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00:00How did you find out, and what was that moment like when you found out who your birth father was?
00:05Yes, it was 1989, and my adopted father, who was an MI6 secret agent operating in Colombia,
00:13also had an office in Madrid, and I was living on the Costa del Sol in the southern coast of Spain,
00:20designing golf courses with Peter Alice for an urbanization down there.
00:25And I was like, let me think, how old was I, 24 years old, getting on with life.
00:31I knew I'd had an interesting childhood.
00:33Obviously, you remember things, and I'd had an extremely volatile, violent childhood living in Colombia.
00:40But, you know, we didn't have the Internet.
00:43I'd got on with my life, and I was living down there, and my adopted father rang me up and said,
00:47I need you to come out to Madrid.
00:50I've got some stuff to talk to you about.
00:51So I went up there, and we had a nice long chat, and we went to see Full Metal Jacket, the movie.
00:58And he started to talk to me about stuff.
01:01And, you know, he basically broke it in easily, like something like, you know,
01:05do you remember the guy we used to go and see in MedellĂ­n, yeah, blah, blah, blah.
01:08And he slowly but surely started to reveal stuff.
01:10And then he said, well, of course, that guy was your father.
01:13And I'm a grown-up, so I understood adoption and who my father was.
01:18But we didn't have the Internet.
01:19You can't just Google, oh, Pablo Escobar Gaviria, and just suddenly know everything.
01:24We didn't know anything back then.
01:25We just replied on the newspapers and stuff like that and what we heard on the news.
01:29So I didn't really know what a – I knew what a drug dealer was, but I didn't have this – I mean,
01:36if you mention Pablo Escobar to someone today, they'll know instantly who you're talking about.
01:40But back then, we didn't really know anything.
01:41So it wasn't a dramatic shock.
01:44It was a shock to me that the guy that we used to meet who used to put his hand on my shoulder
01:48and say, mi hijo, my son, and that turns out that he was my father.
01:54This started a conversation which went on right until my adopted father's death in 93,
01:59which is the same year as my real father died.
02:02And he was taking me through my life, basically.
02:05Does that help you a bit?
02:07What are your first memories of being in Colombia?
02:10My very, very first memories are just fleeting glimpses of a milk bottle on a windowsill
02:18and some lime green paint peeling off a wall.
02:22That's some very early memories.
02:25Later on, my adopted father explained those things to me,
02:29which I wrote about in the first chapter of my book in great detail
02:34because they're very early memories that had no explanation behind them
02:37until I had these conversations with my adopted father many years later, you know, in 1989.
02:44And we started talking about these things and what they meant.
02:48And also, I used to have, I still do a few, but I used to have a lot more nightmares
02:52and woke up screaming and all this sort of stuff and couldn't sleep properly.
02:56And I had all these sort of problems as a child.
02:59And it is all to do with the violent start of my life.
03:03And so, to answer your question, the memories aren't, you know, whole memories.
03:08They're violent noises and sights that I saw.
03:12I mean, you know, I still remember today.
03:16You know, I don't know if you've ever seen someone be shot in front of you through the head,
03:19but it's a horrific experience.
03:21And when you see that right in front of you as a child, you kind of, you never forget that.
03:26It's the lack of animation in the human body as it falls to the floor
03:30and the blood spurting out onto the wall behind.
03:33You never forget that sort of thing.
03:36And this is, you know, the drama and the trauma that I grew up in as a child.

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