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00:00:30I'm sick of all the meaningless connections.
00:00:58Well, maybe, if you didn't fuck a new bitch every night, you'd actually take a moment
00:01:05to connect.
00:01:08Are you slut-shaming me right now?
00:01:11Absolutely not, but I know you.
00:01:16I'm having an existential crisis.
00:01:18Clearly.
00:01:19Why do I always do that?
00:01:24Do what?
00:01:26Lose myself and others.
00:01:29Like I'm 22 and I still don't know what I'm doing.
00:01:32I'm gonna take a guess and say it's because you're only 22.
00:01:36Do you not see the difference between me and you?
00:01:40You and Rachel are in a healthy relationship.
00:01:42You're committed, you have a house.
00:01:45Me, I dated a girl who I loved so much that I freaked the fuck out, screwed it all up,
00:01:51and then wanted her back just to be at the same spot two years again later.
00:02:00I got a boutique that I fucking hate waxing vaginas all day.
00:02:07I think that sounds pretty sweet.
00:02:12What am I doing wrong?
00:02:15Parker, you have got to stop comparing us.
00:02:18We are on two separate timelines.
00:02:22We're two different people.
00:02:24I mean, we're in a weird age anyway.
00:02:26I mean, you got some people just going into college, you got some people getting married,
00:02:32have kids.
00:02:33It's gross.
00:02:35I mean, that one guy we knew from AP Bio, he just got out of jail.
00:02:42I'm thinking about her again.
00:02:45No.
00:02:46Aren't you?
00:02:47You have got to stop this.
00:02:58Every time you get off track, you go back to this, Parker.
00:03:04You are comfortable with her, okay?
00:03:06But you cannot keep going back to that just because.
00:03:10I think I just need to get out of here.
00:03:14Go where?
00:03:15I don't know, like Nashville.
00:03:19I just want something meaningful.
00:03:25I guess if it keeps you from doing something idiotic.
00:03:30I want to drive.
00:03:33I mean, we can go for a drive and start drinking.
00:03:35I mean, I want to go somewhere.
00:03:38Like a road trip.
00:03:40Why are you looking at me like that?
00:03:43Let's go.
00:03:45Like right now?
00:03:46Like right now.
00:03:47Oh my god.
00:03:48Alright.
00:03:49Okay.
00:03:50Yes!
00:03:51Can we go tomorrow?
00:03:52Yeah, that's fine.
00:03:53Hey, Jessica.
00:03:54I don't think that I'm going to be able to make it into work next week.
00:04:13My grandmother got hospitalized.
00:04:17She has really bad diarrhea.
00:04:24It won't stop.
00:04:28And they don't know why.
00:04:30Listen, yeah, Jessica, I gotta go.
00:04:33I'm sorry.
00:04:34My mom is waiting on me and I'll be in next week, I promise.
00:04:41You're going to go to hell.
00:04:43My grandma's been dead for like three years.
00:04:47She'll appreciate the spontaneity though.
00:04:50Okay.
00:05:41Can you pass me the gummy worms?
00:05:54There you go.
00:05:56You know, um, when I was a kid and we'd go to the theater with my mom, she'd actually
00:06:01always bring gummies to put them on for.
00:06:04So that's where you got it from?
00:06:05You thought I had it on you.
00:06:06Like who does?
00:06:07Aw, she sounds like she'd be fun.
00:06:08She wasn't.
00:06:09She's not really...
00:06:10There's no place to hide.
00:06:28Parker?
00:06:31I think I've caught asthma.
00:06:33I'm tired.
00:06:35We haven't even started walking yet.
00:06:37Shit. Can you believe places like this just exist?
00:06:44Maybe.
00:06:45And we get to look at it with, like, our eyes...
00:06:49Ah, it makes me feel kinda small.
00:06:53But in a good way. In a good way.
00:06:56I guess that's better than, you know, like, going the other way around.
00:06:59Like how you mean?
00:07:03Like it don't matter?
00:07:06Alright, we're gonna stick a pin in that, come back to that later.
00:07:09Enjoy the view.
00:07:11Yeah.
00:07:20I'm glad we did this.
00:07:22It's a good idea.
00:07:29I'm starting to think Chinese exists too, you know?
00:07:35I don't know.
00:07:36I just feel like everyday's starting to blend together.
00:07:40And it's just become so monotonous.
00:07:42And, like, am I doing something big in the grand scheme of everything?
00:07:48How could you say that?
00:07:50You and Rachel are literally perfect.
00:07:54That's interesting that you think that just because I'm in a relationship with Rachel
00:07:58that my life is squeaky clean and spotless.
00:08:02I just never really thought about it.
00:08:06I mean, don't get me wrong, Rachel's my bitch.
00:08:09I love her.
00:08:11But she doesn't define my whole existence.
00:08:15Even on our best days.
00:08:18I still feel like my existence is infinitesimal.
00:08:24Whoa! Big word.
00:08:27I know.
00:08:28It's a song. It's a dope ass song.
00:08:31We should listen to it.
00:08:49So, like, we're supposed to see, like, UFOs?
00:08:54Yeah.
00:08:55So, apparently, when it gets dark,
00:08:59this becomes, like, the darkest place in the country.
00:09:02And then, the UFOs come out.
00:09:04So, like, at night time?
00:09:05Yeah. At night time.
00:09:07Interesting.
00:09:08Yeah.
00:09:11So, you remember that one time me and you and Rachel went to Canada
00:09:17and then we all got lost in Toronto?
00:09:20Yeah, you would think that someone from Toronto would know their way around Toronto.
00:09:25Yeah. Well.
00:09:28But do you remember how when we were on the plane and, like, all of our phones died
00:09:33and so we just gave up and then we went and got sushi?
00:09:36Dude. Best sashimi ever.
00:09:39Oh, no.
00:09:41I guess I just miss doing stuff like that.
00:09:44Well, I kind of feel like that's what we're doing, you know?
00:09:46Sitting out in the woods, looking for aliens.
00:09:51Yeah.
00:09:53You do be having a point.
00:09:56Yeah, it is what we're doing.
00:10:00So, what's next?
00:10:02You know, I really haven't thought that far.
00:10:05Well, I'm just following your lead.
00:10:09I'm probably going to need to go back to work sometime, though.
00:10:12Oh, I definitely am getting fired.
00:10:15Fuck capitalism. I don't want to work for modern societies anyways.
00:10:18I want to live in the woods and scavenge for berries.
00:10:22Alright.
00:10:25Well, why don't we go to Nashville?
00:10:29Really?
00:10:31Yeah, dude. You brought it up. I mean, if we left right now, we could probably get there by tonight.
00:10:38Bet.
00:10:47But wait. There is one more thing I want you to see.
00:10:52Follow me.
00:11:04Whatcha doing, nerd?
00:11:06Just journaling a widow.
00:11:08Journaling?
00:11:10How was work?
00:11:12Oh, good. You know, work is work.
00:11:16Oh, my dad called me on my break.
00:11:19Yeah?
00:11:20Yeah. He wants to see if we want to go get dinner with him sometime this week.
00:11:25I have no plans.
00:11:27No plans? Good.
00:11:31I think it'll be good. We literally haven't seen him since he helped us with the move.
00:11:37I think he'll be glad to see us.
00:11:39Yeah?
00:11:40Yeah.
00:11:41You want coffee?
00:11:42Yeah.
00:11:44Will you get...
00:12:00How much?
00:12:01You can dab with it.
00:12:14So, the aliens come to Earth for this.
00:12:22Uh-huh.
00:12:24And you...
00:12:26You just put your stuff on the ground, and the aliens will see it.
00:12:31Yeah. So, I mean, you just... You just bring your weird, sentimental shit.
00:12:36Um, and then, uh...
00:12:39And then, uh...
00:12:41Like, uh...
00:12:43The aliens beam down and, like, appreciate it a lot.
00:12:48I don't know. That's what the lady at the desk said. So...
00:12:52And it's called an alien junkyard?
00:12:56Yeah.
00:13:00Okay, well, what are you going to put down?
00:13:05Way ahead of you.
00:13:09Okay.
00:13:17You too.
00:13:19That's where you're leaving?
00:13:22Yeah.
00:13:23You don't think you should, like, leave some... Like, a picture of you and Rachel?
00:13:26No. The aliens don't want to see a couple of normies.
00:13:30They want to see Aubrey Plaza in a questionable Christmas film.
00:13:35Okay.
00:13:39What are you going to leave?
00:13:40I don't know.
00:13:45What about that?
00:13:46Oh, hell no. I've had this thing for, like, eight years.
00:13:49Okay. And that's what makes it perfect. It's got your human juice memories all over it.
00:13:55Leave it.
00:13:56Okay.
00:14:06Alright, well, the aliens better appreciate the fuck out of that.
00:14:09That thing's been a staple in my wardrobe since, like, high school.
00:14:13Hey. We're here to leave our old selves behind.
00:14:18We're here to find who the new us is. The new Parker.
00:14:22Okay, well, will you let me know when you figure that out?
00:14:25Probably not.
00:14:30Oh!
00:14:31What?
00:14:32You look so pretty.
00:14:35Can you help?
00:14:36Yeah.
00:14:48I'm nervous.
00:14:49Why?
00:14:51I feel like your dad hates me.
00:14:52No.
00:14:54What? He's always liked you.
00:14:56He's, like, the only family you have, and I just want to know how much I love you.
00:15:02He trusts I can make good decisions.
00:15:06But I broke your heart.
00:15:09Okay.
00:15:23Alright. Today's the day.
00:15:25So do we have anything else on the agenda other than Nashville?
00:15:29No. Just wherever we end up.
00:15:33What is it with that Nashville anyway?
00:15:35I don't know. My parents always said that we would take a family trip there, and we just never went.
00:15:40So, then it kind of stuck with me.
00:15:42Why?
00:15:43We always went on a cruise or to Disney World.
00:15:47I don't know. I guess it was just never really important to them to go to Nashville.
00:15:50But it was to you.
00:15:52Yeah. I always thought of it kind of like a magical place, you know?
00:15:55But in a cool, rustic, cowboy way.
00:15:58Plus, I always wanted to get one of those cute little guitar keychains.
00:16:02Hm.
00:16:03My parents just always shipped me off to my grandparents.
00:16:06And they lived in a really tiny town, so, I mean, it was an adventure in its own.
00:16:10You know, just with a lot of cornfields and, you know, fast food restaurants.
00:16:15See, but I wish I had that.
00:16:18You wish you never went on a cruise?
00:16:20No, not like that. I mean, like, I wish my parents cared more about what I wanted.
00:16:27How can I put this nicely?
00:16:32You, my friend, need a reality check.
00:16:35What do you mean?
00:16:37So, why did you break up with Ellen? Again?
00:16:42Like in high school?
00:16:44Yeah.
00:16:45I didn't know what I wanted.
00:16:47But now, all of a sudden, you know what you want?
00:16:52I mean, so let me get this straight.
00:16:56You broke up with her because you didn't want to be with her.
00:16:59But then you did want to be with her.
00:17:01Then two years later, when she got upset because you didn't treat her the way you said you were going to treat her,
00:17:06now all of a sudden you want it back.
00:17:10You know it's not so cut and dry.
00:17:12I'm just playing devil's advocate.
00:17:14I was 17.
00:17:16I thought I needed to drink all the time and smoke weed and just create this, like, tornado of emotion just to feel something, you know?
00:17:24There it is. The contradiction.
00:17:26The contradiction.
00:17:28You love to sabotage yourself. You have to have the main character energy, and you have to have all the problems.
00:17:34That's not true.
00:17:36No, it's kind of true.
00:17:38She's important to me, Fern.
00:17:40I know she is.
00:17:42If there's ever a chance in hell that you're going to get her back, you've got to have better coping mechanisms.
00:17:48You've got to learn. You've got to grow.
00:17:51You're not going to be good for her unless you're good for you.
00:17:54Yeah.
00:17:58You want another drink?
00:18:00I think I'm okay.
00:18:27You think he liked me?
00:18:29Park, he's never not liked you.
00:18:35I wouldn't like me.
00:18:37All right.
00:18:43Why do you do that?
00:18:45Do what?
00:18:47Why do you need other people's validation?
00:18:51He's your dad, Ellie.
00:18:54But I love you. Can that not be enough?
00:19:02Why can't you forgive yourself?
00:19:10Because I always...
00:19:13Fuck, good job.
00:19:43Fuck.
00:20:14My shoes.
00:20:37What?
00:20:39I'm going to puke.
00:20:41Oh.
00:20:47Are you ready for it?
00:20:50Why do I feel like I'm about to have a pulmonary embolism?
00:20:54You know, that is how I felt the first time I ever saw Red Velvet's music video for Psycho.
00:21:11Get a boat and sail down, down
00:21:16Where the blue, blue waters flow
00:21:20Yes, this is a place I would go
00:21:26We might get ourselves lost
00:21:29We may never be found
00:21:33If ever that day comes around
00:21:42Dude, that sucked.
00:21:48I wasn't going to say anything unless you did.
00:21:51I don't know why I thought a city full of drunken tourists, vomit-filled streets, and cheapo guitar souvenirs would be so life-altering.
00:22:00It's almost like you build things up in your head to be bigger than they actually are.
00:22:08You have all these unrealistic expectations.
00:22:10I don't need a lecture.
00:22:17I just think life is about the little things, the stuff you didn't plan.
00:22:24Yeah, you're right.
00:22:27Like these fries.
00:22:30I'm going to remember these fries for the rest of my life.
00:22:38I have an idea.
00:22:41Okay.
00:22:43Follow me.
00:23:03Break another bowl.
00:23:05What?
00:23:06For the bucket list.
00:23:08I want to break into the pool at night.
00:23:12Okay.
00:23:22Cool.
00:23:24We should get started.
00:23:26Now.
00:23:28You know it still hurts a little bit, but not that much
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00:26:02They're just being little bitches.
00:26:08Time to shut it down.
00:26:10Shut it down.
00:26:12Shut it down.
00:26:54I love it when you play.
00:27:01I know.
00:27:02So where'd you learn how to play anything?
00:27:07Uh, my dad, actually.
00:27:10Yeah, he taught me.
00:27:13But he only learned to impress my mom.
00:27:19Really?
00:27:20Mm-hmm.
00:27:21That's funny. I never heard that.
00:27:25There's a lot you don't know about me.
00:27:26Oh, yeah?
00:27:27Yeah.
00:27:28Tell me one thing I don't know about you.
00:27:30Oh, God. Um...
00:27:35Okay, when I was a kid and I would catch fireflies, I would make wishes on them.
00:27:44Really?
00:27:45Mm-hmm.
00:27:46That's probably the cutest thing I've ever heard.
00:27:48Um, I mean, that was one good thing about my mom.
00:27:52I feel like she always had her head in the clouds and believed that life was, like, made of magic.
00:28:01I feel like she really instilled that in me.
00:28:04Yeah, but it does kind of sound like you.
00:28:07I mean, yeah. I kind of hate it, though, because she was always wanting to live this, like, bigger-than-life reality.
00:28:15And one day, she just decided that me and my dad were not part of that dream anymore.
00:28:22It wasn't enough, so we left.
00:28:26I mean, you were just a kid.
00:28:29I don't think it had anything to do with you not being there.
00:28:35Plus, your heart is nothing like hers anyways.
00:28:40Yeah. I just don't want to hurt someone the way she hurt my dad.
00:28:47I don't want to hurt a girl.
00:28:50Plus, I feel like a five-year-old wanting to play pretend all the time is probably a lot to handle.
00:29:09Plus, you know what? I don't think she even wanted kids anyway.
00:29:39Where are we going?
00:29:54You'll see.
00:29:56Are you going to kill me?
00:29:59Allie, you're not supposed to know. Be quiet.
00:30:03Are you choosing way by knife or another weapon?
00:30:06What would be more villanelle of me?
00:30:10She'd probably have some really elaborate scheme and then corner me and Malloway in Paris or something.
00:30:16Mine would be better.
00:30:30This is sweet.
00:30:33You're sweet.
00:30:36Oh, so my friend Mikayla is coming in from out of town next weekend and there's this party that I think we're going to go to.
00:31:06But we went out last weekend.
00:31:08I know, but I want to go, like, out-out.
00:31:12So just going out with me just to, like, knock out?
00:31:15You know I don't mean it like that.
00:31:19I guess I'll just, I'll stay home alone again.
00:31:41Parker!
00:31:42What do we have to do?
00:31:44I have found the best use of our word for the most uncomfortable situation.
00:31:50Fong!
00:31:52What happened?
00:31:54Well, I'm glad you asked.
00:31:56There I am in the woods trying to take a fat piss and a fly goes right in my face.
00:32:02That's not the best part.
00:32:05Because I didn't see it.
00:32:07I fell right back into my piss.
00:32:10It's not funny.
00:32:12It's kind of funny.
00:32:14It's kind of very funny.
00:32:16Get in the car.
00:32:18Get in the car, we're going.
00:32:43Parker.
00:32:45What?
00:32:49I got you something.
00:32:52What is that for?
00:32:56Just because.
00:33:12Ellie, I'm sorry.
00:33:15You're doing it again.
00:33:17Doing what?
00:33:18You're pulling away.
00:33:21Ellie, no.
00:33:24It's not like that.
00:33:25You know, you promised me on New Year's that you wouldn't do this because of some confusion you have about yourself and what you want.
00:33:34Ellie, we just went on a picnic and to dinner with your dad.
00:33:42What, am I not allowed to have a few drinks after work?
00:33:46Leave the house?
00:33:47Am I not allowed to?
00:33:49No, you can leave the house.
00:33:52But when you came back to me, we promised that our relationship would not be like this anymore.
00:33:59That's not what's happening.
00:34:02Then what is happening?
00:34:04I don't know.
00:34:07You never do.
00:34:10But I don't, I don't know, I don't want to know what living in a world without you is like.
00:34:16And I feel like I'm hurting you.
00:34:20Then stop pulling away.
00:34:23It hurts me when you do that.
00:34:25We're happy, we're good.
00:34:28Yeah, we're good.
00:34:29We're good.
00:34:58Can we get a cab?
00:35:24For the sixth time?
00:35:26No.
00:35:28Because they stink.
00:35:30They're stinky.
00:35:32You want to clean the litter box?
00:35:36Hold on, oh my god, hold on, I'm so late.
00:35:38Oh, that's probably Rachel.
00:35:45It's my mom.
00:35:52Are you sure this is a good idea?
00:35:54Don't be a fucking pussy.
00:35:55I'm not a fucking pussy.
00:35:58I'm going to get caught.
00:36:12I'm going to get caught.
00:36:37What are we going to do now?
00:36:40We're going to the beach.
00:36:42What beach?
00:36:45Pensacola?
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00:38:04Okay.
00:38:05I got there, and he was gone.
00:38:17Ellie, I am so sorry.
00:38:24My mom was there, and she was acting like it was the end of the world.
00:38:29Like she never left.
00:38:31Like she even cared, ever.
00:38:36I know, it's so complex.
00:38:42She didn't deserve to see him, at all.
00:38:46I deserve to see him.
00:38:48Ellie.
00:38:49Don't Ellie me.
00:38:51She's your mom.
00:38:52I don't care.
00:38:57Ellie.
00:38:59What can I do?
00:39:03Nothing.
00:39:06He's my dad.
00:39:07He was the only one that was ever there for me.
00:39:10He was the only one who never left.
00:39:14I don't know what the fuck I'm supposed to even do now.
00:39:18I'm so sorry.
00:39:22Don't be.
00:39:23Okay, but like, I'm here.
00:39:28Whatever you need.
00:39:30Are you?
00:39:33What does that even mean?
00:39:41I'm sorry, Parker.
00:39:42I just...
00:39:43I just don't know how to process it.
00:39:48I get it.
00:39:49Nobody should be projecting that onto you.
00:39:50I shouldn't be doing that.
00:39:51I'm sorry.
00:39:52I kinda deserve it.
00:39:53Well, you deserve it.
00:39:54I kind of deserve it.
00:39:57No you don't, Ellie.
00:40:00Let's be honest, I'm not the most reliable person that's in your life.
00:40:09I feel like I wreak havoc on you, your life, your stability.
00:40:20I feel like I leave you constantly wondering when the next time I'm going to have a big breakdown.
00:40:35This isn't about me, this is about you.
00:40:40You just lost your dad.
00:40:49I just can't believe he's gone.
00:40:57He was so good last time I saw him.
00:41:20I miss Rachel.
00:41:24We'll be back soon.
00:41:27I know, but I still miss her.
00:41:30Yeah, I feel that.
00:41:35Who do you miss?
00:41:38Your mom.
00:41:40Yeah, I bet you do miss my mom.
00:41:43No, really I do.
00:41:46You know, reiterate, let's just go back, why are we here again?
00:41:50Like, on the trip?
00:41:53Yeah, yeah, on this trip.
00:41:56Because we wanted to do something exciting, get away.
00:42:05Something to distract ourselves from this mundane capitalist environment.
00:42:16And, and, I'm trying to get over Ellie.
00:42:23Ding, ding, ding, ding, we have a winner.
00:42:32Blind as a bat.
00:42:34Alright, so I'm going to role play as your therapist, Gigi.
00:42:39Not to be confused with Gigi from The L Word, but in Gigi Forever.
00:42:43So, first question, why do you think it is so hard for you to let go?
00:42:50What keeps you holding on?
00:42:54She's the love of my life.
00:42:57And why do you think that?
00:43:00Because I always go back to her.
00:43:03I mean, time and time again.
00:43:07Do you not think that maybe you're just comfortable in the environment you created with her?
00:43:16Like, do you really think that like, out of 7 billion people in this whole world, there's not one other person that you might love?
00:43:24Not like Ellie.
00:43:27A roller coaster of emotion is not love.
00:43:35It was love.
00:43:38It was the purest love I think I've ever experienced.
00:43:43Well, sometimes love isn't enough then.
00:43:49Not to be healthy at least.
00:43:51Why can't I just make it fucking work?
00:43:54Like, I feel like Taylor Swift.
00:43:56I miss screaming and fighting, kissing in the rain.
00:43:59I don't want to be boring and comfortable.
00:44:03I understand that it must be really hard to even think and fathom that there might just be a life after Ellie.
00:44:15But life is bendable, it's changeable.
00:44:19Like, you, we are meant to heal.
00:44:23You could finally love someone the way that you deserve to.
00:44:29I just wanted it to be her.
00:44:34I know it's her.
00:44:37She's my person.
00:44:40I hope you're right.
00:44:44Okay, so Missy just called me and I need to get to the theater at home because she doesn't fucking know how to do anything herself.
00:44:55So I have to get ready when I get there.
00:44:58So can you just meet me there?
00:45:01Yeah, go on.
00:45:04I love you.
00:45:26Wow.
00:45:28I love it when Ellie drinks all my oat milk.
00:45:55Fuck!
00:46:18Hello?
00:46:19Ellie?
00:46:21Yeah, what's wrong?
00:46:22My fucking tire popped. I had to pull off the side of the freeway into some random parking lot.
00:46:28What do you mean?
00:46:29I mean it's completely deflated.
00:46:34You had to go get milk?
00:46:36Yeah, I just needed the distraction.
00:46:39Have you called a tow truck?
00:46:41I can call one, but odds are it'll probably take a few hours.
00:46:45The funeral is in an hour, Parker.
00:46:47I know, I could try calling Fern.
00:46:49I have to go, just get here.
00:46:55Son of a bitch.
00:47:09Ellie, I am so sorry.
00:47:11I went to the store to get milk for the coffee and then I was going to go straight to the funeral home.
00:47:15But then my tire popped and I called the tow truck company.
00:47:17But they said that they couldn't be there until 1.30 and I didn't know what else to do.
00:47:22I didn't do it on purpose.
00:47:27You missed my dad's funeral.
00:47:31I know, and I'm so sorry.
00:47:34But it's not my fault.
00:47:37Why didn't you think to just stay home?
00:47:44Do you ever think about what's going on around you?
00:47:49Ellie.
00:47:50This isn't your fucking world, Parker.
00:47:53Do you ever think, hey, maybe I should just stay home?
00:47:56Because Ellie's dad just died.
00:47:58My tire would have popped on the way to the funeral anyways.
00:48:01That's very convenient for you.
00:48:03Oh, do not pin this on me.
00:48:05I wanted to be there for you.
00:48:07Then you're a long talker.
00:48:09What the fuck is your problem?
00:48:11My problem?
00:48:13Parker, you need to figure out if I am good enough for you.
00:48:17If you ever cared to give me a scrap of attention.
00:48:19All I do is give you my attention.
00:48:23All you do is worry about Parker.
00:48:30Just like that.
00:48:31Oh, fuck that, Ellie.
00:48:33Would your mom do this?
00:48:44What is that?
00:48:46It's a stupid scrapbook that I made for our one year anniversary after getting back together.
00:48:51But it doesn't even fucking matter anymore now, does it?
00:48:54Because I'm so unpredictable, just like your mom.
00:48:59No, no, actually you're really predictable.
00:49:02We always end because you always leave.
00:49:10Ellie.
00:49:13Ellie.
00:49:19Ellie, don't go.
00:49:21I have to.
00:49:23I'm going to go to my dad's beach house in Pensacola.
00:49:27You can't leave me like this.
00:49:29You always left me like this, Parker.
00:49:32You're the love of my life.
00:49:37This isn't about us anymore.
00:49:40I need to find me.
00:49:42I need to find who Ellie is again.
00:49:44It's not you, it's me, right?
00:49:46It's you too.
00:49:48You desperately need to grow and find who you want to be and who Parker is.
00:49:53I don't think there can be an us anymore.
00:49:56I don't want to be here without you.
00:50:00I can't ruin myself for you anymore.
00:50:03And you can't either.
00:50:11I don't want you to go.
00:50:14I know.
00:50:35Finn!
00:50:41Finn!
00:50:43Yeah, you can be there by seven.
00:50:45I mean, you know it's going to be late anyways.
00:50:47I mean, that's how it usually goes.
00:50:50Yeah.
00:50:54Parker just woke up.
00:50:55Hey, I'll see you when I see you.
00:50:58Okay.
00:50:59Love you.
00:51:00Bye.
00:51:01Hey.
00:51:02What are you doing?
00:51:06Rachel's going to pick me up from the airport.
00:51:09Why?
00:51:10Something wrong?
00:51:13Nothing.
00:51:15I'm just not stupid.
00:51:17I'm confused.
00:51:20Why are we in Pensacola?
00:51:22Because we wanted to go to the beach.
00:51:28Why are we in Pensacola, Parker?
00:51:35Look, Fern, I was going to tell you-
00:51:37I know where Ellie lives.
00:51:39I really tried to give you the benefit of the doubt,
00:51:42but you are just the same old Parker.
00:51:49Those-
00:51:50Those weren't my intentions.
00:51:52So you didn't mean to take me on a trip
00:51:56that I thought was us bonding
00:51:59and having all these crazy awesome life experiences together
00:52:03only so that you can just weasel your way in to go see Ellie.
00:52:07That's not what happened.
00:52:13Well, I'm glad I could be a pawn in your game, so.
00:52:17Cool.
00:52:18I mean, I wanted to see Ellie,
00:52:22but it became something more along the way.
00:52:26Halfway through, I even forgot where I started the trip.
00:52:30Parker, you are my best friend,
00:52:33but for the love of God, you are so manipulative.
00:52:38Anything you want, you get.
00:52:42Come on.
00:52:43Don't ruin the trip.
00:52:47You already ruined it.
00:52:49I'm sorry.
00:52:50I needed to see her.
00:52:52I needed to win her back.
00:52:55You are so good at lying.
00:52:59You are so worried about making sure everybody loves you
00:53:05that you end up treating the people who actually do love you like shit.
00:53:11I'm just confused, Fern.
00:53:14I can't do anything right.
00:53:16No one said you had to have it all figured out,
00:53:19but you just drag everyone into your shit.
00:53:23You know what?
00:53:25You can call me
00:53:27when you've decided to be the Parker that I know you are.
00:53:31I won't be waiting for the call, though.
00:53:57Hey.
00:54:23Hi, Park.
00:54:24Hi.
00:54:27Hey.
00:54:32So, how are you?
00:54:34What are you doing in Pensacola?
00:54:36Oh, I'm good.
00:54:38I was just passing through the area.
00:54:40I figured I'd shoot you a message.
00:54:42I remember that you said that you were going to your dad's beach house in Pensacola,
00:54:46so I thought it was worth a shot.
00:54:49Oh, yeah.
00:54:50I mean, moving here is probably one of the best decisions I've made in a long time.
00:54:55I can imagine.
00:54:57Probably much better than home.
00:54:59How is home?
00:55:01Humid.
00:55:02Kind of boring.
00:55:03The usual.
00:55:05I miss it a little.
00:55:08Well, you know, if you're ever in town, you can stay with me.
00:55:13Thanks, Park.
00:55:14Yeah.
00:55:16It's probably not a good idea, but I appreciate the offer.
00:55:20Yeah, I mean, I just figured I'd at least offer.
00:55:24How's Fern?
00:55:25She's good.
00:55:27Yeah, she's good.
00:55:29Rachel?
00:55:30She's good, too.
00:55:31They actually just got engaged and then bought a house,
00:55:34but I'm sure you already knew about all that.
00:55:36I do still talk to Rachel sometimes.
00:55:39That's good.
00:55:40You guys ever talk about me?
00:55:42No, definitely not.
00:55:44Oh.
00:55:46Well, I mean, that's good.
00:55:48Our ending shouldn't mean, you know, an ending for you guys, too.
00:55:51It doesn't.
00:55:54So there's this music shop I saw over off of the pier.
00:55:58I figured if you don't have any plans later, maybe we could swing by.
00:56:02Um, I'm getting dinner with my friends tonight, actually.
00:56:08Well, I mean, that's okay.
00:56:10It was last minute anyways, but where are you guys going?
00:56:13Just this little Italian restaurant downtown.
00:56:16We go, like, every Friday.
00:56:20Why am I here?
00:56:22Pardon?
00:56:25I just, I needed to see you.
00:56:30It's been years.
00:56:32What do you need to see me for?
00:56:35I just still don't understand why things ended, you know?
00:56:38Like, you're my person, and I can't, I don't know.
00:56:42I don't know.
00:56:44I just still don't understand why things ended, you know?
00:56:46Like, you're my person, and I can't, I just can't stop thinking about the night you left.
00:56:54I'm not your person, Park.
00:56:57Not anymore, at least.
00:56:59But you said it yourself.
00:57:01We're soulmates.
00:57:03Who said soulmates have to be forever, Park?
00:57:06Because then what's the point?
00:57:08The point is that we taught each other lessons and how to love and treat someone with dignity and live up to your words, you know?
00:57:18I just, I know you're the person I'm going to end up with.
00:57:27Maybe in another universe we were together forever, but I just don't think we're living in that universe anymore.
00:57:38Why is it so hard for me to get over you, but for you it's so easy?
00:57:44It wasn't easy.
00:57:46I spent months mourning you and I and the person I was when I was with you.
00:57:53And trying to figure out how I was going to live life without you in it.
00:57:57And I lost my best friend.
00:58:00And, you know, part of me hoped that we would cross paths again and just fall into each other's arms and everything would be like it used to, but that's just not life.
00:58:12Who said?
00:58:13Parker.
00:58:15Why can't we just have like a fairy tale ending where we always end up together?
00:58:20Because this isn't a movie, you know?
00:58:23We're real people, this is real life and I just don't think we can exist together without hurting each other over and over and over again.
00:58:34God, I must sound insane.
00:58:38No, I just don't think you take it well when things don't go your way.
00:58:48I love you.
00:58:53I think I should go.
00:58:55I'm sorry.
00:58:58No, it's fine. I just, you know, I wish you the best, Parker. I always do.
00:59:12I'm sorry.
00:59:14Please, don't leave.
00:59:17Parker, it's time to move on.
00:59:19You have a whole life ahead of you that does not involve me.
00:59:23A life that's beautiful and full of life.
00:59:27You and I were a mess of memories and I cherish all of them.
00:59:33But you'll always be one of my favorite lives, Parker.
00:59:47I'm sorry it doesn't change anything.
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