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00:00Previously on the summer I turned pretty my family's been going to Susanna's beach
00:10house and cousins every summer since I was a baby look who came back all grown up Susanna
00:15told me that when I was born she knew I was destined for one of her boys I always hoped
00:20it would be Conrad I wrangled belly an invitation to be a debutante now which one of you is gonna
00:26be belly's escort to the ball uh so are you and Jeremiah like a thing they're like basically
00:32related I'm not going with either of you I am going to find my own date I don't know what to
00:36think about you this summer you have new friends you have a boyfriend I don't even know who you
00:40are anymore is that why you threw yourself at my brother so that you could get back at me my heart's
00:44beating really fast you're having a panic attack it's my mom I know you said you didn't want to
00:49do chemo but I'm not putting myself through treatment again I'm gonna tell the kids when
00:53we get back to Boston why are you acting so different I mean something's going on just
00:57tell me Ellie I think about you I do you know I do I just can't you're my best friend three times
01:04I wanted to be more I was just waiting I mean how am I supposed to fully jump into something with
01:09Jeremiah if a piece of my heart still beats for his brother there you go with me to the temple
01:14hey does my mom seem okay to you I heard your parents talk about it and your mom seemed really
01:18upset hey have you guys seen Jeremiah
01:24Colorado we need to talk all right it's important it's about mom you've known this whole fucking time
01:31you didn't tell me I told them I do the trial it's going to work Ellie I'm sorry for being so shitty
01:37all of a sudden I mean you were going through all this alone I wish you had told me so you didn't have
01:42no matter what happens next I will always come back to this place and these people
01:47you live in my dream step
02:01you live in my dream step
02:10you're back
02:18I'm back
02:19we get it you guys are into each other
02:27don't listen to him you two are perfect together
02:32I wasn't in cousins
02:49Conrad and I weren't together
02:52and Susanna was dead
02:54nothing would ever be the same again
02:57you drop this
02:59Conklin
03:02what
03:03you said you dropped this Conklin
03:06you're reading the hunger games in
03:08in French
03:09trying to
03:10I almost know the English version by heart so it's
03:13it's not that difficult to follow
03:14very cool
03:17thanks
03:19escaping to your dreams is easier than living with your memories
03:24it's the being awake that's the hard part
03:28this almost doesn't feel real
03:37how about now
03:41I can't stop smiling
03:50you know you have the prettiest smile I've ever seen
03:54your whole face just lights up
03:57I wanted to say that to you all soon
03:59there's something that I need to tell you
04:09I don't even know how
04:13okay
04:14what is it
04:16figure it out
04:18I am a few days ago
04:23Jeremiah told me what she owns for me
04:26oh
04:32wow okay
04:35so what did you say
04:38I
04:42kissed him
04:44a few times
04:45so
04:54so when we both came to pick you and Taylor up from the side of the road
05:00you know and
05:01you went with Jay
05:02were you two already
05:03you know but there were
05:08moments of somewhere where I thought maybe there could be something with you and me
05:11and then
05:11you know you shut down
05:14and get really cold
05:15and I get it
05:15I'm sorry
05:16I'm sorry
05:16it's all my fault
05:18I mean it's mine too
05:21you want to be with him
05:27being with you is all I've ever wanted
05:32okay
05:33that's great
05:34be with me then
05:34what
05:35what is that funny
05:37no
05:38I'm sorry
05:39it's just weird
05:40I mean
05:40everyone in our house knows that I've had a crush on you
05:43ever since like
05:45wait wait wait wait wait
05:45you have a crush on me
05:48shut up
05:49yup
05:49you're it for me darling
05:54I don't want to hurt Jay
05:59me neither
06:00like I'll talk to him
06:03he might not even be that upset
06:04you know
06:05it's Jay
06:05he never takes anything too seriously
06:07it's not
06:08it's not like how it is with us
06:12uh
06:16I'll talk to him first
06:17I owe him that
06:18okay
06:19early morning walk on the beach
06:43uh
06:44yeah
06:45I knew it
06:53knew it
06:54I'm gonna go
06:58sit down
07:07so
07:10mom
07:11just let me change first
07:13all right
07:18enjoy your summer
07:19no but seriously
07:29it's gonna be wild
07:30it's the best team we've had in years
07:31oh I made us these matching crop tops
07:33they're pink obviously
07:34and I got a bunch of new knee pads
07:35ooh
07:36knee pads Taylor
07:37shut up
07:38hey bells
07:39it's not too late to sign up for volleyball camp
07:41you know
07:41oh our school is over bitches
07:45it's not just loud
07:47Steven
07:48hey
07:49if I were going to Princeton
07:50I'd be screaming about it too
07:52thank you Evelyn
07:53wait
07:53are you going to Princeton?
07:55that's so cool
07:55I couldn't tell
07:56oh
07:56you couldn't tell
07:57go
07:58go
07:59go
07:59go
07:59go
07:59what's up man
08:01what time is a grab party tomorrow man?
08:03oh the band comes on at 10
08:04I'm dating the singer
08:05uh
08:06yeah the machine gun Kelly wannabe
08:08I tried to veto him from playing
08:10but I guess I couldn't find anybody cheaper
08:11oh
08:12wait so
08:14are you coming to the party?
08:17I don't know
08:19Belly
08:20Belly
08:21can I talk to you for a minute please?
08:25gotta go
08:26see you then
08:29bye
08:29sorry
08:29Belly
08:36Belly
08:36I was reviewing your end of term transcripts
08:39and I couldn't help but notice that your grades have taken a serious dive
08:42I mean you kept an A in French
08:44but you won't impress colleges with just French
08:46is there something going on?
08:49uh
08:49there's a death in the family
08:50oh
08:52I'm so sorry to hear that
08:53but your grades have been dipping all year
08:56you even got your volleyball captaincy revoked
08:59yeah I
09:00I choked at regionals
09:01okay
09:02well have you um
09:04have you thought about where you're gonna apply next year?
09:06um
09:06I mean
09:06I know I'm not getting into an IV
09:08but there's always Penn State
09:10well that might be a reach at this point
09:11without volleyball
09:13you'll have to focus on less competitive schools
09:15have you heard about Finch?
09:18um
09:18yeah I know someone who's going there in the fall
09:21a family friend
09:21great well maybe you can visit them and grab a tour
09:24I doubt it
09:26come in
09:29good morning bells
09:33hey
09:35come here
09:36so I stayed up all night
09:43doing research on the trial my mom agreed to
09:45and Belly I'm feeling really hopeful
09:48that's
09:49that's great Cher
09:51I mean I'm so
09:51glad that
09:52Suzanne agreed to do it
09:54yeah I mean
09:55if I'm
09:55being honest
09:56I'm still kind of pissed
09:57Conrad never told me what was going on with her
09:59but
09:59you know at least it worked out right?
10:03right
10:04that's kind of why I think
10:05we should tell
10:07Conrad about us
10:08as soon as possible
10:09I don't want any more secrets
10:11and plus
10:12Steven already knows
10:13actually that
10:18that's what I wanted to talk to you about
10:21okay
10:23see um
10:25the thing is
10:26um
10:26last night I
10:28really couldn't sleep
10:30all night
10:31so I went to
10:32watch the sunrise on the beach
10:36and
10:38Conrad was there
10:39and we just started talking
10:41and one thing
10:42led to another
10:43and
10:43and um
10:44and we
10:44we kissed
10:46you kissed my brother
10:54I'm sorry
10:57I didn't think that
10:58you know
10:59like he
10:59we
11:01I mean we wanted to tell you right away
11:02so
11:03you know
11:03you're already a we
11:04no
11:04no no
11:05I
11:06I just didn't
11:07I don't know
11:08I didn't want it to be weird
11:09oh yeah
11:09Billy
11:09it is weird
11:10okay
11:10no Cher
11:12please
11:12no
11:13no you know what
11:13actually it's cool
11:14it's cool
11:15I get it
11:15you know
11:16I was just a distraction
11:17to keep you busy
11:18while you waited for Conrad
11:19I'm glad it finally happened
11:20for you Billy
11:21it's great timing
11:22it's not like my mom has cancer
11:24or anything
11:24Cher
11:25I didn't want to hurt you
11:26you're one of my best friends
11:27no
11:28no you don't
11:29you don't get to call me that
11:31you don't mean that
11:35I do
11:36now can you please get out
11:39just so you know
11:44he's gonna break your heart
11:48we should already be in the car
12:00coming
12:01hey is this okay
12:09I swear I left the tickets here
12:10I thought your dad was meeting us there
12:13well you
12:14shoot
12:14I forgot to make the reservation for lunch
12:16yeah I figured so I did it
12:17well they're not gonna start without me
12:19we've got time
12:20I was supposed to iron that shirt for you
12:22take it off
12:23it's handled
12:24it's handled
12:24see
12:25I use the starch spray
12:27that makes it look real smooth
12:28huh
12:28oh is that for me
12:32sweet
12:37a laptop
12:38who sent this
12:39what
12:40oh my god
12:42it's from Susanna
12:44she must have planned it before
12:47classic Beck
12:48I wish she could have been here
12:50yeah Conrad and Jeremiah too
12:54they were busy
12:55yeah sure
12:57I feel awful
13:05right here
13:09he was so angry at us
13:11and he has every right to me honestly
13:14it's gonna be okay Billy
13:19I promise
13:20how
13:24I think maybe we should hit pause
13:35what
13:38no
13:40I don't want to make things harder for you guys than they already are
13:44you're not
13:45I promise
13:46the most important thing right now
13:48is that you and Jeremiah are there for each other
13:52are there for Susanna
13:53and I
13:54us being together would make that impossible
13:58Ellie come on
14:00I can't do that to him
14:04I hate that
14:17and me too
14:21um
14:28this was always yours
14:35no matter what happens
14:40we'll still be infinite
14:42you should read this
15:10later
15:11later we should go
15:12found them
15:13come on
15:15they say that everything happens for a reason
15:22now who they are exactly is unclear
15:25maybe a theologian coined it or
15:28I don't know whoever configured the simulation we're clearly living in
15:31maybe it was Rihanna
15:34maybe it was Rihanna
15:34Rihanna can do no wrong
15:38definitely not
15:39but we've heard it
15:43time and time again
15:45it's supposed to convince us
15:46you know that everything had to happen
15:48exactly so in order to teach us something about ourselves
15:52in order
15:53for us to grow
15:54and meet our destinies
15:57I think that's BS
16:03I'm sorry
16:04mom
16:05sorry
16:05you know breakups don't always lead to breakthroughs
16:10sometimes a girl dumps you
16:12after an awesome summer
16:14and it just sucks
16:15and you learn nothing from it
16:17but you eventually force yourself to move on anyways
16:20you know but then
16:24the unthinkable happens
16:26and you realize it's pointless to think of life that way
16:29Ellie
16:30hey I never see you in here
16:36your mom assigned me this room to clean
16:38it's the easiest since I don't think she sat put in here once to do any writing this summer
16:43don't you hire cleaners anyway
16:46shh
16:47I love that necklace on you
16:54Connie told me everything that happened with the three of you
16:59I'm sorry
17:03don't be sorry
17:04it's not how I wanted the summer to end
17:06especially not
17:09I just feel like I'm losing everyone
17:15you're not
17:16it just takes time
17:18you'll find your way back to each other eventually
17:22and this place is always here for you
17:26yeah but
17:27you've made every summer here so magical Susanna
17:31I mean what happens
17:32what happens
17:33Ellie
17:34you love this place the same way I do
17:39if anyone can keep the magic going here it's you
17:44you're my special girl
17:49I need to call the cleaners
17:55promise me you'll never leave me
17:59never
18:00because everything just happens
18:07you know good things bad things all in ways that you never expect all in ways that are so completely out of your control that they could just drive you insane
18:18there are times where it feels like the world is happening to you but remember that you are also happening to the world so don't wait
18:32make what you want happen because tomorrow isn't promised so you better make fucking sure that you are living today
18:39so extra
18:51although he did earn it with that speech
18:52it was good yeah speech kind of pierced my soul
19:11don't laugh
19:14no no I feel like I've been in this nightmare ever since Susanna died
19:18maybe it's time to wake up
19:20oh I gotta go find Milo
19:24he needs my help putting together a look for tonight
19:26cool
19:27do you want to come over after and help me with mine
19:31no fucking way are you coming
19:32yeah
19:34and I'm
19:36I'm gonna sign up for a varsity volleyball camp too
19:38yes
19:38oh my god babe this party's gonna be insane
19:41like you are going to die when you see Milo play
19:44uh no yeah I mean you literally might cause oh man I could smell him from the podium
19:48really
19:48well I'm sorry excuse me my man doesn't have that korean gene that makes you have no body odor
19:53okay all right come on okay Ellie mom and dad are meeting us at the restaurant
19:55bye bye see you later
19:59it's a great speech Susanna would have loved it
20:02yeah I know
20:05you know I'm glad you guys are coming to the party tonight
20:08wow I can't believe what I'm hearing you really want me and taylor at your party
20:13wow I never said want I just I just think it's better than moping around at home
20:18hey you should drive
20:21yeah
20:22yeah I gotta read all the love in my dms for my speech anyways so
20:25all right come on
20:27yo this is dope I'm going viral on tiktok
20:35is that a good thing
20:36what millions of people around the world watching my speech on a loop yes
20:41that is a very good thing yeah I gotta forward this to con and share man
20:49thank you so much thank you oh I'm sorry could I get a box for all this yeah thank you man
20:54thank you
21:02happiness is an activity um okay
21:07okay well everyone agrees you are the best
21:10it doesn't say that
21:11it's so random yeah it literally says it right here
21:13it literally says it right there I don't know what you want you want to see it yeah
21:15look I don't know what you want from me it says it right there I know what you're telling you
21:20we're so proud of you you're gonna have the time of your life at princeton right Laura
21:23yeah I love college that's where I met Susanna
21:29so how are things going with your book my publisher is hounding me to do this meet and
21:33greet event with booksellers I said no why because it's not necessary
21:40okay uh well it's time for me to go get ready for the party mom dad thank you for lunch I'm gonna
21:49go with him uh it was delicious thank you all right have fun kids see you at home yep
22:01so you're not trying to promote your book I'm not going to have schmoozy conversations about
22:05Susanna just to get prime placement in bookstores well you did write a whole book about her
22:10might feel cathartic I wrote the book in a fugue state I have no interest in dissecting it just
22:16to come up with pithy insights on grief okay
22:23glad the whole not going to therapy thing is working out for you
22:29thank you
22:33look you wrote a beautiful book
22:35I think Susanna would want you to share it with the world
22:44she was always my biggest cheerleader
22:47guess now I have to be my own
22:53I'll wear the skirt but I draw the line at pom-poms
22:55I am so excited that you're finally here this summer can we do like everything that we never got
23:05to do together like parties pool mall we have to get you a fake id let's start by figuring out what
23:11I'm gonna wear tonight okay okay
23:17Susanna's earrings they're perfect
23:24okay since my man is playing tonight I'm gonna need you to be the super hot friend standing next to his
23:31super hot girlfriend yeah let's get super hot I love it when you agree with me
23:38um I'm thinking this
23:41that's what you call super hot this looks so good on you no no I've got to have something better
23:46uh okay
23:54um
23:58no
24:08the call came the second week of september three weeks since the last time I'd seen him
24:12it felt like a dream unreal
24:21hey hey
24:24I uh didn't expect to hear from you yeah is it okay that I'm that I'm calling I shouldn't have called
24:29this was dumb I'm sorry no no no no it's okay um we're still friends right yeah yeah we're friends
24:37yeah yeah and um friends can talk on the phone yeah yeah nothing weird about friends talking on the
24:46phone
24:50uh so how's how's college life um it's cool it's cool my roommate snores even louder than you do which
24:59oh come on I don't snore yes you do you a thousand percent do I've heard you through the walls for years
25:06only when you're really tired though
25:10how's school for you
25:11boring painful
25:13I mean like no no who invented trig and why do they torture your innocent high school students with it
25:20can't be that bad no oh it's it's bad it's it's it's really bad I mean I can't keep up with all the letters
25:26well you know the first thing you gotta do is determine if it's a right angle triangle
25:30badly have you seen my uh big kettlebell the 20 pound one
25:33steven I'm on the phone we'll tell taylor to go to bed hi steven
25:40hey conrad
25:45it's not in here go away
25:49sorry about that
25:51okay um what were you saying about triangles again
25:56okay if you want to wear the t-shirt you know we should at least crop it
26:08it was conrad's you know every time I think of him I still get this like pain in my chest
26:17i know sucks babe but eventually you're gonna have to let him go
26:22yeah I just wish I knew how
26:26it's like my memo always used to say the best way to get over a man is to get under a new one
26:38heading to a grad party yeah mine me and the guys are throwing it remember
26:44oh right well have fun and don't drink and drive oh don't worry I promised steven I'd be the sober driver
26:51oh and I ordered you a pizza okay so please eat it don't worry about me go
26:56all right I love you all right I love you be safe bye I love you bye
27:10oh my god hey so I need to be able to see you when I'm up on stage yeah all right so stay up close okay yeah
27:36uh my boy yeah uh you call this a party where are all the hot ladies you promised uh we're literally
27:45standing right here oh uh no offense I'm into older women personal preference yeah hey babe I'm gonna go
27:53go help the guys finish something okay all right okay well have fun everybody I gotta go make the rounds
28:04entertain the people you know oh okay come on spike you're so cute tonight you know that come on let's go get
28:13some drinks okay oh my god but camp is gonna be so much fun I bought us all matching pj's oh you are
28:25going to need to buy one more set guess who finally decided to join us the killer b is gonna have her
28:31captaincy back from donna in like no time you know what i mean yeah right but coach shaw he's okay with
28:36it but you know come back i actually haven't talked to coach yet i wanted to talk to you guys first
28:44i mean after last season i i totally don't blame you if you don't want me back on the team oh shut up
28:50you're always one of us yes right answer bump set hit swipe that's the way we like to fight
28:57ha huh come on come on come on come on let's hear you scream
29:10oh my god
29:15it's game point miss conklin bye bye conrad hey are you still there so
29:21So, my roommate, Trusky.
29:25Oh, did he sleepwalk in his underwear again?
29:27He didn't, he didn't, thankfully.
29:28But we were talking and it turns out he's a 5G conspiracist.
29:32So apparently, that guy that Katie was seeing had a girlfriend the whole time.
29:38I mean, it just sucks, like, he didn't really seem like the type, you know?
29:47Did you know my dad cheated?
29:51Adam cheated on Susanna.
29:53Yeah, the first time my mom was sick, he had an affair with his secretary, Kaylee.
30:01I found out about it last spring.
30:03I'm like the same day I found out of my mom's cancer coming back.
30:09How'd you find out?
30:11Um, I came home early from school one day and heard them fighting.
30:16She was crying so much, Belly.
30:22She, I've never heard her cry like that before.
30:27So I left.
30:29I went back out.
30:30I drove around town for two hours and came back and pretended not to know anything.
30:34I'm so sorry.
30:38It sucks that you had to carry that secret for so long.
30:42Yeah, it's just exhausting.
30:44Like, I couldn't turn my brain off.
30:48It was like, if you do that, then this horrible thing is gonna happen.
30:52But if you do this, then, you know, just this catastrophic thing will happen.
30:57Oh, my God, that sounds so stressful.
31:05Oh, my God, damn it.
31:06It's two o'clock.
31:08You said you had practice earlier.
31:09I should let you go.
31:13Yeah.
31:14Um, off-season workouts suck.
31:16But, uh, there's a rumor that a college scout from Finch is coming to watch our club team play this weekend.
31:22And there's a chance coach might make me captain.
31:24What?
31:25That's crazy.
31:26I'll definitely let you go.
31:28I didn't know that.
31:30Five more minutes?
31:35Yeah, okay.
31:35Yeah.
31:36I'll do it.
31:37I'm gonna do it.
31:38Yeah.
31:39Oh, yeah.
31:39Mm-hmm.
31:40Yeah.
31:40Okay.
31:41Are you waiting for me?
31:41I'm not showing you.
31:42Bye.
31:43Good luck.
31:50Wow, you're, uh, really good at operating a keg.
31:55Wow.
31:55Oh, hi, Conklin.
31:57Oh, um, comment vont qu'être nussepita?
32:00Uh, en Paris le mortal, comme d'habitude.
32:04Yeah, good, yeah.
32:05I didn't know you took French.
32:07Oui.
32:08Want one?
32:08No, no, no, I'm okay.
32:10Thanks.
32:11Uh, I'm the Didi tonight.
32:14Cheers.
32:14Yes.
32:18I could spend my life
32:20In this sweet surrender
32:23I could stay lost in this moment forever
32:30And every moment spent with you
32:35Is a moment I treasure
32:38I don't want to close my eyes
32:44I don't want to fall asleep
32:47Cause I'd miss you, baby
32:49And I don't want to miss a thing
32:51Do you want to know something so romantic?
32:54Milo wrote this song for me this time.
32:56It's a cover.
32:59You love that song from the movie Armageddon?
33:01Oh, well, it's still romantic
33:04Okay, wait, don't make me beg you for details
33:07What did you and Corey talk about?
33:10Uh, the book I'm reading
33:12I'm sorry, you suck at talking to guys
33:15Okay, I'm Rusty
33:16And also, he's the one who brought it up
33:18And he spoke to me in French
33:20Bitch, what?
33:21In French?
33:22Okay, that's so hot
33:24Like, he sounds obsessed with you
33:25Yeah, I don't know
33:27I mean, that combo took so much effort
33:29Like, is it supposed to be that hard?
33:33I mean, like, look at you and Milo
33:34You guys just make sense
33:36I don't want to close my eyes
33:39Well, Milo and I are soulmates
33:41I don't want to fall asleep
33:42Cause I miss you, baby
33:44And I don't want to miss a thing
33:47Cause even when I dream of you
33:50The sweetest dream would never do
33:53I still miss you, baby
33:55And I don't want to miss a thing
33:58I don't want to miss a thing
34:05Woo!
34:05Woo!
34:07Woo!
34:08Woo!
34:09Woo!
34:11Yeah!
34:12Woo!
34:13Woo!
34:13Woo!
34:14Woo!
34:15Woo!
34:20Ha!
34:24Yeah!
34:24Here we go next time
34:25Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk?
34:32I didn't mean to call you that.
34:36I can't remember what was said or what you threw at me.
34:42Please tell me.
34:44Please tell me why.
34:50Belly, I'm a crowdster.
34:52Hold my shirt for a second and make sure no one spills anything on it.
34:54Ew! Stephen, no, I don't want to hold your sweaty feet here.
34:57Woo!
35:00What the hell? Are you okay?
35:02Ow.
35:03Uh, Belly, I'm sorry.
35:05No, yeah, no, I'm good. I'm totally fine.
35:07I'm just, um, I'm gonna go get a drink.
35:12Well, you're my sober driver, Belly Bells.
35:14Don't let me down!
35:15Stephen!
35:15No.
35:16It's no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy.
35:21I had this weird thought today.
35:23Yeah?
35:27I love your thoughts.
35:29I was thinking if my dad had cheated on my mom,
35:34she probably wouldn't have even cared.
35:37Is that harsh?
35:39No, but you really think Laurel wouldn't have a reaction?
35:42I mean, kinda.
35:43Like, nothing about my dad ever excited her.
35:45You know?
35:47They were, like, never romantic around each other.
35:50And you want to see your parents being romantic?
35:54Maybe.
35:56I mean, I just can't imagine marrying someone who didn't give me fireworks.
36:00You know, like, like, electric jolts every time I saw them.
36:07Were you surprised when you found out your parents were getting divorced?
36:10Uh, yes and no.
36:11I mean, I always thought divorce meant fighting, you know?
36:16And there was none of that.
36:17I mean, they were cold for a little while, but, um,
36:21everything's kind of back to normal.
36:25In a weird way, that must almost be a little harder to understand.
36:28Exactly.
36:33Oh, wow.
36:35What?
36:36I don't know.
36:38I've just never sent any of this to anyone before.
36:42Me either.
36:47Hey, can I ask you something?
36:49Anything.
36:52Um, how's, how's Jer?
36:54Is he, is he doing okay?
36:56Um, yeah, yeah, he seems good.
36:58Why?
36:59I don't know.
36:59I've, I've texted him a few times since summer ended,
37:01and, uh, he never writes back.
37:04Yeah, no, I mean, he's probably just busy with senior year stuff.
37:07Right, right, right.
37:08Or, you know, it's that he'll never get over what I did
37:10and hold it against me for the rest of our lives.
37:12Belly.
37:13Yeah, don't mind.
37:14Forget I said anything.
37:24I learned something kind of cool.
37:26Tell me.
37:27Did you know?
37:28That Venus is an evening star for 263 days out of the year.
37:34And then it disappears from the sky for 50 days
37:36before returning as a morning star for another 263 days.
37:41I did not know that.
37:43That is very cool.
37:45And right now it's an evening star.
37:46It's really bright next to the moon.
37:48I'm actually looking at it right now.
37:54It's probably against the rules to say this,
37:57but, um,
37:59I wish we were looking at it together.
38:02Me too.
38:07Me too.
38:15And Belly?
38:17Yes, Comet?
38:20I couldn't be with someone
38:21who didn't make me feel electric, either.
38:26Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
38:28We're standing there.
38:30We're standing there.
38:31Then I kicked the living shit out of me.
38:35Can we forget about the days I said
38:38when I was drunk?
38:40Hey!
38:49Hey, Conklin.
38:51Hey, long time no see you.
38:53Yeah, no, I know.
38:54It's been ages, right?
38:55Yeah.
38:56Is that seat-taking?
38:58Uh, nope.
38:59Nope.
39:00I'm right ahead.
39:00Yeah.
39:00I wonder if Venus is a morning star
39:10or an evening star tonight.
39:12I think Venus is a planet.
39:15No, actually, uh, ancient astronomers,
39:16um...
39:17You know what?
39:20Never mind.
39:21Okay.
39:22It's dumb.
39:24You know, you can hardly see any stars
39:26this close to the city anyway.
39:28There's a lot more by the beach.
39:30I, uh, used to spend every summer
39:35at this beach in Massachusetts.
39:37Hmm.
39:39Are you going this summer?
39:41Uh, no.
39:42No, I'm not.
39:44So then you'll be here for the 4th, huh?
39:46Okay.
39:48Well, my folks are gonna be out of town,
39:50and I'll just think about having a few people over.
39:52You and your friends should totally come.
39:54That-that sounds cool.
39:56All right.
39:57Cool.
40:00Come here.
40:02You kind of have something.
40:03Here.
40:04Okay.
40:04Yeah.
40:07Uh, Belly, no, I was just...
40:09Oh, my God!
40:10No, I was just...
40:11You had something in your...
40:12I have something in your head.
40:12You know why?
40:13Because I just...
40:14It's crap.
40:14Because I just got kicked in the head.
40:15That's right.
40:16Holy shit.
40:16But no, no, no, I'm totally fine.
40:18I'm just, um...
40:19I'm gonna go.
40:20Okay.
40:20See ya.
40:20Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
40:21Um, hey, hey, Belly, actually.
40:23Yeah.
40:24Could you do me a favor?
40:25Could you put in a good word for me with, uh,
40:28your friend Marcy?
40:30Yeah.
40:31Marcy?
40:32Yeah.
40:32Yes.
40:33And you.
40:34That makes sense.
40:34Yeah, I totally will.
40:35You guys are cool.
40:36That's really good.
40:37Thank you for this.
40:38Yes.
40:38Okay, bye.
40:38Hey, sis.
40:52Sis, sis, sis.
40:53Check it out.
40:53Check it out.
40:53Check it out.
40:55Oh, no.
40:56Oh, my God.
40:59I can't believe you did that.
41:01This party sucks.
41:02Dude, it's beer, man.
41:04It'll dry.
41:05Chill.
41:06I'm leaving, okay?
41:08Wait.
41:08Wait, did something happen?
41:09No, nothing happened.
41:11Whatever.
41:11Uh, Steven, can you just get Spike to drive you home, please?
41:14Spike?
41:15No, Spike is drunk.
41:17You promised to be my sober ride tonight.
41:19Okay, well, I'm ready to go now.
41:21Okay, well, I'm not.
41:22Great, then can you just call an Uber or something?
41:24Why are you being such a buzzkill right now?
41:26Oh, I'm sorry.
41:27Am I ruining your fun night, Mr. Perfect Valedictorian?
41:30Kinda, yeah.
41:31Okay, well, in case you forgot,
41:33which it clearly seems like you did,
41:35Susanna just died, so I'm a little bit sad,
41:37but please, don't let that stop you
41:38from having the time of your life.
41:40Fuck you.
41:41You know, I lost Susanna, too.
41:43Okay, you don't think I'm sad about that?
41:45Oh, what, were you crowd-surfing the pain away?
41:47My apologies.
41:48No, you should apologize.
41:49You screwed up and out.
41:50Now everything is weird with Conrad and Jeremiah.
41:53I mean, they won't even text me back anymore because of you.
41:54Okay, guys, hey, that is not my fault.
41:57Isn't it?
41:58Hmm?
41:59I should be celebrating with them tonight,
42:01but they wouldn't come because you made things messy.
42:05You had Jeremiah, and it just wasn't enough.
42:07You had to have Conrad, too.
42:10God, you are so fucking selfish.
42:12Stephen!
42:13What?
42:13Serious?
42:14I had to have Conrad?
42:16Are you kidding?
42:16I was in love, Stephen.
42:19Like, out of my mind in love.
42:21What was I supposed to do?
42:24Kelly.
42:26Kelly.
42:27Stephen.
42:32Hey.
42:34Stephen is a drunk idiot right now.
42:36Please do not listen to him.
42:37No, he's right.
42:38I mean, I ruined things with both of them,
42:41and then Susanna died,
42:42and I completely ruined her funeral,
42:43and I just, I wish I hadn't started any of it.
42:45No, you don't.
42:46Yes, I do.
42:47No, you don't.
42:47Yes, I do, and I'm so tired of feeling sad all the time,
42:50and I just, I don't think I get to feel better.
42:53You think that right now, but I promise you.
42:55No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
42:57Nothing is promised.
42:58You can't promise anything.
43:01Sorry.
43:01I'm sorry.
43:02I just, I know you're trying your best.
43:05I don't, I don't expect anyone to understand
43:07what I'm, I'm going through right now,
43:09and I think I just have to deal with it alone.
43:16I'm going to go.
43:20I'll go, I can come with you.
43:21No, no, no, no, no, stay.
43:22I mean, it's your boyfriend's debut,
43:24and I just, I just need to go to bed.
43:28Okay.
43:30Will you text me when you get home, please?
43:31Yeah.
43:32I love you.
43:33I love you.
43:34I love you.
44:02I got my driver's license last week,
44:07just like we always talked about,
44:10because you were so excited for me
44:13to finally drive up to your house,
44:17but today I drove through the suburbs,
44:20crying because you weren't around.
44:23All my friends are tired of hearing how much I miss you,
44:33but I kind of feel sorry for them,
44:36because they'll never know you the way that I do.
44:39Yeah.
44:40Today I drove through the suburbs,
44:43and pictured I was driving home to you.
44:49And I know we weren't perfect,
44:52but I've never felt this way for no one.
44:58Oh, and I just can't imagine
45:02how you could be so okay
45:05now that I'm gone.
45:09I guess you didn't mean what you wrote
45:12in that song about me.
45:16You said forever,
45:18now I drive alone past your street.
45:22You said forever,
45:24now I drive alone past your street.
45:28Hey, happy almost Halloween.
45:44Conrad.
45:45I know I'm not supposed to be here,
45:47but I'm here.
45:51I brought candy.
45:53Do you want me to go?
45:59No, no, no, um, don't wait, just, um...
46:04What, what are you doing here?
46:06Um, I wanted to see you, so...
46:11Yeah, yeah, um, you know, but I thought...
46:15Right, no, I know, I know you...
46:16You were worried about Jared,
46:18but look, I had a chance to talk to him,
46:20and, uh, he's doing really good, actually.
46:22He's, um, doing on dates, you know,
46:25and, um, he's been on this high
46:27ever since he got made Homecoming King.
46:28That's great.
46:29So, um, he's over?
46:32Yeah.
46:35I think he is.
46:42Ellie, I don't think I could ever get over you.
46:43I mean, I'm not.
46:47I'm here.
46:50Whenever I talk to you, I'm just happy.
46:53And I gotta say,
46:54standing in front of you right now,
46:56it's torture not being able to kiss you.
46:58Oh...
46:58Oh, shit.
47:18Oh, man.
47:20Belly, we need to talk.
47:29I'm kind of tired.
47:31Sit down.
47:40You didn't eat?
47:42Your guidance counselor emailed me.
47:44I didn't know you lost your volleyball captaincy
47:46or that your grades were so bad.
47:48Yeah, I'm sorry.
47:49I'm not getting into Princeton like Steven.
47:51That's not what I'm saying.
47:53You can do better than this.
47:55I'm really disappointed in you.
47:57Sorry, Mom.
47:58You know, Susanna died, remember?
47:59You don't get to use Susanna's death as an excuse.
48:02This whole year has been hard for me, too.
48:04You were barely here.
48:06And I don't blame you for being there for Susanna and the boys.
48:09They needed you, but you can't blame me either
48:11for things that happened because you were away.
48:13This isn't about blame.
48:16This is about you and the choices you made.
48:18It's about taking responsibility for yourself,
48:20even when things are hard.
48:22Life keeps going.
48:24You can't just give up.
48:25You want to talk about taking responsibility?
48:27You won't even promote your book
48:29because you refused to talk about Susanna.
48:32You can't just suddenly be concerned about volleyball
48:34when you haven't gone to a single one of my games this year.
48:37I waited all year for you to step up and be a parent.
48:42You gave up way before I did.
48:43You have to do that at every stop
48:57and it's kicking up my gag reflex.
48:59If you'd rather walk,
49:01we can let you out right here.
49:03I'd probably be safer, honestly.
49:05Hey, you don't got to worry, man.
49:07I'm fully sober.
49:09Fucking belly, man.
49:11Taking my car and leaving me straight into my own party,
49:14who does that?
49:15Hmm, I don't know.
49:17Who yells at their own sister
49:18in front of everyone for being sad?
49:20She yelled at me first.
49:22I'm so mature of you, Steven.
49:24How about you try some compassion next time, asshole?
49:27Aren't you supposed to, like, come together in grief?
49:31Life cannot be separated from death.
49:34Wow.
49:36So helpful.
49:37Man, thank you.
49:38Milo's very in touch with his emotions.
49:41Don't you mix him a great musician?
49:43Aw, thanks, babe.
49:45You know,
49:46I actually have a record label interested in Siamese.
49:50What?
49:51Yeah.
49:51Check it out.
49:53Cancel culture records.
49:57Babe,
49:58they only have one post.
50:01Yeah, that's what's so punk about it.
50:03Yeah, dude.
50:04Congrats, man.
50:05Congrats.
50:07Oh.
50:07My darling, Steven.
50:24Congratulations on your graduation.
50:29Congratulations on your graduation.
50:31This is the start of what is sure to be an exceptional journey.
50:36I wish I could be there to watch you shine.
50:38But you have an extraordinary mom who will be with you every step of the way.
50:43Remember, the world is not only happening to you, but you are happening to the world.
50:50And don't forget to enjoy the ride.
50:51And don't forget to enjoy the ride.
50:53Love, Susanna.
50:56Hey, I know it's late, but about the bookseller event.
51:24I changed my mind.
51:27I'll do it.
51:28I knew I'd lose Susanna eventually.
51:36I just didn't know I'd end up losing all of them.
51:44In my memory, the three of them will always be entwined, forever linked.
51:49There can't be one without the others.
51:59Now, they're all gone.
52:01I know the darkness at 1.58, the words that you whispered for just us to know.
52:09You told me you love me, so why did you go away?
52:15Too many without the others.
52:31That's right.
52:34Just like our last
52:47Billy?
52:53Hi, Jeremiah, I'm so glad.
52:54Are you with Conrad?
52:57No, why would I be with Conrad?
52:59I don't know, I just thought maybe you guys would...
53:01Jeremy, what is going on?
53:04Conrad's gone.
53:09Wait, what do you mean gone?
53:12He's not answering my texts or picking up my calls.
53:15Since when?
53:16Yesterday.
53:18I mean, isn't he in the middle of finals?
53:19Maybe he pulled an all-nighter at the library.
53:21No, no, I don't think so.
53:23Apparently, he told us for me that everything is fucked
53:25and then he just took off.
53:28I think I'm going to go to Brown in the morning
53:29and see if I can track him down.
53:31I'll never get Susanna back.
53:33But I can't let Jeremiah and Conrad go, too.
53:37Okay.
53:39But I'm coming with you.
53:40I saw you dancing in a crowded room
53:50You look so happy when I'm up with you
53:54But then you saw me, caught you by surprise
53:58A single tear drop falling from your eyes
54:02I don't know why I run away
54:07I'll make you cry when I run away
54:15Take me back, cause I wanna stay
54:23Save your tears for another day
54:26Save your tears for another day
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