- 7/4/2025
Ride or Die 2025 Thriller Romance Movie
Ride or Die is a 2025 thriller-romance film about Paula, a restless Midwesterner who reunites with her high school crush, Sloane, in California. Their casual meetup sparks a spontaneous cross-country road trip, uncovering hidden secrets and buried traumas along the way.
The movie follows Paula and Sloane as they navigate their feelings for each other while dealing with the consequences of their past. As they drive through the country, they confront their inner demons and learn to trust each other.
Cast: Briana Middleton, as Paula
Stella Everett, as Jamie
Seth Gilliam, as Creon
Guinevere Turner, as Jay
Eisa Davis, as Sherri
Ella Jay Basco, as Bree
Amin El Gamal, as Matari
Cody Kostro,
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Release Date: June 8, 2025
Runtime: 1 hour 30 minutes
Genre: Thriller, Romance
Director: Josalynn Smith
Ride or Die is a 2025 thriller-romance film about Paula, a restless Midwesterner who reunites with her high school crush, Sloane, in California. Their casual meetup sparks a spontaneous cross-country road trip, uncovering hidden secrets and buried traumas along the way.
The movie follows Paula and Sloane as they navigate their feelings for each other while dealing with the consequences of their past. As they drive through the country, they confront their inner demons and learn to trust each other.
Cast: Briana Middleton, as Paula
Stella Everett, as Jamie
Seth Gilliam, as Creon
Guinevere Turner, as Jay
Eisa Davis, as Sherri
Ella Jay Basco, as Bree
Amin El Gamal, as Matari
Cody Kostro,
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Release Date: June 8, 2025
Runtime: 1 hour 30 minutes
Genre: Thriller, Romance
Director: Josalynn Smith
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00:00Motorcycle racing is a dangerous sport, but motorcycle road racing is one of the most
00:08dangerous of all. Champions, veterans, newcomers, all with just three months to prepare for one
00:21of the fastest road races on the planet, the Northwest 200. The thing they love the most,
00:29that feeling of being on a motorbike, it's like nothing else, is the thing that puts them most
00:37at risk. Being that close to tragedy, that's what we chase as an adrenaline junkie. What happens when
00:44riders come face to face with their own mortality? You put your hand in the fire, enough times you're
00:50going to get burned. Racers and their families weigh up the consequences every time they choose to
00:57compete. When you get on the bike, do you not think of what if? Are these riders risking death?
01:06Or are they truly living?
01:20Do you really understand what living is? If you never put your life at any risk?
01:26Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with
01:42me. Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
01:47Every year, the biking community comes together for a memorial service in Clonus, County Monaghan. To
01:59remember those who lost their lives as a result of a motorcycle accident. An opportunity for their
02:06loved ones to show support for each other in a time of grief. So God bless us. God be with us.
02:15God, please bring us into that place of faith and hope, where we'll leave this place knowing that one day we
02:23will be reunited with those who we love and who we miss this day.
02:28It has held weeks before the Northwest 200, the largest road racing event in Ireland.
02:36Every May, around 100 road racers from across the world make the pilgrimage to Northern Ireland's
03:03north coast. To take part in one of the sport's fastest and most dangerous events.
03:14The Northwest 200, in terms of spectators, can rise to over 100,000. The largest single sporting event in Ireland.
03:22For nearly a century, the race has been held in a place with deep religious roots. And devoted to road racing.
03:34Reverend John Kirkpatrick is the raised chaplain for the Motorcycle Union of Ireland. A role unique to Irish road racing.
03:41There are riders who come for whom their Christian faith is very important to them. And for them, it just adds so much more to their sport.
03:56You're there to give that support to everyone. Whether they have faith or no faith or whatever they are, it doesn't really matter. We're concerned for people.
04:08Reverend John's role as chaplain is supporting injured riders and bereaved families.
04:12Road racing this week has claimed the life of one rider and left two others critically injured.
04:19This weekend's big event has been marred by accident.
04:22He has struck a telephone pole after coming off his bike at up to 120 miles an hour.
04:30Here we have an extreme sport where people will place their lives at a great risk.
04:35Risk brings in the question of the sanctity of life.
04:41I'm conflicted over the moral issues and questions involved in this sport.
04:47There are riders who have had near fatal accidents who could not wait to get back to the sport.
04:54I would be very surprised if they hadn't some questions in their mind as to the reality of this is painful and is this worth it?
05:01If you're old enough to understand life and death, right, and someone says to you, you can live to 45, get to do what you want as your dream job and that's it, you're out at 45.
05:24Or you can live to 75 or 80, graft your whole life, but never really do what you strive to achieve, what would you pick?
05:37What would you pick?
05:39You pick?
05:41I've already picked it on it.
05:43Northern Irish road racer Lee Johnston has been racing professionally for more than 10 years.
05:48I don't know if you believe in God or not, but I think people believe in things to get them true things.
05:57He's a champion racer and five-time winner of the Northwest 200.
06:02See how big the actual trophy is?
06:11Oh, no, you stink!
06:13He lives in Huddersfield with his wife Christy and son Jessie.
06:17Hi everybody!
06:19Do you want to say hello to everyone?
06:21Have you missed them because we haven't been at bike land?
06:22Hi guys, welcome back to another vlog.
06:28Seen as an influencer in the road racing world, Lee shares behind the scenes footage of life as one of its international stars.
06:36With some of his videos being viewed hundreds of thousands of times.
06:41Live together, work together.
06:43He's very stubborn once you get something in his head.
06:47He's very driven.
06:50But for me, it's all I've ever known him do.
06:54So I think it's like, it's just part of him, innit?
06:58Did you say when you were 30 you were retiring from road racing?
07:02No, 35.
07:04I think it was 30 and then I think he nodded it up.
07:06No, it wasn't when we met when I was 27.
07:08Yeah, I'm sure you said 30.
07:09No, you're exaggerating.
07:13At the North West 200 in 2023, things didn't go to plan for Lee during his first practice lap.
07:23Before the crash, everything was fine.
07:26I go through all the same routines, warming up, preparing.
07:30I was in the best shape.
07:35I have no recollection of any of this.
07:39I've got none of my own memories.
07:42It's the same as watching a movie.
07:47I think what's done the damage of the bike, the bike hit me and then squashed me to the curb.
07:54I broke my foot in multiple places, femur, ribs on both sides, then collapsed my lung.
08:10Lee, how are you?
08:11I broke my shoulder, my cheekbone, my left knee down was the only sort of limb that didn't have some sort of injury.
08:27Yeah.
08:28With the 2024 North West 200 just three months away.
08:34Oh, that must be me trying to send you the phone number.
08:37The reality that Lee might be racing there again is starting to set in for Christie.
08:44The North West is one that I'm not going to be able to walk into that paddock and just not have any emotions.
08:50If I went to the North West and had a bit of a wobbler, I'd just think I'd really struggle.
08:57Before his crash, every year between the North West and the TT, we'd come home for like a week.
09:03And my friends and family, like, if I'd seen them or anything, they'd all be like, Christie, you look terrible.
09:10Like, you've lost weight in a week, you look terrible.
09:14And like, even that, on a normal, when it hasn't crashed or hasn't experienced anything like that, I'd struggle.
09:22I've just basically said to him, you know, I can't, I'm not a robot, I can't do everything.
09:28And I've just got to kind of like protect. I need to be mentally strong as well, because if I'm not, then it's just going to make life harder for him.
09:38So, yeah, North West, no, just because there's trauma there.
09:48After nine months of recovery, Lee crashed again and broke his right leg.
09:53He's been invited onto a road racing podcast to update fans on his progress.
09:59No one wants to talk about winning races anymore.
10:03Talk about getting injured and then getting injured again.
10:09Right, are we ready? Yeah.
10:11We're live, we're loud, we're sexy.
10:14On that note, welcome back to the podcast with Lee Johnson.
10:17So, for those that are living under a rock, Lee's now hurt him again.
10:20He's got a cage on his legs. Can you lift it up? Let's have a bar back.
10:24I've actually got my snood up.
10:25Since your North West crash, pretty heavy stuff. Is that something you want to talk about?
10:29Yeah, yeah. This is my job, this is what happens. I'm paid to push and we sign up for it, do you know what I mean?
10:34Yeah, we know what's going off, don't we? Yeah.
10:36So, what is your attitude to this season?
10:39I want to be back for the North West, that's the aim.
10:42We've got less than three months to get ready for the North West.
10:48I have to believe I'm going to be ready in time.
10:51Maria Costello MBE has been racing motorbikes for 30 years and is one of the most successful women ever to compete in the sport.
11:04Taking on the boys is nothing new for Maria Costello. She made her debut on the North Coast in 2005, having caught the road racing bug.
11:19I look at pictures and go, well, that's cool. And I go, oh, that is actually you, Maria, you idiot.
11:34That's Maria the bike racer. It's a funny thing. Am I her every day? I don't know.
11:40It seems like a long time ago, a lot of this. 30 years this year. It's bonkers, isn't it?
11:51I didn't see myself as a defiant child. Looking back, yeah, because it caused all sorts of agro. Poor mum.
12:01But in 2023, Maria lost her mum to cancer. She had been caring for her mum during the last few years of her illness.
12:11Mum pushing to stop me did make me want it more. The more she pushed, the more I pushed back, the more I wanted it.
12:21It's funny how that works, isn't it? I thought she was trying to take something away from me.
12:27She was trying to protect me. You just don't see that at the time when you're young.
12:31My mum was just terrified of anything that could hurt a daughter, I suppose. Rightly so.
12:45Maria has just three months until the North West, but she is taking time out of her preparation to sort through some of her mum's belongings.
12:56This is quite a picture.
12:57I don't know what it is about when you crash. You're always happier if somebody's captured it.
13:06I have broken over 24 bones.
13:09It's worse being my femur twice.
13:15Thirty years in, after all these broken bones, I feel really lucky that I've got something in my life that I love.
13:23It obviously gives me something that I need.
13:28Road racing makes you believe in luck.
13:32But I don't, I don't think about a god.
13:35I understand that it probably would give people comfort because it's community.
13:44But I think my community is racing.
13:51Construction worker Kevin Keyes has been racing motorbikes since he was seven years old.
13:57He works with his dad, Rowan.
14:00He also shares a passion for motorbikes.
14:02Very determined looking Kevin Keyes. What a cracking start.
14:06He's going to be absolutely delighted to come home and lift the Leicester 100 trophy.
14:11But racing on custom-made circuits is different to racing on public roads.
14:16Now riders completely A-OK, has a crash.
14:23I go to work on a daily, you know, drive a digger, finish concrete.
14:28That's boring, you know. That's, real life's boring, isn't it?
14:30Like it's, what do you do? You go to work, you go to sleep, you go to the gym.
14:39I don't understand the people that don't have something to chase.
14:43I don't understand what they're getting from life, but they're obviously getting it from something else.
14:47But they probably don't understand why I do what I do.
14:48This year, Kevin will be trying road racing for the first time.
14:54When I look at the road racers, I get a big buzz standing and watching.
15:00And I'm like, oh, that's, that's class. You know, I've been that close to, it's a scary word to say, but tragedy.
15:08That's what we chase as an adrenaline junkie. How much more can we get?
15:15Yeah, this is my St. Crifster medal. And my sister bought me this when the news broke out that I was going to go road racing and just to keep me safe.
15:27Definitely things mean a lot to me, you know. Since she's given it to me, I haven't taken it off and I won't be taking it off.
15:39Kevin lives nearby his childhood home with his partner, Sarah. Both are devout Catholics. They have one son called Caden and his new venture is a focus for the whole family.
15:52Do you want them to road race? Hmm? Do you want them to road race?
15:58Um, no, I don't. Definitely not. It's not my choice.
16:05I find it weird because I'm like, you're not thinking of your family. You're not thinking of if something happened.
16:11I feel like, wow, that's just crazy. You know, he's doing something that brings him so much peace, but it's causing me so much worry and stress.
16:19And it's one of the most stressful times in my life, not knowing, like, is he going to be okay? Is he going to come back?
16:27Your turn.
16:29Adrenaline is a mad drug. Like, what it does to your body is crazy.
16:33Are you ready for a drive? Yeah.
16:35You ready to do a rabbit?
16:36I can remember even, like, racing with injuries. You know, you'd be barely able to put your glove on.
16:43But as soon as that adrenaline gets pumping through your body, you don't feel your wrist anymore, and you're in...
16:47You don't feel any pain, but you come back in, you're back to earth, and that's what I mean.
16:51Getting in that little mind frame, getting in that bubble, everything goes.
16:54Physical pain, emotional pain, it's just, it's amazing to the place.
16:57You're sitting in your car doing 80 kilometres an hour, and that's the speed limit, but you close that road and you're getting a bike, you can do 200 mile an hour down there.
17:08It's, it's madness, isn't it? But I can't wait to see what the madness is about.
17:12Are you going to race it? Yes.
17:16Are you going to race? Yeah.
17:19Can we go one more time? Yeah.
17:30The confliction people have is right from the very beginning.
17:34If you begin on the short circuits where it's not as extreme, but as you maybe move onto the road circuit,
17:40which have increasing history of danger, you will be conflicted.
17:51Although Reverend John has never raced motorcycles, he has been a lifelong fan of road racing.
17:59So it's a different era, isn't it?
18:03That was on the way back from the Northwest 200.
18:06I think I was living in free fall back in those days. I wasn't thinking very far. Just go data time.
18:16All I know was I wanted to go as hard as I could.
18:19But the reason why I wanted to go fast was because I find a great deal of joy and thrill in it.
18:26That's a sense of, I don't know how you describe that, that's elation.
18:31Today, Maria has come to collect a new van and to bring her race bike home.
18:40Oh, she's there.
18:42Yeah. And there's my race bike.
18:44Yeah. This is my little baby.
18:47Last time I rode this was when I got knocked off.
18:49Her bike has been in storage since she crashed at the Isle of Man in 2023.
18:56It's nice to see her again.
18:58Yeah, well.
19:00It is my pride and joy.
19:02Um, she just doesn't look like my pride and joy because she needs a bit of love.
19:06And she needs to prepare it in time for the Northwest 200.
19:12Is that how you're doing it?
19:14Don't scratch my van. That bumper's only just been painted.
19:17Just mind off here.
19:22I don't have kids. I don't have debt.
19:25I don't want the nine to five and the house and the car.
19:28That isn't what I've ever looked for.
19:29I don't like admitting that I'm getting older and it's physically a bit harder.
19:40You know, it was a big milestone last year.
19:43Yay, I'm going to be 15.
19:45It's going to be great.
19:46It was the worst year of my life.
19:49I was living with my mum and looking after my mum.
19:52She couldn't get out of bed.
19:54Her life felt so hard.
19:55I think I kept myself out of normal life for a long, long, long, long time with my racing.
20:03And then, bam, it was all pulled in front of me.
20:10It was a year since mum passed away, only very recently.
20:14And it was as raw as if it was the other day.
20:20But actually, I'm back training.
20:21I'm doing a lot of things that I need to be doing that I want to be doing.
20:25Oh, my God.
20:27I don't know what it's going to be like doing my first road race without mum.
20:33That is definitely...
20:35I'm thinking about that.
20:37It's going to be really different.
20:39It's going to be really different.
20:40It's February.
20:41And Lee has come to the Northern General Hospital in Sheffield for a check-up on his broken leg.
20:50Right now, best case scenario is get the cage off at the end of April and then the Northwest at the start of May.
20:57So I've got, like, a week to spare.
20:58So we're going to get an x-ray first, which I've managed to talk my way into because I'm not supposed to get one for, like, another two weeks.
21:11How's it all going then?
21:12We are good.
21:13You're all right?
21:14Yeah, really good.
21:16They're going to look at the x-ray and then go here and there.
21:22I want to see progress to, like, taking this thing off my leg, because they told me three months, but that was automatically two months in my head.
21:31So if I see progress today, that's me being more right than them.
21:35I've been a bit nervous about this, to be fair.
21:39Good or bad, we're going to get some facts.
21:41Do you think it could come off in, like, a month?
21:45There's no point as taking a frame off until it's healed.
21:49And I've never had a patient with your kind of fracture where it takes less than three months to heal.
21:55Sorry.
21:56Yeah.
21:58Yeah, but that doesn't mean that this couldn't be the first.
22:01All right, that's true.
22:05Nature is nature.
22:06You can try to push it along, but sometimes it's got its own rules.
22:11See you later.
22:15I feel okay.
22:16I feel like there's signs of progression and that's all...
22:20That's all we want in it.
22:23My whole life's in a rush.
22:29I'm going to wake up and be old.
22:31I'm going to wake up.
22:37He's never apologised as much as you did when you...
22:41WHISTLE BLOWS
22:43He was so nice.
22:44He was, like, literally, like, apologetic and kind.
22:48And, like, I was like, oh, my God, something's going on here.
22:51It's all the drugs they were on.
22:52I couldn't laugh because my ribs were all broke but if someone said something funny
23:00I'd start crying and then if it was like someone said something average I'd cry
23:04and that went on for weeks after
23:09I'd get upset and then I'd go well I have no right to be upset because I've done this
23:16and this is my fault and my problem so why am I sitting here feeling sorry for me when
23:21do you know what I mean it's I've chose this and I've let everyone down I've crashed the bike
23:26at that point I realized he'll probably never going to retire because I thought
23:32if this is what he's going to be like when he retires without racing in his life
23:36like it's not going to work is it
23:40even after his accident and he were like I'll never race again I thought well that's not going to happen
23:51with only a few weeks to the Northwest 200 Kevin's decided to do a trial run at the first race of the
24:00Irish season the Cookstown 100 nervous this morning be hard to go to sleep last night now even just
24:09thinking about it but I think that's natural for any parent with their kid going road racing
24:16he's just buzzing to get going and looking forward to it I wish I was as calm as him
24:24he definitely has a few guardian angels all right it helps you do dangerous things now the thoughts that there is someone there looking out for you
24:33we do believe there's something there after for us too I wouldn't like to think there's nothing there that
24:41that's just it it's gone it's over his dad Ron partner Sarah and son Caden are all preparing to
24:50I'm nervous for Cookstown because I don't know the track if he was to come off the bike like you know
24:56God forbid I wouldn't know where he is on the road I wouldn't see what's actually happening I
25:03wouldn't get to him as quick I suppose and I'll be praying whether it's out louder in my head and
25:08mumbling away to myself I'll be I'll be praying the whole time with so few national Irish road races
25:16left the shorter Cookstown 100 is an opportunity for Kevin to get some experience before the bigger
25:23Northwest 200
25:26you ready to go you're always last I know won't be this again
25:34as the race day approaches Kevin and his family set off north across the border
25:42I'm relaxed at the minute but soon as I sit on the road and get to go from first sight I'm going to get nervous
25:47I know I am I just can't wait to get on the road tomorrow
25:50for over a century the Cookstown 100 has been run by volunteers passionate about road racing
26:01the Cookstown 100 is a an iconic Irish road race
26:08it's not like some of these big races people have in their mind this is something really quite unique
26:14Farms, churches and businesses open their doors to the crowds as the circuit weaves through country back roads in an area steeped in religious tradition
26:26we have never raced on a Sunday our bikes have never been out on a Sunday
26:31it's just grand as religious beliefs that you know that you don't race on a Sunday
26:36though it's a smaller race
26:41Cookstown will test whether Kevin has what it takes
26:44to become a road racer
26:47the circuit is about little over two miles long
26:51around the very short and tight corners
26:55and narrow roads
26:57it's raw Irish road racing and quite often the weather is raw as well
27:04not ideal conditions rain continues to come down
27:08it might just delay this for a little while
27:11held in April weather can make the racing conditions here unpredictable
27:16the rain makes things slippy even in your car you know so
27:20it's not very ideal
27:23the risk of all automatically just went from here to here in the space of 10 minutes because of a rain shower you know
27:35if you don't feel right
27:37you can't force these things you have to listen to yourself or else like that
27:41it could go seriously seriously wrong
27:43but this is Kevin's only chance to road race before the Northwest
27:48despite the changeable conditions on the track
27:53he decides it's worth the risk
28:03more real now
28:04here in the mall
28:05and I've got sickness in my stomach now
28:18but I just stood on the side of the track and I could feel my hands shake
28:36obviously I want them to do well
28:38and I want them to be up there but I also want them to come home too
28:42yes, it's over
28:46yes, it's over
28:48the newcomer, Kevin Kaye's winner
28:51of the Silver Egg Beary's fantastic result
29:00happy with his performance Kevin's decision has paid off
29:03he's won his first Cooks Down 100
29:06with the Northwest in two weeks back home in Eden area Kevin and Sarah discuss their experience of the race
29:27when you get on the bike, do you not think of
29:32Kaden, me, like you know, what if
29:33I know it's weird
29:34you're nervous because you're thinking about it
29:36but then when you take off
29:38you can't think about it
29:39you have to be so focused in the time
29:41that you can't actually worry about what's going on around you
29:44if that makes sense
29:45you just feel that sense of freedom, you know, nothing in the world can get in the way
29:57only you
29:58yeah
30:00have you ever felt self free?
30:02no
30:03no, it is, um, sounds like an amazing experience
30:07something that everyone would want to feel
30:10should I race or should I not race?
30:12you're weighing up on your one hand
30:15I love this sport
30:18but you're also conscious of what it may do to other people around you
30:25I think most likely the worst time of conflict will come when someone close to you is killed
30:33the Hudson's are a road racing family
30:47sons Rob and Jamie followed their father into racing
30:50until tragedy struck
30:52at a road race in Northern Ireland in 2017
30:55road racing this week has claimed the life of one rider and left two others critically injured
31:04Jamie Hudson struck a telephone pole after coming off his bike at up to 120 miles an hour
31:11his brother Rob Hudson was also caught up in the crash but his injuries were not serious
31:18nobody goes out to race attempting to be foolish and do silly things, you know, and to put their lives or the lives of other people at risk
31:31nobody's doing that
31:32that's why they call them accidents
31:34they're not intended
31:35they happen
31:37me and Jamie
31:41it was our first race at the Ulster Grand Prix as newcomers
31:45we were both enjoying the race, it was good, there was a lot of overtakes and things like that
31:50and it was good fun
31:51the bike I was riding at that point it was a decent bike but it wasn't the fastest in a straight line
31:58and before that race I said to my dad I'll try my best but if we're getting left behind after a couple of laps I'll just pull in
32:11and the first race we had a really close battle and different emotions take over the competitive edge and adrenaline and things
32:18and I didn't pull in
32:19I was in front of the group
32:21and as we came up to the corner where the accident happened
32:24I lost control of my bike, I think the front just slipped away from me
32:30I just slid off into some bushes which slowed me down and I came to a stop
32:36I didn't see what happened after that
32:38I think another bike may have clipped Jamie
32:40trying to take avoiding action
32:44which led to Jamie hitting something at the side of the road
32:48and unfortunately losing his life
32:54you know you just pray and pray don't you that it's not going to be his part
32:58and you just pray for miracles don't you, you know
33:06His dad Jim was at Jamie's hospital bedside when his son passed away
33:10his mum Carol was home in Wigan
33:13in the aftermath of his death
33:15both grew stronger in their faith
33:17there is a plan for everybody
33:21you know I'm not frightened of dying
33:23because I think well I'll be in good company
33:26I think they'll all be up there together
33:29yeah
33:33I have all this on when I'm racing so I've got my dog tag
33:36and then this here
33:38is made with Jamie's ashes in it
33:41so every time I go and do a lap he's with me
33:44close to me chest
33:46and then the St Christopher
33:48which is religious
33:50and hopefully could bring me good and safe luck
33:53someone's looking down on you
33:56to keep you safe
34:02you don't stop believing
34:03because everything's for a reason isn't it
34:05you know if
34:14if I had to make the mistake in that corner
34:16you know then
34:17the accident wouldn't have happened
34:20I think about every day
34:22you know what could have been done differently
34:24if I did what I said I was going to do
34:26and pulled in
34:27I just
34:28definitely wish I had
34:30when Rob came home
34:44he said I'm sorry mum
34:46I said it's not your fault
34:48well it's not his fault is it
34:50it's just
34:52a tragedy really
34:57it's a big loss
34:59Rob has been struggling just a little bit sometimes
35:02and
35:03it's not good if you don't speak it
35:04it's just
35:05all festers inside your head doesn't it
35:10but that's life
35:11you don't know what's going to be around the corner do you
35:13you know
35:14and you don't go to a race meeting and think
35:17oh I might crash here
35:18or
35:19I will crash here
35:20it doesn't enter your head
35:21and if you thought that
35:23you should never really get on the bike
35:24and go and do it you know
35:29when you experience personal loss and tragedy in racing
35:33going back again is a hard question
35:37we ask ourselves
35:38why do we keep going back to something
35:40which can be so painful and so difficult sometimes
35:43Oliver's Mount Scarborough
35:58is England's only remaining road race
36:01situated just five minutes from Scarborough's beachfront
36:05the circuit hosts a number of road racing events across the season
36:11lead us and guide us to where you want us to go Lord
36:15and help us so hard
36:17to be there to be able to help other people
36:19yes
36:20and to tell them Lord
36:21that Jesus loves them
36:22yes
36:23thank you Lord
36:24we pray in Jesus precious name Lord
36:25amen
36:26after Jamie's death
36:28Rob continued in the sport
36:30but has never returned to race in Ireland
36:33his first race of the season
36:34is at the spring cup at Scarborough
36:36the first road race that he and Jamie ever competed in
36:38from when the accident happened to now
36:39I've never took a season out
36:43it's all I know to do to kind of keep busy and focused on moving forward really
36:49Rob Hodgson on the SMT Yellow Heart makes his way into the middle of the front row
36:56one of the most recent members of the 130 mile an hour club
37:02Rob Hodgson on the SMT Yellow Heart makes his way into the middle of the front row
37:08one of the most recent members of the 130 mile an hour club
37:12one of the most recent members of the 130 mile an hour club
37:30when I get to ride often on the race track
37:33it's kind of like a bit of a release and a bit of freedom
37:37you're not thinking about being guilty
37:39you're just focused on getting down the straights and round the corner as fast as you can
37:44you know I continue because it seems like a waste
37:48I've got the ability to do it
37:50and if I just stop
37:51then it's kind of like we lost Jamie for nothing
37:57here come the leaders once more
37:59powering in the firm bends
38:03this year will be eight years since we lost him
38:06lost him and I've achieved more than I thought I would in racing
38:13I'm just doing as pro as I can really
38:15come on guys, come on
38:17come on
38:19I've had accidents
38:24where I've come off
38:27straight into a wall
38:29bounced off
38:30the bike's gone over my head
38:32and
38:33I've walked away with just a
38:35very small injury
38:38before I get a chance to stop it might stop me
38:40but
38:41yeah
38:42that's the
38:43that's the game we're playing at the minute
38:52in pain
38:53we can experience
38:54the reality of God
38:55in a very powerful way
38:57I would say in my life as a minister for the last 40 years
39:04I think that God has become real to more people in pain
39:09than in any other situation
39:11this is my local church where would I got my communion and baptised
39:32this is where we've grown up
39:34I believe in God
39:37I believe you're protected by guardian angels
39:39and
39:40the ritual of praying
39:41and
39:42whatever's out there
39:46this is
39:47a special little place
39:48you know
39:50where we lay our boys to rest
39:54in 2019
39:56Kevin and Sarah lost their twin boys in pregnancy
40:00with just two days to go
40:02Kevin visits the twins grave before he sets off for the Northwest 200
40:07for the first time
40:09we were both so young at the time and
40:13you know it was
40:15it was something that we were going to
40:17cherish together and
40:19end up being one of the toughest times of our lives
40:21and it's hard because
40:23you know we look at Caden
40:25my little son
40:26he's at the age
40:27like should be playing with his brothers now
40:29and it's just sad like that we can't play with them everyday
40:31and see them grow up to be people and
40:34you know
40:36what could they have been
40:40I've seen
40:42seen some dark times and lonely times you know
40:45I like to be the happy go lucky guy that
40:49just is fun to be around and
40:51I struggle with it because
40:53this is hard to accept you know
40:56you just like to think someday we will see them again
41:03I think it's a nice thing to think about that
41:07there is somewhere else
41:09there is an afterlife you know
41:11that's not just over
41:13I like coming up here before a race weekend
41:18I like talking to them
41:20telling them where we are going
41:22what we are going to be doing
41:24how I want them to help me this weekend
41:26keep me safe and then
41:28when I say my little prayer before getting the bike
41:30I call a couple of guardian angels
41:32but I always say at the end of it
41:34this is it boys let's go let's have fun
41:36let's enjoy the ride and come home safe
41:37that to me is me bringing in my journey and
41:44them keeping me safe
41:55Before Maria departs for Northern Ireland
41:58she takes a moment to reflect on the things she did with her mum
42:01before her race
42:03People are always saying that
42:05she's always with me
42:07I just wish she was always with me
42:13She visits a Buddhist retreat
42:16somewhere they often spend time together
42:22I found it difficult initially
42:25because it felt like it was mum's place
42:28but this place
42:31gives me lots of good memories
42:33grief made me want to lock myself away
42:39I didn't want to interact with anyone
42:42I didn't know how to interact with anyone
42:44in grief
42:46because it's just so painful
42:49She absolutely was part of my racing
42:53suddenly it felt really strange
42:58that I didn't have her trying to stop me
43:02I didn't have anyone to go up against
43:05I didn't have anyone to defy
43:07I miss her not wanting me racing
43:11that's it
43:12I miss her worrying about me
43:15I
43:17I miss her worrying about me
43:20I
43:22loved her fiercely
43:24this is Jesse's heroes
43:38and that's me there
43:39that's the cage on my leg
43:40and a cap on
43:42Lee's leg hasn't healed in time to get the cage off
43:44he won't be racing at the Northwest 200
43:49I think disappointed would be the biggest understatement of possibly the year
43:58I don't even know what the right word is
44:01I think
44:03frustrated
44:06erm...
44:08yeah
44:12I've been going to the Northwest since I was a kid
44:15I suppose when you're a kid it's like superheroes aren't they?
44:17these guys putting these suits on
44:20I think how amazing it must feel to be able to
44:23200 mile an hour on a motorbike
44:25every kid that goes to the Northwest dreams about winning the Northwest
44:29for like 10, 12 year old me that was yeah
44:32like this would be cool
44:35and then winning five Northwest
44:3812 year old lead
44:40you probably say why haven't you won more?
44:44my dad
44:46didn't race
44:48all he has to say was if someone beats you because they've got more talent
44:52then
44:53that's fine you take it on the chin and you shake their hand
44:56but getting beat because you weren't fit enough
44:58or you didn't put enough effort in
45:00that's not acceptable
45:02I think that's probably where a lot of the drive come from
45:05I obviously wanted it myself
45:06but you're obviously like
45:08the best thing you can do in the world is try and impress your dad
45:09isn't it?
45:10do you know what I mean?
45:11like oh look at me
45:15my dad died of cancer
45:17so...
45:18he got diagnosed when he was 50
45:20and he died when he was 52
45:21I know he's not here anymore so he's not physically telling me but
45:29he's probably telling me that there's a whole lot of life after what I'm rushing for right now
45:36if everything's going really well
45:39if everything's going really well
45:41if the wind is on your back you don't question anything
45:44but when things are difficult then you do start to question
45:47you have to
45:49because the pain causes you to ask questions
45:51this sport
45:54more than maybe many other sports
45:56individuals have had to ask themselves those questions again and again
45:59once a year the sleepy towns of port stuart port rush and cold rain become the three points of the thrilling northwest 200 circuit known as the triangle
46:29the northwest has some very long straight parts of the circuit
46:36the machines are able to get up to speeds in excess of 200 miles an hour
46:42if the sheer speed and noise isn't enough to excite the crowds
46:46the northwest is also home to the largest mass start in road racing
46:52all of the bikes begin together as soon as the lights turn from red to green
46:59everybody goes as fast as they can
47:09but it's a very exhilarating thing for someone very frightening to watch for others
47:14What made it ok?
47:16I wish for others
47:29Oh my heart!
47:31Go ahead. I'm gonna do a strategy.
47:32Marcy rains…
47:33There's mercy reigns, unending love, amazing grace.
47:44Sunday at the Northwest 200 for us as chaplains
47:48begins as a day when we have a pre-race service.
47:53Sometimes people say to me,
47:54why do you have a service at the Northwest 200
47:56or any race for that matter?
47:58What's the point?
47:59And I say, well, you know,
48:00it's really good to pray for this event
48:02and people who are involved in it.
48:05God does care about every person
48:07and even those that don't care about him yet,
48:10he still cares for them too wonderfully.
48:13I know that racing can touch you in all sorts of levels,
48:15but this touches you even deeper than any race can.
48:21As it's his first time at the Northwest 200,
48:24Kevin must attend the safety briefing before he's allowed to race.
48:28They're all newcomers.
48:29You have many, many years ahead of you at the Northwest 200.
48:32So just come in the first year, qualify, enjoy the event,
48:36and that's all you necessarily have to do.
48:38We don't tolerate anything outside the regulations,
48:41so just want to make you aware of that.
48:43Fully briefed, Kevin can now fulfill his dream
48:47to race the Northwest 200.
48:50Away from the race paddock,
48:51he takes time with those he loves
48:53before he takes to the track.
48:56Kids are a great example, like, being in the moment.
49:07Like, I have two angel babies, you know,
49:09and I just call them guardian angels, you know,
49:10and I say a little prayer before sitting on the bike,
49:13and I just ask them to come with me, keep me safe.
49:16I believe if I didn't say that prayer,
49:19something would happen, something would go wrong,
49:21it wouldn't work out for me,
49:22so I believed, yeah, that they're with me every step of the way.
49:28Newcomers sometimes don't realise just how fast it is.
49:31They don't realise that the speeds are so incredible.
49:36I think that can take some riders by surprise,
49:40because when you're going so fast,
49:41it takes a long time to slow up.
49:45If you get your breaking wrong,
49:46you can be a danger to yourself and to others.
49:50Being in control of what you're doing right now is massive.
49:56The presence where you are, and you can't change the past,
49:58you can't predict the future,
49:59so to be in that moment is quite important.
50:06It's me there is an afterlife,
50:07and I believe that afterlife can protect the living life.
50:18Nathan, let's go and get this fuel.
50:21Back at the north-west,
50:22Maria is preparing for her first road race without her mum.
50:27Awesome. See you later.
50:28I'll have some strawberries now, then.
50:31All right? Yeah, you.
50:32Hello.
50:33We're here.
50:34We're here.
50:37We did start working on the bike a bit late.
50:42Race bikes are temperamental machines,
50:44and at speeds of 200 miles per hour,
50:47mechanical error can make the difference between life and death.
50:50That's bad, isn't it?
50:52No, sure.
50:53Hold on.
50:53As long as you're sorting it,
50:55I'll let you just work away.
50:58Mechanics fine-tune them right up to the moment before each race.
51:02Can't be building, can't be changing shells and that now,
51:05just have to clean everything.
51:06Yeah.
51:07Yeah, just shout whatever you need, then.
51:10Oh, OK.
51:11You know what that is?
51:19It's that Kirby, is it?
51:20Just off the deer, please.
51:21Forgot about that.
51:22Oh, three.
51:23That was the one you rode without falling off.
51:26Oh, did he hear that?
51:27I've not shot him.
51:28Even though Lee hasn't made it back as a racer,
51:31his popularity in the sport has landed him a job as a pundit.
51:34Hey, OK.
51:35Yeah?
51:36Oh, my word.
51:37What are you laughing for?
51:39I've got feelings, you know?
51:40No.
51:41Lee, we had hoped to see you racing at the North West this year
51:44after your crash at the event last year.
51:46How much are you looking forward to the racing?
51:48Yeah, obviously, that was the main aim,
51:51and it always will be that.
51:52I want to be racing motorbikes,
51:54but unfortunately, the next best thing is here with you guys,
51:57and I'm really looking forward to that as well.
51:59There's some cracking racing in line here
52:01with two or three guys willing to go head-to-head
52:05for all the races, so I'm really, really excited.
52:20I do like getting to be that strong, confident Maria.
52:27When you click your visor shut, that's who you become.
52:34That feeling of being on a motorbike,
52:37it's like nothing else.
52:39I've got nerves because I want to know
52:52I can get back to that feeling.
52:54I want to know I can still do this.
52:57It's not just about going fast, it's...
53:00It is about going fast.
53:16Once you shut that visor, you're in that little headspace on your own.
53:20At one with yourself, at one with your bike,
53:22and in control.
53:23It's peaceful, you know?
53:28And that maximum, just getting to the edge,
53:30to me, that's living.
53:33That's happiness.
53:33It is hard to understand from the outside
53:45the danger, the hurting yourself,
53:48getting back on a bike after hurting yourself.
53:51How do you explain that to somebody else?
53:52It's because what I get to do on the bike feels so good.
54:02I want to get back to there all the time.
54:05It's this amazing feeling.
54:07Hold on super tight.
54:18Do a thumbs up.
54:22My heart's giving in.
54:23I'm not sure, is it running or racing?
54:26Ready, steady, go.
54:28Woo-hoo!
54:29Delighted.
54:33Finally got to do it.
54:34Finally.
54:36How was it?
54:37Well done.
54:38Oh, big man!
54:40Big man!
54:41It's mad.
54:41Yeah?
54:42Yeah, it's mad, yeah.
54:43Do you want a drink?
54:56I think he did well.
54:58I know I kept pushing him from,
54:59he was that high.
55:00He'd go faster, faster.
55:03He's a good head on his shoulders.
55:05I think he can decide when it's time to stop.
55:07I think Kevin's wearing his as well, so...
55:13Eh, we could say it helps.
55:18We're all going home safe and that's the main thing, to be honest on.
55:21I'm going home safe and that's the main thing.
55:23I'm going home safe and I'm going home safe and that's the main thing.
55:27I secretly wanted a top ten.
55:28We were so close.
55:30Yeah, there's always next year and the year after.
55:33And the year after.
55:34And the year after.
55:35Sarah, you take off one helmet.
55:37One helmet off and get one on!
55:39I'm going home safe and that's the main thing.
55:42I don't know.
55:43I don't know.
55:44I'm going home safe and that's the main thing.
55:45It's Kate.
55:46It's herring.
55:47I'm ready.
55:48I'm ready.
55:49I'm ready.
55:50Woo!
55:51Woo!
55:52It went much better than last year.
55:54Oh it went much better than last year and yeah I'm in one piece the bikes in
56:05one piece what a bonus
56:09it's given me a lot of things racing God just you know the amount of people I've
56:17met and racing is a lot about the people you yeah
56:24life's too short now is what counts every every moment every relationship it
56:32all counts
56:43there were three race stopping red flag crashes but one stood out
56:54remarkably this writer survived with little more than minor injuries I do
57:03believe that when we pray for people that there are times interventions happen that
57:08we cannot see this writer going through the air yeah that's a miracle there was
57:14something incredible about that and whether you actually will ever attribute
57:18that to the Heavenly Father as I will if I was that person I'd be thankful I'd be
57:29humbled and I'd be saying now I wonder why I've been spared
57:34this is where we crashed here I think well I know this is where we crashed but we must have ended up
57:47like aging off the cameras and stuff like right in there somewhere on this corner
57:53you can't choose pain but you can choose suffering because the pain happens in the accident doesn't it but
58:03the suffering happens after
58:04people see me as just a motorbike racer or now I'm somebody's dad and husband and
58:12at some point the wheels are going to stop turning and you know they're still going to be there and
58:17you know they're still going to be there and then then real life begins
58:47you know
58:52you
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