Eastenders 19th May 2025
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00:00Music
00:12Come on, come on, you know, you know what you're meant to be doing, don't you?
00:26Come on, please, it's alright.
00:56Music
01:21Mum? Mum, are you awake? Mum, please. I hope I'll keep crying. She said she wants you. Mum, please.
01:40Why didn't you tell me he was asleep in there?
01:52Well, he's not crying, so I thought he was just a shame. Why would they? He literally never sleeps. I swear, he's been crying so much recently, I thought I'd just block it out. You know, like people when they live next to airports.
02:14Well, don't forget him settled. Best mum ever.
02:22Oh, I thought the formula was just for emergencies.
02:25Yeah, well, it is, but I ran out of express milk and I was up half the night trying to get him to latch on, so.
02:35Oh, so maybe it's time to try something new. We can get one of them, er, er, prep machines. That would help with the night feeds, maybe. Think about it, me, my boy, a back catalogue of movies I've never gotten around to watching.
02:46Hang on, I'm not saying that I'm ready to give up breastfeeding. I just thought about using the formula, but then I managed to pump some milk and then I got him off in the end. I mean, you've seen him in there.
02:58Peter, I really need to give this my best shot. I mean, he's not exactly had the best start in life, has he? Because of me.
03:05What if the way he is is... what if there's something wrong with him?
03:10Like what? Being too perfect?
03:17Oh, I think you're amazing.
03:22It's just... with Louis, it was a bit more natural. I mean, not easy, but...
03:28Yeah, just like this.
03:31The whole babies are different. That's what they say, isn't it?
03:35Just get yourself up to bed. I'll get Louis off to school and I'll take care of his nibs when he eventually wakes up.
03:39Oh, I'm on the shopping list. Nappies, ready meals, methadone from the chemist.
03:49No, go on, look. You do the school run, I'll quickly get dressed and then I'll just bring him with me to get all this, yeah?
03:56Fine. Our boys are very lucky to have you.
04:00She wouldn't even give her a hug. No, I don't get it. Last week she was out of bed.
04:08I think it's the ha-ha thing. What it's done to Nan. She just really knocked her. I could kill that Cathy.
04:14I don't think I'm ever going back to that Cathy. Unless I'm starving, but...
04:18Lily! Yeah, just come in!
04:20Look, I've got to get the kids a school put. And I've got to do a load of washing.
04:24And if I don't get some food in this house, we're all going to starve.
04:26Do you know what I can do? School run?
04:28Yeah, you've got to buy a clue.
04:31Then what about the nam factor? I just think if we told Aunty Cat...
04:35No. No, we don't tell anyone. Not even Aunty Cat. Do you understand me? No one.
04:40Kids, come on! I'm off for breakfast!
04:47Peter still hasn't messaged me back just cos these mums are walking, talking, sex lies and videotape.
04:51I mean, he hasn't got to punish the rest of us.
04:53He's hurting. We let him down.
04:55Speak for yourself. I'm not a member of the jolly adulterers club.
04:57No offence.
04:59I was thinking about checking in across the road, but...
05:01It might be best to give my pet a space.
05:03Could go the same for Peter.
05:04Well, he's got a newborn.
05:05I mean, he needs us. He just hasn't realised it yet.
05:06Hmm.
05:07That's great, Whit.
05:08You'll feel better when you're up there.
05:10Of course I won't tell anyone where you are, come on.
05:13Right, just give me a call when you're settled.
05:15I'm sorry.
05:16I'm sorry.
05:17I'm sorry.
05:18I'm sorry.
05:19I'm sorry.
05:20I'm sorry.
05:21I'm sorry.
05:22I'm sorry.
05:23I'm sorry.
05:24I'm sorry.
05:25I'm sorry.
05:26Let's settle.
05:27Speak to you later.
05:28Is everything alright?
05:29Listen.
05:30I know you mean wrong.
05:31Just please stay out of this.
05:32I ain't gonna tell you what to do.
05:33But, it's like what Sharon said.
05:34Whatever we owe to each other, we're both her family.
05:36You look stressed.
05:37Who else have you got to talk to around here?
05:38No.
05:39No.
05:40It's weird.
05:41She's found a permanent place for her and the girls up in Inverness.
05:45But, she's worried Nicola's gonna find out where she is and she'll have to move on again.
05:46Maybe you should go up there.
05:47Maybe you should go up there.
05:48Give Whitney some peace of mind.
05:49Give Whitney some peace of mind.
05:50Spend some proper quality time with Dolly.
05:51Do you think Ravi will have something to say about me swerving on her?
05:52I'm sorry.
05:53I'm sorry.
05:54I'm sorry.
05:55I'm sorry.
05:56I'm sorry.
05:57I'm sorry.
05:58I'm sorry.
05:59I'm sorry.
06:00I'm sorry.
06:01I'm sorry.
06:02I'm sorry.
06:03I'm sorry.
06:04But, she's worried Nicola's gonna find out where she is and she'll have to move on again.
06:11Maybe you should go up there.
06:13Give Whitney some peace of mind.
06:15Spend some proper quality time with Dolly.
06:17Do you think Ravi will have something to say about me swerving all my shifts?
06:22I ain't talking about just going for a day or two.
06:26Seems to me, all there is for you around here is trouble.
06:34That's not all there is.
06:36It don't have to be forever.
06:40Think about it.
06:51I was just dropping off some bits of a little Jimmy.
06:54Never could resist buying baby clothes.
06:56What's that then?
06:57Brabbery?
06:58I thought me and you were starting to understand each other.
07:00But now push comes to shove and you seem to have sided with everybody else.
07:04What do you expect?
07:05Poor Cathy.
07:06Well, poor Jean actually.
07:08My issues with Ian and St Cathy shouldn't affect my relationship with Peter and the boys.
07:14It's not just down to me.
07:15Can you not talk to Peter?
07:17And let him see I'm a mum above everything else.
07:21You know how much those boys mean to me.
07:23Look, I've got a newborn.
07:25I'm sleep deprived.
07:26My boobs are leaking.
07:27And to be honest, even on a good day I would rather stick my head in an oven than get involved in your family drama.
07:35Let me help you, Lauren.
07:37I can spend time with little Jimmy and I did help bring him into the world, didn't I?
07:42Nice try.
07:43I think I remember I did a lot of the hard work.
07:46Just go.
07:47I've got things I've got to do.
07:48Look, out of all my kids, Peter is the only one who didn't turn his back on me.
07:53Even when he thought I was dead, you know, I was still part of his life.
07:57I know he deserves so much better, but I'm his mum.
08:01No matter what I do, how much I let him down, nothing can change that.
08:06I know everything I do affects my kids.
08:08I mean, imagine in 20 years' time if little Jimmy wasn't speaking to you, how heartbroken you'd be.
08:15Please, Lauren, as a mum, don't cut me out of their lives.
08:20I thought you might like one of these.
08:35I would have too, by mistake.
08:38Must have forgotten I was on my own.
08:41Not a lot of dementia humour about, you've got to take it where you find it.
08:44You spend so much time looking out for other people.
08:49I thought I'd return the favour.
08:51That's very kind of you.
08:53I set all these reminders.
08:55The thing keeps buzzing the whole time.
09:00It's Claire's birthday.
09:02She's 40.
09:04It's mine on Saturday.
09:0667.
09:07How did that happen?
09:08Oop.
09:10Time was.
09:11We'd celebrate our birthdays together.
09:14So why you don't give her a card?
09:15You might be wondering why you didn't send her a card.
09:17No.
09:18We had a falling out of what I'd like.
09:20I don't think she'd want to hear from me.
09:23Sometimes it's all the more reason to reach out.
09:26How's your name?
09:30Erm, I don't know.
09:31Why'd you ask?
09:32Well, I was just wondering how she was doing.
09:35Yeah, she's fine.
09:36My nan's fine.
09:37We're all fine.
09:40Hey, Lily.
09:42Lovely to see you.
09:43You know, I know things must be tough at the moment with me moving out.
09:46But, er, it hasn't changed how much I care.
09:49Oh, leave off, Arv.
09:51The only thing you care about is you and that old tart.
09:54Don't talk about Kathy that way, please.
09:56I'm glad you're here, actually.
09:58Save me a trick.
10:00Your final pay slip.
10:02I'm not giving wages to someone that treats my family like dirt.
10:05You can't do that.
10:06It's called Cat's Cabs.
10:07So I can do what I like.
10:08So you turn around and crawl back under your rock.
10:17Scumbag!
10:20Hold on a minute.
10:21Are you at school?
10:23I am.
10:25Free period.
10:26I've got to get back.
10:32Can I get a decaf latte, please?
10:34Take away.
10:35All right.
10:36All right.
10:37All right.
10:38You all right?
10:39Come on.
10:40All right.
10:41Oh.
10:42Oh.
10:43Listen, I was going to pop round and say congrats on that, but it's just one of them unwritten
10:47rules.
10:48I mean, don't go and knock on a door with a sleeping baby inside.
10:51Well, we ain't got to worry about that, because this one doesn't like to sleep.
10:55Well, I'll tell you what.
10:56It seems like a million years ago that Dolly was a noble.
10:58How often do you get to go see her?
10:59Not as often as I'd like, you know.
11:00I might be spending a bit more time with them, actually, thinking about getting a place
11:01up me a bit for a while.
11:02Oh.
11:03She'll probably love that, having your support.
11:04How is she?
11:05Well, I don't really have a right bud.
11:06I do miss her.
11:07Yeah, she's good.
11:08Loves being a mum.
11:09I mean, you must be an expert now as number two.
11:10What's that?
11:11Louie was a dream.
11:12This one, this, every time I pick him up, he doesn't really like that, but then when
11:19I put him down, he don't really have a right bud.
11:21I don't really have a right bud.
11:22I do miss her.
11:23Yeah, she's good.
11:24Loves being a mum.
11:25I mean, you must be an expert now as number two.
11:26What's that?
11:27Louie was a dream.
11:28This one, this, every time I pick him up, he doesn't really like that, but then when
11:41I put him down, he don't really like that.
11:42It's just like, he doesn't really, he doesn't want to be anywhere near me.
11:46And I thought the same as you.
11:48I thought this time would be easier, but it's not.
11:50It's like a thousand times harder.
11:52Okay, okay, okay.
11:53Listen, no offence, but you don't like that, mate.
11:57That's what Peter keeps saying.
12:00Louie was not like this.
12:03Oscar wasn't like this either.
12:05All right, all right.
12:06Go and get us some gear bag.
12:09Good luck with everything, yeah?
12:14I'm really pleased with you.
12:19Yeah, I just, um, all I ever wanted to be was a dad that my kid deserves.
12:24Yeah, they started shouting about beans on toast the moment we walked through the door.
12:43Cat dropped this off.
12:45Oh, I meant to pick it up from the launderette, but I had to get the food and get Charlie and everything and just...
12:50Hold on.
12:51So you've been to the launderette, you've done the food shop, you've dropped off and picked up Charlie.
12:56You banked off school, didn't you?
13:00Yeah.
13:01They all.
13:02Um, so what?
13:03I doubt Mum even answered the phone when they called her.
13:05She don't care.
13:06Why do you?
13:07Because it's school, Lily.
13:08Half terms next week.
13:09If I have to stay off till then, I will.
13:11You can't.
13:12I know that you don't want anyone to know about Nan, but this is too much.
13:15Your dad would be heartbroken if he could see this.
13:21Right, someone should be looking out for you.
13:23Freddie, wait.
13:24No, Freddie, please just wait a minute.
13:45Come on, if I sit down.
14:06What's the matter?
14:07Nothing.
14:08Well, I'm not going to tell something, sir.
14:10Well, you can tell me. I'm no one.
14:13I don't know what you say to me.
14:16It's no big thing, it's just the usual.
14:19Whenever there's drama in my house, everyone knows everything except for me.
14:24I never get told anything.
14:26It's a bit like this book, Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit by Jeanette Winterson.
14:31You read it?
14:32No, I haven't read that one, actually, mate.
14:36I'm doing it for GCSE.
14:38It's about this girl who never feels like she fits in.
14:42Even with her own family.
14:45Especially with her own family.
14:50Can't be easy.
14:52And then she meets someone and it's like she gets that there's a whole other world out there.
14:58It's a romantic thing for the two of them.
15:01But that's not the most important bit.
15:03What matters is she only needed one person.
15:07Just one person who never asked her to change.
15:11Makes her feel like she belongs.
15:14Must be nice, that.
15:15Hello.
15:16Hello.
15:17Right, I've just spent the last few hours cleaning this place from top to bottom, so please, no
15:29pooing armies from you, mister.
15:30And no crisp packets from you, please.
15:31That's all.
15:32Yeah, that's from my mum.
15:33She left it at the front door.
15:34I know.
15:35I saw her earlier.
15:36Can you just tell her to leave me alone, please?
15:37Why would she say?
15:38Just take him.
15:39I need to take this.
15:40Hello, vampire amикс.
15:41Hello, ma'am.
15:42Hello, ma'am.
15:43Hello?
15:45Hello, ma'am.
15:46Hello.
15:48Hello, ma'am.
15:49I don't have to leave off.
15:50Hello.
15:51Did you look super gently?
15:52Yeah?
15:53We'd like to go through.
15:56Well, I дев'em pretty smite-my.
15:58It's done very, too, too.
15:59It's done.
16:00I look...
16:03There's watch 10 years in my centre.
16:09I still want to know what my mum has said to you.
16:24She just...
16:26She wants to see the boys.
16:28She kept going on about how you've never really cut the apron ties,
16:32even when you thought she was dead.
16:35What?
16:36And then she said that everything that she's done has an effect on you.
16:39And that you deserve so much better.
16:44Look at me, Peter.
16:47Look at who I am.
16:50Is it any wonder that Jimmy doesn't want to be anywhere near me?
16:53Is it any wonder that something is not right with him?
16:56What right? What are you talking about?
17:00That better not be her.
17:09Can I go through? Is that all right?
17:20Yeah, of course, of course.
17:20Oh, I'm so sorry to barge in.
17:25I just wanted to drop off a little present for Jimmy from me and Annie.
17:30I can come back, you know, if it's a bad time.
17:38No, no, it's fine. It's fine.
17:40He's just...
17:41He's unsettled a lot.
17:42But I think we're hitting our stride, aren't we?
17:44No, we ain't hitting our stride.
17:45If anything, it's getting worse.
17:46It just feels like that because you're so tired, though, don't it?
17:48No, it feels like that because it's true.
17:51Ever since he's been born, there's something off with him.
17:56He's unhappy all the time.
17:58He's 14 days old.
18:00So if there is something that is making him unhappy,
18:02then it's pretty obvious what it is, isn't it?
18:04It's me.
18:05Why don't you take Jimmy for a bit and I'll stay here with Lauren?
18:17Cheers, Trace.
18:17Thanks, Trace.
18:19Keys to my cab and the office.
18:23Thought you might want them back.
18:27You know, I would like to stay in touch with the family.
18:30It's not going to happen, is it?
18:31No, you made your bed with caffeine in it.
18:35Don't worry.
18:35I'm sure they'll all be fine without you.
18:38You never did bring much to the party, did you?
18:41Finally, I've been looking for you everywhere.
18:43Annie Jean and Mo went to stay with Fat Elvis.
18:45We haven't seen either of them for three days.
18:48Stacey won't come out of the room.
18:49She won't even get out of bed.
18:50And me and Lily are looking after the kids on our own and we can't.
18:54Kat, we need help.
18:54It's me.
19:01It has to be me.
19:05I'm his mum.
19:06If he's unhappy, then how can it not be to do with me?
19:14How long have you been feeling this way?
19:18Since he's been born.
19:21Maybe even since I found out I was pregnant, actually.
19:24Babies are meant to have parents that are going to protect them.
19:30Not put them in danger before they're even born.
19:33You haven't put him in danger.
19:38What would you call taking morphine when you're pregnant, then?
19:43What was I thinking?
19:44Taking methadone.
19:46Methadone doesn't harm him and it helps you stay sober for your boys.
19:49You know that.
19:49I'm an addict.
19:54My kids have got an addict as a mother.
19:58Yeah.
20:00So I have mine.
20:03Look.
20:04You've made mistakes, right?
20:06But you've overcome so much as well.
20:11Listen.
20:13I know it's easier said than done.
20:15And I'm not sure I'm even all the way there yet.
20:19But at some point, you're going to have to stop hating yourself.
20:25I was just on my way to see you.
20:42I know you told me not to, but I'm the parents ever listening.
20:51You know what?
20:52I remember being up all night with you and your sister.
20:55I had one of you in each arm.
20:57And I'll tell you what.
20:57I would have happily, happily sold either one of you for a decent night's kit.
21:01Well, I know this family's a mess.
21:07And I know we're a disappointment to you, but listen.
21:14I don't want anything, okay?
21:17I just want you to know that I'm here.
21:19Lily?
21:35Lily?
21:37Is this true that your nan's done a flit and your mum's just locked herself away for three days?
21:42Don't look at you, it reminds me.
21:43We thought she was getting Belle.
21:48You know, she'd come out for a bit last week, but she'd, she'd just...
21:52She took a few steps back.
21:56Come here, sit down.
21:58Come.
22:00Listen.
22:00You talk to me, all right?
22:03I'm always on your side, always.
22:06I remember, um, when, you know, when nan knocked herself in the bathroom.
22:17Mum was so scared and the people came there to take off to hospital and...
22:21Yes, no.
22:21That's right.
22:22They did.
22:23Oh, I knew so too.
22:26Mum?
22:28So, Lily's just told me that, um, your mum's packed up and left.
22:33Another thing we can give Harvey credit for, eh?
22:36Mum, why don't...
22:38Right.
22:41I don't get this.
22:42So she just gives your nan the nod and then just locks herself away?
22:46Well, nan, wouldn't have left if Stacey didn't say that she could handle everything?
22:50She'd been taking her meds.
22:52What?
22:52Why?
22:53Why does that matter?
22:53I just need to know, Lily.
22:54Has she been taking her meds?
22:56You're going to ring someone, aren't you?
22:57Oh, yeah.
22:58You are going to ring someone and get her taken away again?
23:00No.
23:00No, no, I'm just trying to help you.
23:02I don't believe you.
23:03You should go.
23:04Get out.
23:05Lily!
23:06Get out!
23:06Get out now!
23:07Get out!
23:08Get out now!
23:12Lily!
23:13Lily, you won't give me the remove!
23:16Peter seemed over the moon when I told him that I might stop breastfeeding.
23:21Like he was relieved.
23:24Like I've been poisoning the baby or something.
23:26I used to feel like Mick was watching my every move in the Vic.
23:35Every time I reached for the vodka, is she serving a punter or having a sneaky swig?
23:41And was he?
23:43Of course not.
23:45It wasn't him, it was me.
23:47I was just so scared I wouldn't be able to resist.
23:50How can I trust myself and my kids when I can't even trust that I'll stay off the drugs?
24:01Are you off drugs?
24:03Yeah, of course.
24:05And are you spending every waking minute doing everything you can to give your boys the best possible life?
24:10Every minute is a waking minute for me at the moment.
24:17And why are you still doubting yourself?
24:20You are fighting every day.
24:23And winning.
24:27Have some confidence in yourself, Lauren.
24:30Hmm?
24:32I've still got this niggling feeling that something's not right with Jimmy.
24:36And every time I mention it to Peter, he just shuts me down.
24:41So speak to someone else.
24:44Look, I...
24:45I always knew there was something different about Ollie.
24:50Everyone said I was wrong.
24:53But I knew there was something.
24:56And I was right.
25:00Nothing beats a mother's instincts.
25:03Nothing.
25:06Yeah, you all right?
25:11I can't stay here.
25:14Whitney and...
25:15Dolly, Brittany.
25:17I deserve to be happy.
25:20Further away from Nicola Mitchell, I am the better.
25:23If I were you, I'd be on the first train to Inverness.
25:26Maybe not the first train.
25:29That's something I've got to sort out first.
25:31Like what?
25:32Chuck a spare pair of boxes in a bag?
25:34Job done.
25:34I never wanted Barney living with them psychos.
25:38And I thought, you know what?
25:38They're his family as long as he's happy.
25:40But he ain't happy.
25:42He wants to be as far away from them as possible.
25:45When I leave...
25:46I'm taking Barney with me.
25:48All right, where'd you get all this from?
25:58Oh, we nipped out.
26:00I didn't fancy cooking.
26:02Penny will be back with Louis from football limit as well.
26:04Don't worry, I'm not staying.
26:06Smells good, though.
26:08Should I...
26:09Should I make him a little bottle?
26:10Actually, I, er...
26:13I wanted to keep trying to breastfeed.
26:17I know we've been struggling, but I miss Mum and...
26:21I need to start trusting myself.
26:22Jane, it's Kat.
26:34Can you call me as soon as you get this message, please?
26:37Cheers.
26:39I can't believe she's done this.
26:40I don't care that she's been dumped.
26:43Why didn't you tell me earlier, eh?
26:44I'm sorry, all right?
26:48Just, um...
26:50We'll deal with it in the morning.
26:51Even though Stacey's the way she is,
26:53I'm sure Lily can cope for one more night.
26:56What was that?
26:58Help! Help! Help!
27:00What?
27:01What's happened?
27:02I don't know.
27:03I was just putting clothes away in Arthur's room
27:04and I come back and she must have fallen off the bed
27:06and caught her leg or something.
27:08I don't know what's happened.
27:09Tell me what, listen, it's just a little cut, right?
27:11There's no broken bones.
27:12Let's just get her to hospital, yeah?
27:13Just get her checked out, yeah?
27:15It's all right, don't worry.
27:19She, uh...
27:20She seems...
27:21She seems a lot better.
27:23Whatever you said, that must have really helped.
27:24Oh, I mainly just listened.
27:27I think part of her is worried
27:29that her addiction has affected the baby somehow.
27:33Right.
27:34I hope I helped her see that, you know,
27:36we can struggle with things and still be good mums.
27:40Oh, and she needs sleep.
27:41Yeah.
27:41Two weeks in with Nancy
27:42and I was hallucinating insects
27:45and accusing Mick of all sorts.
27:46No, I'm on it.
27:47Don't worry.
27:49She's not...
27:50She's not totally wrong, though, is she?
27:54I mean, this sort of thing runs in families.
27:56If she...
27:56She stays clean
27:58or if she relapses
27:59or if she relapses,
28:00they'll never escape it.
28:04I mean,
28:04like you and all,
28:05Lauren being an addict
28:06is going to affect the boys
28:07their whole lives.
28:08She's a star.
28:23She's a star.
28:26She's a star.