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00:00:28What?
00:00:41I'm tired.
00:00:46Okay.
00:00:50I'm sick of all the meaningless connections.
00:00:54Well, maybe, if you didn't fuck a new bitch every night, you'd actually take a moment
00:01:05to connect.
00:01:07Are you slut-shaming me right now?
00:01:11Absolutely not.
00:01:13But I know you.
00:01:16Fern, I'm having an existential crisis.
00:01:19Clearly.
00:01:20Why do I always do that?
00:01:24Do what?
00:01:25Lose myself and others.
00:01:28Like I'm 22 and I still don't know what I'm doing.
00:01:31I'm gonna take a kiss and say it's because you're only 22.
00:01:36Do you not see the difference between me and you?
00:01:40You and Rachel are in a healthy relationship.
00:01:42You're committed.
00:01:43You have a house.
00:01:44Me?
00:01:45I dated a girl who I love so much that I freaked the fuck out, screwed it all up, then wanted
00:01:52her back.
00:01:53Just to be at the same spot two years again later.
00:01:55I work at a boutique that I fucking hate waxing vaginas all day.
00:02:06I think that sounds pretty sweet.
00:02:09What am I doing wrong?
00:02:10Parker, you have got to stop comparing us.
00:02:18We are on two separate timelines.
00:02:20We're two different people.
00:02:22I mean, we're in a weird age anyway.
00:02:25I mean, you got some people just going into college.
00:02:29You got some people getting married to have kids.
00:02:33It's gross.
00:02:34I mean, that one guy we knew from AP Bio, I'm thinking about her again.
00:02:48No.
00:02:49I am.
00:02:54You have got to stop this.
00:02:57Every time you get off track, you go back to this, Parker.
00:03:03You are comfortable with her, okay?
00:03:05But you cannot keep going back to that just because.
00:03:09I think I just need to get out of here.
00:03:12Go where?
00:03:14I don't know.
00:03:16Like, Nashville?
00:03:17I just want something meaningful.
00:03:20I guess if it keeps you from doing something idiotic.
00:03:28I want to drive.
00:03:31I mean, we can go for a drive and start a drink.
00:03:34I mean, I want to go somewhere.
00:03:36Like, like a road trip.
00:03:39Why are you looking at me like that?
00:03:41Let's go.
00:03:42Like, like right now?
00:03:44Like right now.
00:03:46Oh my God.
00:03:47Alright.
00:03:48Okay.
00:03:49Yes!
00:03:50Can we go tomorrow?
00:03:51Yeah, that's fine.
00:03:52Hey, Jessica.
00:03:53Um, I don't think that I'm going to be able to make it into work next week.
00:03:59What's that?
00:04:00My grandmother got hospitalized.
00:04:01She, uh, has really bad diarrhea.
00:04:06It won't stop.
00:04:07And they don't know, um, why.
00:04:08Listen.
00:04:09Yeah, Jessica, I gotta go.
00:04:10I'm sorry.
00:04:11My mom is waiting on me.
00:04:12And I'll be in next week.
00:04:13I promise.
00:04:14Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
00:04:16You're gonna go to hell.
00:04:17My grandma's been dead for like three years.
00:04:19And, uh, she, uh, she, uh, has really bad diarrhea.
00:04:23It won't stop.
00:04:25And they don't know, um, why.
00:04:30Listen.
00:04:31Yeah, Jessica, I gotta go.
00:04:33I'm sorry.
00:04:34My mom is waiting on me.
00:04:36And I'll be in next week.
00:04:37I promise.
00:04:38Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
00:04:40You're gonna go to hell.
00:04:42My grandma's been dead for like three years.
00:04:45I should appreciate this while I made you though.
00:04:49Okay.
00:05:15Stay on the phone.
00:05:20We are the monsters.
00:05:25Holding you still.
00:05:30We are the gallows.
00:05:36Up on the hill.
00:05:41Can you pass me the gummy ones?
00:05:52There you go.
00:05:53There you go.
00:05:54You know, when I was a kid and we'd go to the theater with my mom, she'd actually always
00:06:01bring gummies to flip the popcorn.
00:06:03So that's where you got it from?
00:06:05We thought I had original ideas.
00:06:08Aww.
00:06:09She sounds like she'd be fun.
00:06:11She wasn't.
00:06:12She's not really.
00:06:29Parker?
00:06:30I think I caught asthma.
00:06:32I'm tired.
00:06:33We haven't even started walking yet.
00:06:37Shit.
00:06:38Can you believe places like this just exist?
00:06:43We get to look at it with like our eyes.
00:06:48It makes me feel kinda small.
00:06:52But in a good way.
00:06:54In a good way.
00:06:55And it's good.
00:06:56I guess that's better than, you know, like, going the other way around.
00:06:59That's how you mean.
00:07:03It don't matter?
00:07:06Alright.
00:07:07We're gonna stick a pen in that and come back to that later.
00:07:09Enjoy the view.
00:07:10Yeah.
00:07:11I'm glad we did this.
00:07:12It's a good idea.
00:07:13Hmm.
00:07:14I'm starting to think that I needed this too.
00:07:15You know?
00:07:16I don't know.
00:07:17I just feel like every day's starting to blend together and it's just become so monotonous.
00:07:30I think that I needed this too, you know?
00:07:35I don't know.
00:07:36I just feel like every day is starting to blend together
00:07:40and it's just become so monotonous.
00:07:43And like, am I doing something big
00:07:47in the grand scheme of everything?
00:07:48How could you say that?
00:07:51You and Rachel are literally perfect.
00:07:54That's interesting that you think
00:07:56that just because I'm in a relationship with Rachel
00:07:59that my life is squeaky clean and spotless.
00:08:03I just never really thought about it.
00:08:07I mean, don't get me wrong.
00:08:09Rachel's my bitch.
00:08:10I love her.
00:08:12But she doesn't define my whole existence.
00:08:16Even on our best days,
00:08:19I still feel like my existence is infinitesimal.
00:08:25Whoa, big word.
00:08:28Yeah, I know.
00:08:29It's a song.
00:08:30It's a dope-ass song.
00:08:32You should listen to it.
00:08:33So, like, we're supposed to see, like, UFOs?
00:08:41Yeah.
00:08:41So, like, we're supposed to see, like, UFOs?
00:08:55Yeah.
00:08:56So, apparently, when it gets dark,
00:08:59this becomes, like, the darkest place in the country.
00:09:02And then, the UFOs come out.
00:09:04So, like, at nighttime?
00:09:05Yeah, at nighttime.
00:09:08Interesting.
00:09:09Yeah.
00:09:12So, you remember that one time
00:09:15me, you, and Rachel went to Canada
00:09:17and then we all got lost in Toronto?
00:09:21Yeah, you would think that someone from Toronto
00:09:23would know their way around Toronto.
00:09:24Yeah, well, but do you remember how
00:09:30when we were on the plane
00:09:31and, like, all of our phones died
00:09:33and so we just gave up
00:09:34and then we went and got sushi?
00:09:36Dude, best sashimi ever.
00:09:39Oh, no.
00:09:41I guess I just miss doing stuff like that.
00:09:44Well, I kind of feel like
00:09:45that's what we're doing, you know?
00:09:47Sitting out in the woods
00:09:47looking for aliens.
00:09:49Yeah.
00:09:54You do be having a point.
00:09:57Yeah, that's what we're doing.
00:10:01So, what's next?
00:10:03You know, I really haven't thought that far.
00:10:06Well, I'm just following your lead.
00:10:10I'm probably going to need
00:10:11to go back to work sometime, though.
00:10:13Oh, I definitely am getting fired.
00:10:15Fuck capitalism.
00:10:16I don't want to work
00:10:17for modern societies anyways.
00:10:18I want to live in the woods.
00:10:19and scavenge for berries.
00:10:23Alright.
00:10:26Well,
00:10:27why don't we go to Nashville?
00:10:30Really?
00:10:31Yeah, you brought it up.
00:10:33I mean, if we left right now,
00:10:35we could probably get there by the night.
00:10:39Bet.
00:10:39But wait, there is one more thing
00:10:50I want you to see.
00:10:53Halloween!
00:10:53What's it doing, nerd?
00:11:06Just journaling a little.
00:11:09Journaling?
00:11:10Mm-hmm.
00:11:10How was work?
00:11:13Oh, good.
00:11:14You know, I could work.
00:11:15Oh, my dad called me on my break.
00:11:19Yeah?
00:11:20Yeah.
00:11:21He wants to see if we want to go get dinner with him sometime this week.
00:11:26I have no pain.
00:11:27No pain?
00:11:28Good.
00:11:31I think it'll be good.
00:11:33We literally haven't seen him since.
00:11:35He can help us with the move.
00:11:36We'll get a couple drops, too, yeah.
00:11:39Huh?
00:11:40Yeah.
00:11:41You want coffee?
00:11:42Yeah.
00:11:42Be great.
00:11:47Well, you get...
00:11:50Yeah.
00:11:50Okay.
00:12:02How much?
00:12:03I think he's got a bit.
00:12:06So, the aliens come to Earth for this.
00:12:24Uh-huh.
00:12:26And you just put your stuff on the ground, and the aliens will see it.
00:12:33Yeah, so, I mean, you just bring your weird sentimental shit, and then, uh, like, uh, aliens
00:12:44just, like, beamed down and, like, appreciate it a lot.
00:12:49I don't know.
00:12:50That's what the lady at the desk said.
00:12:52So.
00:12:53And it's called an alien junkyard?
00:12:57Yeah.
00:12:57Okay, well, what are you going to put down?
00:13:06Way ahead of you.
00:13:17You, too.
00:13:17That's what you're leaving?
00:13:22Yeah.
00:13:23You don't think you should, like, leave some, like, a picture of you and Rachel?
00:13:27No.
00:13:28The aliens don't want to see a couple of normies.
00:13:30They don't want to see Aubrey Plaza in a questionable Christmas film.
00:13:33What are you going to leave?
00:13:41I don't know.
00:13:45What about that?
00:13:46Oh, hell no.
00:13:47I've had this thing for, like, eight years.
00:13:50Okay.
00:13:50And that's what makes it perfect.
00:13:52It's got your human juice memories all over it.
00:13:55Leave it.
00:13:56All right, well, the aliens better appreciate the fuck out of that.
00:14:09That thing's been the staple of my wardrobe since, like, high school.
00:14:13Hey, we're here to leave our old selves behind.
00:14:18We're here to find who the new us is.
00:14:21The new Parker.
00:14:22Okay, well, will you let me know when you figure that out?
00:14:24Probably not.
00:14:32Why?
00:14:33You look so pretty.
00:14:35Can you help?
00:14:37Yeah.
00:14:48I'm nervous.
00:14:50Why?
00:14:51I feel like your dad hates me now.
00:14:54What?
00:14:55He's always liked you.
00:14:57He's like the only family you have, and I just want to know how much I love you.
00:15:02Can you trust I can make good decisions?
00:15:06But I broke your heart.
00:15:08All right.
00:15:24Today's the day.
00:15:26So do we have anything else on the agenda other than Nashville?
00:15:29No, just wherever we end up.
00:15:30No, just wherever we end up.
00:15:33What is it without Nashville, anyway?
00:15:36I don't know.
00:15:36My parents always said that we would take a family trip there, and we just never went.
00:15:40So, and it kind of stuck with me.
00:15:42Why?
00:15:43We always went on a cruise or to Disney World.
00:15:47I don't know.
00:15:48I guess it was just never really important to them to go to Nashville.
00:15:51But it was to you.
00:15:52Yeah.
00:15:53I always thought of it kind of like a magical place, you know, but in a cool, rustic cowboy
00:15:58way.
00:15:58Plus, I always wanted to get one of those cute little guitar keychains.
00:16:02Hmm.
00:16:03My parents just always ship me off to my grandparents.
00:16:06And they lived in a really tiny town, so, I mean, it was an adventure in its own.
00:16:10You know, just with a lot of cornfields and, you know, fast food restaurants.
00:16:15See, but I wish I had that.
00:16:18You wish you never went on a cruise?
00:16:20No, not like that.
00:16:21I mean, like, I wish my parents cared more about what I wanted.
00:16:28How can I put this nicely in your house?
00:16:33You, my friend, need a reality check.
00:16:36What do you mean?
00:16:38So, why did you wake up with Ellie?
00:16:41Again?
00:16:43Like, in high school?
00:16:44Yeah.
00:16:46I didn't know what I wanted.
00:16:48But now, all of a sudden, you know what you want?
00:16:53I mean, so let me get this straight.
00:16:57You broke up with her.
00:16:58Because you didn't want to be with her.
00:17:00But then you did want to be with her.
00:17:01Then two years later, when she got upset because you didn't treat her the way you said you were going to treat her.
00:17:07Now, all of a sudden, you went back.
00:17:10You know it's not so cut and dry.
00:17:13I'm just playing devil's advocate.
00:17:15I was 17.
00:17:16I thought I needed to drink all the time and smoke weed and just create this, like, tornado of emotion just to feel something.
00:17:23You know?
00:17:24There it is.
00:17:25The contradiction.
00:17:27The contradiction.
00:17:28You love to sabotage yourself.
00:17:30You have to have the main character energy and you have to have all the problems.
00:17:34That's not true.
00:17:36No, that's kind of true.
00:17:38She's important to me, Fern.
00:17:40I know she is.
00:17:41If there's ever a chance in hell that you are going to get her back, you've got to have better coping mechanisms.
00:17:48You've got to learn.
00:17:49You've got to grow.
00:17:51They're not going to be good for her unless they're good for you.
00:17:55No.
00:17:55You want another drink?
00:18:00I think I'm okay.
00:18:01Okay.
00:18:02You think he likes me?
00:18:13You think he likes me?
00:18:28It's hard.
00:18:30You've never not liked Peter.
00:18:32I don't like him.
00:18:32I wouldn't like me.
00:18:37Whatever.
00:18:38Why do you do that?
00:18:40Do what?
00:18:41Why do you need other people's validation?
00:18:44He's your dad, Ellie.
00:18:45But I love you.
00:18:46Can that not be enough?
00:18:51Why can't you forgive yourself?
00:18:56Because I always love you.
00:19:00Why can't you forgive yourself?
00:19:05Because I always love you.
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00:20:05I'll get my shoes.
00:20:35I'm gonna puke.
00:20:48Are you ready for it?
00:20:51Why do I feel like I'm about to have a pulmonary embolism?
00:20:54You know, that is how I felt the first time I ever saw Red Velvet's music video for Psycho.
00:21:03I'd make a bunny my wife and we'd rob this whole town.
00:21:09Maybe take all that money, get a boat and sail down, down where the blue, blue waters flow.
00:21:21Yes, this is a place I would go.
00:21:27We might get ourselves lost, we may never be found.
00:21:33If ever that day comes around.
00:21:39Dude, that sucked.
00:21:47I wasn't gonna say anything unless you did.
00:21:51I don't know why I thought a city full of drunken tourists, vomit filled streets, and cheapo guitar souvenirs would be so life altering.
00:21:59It's almost like you build things up in your head to be bigger than they actually are.
00:22:08You have all these unrealistic expectations.
00:22:10I don't need a lecture.
00:22:14I just think life is about the little things.
00:22:22The stuff you didn't plan.
00:22:24No, you're right.
00:22:26I like these fries.
00:22:30I'm gonna remember these fries for the rest of my life.
00:22:36I have an idea.
00:23:04Break into the pool.
00:23:06What?
00:23:08For the bucket list.
00:23:10I want to break into the pool at night.
00:23:14Okay.
00:23:18Cool.
00:23:24We should get started.
00:23:26Now.
00:23:28You know it still hurts a little bit, but not that much.
00:23:34Cause if you want somebody else, who am I to judge?
00:23:38I've been thinking about you all the time, but that's alright.
00:23:44I'm starting to get used to it.
00:23:46Think I'll survive.
00:23:48I met you in the summer.
00:23:50When you left, it was cold.
00:23:52Said we loved one another.
00:23:54Guess that we were wrong.
00:23:56I met you in the summer.
00:23:58My love was out of control.
00:24:00I've been going crazy without you.
00:24:02I'm so alone.
00:24:04I met you in the summer.
00:24:06I met you in the summer.
00:24:08I met you in the summer.
00:24:26It's kind of quiet in my room right now, without you
00:24:32And I couldn't really make you stay, so what to do?
00:24:38I'm just staring at my walls and talking to myself
00:24:41Now and then I'll try to laugh, but I'll cry a bit as well
00:24:44I was never any good at being away from you
00:24:47I met you in the summer
00:24:49When you left, it was cold
00:24:52Said we loved one another
00:24:54Guess that we were all alone
00:24:57I met you in the summer
00:24:59Our love was out of control
00:25:02I've been going crazy without you
00:25:05For so long
00:25:07I met you in the night
00:25:09I met you in the night
00:25:19I met you in the summer
00:25:29I met you in the night
00:25:29You know it still hurts a little bit, but not that much
00:25:42Cause if you want somebody else, who am I to touch?
00:26:09Time to shut it down.
00:26:11Time to shut it down.
00:26:12Shut it down.
00:26:13Shut it down.
00:26:42Shut it down.
00:26:43Shut it down.
00:26:44Shut it down.
00:26:45Shut it down.
00:26:47Shut it down.
00:26:48I love it.
00:26:49I love it when you play.
00:27:09I know.
00:27:12So where'd you learn how to play?
00:27:15My dad, actually.
00:27:17Yeah, he taught me.
00:27:19But he only learned to impress my mom.
00:27:22Really?
00:27:23Mm-hmm.
00:27:23I remember that.
00:27:25There's a lot you don't know about me.
00:27:27Oh, yeah?
00:27:28Yeah.
00:27:28Tell me one thing I don't know about you.
00:27:30Oh, God.
00:27:35Okay, when I was a kid and I would catch fireflies, I would make wishes on them.
00:27:44Really?
00:27:45Mm-hmm.
00:27:46That's probably the cutest thing I've ever heard.
00:27:49Um, I mean, that was one good thing about my mom.
00:27:53I feel like she always had her head in the clouds and believed that life was, like, made of magic.
00:28:02It's actually really instilled that in me.
00:28:03Yeah, but that does kind of sound like you.
00:28:08I mean, yeah.
00:28:09I kind of hate it, though, because she was always wanting to live this, like, bigger-than-life reality.
00:28:15And one day, she just decided that me and my dad were not part of that dream anymore.
00:28:23It wasn't enough, so, yeah.
00:28:26I mean, you were just a kid.
00:28:29And I don't think it had anything to do with you not being enough.
00:28:36Plus, your heart is nothing like hers, anyways.
00:28:39I just don't want to hurt someone, the way she heard me, though.
00:28:48Plus, I feel like a five-year-old wanting to play pretend all the time is probably a lot to handle.
00:28:56Plus, you know what, I don't think she's even wanting kids, anyway.
00:29:13I don't think she's even wanting kids, anyway.
00:29:43Plus, you know what, I don't think it's frustrating.
00:29:53Where are we going?
00:29:55You'll see.
00:29:58Are you going to kill me?
00:30:01Allie, you're not supposed to know.
00:30:02Be quiet.
00:30:04Are you choosing a way by knife or another weapon?
00:30:07What would be more Villanelle of me?
00:30:10She'd probably have some really elaborate scheme and then corner me in an alleyway and parents or something.
00:30:17Mine would be better.
00:30:31This is sweet.
00:30:33You're sweet.
00:30:40Oh, so my friend Mikayla is coming in from out of town next weekend and there's this party that I think we're going to do.
00:31:06But we went out last weekend.
00:31:08I know, but I want to go, like, out, out.
00:31:12Just going out with me just to, like, knock out?
00:31:15You know I don't mean it like that.
00:31:19I guess I'll just... I'll stay home alone again.
00:31:38Parker!
00:31:42What about you?
00:31:45I have found the best use of our word for the most uncomfortable situation.
00:31:51Long!
00:31:52What happened?
00:31:54Well, I'm glad you asked.
00:31:56There I am in the woods trying to take a fat piss and a fly goes right in my face.
00:32:03That's not the best part.
00:32:06Because I didn't see it.
00:32:07I fell right back into my piss.
00:32:10It's not funny.
00:32:12It's kind of funny.
00:32:14Kind of not funny.
00:32:15Kind of very funny.
00:32:17Get in the car.
00:32:18Get in the car.
00:32:19We're going.
00:32:20I don't know.
00:32:21What?
00:32:22No.
00:32:23I don't know.
00:32:24What?
00:32:26I got you something what is that for
00:32:53just because
00:33:12Ellie I'm sorry
00:33:14you're doing
00:33:16doing what you're pulling away
00:33:20Ellie
00:33:21no
00:33:23it's not like that
00:33:25you know you promised me on New Year's that you wouldn't do this
00:33:29because of some confusion you have about yourself
00:33:31and what you want
00:33:32Ellie we just
00:33:35we just went
00:33:36on a picnic
00:33:38to dinner with your dad
00:33:41what am I not
00:33:43allowed to have a few drinks
00:33:45after work leave the house
00:33:47am I not allowed to
00:33:48no you can leave the house
00:33:51but when you came back to me
00:33:54we promised that our relationship would not be like this anymore
00:33:59that's not what's happening
00:34:01and then what is happening
00:34:03I don't know
00:34:05you never do
00:34:09but I don't
00:34:11I don't know
00:34:13I don't want to know
00:34:14what living in a world without you is like
00:34:15and I feel like I'm hurting you
00:34:19and stop pulling away
00:34:22it hurts me when you do that
00:34:25we're happy with you
00:34:27we're good
00:34:27yeah we're good
00:34:29we're good
00:34:30we're good
00:34:57Can we get a cap?
00:35:24For the sixth time?
00:35:26No.
00:35:27Oh, because they stink.
00:35:30They're stinky.
00:35:32You want to clean the litter box?
00:35:36Hold on.
00:35:37Oh my god.
00:35:37Hold on.
00:35:38I'm so late.
00:35:39Oh, that's probably Rachel.
00:35:45It's my mom.
00:35:52Are you sure this is a good idea?
00:35:54Don't be a fucking pussy.
00:35:55I'm not a fucking pussy.
00:35:56I'm gonna get caught.
00:35:59Oh
00:36:29Let's go!
00:36:31My butt!
00:36:33Go! Go! Go!
00:36:35What are we gonna do now?
00:36:37We're out in our bathing suits.
00:36:39Wanna go to the beach?
00:36:41What beach?
00:36:45Pinsicola?
00:36:47Yeah.
00:36:49I guess? Yeah. Okay. Cool.
00:36:51Okay. Okay.
00:36:59My butt!
00:37:01My butt!
00:37:03My butt!
00:37:05My butt!
00:37:07Without my love for the ocean
00:37:11I would be long gone by now
00:37:17It's some kind of devotion
00:37:23that brings me down
00:37:27That without my love for the ocean
00:37:31That without my love for the ocean
00:37:35I would be no one
00:37:39No one
00:37:41No one
00:37:43La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
00:38:13I got there, and he was fine.
00:38:18I'm so sorry.
00:38:23My mom was there, and she was acting like it was the end of her world.
00:38:28Like she never left.
00:38:30Like she even cared.
00:38:32Ever.
00:38:36I know.
00:38:37It's so complex.
00:38:39She didn't deserve to see him at all.
00:38:46I deserve to see him.
00:38:47Elle.
00:38:48Don't tell me.
00:38:50She's your mom.
00:38:52I don't care.
00:38:55Elle.
00:38:58What can I do?
00:39:01Nothing.
00:39:03Elle.
00:39:06He's my dad.
00:39:08He was the only one that was ever there for me.
00:39:10He was the only one who never left.
00:39:14I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to even do now.
00:39:18I'm so sorry.
00:39:21Don't be.
00:39:23Okay, but like, I'm here.
00:39:27Whatever you need.
00:39:28Whatever you need.
00:39:34Are you?
00:39:37What does that even mean?
00:39:40I'm sorry, Parker.
00:39:42I just, I just don't know how to process it.
00:39:47I get it.
00:39:50Nobody should be projecting that onto you.
00:39:52I shouldn't be doing that.
00:39:53I'm sorry.
00:39:55I kind of deserve it.
00:39:57No, you don't.
00:39:58Ellie.
00:40:01Let's be honest.
00:40:03I'm not the most reliable person that's in your life.
00:40:11I feel like I wreak havoc on you, your life, your stability.
00:40:19I feel like I leave you constantly wondering when the next time I'm going to have a big breakdown.
00:40:27This isn't about me.
00:40:38This is about you.
00:40:42You just lost your dad.
00:40:43I just can't believe he's gone.
00:40:56He was so good last time.
00:41:13We'll be back soon.
00:41:26I don't know, but I still miss her.
00:41:29Yeah, I feel that.
00:41:32Who do you miss?
00:41:38Your mom.
00:41:39Yeah, I bet you do miss my mom.
00:41:42No, really, I do.
00:41:46You know, reiterate, let's just go back.
00:41:48Why are we here again?
00:41:50Like, on the trip?
00:41:52Yeah, yeah, on this trip.
00:41:56Because we wanted to do something exciting, get away, something to distract ourselves from
00:42:07this mundane capitalist environment.
00:42:11And, and, I'm trying to get over Ellie.
00:42:23Ding, ding, ding, ding.
00:42:25We have a winner.
00:42:27One moment, please.
00:42:32Blind as a bat.
00:42:33All right, so I'm going to role play as your therapist, Gigi, not to be confused with Gigi
00:42:40from the L word, but in Gigi forever.
00:42:42So, first question, why do you think it is so hard for you to let go?
00:42:50What keeps you holding on?
00:42:52She's the love of my life.
00:42:57And why do you think that?
00:43:00Because I always go back to her, I mean, time and time again.
00:43:05Do you not think that maybe you're just comfortable in the environment you created with her?
00:43:16Like, do you really think that, like, out of 7 billion people in this whole world, there's
00:43:22not one other person that you might love?
00:43:26Not like Ellie.
00:43:27A rollercoaster of emotion is not love.
00:43:36It was love.
00:43:40It's the purest love I think I've ever experienced.
00:43:44Well, sometimes love isn't enough then.
00:43:49Not to be healthy, at least.
00:43:52Why can't I just make it fucking work?
00:43:54Like, I feel like Taylor Swift.
00:43:56I miss screaming, fighting, kissing in the rain.
00:44:00I don't want to be boring and comfortable.
00:44:03I understand that it must be really hard to even think and fathom that there might just
00:44:12be a life after Ellie.
00:44:16But life is bendable.
00:44:18It's changeable.
00:44:19Like, you, we are meant to heal.
00:44:22You, you could finally love someone the way that you deserve to.
00:44:32I just wanted it to be her.
00:44:35I know it's her.
00:44:38She's my person.
00:44:39I hope you're right.
00:44:48Okay, so, um, Missy just called me and I need to get to the theater home because she doesn't
00:44:53fucking know how to do anything her stuff, so I have to get ready when I get there.
00:44:58So, can you just, like, you just need me to get in?
00:45:01Yeah.
00:45:02Go on.
00:45:04I love you.
00:45:05I love it when Ellie drinks all my oat milk.
00:45:30I love it when I get to the theater home and I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:35I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:35I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:36I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:37I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:38I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:39I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:40I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:41I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:42I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:43I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:44I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:45I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:47I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:49I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:50I love it when I get to the theater home.
00:45:51Fuck!
00:46:18Hello?
00:46:19Ellie?
00:46:20Yeah, what's wrong?
00:46:21My fucking tire popped.
00:46:22I had to pull off the side of the freeway into some random parking lot.
00:46:26What do you mean?
00:46:28I mean it's completely deflated.
00:46:31You had to go get milk?
00:46:35Yeah, I just needed the distraction.
00:46:37Have you called a tow truck?
00:46:40I can call one, but odds are it'll probably take a few hours.
00:46:44The funeral's in an hour, Parker.
00:46:46I know.
00:46:47I could try calling Fern and see if people can-
00:46:48I have to go.
00:46:49Just get here.
00:46:54Son of a bitch.
00:46:55Ellie, I am so sorry.
00:46:56I went to the storey and milk for the coffee, and then I was going to go straight to the funeral home.
00:47:01But then my tower popped and I called the tow truck company, but they said that they couldn't be there until 1.30, and I didn't know what else to do.
00:47:07I didn't do it on purpose.
00:47:08You missed my dad's funeral home.
00:47:09I know.
00:47:10And I'm so sorry.
00:47:11But it's not my fault.
00:47:12Why didn't you think to just stay home?
00:47:13Why didn't you think to just stay home?
00:47:14All right.
00:47:15I know.
00:47:16And I'm so sorry.
00:47:17But it's not my fault.
00:47:19Ellie.
00:47:20Why didn't you think to just stay home?
00:47:21All right.
00:47:22Do you ever think about what's going on around you?
00:47:26Ellie.
00:47:27I don't know.
00:47:28I don't know what else to do.
00:47:29I didn't know what else to do.
00:47:30I didn't do it on purpose.
00:47:31You missed my dad's funeral home.
00:47:32I know.
00:47:33And I'm so sorry.
00:47:34But it's not my fault.
00:47:35Why didn't you think to just stay home?
00:47:40All right.
00:47:41Do you ever think about what's going on around you?
00:47:47Ellie.
00:47:48This isn't your fucking world, Parker.
00:47:51Do you ever think, hey, maybe I should just stay home?
00:47:54Because Ellie's dad just died.
00:47:56My tire would have popped on the way to the funeral anyways.
00:47:59That's very convenient.
00:48:01Oh, do not pin this on me.
00:48:03I wanted to be there for you.
00:48:05Then you're a lot of talk.
00:48:07What the fuck is your problem?
00:48:09My problem?
00:48:11Parker, you need to figure out if I am good enough for you.
00:48:15If you ever care to give me a scrap of attention.
00:48:18All I do is give you my attention.
00:48:22All you do is worry about Parker.
00:48:30Oh, fuck that, Ellie.
00:48:32Would your mom do this?
00:48:39What is that?
00:48:45It's a stupid scrapbook that I made for our one year anniversary after getting back together.
00:48:51But it doesn't even fucking matter anymore now, does it?
00:48:53Because I'm so unpredictable, just like your mom.
00:48:56No.
00:48:57No.
00:48:58No, actually you're really predictable.
00:48:59We always end because you always leave.
00:49:01Ellie.
00:49:02Ellie!
00:49:03Ellie, don't go!
00:49:05I have to.
00:49:06I'm gonna...
00:49:07go to my dad's beach house and then see the work.
00:49:08You can't leave me like this.
00:49:09You always left me like this Parker.
00:49:10You're the love of my life.
00:49:11I'm gonna go to my dad's beach house and then see the work.
00:49:12You can't leave me like this.
00:49:14You always left me like this Parker.
00:49:18Ellie, don't go!
00:49:20I have to.
00:49:22I'm gonna go to my dad's beach house in Pennsylvania.
00:49:26You can't leave me like this.
00:49:28You always left me like this, Parker.
00:49:32You're the love of my life.
00:49:38This isn't about us anymore.
00:49:40I need to find me.
00:49:42I need to find who Ellie is again.
00:49:44It's not you, it's me, Frank.
00:49:46It's you too!
00:49:48You desperately need to grow
00:49:50and find who you want to be and who Parker is.
00:49:54I don't think there can be an us anymore.
00:49:56I don't want to be here without you.
00:50:00I can't ruin myself for you anymore.
00:50:04And you can't either.
00:50:12I don't want you to go.
00:50:14I know.
00:50:36Fern!
00:50:40Fern!
00:50:42Yeah, you can be there by 7.
00:50:44I mean, you know it's gonna be late anyways.
00:50:46I mean, that's how it usually goes.
00:50:48Yeah.
00:50:52Parker just woke up.
00:50:54Hey, I'll see you when I see you.
00:50:56Okay.
00:50:58Love you. Bye.
00:51:00Hey!
00:51:02What are you doing?
00:51:04Rachel's gonna pick me up from the airport.
00:51:06What?
00:51:08Why?
00:51:10Something wrong?
00:51:12Nothing.
00:51:14I'm just not stupid.
00:51:16I'm confused.
00:51:18Why are we in Pensacola?
00:51:20Because we wanted to go to the beach.
00:51:22Why are we in Pensacola, Parker?
00:51:34Look, Fern, I was gonna tell you.
00:51:36Yeah, I know where Ellie lives.
00:51:38I really tried to give you the benefit of the doubt, but you are just the same old Parker.
00:51:48Those, those weren't my intentions.
00:51:52So you didn't mean to take me on a trip that I thought was us bonding and having all these crazy awesome life experiences together only so that you can just weasel your way in to go see Ellie.
00:52:07That's not what happened.
00:52:08Well, I'm glad I could be a pawn in your game. So, it's cool.
00:52:18I mean, I wanted to see Ellie, but it became something more along the way. Halfway through I even forgot why I started the trip.
00:52:30Parker, you are my best friend. But for the love of God, you are so manipulative. Anything you want, you get.
00:52:44Come on. Don't ruin the trip.
00:52:49You already ruined it.
00:52:51I'm sorry. I needed to see her. I needed to win her back.
00:52:56You are so worried about making sure everybody loves you that you end up treating the people who actually do love you like shit.
00:53:09I'm just confused, Fern. I can't do anything right.
00:53:14No one said you had to have it all figured out, but you just dragged everyone into your shit.
00:53:20You know what? You can call me when you've decided to be the Parker that I know you are.
00:53:29I won't be waiting for the call though.
00:53:31No one said you call me tonight.
00:53:34No one said you were okay.
00:53:35Honey, honey, so are you on your back to the night?
00:53:36Wait, kind of?
00:53:37I've made some noise for you to go get all out for your help.
00:53:40I'm keeping that locked down.
00:53:42What was going on at the right time and for sure like looking for anything?
00:53:44I think I could live for anyone fun out.
00:53:46No one said you was good enough.
00:53:47You were roasting your mother.
00:53:49Never��.
00:53:52Only a doctor and wait on here.
00:53:54And he wanted to live through the video.
00:53:56I think I want to kind of last night and remember what I want.
00:53:59Hi, Mark.
00:54:23Hi.
00:54:29So, how are you?
00:54:33What are you doing in Pensacola?
00:54:35Oh, I'm good.
00:54:37I was just passing through the area.
00:54:39I figured I'd shoot you a message.
00:54:41I remember that you said that you were going to your dad's beach house in Pensacola.
00:54:45So, I thought it was worth a shot.
00:54:48Oh, yeah.
00:54:49I mean, moving here is probably one of the best decisions I've made in a while.
00:54:54I can imagine.
00:54:56Probably much better than home.
00:54:58How is home?
00:55:00Uh, humid.
00:55:01Kind of boring.
00:55:02The usual.
00:55:04I miss it a little.
00:55:07Well, you know, if you're ever in town, you can stay with me.
00:55:12Thanks, Mark.
00:55:13Yeah.
00:55:15It's probably not a good idea, but I appreciate the offer.
00:55:19Yeah, I mean, I just, I figured I'd at least offer.
00:55:24How's Fern?
00:55:25She's good.
00:55:26Um, yeah, she's good.
00:55:28Rachel?
00:55:29She's good, too.
00:55:30They actually just got engaged and then bought a house, but I'm sure you already knew about
00:55:35all that.
00:55:36I do still talk to Rachel sometimes.
00:55:38That's good.
00:55:39You guys ever talk about me?
00:55:41No.
00:55:42Definitely not.
00:55:43Oh.
00:55:44Well, I mean, that's good.
00:55:47Our ending shouldn't mean, you know, an ending for you guys, too.
00:55:50It doesn't.
00:55:51So, there's this music shop I saw, um, over off of the pier.
00:56:00Figured if you don't have any plans later, maybe we could swing by.
00:56:04Um, I, I'm getting dinner with my friends tonight, actually.
00:56:09Well, I mean, that's okay.
00:56:11It was last minute anyways, but where are you guys going?
00:56:14Just this little Italian restaurant downtown.
00:56:17We, we go, like, every Friday, so.
00:56:20Yeah.
00:56:28Why am I here?
00:56:30Sorry.
00:56:33I just, I needed to see you.
00:56:38It's been years.
00:56:39What do you need to see me for?
00:56:42I just still don't understand why things ended, you know?
00:56:45Like, you're my person.
00:56:46And I can't, I just can't stop thinking about the night you left.
00:56:53I'm not your person, Park.
00:56:55Not anymore, at least.
00:56:58But you said it yourself.
00:57:00We're soulmates.
00:57:02You said soulmates have to be forever, Park.
00:57:05Because then what's the point?
00:57:06The point is that we taught each other lessons and how to love and treat someone with dignity and live up to your words, you know?
00:57:16You're right.
00:57:17I just, I know you're the person I'm going to end up with.
00:57:27Maybe in another universe, we were together forever, but I just don't think we're living in that universe anymore.
00:57:35Why is it so hard for me to get over you, but for you it's so easy?
00:57:43It wasn't easy.
00:57:44I spent months mourning you and I and the person I was when I was with you.
00:57:52And trying to figure out how I was going to live life without you in it.
00:57:56And I lost my best friend.
00:57:59And, you know, part of me hoped that we would cross paths again and just fall into each other's arms and everything would be like it used to, but that's just not life.
00:58:10Who said?
00:58:12Parker.
00:58:14Why can't we just have like a fairytale ending where we always end up together?
00:58:19Because this isn't a movie, you know? We're real people, this is real life, and I just don't think we can exist together without hurting each other over and over and over again.
00:58:33God, I must sound insane.
00:58:35No, I just don't think you take it well when things don't go your way.
00:58:47I love you.
00:58:52I think I should go.
00:58:54I'm sorry.
00:58:55You know, I wish you the best of you. I wish it.
00:58:57I wish it...
00:59:02I wish it would.
00:59:03I wish it would.
00:59:11I'm sorry.
00:59:14Please, don't leave.
00:59:16Parker, it's time to move on.
00:59:17move on. You have a whole life ahead of you that is not involved in you. A life that's
00:59:24beautiful and flawless. You and I were a mess of memories, and I cherish all of them. But
00:59:34you will always be one of my favorite loves, okay?
00:59:47I'm sorry, it doesn't change anything.
01:00:17This is for you, partner.
01:00:34I'm sorry.
01:00:49I'm sorry.
01:00:56I'm sorry.
01:01:01I'm sorry.
01:01:06I'm sorry.
01:01:12I'm sorry.
01:01:25I'm sorry.
01:01:29I'm sorry.
01:01:35I'm sorry.
01:01:37I'm sorry.