00:03:00My mom used to say, uh, dead birds meant the closing of one chapter and the beginning
00:03:14of a new one.
00:04:08Okay.
00:05:12You still want to go?
00:05:15No way.
00:05:17She wants to go hiking.
00:05:19Did you all hear that loud noise last night?
00:05:22Sounded like something exploded.
00:05:25No, I didn't hear anything.
00:05:28You?
00:05:29Probably just some thunder.
00:05:31It rained last night.
00:05:33They shut the facility down out there.
00:05:36They shut it down?
00:05:37Yeah.
00:05:39People were saying there were some weird experiments going on.
00:05:43People or pop?
00:05:46All we know is that some people went missing, and one day the facility was just shut down.
00:05:52The forest was reclaimed as a preservation.
00:05:58Man loved his conspiracy theories, all right?
00:06:01There's nothing more to it.
00:06:02We don't need to talk about them anymore.
00:06:03Why not?
00:06:04You never want to talk about them.
00:06:05Why should I be compelled to talk about a man who just disappeared on his family?
00:06:11Why?
00:06:12I'm telling you.
00:06:13Right.
00:06:15He was searching for something.
00:06:19Searching for what?
00:06:20I don't know.
00:06:21Hey, all of it's, it's in his journal.
00:06:26Screw that journal.
00:06:29Have you even read it?
00:06:31Uh, no.
00:06:34He said he lost it in the forest one day.
00:06:36He went crazy.
00:06:37That's it.
00:06:38He lost his mind.
00:06:41Well, maybe he was just lost.
00:06:43Still know how to use this thing?
00:06:55Better than you.
00:06:56All right, smartass.
00:06:57Look, you know there's bears out there.
00:07:00Mountain lions have been seen out there, too, so eyes up.
00:07:05Hey, I, uh, I really think that I should go with you.
00:07:08I'll be fine.
00:07:11Just need a little time alone.
00:07:13Y'all still thinking about moving out here, selling a house?
00:07:20Yeah, yeah, we, we talked about it.
00:07:22And we're not selling our home.
00:07:24We haven't decided yet.
00:07:26I have, and we're not selling.
00:07:30Well, you guys know you can always take your lake house off my hands.
00:07:36Oh, we would have loved to live out.
00:07:43There's no reception out there, so...
00:07:55I've been...
00:07:56I'm lying.
00:07:58Vanessa!
00:08:00Vanessa!
00:08:02Vanessa!
00:08:03Come on, Vanessa!
00:08:04I have to tell Martell to never mention his name.
00:08:07He, he, he didn't mean to.
00:08:08You know that.
00:08:08He was just trying to help.
00:08:09Help how?
00:08:10By selling away what little memories we have left of him.
00:08:12By helping us move forward.
00:08:16Forward, forward.
00:08:17Just helping us move forward.
00:08:18You wish it was me.
00:08:20What?
00:08:22Hmm?
00:08:22Do you wish it was me who died that day?
00:08:30How, how could you say that?
00:08:33I forgave you a long time ago.
00:08:36I just, I don't want to lose you two.
00:08:39We'll be back in an hour.
00:08:45Should she be on her own out there?
00:08:47No.
00:08:48I, I know when she needs space.
00:08:52Uh...
00:10:23It's been going two hours.
00:10:42Hey, Vanessa, you okay?
00:10:47Vanessa, sweetie, can you hear me?
00:10:53Vanessa.
00:10:54Vanessa, Vanessa, can you hear me?
00:11:00Hey, babe, what happened?
00:11:17I saw a bear.
00:11:19You saw a bear?
00:11:29Hey, can we talk?
00:11:30Hey, what was...
00:11:52What happened out there?
00:11:55I saw a bear.
00:11:57It wasn't a bear, Vanessa.
00:12:00You look terrified.
00:12:03It was the same look you had when Obi died.
00:12:05Okay, no.
00:12:06Alex, no.
00:12:06Look, I love you.
00:12:11I promise that no matter what, I will always be by your side.
00:12:15But why do you insist on blocking you out?
00:12:17I'm not blocking you out.
00:12:18You act like life can just go on, like we can have a normal life, and we can't...
00:12:21It was an accident.
00:12:23Sweetie, it was an accident.
00:12:25You didn't see the other car coming.
00:12:26How many times did we have to go through this?
00:12:28Can you please leave?
00:12:29I can't talk about this right now.
00:12:31Can you please leave?
00:12:37Leave.
00:12:59.
00:13:12.
00:13:18.
00:13:21.
00:13:22.
00:13:28.
00:13:28You keep swinging like that, you throw your back out.
00:13:58We wish your swing was this pretty.
00:14:02When's the last time you picked up a club?
00:14:06When's the last time we weren't golfing?
00:14:09Been about three years.
00:14:11And that's the last time I picked up a club.
00:14:14You want a swing?
00:14:16Nah, nah.
00:14:18Just came out for some air.
00:14:20Y'all good?
00:14:21Talk to me.
00:14:31What's going on inside that head of yours?
00:14:33I lost a son.
00:14:52And now I'm losing my wife.
00:14:54It's only been a year.
00:14:59It's going to take some time.
00:15:02Barely speak.
00:15:04Separate dinners most nights.
00:15:06I spend more time on my couch than in our bed.
00:15:10I can't even remember the last time I've seen a smile.
00:15:13I thought I had the answers.
00:15:15If we just kept it together and went through therapy, we could just, we could push through.
00:15:21You're going through a lot right now.
00:15:24You got to be patient with her.
00:15:27You got to be patient with yourself.
00:15:29I'm trying.
00:15:32I miss him.
00:15:32Every second of every day, he was my world.
00:15:54I miss him too.
00:15:58What would Obi say if he was here right now?
00:16:02Come on, man.
00:16:04Say it.
00:16:08I'm tough.
00:16:09And I'm bright.
00:16:11I got muscles.
00:16:13I got might.
00:16:14And even when I'm afraid, everything will be all right.
00:16:25It will be all right.
00:16:32That was a good day.
00:16:54Martel is grilling and I just wanted you to know in case you want to come join us.
00:17:29Pop loved this song.
00:17:59You made it.
00:18:05Yeah.
00:18:07Didn't feel like being alone tonight.
00:18:10Dinner is served.
00:18:12Hopefully it's better than the oatmeal this morning.
00:18:17Remember the first time Pop's brought us fishing out here?
00:18:20How could I forget? You almost drowned.
00:18:23Well, did I tell you the story?
00:18:26No?
00:18:27I was nine years old.
00:18:31Then I snagged this salmon so big that it actually pulled me into the river.
00:18:34I was trying to tell you how to hold your line.
00:18:36I was holding the line.
00:18:38I just slipped on a rock.
00:18:39I fell in.
00:18:40Pop's had to jump in to save me.
00:18:42It was crazy.
00:18:45My whole perception of life changed after that.
00:18:50Really?
00:18:51How so?
00:18:53It created a complex.
00:18:55I need to never feel out of control ever again.
00:18:59Then somehow I started drinking two bottles of whiskey just to get through the day.
00:19:06We know how that went.
00:19:08Oh.
00:19:09You know, I, uh, I identified one of the biggest lies I've ever told myself.
00:19:16And what was that?
00:19:17That I'm in control.
00:19:18Well, you figure something out.
00:19:19You got help?
00:19:20I guess.
00:19:21We humans, you know, we are in constant stages of evolution.
00:19:22Forever changing, even when we're not conscious of it.
00:19:23And at any given moment we are presented with an infinite amount of possibilities, with
00:19:25an infinite amount of results.
00:19:27You know, to, to get it right every time, you know, it's impossible.
00:19:28Then you realize that you've never fully been in control.
00:19:29Never have been.
00:19:30Never will be.
00:19:31It's an interesting perspective.
00:19:32I, um, not fully.
00:19:33I'm, I, um, you know.
00:19:35Oh, no reality...
00:19:38...what would have happened.
00:19:50Never be.
00:19:55It's an interesting perspective.
00:19:58perspective? Well, um, not following. What I'm saying is that there are certain things in life
00:20:07that we cannot control because the decision's already been made for us. We are exactly where
00:20:13we need to be. No mistakes, just lessons learned. Adapting is complicated. Uh, where are you going?
00:20:24Um, I'm not hungry anymore. Yeah, look, I'll help you out, okay? Don't. Whoa, oh, hey, hey, hey, hey, you all right? You okay? Yeah, yeah, yeah. You should go take care of that, man, or we'll clean this up. Yeah.
00:20:38It's getting cold. You should, uh, no, no, you should go ahead inside. I got, I got this. I'll, I'll take care of it. I got it.
00:20:59You're drinking? It's been a long day. So, what was all that bullshit?
00:21:24You know, sometimes I, uh, I just like to pour a glass. Smell it. Cheers.
