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00:00:00Transcription by CastingWords

00:01:30I saw my soul for peace of heaven

00:01:33I lose my senses, lose my sight

00:01:36For a mountain of your wild again

00:01:38I shed my skin that tingles with it

00:01:43I wash these demons from my spirit

00:01:47And I can hardly hold onto these walls

00:01:51So watch me go

00:01:53Hey, it's Jules Spence

00:01:58I can't get to the phone right now

00:01:59So leave a massage

00:02:00And I will endeavour to get back to you as soon as possible

00:02:02Hey, it's David

00:02:05I'm coming round

00:02:07I've got some news to tell you

00:02:09I'm a mess, look, crack open the champagne

00:02:12See you soon

00:02:13Hurry up, come on

00:02:15Hang on, I've only just got here

00:02:16Get a move on

00:02:17What's going on?

00:02:19Can you not guess what day it is?

00:02:21Hold up, they broke a heel

00:02:23You tried a kid in them heels

00:02:25You could barely walk on them, let alone run on them

00:02:27Shut it, soft lad

00:02:28Why are we here?

00:02:29I need to tell Jules

00:02:30What did your mum and dad say?

00:02:32Ah, they're away, I'll tell them later

00:02:33So what are you going to do?

00:02:35Are you going to take it?

00:02:36Are you crazy psycho bitch or what?

00:02:38Oi, enough for the insults

00:02:39I got into the best dance company in the country

00:02:42In the whole of Europe

00:02:43Possibly even the world

00:02:44Don't get carried away

00:02:45Oh, stupid door

00:02:51When are they going to get it fixed?

00:02:53You never answer my question

00:02:55You silly cow, of course I'm going to take it

00:02:58What are you going to take it?

00:03:02Jules, we were just looking for you

00:03:04Now you've found me

00:03:05You're not coming in?

00:03:17Drink, anyone?

00:03:19No, I'm fine, thanks

00:03:20David?

00:03:23Um, no, thank you

00:03:24So what's the news?

00:03:29What are you going to be taking?

00:03:32Go on

00:03:33David, tell the man

00:03:35I, um

00:03:37I got in

00:03:39In?

00:03:42Yeah

00:03:42Bloody hell

00:03:48He got accepted into the dance company

00:03:50Ah

00:03:51What?

00:03:53What?

00:03:58Congratulations

00:03:59You're not happy for me?

00:04:04Just said

00:04:05Congratulations

00:04:05Really happy for you

00:04:08Thank you

00:04:12You're welcome

00:04:13Look, um, I'm going to go

00:04:16No, I'm going to go

00:04:17Yeah, I need to go get ready

00:04:19I've got double shift at the bar tonight

00:04:20You coming with me?

00:04:27Um, no

00:04:28No, you go

00:04:29Sorry

00:04:31It's okay, I'll

00:04:33I'll probably be in later

00:04:34For a drink

00:04:35To celebrate?

00:04:36Yes

00:04:37Stay safe

00:04:39Yeah

00:04:40Goodbye

00:04:42Yeah, bye

00:04:45See you later

00:05:10Hey honey

00:05:25What a day

00:05:27Oh, that's better

00:05:33Just what I need

00:05:34I've had emails

00:05:37Moving through all day

00:05:38About the new summer range

00:05:40Oh, I get to the school

00:05:42The traffic is packed up

00:05:43Right the way down the high street

00:05:45When I finally get close enough

00:05:46There's nowhere to park

00:05:47Hey princess

00:05:48Hey daddy

00:05:49Of course

00:05:50And then when I finally get in there

00:05:51They want to drag me in

00:05:52For a quick Q&A

00:05:53On how much we value the school

00:05:54I mean, I love the place

00:05:55But, oh

00:05:56How was school?

00:05:58Okay

00:05:58Good

00:05:58Zephyr upstairs, sweetheart

00:06:00Get changed

00:06:01Don't want to get changed

00:06:03Do as you're told, please

00:06:04Love

00:06:05I'm going to give you Uncle David a kiss

00:06:07Oh, sorry Jane

00:06:08I've been in the old world

00:06:10Oh, hey Steph

00:06:11Hey Uncle David

00:06:14When you're taking me to dance class tonight

00:06:16I'm going to be a ballet dancer

00:06:17Just like you

00:06:18You'd be going anywhere

00:06:21If you don't go and get changed, sweetheart

00:06:22Oh, you're going to be much better than me, lovely

00:06:24I'm so proud of you

00:06:26I think we are the ones

00:06:28Who are proud of you, mister

00:06:29Who, me?

00:06:30What do you mean?

00:06:31Steph, go on, upstairs

00:06:33What do you mean?

00:06:37What do I mean?

00:06:38Erm, the job

00:06:39The dance company

00:06:41You've been mithering us about

00:06:42For like the past 22 years

00:06:44How did you know?

00:06:45If you want Clem

00:06:46Blondes, big boobs

00:06:48Fog on for a mouth

00:06:49See?

00:06:51She shouts at me

00:06:53As I was getting on the car on the drive

00:06:55David was just giving me the good news as you arrived

00:06:58Congratulations, Dave

00:07:00Thanks, Jules

00:07:02Right, I better get back to mom and dad's

00:07:07Don't be silly, sweetie

00:07:08You've got to stay

00:07:08You've got to celebrate

00:07:09We've got a couple of bottles of wine there

00:07:11Jules brought back from Paris

00:07:13Paris?

00:07:15Yeah

00:07:15I was there for work, weren't you, love?

00:07:17Hmm?

00:07:18This is a special occasion

00:07:19It definitely warrants a special little something

00:07:21No, I think you're right

00:07:22And the wine will be perfect

00:07:24For this occasion

00:07:24Don't you think, David?

00:07:27Not my lip for drinking tonight

00:07:29Oh, I'm hearing it

00:07:30You're staying

00:07:30I haven't even told mom and dad

00:07:32She came to tell us first

00:07:33Well, I'm honoured

00:07:34Hmm

00:07:35Well, what's that then?

00:07:38I'm going to go and get Stephanie ready for dance class

00:07:40You've got approximately three hours to do what you need to do

00:07:42Then I want you back here

00:07:44Ready for a celebratory meal

00:07:46Do you hear me, young man?

00:07:49Yeah, three hours, I heard

00:07:50Three hours should be plenty of time

00:07:52Well, this is all very exciting

00:07:55Yes

00:07:55Mwah!

00:07:57Why are you being like this?

00:08:05I'm not

00:08:06You know what?

00:08:09You're killing me

00:08:10I came here to see you

00:08:12To tell you

00:08:14What you told me

00:08:15Why are you being like this?

00:08:18David

00:08:19Cooking you dinner, for Christ's sake

00:08:20No

00:08:20My sister's cooking me dinner

00:08:22Her husband's providing the wine

00:08:24I'm brought it from Paris

00:08:27I'm saying it's pretty small

00:08:28I'm honest

00:08:29My dear boy

00:08:30Why don't you go run your errands?

00:08:34We'll speak later, okay?

00:08:37Why not now?

00:08:38You know

00:08:38Boys, we'll be back in like an hour and a half or so, okay?

00:08:43Jane, can I grab a lift?

00:08:45Of course you can

00:08:45Are you ready?

00:08:46Uh, no, I need to speak to David about something

00:08:48Just wait a minute

00:08:49Yeah, but you just

00:08:50I don't mind what I just said

00:08:51You coming?

00:08:53I just need to speak to him about something

00:09:00Oh, I'm on the day that's cool with her

00:09:03Oh, sweetheart

00:09:04No

00:09:04I'm just going to talk to him for a second

00:09:07But you

00:09:07Look

00:09:08You go and have a great ballet lesson

00:09:10And we will see you later on

00:09:11Okay?

00:09:13Okay

00:09:14Okay

00:09:14Come on

00:09:16Come on

00:09:30I should love

00:09:45I should love

00:10:00I can make you happy

00:10:02I can make you happy

00:10:08What are you like?

00:10:11I've had to rescue you.

00:10:13From what, may I ask?

00:10:15This life.

00:10:17I'm gonna whisk you away to a desert island

00:10:19and peel grapes for you when I suck on your toes.

00:10:23Charles, please. You're a little crazy, you know that.

00:10:26I'm crazy for you.

00:10:28What has gone into you, what you want?

00:10:31Prozac, Valium, can I have some?

00:10:34I've not seen you like this since, well, since when you got back from Paris.

00:10:39But no, my love, if it's sex that you're after, you can't.

00:10:43Calm down, take that.

00:10:45You're funny.

00:10:47I've had sex for like over a month and now, I'm about to hold a dinner party and you don't look frisky, haven't I?

00:10:53No.

00:10:54It's hardly a dinner party.

00:10:56You've got your little gay brother coming round for dinner.

00:10:59It does, don't be like that.

00:11:00Like what?

00:11:01Quickly, get some clothes on, will you?

00:11:07If it isn't Carlos or Costa.

00:11:10Watch your eyes there, gay boy.

00:11:12Why is he being like that?

00:11:18Oh, take no notice.

00:11:19He's only playing.

00:11:20You know what he's like?

00:11:22I thought I did.

00:11:24He's just teasing you.

00:11:26He's so proud of you.

00:11:29We all are.

00:11:30Mum and Dad had me on the phone for like over half an hour.

00:11:35Let's put them on loudspeaker.

00:11:37Otherwise, you know this, we've been finished.

00:11:39They're mad.

00:11:41You know, it's the first time I actually believed that Dad was proud of me.

00:11:46Are you kidding?

00:11:47He's so proud of you.

00:11:48He's done nothing but going about you.

00:11:50You and your dancing since the time that you were dopey.

00:11:52It's no way when you were like ten.

00:11:55You're all insane.

00:11:58How about you?

00:12:01Hmm?

00:12:02How do you feel?

00:12:03You know, you're the first person to actually ask me that.

00:12:10That's because I love you.

00:12:12I'm good.

00:12:13I'm happy.

00:12:16I don't know.

00:12:17It's just the start of my life.

00:12:19Do you know what I mean?

00:12:20I don't know.

00:12:21But I can imagine.

00:12:22It's what I've always wanted.

00:12:24Now you've got it.

00:12:26Exactly.

00:12:27Now I've got it.

00:12:29What?

00:12:31No but.

00:12:33You still want it, right?

00:12:34I want anything in the world.

00:12:38Well...

00:12:40Oh...

00:12:42What?

00:12:43I know what that, well, means.

00:12:45What?

00:12:46What?

00:12:47David, I know you.

00:12:48What meaning?

00:12:49Sweetheart, I want nothing but the very best for you.

00:12:53And this job, that's going to give you that.

00:12:57I know.

00:12:58What I'm saying is do not let anything get in the way of it.

00:13:02I don't know what you're talking about.

00:13:04I'm not fit.

00:13:05You don't fool me.

00:13:06This is...

00:13:07I'm not trying to fool anybody.

00:13:10There's only one thing that can come between you and your dance.

00:13:13It's even during your baby.

00:13:15I'm 22.

00:13:17Exactly.

00:13:19Men come and go.

00:13:20My advice.

00:13:22This won't go.

00:13:24Me, um...

00:13:26Change the subject, please.

00:13:28Look me in the eye.

00:13:29Tell me you're not in love.

00:13:35It's okay.

00:13:37People think bad here for being in love.

00:13:40Love is...

00:13:42Love is magical.

00:13:44David, when you dance,

00:13:46that is pure magic in itself.

00:13:50You've got to do this while you're young, babe.

00:13:54Whoever this man is,

00:13:57if he loves you,

00:13:59then he'll wait for you.

00:14:01Yeah.

00:14:04This changes something.

00:14:06Talking about me?

00:14:08Thought I felt my ears burning.

00:14:10You better not, my love.

00:14:11It's not always about you.

00:14:13I think I'll find it eighties.

00:14:15Well, it's a nice, aren't you, mister?

00:14:17So what were we talking about, then?

00:14:23Magic.

00:14:26Yeah.

00:14:28Magic.

00:14:30And if you...

00:14:32If you want something bad enough,

00:14:34it'll wait for you.

00:14:37Yeah.

00:14:39I've never really been any good at magic.

00:14:41Good at magic.

00:14:50In an hour.

00:14:51It's not St Tampa, Zoltana, or Zangria.

00:14:55It's the Tanta.

00:14:57Get 46 Barclays Premier League games,

00:14:59most featuring top teams exclusively live...

00:15:02Didn't have to drive, no.

00:15:04No.

00:15:05No.

00:15:06How else were you going to get there?

00:15:07I'd be in a fit state to be walking the streets.

00:15:10You're worried someone will take advantage of me?

00:15:12Something like that.

00:15:13You're not very talkative tonight.

00:15:14I wasn't really saying anything later.

00:15:15Like what?

00:15:16Sorry would be a start.

00:15:17For what?

00:15:18If I have to tell you, you're hardly the man I thought you were.

00:15:19Give me a clue.

00:15:21I could give you a list.

00:15:22Treat me like shit.

00:15:23Using me for sex.

00:15:24Have me lie to my whole family.

00:15:25Let me fall in love with you.

00:15:26You're not in love with David.

00:15:27Oh, fuck.

00:15:29I'm sorry for not supporting your dream.

00:15:31Okay?

00:15:32I'm not saying anything later.

00:15:33Why you're saying anything later?

00:15:34Like what?

00:15:35Sorry would be a start.

00:15:36For what?

00:15:37If I have to tell you,

00:15:38you're hardly the man I thought you were.

00:15:39Give me a clue.

00:15:40I could give you a list.

00:15:41Treat me like shit,

00:15:43using me for sex,

00:15:44have me lie to my whole family,

00:15:46and let me fall in love with you.

00:15:47You're not in love with David.

00:15:48dream, okay? I really am happy for you. Yeah, sure you are. I am, it's just... It's what?

00:15:59You got it easy. You've got all bases covered. You think so, do you? I know so. All the

00:16:06while I'm dying inside. Always the drama queen. Oh, fuck you. What about me, eh? Do you seriously

00:16:14think this is all fun and games for me? It's your choice to play happy families. It's not

00:16:18that simple. It's as simple as you want it to be. I love your sister. And what? You

00:16:24only like sticking your dick in me. No, Jules, is that it? You're not gay because you've got

00:16:30a wife and a family. Oh yeah, but every now and then you like to stick your dick in her

00:16:33brother's arse. It's not that at all. I really like you, David. What do you think that weekend

00:16:41in the Lake District was all about? I don't know what that weekend was about. A short chance

00:16:45to get your end away for a whole weekend without having to look over your shoulder every five

00:16:49minutes. And there was me thinking you actually cared. I do care. I mean, Paris. Fucking

00:16:58Paris. I can't believe Jane actually fell for that. Can we behave like adults for just

00:17:03one moment, please? You enjoyed that weekend just as much as I did. Well, at least you can

00:17:08admit you enjoy it. I do. I'm sorry. Okay? I'm going to miss you. Miss my arse, you mean?

00:17:22No. No. Yes. I was shocked, hurt, jealous, whatever you want to call it. That's why I behaved

00:17:41the way I did. I love you, Jules. That's why I behave the way I do. You're funny. I'm glad

00:17:48you find the humour in it all. What can I go to? Obviously not. I keep saying it until

00:17:56you believe me. I love you. You may be stupid of me. I might be foolish. I might be a kid.

00:18:08I've fallen in love and it's, it's breaking me too. I don't want you to go. Really? No.

00:18:23I don't want to go. You've got to go. No, don't you get it. I'm prepared to sacrifice my whole

00:18:30life. My family. I don't think I've ever cared for. If you can't say that, I might as well

00:18:39be banging my head against a brick wall. David, what do you want from me?

00:18:46If you told me not to go, you'd leave Jane. No, I can't do that.

00:18:50I know that's the problem. If you can, you just won't. It's a joke. He is fine. David,

00:19:07I don't know. I said he is fine. David, I do. Jules. I get it. Thanks for the lift.

00:19:19Oh, you. Hey, it's Jules Spence. I can't get to the phone right now, so leave a massage

00:19:30and I will endeavour to get back to you as soon as possible.

00:19:33Baby, it's me. I'm sorry to phone you when you're driving. Out of milk. You know what

00:19:38Steph's like. She loves it every morning. Could you, um, she picked me some up, please, on

00:19:42your way back? Mmm. And maybe we could, uh, pick up from where we left off just before

00:19:51our David come round, eh? Got me apron on. And, um, nothing but me apron. Love you.

00:19:59So he fucked you in her bed. Okay, okay. There's no need to be so crude. I knew there

00:20:06was tension. I could feel my knickers getting wet just standing there. Never thought he'd

00:20:10do it in his own bed. I feel like shit. I do love him. Yeah, he's sexy. Oh, it's not

00:20:19just that. I don't know. He said he was being a twat because he didn't want me to go. What, he

00:20:24said that? Well, not exactly those words, but along those lines. Do you believe him? I

00:20:31don't know. So what are you going to do? There's nothing I can do. You could tell your

00:20:36sister. Oh, yeah. Nice one, Einstein. Maybe I'll publish a book about how to lose me family

00:20:42in five easy steps. Well, she is your sister. Blood's thicker than water and all that. What

00:20:47would I say? Oh, hi, Jane. It's David, your brother. So I'd let you know that after two years,

00:20:53well, on and off. I've been sucking your husband off. Yeah, mum would love that.

00:20:57How is your mum? She'd have a heart attack if she found

00:21:01out about anything like this. She thinks the world of jewels. Maybe I could throw myself

00:21:06under a bus. No, love. When you go, you want to look your

00:21:10best. Close coffins in it, I've got to say. Oh, you're sick.

00:21:13I'm sick. You said it. I just think you're brave.

00:21:18We came when we went away. It was the first time I actually thought, well, maybe you're

00:21:23good work. I mean, before that, it'd been the odd mess about when he was drunk.

00:21:27I remember the first time it ever happened. It was at Christmas.

00:21:33We were having a drinking competition after mum and dad come to bed.

00:21:39I found him hot. Yeah. I never wanted to sleep with him. I was just so happy for Jane having

00:21:45found a top bloke. I guess looking back, I could always tell he was a bit, you know, fruity.

00:21:53What do you mean? I don't know. He was just too nice and too smiley and always willing to

00:21:59help if everyone needed anything, you know. Anyway, it was me and him left and we was doing

00:22:06vodka shots. He stood off to go to the bathroom and he lost his footing on the carpet. He slipped

00:22:11in and fell on my lap. He just laughed and rolled about on the floor. Then we started kissing.

00:22:21We joked it off after that, but at Easter, it happened again. And then every holiday or celebration

00:22:26after that, we just get drunk and play the game.

00:22:30What have I got myself into?

00:22:33At least you're going away. That'll give you some headspace.

00:22:37Am I?

00:22:38Yes, you are.

00:22:40David, you bloody well are, even if I have to drag you there myself.

00:22:44We've been planning this for years.

00:22:46We?

00:22:48You know what I mean. It's not just your dream. You've roped us all into this.

00:22:52We all want it just as bad as you do.

00:22:54But you getting out of this city is like our little escape too.

00:22:57Not just about you anymore.

00:22:59No pressure, Lenny.

00:23:02Honey, I'm sorry.

00:23:05I know, I know. It was unexpected. I'm on call.

00:23:10I don't like it any more than you do, but I have to go into the office and sort out the

00:23:13mess that someone else has made. If I could come home, I would. You know that.

00:23:18Jane, stop.

00:23:20Listen, it's my job.

00:23:22It's what pays the bills and puts food on the table.

00:23:25It's late.

00:23:26I'm tired.

00:23:27And the last thing I want to do right now is argue with my wife about coming home to

00:23:30put bloody milk in the fridge.

00:23:34I'll be home as soon as I can, okay?

00:23:39Okay.

00:23:42Love you too.

00:23:42I'll be home as soon as I can.

00:23:47For peace.

00:23:48Please.

00:23:50DJ, turn me up.

00:23:52DJ, DJ, turn me up.

00:23:54DJ, turn me up.

00:23:56Yeah.

00:23:57We love you.

00:23:58Everybody know me.

00:24:00All the ballers check in for me.

00:24:02You ain't got no swag.

00:24:04Shout it.

00:24:04Guess that's why you're lonely.

00:24:06Bottles overflowing.

00:24:07Flowing and my ice is always glowing

00:24:10But some money in this club

00:24:12And tonight we got to blow it

00:24:14I'm not your average girl

00:24:16I do my own thing

00:24:18Don't need your fancy car

00:24:20Don't need your diamond ring

00:24:22I got my own swag

00:24:24I play my own thing

00:24:26Don't let go superman

00:24:29I ain't gonna stay

00:24:30We can hit a party baby

00:24:32We can hit a party

00:24:34Got Patron on my body

00:24:36And the beat thing got me started baby

00:24:38Put your hands up

00:24:40Put your hands up

00:24:42Tell the club owner

00:24:44I say we don't give up

00:24:45Cause we gon' lie

00:24:47DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:24:50We gon' lie

00:24:55DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:24:58We gon' lie

00:25:03DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:25:06DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:25:10DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:25:12DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:25:14DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:25:16DJ, DJ, turn me up

00:25:18We gon' ride

00:25:19I'ma cut up on the floor

00:25:20I'ma break it down

00:25:21Make my body go

00:25:21We gon' ride

00:25:23I'ma go so crazy

00:25:24Every time I hear the bass and the beat

00:25:25We gon' ride

00:25:27All eyes on me

00:25:28But I do a thing

00:25:29I'm so

00:25:29We gon' ride

00:25:31Now I'm gonna stop

00:25:32I'ma party

00:25:32Until the

00:25:33Time comes down

00:25:35David here

00:25:40You know what to do

00:25:42David, it's your mum

00:25:44You didn't come home last night

00:25:46Look, sweet sauce

00:25:48I'm not checking up on you

00:25:49Cause I know you don't like that

00:25:50I don't like that

00:25:51So I hope you know

00:25:52I'm not doing that

00:25:53I just

00:25:53Well I wanna see it okay

00:25:55We can't have anything

00:25:57Happening to those prized feet

00:25:58Now can we

00:25:59We need you

00:25:59And one piece to start work

00:26:01Come September

00:26:01Oh give me a call

00:26:04Me love

00:26:04As soon as you get this

00:26:05Please

00:26:06I love you

00:26:07Hey babe

00:26:11Listen, everyone's going crazy

00:26:13I've had your mum and dad on at me

00:26:15Even Jules has been on

00:26:16Trying to find out where you are

00:26:17Look, apparently you're not

00:26:19Picking up your phone

00:26:19So they've asked me to try

00:26:20I haven't told them

00:26:22I saw you leave with that guy

00:26:24I don't wanna get them worried

00:26:25But the longer I keep it from them

00:26:27The more I put myself in the shit

00:26:28Give me a call

00:26:30As soon as you get this

00:26:31We're all worried here

00:26:33Love you

00:26:36Tea?

00:26:40Erm

00:26:40Yeah

00:26:41No

00:26:42Erm

00:26:43Sorry

00:26:45What's your

00:26:46Erm

00:26:47I'm Sam

00:26:49Sorry

00:26:50There's no need to be

00:26:53I made you a cup anyway

00:26:54Thank you

00:26:56You okay?

00:26:59Yeah, why?

00:27:00You look like a rabbit caught in headlights

00:27:01No, I'm fine

00:27:04It's just

00:27:04A load of voice messes

00:27:06Messages from

00:27:07From home

00:27:07They're not used to me staying out this late

00:27:10They think I've been kidnapped or something

00:27:12You wouldn't realise I was 22

00:27:15Who says you haven't been kidnapped?

00:27:17Well, have I?

00:27:19Maybe

00:27:20How's about we pick up from where we left off last night?

00:27:27I don't think I've got the energy

00:27:28You had plenty of energy last night

00:27:30I think I had a little help

00:27:32What was that you gave me?

00:27:35I gave you?

00:27:36No, no, no, no, no

00:27:37From what I remember you snatched it from me

00:27:39What was it?

00:27:40Methadrone

00:27:42Methadrone?

00:27:44I've never heard of it

00:27:47You're a little bit of coke

00:27:48Cocaine?

00:27:50That's not so shocked

00:27:51I'm not

00:27:53It's just

00:27:54You've never done it before?

00:27:57Oh, so you're not just a sex virgin

00:27:59Alright, there's no need to be like that

00:28:02There's no need to be ashamed

00:28:03I was a virgin until I was 22

00:28:05I'm not ashamed

00:28:07I told you I was a virgin anyway

00:28:10You were good

00:28:12Oh God, I can't remember a thing

00:28:14Oh, thanks

00:28:16No, don't worry

00:28:18I was as gentle as I needed to be

00:28:20I didn't want your first experience to be a bad one

00:28:22I guess I need enough worry now

00:28:25What else did I say?

00:28:30It was cool

00:28:32It was all good

00:28:33We had fun

00:28:34You should let me refresh your memory

00:28:37Were we...

00:28:39What?

00:28:43Were we safe?

00:28:44I always play safe, buddy

00:28:46Thank God

00:28:48You're a virgin, so we're cool

00:28:50Yeah, but we used a condom, right?

00:28:54I always used condoms, usually

00:28:56But we didn't have any

00:28:58Oh, fuck

00:29:00We were in the moment

00:29:01And you said it was okay, remember?

00:29:03That's when you told me

00:29:05That's why we did it

00:29:07Look, don't worry

00:29:08Okay?

00:29:09I'm negative and I promise you

00:29:10I always usually use condoms

00:29:12I got tested last month

00:29:14Plus I pulled out before...

00:29:20You gonna get that?

00:29:29Are you avoiding someone?

00:29:30I just don't want to talk to anyone at the moment

00:29:32Well, they obviously want to speak to you

00:29:35Well, they obviously want to speak to you

00:29:39Maybe you should answer that

00:29:41Hello?

00:29:46Address

00:29:47Sorry

00:29:48Address

00:29:49Look, I'm okay

00:29:51I said give me the fucking address

00:29:53I'll text at you

00:29:55I'll text at you

00:30:05That was short and sweet

00:30:07What?

00:30:11Is everything alright?

00:30:13Yeah, good

00:30:14What's your address?

00:30:17117 Belvedere Road Flat 2

00:30:20117 Belvedere

00:30:25So, are you okay?

00:30:26Yeah

00:30:28Fine

00:30:29It was Jules

00:30:31Your boyfriend?

00:30:32What? No

00:30:34My dad

00:30:35I've got to go

00:30:40Yeah, no worries

00:30:45I'm sorry

00:30:47Like I said, no worries

00:30:49Look, I put my card in your jeans just in case

00:30:51Just in case I want more drugs

00:30:53I'm a banker, not a drug dealer

00:30:55Isn't that the same thing?

00:30:57Alright, smart arse

00:30:58No, just in case you want to come back

00:31:02You don't even know me

00:31:03I know enough to know I'd like to get to know more

00:31:06Oh yeah

00:31:07How many times have you used that line?

00:31:09Oh

00:31:10Where's all this coming from all of a sudden?

00:31:13Nothing

00:31:16Sorry, I'm not used to this

00:31:17Look, I'm not a player

00:31:19I'm too old for all that

00:31:20I just say it how I see it

00:31:22What do you see in me?

00:31:25Have I not made that obvious?

00:31:29I guess so

00:31:31Thank you

00:31:33For what?

00:31:36To know

00:31:38Just thank you

00:31:40For treating me like a human being

00:31:41What?

00:31:43Nothing

00:31:44I'm being silly

00:31:46You're cute

00:31:48Thanks

00:31:49You're sexy

00:31:51You think so?

00:31:52I know, Sonny

00:31:54I wish I could stay

00:31:55You're more than welcome to

00:31:57I can't

00:32:01I'll be here

00:32:02Like I said

00:32:03Anytime

00:32:05Right

00:32:06Anytime

00:32:08Might just take you up on that

00:32:10You just do that

00:32:14Oh shit, I'm sorry

00:32:16I'm sorry

00:32:18I have to get ready

00:32:20I'll be him

00:32:22Your dad

00:32:24I'll get your jeans

00:32:29Yeah

00:32:31My dad

00:32:47You can drop me here

00:32:53I'm dropping you at the door

00:32:55Suit yourself

00:32:58You think that was clever?

00:33:00Excuse me?

00:33:02Going home with a complete stranger

00:33:03To be honest, Jules, it's none of your business

00:33:10I guess you're right, it's not

00:33:11No, it's not

00:33:12I'm a grown man and I'm 22

00:33:14And I'm single, I can do whatever I want

00:33:15Next time at least

00:33:17Phone your mother

00:33:19Thanks for the advice

00:33:21Keep that in mind for next time

00:33:23You want to see him again?

00:33:24As I said, Jules

00:33:26It's none of your business

00:33:29So tell me

00:33:31What you're doing to me

00:33:34I'm going out of my head

00:33:37With this burning

00:33:38Inside of me

00:33:40Inside of me

00:33:42You've got to hold on me bad

00:33:45I don't want to run away from you

00:33:48No, everything about me tells me to

00:33:52Lick me in my eyes and say it

00:33:56I need to hear it

00:33:58Those little words I crave

00:34:01Cause when you touch me

00:34:03And you leave me

00:34:05Boy, you kill me

00:34:06Boy, you kill me

00:34:08So let's go around again

00:34:12Hold on tight again

00:34:15Feel the rush before we do you again

00:34:19Tell me once again

00:34:23So let's go around again

00:34:27Let the sun kiss away all the rain

00:34:30Let the light shine through the rain

00:34:33Let the light shine through the rain

00:34:36Say those words again

00:34:40Again, again

00:34:42Can you feel my heartbeat?

00:34:44Put your hands on my chest

00:34:46It's running from me

00:34:48See, words are no good

00:34:50They always fail me

00:34:52My mind overloads

00:34:55Whenever you call my name

00:34:57Your name

00:34:58So put your lips on my lips

00:35:01And forget who we are

00:35:03Let's go right back to the start

00:35:06Go around again

00:35:08Hold on tight again

00:35:12Feel my rush on to you again

00:35:16Tell me once again

00:35:18Tell me once again

00:35:19Tell me once again

00:35:21So let's go around again

00:35:24Let the sun kiss away all the rain

00:35:28Let the light shine through the rain

00:35:31Let the light shine through the rain

00:35:33Say those words again, again

00:35:36Again, again, again

00:35:45What a lovely couple

00:35:47Have you shown me one more picture of you and Sam?

00:35:49No, it's you and me, soft arse

00:35:51Aw

00:35:53You always thought you and me would end up together

00:35:56Aw, for the last time, I'm gay

00:35:58You know what I mean?

00:35:59Living together

00:36:01Do you think me and Sam will end up living together?

00:36:03Not this again

00:36:05You've only known him two minutes

00:36:06Two months?

00:36:07Now you're in love

00:36:09Five minutes ago you wanted to run away with your sister's husband

00:36:12Aw, why are you being like this?

00:36:13I'm not

00:36:15But you can't just keep jumping from one thing to the next

00:36:18And I can't keep running after you like some idiot picking up the pieces

00:36:21Where's all this come from?

00:36:25I just feel like I've been putting my life on hold following your dream

00:36:28And in the back of my mind he always thought it would be you and me moving to London

00:36:31And we'd carry on same as ever

00:36:33Stace, I love you

00:36:35That'll never change

00:36:37Sam isn't some rebound

00:36:38This is it for me

00:36:40What about when he finds out about Jules?

00:36:43That's never gonna happen

00:36:44I'm going back to college

00:36:45Gonna finish my hairdressing course

00:36:46Good

00:36:47You've come to London

00:36:48You know that wasn't my first thought

00:36:49But then I got this place

00:36:50Needed to do something for me

00:36:52Jane's invited us to dinner next week

00:36:54You should go

00:36:56Us?

00:36:57Meaning you too

00:36:58No, you're okay, thanks

00:36:59Oh come on

00:37:01Knowing what I know

00:37:02You know me

00:37:03Two glasses of wine

00:37:04God knows what

00:37:05Come out of my mouth

00:37:07Are the offers there?

00:37:09Where are you going?

00:37:11I told you I'm gonna meet

00:37:12Sam

00:37:13Up to you

00:37:44This might have been David

00:37:47I've hardly seen him lately

00:37:50Back early

00:37:54It's like 2 o'clock yet

00:37:55And already it's been one of those days

00:37:58Emily at the office called me

00:38:00And then it's 325

00:38:01And it's 325

00:38:02And it's 325

00:38:03Oh

00:38:04Because it's definitely

00:38:05If you all have this

00:38:06And it's 325

00:38:08And it's 325

00:38:09And it's 325

00:38:10The only thing is

00:38:11Is it?

00:38:12What?

00:38:25Did you do it?

00:38:38No

00:38:39How come you're not in work?

00:38:41I'm working from home this afternoon, is that alright?

00:38:44Well, nice.

00:38:46What's that supposed to mean?

00:38:48It's not supposed to mean anything. I was just asking it at all.

00:38:51Am I not allowed to be at home at this time?

00:38:53Be silly.

00:38:54Don't call me silly.

00:39:04It's gone into you.

00:39:06I can leave if it's a problem.

00:39:08I wasn't saying that.

00:39:10You didn't have to.

00:39:11So it's alright for you to sit around all day trying on clothes,

00:39:14but the moment I want to come and work from home in the afternoon,

00:39:16it's an issue.

00:39:17I'm sorry if I'm getting in your way.

00:39:20Jules, I wasn't saying that.

00:39:22What were you saying?

00:39:25I wasn't saying anything.

00:39:27Well, maybe that's the problem.

00:39:29I work in fashion.

00:39:37I try on clothes.

00:39:38I write articles.

00:39:39I don't just sit around all day doing nothing.

00:39:42On top of that, I look after this house.

00:39:45I look after our daughter.

00:39:46And I don't do anything, is that it?

00:39:50Jules, I wasn't saying that.

00:39:56What's got into you?

00:39:59You've been like this now for weeks.

00:40:02I'm fine.

00:40:03Okay.

00:40:04Well, I'm here for you if you need to talk.

00:40:18I know David hasn't been round here much lately.

00:40:20The fuck has that got to do with anything?

00:40:23He doesn't swear at me.

00:40:25I just know that you usually share this kind of stuff with him.

00:40:29What are you talking about?

00:40:31I'm just saying, I know how much you enjoy his company, that's all.

00:40:35God, I miss him.

00:40:37So I can imagine that you do.

00:40:41So, you'd be pleased to know that.

00:40:43I've invited them both round for dinner next week.

00:40:47Them?

00:40:48David and Sam.

00:40:49What have you done that for?

00:40:50Because it's David's new boyfriend and, well, I think that we should meet him.

00:40:54Yeah, well, maybe I don't want to meet him.

00:40:57I think that we should support with him.

00:40:59They're just fucking.

00:41:00How much support do they need?

00:41:01Jules, what's your problem?

00:41:02Next you'll be telling me you want to watch.

00:41:04Jules!

00:41:06I don't want a couple of faggots in my house around my daughter.

00:41:09Don't you dare call my brother that.

00:41:11What, a faggot?

00:41:12Jules, I'm warning you.

00:41:14What, he's a big fucking queer?

00:41:16Oh!

00:41:17Oh!

00:41:19Jules, let go of me!

00:41:20Ah!

00:41:23Get off me, Jules!

00:41:25Jules!

00:41:26Jules!

00:41:27Jules!

00:41:28Jules!

00:41:29Oh!

00:41:30Fuck!

00:41:33I don't fucking need this.

00:41:35David here.

00:41:36You know what to do.

00:41:37David here.

00:41:38You know what to do.

00:41:39David here.

00:41:40You know what to do.

00:41:41David here.

00:41:42David here.

00:41:43You know what to do.

00:41:44Davidigt.

00:41:45David here.

00:41:51You know what to do.

00:41:52David here. You know what to do.

00:41:57Stacey.

00:42:22Jules, hi. What are you doing here?

00:42:26Yeah. I've been trying to get hold of David, but I don't seem to be able to find him. Do you know where he might be?

00:42:31Yeah. I think he was supposed to be meeting Sam.

00:42:33Yeah. So this is Sam?

00:42:36Yeah.

00:42:37No. What do you know about him?

00:42:39Not much. He's a nice bloke.

00:42:42Yeah?

00:42:43Yeah. And he loves David.

00:42:45Loves him?

00:42:47Yeah. And I'm really happy for him. For them both.

00:42:51David's going away.

00:42:54Yeah. And Sam will probably wait for him. Make him transfer with his job. They're really happy, Jules. Really happy.

00:43:01Nothing more for him. I love David like a brother.

00:43:04Yeah. It's nice to know. Jane and Steph.

00:43:07Sorry?

00:43:08I'm saying you must love them too.

00:43:12It's none of your business.

00:43:14See why David's concerned? I'll make it my business.

00:43:17What are you getting at?

00:43:19I'm not getting at anything, Jules. But please, for everyone's sake, don't ruin this.

00:43:24I won't dream of it.

00:43:26Of course you wouldn't.

00:43:28Have a good night. You better get me to work.

00:43:34Are you fucking kidding me?

00:43:35Language.

00:43:36But you've never seen Grease the movie?

00:43:38It's not really my thing.

00:43:40It's quite possibly the best movie ever made.

00:43:43Are you laughing at me?

00:43:45It's quite hard to believe. I mean, there's The Godfather and Pulp Fiction.

00:43:49Oh, you're so straight.

00:43:51Oh, hardly.

00:43:52I love that there were West Prada. Look, Meryl Streep.

00:43:55I'll give you that one.

00:43:57Yeah, but when it comes to musicals...

00:43:58No, no, no. That's where I sign off.

00:44:00Oh, really?

00:44:01Uh-huh.

00:44:02Well, you better be signing back on, mister, because that's my future.

00:44:05You're going to be in your best suit for a whole list of premieres.

00:44:08Because I want you by my side.

00:44:13What?

00:44:14What is that?

00:44:15Is that your way of proposing to me?

00:44:17Oh, you're so stupid.

00:44:18No, no, no. I see what's happening here.

00:44:21But, baby, you're going to have to get down on my limb.

00:44:24You're full of it!

00:44:26No.

00:44:27If you want to make an honest woman of me, then I need you to do it right.

00:44:31I mean, what am I going to tell our kids?

00:44:33That their father was a lunatic and had to be locked away.

00:44:35Now you're just chickening out.

00:44:36No, no, I'm not.

00:44:37Yes, you are.

00:44:38I'm not.

00:44:39You are.

00:44:40I'm not.

00:44:41No, I'm done.

00:44:42I love you.

00:44:43Is it too early for that?

00:44:45I love you too.

00:44:46Really?

00:44:47Yeah.

00:44:48So let's make it official.

00:44:49Marriage?

00:44:50Don't stop like us.

00:44:51You're not being exclusive.

00:44:52I've been exclusive since we met.

00:44:53Yeah.

00:44:54Me too.

00:44:55So let's do it.

00:44:56We've been doing it for months.

00:44:57Stop using condoms.

00:44:58Oh.

00:44:59Why?

00:45:00Because I love you.

00:45:01Because I love you.

00:45:02I don't want to be with you.

00:45:03And when I'm with someone I love, I just want it to be special.

00:45:07I know you don't remember my part.

00:45:08But our first night together was pretty intense and I've been nervous.

00:45:09I haven't felt that close to someone in a water.

00:45:10But we have to feel like that all the time.

00:45:23I've been doing it.

00:45:24I've been doing it for months.

00:45:25Stop.

00:45:26I'm using condoms.

00:45:27Why?

00:45:28Because I love you.

00:45:29I don't want to be with you.

00:45:30And when I'm with someone I love, I just want it to be special.

00:45:32I can't come on it in a while, but we need to feel like that all the time.

00:45:38Okay. Let's do it.

00:45:41So, now we...

00:45:43We...

00:45:44We take all precautions.

00:45:47What do you mean?

00:45:48We're getting tested.

00:45:50I thought you said you were negative.

00:45:52I bet there's more things to worry about than HIV.

00:45:56And, you know, it's just better to be safe.

00:45:59Do you not trust me?

00:46:02I trust you with all my heart. I'm worried about myself.

00:46:05It's an avid because I keep in the same point these years.

00:46:07I'm 28, remember, not 22.

00:46:13Okay.

00:46:15Let's do it.

00:46:18Let's do it. All the time.

00:46:20All the time.

00:46:21All the time.

00:46:22Hey, it's Jules Spence. I can't get to the phone right now, so leave a massage and I will endeavour to get back to you as soon as possible.

00:46:34Jules, it's me. Where are you?

00:46:38What was all that about?

00:46:39Look, I am sorry if you're stressed.

00:46:43I know I don't always make things easier, but can we talk about this, please?

00:46:49I can't help you if you won't talk to me.

00:46:52I love you.

00:46:53I love you.

00:46:54I love you.

00:47:23Nastuga

00:47:24There are monsters here, there are and they are wrapped in cotton wool, in wool.

00:47:42And they're wrapped in cotton wool

00:47:49In wool

00:47:56And the faces I once knew

00:48:04And I walk alone

00:48:34Oh my god.

00:48:51Oh my god.

00:48:56Jane.

00:49:16My fame.

00:49:20I've just got Steph off to school.

00:49:22I think that... I think that she might be...

00:49:24Sorry.

00:49:30I don't know what's got into me, haven't I?

00:49:33It's okay.

00:49:34It's not okay.

00:49:38You don't deserve this.

00:49:42I don't deserve you.

00:49:46Oh, Jules.

00:49:50What's happening to us?

00:49:52Is it...

00:49:54Is it something I've said?

00:49:56Or something that I've done?

00:49:58Or something that I haven't done?

00:50:02It's not you, it's me.

00:50:04Oh.

00:50:06It's not you, it's me, right?

00:50:08Okay, I see.

00:50:10I didn't mean it like that.

00:50:12Jane, I do love you.

00:50:22Do you, Jules?

00:50:26You really...

00:50:28I just love the idea of me.

00:50:30It's like image.

00:50:32Perfect family.

00:50:36I try my best, Jules.

00:50:38I know.

00:50:39Sometimes...

00:50:41I try too hard.

00:50:43I know I'm aware of that.

00:50:45I make a nice house for you.

00:50:47For us.

00:50:49I give you as much love as I possibly can give.

00:50:55I make sure that you...

00:50:57I come for nothing.

00:50:59I cook.

00:51:00I clean.

00:51:01I don't know what else there is that I can do.

00:51:03Jules, is this it?

00:51:15Is this what?

00:51:17Is this...

00:51:19how we're gonna be?

00:51:21Or...

00:51:23Are we over?

00:51:27No.

00:51:29Is there someone else?

00:51:31Is there Jules?

00:51:37Of course not.

00:51:39Please, Jules, if there is, then you've got to tell me.

00:51:43We don't have sex anymore.

00:51:47You're always working late.

00:51:49Please, Jules, if there's someone else, then please, you must tell me.

00:51:53I mean, I love you, but I won't let you make me a fool.

00:51:57Jane, you're not a fool.

00:51:59Jane, you're not a fool.

00:52:03I'm sorry.

00:52:07It's just...

00:52:09It's work.

00:52:23It's just...

00:52:27Late nights.

00:52:31Early mornings.

00:52:33Early mornings, I'm...

00:52:35I'm stressed.

00:52:37Tired.

00:52:41Then why didn't you talk to me about it?

00:52:43I'm here for you, Jules.

00:52:45Why didn't you just let me in?

00:52:47It's not that easy.

00:52:49Why not Jules?

00:52:51Why not?

00:52:55I'm not very good at talking about how I feel.

00:52:59I'm ashamed.

00:53:11Weak, I guess.

00:53:15I promise.

00:53:19I will try to be better.

00:53:27I don't want to be like this.

00:53:29I just want us to go back to our home.

00:53:39We used to be just you, me and Steph.

00:53:43Please.

00:53:47Will you give me another chance?

00:53:49Please.

00:53:53If not for us, then for Steph.

00:53:59No.

00:54:03If we're gonna do this, then we'd do it for us.

00:54:07I'm not having our daughter being used as an excuse.

00:54:11Okay.

00:54:13For us.

00:54:43But I dove head first, then.

00:54:45Now that I'm in, I'm close to being out of my debt.

00:54:51But I don't want you to save me.

00:54:55Don't come to my rescue.

00:54:57No, not this time.

00:54:58I'll give in before it takes me.

00:55:01Before it takes a hold of you and I.

00:55:05I can find the answers.

00:55:08Make the right decisions.

00:55:11So I'm searching.

00:55:15Seeking some results.

00:55:17David here.

00:55:19You know what to do.

00:55:21Hello.

00:55:23This is a message from Mr. Henderson.

00:55:25It's Dr. Jackson from the Men's Sexual Health Clinic.

00:55:29We'd like you to come in and discuss your results, please,

00:55:31at your earliest convenience.

00:55:35Hey, you're through to Sam's phone.

00:55:37I'm either at work or in the gym.

00:55:39Leave a message and I'll get back to you ASAP.

00:55:41Hey, you're through to Sam's phone.

00:55:43I'm either at work or in the gym.

00:55:45Leave a message and I'll get back to you ASAP.

00:55:47Hey, babe.

00:55:49It's me.

00:55:50Listen.

00:55:51Jane just called me.

00:55:52And, well, she said, can we make it another night for dinner?

00:55:56Someone's come up.

00:55:57I'm running around there now to look after Steph for the evening and I'll call you later to explain.

00:56:11I love you.

00:56:13I love you.

00:56:14And, erm...

00:56:17Oh, it doesn't matter.

00:56:19Speak later.

00:56:25Jules!

00:56:26Jules, can you give me a hand, please?

00:56:28What?

00:56:29Can you open the wine?

00:56:31Can you give me an ear to open the wine?

00:56:33I'm just finishing off here.

00:56:34It's red wine.

00:56:35I want it to breathe before we drink it.

00:56:38You're not that lazy.

00:56:41Are you kidding me?

00:56:42You don't smell the delight that I'm cooking up here.

00:56:47I'm so excited. Hurry up.

00:56:48David's going to be here soon.

00:56:50Honey, just so you know, I may have to pop out later on.

00:56:54I promised the office I'd go in and do a conference call with some clients in the US.

00:56:57Again?

00:56:58Yeah, I'm sorry.

00:56:59Jules, I told you about this last week.

00:57:01I've given you enough notice.

00:57:03It's important to David.

00:57:05Here, aren't I?

00:57:07I'm not rushing off.

00:57:08I'm just saying at some point I may need to pop out.

00:57:11So don't be surprised.

00:57:12OK.

00:57:15Hey, sweetheart.

00:57:16Where's Sam?

00:57:22Sweetheart?

00:57:23Um, he's come after work.

00:57:26Oh.

00:57:27I thought you would have come together.

00:57:28That was the plan, yeah.

00:57:30I wanted to come a little earlier.

00:57:32It doesn't finish till seven.

00:57:34I couldn't wait.

00:57:35It's seven now.

00:57:38Are you all right?

00:57:39What?

00:57:41You look a little frazzled.

00:57:44I suppose you could say that.

00:57:46David, what's the matter?

00:57:48Is everything OK with you and Sam?

00:57:50Yeah.

00:57:51Yeah, I'm fine.

00:57:52I just...

00:57:53I'm just tired of everything.

00:57:55And what do you mean by that?

00:57:57To be honest, I'm fine.

00:57:58I don't know.

00:57:59David, come on.

00:58:00Sit down.

00:58:01Take the weight off your feet.

00:58:02I've just got to...

00:58:03Run to Mum's for his stats pyjamas.

00:58:04It won't be long, OK?

00:58:05Yeah.

00:58:06Are you sure you're all right?

00:58:07Fine.

00:58:08You go.

00:58:09OK.

00:58:10And, honey, give Naomi the oven for me.

00:58:11It should be OK, but just in case Mum kicks me, Gavin.

00:58:13Sure.

00:58:14So.

00:58:15How are you?

00:58:16Been better?

00:58:17I feel like I've not seen you.

00:58:18Eight weeks.

00:58:19No, you haven't.

00:58:20Shhh.

00:58:21Shhh.

00:58:22Shhh.

00:58:23Shhh.

00:58:24Shhh.

00:58:25Shhh.

00:58:26Shhh.

00:58:27Shhh.

00:58:28Shhh.

00:58:29Shhh.

00:58:30Shhh.

00:58:31Shhh.

00:58:32Shhh.

00:58:33Shhh.

00:58:34Shhh.

00:58:35Shhh.

00:58:36Shhh.

00:58:37Shhh.

00:58:38Shhh.

00:58:39Shhh.

00:58:40Shhh.

00:58:41Shhh.

00:58:42Shhh.

00:58:43Shhh.

00:58:44Shhh.

00:58:45Shhh.

00:58:46Shhh.

00:58:47Shhh.

00:58:48Shhh.

00:58:49I missed you.

00:58:50Really?

00:58:51Yeah?

00:58:52Shhh.

00:58:54I missed you so much.

00:58:55You missed my ass, you mean.

00:58:57I'm sure you kept yourself occupied.

00:59:00David.

00:59:01I'd like to say I missed you too, Jules, but.

00:59:03It's been the best eight weeks of my life.

00:59:07I'm happy for you.

00:59:08Oh, yeah.

00:59:09Are you really?

00:59:11You really?

00:59:12Yes.

00:59:14I want you to be happy.

00:59:15Well, you've got a funny way to shout.

00:59:18David, some things in life aren't so black and white.

00:59:24I know it's a cliché.

00:59:27Sometimes you don't know what you've got until it's gone.

00:59:31Yeah, I know that one really well.

00:59:38I love you.

00:59:41Please.

00:59:43I do.

00:59:45I mean, it's taken me a long time to admit it, but I...

00:59:51I love love you.

00:59:54You don't say anything you might regret.

00:59:57My whole life is turning into one big regret.

01:00:02Ruining Jane's life.

01:00:06I love her, but...

01:00:07I'm in love with you.

01:00:11Well, it's a little bit late for her now.

01:00:16Is it?

01:00:17Is it really?

01:00:18Yes.

01:00:21Yes, it is, Jules.

01:00:23You've made my life hell.

01:00:26Not only have you let me on.

01:00:28You've lied to...

01:00:29No, we've lied to my...

01:00:31My whole family.

01:00:32My sister, who I'm supposed to love.

01:00:35I can't believe I've been so selfish.

01:00:36I'm willing to come clean.

01:00:38How long have you known you again?

01:00:42Where's that come from?

01:00:44How long have you been sleeping with men?

01:00:45I've never slept with you.

01:00:47Don't lie to me, Jules.

01:00:49How long have you been sleeping with men?

01:00:51I've never slept with you.

01:00:53Don't lie to me, Jules.

01:00:55How long?

01:00:57I'm not lying.

01:00:59How long have you been sleeping with men?

01:01:01I don't know what you're talking about.

01:01:02I wasn't the first person you slept with.

01:01:06No, I probably wasn't the second or the third.

01:01:10I probably wasn't even the last.

01:01:13I should have guessed it.

01:01:15You're too good to be true.

01:01:18I've been a public school boy.

01:01:20Of course you've experimented.

01:01:22Now you're just being childish.

01:01:24How many?

01:01:26I don't know what you're talking about.

01:01:27I've got HIV, Jules.

01:01:29What?

01:01:30Human Immunodeficiency Virus.

01:01:33I know what it means.

01:01:34And I got it from you.

01:01:35You got it from me.

01:01:36You're going to repeat everything I say!

01:01:42David, stop playing games.

01:01:45I know I've hurt you.

01:01:46This is hardly some revenge tactic, Jules.

01:01:49This is my life I'm talking about!

01:01:51I'm being deadly serious!

01:01:57What did you find out?

01:02:00I was tested.

01:02:02Sam.

01:02:03Sam's negative.

01:02:04I'm positive.

01:02:05And the only other person that I've slept with, or had sexual relations with, is you!

01:02:12How?

01:02:14Many?

01:02:15I don't know.

01:02:16I don't know.

01:02:17I don't know.

01:02:18I don't know.

01:02:19Maybe...

01:02:23Four?

01:02:24Maybe five?

01:02:25No.

01:02:27They're all unprotected like you do, man.

01:02:30I need to know.

01:02:32They've sent me to death.

01:02:34Not just me.

01:02:35Like Jane and Steph.

01:02:37No.

01:02:38No.

01:02:41No, it can't be.

01:02:49When did it start?

01:02:50The first item was...

01:02:51Jane was pregnant with Steph.

01:03:04I know you're not lying about that as well.

01:03:05I promise.

01:03:06I wouldn't lie when it comes to my daughter.

01:03:08No thank heavens for small mercies!

01:03:14So it's just me and Jane you've infected.

01:03:19David, you can't blame me for what happened between us.

01:03:21I don't blame you.

01:03:23I take full responsibility on my part in this.

01:03:26I fucked up.

01:03:28And I'm willing to admit that.

01:03:30But I can blame you for being reckless.

01:03:32For being selfish.

01:03:33For...

01:03:35Not considering other people's safety whilst fucking around!

01:03:39I have to live with my actions and their repercussions and so do you.

01:03:43But Jane...

01:03:45You're gonna tell her?

01:03:46No!

01:03:48I'm not!

01:03:49You are!

01:03:52What the fuck do you want to get there?

01:03:54What the fuck do you want to get there?

01:03:58There.

01:03:59There.

01:04:00Are you expecting someone?

01:04:03Not that I can think of.

01:04:05Don't be sad.

01:04:07Jules, I'll get...

01:04:09Sam.

01:04:10Hi.

01:04:11Morning.

01:04:14David?

01:04:17Sam...

01:04:19What are you doing here?

01:04:21What am I interrupting something?

01:04:23It looks like you guys are getting ready for dinner.

01:04:27Sam, I can explain.

01:04:29We are getting ready for dinner. We were waiting for you.

01:04:32Oh really?

01:04:33Sam, look.

01:04:34I'm Jules.

01:04:35It's nice to meet you. I've heard a lot about you.

01:04:36Hello.

01:04:37Sorry, this is a little bit strange because I got a message saying that dinner was cancelled.

01:04:50Baby, please. I can explain.

01:04:52You don't want me to meet your friend.

01:04:55No.

01:04:56That's not it at all.

01:04:57It's just...

01:04:59It's a lot more complicated.

01:05:01So you've not told him?

01:05:03Oh, shut up, Jules.

01:05:05Have you not done enough?

01:05:07What does he mean by that?

01:05:11Look...

01:05:13I can't really...

01:05:14I can't really talk right now.

01:05:16I just need a moment.

01:05:17So you want me to go?

01:05:19Oh.

01:05:20Come on, David.

01:05:21Come in here guns blazing.

01:05:22Fill him in.

01:05:23You would not believe what has just happened to me.

01:05:27You must be Sam.

01:05:29Oh, I'm so pleased to meet you.

01:05:31David has told me all about you.

01:05:33Yep, so I've heard.

01:05:35Look at you.

01:05:36You're even more handsome than your pictures on Facebook.

01:05:40What are we all doing here?

01:05:41Come on, come through.

01:05:43Hello.

01:05:45Jules, are we not fixing these boys a drink?

01:05:47No.

01:05:49No, no, they were just in the middle of telling me something.

01:05:51Sarah, please.

01:05:52Really?

01:05:53What?

01:05:55It doesn't matter.

01:05:56You're back.

01:05:57I assume it has something to do with the emergency.

01:05:59Emergency?

01:06:00Sam, I told you I can explain.

01:06:03Explain? Explain what?

01:06:05Explain what, Jules?

01:06:13David left me a voicemail earlier saying that dinner had been cancelled and that he was coming over to babysit.

01:06:20And I thought I'd come round and keep him company.

01:06:23Why would you say that?

01:06:25Because...

01:06:26Because I needed to see you both alone.

01:06:29The whole pair visit tonight was...

01:06:30I needed to.

01:06:32I wanted to come clean.

01:06:35I wanted Jules to confess to what he's done.

01:06:37And what we've both done.

01:06:39No, Jules.

01:06:40I've had enough.

01:06:42I can't do it anymore.

01:06:44David, what on earth are you talking about?

01:06:47Who are you going to tell her?

01:06:50Tell me what, Jules?

01:06:53Tell me what?

01:06:57Jane, I'm not bitten.

01:06:59Totally.

01:07:04David and I...

01:07:07You've what, Jules?

01:07:10We've been having an affair.

01:07:19Is this some sort of joke?

01:07:24We've been sleeping together.

01:07:26You and your brother-in-law, yeah?

01:07:29Sleeping together?

01:07:30For about two years.

01:07:31For two years?

01:07:32Well, I don't know.

01:07:34Oh, well that's alright then.

01:07:35We didn't mean for it to happen.

01:07:37I don't believe I'm...

01:07:38I'm hearing this.

01:07:39So this is why you don't want me here?

01:07:40No.

01:07:41No.

01:07:42It's...

01:07:43End of before I met you.

01:07:47There's something...

01:07:51There's something else.

01:07:53Oh my God!

01:07:54What else could there be?

01:07:55You're going to tell me that you're pregnant?

01:07:56No.

01:07:58I've got...

01:08:00I've got HIV.

01:08:05What?

01:08:07I think I got it from Jules.

01:08:10Shhh.

01:08:11When did you find myself?

01:08:15This morning.

01:08:17This morning?

01:08:18You have HIV and you think you got it from Jules.

01:08:21No, I know I got it from him.

01:08:22Sam's the only other person I've slept with.

01:08:25He doesn't have this.

01:08:27Jane.

01:08:28Don't!

01:08:29Don't you dare come anywhere near me?

01:08:30Don't you even speak to me?

01:08:33Jules.

01:08:34Jules, how could you?

01:08:36And then...

01:08:38and lied to me?

01:08:41Bareface lied to my face.

01:08:43Jane, I...

01:08:44I asked you.

01:08:45I asked you with anybody else.

01:08:48I gave you the chance to be honest with me.

01:08:51It wasn't.

01:08:52David and I, we've been over for months.

01:08:54That is no excuse.

01:08:56I know.

01:09:00So...

01:09:01I've got a minute.

01:09:02You have came into David's.

01:09:04That means...

01:09:06We can't.

01:09:08Me...

01:09:10Me and Steph.

01:09:14Who else have you been sleeping with?

01:09:17Jules.

01:09:19Jules, do not ignore me.

01:09:20Who else?

01:09:21You've got no right to keep this from me.

01:09:24You put my life in danger and you want to play all coy now.

01:09:28Who else, Jules?

01:09:31There have been others, yes.

01:09:33How long?

01:09:35I don't know.

01:09:37You're telling me that...

01:09:39that you're gay?

01:09:41After...

01:09:42after seven years?

01:09:44Why in the air did you marry me?

01:09:45I didn't know I was gay.

01:09:46You're sleeping with men.

01:09:48How could you not know?

01:09:49It wasn't until David that I started having feelings for...

01:09:51I mean...

01:09:52I mean...

01:09:53It was just...

01:09:54sex!

01:09:55I don't believe...

01:09:56I don't believe that I am here with this!

01:09:58And you!

01:09:59You!

01:10:01Every night in my house!

01:10:03Eating my food and all the time!

01:10:05You were sleeping with my illness!

01:10:07Jane, it wasn't like that!

01:10:08It was a drunken mistake!

01:10:09For two years!

01:10:10A drunken mistake!

01:10:11That is one big mistake!

01:10:12Damn it!

01:10:13If I never see you again as long as I live...

01:10:14It won't be too soon!

01:10:15Jane, I'm sorry!

01:10:16Yes, so am I!

01:10:17I'm a very sorry...

01:10:18Sorry boy!

01:10:19The hospital have given me a card!

01:10:20They want you to make an appointment!

01:10:21Get out of my house!

01:10:22Get out of my house!

01:10:23Tell me why I told you!

01:10:24I'm sorry!

01:10:25Get out of my house!

01:10:26I'm sorry!

01:10:27I'm sorry!

01:10:28I'm sorry!

01:10:29I'm sorry!

01:10:30I'm sorry!

01:10:31I'm sorry!

01:10:32I'm sorry!

01:10:33I'm sorry!

01:10:34I'm sorry!

01:10:35The hospital have given me a card!

01:10:40They want you to make an appointment!

01:10:43Get out of my house!

01:10:44Get out of my house!

01:10:45Get out of my house!

01:10:46Tell me why I told you!

01:10:47I'm sorry!

01:10:48Go!

01:10:49Come on!

01:10:50You!

01:10:51Get out of here and pack your mouse!

01:10:54Oh my god!

01:11:05David here. You know what to do.

01:11:18David!

01:11:20It's your mum!

01:11:24She's just been around.

01:11:26I can't believe it.

01:11:28I don't want to believe it.

01:11:30She said you've got HIV.

01:11:38Oh David.

01:11:40David, you're my son.

01:11:42I can't help both of you.

01:11:45This is bigger than me, your father.

01:11:50You.

01:11:52You and you.

01:11:56How would you?

01:11:59How could the bad of you do that?

01:12:02How could you do that to your sister?

01:12:06To Steph?

01:12:08Oh, please come out, David.

01:12:17Please.

01:12:19Please, come out.

01:12:21I see you lied to me.

01:12:25I lied to everyone.

01:12:28I'm sorry.

01:12:29Yeah, I bet you are.

01:12:31I bet you didn't expect this.

01:12:33I tried not to have expectations.

01:12:35It only leads to disappointment.

01:12:37Although I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit disappointed right now.

01:12:41You're your sister's husband, fuck.

01:12:50You say you love her, but...

01:12:53No, I can't get my head around it.

01:12:54It's just...

01:12:55It's pretty fucking selfish.

01:12:59I thought I was in love.

01:13:00Yeah, it's funny the things we do with the name of love.

01:13:02By the time I'd realised it was too late.

01:13:07I guess it's just a question of trust.

01:13:09I mean, you say you love me.

01:13:12I do love you.

01:13:13Look how you treat the people you love.

01:13:16Sam, please.

01:13:19I had the chance to do it again.

01:13:20Don't you think I would?

01:13:21David, I'm not trying to hurt you, but put yourself in my shoes.

01:13:28My life's over.

01:13:29No, it's not.

01:13:31Look, you'll still be joining the company.

01:13:33You'll still be able to dance.

01:13:34Work is the last thing on my mind at the moment.

01:13:36Yeah, but that's your dream and that's what you always wanted.

01:13:40That's what I thought I always wanted.

01:13:43And in an instant, my life's changed.

01:13:49One thing in life that is certain is that's nothing.

01:13:53Nothing is certain.

01:13:54And that one day we're going to die.

01:13:58That's something I expected.

01:13:59Stop it.

01:14:00Yeah, people with HIV live long and healthy normal lives.

01:14:04I've gone from having everything.

01:14:06Friends, family, a boyfriend that loves me to having nothing.

01:14:10Nothing.

01:14:18Still got me.

01:14:23Joking?

01:14:24No.

01:14:30You just said I did.

01:14:32I still love you.

01:14:37You know, we all make mistakes.

01:14:38Some mistakes have begun and others.

01:14:43I put your life at risk.

01:14:44I slept with my sister's husband.

01:14:48You didn't know you would put me at risk.

01:14:51And you weren't having an affair with Jules, were you?

01:14:53With me.

01:14:55You still want to be with him as well as it is?

01:14:58No.

01:14:59I don't know.

01:15:04Oh, God, HIV.

01:15:07Lose me.

01:15:09You're not the first person in the world to have me.

01:15:10You're not going to be the last.

01:15:14You guys were very happy before.

01:15:16It didn't mean to Christ.

01:15:17In London, this is almost the fucking normal.

01:15:19It just means we have to be safe.

01:15:28You deserve better than me.

01:15:38You're a big guy.

01:15:42You made a mistake.

01:15:43It doesn't make you a bad person.

01:15:48So long as you learn from it, you don't keep making the same mistakes.

01:16:01Don't lie to me.

01:16:09I love you.

01:16:13I love you too.

01:16:43I thought you'd moved out.

01:16:45I've just come to pick up the last of my things.

01:16:48It's Jane home.

01:16:50Yeah.

01:16:51David.

01:16:55You come to pick him up?

01:16:57No.

01:16:59I've gone to see you.

01:17:01I'll leave you to it.

01:17:03It's on a shop on my behalf.

01:17:05I'm off to the hospital.

01:17:08Right.

01:17:10Take care of yourself.

01:17:14I'll try.

01:17:32Of course I told you I didn't want to see you again.

01:17:34I know.

01:17:37David, I've got to go.

01:17:38I've got more tests.

01:17:39Jane, I'm sorry.

01:17:41Yeah.

01:17:42Yeah, that's what you said.

01:17:44Otherwise I told you I just...

01:17:45I can't be around you right now.

01:17:47You're my sister.

01:17:49Yeah.

01:17:51Here I am.

01:17:54For Stephanie's sake, well...

01:17:55How is she?

01:17:57It's okay, thankfully.

01:18:03And you?

01:18:05David, I've got to go.

01:18:06David, please, I've got to know.

01:18:10Do you?

01:18:12Do you really?

01:18:16Why?

01:18:18Why do you need to know?

01:18:20To ease your conscience?

01:18:22To make you feel that little less sorry?

01:18:27I'm sorry too, David.

01:18:29Because I can't give you that peace of mind.

01:18:32I'm struggling to hold together what's left of my sanity.

01:18:36I'm trying to piece together something of the sham of a life I thought that I had.

01:18:41I'm positive too, David.

01:18:51Yeah.

01:18:53Just like you.

01:18:57Nothing like keeping it in the family, eh?

01:19:02Does that make you feel any better?

01:19:04If we don't mind, Soph, I'd have things to do.

01:19:09If we don't mind, Soph, I'd have things to do.

01:19:35Bye.

01:19:36Bye-bye.

01:19:37Bye-bye.

01:19:38I listen to you.

01:19:54Bye-bye.

01:19:56Five Plays

01:20:00I made a promise to the devil

01:20:25I sold my soul for peace of heaven

01:20:29I lose my senses, lose my sight

01:20:32For a mountain of your wild again

01:20:35I shed my kind of singles within

01:20:39I wash these demons from my spirit

01:20:42And I can hardly hold on to these walls

01:20:47So watch me go

01:20:59He pulled me back into the shadow

01:21:20I lost my wings, I lost my halo

01:21:24Although I tried and tried

01:21:27The devil kept me blind

01:21:29And then

01:21:30I shed my skin, nothing goes with it

01:21:34I washed these demons from my spirit

01:21:37And I can hardly hold on to these walls

01:21:42So watch me go

01:21:46My mind's made up

01:21:48And now I am ready

01:21:51Late to my neck

01:21:55My heart is heavy

01:21:57I can't keep walking in circles

01:22:02With my head up in the clouds

01:22:05My freedom

01:22:06My mind's made up

01:22:08And now I am ready

01:22:10My mind's made up

01:22:11And now I am ready

01:22:13My mind's made up

01:22:14And now I am ready

01:22:16My mind's made up

01:22:17And now I am ready

01:22:18Late to my neck

01:22:21My heart is heavy

01:22:23I can't keep walking in circles

01:22:24I can't keep walking in circles

01:22:28With my head up in the clouds

01:22:32My freedom

01:22:33My mind's made up

01:22:34And now I am ready

01:22:37My mind's made up

01:22:38And now I am ready

01:22:40I am ready

01:22:58I am ready

01:23:00I am ready

01:23:02I am ready

01:23:04I am ready

01:23:06And now I am ready

01:23:08We'll see you next time.

Softlad (2015) gay theme | LGBTQ film - English

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