00:00And in your book, Son of Escobar, Firstborn, you said that knowing that your birth father was a mass murderer, it had a large impact on your mental health.
00:10How did you how did you handle that?
00:13Well, unfortunately, I'm not proud of it, but millions of us do it.
00:18I well, I had a bad year, 1993.
00:21My wife died of cancer. She had a brain tumour.
00:24My adopted father, who I revered and loved dearly and respected, died of motor neurone disease.
00:31And then at the end of the year, the guy that was my father, real father, he shot himself in the head before they could get him so he couldn't be extradited to America.
00:40And so it was like a weird thing, but it was a kind of closure.
00:43But my brain kind of collapsed mentally and I started drinking a lot and I, you know, became a real heavy drinker.
00:50And, you know, I'm not proud of it.
00:53And I had mental health depression problems, manic depression.
00:57And I ended up on the ward in St. Peter's Hospital in Surrey, a mental health unit there.
01:03And they helped me a lot.
01:05You know, they put me on the drugs that stabilised me.
01:07And then this is years and years ago.
01:09And eventually I gave up drinking and, you know, stopped smoking and just started behaving myself and started playing rugby like I used to when I was younger and started getting fit again.
01:20But that took three, four, I don't know, five years.
01:23But I had some terrible, terrible, terrible problems.
