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  • 5/19/2025
Eastenders 19th May 2025

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00:00Music
00:12Come on. Come on, you know what you're meant to be doing, don't you?
00:26Come on. Please, let's run.
00:56Music
01:20Mum? Mum, are you awake? Mum, please. I hope I'll keep crying. She said she wants you. Mum, please.
01:38Music
01:50Why didn't you tell me you was a sleeping man?
01:56Well, he's not crying, so I thought he'd just assume.
02:08Why would they? He literally never sleeps. I swear, he's been crying so much recently, I thought I'd just blocked it out.
02:12You know, like people when they live next to airports.
02:16Well, don't forget him settled. Best mum ever.
02:20Oh, I thought the formula was just for emergencies.
02:25Yeah, well, it is, but I ran out of express milk and I was up half the night trying to get him to latch on, so.
02:35Oh, so maybe it's time to try something new?
02:37We can get one of them prep machines, that would help with the night feeds maybe.
02:41Think about it, me, my boy, a back catalogue of movies I've never gotten around to watching.
02:45Hang on, I'm not saying that I'm ready to give up breastfeeding. I just thought about using the formula, but then I managed to pump some milk and then I got him off in the end, so.
02:56I mean, you've seen him in there. Peter, I really need to give this my best shot. I mean, he's not exactly had the best start in life, has he? Because of me.
03:05What if the way he is is... what if there's something wrong with him?
03:10Like what? Being too perfect?
03:17Oh, I think you're amazing.
03:22It's just... with Louis it was a bit more natural. I mean, not easy, but...
03:28Yeah, just like this.
03:31The whole babies are different. That's what they say, isn't it?
03:35Just get yourself up to bed. I'll get Louis off to school and I'll take care of his nibs when he eventually wakes up.
03:39Oh, I'm on the shopping list. Nappies, ready meals, methadone from the chemist.
03:49No, go on, look. You do the school run, I'll quickly get dressed and then I'll just bring him with me to get all this shit.
03:56Come on. Our boys are very lucky to have you.
04:00She wouldn't even give her a hug. No, I don't get it. Last week she was out of bed.
04:08I think it's the ha-ha thing. What it's done to Nan. She just really knocked her. I could kill that Cathy.
04:14I don't think I'm ever going back to that Cathy. Unless I'm starving, but...
04:18Lily! Yeah, just come in. Look, I've got to get the kids to school for it.
04:22And I've got to do a load of washing. And if I don't get some food in this house, we're all going to starve.
04:26Tell me what I can do. School run. Get your bags clean.
04:31Then what about the nan factor? I just think if we told Aunty Cat...
04:35No. No, we don't tell anyone. Not even Aunty Cat. Do you understand me? No one.
04:40Kids, mum, I'm all for breakfast.
04:43No, yeah.
04:47Peter still hasn't messaged me back just cos his mums are walking, talking, sex lies and videotape.
04:51I mean, he hasn't got to punish the rest of us.
04:53He's hurt, Ian. We let him down.
04:55Speak for yourself. I'm not a member of the jolly adulterers club.
04:59No offence.
05:01I was thinking about checking in across the road, but it might be best to give him a bit of space.
05:06Could go the same for Peter.
05:08Well, he's got a newborn. I mean, he needs us. He just hasn't realised it yet.
05:11Hmm.
05:14That's great, Whit.
05:17You'll feel better when you're up there.
05:20Of course I won't tell anyone where you are, come on.
05:24Alright, just give me a call when you settle.
05:27Speak to you later.
05:30Is everything alright?
05:32Listen, I know you mean well, just please stay out of this.
05:36I ain't gonna tell you what to do.
05:38But, it's like what Sharon said.
05:43Whatever we owe to each other, we're both her family.
05:49You look stressed.
05:50How else have you got to talk to her around here?
05:55Hmm.
05:59It's Whit.
06:01She's found a permanent place for only girls up in Inverness.
06:04But, she's worried Nicola's gonna find out where she is and she'll have to move on again.
06:07Maybe you should go up there.
06:13Give Whitney some peace of mind.
06:15Spend some proper quality time with Dolly.
06:17Do you think Ravi left something to say about me swerving all my shifts?
06:20I ain't talking about just going for a day or two.
06:25Seems to me, all there is for you around here is trouble.
06:33That's not all there is.
06:36It don't have to be forever.
06:37Think about it.
06:39I was just dropping off some bits for little Jimmy.
06:41Never could resist buying baby clothes.
06:43What's that then, Bradbury?
06:44I thought me and you were starting to understand each other.
06:48But now push comes to shove and you seem to have sided with everybody else.
06:51What do you expect?
06:53Poor Cathy.
06:54Well, poor Jean actually.
06:56My issues with Ian and St Cathy shouldn't affect my relationship with Peter and the boys.
06:59It's not just down to me.
07:00Can you not talk to Peter?
07:01I'm letting him see I'm a mum above everything else.
07:02You know how much those boys mean to me.
07:03Look, I've got a newborn.
07:04I'm sleep deprived.
07:05My boobs are leaking.
07:06My boobs are leaking.
07:07My boobs are leaking.
07:08My boobs are leaking.
07:09My boobs are leaking.
07:10I don't understand each other.
07:11But now push comes to shove and you seem to have sided with everybody else.
07:12What do you expect?
07:13Poor Cathy.
07:14Well, poor Jean actually.
07:15My issues with Ian and St Cathy shouldn't affect my relationship with Peter and the boys.
07:16It's not just down to me.
07:17Can you not talk to Peter?
07:18And let him see I'm a mum above everything else.
07:21You know how much those boys mean to me.
07:24Look, I've got a newborn.
07:25I'm sleep deprived.
07:26My boobs are leaking.
07:28And to be honest, even on a good day I would rather stick my head in an oven than get involved
07:33in your family drama.
07:35Let me help you, Lauren.
07:37I can spend time with little Jimmy.
07:39And I did help bring him into the world, didn't I?
07:42Nice try.
07:43I think I remember I did a lot of the hard work.
07:46Just go.
07:47I've got things I've got to do.
07:48Out of all my kids, Peter is the only one who didn't turn his back on me.
07:53Even when he thought I was dead, you know, I was still part of his life.
07:57I know he deserves so much better.
07:59But I'm his mum.
08:01No matter what I do, how much I let him down, nothing can change that.
08:05I know everything I do affects my kids.
08:08I mean, imagine in 20 years' time if little Jimmy wasn't speaking to you,
08:12how heartbroken you'd be.
08:14Please, Lauren.
08:15As a mum, don't cut me out of their lives.
08:20I thought you might like one of these.
08:35I would have too, by mistake.
08:38Must have forgotten I was on my own.
08:41Not a lot of dementia humour about it.
08:43You've got to take it where you find it.
08:46You spend so much time looking out for other people,
08:49I thought I'd return the favour.
08:51That's very kind of you.
08:53I set all these reminders.
08:55The thing keeps buzzing the whole time.
09:01It's Claire's birthday.
09:02She's 40.
09:04It's mine on Saturday, 67.
09:07How did that happen?
09:09Time was we'd celebrate our birthdays together.
09:13So why you don't give her a card?
09:15You might be wondering why you didn't send her a card.
09:17No.
09:18We had a falling out a while back.
09:20I don't think she'd want to hear from me.
09:22Sometimes it's all the more reason to reach out.
09:28How's your name?
09:30I don't know.
09:31Why'd you ask her?
09:32Well, I was just wondering how she was doing.
09:35Yeah, she's fine.
09:36My nan's fine.
09:37We're all fine.
09:40Hey, Lily.
09:41Lovely to see you.
09:42I know things must be tough at the moment with me moving out,
09:46but it hasn't changed how much I care.
09:49I'll leave off, Arv.
09:51The only thing you care about is you and that old tart.
09:54Don't talk about Kathy that way, please.
09:56I'm glad you're here, actually.
09:58Saved me a trick.
09:59Your final payslip.
10:01I'm not giving wages to someone that treats my family like dirt.
10:05You can't do that.
10:06It's called Cat's Cabs.
10:07So I can do what I like.
10:08So you turn around and crawl back under your rock.
10:11Scumbag!
10:12Hold on a minute.
10:13Are you at school?
10:14I am.
10:15Free period.
10:16I've got to get back.
10:17Can I get a decaf latte, please?
10:18Take away.
10:19All right.
10:20All right.
10:21All right.
10:22All right.
10:23All right.
10:24All right.
10:25All right.
10:26All right.
10:27Damn.
10:28Oh.
10:29He said I was going to pop round and say congrats on that.
10:30But it's just one of them unwritten rules.
10:31Don't go knocking on a door with a sleeping baby inside.
10:32Well, we ain't got to worry about that, because this one doesn't like to sleep.
10:36God, I'll tell you what.
10:37It seems like a million years ago that Dolly was a noble.
10:38How often do you get to go see her?
10:39Well, as often as I'd like, you know.
10:40Oh.
10:41I might be spending a bit of time in a couple of years every hour, through the exam.
10:45That's a good idea.
10:46What?
10:47What if you're doing now?
10:48No.
10:49Yeah.
10:50Good job.
10:51Well, I'm very happy with you.
10:52I'll see you now.
10:53I'll see you now.
10:54You said I'm, I was going to pop round and say congrats on that, but, um...
10:54It's just one of them unwritten rules, I mean, don't go and lock it under the door
10:55of a sleeping baby inside.
10:56Well, we ain't got to worry about that, because this one doesn't like to sleep.
10:57God, I'll tell you.
10:58Well, it seems like a million years ago that Dolly was a noble.
11:02How often do you get to go see her?
11:03As often as I'd like, you know.
11:08I might be spending a bit more time with them, actually,
11:11thinking about getting a place up near Rip for a while.
11:14She'll probably love that, having your support.
11:18How is she?
11:20I know I don't really have a right bud.
11:23I do miss her.
11:24Yeah, she's good.
11:26Loves being a mum.
11:27I mean, you must be an expert now as number two.
11:33Louis was a dream.
11:35This one, this...
11:37Just every time I pick him up, he doesn't really like that.
11:40But then when I put him down, you don't really like that.
11:42It's just like, he doesn't really...
11:44He doesn't want to be anywhere near me.
11:47And I thought the same as you.
11:48I thought this time would be easier, but it's not.
11:51It's like a thousand times harder.
11:52Okay, okay, okay.
11:53Listen, no offence, but you don't like that, mate.
11:58That's what Peter keeps saying.
12:01Louis was not like this.
12:04Oscar wasn't like this either.
12:05All right, all right.
12:07Go and get us some, kid, eh?
12:13Good luck with everything, yeah?
12:17I'm really pleased with you.
12:20Yeah, I just, um...
12:21All I ever wanted to be was a dad that my kid deserves.
12:24Yeah, they started shouting about beans on toast the moment we walked through the door.
12:43Cat dropped this off.
12:44Oh, I meant to pick it up from the laundrette, but I had to get the food and get Charlie and everything and just...
12:50Hold on.
12:51So you've been to the laundrette, you've done the food shop, you've dropped off and picked up Charlie.
12:57You bunked off school, didn't you?
13:01Yeah.
13:01They all...
13:02Um, so what?
13:03I doubt Mum even answered the phone when they called her.
13:06She don't care.
13:06Why do you?
13:07Because it's school, Lily.
13:08Half term's next week.
13:09If I have to stay off till then, I will.
13:10You can't.
13:12Look, I know that you don't want anyone to know about Nan, but this is too much.
13:15Your dad would be heartbroken if he could see this.
13:20All right, someone should be looking out for you.
13:22Freddie, wait.
13:24No, Freddie, please just wait a minute.
13:52Come on, if I sit down.
14:04Um.
14:06What's the matter?
14:07Nothing.
14:09Come on, I can tell something's up.
14:11Oi, you can tell me.
14:12I'm no one.
14:14It doesn't matter what you say to me.
14:16It's no big thing.
14:17It's just the usual.
14:19Whenever there's drama in my house,
14:21everyone knows everything except for me.
14:24I never get told anything.
14:27It's a bit like this book.
14:29Oranges are not the only fruit by Jeanette Winterson.
14:31You read it?
14:34No, I haven't read that one, actually, mate.
14:36I'm doing it for GCSE.
14:38It's about this girl who never feels like she fits in.
14:43Even with her own family.
14:45Especially with her own family.
14:50Can't be easy.
14:51And then she meets someone.
14:54And it's like she gets it.
14:56There's a whole other world out there.
14:59It's a romantic thing for the two of them.
15:01But that's not the most important thing.
15:03What matters is she only needed one person.
15:08Just one person who never asked her to change.
15:12Makes her feel like she belongs.
15:14It must be nice, that.
15:17It must be nice, that.
15:18Yes.
15:18It's okay.
15:19Keep it down from the room.
15:19Yes.
15:19Thank you, sir.
15:20Thank you, sir.
15:21Thank you, sir.
15:21Thank you, sir.
15:22It's easy to think.
15:32Hello.
15:35Hello.
15:36Right, I've just spent the last few hours cleaning this place from top to bottom,
15:39so, please, no prune armies from you, mister,
15:42and, er, no crisp packets from you, please. That's all.
15:47Yeah, it's from my mum. She left it at the front door.
15:50I know. I saw her earlier.
15:52Can you, er, just tell her to leave me alone, please?
15:55What would she say?
15:56Just take him. I need to take this.
16:02Hello, young man.
16:15I've got you.
16:20I still want to know what my mum has said to you.
16:24She just...
16:26She wants to see the boys.
16:28She kept going on about how you've never really cut the apron ties
16:32and even when you thought she was dead.
16:35What?
16:36She said that everything that she's done has an effect on you.
16:39And that you deserve so much better.
16:44Look at me, Peter.
16:47Look at who I am.
16:50Is it any wonder that Jimmy doesn't want to be anywhere near me?
16:53Is it any wonder that something is not right with him?
16:55Right? What are you talking about?
17:00That'd better not be her.
17:01Hello.
17:13Hello.
17:15How are you?
17:16Oh, look at him.
17:18Can I go through? Is that all right?
17:19Yeah, of course.
17:20Oh.
17:23Oh, I'm so sorry to barge in.
17:25I just wanted to drop off a little present for Jimmy from me and Annie.
17:31I can come back, you know, if it's a bad time.
17:38No, no, it's fine, it's fine.
17:40He's just...
17:41He's unsettled a lot.
17:42But I think we're hitting our stride, aren't we?
17:43No, we ain't hitting our stride.
17:44If anything, it's getting worse.
17:46It just feels like that because you're so tired, though, don't it?
17:48No, it feels like that because it's true.
17:51Ever since he's been born, there's something off with him.
17:55He's unhappy all the time.
17:58He's 14 days old.
18:00So if there is something that is making him unhappy,
18:02then it's pretty obvious what it is, isn't it?
18:03It's me.
18:05Why don't you take Jimmy for a bit and I'll stay here with Lauren?
18:17Cheers, Trace.
18:19Keys to my cab and the office.
18:23Thought you might want them back.
18:24You know, I would like to stay in touch with the family.
18:30It's not going to happen, is it?
18:32No, you made your bed with Cathy in it.
18:35Don't worry, I'm sure they'll all be fine without you.
18:38You never did bring much to the party, did you?
18:40Finally, I've been looking for you everywhere.
18:43Annie Jean and Mo went to stay with Fat Elvis.
18:46We haven't seen either of them for three days.
18:48Stacy won't come out of the room, she won't even get out of bed.
18:50And me and Lily are looking after the kids on our own and we can't.
18:53Cap, we need help.
18:54It's me.
18:55It has to be me.
18:57I'm his mum.
18:59If he's unhappy, then how can it not be to do with me?
19:01How long have you been feeling this way?
19:04Since he's been born.
19:05Maybe even since I found out I was pregnant actually.
19:08Babies are meant to have parents that are going to protect them,
19:13not put them in danger before they're even born.
19:15You haven't put them in danger.
19:17Don't you?
19:18I'm not.
19:20I'm not.
19:21I'm not.
19:22I'm not.
19:23I'm not.
19:24I'm not.
19:25I'm not.
19:26I'm not.
19:27I'm not.
19:28I'm not.
19:29I'm not.
19:30I'm not.
19:31I'm not.
19:32I'm not.
19:33I'm not.
19:34I'm not.
19:36Yeah.
19:38What would you call taking morphine when you're pregnant then?
19:43What was I thinking?
19:44Taking methadone?
19:45Methadone doesn't harm him and it helps you stay sober for your boys.
19:48You know that.
19:52I'm an addict.
19:55My kids have got an addict as a mother.
19:58Yeah.
19:59So I have mine.
20:03Look.
20:05You've made mistakes.
20:06Right?
20:07But you've overcome so much as well.
20:10Listen.
20:13I know it's easier said than done.
20:15And I'm not sure I'm even all the way there yet.
20:19But at some point you're going to have to stop hating yourself.
20:25I was just on my way to see you.
20:26I know you told me not to, but, um, and the parents have a listener.
20:38You know what?
20:39I'm...
20:40I remember being up all night with you and your sister.
20:41I had one of you in each arm.
20:42And I tell you what, I would have happily, happily sold either one of you for a decent
20:43nice kit.
20:44And I know this, um, this family's a mess.
20:45Right?
20:46And I know we're a disappointment to you, but, uh, listen.
20:47I don't want anything, okay?
20:48I just want you to know what you're a listener.
20:49You know what?
20:50I remember being up all night with you and your sister.
20:51I had one of you in each arm.
20:52And I tell you what, I would have happily, happily sold either one of you for a decent
20:55nice kit.
20:56Look, I know this, um, this family's a mess.
20:57Right?
20:58And I know we're a disappointment to you, but, uh, listen.
21:03I don't want anything, okay?
21:04I just want you to know that I'm here.
21:09Lily?
21:10Lily?
21:11Is this true that your, your, your, your nan's there?
21:14I don't want anything, okay?
21:16I just want you to know that I'm here.
21:31Lily?
21:33Is this true that your, your nan's there?
21:38Is this true that your, your nan's done a flit and your mum's just locked herself away
21:41for three days?
21:42Don't look at him, answer me!
21:45We thought she was getting bell.
21:47You know, she'd come out for a bit last week, but she, she just...
21:51She took a few steps back.
21:55Come here, sit down.
21:58Come.
21:59Listen.
22:00You talk to me, alright?
22:03I'm always on your side.
22:05Always.
22:06I remember, um, when, you know, when nan locked herself in the bathroom.
22:16Mum was so scared and the people came there to take off to hospital and...
22:20Yes, no.
22:21That's right.
22:22They did.
22:23Oh, I knew so too.
22:25Mum?
22:27So, Lily's just told me that, um, your mum's packed up and left.
22:33Another thing we can give Harvey credit for, eh?
22:36Mum, why don't...
22:38Right.
22:40I, I, I don't get this.
22:42So she just gives your nan the nod and then just locks herself away?
22:46Well, nan wouldn't have left if Stacy didn't say that she could handle everything.
22:49Has she been taking her meds?
22:51What?
22:52What?
22:53Why?
22:54Why does that matter?
22:55I just need to know, Lily.
22:56Has she been taking her meds?
22:57You're gonna ring someone, aren't you?
22:58Oh, yeah.
22:59You are gonna ring someone and get her taken away again.
23:00No.
23:01No, no, no, I'm just trying to help you.
23:02I don't believe you.
23:03You should go.
23:04Get out.
23:05Lily!
23:06Get out!
23:07Get out now!
23:08Get out!
23:09Get out now!
23:10Lily!
23:11Lily, you won't give me the remove!
23:14Hello, mate!
23:15Peter seemed over the moon when I told him that I might stop breastfeeding.
23:21Like he was relieved.
23:24Like I've been poisoning the baby or something.
23:29I used to feel like Mick was watching my every move in the Vic.
23:34Every time I reached for the vodka, is she serving a punter or having a sneaky swig?
23:41And was he?
23:43Of course not.
23:44It wasn't him.
23:45It was me.
23:46I was just so scared I wouldn't be able to resist.
23:50How can I trust myself and my kids when I can't even trust that I'll stay off the drugs?
23:59Are you off drugs?
24:02Yeah, of course.
24:04And are you spending every waking minute doing everything you can to give your boys the best possible life?
24:10Every minute is a waking minute for me at the moment.
24:17And why are you still doubting yourself?
24:20You are fighting every day.
24:23And winning.
24:24Have some confidence in yourself, Lauren.
24:29Hmm?
24:30I've still got this niggling feeling that something's not right with Jimmy.
24:36And every time I mention it to Peter, he just shuts me down.
24:39So speak to someone else.
24:42Look, I always knew there was something different about Ollie.
24:48Everyone said I was wrong, but I knew there was something.
24:54Then.
24:55And I was right.
24:56Nothing beats a mother's instincts.
25:01Nothing.
25:02Yeah, you all right?
25:03I can't stay here.
25:04Whitney and Dolly, Brittany, I deserve to be happy.
25:19The further away from Nicola Mitchell I am the better.
25:22If I were you, I'd be on the first train to Inverness.
25:25Well, maybe not the first train.
25:27That's something I've got to sort out first.
25:30Like what?
25:31Chuck a spare pair of boxes in a bag?
25:33Job done.
25:34I never wanted Barney living with them psychos.
25:37And I thought, you know what?
25:38They're his family, as long as he's happy.
25:39But he ain't happy.
25:40He wants to be as far away from them as possible.
25:43When I leave, I'm taking Barney with me.
25:48All right, where'd you get all this from?
25:58Oh, we nipped out.
26:00I didn't fancy cooking.
26:01Penny will be back with Louis from football in a minute as well.
26:04Don't worry, I'm not staying.
26:06Smells good, though.
26:08Should I make him a little bottle?
26:11Actually, I wanted to keep trying to breastfeed.
26:16I know we've been struggling, but I'm his mum and...
26:20I need to start trusting myself.
26:23Hello, Mum.
26:32Jane, it's Kat.
26:34Can you call me as soon as you get this message, please?
26:37Cheers.
26:38I can't believe she's done this.
26:40I don't care that she's been dumped.
26:42Why didn't you tell me earlier, eh?
26:45I'm sorry, all right?
26:48Just, um...
26:49We'll deal with it in the morning.
26:51Even though Stacey's the way she is, I'm sure Lily can cope for one more night.
26:54What was that?
26:57Help!
26:58Help!
26:59Help!
27:00What?
27:01What's happened?
27:02I don't know.
27:03I was just putting clothes away in Arthur's room and I come back and she must have fallen off
27:06the bed and caught her leg or something.
27:07I don't know what's happened.
27:08Listen, it's just a little cut, right?
27:10There's no broken bones.
27:11Just get her to hospital, yeah?
27:12Just get her checked out, yeah?
27:13It's all right.
27:14Don't worry.
27:15She, uh...
27:16She seems...
27:17She seems a lot better.
27:18Whatever you said, that must have really helped.
27:19I mainly just listened.
27:20I think part of her is worried that her addiction has affected the baby somehow.
27:32Right.
27:33I hope...
27:34I helped her see that, you know, we can struggle with things and still be good mums.
27:39Oh, and she needs sleep.
27:40Yeah.
27:41Two weeks in with Nancy and I was hallucinating insects and accusing Mick of all sorts.
27:46Oh, mate, don't worry.
27:48She's not...
27:50She's not totally wrong, though, is she?
27:53I mean, this sort of thing runs in families.
27:55If she...
27:56If she stays clean or if she relapses, they'll never escape it.
28:03I mean...
28:04Like you know, Lauren being an addict is gonna affect the boys their whole lives.
28:11No.