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00:00It was a crisp Saturday morning in early September, the kind where the sun rises with a golden hue
00:06and the breeze carries the promise of something special.
00:10My name is Jennifer Carter, a 36-year-old single mother living in the quiet suburbs of Columbus, Ohio.
00:17My son, Noah, had just turned nine, and today was his big day, his birthday.
00:23Noah had always been a thoughtful, observant child, far beyond his years in emotional maturity.
00:30He wasn't the kind to demand the latest toy or throw tantrums in the grocery aisle.
00:35Instead, he asked questions about everything, about the stars, about kindness, about what makes people cry or laugh.
00:43I'd often say he had the soul of an old man in a young boy's body.
00:47This year, though, something was different.
00:50About two weeks before his birthday, I asked him like I always did,
00:54Noah, honey, have you thought about what you want for your birthday this year?
00:57He blinked at me with those big green eyes, tilted his head, and said,
01:03I have, but I want it to be a surprise.
01:06That surprised me.
01:07Noah never played coy with his wishes.
01:10Are you sure you don't want to tell me?
01:12That way I can make sure it actually happens.
01:15He smiled, that knowing grin of his, and said,
01:18I'll tell you on the day.
01:20Just trust me, Mom.
01:21I thought maybe he wanted a surprise party, or a special trip to the zoo,
01:26or maybe to finally adopt the golden retriever he'd pointed out in the shelter last month.
01:31But as the days crept closer to his birthday, he didn't mention it again.
01:36I planned a simple party at her home.
01:38Just a few of his friends from school, some pizza,
01:41a magician I hired from Craigslist who promised 100% kid-safe magic,
01:45and a big homemade chocolate cake with dinosaur sprinkles, Noah's favorite.
01:51The day started with balloons and laughter.
01:54The backyard echoed with the shrieks of delighted kids playing tag,
01:58tossing footballs, and chasing after a bubble machine that I struggled to keep full.
02:02Parents lounged in folding chairs, sipping lemonade, and talking about the new school year.
02:08The magician, a kind man named George, pulled off a surprisingly great show,
02:13ending with a dove flying out of his hat that made all the kids cheer.
02:17I watched Noah laugh and clap, his cheeks flushed with joy.
02:21It filled my heart in a way that only a parent can understand.
02:25As evening approached and guests started to leave, Noah stayed unusually quiet.
02:31He helped me clean up without being asked and kept glancing at the clock.
02:34I finally knelt down beside him, brushing a stray leaf from his shirt.
02:39You doing okay, baby?
02:41He nodded.
02:41Mom, it's almost time.
02:44I blinked.
02:45Time for what?
02:46He took my hand and led me inside, to the living room.
02:50He sat down on the couch and motioned for me to sit across from him.
02:53I followed, my heart suddenly beating faster with a strange sense of anticipation.
02:59I told you I wanted a surprise for my birthday, right?
03:01He asked.
03:02I nodded.
03:03He took a deep breath.
03:05Well, my wish isn't something you can wrap in a box.
03:08My curiosity peaked.
03:10Okay.
03:10Okay.
03:11He stared at me for a long moment, then whispered, I want to meet my dad.
03:16The words felt like a punch to the chest.
03:18I sat back, stunned.
03:21My mouth opened, but no words came.
03:23I hadn't prepared for this.
03:25Not now.
03:26Maybe not ever.
03:28Noah continued gently.
03:29I know you don't talk about him, but I think about him.
03:33A lot.
03:34I swallowed hard.
03:36Noah.
03:37I don't want to hurt you, Mom, he said quickly, and I love you so much.
03:42But I feel like part of me is missing.
03:45Everyone at school talks about their dads, what they do together, how they go fishing or play catch.
03:50And I just...
03:51I wonder, what is he like?
03:54Does he even know I exist?
03:56I sat in silence, my heart torn between past wounds and present love.
04:01I had shielded Noah from the truth for so long, afraid that it would hurt him, or worse, damage the strong bond we had.
04:08But I realized in that moment that my son wasn't asking out of rebellion or dissatisfaction.
04:14He was asking from a place of deep, genuine yearning.
04:18I closed my eyes and sighed.
04:21Okay, I'll tell you about him.
04:24And so I did.
04:25I told Noah about Mark Whitaker.
04:28We met in college.
04:29He was charismatic, adventurous, and full of dreams.
04:33We fell in love fast and recklessly.
04:36But life, as it often does, took unexpected turns.
04:41Mark got a job offer in another state, and I discovered I was pregnant right around the same time.
04:46We were young.
04:48He panicked.
04:49He left.
04:50He never returned my calls after that.
04:52He didn't know I kept the baby.
04:54I moved back home with my parents, found work, and focused on raising Noah.
04:58I never hated Mark.
05:00I resented him.
05:02Yes.
05:02But in time, I forgave him.
05:05I had to, for my own peace.
05:07I don't even know where he is now.
05:09I told Noah honestly.
05:11But if this is what you truly want, I'll try to find him.
05:14Noah didn't cry.
05:15He nodded solemnly, then hugged me tight.
05:18Thank you, Mom.
05:20That night, after Noah had gone to sleep, I sat at the kitchen table with my laptop and began searching.
05:26Old emails, college directories, social media.
05:29I went down every rabbit hole.
05:31Eventually, I found him.
05:33Mark Whitaker.
05:35Now living in Denver, Colorado.
05:36According to his profile, he was an architect, married with no children mentioned.
05:43I stared at the screen, my heart pounding.
05:46Should I contact him?
05:47Would he want to know?
05:48Would this hurt Noah more than help him?
05:51After much deliberation, I sent him a simple message.
05:55Hi, Mark.
05:56You may not remember me, but I'm Jennifer Carter.
05:59We were together in college.
06:01I have something very important to tell you.
06:04It's about a child, our son.
06:06Please respond if you're open to talking.
06:08It took three days.
06:10But he replied,
06:11Jennifer, I remember you.
06:13And if this is what I think it is, please call me.
06:16Here's my number.
06:17My hands trembled as I dialed.
06:20The conversation was awkward at first.
06:23He was stunned.
06:24He hadn't known.
06:26He was quiet for a long time after I told him everything.
06:29I don't even know what to say, he whispered.
06:32I had no idea.
06:33I would have.
06:34I mean, I don't know what kind of father I would have been, but I wish I had the chance to try.
06:39We spoke for over an hour.
06:41Eventually, I asked.
06:43Would you want to meet him?
06:44There was a pause.
06:46Yes.
06:47I think I would.
06:48I didn't tell Noah right away.
06:50I needed time to process.
06:52I spoke with Mark several more times over the next week.
06:55I made it clear this wasn't about guilt or obligation.
06:59It was about giving Noah a chance to see where he came from.
07:02When I finally told Noah, he didn't say anything at first.
07:06Then his face lit up.
07:08Really?
07:09He said yes.
07:10I nodded.
07:11We're going to Denver next weekend.
07:13Just the two of us.
07:14The trip was surreal.
07:17The flight, the hotel, the anticipation.
07:19It all felt like a dream.
07:22Mark met us at a quiet park near his office.
07:25He looked older, of course, but the same spark was in his eyes.
07:29He brought a small gift.
07:30A wooden model of a rocket he had carved himself.
07:34I heard you like space, he said gently.
07:37Noah nodded, clutching the rocket.
07:39I do.
07:40They talked for two hours.
07:42About everything and nothing.
07:44About what kind of pizza they liked.
07:46About whether aliens were real.
07:48About how Mark once wanted to be an astronaut, too.
07:51I watched them from a bench, tears filling my eyes.
07:55Not from sadness, but from a complex mixture of grief, healing, and hope.
08:01When we returned home, Noah seemed calmer.
08:04More whole.
08:05He didn't ask to move in with Mark or see him every week.
08:09He just said,
08:10Thanks, Mom.
08:11That's all I needed.
08:13Weeks passed.
08:14Mark and I kept in touch.
08:16Cordially.
08:17Respectfully.
08:18He and Noah began writing letters, occasionally calling.
08:22There was no big reunion.
08:24No dramatic custody battle.
08:25No fairy tale ending.
08:27But there was peace.
08:29On Noah's next birthday, I asked him again.
08:32So, what's your birthday?

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