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Evil Lives Here S18E03 Mom Said I Was Dying - Full Movie
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00:00When you're a kid, you get asked all the time what you want to be when you grow up.
00:12I didn't think I was going to get to grow up.
00:22This is a drawing that I made in counseling with my therapist,
00:28the one that was helping me, preparing to die.
00:34I don't think a seven-year-old little girl should be thinking about anything like that at all.
00:39I was always just so afraid of death and always just waiting for it to come around the corner.
00:45I was terrified.
00:47I was a child, and somebody was taking advantage of how innocent I was,
00:55ripping my innocence away from me and using it against me.
01:00And I think that that is just the worst and most disgusting form of manipulation.
01:07And I, yeah, it just brings me a lot of anger, honestly.
01:11I'm right.
01:27This is Teresa.
01:30She looks scary to me.
01:34She looks evil, like there's no emotion.
01:40This woman had no emotion for me, her child.
01:46I ultimately started to blame myself.
01:49I did something wrong because the one person in my life who was supposed to love me didn't.
01:56If my own mother couldn't love me, then who could?
02:01That love is supposed to be so genuine and so pure.
02:04So,
02:13so,
02:14so
04:44And I remember hurting really bad.
04:47And she, you know, was sitting on the couch and she kind of looked at me and told me, like, you know where the first aid kit is. You know where things are. I don't know why you're crying.
04:58It doesn't even look that bad.
05:00She didn't care.
05:05It was always just a very emotional detachment is what it felt like. She didn't play with me. She didn't want to have any type of interaction whatsoever with me at all.
05:16She really didn't do baths, showers, putting us to bed, things like that. We were kind of always just fending for ourselves.
05:24You need to grow up.
05:26I do remember feeling like there was something wrong with me that she couldn't give me that kind of love.
05:35You know, I would see my other friends with their moms and their moms were so involved and so, like, interactive with them and just very visibly loving with, like, hugs and holding hands.
05:45And that was never the mother that I saw.
05:50And the only times I really felt like she did was if other people were around, like, visibly watching.
05:56And that was kind of tough because it was a back and forth of, you know, do you do this because you love me now or do you actually feel this way?
06:06It was very, like, hot and cold and it was hard to get a grip on, like, which version of her was the real version.
06:15What I remember of her most is the walking on eggshells, not wanting to do anything wrong, leaving anything out of place, just honestly doing anything that you felt like could set her off.
06:36She would be normal and then she would throw huge fits over things.
06:42Who did this? Huh?
06:44There was one time that we walked into the kitchen and she had a spoon that was left in a bowl of milk in the sink and she brought it in and was, like, whipping it around.
06:54Is this acceptable to you?
06:57Is it?
06:59It was, like, gross and had milk on it and she's like, this is disgusting.
07:02Do you think I have the time to clean this up?
07:04No, this is your job.
07:05You clean it up.
07:06And was going about how everybody was lazy and she's not the only person that lives here and quit acting like this and made a huge deal out of it and it was just out of nowhere and it just became so frequent that it was almost normal.
07:23Like, you just became accustomed to Teresa's tantrums and then she broke a coffee mug because it was left on the counter.
07:30How's this?
07:31She just dropped it on the floor.
07:35Quite honestly, me nor my siblings seemed to want to be around her.
07:38Make yourselves useful.
07:40I'm done.
07:41A lot of the time we would spend in our rooms because we were afraid to mess anything up or to have any form of interaction with her because we knew that if we did anything at all, she'd find a way to, you know, belittle us or yell at us and it was just not something we wanted to do or deal with.
08:11So, in this photo, I was, I want to say I was like four or five and it was Halloween.
08:24This photo makes me kind of emotional a little bit.
08:27It's looking at this, like, the happy Hannah, the little Hannah that I often fight for, just was so carefree and so happy.
08:38Talking about the little version of me is like, that's a tough one for me.
08:47I feel like it's just like I want to hug her.
08:51I wish I could just squeeze her and tell her that although things were going to be really, really hard, you'll get to be that again and you'll get to be able to be the happy Hannah again.
09:04You can tell I was just like a happy-go-lucky little girl and she had absolutely no idea what was coming and it was coming so soon.
09:15I just remember Teresa almost like switching to a different person and it was just more emotionally there for me.
09:37Like, if I was crying, it wasn't figure it out on your own, it was like the coddling and the hugs and the, oh, it's okay, I'll take care of you kind of thing.
09:47How's that?
09:48She started to help with, like, bath time, which was never a thing.
09:53Whereas this now was like she was very much in there helping me brush my teeth and also, like, putting me to bed and tucking me in and laying there with me.
10:02And that was just something that she's never done before, time for bed.
10:07And I remember thinking, like, what changed?
10:11And I remember also thinking it had to have been me.
10:14Like, maybe I'm different and maybe now I'm more lovable and so that's why she's being this way.
10:22But I was happy with it.
10:24It was what I always wanted.
10:25Now I get to have this love and attention from her and I'm making her happy and I'd never seen her happy before.
10:34And it did, it felt good.
10:41Looking back and knowing that, like, it was all a lie and thinking about the person who's supposed to love me unconditionally was beginning to essentially ruin or destroy her child's life.
10:56It makes me physically ill.
11:01And for her to be able to finish what she was doing and get a good night's sleep like that, it's disgusting to me.
11:08Like, it truly is.
11:14Teresa was very much the person that cared about her self-image.
11:18And I think that she wanted people to look at her and she liked that kind of attention.
11:24She used to take me to department stores to get professional pictures.
11:29She was, like, showing me off to everyone and that wasn't something she did before.
11:33She would be like, oh, isn't my daughter beautiful?
11:37I remember a woman had complimented how beautiful I was and was talking to me about my dress and the things I was wearing.
11:44And that was when Teresa, like, interjected and said, oh, yeah, she's beautiful.
11:49She's my million-dollar baby.
11:52She always referred to me as, like, her million-dollar baby.
11:55She's going to make me so much money someday, I know it.
12:01I had never really liked to be the center of attention.
12:05I feel like I was being forced into doing it, but I did it to make her happy.
12:09Doing what makes her happy is what's going to get the love I want.
12:16So I'll do whatever it takes to make sure that she loves me.
12:21It makes me sick thinking that she saw me as a price tag and not as her baby.
12:27Looking back, I really feel like that was the start of her plan.
12:32I think that that was the start of her realizing, like, oh, I could make a lot of money off of this child and, like, I'm going to see how far I can absolutely take this.
12:52There was a lot of interactions that I witnessed with her and my siblings.
12:56She used to call my older sister, Cinderella, and would tell her that she was only good for cleaning and she wasn't good for anything else.
13:06She used to call her, like, ding-dong and stupid, very, like, generic, mean, just nasty names, and would laugh and think it was funny when it was visibly hurting her.
13:16I remember her always saying very belittling things about her to kind of almost create this wedge that she wanted between the two of us.
13:26And my older sister decided that she had enough, and she was going to go live with her biological father.
13:34My sister was upstairs in her bedroom packing her things.
13:38Her and I were very close, and I didn't want her to leave, and I was begging her not to go and, like, crying and telling her to stay.
13:46Don't leave me alone with her.
13:50That really set Teresa off.
13:53I have to.
13:54She didn't like it.
13:55She felt like she was losing some sort of control with her.
13:58You want to leave?
14:00You want to act like an adult?
14:01Make decisions for yourself?
14:03And Teresa came in the room and was taking my sister's things and was throwing them in a trash bag and telling her that she wasn't to interact with me anymore.
14:16You get nothing!
14:17And she was ripping up pictures of, like, my sister and I together, and she looked at my sister and said to her, I need you to look at Hannah and tell her that you don't love her anymore.
14:27And she wouldn't do it.
14:32And so Teresa started just screaming at the top of her lungs at her, and I remember I got very scared.
14:40I remember running to my dad, who had just gotten home about in the middle of all of this happening, and I'd ran straight to him as soon as I heard his voice.
14:51What's wrong?
14:51I was standing behind his legs because I was scared.
14:55My mom's yelling, and she picked that mirror up and threw it at me and my dad.
15:00There was this loud crash, and I remember looking back and seeing it stuck in the wall.
15:12Glass everywhere, just shattered everywhere, and thinking, like, oh, my gosh, I can't believe she just threw that at the both of us.
15:19What the hell's the matter with you?
15:22My dad was helping my sister get all over things, and he was consoling her.
15:26I remember sitting in the corner, terrified, like, prying and shaking and not knowing, like, how long is this going to last?
15:36When he was around, it was a sense of relief.
15:39You only had a certain amount of time until he was gone, and anticipating him leaving was, like, one of the one things I hated the most,
15:45is knowing he was going to leave, and I was going to have to be with her again for several days without him was extremely nerve-wracking,
15:54because he seemed to be the peacekeeper.
15:56I didn't understand anything that the doctor and Teresa were talking about.
16:20And we left, and I remember Teresa saying on the phone that something is wrong with Hannah, and you need to come to the house immediately.
16:31Once we got home, there were several people there.
16:35Teresa's mother was there, and her husband, my grandfather, was there.
16:41My dad was there.
16:42I sat and just kind of waited to find out what was happening, and she tells all of us that they did a CAT scan,
16:51and they found a small spot on the base of my spine, like, the size of the tip of a pen,
16:57and they believed that it was leukemia.
17:02Our little girl is sick.
17:04And everybody just got very emotional, or very quiet.
17:12I remember my dad crying immediately, and also trying to hold it in.
17:20And I was very confused.
17:22I have never heard of that word before, so I had no idea what that meant.
17:27I was terrifying.
17:28My dad kind of stood up.
17:32He came over, and he's like, why don't you and I take a break from all of this?
17:36Let's take a walk.
17:39I remember asking him, like, Dad, what does leukemia mean, and why is everybody so sad?
17:45And he said, um, leukemia is like cancer.
17:50And I understood cancer because I had known I had lost somebody in our family from that,
17:55and I knew what that meant, and I was like, but I don't feel sick.
17:59Like, I feel as though I just have a stuffy nose.
18:03How is that cancer?
18:05And he was like, well, it's not for you to understand.
18:08We'll figure this out together, and it'll be okay.
18:11And I remember sitting there, things just flying through my mind and wondering, like,
18:18what does this mean?
18:20And am I going to die?
18:22Like, I know that that's what happens if you have this, and am I going to die?
18:26So this is a picture of me during my life.
18:56This is my illness, and my dad and Teresa.
19:00This is at my birthday party.
19:03I'm going to say it was my sixth birthday party.
19:09And, yeah, this is heavy.
19:15I feel like when I look at this, I see so much sadness in that little girl's face.
19:23She looks scared.
19:27It doesn't feel like a genuine smile.
19:30It looks like I was doing it because I had to.
19:34Hannah, and this looks like the drained of life version.
19:39But, like, looking at Teresa, she looks so happy, and it makes me very sick.
19:47And this giant band-aid on my chest that is just so sad.
19:56I wish I could just go back and fight for little Hannah.
19:59She needed somebody to fight for her, and I feel like I just, I wish I could.
20:06I wish I could protect her and just let her know that it was going to be okay,
20:10that this wasn't going to be the end, although I thought it was.
20:13Teresa had worked in the medical field.
20:31I don't know, like, the full degree of her health care background, but I do remember her being a home health nurse.
20:39Teresa was explaining to me, at this appointment, you're going to have chemo treatments.
20:47And when you have chemo treatments, you're going to feel kind of nauseous and tired, having headaches.
20:54And then also explaining to me that after so many amount of chemo treatments, that I would lose my hair.
21:02And it was just so abrupt.
21:08You know, we just went from, I have a cold, to, I have leukemia, and it just didn't seem real.
21:14And I was devastated.
21:22Teresa was essentially saying, I know that you're afraid of the doctor,
21:26so when we go to the doctor, I'm going to give you medicine to help you get through these appointments.
21:32And I didn't think anything of it.
21:36And then she'd given me this little blue pill, and I remember it tasting absolutely horrible.
21:43And she was like, okay, you know, this is going to make you sleepy,
21:48but you won't remember any of the doctor's appointments.
21:51It'll all be okay. I'll take care of you.
21:55And it would be maybe like five or ten minutes after I would take the medicine,
21:59I would get extremely tired, and I couldn't fight it.
22:01And I would fall asleep.
22:07And time would go by, and I'd wake up very groggy.
22:13Okay, oh, like, you're awake.
22:15We went to the doctor, and this is what happened.
22:18And I accepted all of that she was saying.
22:22I knew in my heart I thought that she was doing what was right,
22:26and she was going to take care of me, right?
22:27She's my mother.
22:28She's going to take care of me.
22:29So I didn't ask any more questions about the medication.
22:32It was really early in the morning.
22:44I was getting ready to go to school, and I needed to brush my teeth,
22:48and I had turned the light on to the bathroom,
22:50and I looked in the mirror, and I had basically no hair.
22:56And I remember screaming.
23:03Mom!
23:04And Teresa came running into the bathroom and was like, what's wrong?
23:08And I was like, oh, my hair is gone.
23:10What happened?
23:11Where did it go?
23:12And she had said that, oh, I told you this was going to happen.
23:18Hannah, we talked about this.
23:22I remember kind of, like, freezing and feeling like, this isn't real.
23:28Like, that I knew that I was going to lose it,
23:31but it was like I had figured I would lose it in chunks,
23:35and I would have been more prepared,
23:38and, like, I would have known it was happening.
23:40And for me to just, I went to bed with a head full of hair,
23:43and I wake up, and now it's just in patches,
23:45was such a, like, shock that I don't, I just couldn't understand.
23:52And it was devastating.
23:57I just was begging her, like, I can't, I don't want to go to school.
24:00You can't make me do this anymore.
24:02Can I stay home?
24:03Please don't make me go there.
24:05Please don't make me go through this anymore.
24:07And I don't want people to make fun of me
24:09and tell me I look like a little boy.
24:11I don't want that.
24:12So I went to school, and I cried the whole way there.
24:18And when we got there, I walked into my classroom,
24:22and everybody was staring at me.
24:25And I remember in that moment thinking,
24:28I just, I never want to have to come back here again.
24:31And I knew I was going to have to relive that feeling every single day.
24:35No matter what I said, no matter how I reacted,
24:39no matter how heartbroken, devastated, emotional I was,
24:43it didn't matter.
24:44All that mattered was what she said,
24:46and what Teresa said went.
24:48So I think at that point, honestly, I stopped fighting back.
24:53One thing that honestly kind of bothered me
25:06was that we were going to so many benefits.
25:10One of the girls I was friends with,
25:12her dad was a firefighter,
25:14and they had like a spaghetti dinner for us.
25:17And people came and ate,
25:21and all the money went towards my family.
25:23And then I remember going into public places.
25:26There was always a coffee can
25:28with like this awful picture of me
25:31that people could donate to.
25:33It was like I couldn't escape.
25:39No matter where I was,
25:40it was like it was always right there like haunting me.
25:44And also as hard as a kid that we're getting all this money,
25:47but like nothing is changing.
25:50And nothing is happening.
25:52I'm just, people are donating all this money,
25:54and I'm just staying sick.
25:56And that was very confusing for me.
26:03I started seeing a therapist for death counseling
26:17when it was probably about six or so months into the illness,
26:23and Teresa started saying that the end was becoming more,
26:28like becoming near, that I was getting worse,
26:30and that death probably wasn't far away.
26:36And I remember her asking me
26:38to draw how it felt the day that I found out
26:42about the tumor or the cancer
26:47and what I remember how I was feeling.
26:54To see that I was like such sadness.
26:58Like there's so much sadness in this,
27:01and that I like at such a young age
27:03was so intuitive in remembering
27:05how hard and emotional that day was,
27:09but also so confusing.
27:12It's tough.
27:13Ma'am, ma'am, ma'am.
27:33She's sick.
27:34She hit her head.
27:35My dad had gone straight to the nurse's station,
27:38was like, you need to help her.
27:39She has leukemia.
27:41She's very ill, and this is where she goes for treatments.
27:44We're not from here.
27:46Just kind of very much so running through everything
27:48so quickly, so hysterically.
27:50Then they left me in this little room that I was in,
27:53and they were getting ready to prep me for stitches.
27:56And I was crying, and I wanted him in there.
28:00I was yelling at the nurses,
28:03saying, like, don't touch me until I have my dad.
28:06Outside of the room,
28:08you could visibly tell that Teresa and my dad were arguing,
28:11and I could hear vaguely what they were saying,
28:14and I remember my dad saying to Teresa,
28:17they can't find any record of Hannah.
28:20What's going on?
28:22I can't remember every place that we stopped.
28:30In that moment, I don't think I was thinking anything.
28:33I just remember looking at him
28:35and seeing how terrified he was,
28:37and it scared me.
28:40She was angry.
28:41Her hands were going.
28:43Her face was getting red.
28:45And that was when Teresa said,
28:47I know that she sees certain specialists.
28:49They can be kind of hard to locate.
28:53Hannah was in an emergency situation.
28:55She was kind of going around the actual answer.
28:59And I remember she was very anxious.
29:05You don't have a single mile on our daughter.
29:07What are you doing?
29:08No, no, no.
29:08Relax.
29:09Okay.
29:12Kind of felt like she was just grasping
29:15at whatever she could.
29:16I think this was the moment that my dad truly realized
29:20something was really wrong,
29:23and he was about to be in a very bad situation.
29:26What have you done, Hannah?
29:28But wasn't sure what he was going to do
29:30or how to handle it or what to say or what to believe.
29:34I think at that moment,
29:35he realized something wasn't right.
29:37It seemed to be like everything after that moment
29:44was just, like, chaos.
29:47It was very soon after that,
29:48everybody knew the truth.
29:51My grandmother had come to pick me up from school.
30:14When we had gotten home,
30:18my dad was anxiously pacing the floor
30:20and chain-smoking,
30:22and I had never seen him act like that.
30:27Hey, sweetie.
30:29He said,
30:30I have to tell you two things.
30:33And he was like,
30:34and some of them are going to be hard,
30:35but some of them are good things.
30:38And I was like, okay.
30:40And he was like,
30:40so what do you want me to tell you first?
30:41And I was like, the good things.
30:45And he said,
30:47well, you're not sick.
30:54And I remember being so confused and relieved
30:57and happy and sad at the same time
31:00because it was so confusing.
31:01I didn't, what do you mean?
31:03You're going to be okay.
31:05But that makes me have to tell you the sad thing,
31:08and that is that
31:10your mom has done something really bad
31:11and she has lied
31:15and she had taken money from people
31:17and people are really angry and upset with her
31:21because
31:21she told a lie about you
31:24and that you are sick when you're not.
31:28And she made it all up.
31:29And as a child,
31:35wrapping my mind around that
31:37was
31:39impossible.
31:43And I was so happy
31:45that I wasn't going to die.
31:48Like, I couldn't imagine,
31:49like, I was so happy that it wasn't going to end,
31:51I wasn't going to die.
31:53But why did my mom do this to me?
31:56Why did she lie about this?
31:59And
31:59for
32:01what?
32:05Trying to understand the reasoning behind it
32:07was just something at that age
32:08I could not wrap my brain around.
32:10And I just remember really focusing on being
32:13happy.
32:14And, like,
32:15I'm not going to die.
32:16I can go back to my normal life.
32:18Everything's going to be fine now.
32:20It was just,
32:20I'm not dying.
32:22And that's all I cared about.
32:23I wasn't sick anymore.
32:29Everything was going to go back to normal.
32:31And then, all of a sudden,
32:32I'm just ripped away from my family again.
32:37The social worker that ended up
32:38taking me away from my father that night,
32:41she essentially took me to
32:43a foster family.
32:48I was being taken away from them,
32:49and there was nothing I could do
32:51to stop it from happening.
32:54And it was
32:54so scary.
32:57And I honestly,
32:58I think,
32:59I remember it being in that home
33:01and thinking,
33:01waiting for my dad that,
33:03you know,
33:05dying
33:06seemed almost like
33:08it would have been the better option
33:09at that point
33:10because it was like,
33:12I knew what heaven was beautiful.
33:14This was not.
33:16This was like my worst nightmare.
33:18It was like I was living
33:19my biggest fear.
33:21After a few weeks of being
33:30at my foster home,
33:31my foster family let me know
33:33that both of my parents
33:35had been arrested.
33:40They didn't say that
33:41they were charged with anything.
33:42They just told me that
33:43they were both arrested
33:44and put in jail.
33:46As far as I know,
33:49my dad's attorney
33:50was wanting me to stand trial
33:53and kind of defend my father.
33:55But my father decided
33:57that I had been through enough,
33:59that I was too young
34:00to stand such a grand trial.
34:02I don't think there was anybody
34:05really in the community
34:06who believed
34:07that either one of them
34:08was innocent.
34:09I think they were grouped together
34:10very quickly.
34:12As far as the crimes
34:13that were committed,
34:14I feel like
34:15Ma Teresa
34:16is definitely the one
34:17who would be fully responsible
34:18and I think that he is innocent
34:20in this situation.
34:21I feel like Teresa knew
34:26that my father wasn't involved
34:28and I think she had
34:29the opportunity
34:30to speak up and say that.
34:33But I think that
34:34she didn't want to
34:36essentially go down
34:38for this by herself.
34:40It's so easy to believe
34:42on an outside looking
34:44and perspective.
34:45There's no way he has no idea.
34:47And I think she knew that.
34:49And I think all along
34:50that was her plan.
34:51I think she knew all along
34:53that essentially
34:54she wouldn't have to go down
34:56by herself
34:56and it wouldn't all be on her.
34:59I think that it made it easier
35:00for her to do those things.
35:02All right, I'm going to need
35:24a second on this.
35:25I'm sorry.
35:25All right, I'm going to put this
35:30over.
35:31I can't look at it.
35:32I'm sorry.
35:33I will.
35:39Looking at that makes me
35:41so sad.
35:43to think that
35:48how scared he had to have been
35:55and how sad he had to have been.
36:01He didn't do anything wrong.
36:03And essentially
36:04he knew
36:08that he was going to have to spend
36:11the next five years of his life
36:13not watching his daughter grow up
36:17after just finding out
36:19that she wasn't going to die.
36:22He was essentially losing her anyways.
36:27It breaks my heart for him.
36:29I know that was a really hard time
36:33for him.
36:36And I often, you know,
36:38sometimes I feel
36:39a sense of guilt, honestly,
36:42to think that
36:43he essentially went to prison
36:47because he was trying to protect me.
36:49And that's the right thing to do,
36:50you know.
36:51He did right by me
36:54and he was just trying to protect me.
36:55But sometimes, you know,
36:57I feel guilty.
36:59I wish he wouldn't have done that.
37:00I wish he would have
37:01let me have the opportunity
37:04to try to save him too.
37:19If I had to seriously be honest
37:21about her end goal of all of it
37:23and I really think
37:24what she was trying to get out of it
37:25is I really, truly believe
37:27that Teresa was out to kill me.
37:29I think I couldn't tell you why.
37:33I wish I did.
37:34I wish I knew why.
37:35It's a question
37:37that will forever haunt me.
37:39I do think she was willing
37:40to sacrifice my life
37:43for anything that was going
37:45to make hers better.
37:46I think that she wanted
37:49everything for herself.
37:51Everything was always about her.
37:53and I think that me as a sacrifice
37:56didn't seem like a sacrifice to her.
37:58It seemed like the only way
38:01to get what she needed.
38:04Yeah, it's heartbreaking.
38:05It is the purest form
38:07of being evil.
38:10Like, she truly just
38:12was an evil person.
38:25I don't think it feels fair at all.
38:27I think that
38:28if I'm going to be completely honest,
38:30I think she deserved
38:33a much longer sentence.
38:35I truly feel like
38:37I serve a life sentence
38:38to what she did to me.
38:41I fight that battle every day.
38:44I fought that battle
38:45for a long time,
38:46and I probably will
38:48for the rest of my life.
38:50And for her to only spend
38:52six years,
38:53I just feel like
38:55it's just not,
38:56it's not fair.
38:57It doesn't seem right.
38:58And
38:59it's kind of scary
39:01to think that, like,
39:02she just gets to live a life
39:04like nothing ever happened.
39:06It's really unfair.
39:12My father and I
39:14are extremely close.
39:16He is my very best friend.
39:20I could not have gotten
39:22to the point that I am today
39:23without his love,
39:25his support,
39:25his undying love for me.
39:29He has never wavered
39:31in who he is.
39:33And
39:34to this day,
39:35he is the most amazing father,
39:37and even better,
39:38he's the most amazing
39:39grandfather to my babies.
39:43I now have a beautiful family,
39:45a loving husband,
39:46and finding him
39:47was something
39:48I never thought would happen.
39:50And
39:50I think my
39:52ultimate fear
39:53was
39:53could I be a mother?
39:56What was it like
39:57to be a mother?
39:58I never had one.
40:00I didn't know
40:01what that looked like.
40:03And then I had
40:04both of my beautiful children,
40:06and
40:07never for a second
40:09did I
40:14question what it would be like
40:16to be a mother.
40:19It was so instinctual,
40:21and I
40:22have never felt
40:23such love.
40:26But I know
40:27in my heart
40:28that God gave me
40:30the children I have
40:31to prove to me
40:32that I am capable
40:33of so much love,
40:34and I am a fantastic mother
40:36and a wonderful wife.
40:37I have just
40:40such a beautiful
40:41life.
40:42I am
40:42so blessed
40:43to have the things
40:44that I do,
40:45and I never thought
40:46that I would have
40:49this life.
40:50You know,
40:50little me
40:51never thought
40:52that we would even
40:53make it past six,
40:55and now
40:55I am
40:58creating a life
40:59so much further
41:00past that,
41:01and it's just
41:01it's amazing.
41:13It's very clear
41:14that he has
41:15the personality traits
41:16to become
41:17a serial killer.
41:18A man of a county 911.
41:20The man above us
41:20just threw the woman
41:21over the balcony.
41:23She's laying on ground.
41:24She's very bloody.
41:25It's heartbreaking.
41:26No kid is supposed
41:27to watch that happening.
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