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  • 22/05/2025
EastEnders 22nd May 2025

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00:00Music
00:30No!
00:31Be quiet!
00:32Right, let's go get back to me.
00:34Let's go and go and go.
00:35No!
00:36OK.
00:37All right, keep checking.
00:38No!
00:39No!
00:40No!
00:41No!
00:42No!
00:43No!
00:44Why shall I?
00:47I'm not going to bed, no.
00:49No!
00:50No!
00:51No!
00:52No!
00:53No, we're not.
00:54No!
00:55No, go away!
00:56Can you help?
00:57No, no.
00:58No!
00:59You can't make me.
01:00You're just my sister.
01:01But you have to do what I said to mommy.
01:03You're not mine.
01:04I don't care.
01:05Go away.
01:06Can you please just brush your teeth?
01:07Please!
01:08No!
01:09Listen, love.
01:10No!
01:11Come on, come on.
01:12Kids, mommy's upset, all right?
01:13We've got to be quiet for her.
01:14I don't want to!
01:16No!
01:17No!
01:18No!
01:19No!
01:20No!
01:21No!
01:22No!
01:23No!
01:24No!
01:25No!
01:26No!
01:27No!
01:31No!
01:36No!
01:37No!
01:38No!
01:39No!
01:42sowie
01:47I don't know.
02:17I don't know.
02:46It's all right, honestly.
02:47No, no, I'm all right.
02:48Thanks.
02:49Oh, you've got a baby.
02:50You've got a newborn baby.
02:51I'll help you.
02:52Yeah.
02:54You're gonna be all right?
02:55Yeah.
02:56Put the light on.
02:57Oh, no, I don't want to wake him up.
03:01Oh, no, I don't want to wake him up.
03:02Oh.
03:03He's gorgeous.
03:05It's hard, though, isn't it?
03:06Having a newborn.
03:07I mean, it's great.
03:08It is great.
03:09I hardly remember.
03:10How do you go?
03:11With your kids?
03:12How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:13How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:14How do you do it?
03:15Well, the truth is...
03:16How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:17How do you do it?
03:18Well, the truth is...
03:38How do you deal with the pressure and the worry?
03:42How do you do it?
03:44Well, the truth is, I don't.
03:48I mean, right now, I'm not at all.
03:52Sorry, I...
03:54I should be. I wanna be.
03:56I do too.
03:58More than anything.
04:00Do you ever think about Abby?
04:03What?
04:05What happened to her out there?
04:08Yeah, of course I do.
04:11I've got to walk past it every day.
04:13Me too.
04:15What happened to Bradley, I think about him more and more.
04:19Since Martin died.
04:22That's understandable.
04:24You think you can forget?
04:27The past, the things that have happened.
04:30The guilt.
04:32Guilt?
04:34Don't you feel guilty?
04:37Are you having a dick?
04:39No.
04:40Because...
04:42I know I had a drug problem last year.
04:45I wouldn't deny that.
04:47It's just...
04:49If I'd have known what was gonna happen, I'd never...
04:52Why? What's happened?
04:54Nothing.
04:56It's...
04:57Nothing.
04:58It's...
04:59It's Jimmy.
05:00He, er...
05:01He's blind.
05:07Oh, my God.
05:09Lauren, I'm...
05:11I'm so sorry.
05:13I just found out about it as well.
05:17But, er...
05:19Well, we're gonna be alright.
05:23And this, me and Peter, we're...
05:25We're gonna be okay.
05:27Yeah, of course you will.
05:28Of course.
05:29Of course you will.
05:31I mean, I'm so selfish.
05:34My problems, what are they?
05:36I just...
05:37I find it hard to be there for the kids.
05:39And to let go of...
05:41Of...
05:42Of...
05:43The grief, and...
05:45I'm gonna be a good mum.
05:48Just like you.
05:50Gonna be a good mum.
05:52I have to be.
05:53Right, let me, er...
05:58I wanna go see to Jimmy,
06:00because if he starts crying now, then he'll...
06:02He'll be crying all night.
06:03Well, you could try walking him round.
06:05In the buggy.
06:06I used to do that with Lil.
06:08She was alright with misery guts and all.
06:10Thank you, Sticks.
06:23Thank you, Sticks.
06:53Yeah, alright, darling.
06:56It'll be ten minutes.
06:58Cheers, love.
07:04Laura, it's for the wicked.
07:07You alright?
07:08Er...
07:09Yeah.
07:10Yeah, I'm fine.
07:11I, er...
07:12I just wanted to say thanks for...
07:15Earlier, you know, Charlie and that.
07:18And, you know, you were right.
07:20I need to step up, so...
07:22That's what I'm gonna do.
07:23I'm gonna sort myself out for me kids.
07:25That's good.
07:26That's great.
07:29You sure you're okay?
07:30Yes, I'm fine.
07:31You don't need to keep asking, alright?
07:32I'm not sick.
07:33I'm just some tired cat.
07:35But anyway, it doesn't matter.
07:37I'm back, alright?
07:38I'm putting my kids first.
07:39I'm putting my family first.
07:40And I just...
07:41Well, I just wanted you to know.
07:43Alright.
07:44But I'm here, yeah?
07:45If you need anything.
07:46Well, I don't.
07:47I don't need nothing.
07:48In fact, I'm gonna look after you for once.
07:51So come round two hours for dinner tonight.
07:54Tonight?
07:55Yeah, tonight.
07:56Come round.
07:57Then we can just all sit together and eat and talk.
07:59And it'll just be like old times, like normal.
08:01Oh, yeah.
08:02It's a bit late though, innit?
08:03Cat, I'm making an effort.
08:04Alright, I'm just gonna...
08:05I'm popped to the minute mark.
08:06I'm gonna slap something in a pan.
08:07And if you ain't hungry, you can just have pudding or something.
08:09Like ice cream.
08:10Please.
08:11Right, yeah.
08:12I'll just finish up here first, yeah?
08:13No, you're finished.
08:14Alright, look.
08:15Done.
08:16Finished for the day.
08:17And I'll see you in 20 minutes.
08:18Bring the kids, yeah?
08:19Yeah, alright.
08:24Hello, this is Peter's phone.
08:25Leave a message.
08:26Hey.
08:27Er...
08:28I'm just wondering where you are.
08:31Erm...
08:32I hope you're alright.
08:33I just wanted to let you know that we're home now, so...
08:36just call me, yeah?
08:37Hey!
08:38This looks delicious.
08:39Stacey, you're gonna have to tell me what the recipe is, darling,
08:40cos I'm gonna insist on this every night.
08:41Well, fish fingers, stick them under the grill, burn them, and then frozen peas.
08:57Yeah, yeah, yeah.
08:58Well, let's go.
08:59It's crunchy.
09:00Oh, I've got ice cream.
09:01Oh, I've got ice cream.
09:02Oh!
09:03Chocolate fudge.
09:04I've got caramel swirl, strawberry, mint, coconut, chocolate sprinkles, and then eat
09:09as much as you like.
09:10Yeah, yeah, yeah.
09:11No, no.
09:12Alright, it's not now.
09:13Alright, it's not.
09:14No, don't listen to her.
09:15It's my house, my rules, alright?
09:16If your Nan was here, she'd go nuts.
09:20She, er...
09:21She loves nothing more than a bowl of ice cream.
09:24Talking of which, I've given half with a boot.
09:26Exactly.
09:27Oh, I'm gone.
09:28Yeah, nice one.
09:29Hey, Stace, you alright, darling?
09:30Has anyone seen my jacket?
09:32I hung it on the banister.
09:33I'm always losing some.
09:34It'll turn up.
09:35No, I need it.
09:36I need it now.
09:37Stace, I might have took it to the lingerie.
09:38What?
09:39It's in the bag.
09:40No.
09:41No, I hung it on the banister.
09:43My phone's in the pocket.
09:44I didn't check.
09:45What?
09:46Are you stupid, Freddie?
09:47What is wrong with you?
09:48Don't blame him.
09:49It's not his fault.
09:50I won't even know.
09:51Mum?
09:52No!
09:53There's no one!
09:58No!
09:59It's all right!
10:00I'm using the technique.
10:01No luck here.
10:04Which machine did Freddie use?
10:08Pardon?
10:09Freddie just bought a load of washing-over.
10:11Where is it?
10:12In news.
10:13What do you think?
10:14You can't stop it, mid-sight, Stae.
10:15What do you think? You can't stop it, mid-sax.
10:17I have to. My phone's in there. I need my phone.
10:20No, no, no, no, you can't.
10:21Oh, no, no!
10:23No! Oh, shh!
10:28Try this to sleep.
10:29Thanks, Lewis.
10:30Keep an eye on the kids, yeah?
10:31Yeah, good luck.
10:35Where's mum going?
10:36Mate, she's just nipped over to the laundrette
10:39because this doughnut here has put her phone in the wash.
10:41Can you believe it?
10:42Will it work anymore?
10:44Yeah, it's gonna be fine. It's gonna be all right. Listen.
10:46How do you fancy? Some ice cream, yeah?
10:47She won't be able to call him.
10:49Hey, of course she will. It's gonna be all right.
10:52Okay, I tell you what. Come and sit down here.
10:54Parking backs right down here, buddy.
10:56Come here. You can talk to your Uncle Alfie, yeah?
10:59What's the matter?
11:00I've done a bad thing.
11:02Bad thing, eh?
11:04What have you done?
11:06I know a secret.
11:08Okay, right. What kind of secret?
11:12Daddy.
11:13Daddy.
11:14Daddy.
11:15Daddy.
11:16He's coming home.
11:19Stacy, there is nothing I can do.
11:20You're just going to have to be patient and...
11:22What are you doing?
11:23I need that phone.
11:24I need it.
11:25It's got on with photos and everything on it.
11:26It's gonna be ruined.
11:27Yeah, you don't know that.
11:28Yes, I do, Cat. I do.
11:29That is all I've got left of him, Martin.
11:31That's all I've got left is voicemails.
11:33That's it.
11:34I need it, Cat.
11:35I need it.
11:36Calm down, yeah?
11:37Come home with me and we'll talk.
11:38No, I'm not coming home.
11:39I'm sitting here until that is done.
11:47Come on, buddy.
11:48You tell me anything, alright?
11:49I promise you I'm getting into trouble.
11:50Okay?
11:51Alright.
11:52What's this, then?
11:53Daddy's phone.
11:54The police came around and gave it to Nan.
11:55She hid it in the cupboard under the stairs.
11:57I took it.
11:58Alright.
11:59What does...
12:00Does anyone know you got this?
12:01Alright.
12:02Hey, what's on it?
12:03Do we know?
12:04Which needs to be sectioned?
12:05What do we do, then?
12:06What do we do?
12:07That's not going to happen, alright?
12:08It's not gonna happen, alright?
12:09Stay and see you.
12:10I'm going to come in.
12:11Okay, you're going to come in.
12:12You're going to come in.
12:13I took it.
12:14Alright.
12:15Well, does anyone know you got this?
12:16Alright.
12:17Hey, what's on it?
12:18Do we know?
12:19Hey, what's on it?
12:20Do we know?
12:28Which needs to be sectioned?
12:29What do we do, then?
12:30What do we do?
12:32That's not going to happen, alright?
12:33Stay and see you.
12:37Would you like a cup of tea or a glass of water while you're eating?
12:41Hi.
12:42Be all right, Stacey?
12:44Okay, tomorrow.
12:45Yeah, they're good, they're good.
12:46Yeah, where's Kat?
12:47Oh, okay.
12:49Lily was a little bit upset.
12:52I'm going to go now.
12:54Give you all some privacy.
12:56Okay, yeah, thanks.
13:02All right, Lils?
13:04I think I've got to show you something.
13:06Well, show me, then.
13:08Okay, it's, uh...
13:10It's Martin's phone.
13:12Arthur had it.
13:14You've got to hear this.
13:16I can't wait to see you.
13:18The kids are excited, too, and we won't make any mistakes this time.
13:22No messing around.
13:24All I want is to be with you.
13:26Be together. Be your wife.
13:30When did she leave it?
13:32About three hours ago.
13:34I don't understand.
13:36I don't get it.
13:38What does it mean?
13:50Mom, we know what you've been doing.
13:52Where'd you get back?
13:54You've been talking to Dad.
13:56Sending him messages like he's still alive.
14:00I just want to lie in bed with you.
14:02Sunday morning, cuddle, talk.
14:06Maybe I'll go down, get us a cup of tea, a slice of toast.
14:09That's enough.
14:10That's enough.
14:11You give me that phone, Lily.
14:12Give it to me.
14:13Why are you doing this?
14:15Have you gone completely mad?
14:17Please, Lily.
14:18Why are you torturing yourself like this?
14:20Can't you see what this is doing to me?
14:22To us, to the kids, do you even care?
14:24It's got nothing to do with you.
14:25It's got nothing to do with the kids.
14:26It's got nothing to do with me and Martin.
14:28Lacey, Arthur's had the phone.
14:30He's been listening to the messages, every one of them.
14:32Let's just get rid then.
14:34What?
14:35Let's just get rid of it.
14:37Dad's dead.
14:38Dad's dead.
14:39He's gone.
14:40The phone might as well go too.
14:41No!
14:42Stop!
14:43Don't look hard.
14:44Don't look hard.
14:45What are you doing?
14:46No!
14:47Stacey, leave it!
14:48No!
14:49Stacey, what have you done?
14:50Stacey, what have you done?
14:51Just go home.
14:53Go after her.
14:54Okay, okay, darling.
14:55What have you done?
14:57Bills, hold up, darling.
14:59It's okay.
15:00It's just that your mum's really upset at the moment.
15:02Oh, who ain't?
15:03I've lost my dad and I've been looking after these kids all on my own.
15:05Yeah, I know.
15:06Listen, I get it, all right?
15:07No, you don't.
15:08I'm the kid.
15:09She should be looking after me, not the other way around.
15:11Nils.
15:17You having an episode?
15:20Maybe you need professional help.
15:22Not having an episode, Kat.
15:23All right, I know the signs.
15:24Yeah, but all this...
15:26I'm not crazy.
15:28I know mine's dead.
15:38You do?
15:39Yes.
15:40So why?
15:41Why all this?
15:42Aren't you a bit old for that?
15:45You all right?
15:46What's happened?
15:47Nothing.
15:48Just my mum.
15:49Oh.
15:50What was she done?
15:51She messed up.
15:52Big time.
15:53You know what it's like.
15:54You've got a kid.
15:55I've got a kid.
15:56It's not easy being a mum.
15:57Sometimes you do mess up.
15:58Sometimes you do mess up.
15:59Yeah, sometimes.
16:00Not all the time.
16:01Is she really that bad?
16:02I wouldn't write a lot.
16:03We all make mistakes.
16:04You know what it's like.
16:05You know what it's like.
16:06You've got a kid.
16:07I've got a kid.
16:08It's not easy being a mum.
16:09Sometimes you do mess up.
16:10Yeah, sometimes.
16:11Not all the time.
16:12Is she really that bad?
16:13I wouldn't write a lot.
16:14We all make mistakes.
16:15I know I have.
16:16Yeah.
16:17Yeah, of course.
16:18I'm not stupid.
16:19I know she's not the worst in the world, but...
16:23Being around her...
16:24Is making me feel bad.
16:25It's not easy.
16:26It's not easy being a mum.
16:27It's not easy being a mum.
16:28Sometimes you do mess up.
16:29Yeah, sometimes.
16:30Not all the time.
16:31Is she really that bad?
16:33I wouldn't write a lot.
16:34We all make mistakes.
16:36I know I have.
16:38Yeah.
16:39Yeah, of course.
16:40I'm not stupid.
16:41It's making me a worse mum to Charlie.
16:44It's the truth, Lauren.
16:46It's not fair.
16:47It's not right.
16:49I have to put my daughter first.
16:52Isn't that what a good mum would do?
16:59The first time I left a message, I was screaming down the phone.
17:02I was so angry that he'd left me on my own.
17:05And I know it's crazy, but it just...
17:08It felt so good to let it out.
17:11So I left another one, and then I realised it had been listened to.
17:17And I knew it couldn't be him, but I couldn't work it out.
17:23I left another one.
17:26And it just...
17:28It just felt good to not be alone.
17:31And the more and more I did, the more it felt like we still had a chance.
17:41That he was still alive.
17:44But you know he ain't.
17:46I know.
17:47I know.
17:49I know it ain't real.
17:53I just really wanted it to be.
17:57You can't carry on like this, you know that.
18:00It's really affecting the kids.
18:05Arthur thinks his dad's coming back and that you and Martin are going to get married.
18:09You can't have this.
18:12You've got to put a stop to it, Stace.
18:15Before it's too late.
18:16It's broke.
18:17It's broke, Kat.
18:18All my photos, all the voicemails, they've gone.
18:19It's broke.
18:20It's broke, Kat.
18:21All my photos, all the voicemails, they've gone.
18:22They've just gone.
18:40It's broke.
18:43It's broke, Kat.
18:44All my photos, all the voicemails, they've gone.
18:48They've just gone.
18:49They've just gone.
18:52No.
18:53They've just gone.
18:54They've just gone.
18:55They've just gone.
18:56It's gone.
18:57They've just gone so far.
18:58They've just gone so far.
19:00But they saved it.
19:01Yeah.
19:07I've just gone.
19:09It's gone.
19:10I love you.
19:12I love you.
19:16The most amazing thing that happened at the hospital earlier.
19:21I managed to feed Jimmy like properly he he latched on properly like it was the easiest most
19:29simplest thing in the whole wide world it was it was so cute
19:33we're gonna be okay he's got me he's got you we're in this together
19:44don't we yeah of course of course
19:52what are you doing
20:06leaving what where are you going lily
20:14I'm not angry are you having a bad time I get it so why are you going then
20:21Charlie you dropped the ball mom and I can't keep looking after this house and these kids and Charlie
20:31I can't do it all anymore I don't have to do it anymore I'm here no mom it's too late
20:35I love you but I've got to put my daughter first where are you gonna go I'm staying at Ryan's
20:44he's sending a cab to pick me up what now I'm sorry mom I called him I was upset he insisted it's
20:54it's gonna get your end innit this is crazy Lily you don't have to go this is your home
21:01I'm feeling better now I'm I'm I'm gonna I'm gonna do better all right I'm gonna go back to work I'm
21:07I'm gonna do everything I'm gonna put tea on the table all the things that are normal boring old mom
21:12like me does mom nothing's going back to normal not until you let go
21:17not until you let go of dad you need to move on I need to move on I'm sorry I don't want to hurt you I
21:27don't I just I don't want to let go of him either but I have to we both have to
21:35can't we do that together no you have to do it for yourself I'm trying try harder I'm doing my best
21:43it's not just the grief Lily it's it's the what it's it's the guilt it is the guilt
21:50everything your dad died trying to save me just like Bradley did I tear families apart I am poison
22:01I'm toxic all I do is hurt people that's not true it's not true bad things happen that doesn't make
22:15them your fault you have to see that you have nothing to be guilty for do you really think yes
22:23you just have to let it go just let all of it go
22:31you'll be okay I know you will can't you stay
22:38no not until you sort this out you can't be a mom to me and I can't be a mom to Charlie
22:48I have to go on
22:53it's okay I'm not
22:58can you help me
23:04thank you
23:15thanks
23:27you will come back won't you please
23:41please
23:41I hope so
23:44you need to sort yourself out first then
23:48if not for me and Charlie for you we're going to lose everyone for good
23:56I love you
24:00I love you too
24:26you
24:39you
25:40Are you okay, kids?
25:55Where's Lily gone?
25:56She's, uh, she's gone to stay with Ryan for a bit.
26:01She'll be back soon?
26:02Yeah, she's, uh, she just needs a little break.
26:08So do we.
26:11Come here.
26:16Don't be scared.
26:17And everything's gonna be all right.
26:23It's just taking mommy a long time to say goodbye to your dad.
26:30All right?
26:30But I'm here.
26:32And I love you.
26:35And I'm your mom.
26:36That's all that matters.
26:46Well, I tell you when we pick these photos up, eh?
26:49Clear up this messy room.
26:50And then tomorrow we're going, uh, stay with Auntie Lynn and have a little break.
26:57Get some peace and quiet.
27:01Tell you what, let's put them in this box.
27:04We can put them in this box and then every now and again we can take them out and...
27:09...can have a little look at them.
27:10Remember what a lovely dad he was?
27:17How lucky we were to have him.
27:23It can be our special thing.
27:27Just me, you and Lil.
27:30Yeah?
27:34All we've got to do is say goodbye.
27:37Goodbye, Dad.
27:39Goodbye, Dad.
27:40Bye, babe.
27:45I miss you.
27:46Bye, babe.
27:46I miss you.