The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives Season 2 Episode 3

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00:00Hold on, he just lied to your face.

00:02Calm down. I get you're mad, I understand.

00:05Don't tell me what to do.

00:07He just admitted a sex trade.

00:09Did Miranda know that?

00:10I'm just like, I really do love him.

00:12He's also kind of a fucking dickhead.

00:14Wait, stand right here.

00:15Why? What the fuck are you going to do?

00:16Are you going to fucking beat me up?

00:17Don't touch me, don't touch me.

00:18You're not going to throw down right now.

00:20I'm actually kind of shocked.

00:21This is like a marathon.

00:22Can I ask, does he look for this?

00:24Because I thought he did.

00:25Yeah, he kind of does, I think.

00:28Okay.

00:30Some of the girls were supposed to oil us up.

00:32What happened?

00:33They ran off, they ran off.

00:34Someone's fighting.

00:35Okay, so we go.

00:37You're in the middle.

00:38Sorry, sorry.

00:40I didn't know it was you.

00:41Yeah, what's up?

00:42What's up?

00:43It should de-escalate a little bit.

00:44I'm fine, I'm good.

00:46No, I agree.

00:48This is like, this is not, this is like awkward, dude.

00:51Well, he's lying.

00:52You're lying.

00:54Okay, dude, why are you being...

00:57Because I fucking hate you.

00:58You're not my partner.

00:59Yeah, why?

01:00Oh, and you're my partner?

01:01No.

01:02You've had my back so much.

01:03I'm not your partner at all.

01:04So much, yeah, you've had my back all the time, Taylor.

01:06I might be regretting the guest list now.

01:08I did not foresee this happening,

01:09and if I would have known,

01:10I would have nixed like half these people.

01:13Are you happy you're getting your little moment, Chase?

01:15Yeah.

01:16So fun.

01:17No, this is not fun.

01:18This is why you fucking showed up.

01:20I would consider my stay here extremely relevant.

01:22Okay, let's go.

01:23Where'd Kate go?

01:24She doesn't want to be fucking around you right now.

01:27Where's your date?

01:28Right there.

01:29Doesn't seem like he does either.

01:30Really?

01:31Go talk shit on your podcast, Chase.

01:32Don't make fun of my podcast.

01:34It's fucking lame.

01:35I honestly cannot stand Chase right now.

01:37I think that his intentions coming tonight are not pure.

01:40Me and him dated each other for a little over a month,

01:43and I definitely see very bad, toxic traits in him.

01:47He's a clout chaser.

01:48I mean, it literally matches his name.

01:50Chase the clout chaser.

01:51I think that's very fitting for him.

01:53It sucks because it's like, dude, you're damn right.

01:56I want to know what's going on, the truth.

01:58Not just from her side even.

02:00I want to know it from your side.

02:02Like, I've never gotten that.

02:03He's lying.

02:04It's disgusting.

02:05Then, yeah, they can be friends.

02:07You listen to my conversations?

02:08I can talk to him if I want.

02:10Fuck you, Dakota.

02:11You can talk to whoever you want.

02:12Just fuck you.

02:13Yeah, because you lied.

02:14There's multiple times you've lied that now I know are the truth.

02:17Let's talk about what you've done.

02:18That's crazy.

02:19Yeah, let's talk about what you've done.

02:20What you've done.

02:21Oh, you want me to bring you up?

02:22Do you want me to bring you up?

02:23Yeah.

02:24Listen.

02:25Shut the fuck up.

02:26You lied too.

02:27She was calling Walter a scream.

02:28Yeah.

02:29The hell's going on?

02:30You guys should both get out.

02:32No one wants you.

02:33Why would I leave?

02:34Jordan invited me, Mason.

02:35Oh, do you own the house?

02:36Do you own the house?

02:37Look at me.

02:38Do you own the house?

02:39Get the fuck out.

02:40Hey, we're not doing this here.

02:41No, I know.

02:42We're friends.

02:43Get out.

02:44Chase.

02:45Actually, I am going to leave too.

02:46I didn't really want to come anyway, so.

02:47Chase, this wasn't going to happen.

02:48I mean, this is what I was saying.

02:49I didn't mean this to happen.

02:51I have my fucking back with Chase.

02:52Do you have my back?

02:53With Chase?

02:54No, with anything.

02:55Have you had my back?

02:56No, I mean, not now.

02:57Look what you just did.

02:58This is fucking stupid.

02:59Holy shit, Taylor.

03:00Yeah, fuck this.

03:01Dakota.

03:02Dakota.

03:03You guys need to literally stop talking.

03:04Go make up and let's be good.

03:05What do you think I was fucking doing right here with Dakota turning away from the window?

03:06Okay.

03:07I couldn't help.

03:08Oh, well, maybe just look next time.

03:09Chase.

03:10You have a child.

03:11You need to talk to me.

03:12Yeah, okay, Dakota.

03:13Fuck you then.

03:14It's okay.

03:15It's okay.

03:16It's okay.

03:17It's okay.

03:18It's okay.

03:19It's okay.

03:20It's okay.

03:21It's okay.

03:22It's okay.

03:23It's okay.

03:24It's okay.

03:25I feel so betrayed.

03:26I just expected him to have my back and I just feel very left alone.

03:28My boyfriend just leaves me and then Chase is over here trying to stay at the party.

03:34It's a nightmare.

03:35I'm going home, too.

03:36I hate you.

03:37I know.

03:38Okay.

03:39I do think it is a little bit uncomfortable and she'd like to leave.

03:44I know.

03:45I know.

03:46I know.

03:47I really fucking need to be done.

03:48Your girlfriend just left.

03:49I don't know if you want to go check on her

03:51and make sure she's okay.

03:52That's what a man would do.

03:54Go, go, Kate.

03:55That's the priority right now.

03:56Your girlfriend's literally crying and just left.

03:58So I would take, like, that's probably...

04:00Where's your husband?

04:01He's upstairs.

04:03Don't touch me again.

04:04All right.

04:06I just see red.

04:08Oh no, you did not just condescendingly be like,

04:11oh, worry about yourself,

04:12while I just watched you neglect your girlfriend

04:15and then touch me.

04:19And walk out of here.

04:21Like, fuck you.

04:22So I immediately go running to Brett

04:24to tell him what just happened.

04:26Brett!

04:27Go fuck yourself.

04:29All right.

04:30Fun party, Jess.

04:31I wanna have a word with Chase.

04:33Me?

04:34He just laid his hands on me.

04:35What the hell?

04:36Yeah.

04:37Oh shit.

04:39Like, I just woke up a monster.

04:41Hey!

04:42Outside, he's outside.

04:44This guy's gonna die tonight.

04:45Chase is going to die on the front lawn.

04:48Why is he shirtless?

04:50Hey!

04:51Yeah?

04:52What the fuck are you doing?

04:53What do you mean, Brett?

04:54What's happening?

04:55I'm just gonna get his ass kicked.

04:56You just touched my wife?

05:00♪ Come ye saints and come ye sinners ♪

05:04♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪

05:08♪ Listen up, I'm the one you've been dreaming of ♪

05:13♪ I've got everything you could ever want ♪

05:17♪ Try me and you'll see, I'll bring you to your knees ♪

05:21♪ Baby, you're gonna believe ♪

05:42What do you mean, Brett?

05:42You just touched my wife?

05:44What's happening?

05:46Oh, this is crazy.

05:47Oh my gosh, wait, what's happening?

05:48No, she told me that my girlfriend walked out,

05:50so I said, where's Brett?

05:51Yeah, and he-

05:52And I went like this.

05:53Put your fucking hands on her, dude.

05:54Don't be a dick.

05:55Dude, I went like this.

05:56Oh, God.

05:57I did see Chase pass Demi,

06:00and from my perspective,

06:01it did look like he just touched her

06:04and said, hey, where's Brett?

06:05Just like asking.

06:07I didn't notice anything aggressive.

06:09So it was surprising to me that Demi got really upset.

06:14Are you serious?

06:15I'm being dead serious right now.

06:16She just told me, you put your hands on her.

06:18I said, where's Brett?

06:19Demi, what happened?

06:21He literally just walked by me,

06:22and I was like, you might wanna go get your girlfriend,

06:24and he was like, where's your husband?

06:26Did he touch you?

06:27Yeah, he did.

06:28He's a psychopath.

06:29I literally told him this would happen.

06:30I'm like, dude, don't come.

06:32Yeah.

06:33Look how psycho he is.

06:35I am happy Chase got into it more with other people

06:39besides just me.

06:40He's proving my point of how psychotic he is

06:42and manipulative, and he's a gaslighter.

06:46Like, they're kind of seeing him for who he is.

06:49Don't touch my fucking wife, dude, ever.

06:51Don't you ever touch a woman for any fucking reason, dude.

06:54No, I walked by and said, where's Brett?

06:55I fear for Chase's life in this moment,

06:57but in the same breath, I'm like, that's my man.

07:00You crossed a major line.

07:01Dude, I didn't mean to cross a line.

07:03I thought that was normal.

07:04Like, hey, where's Brett?

07:05Taylor.

07:06I just wanna watch.

07:07Taylor, Taylor.

07:08Taylor, Taylor.

07:08Taylor, you not getting involved

07:09in anything physical, is it?

07:11I'm watching her.

07:12I know, I know.

07:12Let's just keep our distance.

07:14Oh, I'm not going up there.

07:16Oh shit, here we go.

07:17This is gonna be a problem.

07:20I can see how mad she is.

07:21She's in this zone.

07:23I wanna help because I have a feeling

07:25that it could get really ugly if I don't.

07:27I wasn't trying to disrespect Demi.

07:29Well, go apologize to her right now.

07:30I will, I will right now.

07:31Where is she?

07:32Right here.

07:33Demi.

07:34I walked past you and said, hey, where's Brett?

07:36I didn't mean to.

07:37Take ownership!

07:38You're bullshitting.

07:39Take ownership right now.

07:40No, you're bullshitting.

07:41No, take ownership.

07:42I didn't mean to disrespect you.

07:43I thought, where's Brett?

07:44You did, you did.

07:46I'm sorry for disrespecting you.

07:47I didn't mean to do that and I'm sorry.

07:48Now get the fuck out of here.

07:49All right, I'm sorry.

07:50Didn't mean to do that.

07:51Goodbye.

07:52See you, Chase.

07:53All right.

07:54Yeah, he doesn't even care to think about Kate.

07:55Cool.

07:56You had your moment.

07:56Good job, Chase.

07:57What do you have TikToks made about him?

07:58He's so excited.

08:00I originally invited Chase

08:01because I wanted to get to the bottom

08:03of Miranda and Taylor

08:04and what really happened with the swinging scandal,

08:06but we're leaving it on a dot, dot, dot

08:08and I really hope we figure out the truth soon.

08:11I'm just like where I'm at

08:12just because I'm like,

08:13I want to have a good time with you.

08:15I guess so.

08:20What's going on?

08:20I thought we were going to have a good night.

08:22I can't get over these stupid freaking calls.

08:24Take them off.

08:25Oh, fuck.

08:26Oh, Kate.

08:28What's going on?

08:29I mean, are you just like embarrassed?

08:31No, I'm just triggered, dude.

08:32I know.

08:33Dude, I-

08:34And then I'm like triggered for you.

08:35No, don't be triggered for me.

08:35I'm sorry.

08:36I'm really sorry.

08:37You're not good.

08:39You're not good.

08:40I'm like, we have a good copay relationship right now.

08:42This is just hard

08:43because I just don't want that to like,

08:45I feel like this is going to get in the way of that, you know?

08:48I'm sorry.

08:48I just know, yeah,

08:50you've dealt with him for a long time

08:51and you've gotten a taste, so.

08:54This is so hard because I'm just like,

08:56dude, you have so many good qualities about you.

08:59Why do you do this?

09:00Like, I'm just in shock about everything.

09:02He left.

09:04Yeah.

09:05Good.

09:05The police are here.

09:06No, are they actually?

09:07No, you guys, the police are actually here.

09:09The police are actually here?

09:11Jessie.

09:12I think Jessie's upstairs.

09:13Jessie.

09:14The cops are here.

09:15Cops are here?

09:16Jessie, the police are here.

09:17No.

09:18You're joking.

09:20I'm going to cry.

09:21Are you fucking kidding me?

09:22We haven't even been here two months.

09:24We are new to this neighborhood.

09:25It's our first gathering.

09:27Hi, I'm so sorry.

09:28Did you guys get a complaint?

09:30Yeah, we got reports of people arguing.

09:32Yes.

09:33Jordan and I are wanting to die right now

09:35and just like hide under a rock

09:37because we're definitely getting kicked

09:38out of this neighborhood.

09:39Yeah, there were a few people here

09:41who were arguing.

09:42They ran out here and it continued out here

09:44because I told them to get out.

09:45So we've settled down, but not at all.

09:47No, it was just a lot of screaming,

09:49but we have a lot of people here

09:50who like shut it down and then they left.

09:53No, you're fine.

09:53You're fine.

09:54You didn't do anything.

09:55You're fine.

09:56I don't know why.

09:57Sorry, I just got scared for a second.

09:58I mean, I did too.

09:59Sorry, my brain, I'm like, I'm like in thinking mode.

10:01I'm like, can we hurry?

10:02Hide.

10:03Are their spouses or partners here still?

10:05No.

10:06They left with them?

10:07No, they went alone.

10:08It was like exes.

10:10It's like a tangled web.

10:12Have you watched Secret Life of the Wicked?

10:15Okay, I'm like, that would be the best way to describe it.

10:17Like, there's gonna be any retaliation?

10:19No, these two were the problem and they left.

10:20So we're good now.

10:21Okay, thank you guys.

10:22I'm so sorry.

10:24Now let's go have a good time.

10:25Now let's party.

10:26Woo!

10:27Give me a hug.

10:28Give me a hug.

10:29Give me a hug.

10:30Give me a hug.

10:31Give me a hug.

10:32Give me a hug.

10:33Give me a hug.

10:34Give me a hug.

10:35Give me a hug.

10:36Give me a hug.

10:37Give me a hug.

10:38Give me a hug.

10:39I think what Taylor's just about is that

10:41he manipulated Dakota to hear him out.

10:44First tapping her back, but I don't know.

10:46And so Dakota could have Taylor's back.

10:48He moved straight to it.

10:49I don't know.

10:51Okay, what do we do?

10:52We gotta go dance.

10:52I don't know because the party's so awkward now.

10:54Okay, then we go down and dance.

10:55And we break out.

10:55Should we just go down there?

10:56Let's just go down there with them.

10:58Okay, can everyone come to the living room?

11:00We're just gonna reset the intention of the night.

11:02I'm feeling very conflicted about Chippendales

11:04at this point because is this gonna lighten the mood

11:07or is everyone in such a bad mood

11:10that this is just gonna be a total flop?

11:11I really hope that Jordan and Brett can pull it together

11:13and just really shift the vibe of this party.

11:16All right, you guys.

11:17We have a little surprise for everyone.

11:19Now that the drama is done,

11:21we're gonna do a little performance.

11:22So everyone get ready.

11:23Who's excited?

11:24Yeah!

11:25Woo!

11:26Woo!

11:27Woo!

11:28Guest of honor is Jenny Boo.

11:31Woo!

11:32Guest of honor?

11:33Woo!

11:34Guest of honor?

11:35What?

11:35Right here, baby.

11:37Get ready to live.

11:39All right.

11:42I trust you.

11:44Okay, any more time and it's awkward, so.

11:46Yeah.

11:47We got this.

11:48All right.

11:51This is a really good moment for Zach to redeem himself.

11:54Bring on the Chippendales dancers.

11:55Come on, Zach.

11:56Don't let me down.

11:57Woo!

11:58Woo!

11:59Woo!

12:00Woo!

12:01Woo!

12:02Woo!

12:03Woo!

12:04Woo!

12:05Woo!

12:06Woo!

12:07Woo!

12:09Come on!

12:22Woo!

12:31This is the most embarrassing thing

12:32I've ever seen in my entire life.

12:34I literally am thinking it's a joke.

12:36thinking it's a joke.

12:37I'm watching Zach the whole time,

12:38and he looks pissed off.

12:40♪ I know you did it, oh my goodness ♪

12:44What's the deal?

12:45He's so high strung, it's a scandal.

12:50I don't know whether to have a good time right now,

12:53because I know that this is making Zach uncomfortable,

12:57and because of how both the me and Jessie

13:01treated my relationship prior to this,

13:03it makes me question their intentions.

13:04I'm a person, and that's what makes us human.

13:13I'm looking at Zach's face,

13:14and he does not look thrilled at all.

13:27Honestly, the show must go on.

13:35Woo!

13:37That was fun.

13:38That was hilarious.

13:39Was that fun?

13:39Yes, it was.

13:40Did you not see it as a performance?

13:43No, I loved it.

13:43Very performative.

13:44I'm telling you.

13:45Okay, you killed it.

13:46No, you killed it.

13:47You killed it.

13:48You're welcome.

13:48Yes!

13:49It's exposure time now, baby.

13:50You guys all were good sports.

13:52Good sports, and that was fun.

13:55You look good.

13:57I'm sorry.

13:58Oh, I'm fine, it just, that's, yeah.

14:00What even happened?

14:01Like, what triggered that?

14:03Well, Chase walked in the door,

14:05and then that's when it happened.

14:06Well, he just went straight to Dakota.

14:07Yeah, why were you mad at him?

14:09Because he was, like, not having my back.

14:11He was, like, leaving me.

14:12Dakota was, like, interrogating her with Chase.

14:13Like, he was, like, is that true?

14:15He was believing Chase.

14:16He just wanted to feel validated,

14:17and Chase was validating him in that moment,

14:19so then he hopped on the train.

14:21Yeah, so I was like, fuck you, and fuck you, too.

14:24At this point, Dakota has Chase's back,

14:26so I don't currently know what's going on

14:27with our relationship and where it goes from here.

14:29It's really weird to look someone in the eyes

14:31and then be able to just, like, lie to it.

14:33It's because he's a narcissist, and so is Dakota.

14:36I would think he should have done

14:37is defend you in that situation.

14:39Exactly.

14:39He should have done interrogating you with Chase.

14:41Well, who cares?

14:42He's the worst.

14:43You need to not entertain him.

14:44But he's also the father of my child, so, like.

14:46Sure, and he should only be that.

14:51That was cute.

14:52I want you guys to do it again.

14:53Round two.

14:54Put it on me this time.

15:01Well, you better be.

15:03I'm going with the rail after Jippindale.

15:05I'm not going through that again.

15:23Let's go.

15:26What the heck?

15:29You won't go up there.

15:31He needs some candy.

15:33They're gonna get you.

15:34Run, run, run.

15:35Say happy Halloween.

15:36I have been dealing with so much shit lately.

15:38There's a lot of drama going on

15:40and mom talk at this moment,

15:41so I'm looking forward to meeting up with my sisters

15:43for Halloween to just take a break.

15:46I think they're done.

15:49Okay, Haven, you ready?

15:50Don't pick your nose.

15:56With my family, it's important every holiday for us

15:59to get the kids together so that they can spend time

16:02doing fun traditions.

16:04Perfect.

16:06Easy, see?

16:07It only took like 30 minutes.

16:08My sister's costumes are definitely

16:10my favorite part of Halloween this year.

16:12Wait, turn back.

16:16One of them showed up as me

16:18and the other showed up as Whitney.

16:19She's wearing the classic headband

16:22and on the back she has a sign that says,

16:23I'm never wrong.

16:24Oh my gosh.

16:27It was so good.

16:31This is where I get all my pettiness from.

16:33Us?

16:34Yes.

16:35Well, from mom.

16:37We just did girls night or like a happy hour

16:41at Miranda's house that she invited everyone to.

16:44Miranda?

16:45Yeah.

16:46Wait, I was not expecting that name.

16:47Is that awkward in the same room with her?

16:49Well, the only reason I went was to tell her how I felt,

16:54but I was a little mean.

16:59I think I said a little too much and I felt bad.

17:01I just feel like convenient timing,

17:02everything feels kind of fake to me about it.

17:06I was edging on the side of anger

17:07when I went into the conversation.

17:09I think I came off a little too harsh.

17:11I just feel like in our house,

17:13I feel like we grew up in a lot of anger

17:15and so when we express our feelings,

17:16it's holding it back.

17:18Yeah.

17:18It's like holding and holding and holding it

17:20until all of a sudden it explodes and you're mad.

17:22And it comes out so wrong.

17:23I think that's what's happening right now.

17:24But I was just surprised to see Miranda defend Taylor

17:27during the Halloween party.

17:29Hey, we're not doing this here.

17:30No, no.

17:31Get out.

17:32Chase, this wasn't gonna happen here.

17:35I think I've just let too many things happen

17:37for too many years that I'm like,

17:39actually, no, I'm kind of done taking people's shit.

17:41I'm at a point in my life where I'm like,

17:42I want to protect my peace and I want to be able

17:44to heal myself, my skin,

17:46and like all my chronic health issues.

17:49I think it's related to like deeper rooted trauma.

17:51This is the current state of my skin.

17:53Oh, it's just so rough because I've literally been doing,

17:57I've been cutting out sugar, gluen.

18:01I've been cutting back on all my dairy.

18:03It just felt like it's getting worse.

18:05It's basically like I've been going through

18:07an autoimmune disease without an autoimmune disease.

18:10But recently I've been working on finding my voice

18:12and learning how to express my feelings.

18:14And now my skin's been doing a lot better.

18:18It's hard because when my face is good, my body's bad.

18:21And then it'll swap where my face is horrible

18:23and my body's great.

18:24So I just need to get my whole body in tune with each other.

18:28But Jace always knows too,

18:30like I can't really express my emotions

18:32unless it's like anger.

18:34Because I don't know how to validate people's feelings

18:36because we didn't get that growing up.

18:37And so when people are trying to validate their feelings,

18:39I'm just like in attack mode.

18:41And I feel like it's just from not expressing my emotions

18:44for however many years, 24 years.

18:47Especially you, like especially you.

18:51I feel like a lot of it is super related to like trauma

18:55and things that happen and just all of that.

18:59Yeah.

19:08I was sexually abused for about like four or five years.

19:13I was young and so I wasn't,

19:15I didn't exactly know what was going on.

19:18And then when I was 15, I was like,

19:19it can't go on any longer.

19:21So Halloween of 2015,

19:24I ended up going to my mom

19:26and I felt like she didn't believe me.

19:32I feel like that's when I stopped telling people.

19:41After that point, it was like,

19:43I was hesitant to say anything to anybody.

19:45Cause I was like, well, no one's going to believe me.

19:49I think it just silenced me in a way.

19:54I think that was like the turning point

19:57where my body shifted and was like,

19:59every time I'm feeling something

20:00or feeling like anything hard, I can't even now.

20:05It's like, I can't express it.

20:07It's a tricky situation to navigate.

20:10Cause it's like, I don't know where to go from here.

20:12But I think the most important thing

20:13is finding the people that you can trust

20:15and the people that you feel comfortable around.

20:18I feel like on Halloween,

20:19that was like the last time that I was opening up.

20:30But that's just when I lost my voice.

20:34Such a deep wound of just hurt

20:37that I have a lot of fear of having to relive it

20:40and feel that all again.

20:41Okay, I need a break.

20:43But maybe I need to try going to therapy

20:46and finally allow myself to heal.

20:50I would say let's hug, but we don't do that.

21:02It's nice.

21:04Get some time in the morning for us.

21:06The Halloween party was intense.

21:09No, I know.

21:10The Chippendales situation.

21:11I think that this is another jab

21:13from Jesse and Demi at Jen and I's expense.

21:17I don't know in what world they think

21:18that they have some right to give us exposure therapy.

21:21To force something onto someone

21:22and especially not tell them,

21:24I don't think you can claim to have a good intention.

21:27Like I, like a man, went and sat down with them,

21:31told them my issues I had with them.

21:33I talked to them about the issues they had with me.

21:35I said some super hurtful things to Jen.

21:37I look like the biggest hypocrite in the world.

21:39I don't feel like that's who I am

21:41and that's not who I want to be.

21:43Four days later at their Halloween party

21:46with a hundred friends we don't know,

21:48we're made into the comedy act so that they can laugh.

21:51It's a different story if Brett reaches out

21:53and says like, Zach, are you cool with this?

21:56Or even the girls.

21:57I mean, did they ask you if they could?

22:00No.

22:03So, I mean, it shows a lot of who they are as people.

22:06I did hear Jesse and Demi kind of bring it up jokingly

22:09when I was at Jesse's salon,

22:12but I didn't think they were serious to be honest.

22:15I knew partially of what they were going to do.

22:19Brett is going to come in like normal costume,

22:22rip it off into like a chicken nose.

22:24I love that.

22:25But I didn't realize how bad this was upset Zach.

22:28I just wanted to be the fun friend who just said, yeah,

22:33and that it would be so awesome.

22:34But I didn't really question their intentions behind it.

22:37And I also didn't ask myself how I felt about it.

22:40They're shitty friends.

22:41It's like, this is our marriage.

22:43This isn't a game.

22:45And like real friends wouldn't do that.

22:46Genuinely.

22:47Yeah.

22:49I feel like I'm tossed in the middle

22:52having to pick between my marriage

22:55and all the girls and mom talk.

22:57It definitely feels like I have no one to turn to right now.

23:02And that's really hard.

23:03It's just honestly a toxic environment

23:05and not the kind of place where I want to be like

23:08honestly raising our kids.

23:09I just wish that after the party

23:12didn't put the frustration you're feeling

23:15towards Demi and Jesse on me.

23:18After the Halloween party, Zach got upset about it.

23:21And he was jumping to conclusions

23:23and putting his frustration on me

23:25without getting the whole picture or the whole story.

23:28It was definitely triggering for me.

23:30I'm not frustrated at you, Jen.

23:31I just-

23:32You were frustrated at me.

23:33We're continually going to these parties

23:35and spending time with these people

23:36who clearly don't have good intentions

23:38for you or for our family.

23:40I just also want you to acknowledge

23:42the frustration you put on me.

23:44Yeah, I am frustrated because I feel like

23:47I'm having to stick up and defend our family.

23:49And it's making me look like the bad guy

23:51when these are your friends.

23:53Like if my friends were doing these kinds of things to us

23:56I would confront them and, or I would drop them.

23:59So much was happening.

24:00I didn't feel like there was room for me to confront them.

24:04It felt like Chippendales all over again.

24:06Just like you being-

24:07Jen.

24:08I'm not to the-

24:09I'm not-

24:11Hold on.

24:12No, not to the-

24:12Okay.

24:13Don't even.

24:14No, you just listen to me real quick.

24:16You just listen to me.

24:17Not to the extent, obviously,

24:20you're frustrated about the whole thing

24:22and you're frustrated about-

24:23Not at you, at Jesse and to me.

24:25Yes.

24:26Because they're not good friends.

24:27I know, but I wish you wouldn't put that frustration on me

24:29and you would ask me how I'm feeling

24:31than like how you're feeling.

24:33But you bring me to these parties with your friends

24:37and then I get put in these situations.

24:39I think there is a lot of things

24:40that I do need to take accountability for.

24:43I just don't think everyone sees the full context

24:46and doesn't see the other side of things.

24:48Like you also have to own up to like

24:50how you treat me after these situations

24:52that I'm not putting myself into.

24:53I just honestly felt like pretty like alone.

24:59Okay.

24:59Just-

25:00I can't do this.

25:02I'm sorry.

25:05Are you gonna hear me out?

25:06Are you gonna listen to me?

25:07Or are you just gonna walk away?

25:08I would like to take a break for a second.

25:10Will you please cut the camera?

25:11I don't wanna do this.

25:13I don't wanna take a break.

25:14I wanna openly have this conversation.

25:16I'm not down to have this conversation right now.

25:19This, I'm not getting this twisted on me again.

25:23You're making it about you and how you feel.

25:25You haven't considered how I felt about the situation.

25:27Okay, we can film this later.

25:28I'm not gonna do this.

25:29I'm not gonna have this flipped back on me again

25:33because you have crazy ass friends.

25:36I've been doing so much work to handle things differently,

25:39to go about things differently.

25:41And Jen is such a sweet, pure hearted person

25:46that I think, yeah,

25:47sometimes I feel like I kind of get a little bit,

25:53I don't know.

25:55I don't wanna say anything bad about Jen.

25:59I need you to own up to this.

26:00I'm not being quiet about it.

26:02And if you don't wanna be on camera, then you can go.

26:04If you don't wanna be a part of this,

26:05if you don't wanna be a part of this marriage, you can go.

26:07And I'm only moving forward in this marriage

26:09if you take accountability.

26:15♪ Hey, we gonna play and have some fun, fun ♪

26:19♪ We gonna rise after the sun's up ♪

26:22♪ Cause we are one and everyone, oh, oh ♪

26:26♪ And we are here to have some fun ♪

26:32Baby number three.

26:34So I get out of bed and I'm headed to the bathroom

26:39and then all of a sudden this gush of water comes out.

26:43TMI, sorry.

26:44And I'm in labor.

26:47You ready?

26:48I'm so excited.

26:50It's time though.

26:51I heard there was drama at Jesse's Halloween party,

26:54but lucky me, I can't afford being involved

26:57in any big drama because I'm about to give birth

26:59and I'm so excited to start this new chapter in our lives.

27:02Okay, so this is your room.

27:05This is where we're gonna have the birthday party.

27:06This is so exciting.

27:07Yeah.

27:10So I really appreciate you carrying our child

27:12and all the love that you've given me and our children

27:15and the love you're gonna give this baby.

27:17Being a mom is one of the greatest callings

27:21a woman can have.

27:22Big breaths, breathe in your nose, out your mouth.

27:26You are so strong, Whitney.

27:28That's genuinely the closest I feel to heaven.

27:31Big, slow breaths.

27:34You got it.

27:35It's the greatest miracle,

27:37the greatest blessing anyone could ever experience.

27:41And there's a certain significance

27:43with having this baby with Connor

27:45because we did go through so much

27:48and we worked so hard to get this relationship

27:51that we have today.

27:52I'll forever be so grateful

27:53that I gave Connor a second chance.

27:55This baby wouldn't be here

27:57if we were able to overcome what we went through.

27:59It's okay, I have you, I have you, I have you.

28:02There's no other person I'd love to be in this room

28:05and experience this with than my husband, Connor.

28:10Oh my God, Whitney.

28:11Oh my God.

28:13What do we got?

28:14It's a boy.

28:15Oh my God.

28:15Oh my God, she has so much hair.

28:18Good job, you did it.

28:22I know how easy it is to get caught up

28:24in the world and worldly things,

28:27but every time I'm holding a newborn

28:32or a baby or one of my children,

28:35I'm reminded this is what matters.

28:37This is what matters in this life.

28:43I love you.

28:51He's here.

28:52He's beautiful.

28:57I love you.

29:04Some of the girls and I are getting together

29:05with our kids today.

29:06We are taking them to a farm

29:08that has a lot of pumpkins and rides.

29:10You guys look so cute.

29:12Thanks.

29:13You too.

29:13Jen's not here.

29:14She's kind of been off the grid.

29:16I'm okay with it.

29:16Hey, Lorraine.

29:18There she is.

29:19Hi, baby.

29:20Ooh, you look cute.

29:21I'm excited to see the kids play together

29:23and just have a fun, lighthearted day.

29:26Hello.

29:26Hi.

29:27How are you?

29:28Good.

29:29How are you?

29:30Fine.

29:31Go find me a ride?

29:31Yeah, let's do it.

29:35Hi, girl.

29:36Get out of here.

29:38Arlo, same team.

29:39Oh, hi.

29:40I'm, like, shaking.

29:41I don't want to be stuck if it's hot.

29:43Put your hands in the air.

29:46Wait, I can go in?

29:48I don't like it either.

29:49Wait, my pussy's tingling.

29:51Oh, my God.

29:52Oh, my God.

29:56That's fun.

29:57Let's go play in the corn.

29:59Jagger, come on.

30:00We're going to eat our food first.

30:02Okay, Jagger, don't put it in your mouth.

30:04Harlow, don't throw it.

30:05Up with that.

30:06That's so nice.

30:07Do you have hand sanitizer?

30:08I know.

30:08I was like,

30:09Macy's going to ask someone to clean the table first.

30:11Yep.

30:13I don't like the germs, you guys.

30:15Have you talked to Whitney at all?

30:17Jen and I went yesterday and got her a gift.

30:20Wait, I want to know how you and Jen got so close.

30:22Just been hanging out.

30:25I am going to kind of have to win these girls over

30:28if I want to come back to mom talk.

30:30And I think Jen and I have a lot of similarities.

30:33I can relate to her because I know what it's like

30:35to have your marriage so publicly scrutinized.

30:38No one understands unless they've been there.

30:40Feels like I'm having to explain myself

30:43when I should just be receiving support.

30:46And they see this.

30:48Yes.

30:48When there's like this all underneath.

30:50Yes.

30:51People don't see.

30:51I support your marriage.

30:52And if you guys are working through it,

30:54I'm rooting for you guys.

30:55The girls aren't the biggest fans of Jen right now,

30:58but I'm just trying not to rock the boat

31:01because I'm not even in mom talk yet.

31:04I think she just feels alone with the whole Zach thing.

31:08Cause she doesn't want to upset him.

31:10But then she also feels like if she opens up to you guys,

31:13she's like, I already kind of know like their answer.

31:15Well, to be fair, when she's opened up to us,

31:17it's either a lie or Zach doesn't know she's saying it.

31:19And that's what gets her in trouble.

31:21She's done things that have bitten her own self in the ass.

31:24So are you guys all not cool with Jen?

31:27I feel like I'm just not her biggest fan

31:28for what she's done to like you, especially.

31:31What'd she do to you?

31:34She's just kind of vindictive.

31:38I was one of the girls that went on the Italy trip

31:40at Vanderpump Villa this summer.

31:41And I know for a fact that nothing happened,

31:43but to me and the guys.

31:45Are you doing credit?

31:46I'm done for.

31:47We will.

31:48You're gonna be hanging out with us.

31:51Jen was definitely judging Demi

31:53for being flirty with these guys.

31:55If that's okay in your marriage,

31:57I'm not judging you for it.

31:58But then Jen turned around and flip it

32:00as a way to use it against her, almost as blackmail.

32:02We had a sit down talk with her and Zach.

32:05And we were talking about just the disconnect

32:08between what she was saying versus what Zach was saying.

32:10But instead of like taking the opportunity

32:12to like focus on that, she took the opportunity

32:15to like try to throw me under the bus.

32:17And like, was like, well, what about villas?

32:19And what about, and I'm like,

32:21okay, hold on, we're talking about you and Zach.

32:23Like none of this concerns you in any way.

32:25I think that when Jen is in situations

32:27where she feels that she's ganged up on and isolated,

32:30she likes to deflect and kind of throw out

32:32whatever daggers she can to take the heat off of herself.

32:36Her motives are not good.

32:38So I'm just like, until I see different,

32:39like this is where we are.

32:41There's just so much I feel like I have to catch up on.

32:45Jagger's chomping at the bit to do something.

32:47Should we go take them on a ride?

32:48Don't put them in someone's shoes, Jagger.

32:50Stop.

32:52Jagger, do you want to go see the animals with your friends?

32:55Okay.

32:56I'll take you guys.

32:57Polka wants to go with you guys too.

32:59Okay, let's do the corn maze.

33:00Yay.

33:01Okay, let's hope we come out friends.

33:02We'll just go in this.

33:03Truce, no matter how this goes down.

33:05If you have to pee, just go in there.

33:06Yeah, just squat right here.

33:09Good old times.

33:14Miranda was like another level of like friendship.

33:16Like she was my best friend.

33:17Like we would talk two hours a day on the phone.

33:20I'd see her probably three times a week

33:22and it ended overnight.

33:23If you're gonna like come into our circle again

33:25and come into mom talk,

33:26I would hope at this point you're willing

33:27to like be open and honest.

33:29Because if you're not, I will clear the air.

33:32I won't be called a liar

33:34because everything I've said is true.

33:36I'm ready to move on.

33:39Well, how have you been feeling about being around me?

33:42Yeah, I'm like almost maybe in shock.

33:44Like we should have a conversation

33:46because your stories still are like a little different.

33:48And so I'm just confused.

33:50I feel like a lot of animosity still

33:51like about the whole situation.

33:52The only time I like touched anyone

33:54or did anything with anyone was kissing.

33:57I'm hoping Taylor is ready to really have

34:01what I hope is the final conversation.

34:04I just want to clear it up once and for all.

34:06There wasn't anything beyond that.

34:14What I wanted to get across was that I was like,

34:17when Taylor said everyone was hooking up with everyone,

34:18I'm like, that wasn't the case.

34:19I didn't hook up with anyone.

34:20I think when people think like swinging parties

34:22was not really like, I guess for me,

34:25like what I would picture.

34:26Maybe we have a different definition of involvement then.

34:29I didn't mean sex.

34:31I just meant we were all doing things with each other.

34:33I don't want to get it twisted.

34:35Height of what I was involved in was kissing people.

34:37It wasn't just kissing.

34:41I don't know what to say about it.

34:42Yeah, it's true, but like also not.

34:44It's just downplaying what actually happened.

34:46I feel like it's like we did everything Love Island does.

34:49Seen Love Island where they play the games.

34:51But I was just kind of like.

34:52Plus a little more.

34:54No one had sex as far as I know, so.

34:58Yes, you didn't have sex with the husband,

35:00but like you didn't just kiss people

35:02though you participated in all these things.

35:04I mean, I can just start listening.

35:06We did have sex in the shower

35:08with our husbands all together.

35:10We also had sex in the same bed at the same time.

35:13We would blindfold each other

35:15and you would have to guess which husband you were kissing.

35:18And a couple of times we did that.

35:20We also had a night where it was just four husbands

35:24and you and me, they asked us to go get in short shorts.

35:26So we did.

35:27And then we came down and we were so drunk.

35:29We were making out and we were on top of each other

35:30and they all filmed it on their phones.

35:36I mean, Taylor's not wrong.

35:39At this point, I don't even know if I should say,

35:41yes, I am a swinger.

35:42No, I'm not a swinger.

35:43You guys can call it whatever you want.

35:44You tell me if I know or not.

35:46How are you guys feeling about Miranda?

35:48I feel better about Miranda than I feel about Whitney.

35:51When I'm around her, I enjoy being around her.

35:52That's what I'm saying.

35:53Well, I'm glad to hear

35:54that maybe you guys are softening on her.

35:56It might be easier if she's around.

35:57Well, I don't have any anger now.

35:59I'm still hesitant of the timing of things

36:02and the intentions.

36:03And she knows that.

36:04The only thing that makes me nervous

36:05is just that she is attaching herself to like Jen.

36:08Yes.

36:09I don't know why it makes me nervous.

36:10You're gonna attach yourself to us.

36:11Yeah, I'm like, come on, join our group.

36:14I wonder what they're talking about.

36:17Being called a bad friend

36:18was like what I took really personal.

36:20And so I guess like, this is for me, like what this is.

36:24I am here and I came here to take accountability.

36:28So yeah, we've had sex in the same room.

36:30Like we've had like, like we had crazy parties in Mexico.

36:34And I'm like, I don't think you deserve to be lied to.

36:39Yeah, there were a handful of things that happened

36:41that I am still like, yeah, that's so embarrassing.

36:45I'm not gonna deny that.

36:46If I could go back,

36:47I would have handled everything differently.

36:49I think that I really let the fear of being perceived

36:52get the best of me.

36:54I just felt so out of control and so wronged.

36:58It was difficult for me to have a lot of like empathy

37:01for her, but I wish that I would have come out

37:05with what really did happen rather than denying everything

37:08that probably did make her feel worse and look worse.

37:12And that wasn't my intentions, it was very much,

37:15I'm terrified and I have a reputation as a Mormon to uphold.

37:18And I regret that.

37:20The sooner that we get through these hard conversations,

37:23the sooner we can hopefully build a genuine relationship

37:27and friendship.

37:28I just wanna move on and leave it all behind us

37:32for your sake, for my sake, for everyone's sake.

37:34But I won't make you go into any details.

37:36If you're like saying, yeah, we did crazy stuff

37:39along with like kissing, then that makes sense to me.

37:43I just say, I wanted to make sure we were like on

37:45the same page.

37:48I do feel like Miranda is trying to take the steps

37:50of admitting the things that she has done

37:52and just taking accountability.

37:54I know her very well.

37:55And I think there's a part of her that's very uncomfortable

37:58admitting those things, knowing that family and friends

38:02are gonna know and seem here about it.

38:04And it's like, I have a really soft spot for her in my heart

38:07and I still do love her.

38:11The whole like chase thing and like his feelings

38:14and all of that was just like gut wrenching.

38:17You know, I'm feeling like double betrayal.

38:18Yes.

38:19Betrayal from like my husband and from my best friend.

38:20There was just so much that I couldn't do

38:23the friendship anymore.

38:24And I understand that that like wasn't fair to you.

38:28Given how close we were, like I could see

38:30how betraying that would be.

38:31Yeah.

38:32I would be really sad about it.

38:33Yeah.

38:34So I hold that on me too.

38:38I hold that on me a lot.

38:39So it's not fair to hold resentment with you.

38:40Cause I'm just like, I was not a good friend at that time.

38:47Sorry.

38:50I was a really bad friend and maybe I was a bad person

38:54and I'm sure Taylor can relate, but it was a lot.

38:58Things we both did to each other.

39:00Yeah.

39:01I feel like that's fair to just let it go.

39:04Like I'm like leave Taylor in 2022, like in the past.

39:08Cause I feel like I'm a completely different person.

39:10I don't know if you can tell, but yeah, I just like,

39:12I do not like that version of myself.

39:14And I think that's why I'm stuck.

39:15I'm like not moved on because I'm like, I don't know.

39:19I don't know.

39:20Like, I can't even like actually talk about it.

39:22Cause it's like.

39:24I understand.

39:25I just don't know how someone can be like that horrible.

39:28You?

39:28Yeah.

39:29Like that person I was like very selfish.

39:32I feel like I was such like a good person up until like

39:35those, like that time.

39:37And like, I was so loyal to my husband, to my best friend.

39:41Like I told him like a lot, like, I'm not going to do this.

39:44Cause I'm like, I'm a loyal wife.

39:46And then I think as things went on, like I was,

39:50I got weaker and weaker the more we did it.

39:53I don't know how I did that to him.

39:56And like you, I don't know.

39:59I just, I hate her.

40:00Like I hate her.

40:02Yeah. But Taylor, if you wouldn't, if you weren't her,

40:05you wouldn't be where you are now.

40:06Like you.

40:07Which I don't know.

40:08It's a good thing.

40:09Like, I'm like in and out.

40:11Do you not think that you're better than where you were?

40:13Yeah. I'm a better person.

40:14Hopefully.

40:15Yeah. Absolutely.

40:16Like I told you how I, I've seen it in you.

40:19I think it's more than fair for you to give yourself

40:21a little bit of grace.

40:23Miranda and I talking here does make me realize

40:27I do miss the friendship.

40:28Her and I have like this natural chemistry

40:30that we just like gravitate towards each other.

40:33And I have never had someone like that,

40:35but I don't know if I want to be her best friend.

40:38Like, obviously there's a ton of history.

40:39So time will tell with that.

40:45♪ I'm losing sight of seeing it all. ♪

40:51♪ Losing the fight, creating the fall. ♪

40:53♪ I'm just getting tired of standing tall. ♪

40:58♪ Hey, hey, it's a long way down. ♪

41:01♪ It's a long way down from the hill. ♪

41:04Hello.

41:05Hi, Mikayla.

41:06How the heck have you been?

41:09Busy.

41:10Yeah.

41:11Lots going on.

41:11So what are you thinking that you want to focus on today?

41:15Maybe retouch on some trauma.

41:18Okay. Yeah.

41:19So I'd like to maybe see if we can go back

41:22to that 14 year old, you know, Mikayla.

41:24Who do you think you want to take your power back

41:27from the most?

41:31My mom.

41:32I think it's also maybe just becoming comfortable

41:35with keeping it in for so long and shoving it down

41:38and the fear of bringing it up as well.

41:43Yeah.

41:44Don't know how to process it, so just keep it down.

41:47Is it getting harder to keep it there?

41:51Are you noticing it have more effects?

41:54Definitely have more effects, I would say.

41:57Notice it spilling out into different relationships

42:00or different areas.

42:04Growing up, I think we all kind of inherited the trait

42:06of you push everything under the rug,

42:08you don't talk about it until it gets to the boiling point.

42:11And for me, it was presenting itself in physical ways

42:14and it was like, I couldn't run away from it anymore.

42:17And so I was like, okay, well, I'm just going to go in

42:18and I'm going to head strong, just attack it.

42:21I still get like triggered by it

42:23and I still have the trauma response.

42:25So sometimes to take your power back,

42:28we need to do things now that you didn't have a chance

42:31to do when you were younger, right?

42:32So I want you to channel into the feistiest, snarkiest,

42:37meanest, bitchiest piece of yourself.

42:42Okay.

42:45I'm going to represent the person that was abusing you.

42:48And I want you to come at me.

42:50I want you to say what you really feel about me.

42:54You're a piece of shit.

42:56I can't do it.

42:56Yeah.

42:57I'm like, I can't do it.

42:58What else would you say to me?

43:02I know I'm not comfortable.

43:04It is uncomfortable, Michaela, for sure.

43:07It's uncomfortable for you to have to live with us,

43:10but you have a right to say you're peace.

43:14You have a right to say you had no right.

43:19You took advantage of me.

43:21I was a little girl, and you hurt me

43:27in a way you had no business ever putting hands on me.

43:38And you're a piece of shit.

43:41And you had no right to do it to me

43:44and take so much from me.

43:45And I feel a lot of hate towards you for it.

43:53I have to just not.

43:55You motherfucker.

43:59Amen.

44:03Amen.

44:05Is it any lighter?

44:06Is it still just as heavy as ever?

44:08Is it?

44:08I think it's a little lighter, for sure.

44:11Yeah.

44:12Yeah.

44:13Yeah.

44:15Yeah.

44:16It's a little bit lighter.

44:19I think just talking about it is a little healing.

44:23Talking about my past sexual abuse is not easy,

44:26but I feel like there's something really freeing

44:28about finally speaking my truth

44:30and expressing these emotions that I've held in for so long.

44:33And it's definitely something that I want to apply

44:35to every aspect of my life.

44:36I want to flip the script and break that cycle.

44:40Is it something that you could leave here

44:42instead of tucking it back inside of you?

44:46Yeah.

45:03Are you gonna spit up again?

45:06There it is.

45:09That's what you wanted to happen.

45:13Oh my gosh.

45:14Hi.

45:15You just had a baby.

45:16I know.

45:17Oh my goodness.

45:19You forget.

45:20Yes.

45:21Every single time you forget.

45:22Here, yeah, let's go in here.

45:23It is perfect.

45:25Macy and I are visiting Whitney today

45:27and just checking on how she's doing postpartum.

45:31Hello.

45:32Oh my gosh, you guys are the great stuff.

45:34Hi, of course we're right.

45:35I wouldn't say I'm like besties with Whitney,

45:37but I have no issues with Whitney

45:38and I'm here if she needs a friend.

45:41It is tiny.

45:42I know.

45:43So small.

45:44So Whitney reached out to me to get together

45:46to kind of just hash everything out.

45:47I feel like I reached out to you like ever so often.

45:49You didn't respond to me

45:51and then all of a sudden you posted a personal text online.

45:53And then I'm like, what the hell?

45:55So it felt like a stab in the back to be honest.

45:57I wish that I would have just talked to you

46:00rather than running away and I'm sorry.

46:02I just can't help but feel bad for her

46:04and I do think that she regrets

46:06all of the things that happened.

46:07I wish that I would have just talked to you

46:09and I do think that she regrets all of the things

46:10that happened.

46:11I mean, Jesus told us to forgive and love thy neighbor.

46:14So that's why I'm forgiving.

46:15You want a little dip?

46:16Yeah.

46:17He's so freaking cute.

46:20Look at his hair.

46:21He might be getting hungry though.

46:22He's like opening his mouth.

46:24I'm glad you're like doing good

46:27and you're up and you're like all around,

46:29which is crazy.

46:30Yeah.

46:31Okay, wait, I have to know.

46:32What happened at the Halloween party?

46:34Oh gosh, that was a nightmare.

46:35Maybe give her like a summary.

46:37What happened?

46:38What didn't happen really.

46:40I know Chase showed up

46:41because Miranda told me Chase was lying.

46:42Well, that's when chaos started.

46:43Okay.

46:44We just started going at him.

46:45It was bad.

46:46Dakota was in the middle like believing him.

46:48I'm like, why would you believe him

46:50when you can see he's lying?

46:52The biggest issue I had at the Halloween party

46:54was kind of Dakota not defending me

46:56as much as I thought he would to Chase.

46:58Did you tell me that Jimmy had a sex dream about me?

47:00Yeah.

47:01You never told me that.

47:02Oh, you never told him that?

47:03That's crazy.

47:05She left that out too.

47:05That's really opportunistic.

47:06So yeah, so that's why I'm saying.

47:08Almost as if he's looking for something

47:10to justify like the lies I found out.

47:13It makes it hard to move forward,

47:15especially when things like this come up and happen.

47:16It's like, it's like almost we take two steps back.

47:20Isn't that crazy? Can you believe that?

47:22And then the cops came.

47:24Yeah, they're all yelling at Chase.

47:25It was crazy.

47:26And I'm like, what the hell?

47:28When you give birth, it's just you and this baby.

47:31As we're sitting here talking,

47:32I'm just constantly reminded of how much I miss this.

47:34I miss being around even the other women

47:36and I miss us all being together.

47:39Girlfriend's crying.

47:40Miranda's crying.

47:42That's when Jordan freaks out.

47:43He's like, take accountability.

47:45Take ownership!

47:46You're bullshit.

47:47Take ownership right now.

47:48That's what I did.

47:49No, take ownership.

47:50That was wild.

47:52And then I guess she didn't know.

47:53Like it was so weird.

47:54But that's craziness.

47:55That's like insane.

47:57I can't believe I'm about to say this out loud,

47:59but I think I want to come back into mom talk.

48:02I'm back.

48:16I've definitely felt very isolated.

48:20It definitely feels like I have no one to turn to right now.

48:26It feels like Jesse and Demi are trying to sabotage me

48:31in my relationship.

48:34This whole time you were talking about

48:36how you were this supportive friend to me.

48:39If mom talk is about friendship,

48:41then why are you doing this to me?

48:44If you truly knew what I have been going through

48:46this past year, this is the last thing

48:48that you would be doing.

48:52Hey, I went to the store.

48:54Yeah.

48:58I mean, I'm 10 days late now.

49:00So, I think we should take a pregnancy test.

49:08Okay, let's do it.

49:10Okay.

49:11You just want me to wait right here?

49:13Will you come in the bathroom?

49:15Wow.

49:16Or after I...

49:17Sure, yeah.

49:21Okay.

49:31Do you want to look at it together?

49:33Yeah.

49:47I'm so sorry.

49:49I'm really happy looking at this for the first time.

49:54I'm really scared.

49:56I'm really scared.

50:00I started feeling depressed and anxious

50:03because my life has been really rocky

50:07and all over the place.

50:10So, I am

50:14and stressed out of my mind

50:17with the thought of me being pregnant

50:20because Zach and I aren't on the best of terms.

50:26And I think the last thing we need is another baby.

50:31I'm okay.

50:39Ready to look at it?

50:40Yeah.

50:48Yeah, I'm pregnant.

50:56Oh, mama.

51:00Yeah, I'm just scared

51:05because I'm not the person I want to be

51:09before bringing in another child.

51:12So, I'm sad for this child

51:15because I don't even know where my marriage is at.

51:19And so, I think in this moment,

51:26I've kind of come to my breaking point.

51:37Do you want it harder or softer?

51:39Oh, I like that.

51:41Do you ever think you'd be back at a mom talk sex party?

51:45I mean, Miranda's a great kisser.

51:47A few months ago, I got confessions.

51:49It said, I slept with Demi's husband last year

51:51while she was away.

51:53Tensions in mom talk have been really high right now.

51:56I feel like I'm so alone with my marriage

51:58and what I'm at with all the girls.

52:00Okay, now it's time for you guys to confess

52:04something that you've held in that you've never told people.

52:06So, I'm gonna go ahead and confess.

52:08I'm gonna confess that I'm pregnant.

52:11I'm gonna confess that I'm pregnant.

52:12I'm gonna confess that I'm pregnant.

52:14I'm gonna confess that I'm pregnant.

52:16So many secrets.

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