00:00I think the book overall was extremely cathartic.
00:06You know, it wasn't easy to write by any means in more ways than one.
00:13I just felt like this was my chance to tell my truth and my story 100%.
00:22No editing other than, you know, by me and a copy editor.
00:26But I just wanted to put it all out there.
00:31You know, I feel like I have worn this scarlet letter for so long.
00:37You know, I'm this homewrecking whore every day in the comments.
00:41And he's the one who lied.
00:45He is the one who cheated.
00:47He is the homewrecker.
00:49I don't want to say I was innocent, but I did not know.
00:56You know, I was lied to by a man, a 33-year-old man, when I was 21, fresh out of college.
01:06I feel like people tend to forget that.
01:09They see 27-year-old Sheena on season one of Vanderpump Rules, and it's as if the Eddie
01:15situation happened the year before.
01:17I was already with Shay for a couple years when we were filming season one.
01:22So all of this, I like to remind people, happened in 2006.
01:29We weren't on air until 2013.
01:32There was a lot of time that had passed, a lot of growth that I had been on, been through.
01:38And it was a story that I felt like needed to be told again, because I don't think anyone
01:46took it seriously back then.
01:48I think they just saw me as this girl who wanted to be with famous guys and saw this guy and
01:55didn't care that he had a pregnant wife at home.
01:58I now, looking back, obviously hindsight is 20-20.
02:03Were there red flags?
02:04Absolutely.
02:06I felt like I was leading with my heart and not my brain.
02:10And I think another common misconception is that I'm not smart.
02:14And I am.
02:15I am extremely smart.
02:16I am educated.
02:17I have my degree.
02:19However, when my brain told me, this guy might be lying to you, my heart told me, no, you
02:24should believe everything he's saying because he loves you.
02:28And looking back, gosh, there's so many things I wish I could change.
02:34I don't like to have regrets in life, but one thing I do regret was opening up to media
02:42about Eddie.
02:44Once there were some photos that had leaked, I'm certain from a friend of mine who was on
02:50the boat with us because that's who had the photos.
02:52Once those were out there, I was just like, you know what?
02:56You hurt me.
02:57I'm going to hurt you.
02:58And that was an extremely immature 22, 23-year-old response.
03:05I wasn't thinking about his wife and toddlers at home who were potentially watching this
03:11interview.
03:13I was, and people like to say that I like to make everything about me and whatnot.
03:18This was an instance where I was only thinking about myself in that situation.
03:24And that was not okay.
03:26It was extremely immature.
03:27It was extremely irresponsible.
03:29And it is one thing that I do heavily regret in life.
03:34I am so sorry to Brandy for her having to find out about me the way that she did.
03:41She didn't deserve any of that.
03:42And lo and behold, look what my husband did to me.
03:47It really felt like I truly got my karma.
03:50And did I deserve for that to happen?
03:55No, but I told myself that I did.
03:59That's been something that I am working on in therapy because I know I didn't deserve that.
04:04But I think it also helped me move towards the path of forgiveness a little easier because I still, part of me does feel like I deserved that, even though I was the one who was lied to.
04:19And I didn't know.
04:20No, no.
04:21No, how crazy.
04:22I've never ran into them.
04:23Leanne and I have talked on social media.
04:27I think we still follow each other on X.
04:30Um, her and I have DM'd.
04:32We've texted, um, Brandy and I stay in touch, but Eddie, I have had zero contact and zero run-ins with in what?
04:4217 years.
04:43How insane is that?
04:46I'm shocked.
04:47I've ran into John Mayer multiple times, Jesse Metcalf multiple times, just saw JC Shazay the other day.
04:54Like, how have I never run into Eddie?
04:56I, I think that there must've been times where we were in the same room and he avoided me like the plague.
05:01There's no way in 17 years in Los Angeles that we just didn't cross paths.
05:07That's insane.
05:08I had a great time with him.
05:09Um, you know, he was a great guy, very much a gentleman.
05:14He loved to pull out the guitar and serenade, which is like, you know, every girl's dream.
05:19Who's a John Mayer fan.
05:21It felt like I was living in a dream.
05:22I was just like, um, someone pinch me is this life?
05:26Like what is happening?
05:28It was, you know, his house, my house.
05:30And yeah, I mean, I had a great time with him.
05:34I was never trying to make it known that I was hanging out with him.
05:38I enjoyed our time and I didn't want him to think I was this girl who was like trying to be known for dating John Mayer.
05:46I just enjoyed our private time together.
05:48And I was 22, 23 at the time.
05:51I was not looking for anything serious.
05:53I loved being single.
05:55I lived my best single life in the late two thousands in Hollywood, but I did.
06:02And, you know, it's like, I could have said more, but I was like, let's, you never know.
06:07There could be another book one day, but with John, I honestly never would have said anything.
06:15Like I would have just probably taken it to my grave.
06:18Like that was a fun time we had, but unfortunately it wasn't always just the two of us hanging out.
06:23There were other girlfriends around some of my guy friends around.
06:28And one of those people opened up their mouth to the wrong person.
06:33Word got out.
06:34My mom is literally driving my little sister to like middle school.
06:39She's listening to Ryan Seacrest on kiss FM.
06:42It's the morning sleaze.
06:44She, Anna Marie, cocktail waitress, dating John Mayer.
06:49And my mom calls me.
06:51I have another guy in my bed as my mom calls.
06:56And I was like, oh my God, oh my God, you up out.
07:00What am I going to do?
07:01And I'm like, I'm going to, oh my gosh, like he's never going to talk to me again.
07:05He's going to think I did this when I absolutely didn't.
07:08But, you know, I then got fired for this fraternizing that I partaked in.
07:17And if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have started working at Villa Blanca.
07:20Vanderpump Rules might not exist.
07:22So thank you, John.
07:26Jesse Metcalf was such a sweetheart.
07:28Honestly, I mean, I had a crush on him when I was just a college student going with my girlfriends to see John Tucker Must Die and watching Desperate Housewives on the couch with my mom.
07:41I mean, he was a dreamboat.
07:43He still is.
07:44Look at him.
07:44He looks great.
07:47But also, you know, I was 21 going on 22.
07:51And it was a time in both of our lives.
07:55I think we weren't ready for that intense of a relationship.
07:59It was a lot really quickly.
08:02But he was an absolute sweetheart.
08:06Still is.
08:06When I see him, you know, we say hello.
08:09He knows Brock.
08:10They've played poker together before.
08:12And yeah, also Shane West.
08:16We had some good times together.
08:18And he's also a talented musician.
08:20I feel like people don't know that about him to go to some of his shows and whatnot.
08:25But I every person I named in the book, Shamar Moore, another absolute gentleman, drop dead gorgeous.
08:34I remember being very young, watching Young and the Restless with my grandparents being like, oh, my God, Malcolm, that guy.
08:42And then I see him at a Super Bowl party in Miami.
08:45And, you know, he catches my eye.
08:47I catch his.
08:48And then we're at his place in L.A. when we got back in town.
08:53And that's interesting.
08:59Here we go.
09:01Think about having, like, a group of people.
09:04OK.
09:05Go Kira, come on.
09:05And what's going on?
09:08What are happening?
09:08How much is this version of다� öx standyland?
09:10How much is this experience?
09:11How much is it?
09:12It's been in the podcast?
09:12How much is it?
09:13How much is it?
09:13How much does it look like and how much is being done on?
