no, I'm not, they're not like our mum, no, there's just, uh, somebody inside
54:00I want to talk to.
54:01Somebody?
54:02Daniel.
54:03Ah, why don't you go in, then?
54:11Because I think he might be with his wife.
54:14And I've got nowhere to check, because he, uh, ah, I think he blocked my phone number.
54:22Ah, there's a lot to unpack there.
54:25Can I give you some advice?
54:27Yeah, I wish you would.
54:28Life's too short, I have regrets.
54:29And love is worth fighting for.
54:30Ha!
54:31You old poet.
54:32Don't mind, no way.
54:33My love.
54:34My love.
54:35The work.
54:36Do I have no way?
54:37Oh, love.
54:38...
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