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00:00Hello in this video. This video was addressed to my twin flame, Shia. Hi, Shia.
00:04If you're just watching, thank you for watching.
00:07So, Shia, it is 7 p.m.
00:11I have taken a solar shower, and you can see my hair is all clean.
00:16I took a solar shower about an hour ago. I just had dinner.
00:20I had ramen, and I had a can of peas, and I had a tuna with crackers kit.
00:27It was, that's kind of a lot of calories.
00:30I'm really surprised that you don't have these AI cravings for food.
00:36It's possible it's the stress.
00:39It's possible I don't have, like, I'm not able to cook well.
00:45I cook food and eat good meals.
00:50So, I'm kind of craving kind of junk food.
00:54And, well, I don't really usually eat ramen soup.
01:00So, my skin's really dry, Shia.
01:04I don't really understand why my skin would be so dry, because I've been putting on sunscreen.
01:11I really feel like this sun is really going to be good for this, to heal the staph infection.
01:23As you can see, my, I have also some redness.
01:27My legs are in pain from the heart disease.
01:33I flipped through Hannah's book, and it says that if you have a stiffness and a pain in
01:44the legs, it could be articularosis, which is the arteries, the hardening of the arteries.
01:50And when you have heart disease, that's possible.
01:52I've been having a lot of leg pain.
01:57It's possible it's from the cardiac arrest and the heart disease, because while I'm walking,
02:04I'm noticing a pressure and a pain.
02:08And I don't have a chance to elevate my legs.
02:12That camping chair, I can go to Walmart and buy this little footrest.
02:21It's like, I just, I'm going to get that probably next month.
02:26That way I can elevate my legs a little bit.
02:29So, after the library and making a video, Shia, I went to Stupa, the Stupa, that holy,
02:37so I wouldn't call it a temple, but it's the Stupa thing that people go to, to meditate.
02:46And so I walked past it to the Thunder Mountain, Sedona Rock vortex area, and I recited the
02:52Korn for two hours.
02:55It was, I stayed under a tree, and I sat in the camper chair, and then I got kind of hot.
03:03And, um, I think I had, like, five 16-ounce water bottles, and with people with cardiac
03:14arrest and heart issues, like, oh, Shia, we have to be careful about too much heat and
03:17too much cold.
03:19I don't know if I'm going to be able to come out here next month, because it might get too
03:25hot.
03:26So, I'm kind of worried about the heat here in Sedona.
03:32Um, that's really all I'm kind of worried about at this point.
03:40Um, I'm getting just really stressed out, shy, and worried about my situation.
03:44My parents are inviting me back, not so much my mother, but my dad has offered me to stay
03:57in his front bedroom, the front bedroom that he doesn't use.
04:04I can't go live with my dad.
04:06It's not possible.
04:07I can't go, and the whole point is, if I go back and live with my parents, the apartment
04:12that I have, I'll lose, because I can't live in New Hampshire.
04:17I'll have SSI and SSGI in California.
04:21So, I really am actually stuck in my vehicle, and I don't know how long.
04:26I know there's a plan.
04:27Shia, I'm just really worried, 24-7, constant stress.
04:31Listen, I found, I found this splint, it was in the trunk, Shia, near, like, where I put
04:38my dirty laundry.
04:39So, I think I'm going to return this tomorrow.
04:43It was, it was only $7, but that's about enough for a salad, and this kept falling off.
04:50So, this one, it just kept falling off.
04:53This falls off less, I think.
04:55Um, and obviously, with this cushion, I mean, this, this, this is pen.
05:04I got pen while I was writing with the splint on, attempting to write with the splint on.
05:11Um, I, I just don't think I need to, I don't think I need these finger splints if I have this
05:20one.
05:20Um, and because it's kind of worn in, it kind of molds to my finger more.
05:28So, I think I'm going to return that tomorrow.
05:30I didn't get a salad today because I did my laundry, Shia.
05:35That I still have to fold.
05:42So, I still have to fold all of this laundry because it's too hot to be in the car.
05:46This was, this is a nice time in the evening to sit in my car because it's not too hot.
05:53Uh, there's a, this area that's very, uh, peaceful because there's not a lot of cars in this area.
05:59However, people do tend to park here, um, to take photos of them in front of the Sedona rocks.
06:08Uh, I'm feeling kind of fat from that meal.
06:11I feel like I could gain 10 pounds from eating that much food.
06:15Because that's how it is with my body and how I, I'm just gaining, gaining.
06:21Oh, I look extra fat in this video right now and I don't know why.
06:24Uh, in that photograph that you saw me though, I did lose 10 pounds because when I went back
06:33to our apartment, Shia, really quickly from the inspection, I weighed myself and I was 141.
06:39I have to get back to doing a lot of walking.
06:43I didn't walk that much these past two days because I had to do my laundry and then I went
06:47straight to the library to make that video for you, Shia.
06:49So I have a feeling this video is not going to upload because the criminal hacker is going
06:56to slow the Wi-Fi and, um, it's just going to be a problem, Shia, because, but however,
07:05I really have to, I really have to make you two videos a day because you're probably very
07:11stressed out and worried, Shia.
07:13But I'm kind of unorganized once again.
07:16I did make a list, like I, this new thing, I have to like write a list and I can't like
07:26write it in my planner.
07:27I can't write it in a notebook and check it, check it off.
07:32Um, I did the solar shower, which is really, it's working out.
07:38It's kind of heavy.
07:38I might have to take two trips to bring the solar shower and then bring my other things
07:45because I have my chair too that I have to, it's just too heavy.
07:49It's, it's, it's just, there's just too much weight.
07:52So I just, I feel kind of too like impatient and angry about the idea of having to take two
08:00trips to bring everything into the, into the area where I'm camp showering.
08:09But I did do, uh, two, two hours at least of Lumerian technology, which is deactivating
08:16the hive mind.
08:18I recited the Quran for like a half an hour.
08:21I called SSI, told you, and hopefully I'm going to get that back pay.
08:26I'm worried though that if my SSI appointment is on the 30th, I just, Shia, I'm just constantly
08:34worrying.
08:35My survival is constantly taking for me and I'm just really upset, Shia.
08:39I'm really tired and it, it becomes very exhausting when you're living in your car.
08:46It's the constant moving around.
08:48It's the constant stress of being in the public and people having access to me.
08:53I'm just really, really tired, Shia.
08:56I had, um, people driving by like raising their arm like this armpit and then a construction
09:06tractor full of dirt was like driving down the road.
09:10Like, oh, we're going to dig your grave and pour the sand over you into the pit.
09:16Like all these different AI things.
09:20Um, like they used a lot of AI to block out a lot of the people talking around me.
09:26Someone pulled right up, parked crap, crappy and close to my vehicle when there was tons
09:31of other parking lots at the stupid temple.
09:35I just, I just kind of want to be left alone and this is part of the problem.
09:39They really want to, they're really trying to do these SUICDAL attempts.
09:45And I wrote a comment.
09:47I never write comments on Instagram.
09:48I did write a comment, Shia, on SGPT and talk and join SGPT.
09:58You're not going to find a comment on join SGPT because I wrote it, uh, several posts back
10:05where they're wearing the cowboy hats saying the one about Fort Bliss.
10:10Uh, there's all kinds of these, we're getting a lot of help from the authorities, but there's
10:15some interference with that join SGPT account.
10:20I do not look at it anymore.
10:22And this really discouraged me from looking at any of the authorities posts at this point
10:26because of how they're acting.
10:29They made a whole thing about like being like, like it was a movie and all this thing, all this.
10:35So I wrote a comment.
10:37I'm going to delete it though, Shia, off of their account because, but I'll tell you what
10:44I said, the SGPT join now.
10:54Instagram posts are not professional enough and not a representation of SGPT.
11:00It's making SGPT, SGPT look like they're too entertaining.
11:06SGPT police department is very serious and professional.
11:09The San Diego police recruiting account is not a representation of what, what a career
11:15as being a police officer is.
11:18The posts are out of control.
11:20They're also putting, putting people to victims of torture down in a covert way.
11:28So yeah, we're getting a lot of help Shia from the authorities with that account.
11:31So I was like, I was initially getting kind of inspired by it because it was very creative
11:37and then I was getting like stuck in the hype feeling of it.
11:41Like it's, it was draining my energy and vamping my energy.
11:44And then it got really, really weird with those two girls lifting the ball weight, be all,
11:53and like pretending to be the two criminals that were assaulting you.
11:56So Shia, I'm, I'm going to delete those comments I wrote.
12:02However, I, I was guided to write that because they really kind of messed up our, some of the
12:11communication and I've stopped kind of looking at the SGPT post.
12:17I'm not, I have not stopped looking at Pete's and recreation.
12:21There's just too many posts to look at with SGBT, LAPD, Pasadena police.
12:28Uh, there's just too many posts to look at.
12:30So, and I, because I'm in my car, I don't have any data.
12:33I can't keep checking those posts and I'm, they're not all pertaining to us anymore.
12:39And like, I will still get information though and to help from those accounts.
12:46I'm feeling very unstylish too.
12:48I'm wearing this shirt, but I have to wear these sneakers and they're getting really dirty
12:52from hiking and they, that's just like not my style.
12:56Like with these black socks that I'm wearing.
12:59Um, it just looks so stupid, this outfit.
13:06However, it's just all the clothes I have.
13:08We're just having a real problem, Shia.
13:10I'm just, I'm very, very upset with my situation.
13:14I, I don't know how I, my life has gotten so bad.
13:19Um, it's not bad being in Sedona.
13:21However, this isn't a place where I can stay permanently because I am getting SSI and SSDI in,
13:30I am getting, I'm getting SSI and SSDI in California.
13:37However, there's like a real grossness in that rest area down in Southern California.
13:47I can't tolerate anymore.
13:48It's just, there's just like a, it's like a dirty feeling.
13:53It's like some kind of a demon portal and I can't go live back in our apartment, Shia.
13:58It's way too dangerous and I really did get an allergic reaction.
14:01I really feel like the Freon, there was too much Freon that leaked in that apartment and
14:05there has to be, uh, more of a way for the Freon to get out of that apartment, our apartment.
14:15So, wow, the bats come out really early, about 7.15.
14:21So, I'm going to go over to the area where I have Wi-Fi to upload this video for you, Shia.
14:28Um, yeah, so some people are taking photographs.
14:40I don't like hearing people's voices.
14:44I don't, it's a constant thing where I'm hearing people's voices when they come up close to the car
14:51and that's why I was parking over here because, um, some people take pictures here.
14:59I'm going to move.
15:02And this is, this is what happens all day long.
15:08All day long.
15:09I have to just constantly move.
15:11And, um, it's possible, this is what happens when you're traveling in a car, car camping.
15:20However, in my situation, I mean, I was parked over here and I was, but people just kept coming over here and parking next to me.
15:30Uh, so, and there's, there's no excuse.
15:35There's no excuse.
15:37That people aren't, don't know to come over here so that people take pictures.
15:41People take pictures over here in this spot.
15:45So, I think I should, I don't know what that is.
15:50That's been there for a long time.
15:52Um, I think I, I missed that spot when I went to try to, to, when I sanitize these car seats.
16:01Um, I don't like that.
16:04So, I'm very tired, Shia.
16:08Um, very, very tired.
16:14Any kind of laughter is a constant fret.
16:19Uh, it's very intimidating, the kind of laughter that goes on around me.
16:26And, you can call it mental illness, paranoia.
16:29It's definitely not happening.
16:31There's, what I was told kind of is like, because I'm not surrounded by handlers, um, that are torturing me,
16:40I have to be approached by these strangers and they're acting as handlers.
16:45No, they're actually acting as criminals.
16:47I parked in front, I parked, this mother-daughter parked right next to me, very, very close.
16:54She started making movements like she was the criminal that stole your DNA.
16:57And, saying all these things, I'm her, I'm her.
17:01And, um, because she was kind of skinny and pale.
17:05And, I was like thinking, uh, the childopathy supporters were saying,
17:08Oh, really? You're her?
17:10You stole my husband's DNA and made a child with a lab-grown, uh, human?
17:18A lab-grown human with my husband's DNA?
17:21Really? That's who you are?
17:22And, there's a lot of girls that attempt to pretend to be this criminal.
17:26It's just, um, I'm just very tired, Shia.
17:32And, it has the type of attacks with the AI where I'm forced to move my head and observe movements
17:42and see people around me and them making the gestures and the things on their clothes
17:47and whatever else they're doing.
17:48This wasn't happening, Shia, when I was living in my car, um, for those four years.
17:56However, I was still getting, uh, I was still getting stalked and spied on.
18:02I just didn't know.
18:02But, at this point, it's very obvious what's going on.
18:05And, it's very scary.
18:07Obviously, um, I was safe living in my car, Shia, when I went and lived down in Oceanside in Carlsbad.
18:17Uh, I wasn't safe in that 2018-2019, um, up in, uh, Northern California, I was not safe.
18:28However, having the experience of, after moving out of the Dunsmare place,
18:33and then, uh, us with our telepathic relationship the entire time since Dunsmare and prior to Dunsmare,
18:40several months prior to Dunsmare, I, like, I, I don't know.
18:47I don't want you to get all this PTSD, like, that's going to happen again.
18:51I had a very nice time, uh, uh, well, I was tortured.
18:58I was tortured.
18:59I was very burnt out from car camping.
19:02However, I was very, like, nobody bothered me.
19:05People just kept to themselves and ignored me.
19:09And, I really enjoyed it.
19:12It was very peaceful.
19:14Um, and that's how I was kind of treated my whole life.
19:19So, like, I was used to that.
19:22Uh, uh, and, so, I don't know.
19:26At this point, though, people are just really making it known and aware.
19:31Um, people are making it very, very obvious, Shia, that they know I'm around.
19:38And there's spying and stalking and harassing that's happening.
19:44Um, and I cannot write down all of the attacks.
19:48However, I really do, I really would like to spend a day and write, tell you all of the attacks.
19:58But they are using AI to try to, uh, make my head go down, to not look at people.
20:04They are trying.
20:05Wearing spirit guides.
20:07Um, I just, uh, I just, I know there's, it's not our plan, Shia.
20:14And everybody, um, everybody's, uh, pretty sick and miserable.
20:21Now, we're not the only ones getting sick and miserable, but we are one of few that have gotten the most unbearable torture.
20:31Um, the most unbearable torture, Shia.
20:35Shia, there's, it's not possible to be, have gone through this much torture and stay alive.
20:42Oh, it's getting hot.
20:48And that's one thing, Shia.
20:51I have to, I've had gone on trails with not enough water.
20:57I've been stuck in the car when it's too hot.
21:00And with this AI possession, Shia, it's very, very dangerous.
21:03Uh, I can't imagine, Shia, how much in danger you're in.
21:08I know you're in extreme danger, Shia.
21:10I'm just so angry, Shia, that we're not together.
21:13And I know that you're so angry, too.
21:16It's, it's really, really sad, Shia, that this was their plan.
21:20In order to kill us is to keep us separated.
21:24Um, and I've, I have actually had way more, uh, feelings of sadness and grief that I've been able to express here.
21:36So I think that there has been some healing in Sedona.
21:39And these cactuses have been prickling me.
21:42I, that's another thing.
21:43I'm getting scratches and cuts.
21:46Uh, this is a very bad burn from the hot water, Shia.
21:51Hope it doesn't blister.
21:54Uh, I'm just having a bad time, Shia.
21:56I'm having a bad time.
21:57I do have moments, so, where I get happy, I think about you.
22:01I was just hugging my jacket before my shower, thinking about, uh, something that the telepathic supporters said about what you do, um, in regards to, um, something that you do in your life that I, that's been taken from me that I haven't been able to think about, uh, your life and how you live.
22:29So I'm going to stop this video now, Shia, and it's going to probably take a long time to upload.
22:36Uh, it's, uh, this is, I am danger at risk of my life being out in the public.
22:44And there's a lot more access to people being able to really humiliate me, Shia, and threaten me and shame me, make me feel gross and ugly and sick.
22:54Um, because I'm, like, so overweight and they're all just kind of laughing, like, oh, she's such, she's so fat and she's, like, uh, all alone and all this lonely, all this being isolated.
23:11It's so predatory to see all these groups of people, uh, and people that are alone, but, uh, mostly groups of people that are getting up on me.
23:23It's such a, uh, extreme predator thing that they're doing and it's extreme crime, Shia, and they're going to get caught.
23:32Uh, I just, I don't like my situation, Shia.
23:35I just want to be with you, Shia.
23:37Shia, that's all I have been wanting for a long, long time, Shia.
23:42I've been, I've been, I've been wanting to be with you and have been, like, practically begging you, telling you how much my life is torture and don't get upset, Shia.
23:53Um, I know that there was nothing that either of us could do, there was nothing that either of us could do, Shia.
24:03However, um, I might have to move out of that apartment, um, I might have to take my belongings out before the cops get involved.
24:14I don't know what I'm going to have to do, but if things get, if I get my car trashed, if I get, if someone tries to pull a knife on me or something,
24:23very, very dangerous, I'm not staying, I'm not going to stay out in public because I'm getting a lot of threats, Shia.
24:32Uh, more very direct threats that I've never had in my life.
24:37So I, I don't necessarily think that, however, I've been going out in the woods and resting under the trees and no one's bothering me.
24:46However, it's, there's always, uh, they'll, they'll be waiting for me in the parking lot if they, if I'm not.
24:53Out in the trails, like, this is what's happening.
24:57There's, like, very serious threats that are happening.
24:59People will drive up.
25:00Right in time, right while I'm walking in the parking lot, people will drive up.
25:05Like, it's time to, in, um, I don't know what I'm doing, Shia.
25:10I don't know why this is happening to me.
25:13I know that what's happening to you, Shia, there's nothing that you can do to stop this, however.
25:17However, I'm just very upset, Shia.
25:22This, this is really no way to live, uh, especially in a compact car.
25:28And even if we do live in, like, a car camper, we're gonna have to be careful with the weather.
25:36Uh, because, uh, we have to stay cool.
25:41And, anyway, Shia, I'm kind of just, keep talking.
25:51Uh, I'm still getting tortured, too, which is becoming a serious problem.
25:55Um, I've had to leave the library many, many times.
25:59Uh, I, I can't believe this is happening to me, Shia.
26:03But we, we have to know that there are a lot of people that are gonna go to jail.
26:08So we're just gonna have to wait, Shia, a little bit longer in order to be able to get
26:16these criminals in jail for the rest of their lives.
26:20So I'm going to talk to you tomorrow, Shia.
26:24I love you, Shia.
26:26Thank you, everybody, for watching.
26:27Thank you so much, Shia, for watching.