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Evil Lives Here (2016) Season 18 Episode 3
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00:00When you're a kid, you get asked all the time what you want to be when you grow up.
00:12I didn't think I was going to get to grow up.
00:22This is a drawing that I made in counseling with my therapist,
00:28the one that was helping me preparing to die.
00:34I don't think a seven-year-old little girl should be thinking about anything like that at all.
00:39I was always just so afraid of death and always just waiting for it to come around the corner.
00:45I was terrified.
00:47I was a child, and somebody was taking advantage of how innocent I was,
00:55ripping my innocence away from me and using it against me.
01:00And I think that that is just the worst and most disgusting form of manipulation.
01:07And I, yeah, it just brings me a lot of anger, honestly.
01:11All right.
01:28This is Teresa.
01:30She looks scary to me.
01:34She looks evil, like there's no emotion.
01:40This woman had no emotion for me, her child.
01:46I ultimately started to blame myself.
01:49I did something wrong because the one person in my life who was supposed to love me didn't.
01:56If my own mother couldn't love me, then who could?
02:01That love is supposed to be so genuine and so pure.
02:04Oh!
02:10Oh!
02:14Oh, no!
02:19Oh, no!
02:25Oh, no.
02:30I was born in August of 1995, and I grew up in a very small town called Urbana, Ohio.
02:56In my family, I had five half-sisters and one half-brother.
03:02I was the youngest of all of us.
03:06My dad, he was an incredible father.
03:09Him and I did everything together.
03:11He was my best friend, but he was a very busy man with his job, and I knew that he was essentially
03:18the one supporting our family.
03:21Teresa Milbraith is my biological mother.
03:24I wholeheartedly believe that my dad loved his wife and trusted her like anyone would
03:29in that kind of a relationship.
03:30And with him working, she was my primary caregiver.
03:34And so I think that he really truly just trusted her like he should have.
03:41I think I really started to want to call her Teresa because I don't ever feel like she
03:46was a mother to me.
03:49She was the reason I lost everything in my life and was basically abandoned.
03:54And I don't feel like she deserves that title.
03:58I always kind of explained her as like Jekyll and Hyde as like she in a public setting, she's
04:13was the mother that we wanted, she was loving and gave us hugs and held our hands.
04:31But then like behind closed doors, it was you stayed away from her.
04:37I remember like falling off of my bike one time and she was the only one that was home
04:42and I ran inside with a scraped knee.
04:45And I remember hurting really bad.
04:48She, you know, was sitting on the couch and she kind of looked at me and told me like,
04:54you know, where the first aid kit is, you know, where things are.
04:57I don't know why you're crying.
04:59It doesn't even look that bad.
05:03She didn't care.
05:04It was always just very an emotional detachment is what it felt like.
05:09She didn't play with me.
05:10She didn't want to have any type of interaction whatsoever with me at all.
05:17She really didn't do baths, showers, putting us to bed, things like that.
05:22We were kind of always just fending for ourselves.
05:25You need to grow up.
05:27I do remember feeling like there was something wrong with me that she couldn't give me that
05:34kind of love.
05:35You know, I would see my other friends with their moms and their moms were so involved
05:39and so like interactive with them and just very visibly loving with like hugs and holding
05:45hands and that was never the mother that I saw.
05:50And the only times I really felt like she did was if other people were around, like visibly
05:55watching.
05:56And that was kind of tough because it was a back and forth of, you know, do you do this
06:02because you love me now or do you actually feel this way?
06:05It was very like hot and cold and it was hard to get a grip on like which version of her was
06:10the real version.
06:11What I remember her most is the walking on eggshells, not wanting to do anything wrong, leaving
06:30anything out of place, just honestly doing anything that you felt like could set her off.
06:35She would be normal and then she would throw huge fits over things.
06:41Who did this?
06:43Huh?
06:44There was one time that we walked into the kitchen and she had a spoon that was left in
06:50a bowl of milk in the sink and she brought it in and was like whipping it around.
06:53Is this acceptable to you?
06:57Is it?
06:59It was like gross and had milk on it and she's like, this is disgusting.
07:02Do you think I have the time to clean this up?
07:04No, this is your job.
07:06You clean it up and was going about how everybody was lazy and she's not the only person that
07:12lives here and quit acting like this and made a huge deal out of it.
07:18And it was just out of nowhere.
07:19And it just became so frequent that it was almost normal.
07:23Like you just became accustomed to Teresa's tantrums.
07:28And then she broke a coffee mug because it was left on the counter.
07:31How's this?
07:33She just dropped it on the floor.
07:35Quite honestly, me nor my siblings seem to want to be around her.
07:39Make yourselves useful.
07:40I'm done.
07:42A lot of the time we would spend in our rooms because we were afraid to mess anything up
07:50or to have any form of interaction with her because we knew that if we did anything at
07:55all, she'd find a way to, you know, belittle us or yell at us.
08:01And it was just not something we wanted to do or deal with.
08:13So in this photo, I was, I want to say I was like four or five.
08:21And it was Halloween.
08:24This photo makes me kind of emotional a little bit.
08:28It's looking at this, like the happy Hannah, the little Hannah that I often fight for just
08:36was so carefree and so happy.
08:41Talking about the little version of me is like, that's a tough one for me.
08:48I feel like it's just like, I want to hug her.
08:52I wish I could just squeeze her and tell her that, although things were going to be really,
08:57really hard, you get to be that again.
09:00And you'll get to be able to be the happy Hannah again.
09:06You can tell I was just like a happy-go-lucky little girl.
09:10And she had absolutely no idea what was coming.
09:14And it was coming so soon.
09:18I just remember Teresa almost like switching to a different person.
09:31And it was just more emotionally there for me.
09:37Like if I was crying, it wasn't figure it out on your own.
09:40It was like the coddling and the hugs and the, oh, it's okay.
09:44I'll take care of you kind of thing.
09:47How's that?
09:48She started to help with like bath time, which was never a thing.
09:53Whereas this now was like, she was very much in there helping me brush my teeth and also
09:57like putting me to bed and tucking me in and laying there with me.
10:02And that was just something that she's never done before.
10:05Time for bed.
10:08And I remember thinking like what changed.
10:11And I remember also thinking it had to have been me, like maybe I'm different and maybe
10:16now I'm more lovable.
10:18And so that's why she's being this way.
10:22I was happy with it.
10:23It was what I always wanted.
10:28Now I get to have this love and attention from her and I'm making her happy.
10:32And I'd never seen her happy before.
10:34And if it did, it felt good.
10:41Looking back and knowing that like it was all a lie and thinking about the person who's
10:46supposed to love me unconditionally was beginning to essentially ruin or destroy her child's
10:54life.
10:55Um, it makes me physically ill.
11:01And for her to be able to finish what she was doing and get a good night's sleep like
11:05that, it, it's disgusting to me.
11:08Like it truly is.
11:14Teresa was very much the person that cared about her self image.
11:19And I think that she wanted people to look at her and she liked that kind of attention.
11:25She used to take me to department stores to get professional pictures.
11:30She was like showing me off to everyone.
11:32And that wasn't something she did before.
11:34She would be like, Oh, isn't my daughter beautiful?
11:37I remember a woman had complimented how beautiful I was and was talking to me about my dress and
11:42the things I was wearing.
11:44And that was when Teresa like interjected and said, Oh yeah, she's beautiful.
11:49She's my million dollar baby.
11:52She always referred to me as like her million dollar baby.
11:56She's going to make me so much money someday.
11:58I know it.
12:01I had never really liked to be the center of attention.
12:04I feel like I was being forced into doing it, but I did it to make her happy.
12:12What makes her happy is what's going to get the love I want.
12:16So I'll do whatever it takes to make sure that she loves me.
12:21It makes me sick thinking that she saw me as a price tag and not as her baby.
12:28Looking back, I really feel like that was the start of her plan.
12:33I think that that was the start of her realizing like, Oh, I could make a lot of money off of
12:38this child.
12:39And like, I'm going to see as how far I can absolutely take this.
12:53There was a lot of interactions that I witnessed with her and my siblings.
12:57She used to call my older sister, Cinderella and would tell her that she was only good
13:03for cleaning and she wasn't good for anything else.
13:06She used to call her like ding dong and stupid, very like generic, mean, just nasty names.
13:12And would laugh and think it was funny when it was visibly hurting her.
13:17I remember her always saying very belittling things about her to kind of almost create
13:22this wedge that she wanted between the two of us.
13:28And my older sister decided that she had enough and she was going to go live with her biological
13:33father.
13:35My sister was upstairs in her bedroom, packing her things.
13:38Her and I were very close and I didn't want her to leave.
13:41And I was begging her not to go and like crying and telling her to stay.
13:45Don't leave me alone with her.
13:51That really set Teresa off.
13:52I have to.
13:54She didn't like it.
13:55She felt like she was losing some sort of control with her.
13:59You want to leave?
14:00You want to act like an adult, make decisions for yourself?
14:04And Teresa came in the room and was taking my sister's things and was throwing them in
14:09a trash bag and telling her that she wasn't to interact with me anymore.
14:15And she was ripping up pictures of like my sister and I together.
14:22And she looked at my sister and said to her, I need you to look at Hannah and tell her that
14:26you don't love her anymore.
14:31And she wouldn't do it.
14:34And so Teresa started just screaming at the top of her lungs at her.
14:39And I remember I got very scared.
14:42I remember running to my dad who had just gotten home about in the middle of all of this
14:47happening.
14:48And I ran straight to him as soon as I heard his voice.
14:50What's wrong?
14:51I was standing behind his legs because I was scared.
14:55My mom's yelling.
14:57And she picked that mirror up and threw it at me and my dad.
15:05There was this loud crash.
15:06And I remember looking back and seeing it stuck in the wall.
15:13Glass everywhere, just shattered everywhere.
15:14And thinking like, oh my gosh, I can't believe she just threw that at the both of us.
15:18What the hell's the matter with you?
15:22My dad was helping my sister get all of her things.
15:24And he was consoling her.
15:27I remember sitting in the corner, terrified, like, prying and shaking and not knowing, like,
15:33how long is this going to last?
15:36When he was around, it was a sense of relief.
15:39You only had a certain amount of time until he was gone and anticipating him leaving was
15:43like one of the one things I hated the most is knowing he was going to leave and I was
15:49going to have to be with her again for several days without him was extremely nerve wracking
15:55because he seemed to be the peacekeeper.
16:16I didn't understand anything that the doctor and Teresa were talking about.
16:21And we left and I remember Teresa saying on the phone that something is wrong with Hannah
16:28and you need to come to the house immediately.
16:32Once we get home, there were several people there.
16:35Teresa's mother was there and her husband, my grandfather, was there.
16:41My dad was there.
16:43I sat and just kind of waited to find out what was happening.
16:48She tells all of us that they did a CAT scan and they found a small spot on the base of
16:54my spine, the tip, like the size of the tip of a pen.
16:58And they believe that it was leukemia.
17:02Our little girl is sick.
17:08And everybody just got very emotional or very quiet.
17:12I remember my dad crying immediately and also trying to hold it in.
17:20And I was very confused.
17:22I have never heard of that word before, so I had no idea what that meant.
17:27I was terrifying.
17:30My dad kind of stood up.
17:32He came over and he's like, why don't you and I take a break from all of this?
17:35Let's take a walk.
17:39I remember asking him, like, Dad, what does leukemia mean and why is everybody so sad?
17:45And he said, um, leukemia is like cancer.
17:51And I understood cancer because I had known I had lost somebody in our family from that.
17:55I knew what that meant.
17:57And I was like, but I don't feel sick.
17:59Like, I feel as though I just have a stuffy nose.
18:03How is that cancer?
18:05And he was like, well, it's not for you to understand.
18:07We'll figure this out together and it'll be okay.
18:14And I remember sitting there, things just flying through my mind and wondering, like,
18:19what does this mean?
18:20And am I going to die?
18:22Like, I know that that's what happens if you have this.
18:25And am I going to die?
18:26I'm going to die.
18:46Gosh.
18:46so this is a picture of me during my illness and my dad and Teresa this is at my birthday party
19:02I'm gonna say it was my sixth birthday party and yeah this is heavy
19:13I feel like when I look at this I see so much sadness in that little girl's face
19:22she looks scared it doesn't feel like a genuine smile it looks like I was doing it because I had to
19:34Hannah and this looks like the drained of life version but like looking at Teresa she looks so
19:42happy and it makes me very sick and this giant band-aid on my chest that is just so sad I wish
19:56I could just go back and fight for little Hannah she needed somebody to fight for her and I feel
20:04like I just I wish I could I wish I could protect her and just let her know that it was gonna be
20:09okay that this wasn't going to be the end although I thought it was it wasn't
20:23Teresa had worked in the medical field I don't know like the full degree of her healthcare background
20:36but I do remember her being a home health nurse Teresa was explaining to me at this appointment
20:45you're gonna have chemo treatments and when you have chemo treatments you're gonna feel kind of
20:51nauseous and tired having headaches and then also explaining to me that after so many amount
20:59of chemo treatments that I would lose my hair and it was just so abrupt you know we just went from I
21:09have a cold to now you have leukemia and it just didn't seem real and I was devastated
21:17Teresa was essentially saying I know that you're afraid of the doctor so when we go to the doctor I'm
21:27gonna give you medicine to help you get through these appointments and I didn't think anything of
21:34it and then she'd given me this little blue pill and I remember it tasting absolutely horrible and she
21:44was like okay you know that's gonna make you sleepy but one you won't remember any of the doctor's
21:50appointment you it'll all be okay I'll I'll take care of you and it would be maybe like five or ten
21:57minutes after I would take the medicine I would get extremely tired and I couldn't fight it and I would fall
22:02asleep and I'm time would go by and I'd wake up very groggy hey oh like you're awake we went to the
22:16doctor and this is what happened I accepted all of that she was saying I knew in my heart I thought
22:24that she was doing what was right and she was gonna take care of me right she's my mother she's gonna
22:28take care of me so I didn't ask any more questions about the medication it was really early in the
22:43morning I was getting ready to go to school and I needed to brush my teeth and I had turned the light
22:49on to the bathroom and I looked in the mirror and I had basically no hair and I remember screaming
23:01and Teresa came running into the bathroom and was like what's wrong and I was like oh my hair is gone
23:09what happened where did it go and she had said that oh I told you this was gonna happen
23:17Hannah we talked about this I remember kind of like freezing and feeling like this isn't real like
23:28that I knew that I was gonna lose it but it was like I had figured I would lose it in chunks and I
23:36would been more prepared and like I would have known it was happening and for me to just I went to bed
23:41with a head full of hair and I wake up and now it's just in patches was such a like shock that I
23:48don't I just couldn't understand and it was devastating I just was begging her like I can't I don't want to go
24:00to school you can't make me do this anymore can I stay home please don't make me go there please don't
24:06make me go through this anymore and I don't want people to make fun of me and tell me I look like
24:10a little boy I don't want that so I went to school and I cried the whole way there and when we got there
24:20I walked into my classroom and everybody was staring at me and I remember in that moment thinking I just I
24:30never want to have to come back here again and I knew I was gonna have to relive that feeling every
24:34single day no matter what I said no matter how I reacted no matter how heartbroken devastated emotional
24:42I was it didn't matter all that mattered was what she said and what Teresa said went so I think at that
24:50point honestly I stopped fighting back one thing that honestly kind of bothered me was that we were
25:08going to so many benefits one of the girls I was friends with her dad was a firefighter and they had
25:15like a spaghetti dinner for us and people came and ate and all the money went towards my family and
25:23then I remember going into public places there was always a coffee can with like this awful picture of
25:30me that people could donate to it was like I couldn't escape no matter where I was it was like it was
25:41always right there like haunting me and also as hard as a kid that we're getting all this money but
25:47like nothing is changing and nothing is happening I'm just that people are donating all this money and
25:54I'm just staying sick and that was very confusing for me
26:11I started seeing a therapist for death counseling when it was probably about six or so months into the
26:22illness and Teresa started saying that the end was becoming more like becoming near that I was getting
26:30worse and that death probably wasn't far away and I remember her asking me to draw how it
26:41felt the day that I found out about the tumor or the cancer and what I remember how I was feeling
26:51to see that I was like such sadness like there's so much sadness in this and that I like at such a young
27:03age was so intuitive and remembering how hard and emotional that day was but also so confusing it's tough
27:13ma'am ma'am ma'am she's sick she hit her head my dad had gone straight to the nurse's station was like you need to help her she has leukemia she's very
27:43so this is where she goes for treatments we're not from here just kind of very much so running through everything so quickly so hysterically then they left me in this little room that I was in and they were getting ready to prep me for stitches
27:55and I was crying and I wanted him in there I was yelling at the nurses saying like I don't don't touch me until I have my dad outside of the room you could visibly tell that Teresa and my dad were arguing and I could hear vaguely what they were saying and I remember my dad saying to Teresa they can't find any record of Hannah what's going on
28:22I can't remember every place to be stuck in that moment I don't think I was thinking anything I just remember looking at him and seeing how terrified he was and it scared me she was angry her hands were going her face was getting red and that was when Teresa said I know that she sees certain specialists they can be kind of hard to locate
28:52Hannah was in that Hannah was in that Hannah was in that Hannah was in that Hannah was in an emergency situation she was kind of going around the actual answer and I remember she was very anxious
29:05they don't have a single file on our daughter
29:07what do you do like that
29:08relax
29:09okay
29:10kind of felt like she was just grasping at whatever she could
29:16I think this was the moment that my dad truly realized something was really wrong and he was about to be in a very bad situation
29:25what have you done Hannah
29:28but wasn't sure what he was gonna do or how to handle it or what to say or what to believe
29:33I think at that moment he realized something wasn't right
29:37it seemed to be like everything after that moment was just like chaos it was very soon after that everybody knew the truth
29:58my grandmother had come to pick me up from school
30:16when we had gotten home my dad was anxiously pacing the floor and chain smoking and I had never seen him act like that
30:25hey sweetie
30:28he said
30:30I have to tell you two things
30:32and he was like
30:34and some of them are gonna be hard but some of them are good things
30:37and I was like okay
30:39and he was like so what do you want me to tell you first
30:41and I was like the good things
30:44and he said
30:46well
30:48you're not sick
30:50and I remember being so confused and relieved and happy and sad at the same time
31:00because it was so confusing I didn't what do you mean
31:03you're gonna be okay
31:05but that makes me have to tell you the sad thing and that is
31:09that your mom has done something really bad
31:12and she has lied and she had taken money from people and people are really angry and upset with her
31:21because she told a lie about you and that you are sick when you're not
31:28and she made it all up
31:30and as a child wrapping my mind around that was impossible
31:43and I was so happy that I wasn't going to die
31:47like I couldn't imagine like I was so happy that it wasn't going to end I wasn't going to die
31:52but why did my mom do this to me why did she lie about this and for what
32:05trying to understand the reasoning behind it was just something at that age I could not wrap my brain around
32:10and I just remember really focusing on being happy and like I'm not gonna die I can go back to my normal life
32:18everything's gonna be fine now I was just I'm not dying and that's all I cared about
32:27I wasn't sick anymore
32:29everything was gonna go back to normal and then all of a sudden I'm just ripped away from my family again
32:37the social worker that ended up taking me away from my father that night
32:40she essentially took me to a foster family
32:48I was being taken away from them and there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening
32:54and it was so scary
32:57and I honestly I think I remember it being in that home and thinking waiting for my dad that
33:04you know dying
33:07seemed almost like it would have been the better option at that point because it was like
33:11I knew what heaven was beautiful
33:15this was not
33:16this was like my worst nightmare
33:18it was like I was living
33:20my biggest fear
33:29after a few weeks of being at my foster home
33:32my foster family let me know that both of my parents had been arrested
33:36they didn't say that they were charged with anything they just told me that they were both arrested and put in jail
33:46as far as I know my dad's attorney was wanting me to stand trial and kind of defend my father
33:54but my father decided that I had been through enough that I was too young to stand such a grand trial
34:04I don't think there was anybody really in the community who believed that either one of them was innocent
34:09I think they were grouped together very quickly
34:11as far as the crimes that were committed I feel like Ma Teresa is definitely the one who would be fully responsible and I think that he is innocent in this situation
34:24I feel like Teresa knew that my father wasn't involved and I think she had the opportunity to speak up and say that
34:32but I think that she didn't want to essentially go down for this by herself
34:39it's so easy to believe
34:43on an outside looking in perspective
34:45there's no way he has no idea
34:47and I think she knew that
34:48and I think all along
34:50that was her plan
34:52I think she knew all along
34:54that essentially she wouldn't have to go down by herself
34:57and it wouldn't all be on her
34:59I think that it made it easier for her to do those things
35:01all right I'm gonna need a second on this I'm sorry
35:11all right I'm gonna need a second on this I'm sorry
35:28all right I'm gonna put this over I can't look at it I'm sorry
35:32all right well
35:39looking at that makes me so sad
35:47to think that
35:53how scared he had to have been
35:55and how sad he had to have been
35:58and how sad he had to have been
36:01he didn't do anything wrong
36:03and essentially
36:07he knew
36:09that he was gonna have to spend
36:11the next five years of his life
36:14not watching his daughter grow up
36:17after just finding out that she wasn't gonna die
36:21he was essentially losing her anyways
36:24it breaks my heart for him
36:29I know that was a really hard time for him
36:34and I often you know sometimes I feel
36:39a sense of guilt honestly
36:42to think that
36:44he went essentially went to prison
36:47because he was trying to protect me
36:48and that's the right thing to do you know
36:51he did right by me
36:54and he was just trying to protect me
36:55but sometimes you know
36:57I feel guilty
36:59I wish he wouldn't have done that
37:01I wish he would have
37:03let me have the opportunity to try to save him too
37:05if I had to seriously be honest about her end goal of all of it
37:23and I really think what she was trying to get out of it is
37:25I really truly believe that Teresa was out to kill me
37:29I think I couldn't tell you why
37:33I wish I did
37:35I wish I knew why
37:37it's a question that will forever haunt me
37:39I do think she was willing to sacrifice
37:42my life for anything that was going to make hers better
37:46I think that she wanted everything for herself
37:51everything was always about her
37:52and I think that me as a sacrifice didn't seem like a sacrifice to her
37:58it seemed like the only way to get what she needed
38:02yeah it's heartbreaking
38:05it is the purest form of being evil
38:10like she truly just was an evil person
38:13I don't think it feels fair at all
38:28I think that if I'm going to be completely honest
38:31I think she deserved a much longer sentence
38:35I truly feel like I serve a life sentence
38:39to what she did to me
38:40I fight that battle every day
38:44I fought that battle for a long time
38:47and I probably will for the rest of my life
38:50and for her to only spend six years
38:54I just feel like it's just not it's not fair
38:57it doesn't seem right
38:59and it's kind of scary to think that like she just gets to live a life like nothing ever happened
39:06it's really unfair
39:10my father and I are extremely close
39:16he is my very best friend
39:21I could not have gotten to the point that I am today
39:24without his love, his support, his undying love for me
39:29he has never wavered in who he is
39:32and to this day he is the most amazing father
39:36and even better he is the most amazing grandfather to my babies
39:41I now have a beautiful family, a loving husband
39:46and finding him was something I never thought would happen
39:49and I think my ultimate fear was
39:54could I be a mother?
39:56what was it like to be a mother?
39:57what was it like to be a mother?
39:59I never had one
40:01I didn't know what that looked like
40:03and then I had both of my beautiful children
40:06and never for a second
40:12did I question what it would be like to be a mother
40:16it was so instinctual and I have never felt such love
40:26but I know in my heart
40:29that God gave me the children I have to prove to me that I am capable of so much love
40:34and I am a fantastic mother and a wonderful wife
40:38I have just such a beautiful life
40:42I am so blessed to have the things that I do
40:45and I never thought that I would have this life
40:50you know, little me never thought that we would even make it past six
40:54and now I am creating a life so much further past that and it's just
41:02it's amazing
41:04it's very clear that he has the personality traits to become a serial killer
41:18the man above us just threw the woman over the balcony
41:23she's laying on the ground now she's very bloody
41:25it's heartbreaking
41:27no kid is supposed to watch that happening
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