Diary of a Junior Doctor Season 1 Episode 3

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00:00I've had to come to terms with the fact that I'm completely throwing myself in

00:13the deep end. There's no better place to work than in the trenches at Middlemore

00:18Hospital. What have we got coming in? It's a beautiful place to be but also

00:24like quite a terrifying place to be. There's life and death every day.

00:29It's too soon to be answering that question, okay? You're getting a contraction? Go for it. Go, go, go, go, go, go, go.

00:35Five, four. Stop, stop, stop, stop. It feels a bit daunting. It feels quite scary actually.

00:43Are we happy on dosage? Um. Time is of the essence and it matters so you have to come up with something

00:49now. You have to think on your feet. Just breathe, just breathe, just breathe. That's really scary to

00:57me and so it should be because it's massive remains of responsibility. There's no room for any mistakes.

01:03I need the CPR to be faster please. Stand up, stand up. You are having a stroke right now. We needed to

01:13resuscitate you. Oh my god. You do become obsessed with getting it right all the time.

01:17That's what I feel like burnout feels like. What enables you to keep doing such an unusual

01:35job is not always the passion of medicine, it's actually the people behind you. Go, go, go,

01:41go, go, go, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it.

01:55I can be a medicine, I can be a medicine

02:00Throughout medical school I've just been wearing like hoop earrings

02:10I like the idea of having like a signature look

02:13I prefer to look more approachable than professional

02:17I just hope that I kind of feel a bit more comfortable being a doctor

02:21Things will move very quick

02:23You got that? You alright?

02:24Yeah

02:25Would you tell me if you weren't alright?

02:27Yeah

02:28I'm a bit teary, it was a bit of a long day

02:31Like feeling a bit overwhelmed

02:37At the beginning it was a bit of a rough adjustment period

02:40But I think after that first few weeks it got a lot better

02:43And I felt more comfortable

02:45Good morning

02:46Morning

02:47How was your weekend?

02:48When you feel that you can offer something

02:52Like you're kind of actually contributing to the team

02:55It feels very rewarding

02:57So I actually enjoy, like I don't really mind at the moment

03:00Like staying late and doing these things

03:02Because I'm enjoying it at the moment

03:04Which I thought was quite odd at first I was like

03:07Oh like I don't want to work

03:09So, so much effort

03:11And like especially as a student

03:13Like oh I have placement tomorrow

03:15Like kind of that was some of my thoughts

03:17Like oh I can't be bothered

03:18Like can I just skip?

03:20That was a hot take

03:22What's that?

03:23It's a hot

03:24Have you heard of what a hot take is?

03:26No, please explain

03:27It's like someone says a comment

03:29And it's like an interesting perspective

03:31And you're like oh that's a hot take

03:33Right

03:34Clearly they're too old

03:35Is it a Gen Z thing?

03:37Yeah I think it's a Gen Z

03:38Is it a Gen Z thing?

03:39Remind me

03:40I'm actually on the cusp

03:41I'm like half millennial, half Gen Z

03:44If anyone cares

03:46Huh?

03:47So what?

03:48Don't worry

03:49Vascular Health Officer Shadi's

03:50It's a bit of wanting to be confident

03:53And to be able to provide

03:55Like the best healthcare possible for the patients

03:57But also for them to be like oh yeah like

03:59I really like seeing her

04:00Or I really like that she's my doctor

04:02You look nice

04:03Thank you

04:04How are you doing?

04:05I'm doing good

04:06I saw you moseying around

04:09Yeah

04:10Yeah

04:11And then with the physio you did the exercises

04:12Yes

04:13Oh okay

04:14How did they see you were going in terms of

04:16Oh they're really happy

04:17You're progressing

04:18Because every time I've

04:19Every time they've taken me to do something

04:21I've said I can't do it

04:23Yeah

04:24And then I've done it

04:25And then you've done it

04:26Yeah

04:27Okay so it's kind of like getting over that

04:28It's just that bit of fear in here

04:29Yeah

04:30You know

04:31I'm scared of falling

04:32I've always been scared of falling

04:33Yeah

04:34So yeah I don't want to fall

04:36So yeah I'm trying

04:37So I have to be

04:38Build up all these muscles

04:39Yeah you need to

04:40Because this is what you're going to rely on now

04:41Yeah

04:42So that's really good

04:43I'm glad you're here

04:44Yeah

04:45Okay

04:46Awesome

04:47Sweet I'll see you later

04:48Thank you

04:49See you later

04:50Thanks

04:51You get a lot of gratification from helping with the patients

04:52And since I'm really enjoying what I'm doing I feel like quite energized actually

04:56Shani Veskula house officer

04:57Yeah

04:58Yeah

04:59Bye

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05:25I get this call saying that I had multiple complaints about my outfit and that we want

05:53our doctors to what they wear to inspire confidence in their ability to practice and just think

06:01about what you would wear if you were in front of a judge.

06:04Well I didn't think it was a crop top, I didn't think that it was inappropriate.

06:09I don't know for me I just felt like it was just my normal what I would wear, I wore it

06:14a lot during med school.

06:18Do you think the response was warranted?

06:20Mmm, I think it was a bit overkill so they had like, yeah it sounds like an overkill.

06:26I didn't really, like in that moment I was just like I can't believe that I'm like, it feels

06:31like I'm in school and I'm being told off, it could be a generational thing but it could

06:37be.

06:38I remember what you were wearing.

06:39It was fine.

06:40It was fine.

06:41What does professionalism look like?

06:48There's been a record number of emergency patients through the doors of Middlemore Hospital.

07:03Just last week the South Auckland ED had its busiest day ever treating almost 500 people.

07:09Give it to Mum.

07:10Give it to Mum now.

07:11It's not the only one.

07:12Ta, ta, ta.

07:14That's the end of that.

07:16There's so many things that need to line up for you to be a mum and a hospital physician.

07:22Now have a listen to your chest.

07:25People ask me what I do in the day to day so I'll say everything that's not likely to need

07:31surgery.

07:32Soon I have to sit the most important exam of my career.

07:38Being at Middlemore it's really busy and you see everything.

07:42It's a learning experience.

07:44We're well above capacity in terms of patients on the wards, in the emergency department and

07:53in MAU where we normally are and out in the waiting room.

07:59I think the capacity is 140 and there will be at least greater than 200 patients at the

08:06moment.

08:07Sometimes I've gone to see patients in the waiting room that have been waiting 11-12

08:12hours.

08:13It's not good.

08:14It's dire.

08:15But it's not unusual.

08:17This has become the norm.

08:23Linda?

08:24Linda?

08:25So busy today eh?

08:29Thank you for waiting.

08:31So you've had a headache, is that right?

08:33Okay.

08:34So I've been one.

08:35Oh no.

08:36When did it start?

08:37It started on Friday.

08:38Okay and we are now Tuesday.

08:41And is it a throbbing pain at the front?

08:43Yeah it's like everywhere.

08:45Okay.

08:46And what were you doing when it first started?

08:48Just relaxing.

08:49And then any like problems looking into the light or you've wanted to be in a dark room?

08:55Yeah um for the last couple of days I've been in a dark room.

08:59And then any like tearing in your eyes?

09:01Like your eyes tear up or?

09:03Yeah they do and then like yesterday this eye was like so fat.

09:07Okay.

09:08Alright.

09:09I'm seeing a few little changes at the back of your eye that are suspicious for the blood pressure problems in the brain.

09:19Because it's a vein problem the veins can sometimes get blocked.

09:23So as soon as a bed becomes available we'll get you through okay?

09:26Alright.

09:27We'll come back out this way.

09:29Sorry.

09:30Alright.

09:31No spare beds anywhere for her eye.

09:33She's in front of a couple.

09:34Okay.

09:35So yeah you go out and then as soon as a bed becomes available someone will yell out your

09:38name?

09:39Yeah.

09:40Okay.

09:41Yeah sorry.

09:42They're piling up in the waiting room.

09:43Ambulatory is full and corridors are full so.

09:50I'm so sorry of seeing you in the corridor.

09:52I'm worried about this one.

09:54Yeah here this one.

09:55Okay let's have a feel eh?

09:57I think we do some thyroid function tests tomorrow.

10:08I stay here?

10:09Yeah.

10:12Alright.

10:13It's really hard for patients that nobody wants to be treated in a hospital in a corridor

10:18and stay the night there and sleep the night in the corridor amongst other people in the corridor.

10:25It's so busy.

10:26There's so many people to be seen and there's just not enough space for everybody.

10:31Okay.

10:32This lady was supposed to be getting a bed around here from the waiting room.

10:43She's been in the waiting room for like seven hours and I've already seen her told them to

10:48send her in but now it's looking like she's not on the system anymore.

10:51I just hope she hasn't self discharged.

10:56Oh no.

10:57It looks like our one from the waiting room might have left.

11:01She's just at super high risk for lots of things.

11:14Worst case scenario anything can happen.

11:16You can have problems with heart attacks, you can have problems with strokes.

11:20It's actually really dangerous.

11:23These are people's lives and so you just have to do what you can do.

11:31Call them.

11:32Call them again.

11:33Linda?

11:34Linda?

11:35Linda?

11:36Linda?

11:37Linda?

11:38Linda?

11:39Linda?

11:40Linda?

11:41Linda?

11:42Linda?

11:43Linda?

11:44Linda?

11:45Linda?

11:46Oh nice.

11:47Linda?

11:48Yep.

11:49I'm over here.

11:50Oh awesome.

11:51Hi.

11:52Hello.

11:53Do you want to come through with me?

11:55Okay.

11:56Come on through.

11:57Knock knock.

11:58Ready?

11:59As ready as can be.

12:00Yeah.

12:01Am I right in saying this is your second C-section?

12:02Yep.

12:03Yeah.

12:04Okay.

12:05I'm going to stick this on your wrist.

12:06It basically just says you're having a C-section today.

12:07All right.

12:08We'll see you soon.

12:09All right.

12:10Big stretch coming off.

12:11This year, I'm stepping up.

12:12I'm stepping up.

12:13All right.

12:14All right.

12:15All right.

12:16All right.

12:17All right.

12:18All right.

12:19All right.

12:20All right.

12:21All right.

12:22All right.

12:23All right.

12:24Big stretch coming off.

12:25This year, I'm stepping up to be the senior registrar.

12:28You need balance.

12:29You've got to actually make sure that you don't blow up.

12:31When Brad goes, I just pretend it's not happening and I just keep waking up every day

12:35and going to work.

12:39I think people worry about me because they think I'm miserable.

12:43But I love being on my own.

12:46And most of the time, I'm actually pretty happy to be at work.

12:49I would rather be busy than sitting around.

12:53We just got a fourth C-section.

12:55No.

12:56We're not normally doing this, are we?

12:58No.

12:59We have four.

13:01Feeling a bit small today.

13:05Starting.

13:09This is just scarred subcut tissue.

13:13I'll have a tissue scissors.

13:15I remember the first few times doing C-sections on my own.

13:19Hi.

13:20You ready to meet your mom?

13:22Hi.

13:23Hi.

13:24Hi.

13:25Hi.

13:26Hi.

13:27Hi.

13:28And just being like, I did a C-section.

13:30Telling all my friends in my WhatsApp group.

13:32Telling my mom.

13:33And it just being like the most exciting moment ever.

13:36And for loads of C-sections after that, I felt like that.

13:40And now even when I do a new procedure, I get that buzz.

13:44What do you think, Dad?

13:46Cute.

13:47Hi.

13:48Cool.

13:49First stitch, please.

13:50Every time you got to do a little bit more, a little bit more.

13:52Yeah, the fire was just becoming more intense.

13:54Yeah, I just wanted to do all the cool stuff.

13:57All right.

13:58Starting.

13:59What a massive privilege.

14:00Like, people trusting me to go inside their abdomen and deliver their baby.

14:03Like, who gets to do that?

14:04So, I'm just going to go inside their abdomen and deliver their baby.

14:06Like, who gets to do that?

14:07So, I'm just going to go inside their abdomen.

14:09All right.

14:10Starting.

14:11Alright, starting.

14:12What a massive privilege.

14:14Like, people trusting me to go inside their abdomen and deliver their baby.

14:17Like, who gets to do that?

14:19So, I don't take it for granted, ever.

14:21Oh.

14:22Hello.

14:23Oh, look at you.

14:26Hi.

14:27Hi.

14:28You're a bit heavy for me, buddy.

14:30Look at this one.

14:31Look at this one.

14:32He's tysDERhof.

14:34He's good.

14:36let the dreaming begin tomorrow the world starts all over again tomorrow the world

14:51starts all over again see you later buddy all right on to the next when you've just had a really

15:00good day on delivery suite everything's gone smoothly all the babies have been born healthy

15:04and happy all the moms are happy it makes you feel really good about the job

15:16hello i got my new roster for next week yeah it looks like because i'm um stepping up and getting

15:24a junior buddy i've got more operating and more like fun stuff nice yeah so that should be good

15:29i'm gonna meet my new buddy on monday his name's dylan okay so this is almost like

15:35your little partner yeah exactly i'm not sure what his skill level is but i think he's my junior so

15:41i'll be like teaching him and supervising him or we'll be like working together so yeah you'll

15:46become a big dog if you're all right a big dog no i'm still a baby

16:03you know when i got into the exam i felt pretty prepared and felt really ready then got into the

16:18exam and i was just like oh my goodness it feels like grief which sounds stupid because i've like

16:27have been through grief but it feels exactly the same it was just like you know when you go through

16:32grief you have regret and you have like hurt and pain and disappointment and sadness that's what it

16:41feels like i think i was at like early high school and i told my mum i wanted to be a doctor

16:53i remember her like sitting me down and being like okay let's apply for some scholarships

17:00and i ended up getting a scholarship i would have never ever thought to apply for them if it wasn't

17:06for her mum passed away when i was at med school she had cancer and she was really young so that was

17:17like the big loss in my life my mum was really passionate about us being independent women and not

17:27have to rely on anybody or anything and so like in reflection i sometimes think maybe she um like

17:38this was her final lesson of independence you have to be independent of me

17:49and just like you can do it you know

17:51hello hello is this a code stroke hello yes this is this morning from 6 30 in the morning she noticed

18:03also facial numbness and limb weakness okay now so what time did you have this numbness it started about

18:12about about seven and then what happened after that the numbness and the headaches is getting worse okay

18:21and in terms of the headache is it a throbbing pain what kind of pain is it constant stabbing constant

18:28stabbing pain i've been having ivy antibiotics because i'm on dialysis okay how long have you been

18:34on dialysis for 18 and a half years wow never missed a day wow medicine's all about history

18:44tell me which bingo i'm moving uh right yeah everybody says history is the most important

18:52way that you diagnose people when history for us is people's stories what do you do for work i used to

18:59work here 23 years wow when i worked here it's like a family you know and even though i don't work any

19:09long because i'm too sick they still treat me like part of a minimal family i would work here free if i

19:17had to because i loved it so much oh nice so i really miss it yeah i like hearing that stuff it's so

19:27important because there's a person behind all of that that's one of the other things that drew me to

19:32medicine it is hard to go from the health professional to being this reliant on a hospital to keep me alive yeah

19:48i never expected working here though i'd get the sick

19:51no one expects to get that sick do they after my mum passed away i just realized that like nothing is

20:05promised when it comes to health my mum was really really healthy there was no reason why she should

20:13have become unwell so the importance of what we do every day like why we're here

20:26it's about helping people either be cured or live in a way that aligns with whatever time that they have

20:33left so i got in i don't think i got i maybe got in trouble i don't know so i was wearing like not

20:48like top like this basically a top like this and the pants were also meeting like this and then i had

20:55a call and it was like i've had multiple complaints about your outfit saying it was like unprofessional

21:02but i was saying i disagree that the outfit was unprofessional like if it was like this how is

21:08this but like i don't think this is unprofessional in workplace you need to be dressing in a way that

21:14but i don't even think you're imagining the outfit that i'm wearing i kind of do

21:18okay what's your hot take alex whose side are you on no no okay and i know you hate when i give this

21:26answer at some point there's a degree of hearing the other side as well so i think it's

21:32not i'm not saying you're right i'm not saying you're wrong i think that is quite a that stance

21:37leads to like some hurt feelings well said just just like i don't like being told yeah well

21:45welcome to the world of um working

21:52i still feel like i'm 18. you know i still call my mom i need help with my washing

21:56but i'm transitioning from a student to a doctor and having to have all these new responsibilities

22:05now people come and ask me for advice like you're no longer a student now you're part of the team

22:11you're always welcome to come to any of these theaters yeah yeah you're actually that doctor

22:17looking after the patient yeah yeah so you're part of the team so you should come to theater because

22:22you're looking after them on the wall okay hi got the whole team today should we have a look at this

22:31is that sore or yeah

22:38sorry that we're not really winning here we've tried multiple times i think you've been on

22:43antibiotics for a long time as well i think the best option probably is to do an amputation unfortunately

22:52we've tried everything we can yeah i'm sorry it's come to this

23:00you're looking after patients in their most vulnerable parts of their lives

23:05it kind of made me start thinking about like i need to shift in the way i have to view my job

23:11you know i have to grow up

23:20i'm coming home oh you don't know um no okay i was just wondering because um mason and the others

23:33want to have like dinner at 6 30. i was wondering if you be free by then 6 30.

23:39definitely no cinto for season for nine nine stop cinto for around 12. do you want me to do anything

23:48shannon and dylan oh could you book the caesar and i'll do the consenting this year i have my first

23:55year trainee and my job is to teach supervise and manage

24:03she's been really kind to step up to support our juniors which is fabulous but also um quite tricky

24:12because she's got to let our junior doctors learn and grow quickly but equally monitor them so it's that

24:19balance yeah tricky i've gone from having someone on the floor who i can ask questions to people on

24:28the floor asking me or calling me for help is it more than three or good question i would define it

24:34as more than three so is that a brainy or is that the baseline when she contracts this is the baseline

24:40yeah shall i just finish getting this sent off yes please shannon you're gonna be able to see room

24:45three yeah is that all right like that oh yeah pull that back right up and so if anything happens

24:50for room 12 should i just do a lactate yeah so it's three fully effaced now so it would be a tricky

24:55lactate what bloods did you want with her just cbc you and a lft because she's diarrhea i'm not

25:01interviewed at all with perineal tears oh yeah we can do that doing one deep one here to close this space

25:07yeah beauty that's a huge shift it's probably the biggest shift i've had um yeah tons of responsibility

25:15i think i have a baseline heart rate of about a hundred because you don't know what's coming

25:21through the door oh there's an emergency bell shut come on need to go babe i'm sorry

25:45all right all right everyone happy yap please get the alexis ready please

25:58big stretch honey

26:03stand up stand up

26:09oh you're wrapped up

26:13come on give us a cry

26:23when i started as a junior red i had some tricky cases and i was super stressed

26:46i really struggled during that time just really bad anxiety and lots of overthinking

26:52lots of obsession really doubted whether i would be able to do this job because i just

26:58was like i don't know if i have the personality to cope i'm just holding on too much thanks

27:02everybody you okay honey it all went really well i'll come see you when you're feeling

27:06a little bit better okay then one of my senior regs basically said to me if you want to do

27:12this job you need to accept that you're going to have one bus full of babies and mothers

27:16that you'll think about all the time and it'll affect you so i kept that in mind

27:21can i accept that i'll have all these people on my mind forever

27:26probably will it affect me yes

27:29i know this place is crazy and sometimes scary

27:36but yeah that anxiety it slowly is creeping in a little bit at the moment because of the

27:42halls stepping up and trying to stand on my own two feet and work

27:45and i've just noticed the last few i'm getting a bit sick in the tummy and not sleeping as well

27:53and i'm just going over and i'm dreaming of it and then i wake up and i'm like was i even asleep

27:59because i've just been thinking about it all night

28:01it's about every delivery i did every perony in my sutra at every c-section

28:06just imagining how anything could go wrong while i was asleep

28:11do you feel like you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders

28:15i'm just trying to find ways to deal with it so it doesn't take over

28:21and you hope that somebody can help lift the weight when you're older

28:25this is a lady who's come in with a stroke call this morning for left-sided numbness facial and arm and leg

28:47in some time at the ward it has become unwell and then collapsed

28:52okay so have we got a blood pressure cuff on her

28:54no pulse no output

28:56okay let's start cpr

28:58are we getting adrenaline drawn up

29:01so cpr started at 105

29:04have we got a line

29:06adrenaline drawn up on the patient's left

29:08i need that cpr to be a bit faster please

29:11thank you

29:12okay can we please give the adrenaline

29:18i'm at the end of the bed because i'm a leader in that process

29:23your aim is to have a bird's eye view

29:26to look at everything that's going on

29:29to be thinking about

29:30iv access oxygen levels blood pressure

29:33and can i have someone taking notes

29:35are you going to take notes okay so we're at two minutes now

29:38we should do a rhythm check

29:39okay let's go

29:40okay rhythm check

29:41stop cpr

29:43stop cpr

29:46stop cpr

29:48stop cpr

29:50stop cpr

29:52stop cpr

29:53stop cpr

29:54stop cpr

29:56stop cpr

29:58stop cpr

30:00time kind of goes a little bit slower when you're there

30:02there's like two minute intervals and you're like has it been two minutes yet and it's like not

30:08there's just so many things going through her head

30:15okay rhythm check

30:17any pulses

30:19PEA continue

30:27was she complaining of any chest pain before all of this happened?

30:30no chest pain

30:31no chest pain

30:37okay let's stop for a rhythm check please

30:39can someone be feeling for a pulse?

30:47i've got a pulse

30:49you've got a pulse?

30:50okay

30:51okay

30:52okay nice

30:57so sats are at 100% we've got a heart rate of 142

31:01hi james

31:03i don't know the heart rate has come down a little bit

31:05you had a bit of a seizure i think darling and then a bit of a cardiac arrest i think

31:09oh my goodness

31:10yeah but look at you now

31:12you're back with us

31:14and your sats are 100%

31:17oh my gosh you've changed since this morning that's for sure

31:20we're still trying to work it out but we brought you back

31:24we needed to resuscitate you

31:26we had to do cpr

31:27yeah

31:28oh my god

31:29i know

31:30i'm not expecting that at all

31:32this is the new cup

31:33this is the new one

31:34thank you

31:36she was gone

31:37so essentially she's died and come back to life

31:41it's quite a surprise that she's back to normal now essentially

31:46she's a fighter

31:47like she's just one of those patients that will just surprise you

31:53so should we do a time out?

31:55yeah

31:56yep

31:58so we've got here rakesh for a baloney amputation

32:01and he does not want his limb returned

32:04my name's gary the vascular surgeon

32:07shawty vascular housing

32:09okay you're happy for us to start

32:12you're looking at that calf there

32:15you want a flap at least to here

32:19and skin knife thanks

32:22i'm excited to kind of see more surgery

32:26one of the complications of diabetes is some sort of block in the arteries in the legs

32:36often people will get like a cut on the foot and then it won't heal because there's no blood supply

32:41you know we're worried about the infection spreading into the bone

32:44and that's when you start to think about amputation

32:48just work on where it is

32:50yep

32:52it will not get in his way

32:53yeah

32:54it's a fine balance

32:55balance of sucking the fluid out so the diaphragm you can cut

33:02and you can see we're getting to the neurovascular bundle

33:04oh yeah

33:05yep

33:10do you want to try and stay on the bone and not have tissue

33:13yeah

33:14how strong do you feel

33:16i don't know

33:17quite hard work

33:22no

33:23no

33:24yeah

33:25he's got quite strong bones

33:26no

33:28i think it's too hard

33:30you've got the sore thanks

33:31people do

33:32we want to go down to about here

33:34push down, push down

33:39there you go

33:42good

33:43once you've got the neurovascular bundles i tend to just take the leg off

33:46okay

33:47there was a moment when it kind of came to me again i was like

33:50we're taking away his leg now

33:52he's not going to have his leg

33:54felt a bit sad for him

34:02but then also it kind of passed

34:04i think i'm able to feel it in the moment and then be able to move past it

34:09because i know it's life saving for the patients

34:16surgery is kind of very clear cut in terms of how you can intervene with a patient

34:21you have a problem and you're able to fix it

34:24the outcomes are right in front of you

34:26you know it's a very tangible result which i like

34:33being a surgeon is so attractive

34:35but um

34:36if you want to get theatre experience like surgical experience then

34:40you can do it outside of hours

34:42i haven't actually done that like stayed later to be in a surgery

34:45um but something i would like want to do

34:48um

34:50and that so that also kind of affects like

34:52you know your schedule

34:55hi

34:57welcome back

34:59hello

35:01how are you?

35:03um good just tired

35:05what's on for tomorrow?

35:07well i've still got work tomorrow but i'm working this weekend

35:10to get more theatre time

35:13or do you need theatre time for something?

35:16no you don't it's just if you're interested in surgery

35:19you have to be like willing to

35:21be in the operation and so that means like coming in

35:25you want to do that?

35:27i am leaning more towards like doing something surgical

35:30um but then i don't know i feel like it's more hours involved

35:34so i guess yeah it'll be quite a difficult lifestyle for us i think

35:40like having to try and navigate that

35:43between us in terms of like the time we get to spend together

35:47hmm

35:50you know like how we are now

35:52no kids you know nothing like that

35:55but uh that decision would be harder if there was

35:58if there was

36:00other things involved

36:02yeah

36:14i lost my stuff, let's go somewhere

36:16oh thank you

36:18losing the plot

36:20are you okay?

36:21yeah

36:23they send an email out at 3pm

36:24so it'll be like getting the email at 3pm and then going back to work

36:29yeah

36:31some people will leave it and look in the evening

36:33but i feel like i just need to get it out of the way

36:44alright

36:54so i just found a little kind of slightly less public place to open my results

37:05what will be will be

37:07regardless of what the results are

37:10i know that my knowledge is

37:12at least like

37:14at least if not above

37:16the level that i need to be at

37:18yeah i just gotta tell myself that

37:20remind myself that i guess

37:21okay

37:22alright

37:28oh frick dammit

37:31damn

37:40no

37:41no

37:42no

37:46no

37:49next steps

37:51next thing to

37:53plan for and prepare for

37:55damn

37:56damn

38:11so i guess the question is how's things going?

38:14well i've had a headache for about a month

38:16you've had a headache for a month

38:18yeah

38:20and i know that's from like a sleep

38:22so how many hours do you sleep last night?

38:24six

38:26six hours?

38:27hmm

38:28is that normal for you?

38:30no i need about nine

38:31you need nine?

38:32yeah

38:33so why are we three hours under?

38:34i have that thing where you think about a patient you see in

38:36i don't know if that happens to you but that happens to me all the time

38:39and then i'll consciously be like okay i'm going to think of something else

38:41so it's like the three o'clock in the morning negative thought spirals and you can't break it?

38:46yeah

38:47yeah

38:48what are you doing to recharge your batteries which doesn't involve work?

38:55you're not going to like the answer nothing

38:58i know

39:00exercise any exercise?

39:01no

39:02walking?

39:03no

39:04and have you got any pals to hang out with who aren't doctors?

39:07no

39:09i don't mind that though

39:10okay

39:11we don't really talk about medicine

39:13you know who i am getting along with really well?

39:14my new buddy dylan

39:16okay

39:17just work out what your support system is

39:19hmm

39:20when you work in a centre and you see things that nobody else is experiencing

39:26and you have all these crazy emergencies

39:32you all have to kind of come together at the end of that

39:36awww

39:37hello hello hello

39:38who's bringing all the chill vibes?

39:40i think it's dylan

39:42i think dylan's the good omen

39:44you've got four on your lap

39:45yeah i

39:47that's why there's such closeness there

39:48everyone leans on each other

39:49and

39:51you just kind of get addicted

39:52and you become part of the furniture

39:57leave me a minute more

39:58people could turn

39:59help me

40:02come on

40:0338 year old female

40:08um

40:09yeah

40:10i had to make the decision of going back to wellington

40:14awww

40:15which wasn't an easy decision

40:18aww monsieur

40:26i have a two and a half year old Monty

40:28um and my partner Hunter

40:30being a really big hospital

40:33um it's really hard to finish on time

40:36you know you just never see them

40:38i'll just look at this one

40:43i'll definitely miss working with Shannon

40:45oh yeah

40:46all those hard times that you have to deal with

40:48kind of creates you know a close bond

40:50a close bond

40:53she's lost her baby and she's bleeding

40:55yeah but she's bleeding a lot

40:57oh that's so sad

40:58no

40:59thank you

41:01no

41:04no

41:06no

41:09no

41:10no

41:11no

41:12no

41:13no

41:14no

41:15no

41:16no

41:17no

41:18no

41:19no

41:20So what was happening today?

41:23She wasn't alright, so I just bring her baby.

41:26Yeah.

41:27And I understand that you've had three miscarriages?

41:30Yeah.

41:31So you definitely did the right thing by coming to hospital because of the heavy bleeding.

41:38We'll just get the scanning machine so we can have a look,

41:41and then that way we can see if there's any tissue left inside the womb,

41:44and then try and remove it.

41:46That should hopefully settle the bleeding and also settle the pain.

41:52In order to cope, you need to have support.

41:57I don't have any connections anywhere else.

42:00Here I'm talking about how important this family is,

42:03and seeing them in the evenings,

42:05just all the things I don't talk about because I'm on my own so much.

42:09Yeah, it did make me think how much I miss out on

42:13because I don't have any family time really ever.

42:16And I almost use that as a way to cope with the errors

42:20because I've no one to go home to anyway.

42:23Oh, Dylan's out of here, Sam.

42:26Oh, you poor little sausage.

42:29You sound like me, ma'am.

42:30I know, but it is hard.

42:32I know how hard it is because all my family is still over there.

42:35I know.

42:36So it is hard when you're over here and you've got no family support,

42:40especially when you've got a high-pressure job, you're studying.

42:43It was fine when Bradley was here because,

42:45although I didn't have my mam or my family,

42:48he was a really good distraction.

42:50Now I go home to an empty house and just the books.

42:53It's a bit miserable, to be honest.

42:55Oh, me little pal.

42:57Thanks for looking after me.

42:58That's all right.

42:59I then questioned, why am I here?

43:06Can I do it?

43:10It really makes you look at your own life.

43:12I thought the doctors were like superheroes.

43:19But we're just normal people.

43:22Step up, take it on.

43:25No turning from the storm.

43:29It's time now for us to come.

43:35We can be heroes.

43:41We can be heroes.

43:51We can be heroes.

44:04All right, blood pressure's coming back out.

44:06We're getting wild.

44:07I'm sweating this out.

44:08To CPR on a human being.

44:13I like it.

44:14Every time I have to give that bad news,

44:16I always struggle.

44:17You are actually actively having a small stroke right now, okay?

44:23Right, go for gold.

44:24I have not done that amount of laparoscopic surgery ever.

44:28All right, last one I can do this.

44:30Friday, go for it and get up to the right, yes.

44:33Tomorrow would be good to wear this, us as well.

44:34It's all right.

44:35Thank you guys for watching, and

44:36shall we try and

44:44get out to date.

44:45A bit of story about freezing

44:50but also forty-firstSil 초.

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