In A Family at War Season 2, Episode 13 – “Believed Killed,” the Ashton family confronts the harrowing possibility of loss as they receive news that challenges their resilience during World War II. This poignant episode delves into themes of uncertainty, hope, and the emotional toll of war on the home front.
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00:00Satsang with Mooji
02:36John!
02:38John?
02:40John?
02:42How are you then?
02:46Come on let's get you home.
02:48Let me give you a hand with your gear then.
02:50Thank you sergeant.
02:58Thank you sergeant.
03:00Thank you sergeant.
03:08You could have knocked us down with a feather when your telegram came.
03:18Why didn't you write before?
03:26I did.
03:28Oh?
03:30Then they must have...
03:32Did you get ours?
03:34What?
03:36Our letters.
03:38Yes.
03:39Margaret wanted to come but I said you'd rather she waited at home.
03:44You see...
03:45Well we didn't know...
03:46Well what to expect quite.
03:48All we know is what this officer from intelligence told us.
03:50Major Dimock.
03:52Do you know Major Dimock?
03:54Major Dimock.
03:56Major Dimock.
03:58Major Dimock.
04:00Do you know Major Dimock?
04:02Major Dimock.
04:04Well he said you were at a debriefing centre and then you'd be convalescent.
04:06Well if you will come home from enemy territory.
04:08I expect they have to put you in isolation.
04:10Make sure you're not a spy or something.
04:12You know what we know is what this officer from intelligence told us.
04:14What we know is what this officer from intelligence told us.
04:16Major Dimock.
04:18Do you know Major Dimock?
04:20Do you know Major Dimock?
04:22Major Dimock?
04:24Well he said you were at a debriefing centre and then you'd be convalescent.
04:28Well if you will come home from enemy territory.
04:30I expect they have to put you in isolation.
04:34Make sure you're not a spy or something.
04:38What?
04:40No he said that
04:42Belgian resistance people looked after you.
04:44After you were injured.
04:48Yeah they looked after me.
04:54You'll have some tales to tell.
05:01How long are you home for John?
05:04No.
05:06No.
05:07Oh er.
05:08Twenty eight days leave.
05:09Report to Catrick.
05:10Then what er.
05:11Did they tell you?
05:12You er.
05:13Your mother and father are coming over.
05:14No.
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05:54best in the afternoon night times best very present exactly it's like other
06:12people married people afternoon you can hear all the world busy outside and
06:18you're out of it your mind stops working yeah you can forget your problems
06:26and then you get up and your problems are all still there don't
06:31they'll be back tomorrow now you've broken the spell yeah but they are coming back
06:35that's tomorrow you won't face it will you
06:42it's my fault I should have made you leave home earlier I'd have still had to see it
06:48oh it would have been different wouldn't have been easier I think it would for both of you
06:52oh no Michael how could we have known your bridges would have been burnt
06:57well I simply opened a telegram and my husband was back from the dead
07:02as long as you haven't changed your mind
07:05how can you say that after just now
07:10I have to keep hearing you say it
07:13you will come and stay with me
07:15yes yes yes
07:17you'll have to tell him
07:21yes when when I can
07:23I have to be at once
07:25Michael he's only on leave
07:31oh what do you mean by that
07:33well it doesn't have to be now or never
07:35oh so we let him go back to barracks and carry on behind his back that's not what you mean is it
07:38no
07:38what then
07:39I don't know
07:42perhaps I'm a bit frightened
07:44I don't want to hurt him
07:47oh dear god Margaret love how do you think I feel
07:50pacifists don't get hurt is that what I'm supposed to believe
07:52no of course not
07:54look I must go to Wainwright's they've got some cotton baby clothes in and they'll be sold out if I don't get
08:00realize that you've got to hurt John
08:04there's no sparing him or us
08:06the longer you leave it the harder it'll be
08:09don't stand there looking like a stranger
08:17come on in
08:18I can't stay long
08:20I'm I'm meeting a friend
08:23you can come in for a moment anyway
08:27you won't say no to a cup of tea
08:33I've got some cakes in the tin
08:36oh I ate at the canteen thank you
08:38I baked some cakes for John not that he'll miss one or two
08:41Edwin says not to expect them till tomorrow afternoon you know what the trains are
08:45mum why did you want to see me oh why not
08:49I don't know it's just just a bit of a shock that's all finding you waiting for me outside the canteen
08:54I just wanted to see you I I do look on you as one of my own children you know
08:59do you
09:00you know I do
09:03I called at your place twice I left messages for you to come round
09:08didn't you get them I was worried
09:10well look I'm all right the kids are fine thank you
09:14at least I keep down at mrs. Thomas's they don't want to come back or anything
09:19well you could have popped round just for a bit of company
09:22well not very good company at the moment I'm afraid
09:26I worry I I do worry you know
09:29what about David
09:31about both of you
09:33about him not seeing you on his last leave
09:35well he did he did for for about 10 seconds
09:40did he say anything
09:42no he he didn't want to talk about it
09:45Sheila love
09:47you have to make an effort to keep a marriage going
09:49yes
09:51he's like a child he he can't help get her into trouble
09:54no look I know all that
09:56why do you imagine that I've loved David all this time
09:59you don't stop loving someone
10:02a mother doesn't I know
10:04but it seems that a wife can
10:08I suppose you're cross with me for interfering
10:10no
10:12Edwin always says it's best not to
10:14maybe he's right
10:17I had to see you
10:19I'm beginning to think I don't know me own children anymore
10:22David
10:23Margaret
10:24I must go
10:27I do wish you'd make just one more try
10:30mum now listen to me if you want me to go crawling to David I'm sorry I can't do it
10:35I'm past that
10:36not even for the children
10:38children David doesn't care about them he goes to see them once in a blue moon
10:42I'm sorry
10:44yes I'm sorry too
10:45I dare say David's sorry if the truth were known being sorry just doesn't seem to be enough anymore though does it
10:51yeah come on Dave cheers
11:10and keep the elbow well up
11:15so we can all see it
11:16yes
11:17all right Frank you know
11:20you've had your fun the nine days wonder is over
11:22you always wanted to be an officer and a gentleman didn't you
11:25just cut it out
11:26oh yes sir
11:27right away sir
11:28look there's plenty of blokes on air crew get commissioned
11:31why pick on me to have a go at
11:33you bloody jealous or something
11:34sit down David
11:38you've been flying too much
11:46oh is it Sheila
11:49yeah
11:52last time I was home she had this fella there
11:56same one
11:56I suppose so
11:59you living with her
12:00no not Sheila
12:02how do I know
12:04well I wouldn't blame her you never did try very hard did you
12:06I tried I tried harder than you know mate in there I tried
12:10well now you wash your hands of her and two kids
12:12look don't push it Frank I love my kids
12:14well whatever you might think about me I love those kids all right
12:17oh you kids
12:19all right all right Peggy
12:23I try to keep in touch with her
12:25like hell you did you sent me
12:27I'll never forget standing there offering her your conscience money
12:30well I knew she wouldn't take it from me but I had to offer it didn't I
12:33no
12:33because at the time she's got self-respect
12:35and I have
12:37well you may be my mate day but you can't be a first-class lass
12:40you wouldn't understand in a million years Frank but I love Peg
12:43I didn't want to hurt Sheila any more than I hurt her
12:46I'm not proud of meself you know mate
12:49we can't all be bloody angels
12:52look I'll tell you something
12:56some nights on and off
12:59I hear the flack over the engine noise
13:02and I think go on Jerry go on stick one on us blow me to bits solve me bloody problems
13:07you what
13:08I'm that chuck that I could do meself in
13:10and your crew
13:11did you bloody Jonah
13:12a fine crew mate you are thinking that 8,000 feet over Germany
13:16have you got a couple of scotch behind there but
13:33I've got to keep the old fuel caps for the road checks
13:38yes I could uh
13:44I could navigate a lot better with a couple of crates of scotch on board
13:48here I'll get that done
13:54Did you ever see her?
14:21I mean, you know, how's the baby?
14:23Her baby, as you call her, is a pretty little girl of two.
14:26Yeah.
14:27Yeah.
14:28I'd love to see her.
14:29You had plenty of time to.
14:30Oh, I couldn't very well.
14:31No.
14:32Why, do you think you should?
14:36Drop it, mate.
14:41That old man was a stationmaster at Trenchman, wasn't he?
14:44Are they still there?
14:45No, what's this all in the name of?
14:47I'm afraid to see me own kid, am I?
14:49Oh, David, you're daft.
14:50Yeah.
14:51No, no, no.
14:52Like you said, I've got a kitty there.
14:54You can't go back after all this time.
14:56All right?
14:57We're not going now.
14:59Here, Dave!
15:00We'll meet again.
15:02If I don't come round for a bit, Mum, I don't want you to think that he's got on you.
15:09You must come again soon, love.
15:11He is still sending in the money, isn't he?
15:14Oh, yes.
15:15Oh, yes.
15:16Yes, of course he is.
15:17You just hang on.
15:19He'll come back.
15:20You'll see.
15:30Come in.
15:31Come into the parlour, mister.
15:32Bought her.
15:33Bought her.
15:40Peggy's down at the church hall.
15:42They're getting ready for the bazaar.
15:43Oh, well, I'll go down there, then.
15:44Oh, no, she won't be long.
15:45I'm off to a home guard parade.
15:47Well, look, perhaps I should, you know, go down and meet her.
15:51Oh, you might miss her.
15:52If you're in a hurry, can I take a message?
15:55No, she's, uh...
15:56She borrowed a book from a friend of mine, one of the wafts on the station.
15:59I said I'd call and pick it up.
16:01If you could tell me what it's called.
16:03Yes, well, she didn't say, uh...
16:05Just tell her the book that she borrowed and she'll understand.
16:08Oh, well, I can't help much then, can I?
16:10Peggy's been looking after me.
16:13The wife's away.
16:15Her sister in Norwich got bombed out.
16:18Oh, I'm sorry.
16:20I see the Russians are advancing.
16:23Yes, sir, the Japs.
16:25Makes you wonder when it's gonna be our turn, doesn't it?
16:28Yes, yes, it does.
16:30Hello, Junie.
16:32I suppose you want a drink of water.
16:34Excuse me, sir.
16:36Come on.
16:45Dad?
16:46Dad?
16:47Dad?
16:48Hello, Peggy.
16:50Well, I was just...
16:51Just passing through, you know, I...
16:53Hey, you're looking great.
16:54Is everything all right?
16:55Yes.
16:56You, er...
16:57You, er...
16:58You see I've gone up in the world, then, eh?
16:59You're surprised to see me.
17:00What do you want?
17:01I just wanted to see you.
17:02Why?
17:03I just wanted to see you.
17:04Why?
17:05I just wanted to see you.
17:06I just wanted...
17:07I...
17:08I...
17:09I...
17:10Hey, I saw Junie just now.
17:11Junie?
17:12Yes, lovely kid.
17:13Lovely, eh?
17:14Look, I told your dad that I came to pick up a book that you borrowed from a friend of mine,
17:20one of the WAFs.
17:21Please go away, David.
17:22This is David Ashton, Dad.
17:23I thought it was.
17:24I've been hoping to meet you one day, Miss Ashton.
17:26Hoping and not hoping.
17:27He's not hoping.
17:28Yeah, I just wanted to see you.
17:29I just wanted to see you.
17:30Why?
17:31I just wanted...
17:32I...
17:33I...
17:34I...
17:35I saw Junie just now.
17:36Junie?
17:37Yes, lovely kid.
17:38Lovely, eh?
17:39Look, I told your dad that I came to pick up a book that you borrowed from a friend of mine,
17:41one of the WAFs.
17:42Please go away, David.
17:44This is David Ashton, Dad.
17:46I thought it was.
17:49I've been hoping to meet you one day, Mr Ashton.
17:50Hoping and not hoping.
17:52Mixed feelings about it, you know.
17:53It's all right, Ted.
17:54You've caused a lot of misery in this house, Miss Rushton.
17:57What do you want with us now?
17:59I wanted to see Peggy.
18:00Why?
18:01To make her miserable again.
18:03Well, there is the kiddie, Mr Drake.
18:05She's nothing to do with you.
18:06If you want what's best for her, you just keep away from our Junie.
18:09She is my Junie too, Mr Drake.
18:11You think you can stroll in here two years later and talk about your Junie?
18:15She's nothing to do with you.
18:17Look, I wanted to pay my share.
18:18It was all I could do at the time.
18:19Don't insult me, please.
18:21I know shouting won't do any good, but don't provoke me.
18:26You'd better go.
18:27I want to speak to Peggy.
18:28I respect your uniform, Mr Ashton, but I want you to leave.
18:30Peg.
18:31I won't have her upset anymore.
18:32Look, it's your future at stake.
18:33Her future?
18:34Her future?
18:35When did you start caring about her future?
18:38I'm getting married.
18:40In four weeks' time.
18:41Now will you go?
18:42I must go, you know.
18:55Not likely.
18:56I must.
18:57No chance.
18:58Anyway, your visitor isn't expected till tomorrow.
19:02Yes, but tonight of all nights.
19:03That's just the point.
19:04What is...
19:05Tonight of all nights.
19:06You won't believe I've burned my bridges, will you?
19:07Well, I suppose I don't have to be back till the afternoon.
19:13You won't believe I've burned my bridges, will you?
19:20Well, I suppose I don't have to be back till the afternoon.
19:43Welcome home to Liverpool, John.
20:13I'm as happy as you are about John, but I don't see why you have to get out your crown
20:17derby.
20:18He won't care what he drinks from.
20:20That's for Mrs Porter's benefit.
20:22Oh, you're as bad as the rest of them you are.
20:26What time do the Porters get here?
20:28Oh, about ten in the morning.
20:30We won't wait lunch for Edwin and John.
20:33Enough is enough.
20:36I'd better sit down.
20:38I didn't at it all day.
20:40Well, you didn't have to scrub the whole house out, you know.
20:42You volunteered to scrub hospital wards, haven't you?
20:45That's different.
20:47House seems empty enough without you going.
20:50Will be when you get John here.
20:53Why don't you go up to bed?
20:55No, I just wait up for Margaret.
20:58She might have come home this one evening.
21:01She doesn't miss that bus.
21:05That'll be her now.
21:07You'll be a nice soft bed, sir.
21:09John!
21:10Well, I went to the barracks.
21:11I only went to inquire.
21:12But they gave John his pass a day early.
21:13So here we are.
21:14John!
21:15Oh, my dear.
21:16I can't believe I got one of you back.
21:17Come on, love.
21:18Come in and sit down.
21:19Come on.
21:20Welcome home, John.
21:21Come and sit down.
21:22Why didn't you telephone?
21:23I tried from the station.
21:24Half the lines were out of order and they were queuing for the rest.
21:25Come on, love.
21:26Come in.
21:27Come and sit down, John.
21:28Come on.
21:29Welcome home, John.
21:30Come and sit down.
21:31Why didn't you telephone?
21:32I tried from the station.
21:33Half the lines were out of order and they were queuing for the rest.
21:36Come on, love.
21:37Come in.
21:38Come and sit down, John.
21:39I'm sure they looked after you, but it's not quite like home, is it?
21:42If only Margaret had known.
21:44She'd be so upset.
21:46She's gone to see a friend.
21:49They didn't expect us till tomorrow afternoon.
21:52That's all right.
21:54Hope she gets that bus, but you never know where you are with buses these days.
21:59She has been known to miss it, hasn't she?
22:01Frida, you'd better get started on the sandwiches, love.
22:04Will sandwiches do for you?
22:06We can fry you some sausages.
22:08Yes, sandwiches.
22:10That'll be fine.
22:11I told John his mother and father would be here in the morning.
22:14They're living in Chorley now.
22:15Your father works in the ordnance factory.
22:17I told him all the news.
22:20Oh.
22:21You're worn out, love, aren't you?
22:24You have something to eat, eh?
22:26Go upstairs to bed.
22:27No, no.
22:28I'm all right.
22:30I'm sorry about Robert.
22:33Oh.
22:34Yes.
22:35But Philip's fine.
22:36He's in Africa in the Eighth Army.
22:39But I expect Edwin's told you all that.
22:41Where's the baby?
22:42He's been asleep since six o'clock, bless him.
22:45I want to see him now.
22:47Yes.
22:48Yes, of course.
22:49Yes, of course.
23:19I can manage when I get his ration book.
23:33Condensed milk's on points now.
23:35I'll wash the lettuce.
23:37Thank heaven the greengrocer's a friend.
23:40She's a bitch.
23:41That's enough.
23:43I've always stuck up for her before, but just now?
23:45I mean, how can she?
23:46Oh, please God, she'll make a fresh start now.
23:48Yeah, it looks like it, doesn't it?
23:49She never knew...
23:50Not, Mum.
23:51It's common decency.
23:52Sleeping in another man's bed tonight of all nights.
23:54I don't want you to talk like that.
23:56You don't want to face facts, you mean.
23:58Maybe I don't want to face facts.
24:00Maybe I've faced enough facts.
24:01Maybe I don't ever want to face facts ever again, ever!
24:04I'm sorry.
24:05He won't wake the baby.
24:06He's really quiet.
24:07Jean?
24:08I'm afraid that's a sick boy up there.
24:09But we know he's got eyes!
24:10I only hope Margaret has.
24:11You've no right to come back.
24:12I'm sorry.
24:13I'm sorry.
24:14He won't wake the baby.
24:15He's really quiet.
24:16Jean?
24:17I'm afraid that's a sick boy up there.
24:18We know he's got eyes!
24:19I only hope Margaret has.
24:20You've no right to come back.
24:24You were told you weren't wanted.
24:25You were told why.
24:26Was I?
24:27Yes, you were.
24:28By you or by your father?
24:29By both of us!
24:30Yes, well, maybe I wanted to be told by you.
24:33Just by you.
24:34I'm due at the post office at nine.
24:36Yeah, well, that's why I came.
24:38Do you know we've got eyes?
24:39I only hope Margaret has.
24:43You've no right to come back.
24:45You were told you were wanted.
24:46You were told why.
24:47Was I?
24:48Yes, you were.
24:49By you or by your father?
24:50I thought we could, you know, talk on the way. I can't leave camp after one.
24:54I'm not leaving here till you've gone, David.
24:57Why? Because people might talk, because people might see us.
25:01Partly, perhaps.
25:03Look, Peck, you didn't give me a chance to say what I came to say last time.
25:07What did you come to say, David, after all this time?
25:11Did you want to marry me?
25:14Yes. Well, well, maybe.
25:18Maybe.
25:20Yes.
25:23Where's your wife, then?
25:25Oh, she's... she's taken up with another fella.
25:30I see.
25:32I suppose you want me to feel sorry for you.
25:34No, no, I deserved it.
25:36You just want somebody to fill the gap, don't you, David?
25:39No.
25:40Well, yes, perhaps.
25:43But it's not a gap just anybody could fill.
25:46Let me tell you something, David.
25:48When I lay in that hospital having a baby...
25:51And no father to help me bring her up.
25:54And everything I ever wanted out of life.
25:57And it wasn't very much.
25:59Just...
26:00Just gone.
26:02I wanted you then.
26:03I know, I know.
26:04Yes, you know.
26:05You're sorry for the things you do.
26:06But it's too late afterwards, David.
26:07It doesn't end in you doing anything.
26:08Oh, doesn't it?
26:09Look, last time I went on leave, I went home to see Sheila because I wanted to do something.
26:26And there was this fellow there.
26:27I'm sorry.
26:28Look, Peg.
26:29Junie belongs to both of us.
26:30Surely you must feel something for me.
26:31The chap I'm going to marry, he's not like you.
26:33I don't go to bed and think about him with a smile on my face.
26:38When I think about him, I...
26:39I feel contented.
26:40You're a luxury to a woman, David.
26:41I can't afford you.
26:42And now, it's time I left for work.
26:43And you're a luxury to a woman, David.
26:46You're a luxury to a woman, David.
26:47I can't afford you.
26:48And now, it's time I left for work.
26:53Judy's bear with the doctor of Ruth, and her darling says,
26:57You're a luxury to a woman, David. I can't afford you.
27:02Now, it's time I left for work.
27:09Mother's crowned Arby, eh? One in the eye for the porters, is it?
27:14Harry's all right. Oh, he's all right.
27:19I should be here any time now. I'm not keeping you, am I?
27:24I did everything yesterday.
27:26I expect I'm a nuisance dropping in of a morning, aren't I?
27:30Always welcome.
27:32I only see faces like coffin lids at business.
27:37If you're expecting the porters any minute, where's Margaret?
27:41She's out.
27:43Like a biscuit? No, thanks.
27:46John's still asleep.
27:48Take a landmine to wake him.
27:51Has Margaret finished with this other fella?
27:53I've got a letter here from Philip. Would you like to hear it?
27:57He's having a real holiday.
27:59Here, listen.
28:01We're in a rest camp near the sea.
28:03We go bathing every morning in the blue Mediterranean.
28:06We're quite near a certain port that's been much in the news.
28:09I expect that's to groggy.
28:12Well, so long as he's not in action.
28:14Many's the time I sit behind my desk and all I can see is Tony's face in the water.
28:20Oh, Gene.
28:24I'm sorry. I am sorry.
28:28It's all right, sir.
28:30I know what you feel.
28:32I've only got one, sir, and...
28:34You know, Gene, I've never said very much to you about young Robert.
28:38But that's only because I can't quite find the words for that sort of thing.
28:43It's all right. I understand.
28:47How is Tony here? Any news of an engagement?
28:50Oh, no, I don't think so. Worse luck.
28:54Anyway, I'm only the father. I'll be the last to hear.
28:57You know, I'd have expected Margaret to be at home today of all days.
29:02I've, er...
29:04I must get off. I've got things to do.
29:06I thought you'd done everything yesterday.
29:08Come on, now. I'll be off with you. I'm busy.
29:11You know, if young John ever finds out about Margaret...
29:15He won't if no-one tells him.
29:17And for a start, you can forget anything ever happened.
29:20What?
29:21I'm a closed book when I want to be. You know that. A closed book.
29:27Must be a brainstorm. 24 hours ago, you weren't even thinking of Peggy.
29:32Yes, that's right.
29:34Two pints as usual, Brett.
29:36Look, you know you're making the same mistake twice. You know that, don't you?
29:39Well, if I was a cold fish like you, Frank, I wouldn't get into these mugs.
29:42Oh, thank you very much, Pilot Officer Ashton, sir.
29:46Thanks, Bert. Thank you.
29:49You know your trouble, don't you?
29:51You always think the word hasn't given you a chance.
29:54You've got ambitions, and you're picking on an ordinary girl like Peggy.
29:58Maybe I feel more comfortable with somebody like Peg.
30:01Yeah, or Sheila.
30:03If you want to get to the top, well, try the fancy dames.
30:06But you always come back to a simple, forgiving mothering girl who suffer for you,
30:10like Peggy and Sheila.
30:11Thank you, Professor Freud.
30:13You never did take my advice.
30:15I waste my breath.
30:17Leave her alone.
30:20For her sake.
30:23Hello, Mrs Porter.
30:25Good morning, Mrs Ashton.
30:26Oh, come in.
30:30Where's Harry?
30:31Oh, he was kept.
30:32Kept today?
30:33Yes, he's not very well.
30:35Must have been serious to have kept him from seeing John.
30:38Oh, well, some days he's worse than others.
30:40He's been up and down for a long time now.
30:42But, of course, you know that, don't you?
30:44Yes, well, come in and I'll call him.
30:48Call who?
30:50John.
30:51He's still asleep.
30:55He's here?
30:56Yes.
30:57Edwin brought him home early.
30:59He came last night.
31:00My son came home last night and I wasn't told.
31:04We didn't know ourselves until he came.
31:06And I couldn't be informed.
31:07Not that time of night.
31:09John!
31:10John, love, John!
31:12Your mother's here!
31:15Well, I can't get over it.
31:16I just can't get over it.
31:18I come in here as calm as you'd like.
31:20I'm told that my son's been here since yesterday.
31:22You can hear him moving around.
31:23He'll be done soon.
31:24I don't understand some people like they've got no consideration for others' feelings.
31:27It wasn't deliberate.
31:28Oh, no, of course.
31:29Not very kind if you'd let me come at all.
31:31I'm sure.
31:32After I'm only his mother, aren't I?
31:33I...
31:40Oh, John, oh, my darling boy.
31:42Hello, Mother.
31:45Hey, John.
31:46Will he be warm enough?
31:47Oh, yes.
31:48Here.
31:49Here, you give him to me.
31:50Come on, love.
31:51We stay with Auntie Jean.
31:53There we are.
31:54Hey, why don't you two go in there, eh?
31:57All right.
31:58I'll be back in a minute.
31:59All right.
32:04I must kiss you.
32:06You must...
32:07You must let me kiss.
32:12Oh.
32:14Thank God.
32:15Oh.
32:16Oh, thank the dear good Lord.
32:19My body's come back to me.
32:21His feet felt cold.
32:23Well, I'll look after you now, love.
32:25I'll...
32:26I'll fatten you up.
32:28What do you need?
32:29Some others care.
32:30Maybe I should have put his socks on, do you think?
32:32Come and sit down.
32:33Come on.
32:34Sit down with me, love.
32:35That's right.
32:36Just sit here quietly.
32:38Now, I won't be silly or anything.
32:40Well, I...
32:41He socks.
32:42I think I'll go up for him.
32:43I think I'll go up for him.
32:45I said I'd see you tonight.
33:12yeah well as I was around this way I thought you know perhaps we could meet
33:16and have some lunch together. well I'm going with the girls they're waiting for me.
33:20well can't you tell them that we're we want to have a chat? no you will be there tonight.
33:28you're embarrassing me. but you will be there. I said I would didn't I? you promised.
33:34well you just have to hope I'm better at keeping my promises than you are then.
33:42there must be something very important to keep her from seeing John.
33:52she was caught napping like the rest of us. she went to see a friend.
33:58does she usually stay out all night?
34:00I expect she missed her bus. she does sometimes stay with this Mrs. this friend.
34:06yes well I suppose she'll return in due course. any time I expect.
34:13yes I see. she must go out occasionally. she was always one for going out wasn't she?
34:20don't be hard on her. that air raid when she injured her back I think it upset her in mind as well as body.
34:28you can't tell me anything about suffering in mind or body. nobody knows what I've been through. nobody.
34:35I know. never mind.
34:38I've got my John back now haven't I? yes.
34:42I shall look after him now you know. I've done a terrible thing.
34:50well Harry was in the garden when your telegram came and I didn't tell him.
34:57why?
34:58he could have come with me I didn't tell him.
35:01I didn't tell him you see.
35:03why?
35:04why didn't you tell him?
35:06well I said I think I'll just go over and see our baby.
35:10well I mean if he only said he'd come with me I...
35:13he'll never forgive me you know never.
35:17oh you've not seen that side of him have you?
35:20he stars things up you know up here.
35:23oh for years sometimes.
35:24remember this he'll say.
35:26remember that.
35:27things that happened years ago and then he'll give me a look as if...
35:32as if I'd broken a promise or something.
35:36why didn't you tell him?
35:40I don't know I just didn't.
35:42well he didn't tell me when he got that telegram saying John was missing.
35:46not for days he didn't.
35:47he was only trying to protect you.
35:53what am I going to do?
35:55why don't you ring him up now?
35:56oh no I...
35:57well I can't.
35:58he's at the ordinance factory.
36:00oh if you ask me that's half the trouble with him these days working at that factory.
36:04his skin you know it's gone all sort of yellow and oh it's the shifts.
36:11the funny hours you know.
36:13ring him at home tonight.
36:14tell him I didn't send the telegram until after he'd gone to work.
36:18I envy you.
36:21you know that don't you?
36:23you're a much stronger woman than me.
36:26you can cope with all this so much better than I can.
36:31Johnny?
36:32hey.
36:33hey look at me Johnny.
36:34I'm back now.
36:35I got...
36:36don't cry.
36:37I got your bees.
36:38here.
36:39Johnny?
36:40hey look at me Johnny.
36:41I'm back now.
36:42I got...
36:43don't cry.
36:44I got your bees.
36:45here.
36:46Johnny.
36:47Johnny?
36:48John?
36:49I'm back now.
36:50I'm back now.
36:51I'm back now.
36:52I got...
36:53don't cry.
36:54I got your bees.
36:55here.
36:56Johnny?
36:57Johnny?
37:06John?
37:17John, I...
37:18you got here before me then?
37:30yes.
37:47what did he say to you?
37:49nothing much.
37:52he'd soon be himself again.
37:55I hope so.
37:57as I understand it people in his state need security and love.
38:03yes we've been into all that.
38:08surely it's different now.
38:10he's here.
38:12Michael and I love each other.
38:14you can't sacrifice two lives for the sake of one.
38:17he went out to fight.
38:19not much of a reward for him is it?
38:21I don't like it believe me and neither does Michael.
38:23but life is cruel mum.
38:25sometimes I think it's more cruel than war.
38:28you won't reconsider it.
38:30I gave Michael my promise.
38:32you made a promise.
38:34in church.
38:36I can't give Michael up.
38:39what about the baby?
38:41what about the baby?
38:42what's to become of him?
38:44a child stays with its mother.
38:46I don't think you should count on that too much.
38:48not under the circumstances.
38:50but...
38:52he wouldn't.
38:53I mean surely...
38:54I just want you to face facts.
38:56that's all.
38:58the telegram came too late you see.
39:10but I'll ring him tonight.
39:12I'm sure he'll come.
39:13yeah.
39:14why he had to leave a nice clean office job and go and work in a place like that.
39:18I don't know.
39:19you should see the state he comes in.
39:21I think I'll take him for a walk in his pusher.
39:23eh?
39:24come on.
39:25come on.
39:26there you go.
39:27oh hush now.
39:28hush hush.
39:29hush.
39:30look forward.
39:33oh.
39:34should we go with teddy?
39:36should we go with teddy?
39:38there you go.
39:39here's teddy.
39:40whoops.
39:41there you go.
39:42aren't you going to wonder every time you go out.
39:48if someone might meet him.
39:50if something might be said.
39:57we'll take it to the pond.
39:59out to the greaton.
40:01look.
40:02help you rest.
40:03I'll take him out.
40:05no no no.
40:06it's all right.
40:12well, margaret, we've got him back again at last.
40:16yes.
40:17oh, have you missed him as much as I have?
40:20never mind.
40:21I never doubted, did I?
40:22never once.
40:23did I ever doubt?
40:24no.
40:25no, you didn't.
40:26no, I never doubted, never.
40:27now I've got my reward, haven't I?
40:28haven't I?
40:29I've got my reward.
40:30yes.
40:31yes, you've got your reward.
40:40excuse me, ladies.
40:41thank you very much.
40:43here are Dave.
40:44there are you.
40:45excuse me.
40:48you see Peg then?
40:50yeah, I saw her.
40:51well?
40:53what?
40:54no dice.
40:55what do you mean no dice?
40:57she's coming here tonight.
40:59yeah.
41:00yeah, why not?
41:01well, I don't know.
41:02I was just thinking of the night you told her you were married.
41:04that was in here too, wasn't it?
41:05it was her idea, frank, not mine.
41:07oh, yes, I believe you.
41:11hello, peg.
41:14yeah, you remember frank, don't you?
41:16yeah, of course she does.
41:17of course I do.
41:18now sit down.
41:19it's a long time since I was here last.
41:21good to be back then, eh?
41:22in a way.
41:23things do turn out for the best in the long run.
41:26yeah, sure they do.
41:27sure.
41:28sure.
41:36I know you're dying to ask.
41:38it's from the matron.
41:40I've been accepted.
41:41I have to report Monday week.
41:43so that's that.
41:44you've been like a cat on hot bricks waiting for it.
41:47could I?
41:48sister Florence Nightingale.
41:50hmm, nurse dog's body you mean.
41:53a trainee is the lowest form of life.
41:55I'm not kidding yourself.
41:56test of character.
41:58I suppose you do have to live in.
42:01you know that.
42:02I just wondered if they ever made an exception, you know, in special circumstances.
42:05well, they don't.
42:06I actually live at the nurse's home.
42:08anyway, what special circumstances apply to me?
42:10because it's not the best time for you to go away, that's all.
42:14well, I meant to go further.
42:16further?
42:17miles away.
42:19I started to think about it just after Christmas and then...
42:23when we heard about Robert.
42:25I see.
42:27well, it's not that I wanted to go away from you all, you know that.
42:31it's...
42:32I just wanted something different, something new.
42:35you sure you're not running away from something?
42:37from what?
42:38from being shut up in this house with your mother and me?
42:41when Margaret's gone, perhaps?
42:43dad.
42:44well, I know things aren't as they were.
42:47we've been...
42:48all of us under a strain.
42:50it...
42:51can't be much fun for you.
42:53it's not that, dad. honestly.
42:55honestly?
42:56honestly!
42:58anyway,
42:59I'll be back here every other day.
43:01you'll see.
43:08Freda.
43:09Freda,
43:11could you come in for a minute?
43:14what the smell of moth balls.
43:16you want to hang that in the garden?
43:18here...
43:19you know.
43:20mrs. porter was on at me today.
43:23you wait till she really starts.
43:26well, she was hinting.
43:27really starts well she was hinting oh about what i don't know don't know whether it was her usual
43:33bitching or whether she'd heard something well she might have what living out at chorley all right
43:40then she probably hasn't when are you seeing michael again tomorrow how's he taking all this
43:48as well as can be expected you sound irritated irritated by me the way i'm behaving well
43:57it's seeing john again i suppose i mean knowing something that he doesn't all of us knowing and
44:01him not suspecting a thing it's not very honest is it you think i like it no you think there's a
44:08simple easy way no but i'm sure some people do you don't like michael very much i don't like answering
44:17questions like that i never really know about people anyway there have been too many people i
44:23thought were nice who turned out to be awful and too many i thought were awful who turned out to be
44:27quite nice oh i've heard from the hospital by the way it's all right oh
44:38i suppose that after you've gone back to michael that's after you've told john he'll go back to
44:45living with them at chorley i suppose sir and with me gone that'll leave mum and dad on their own
44:54mum and dad and robert that is an awful thing to say
45:01yes it's true though
45:15david brought me home dad oh junie all right a bit fretful she's asleep now though well you go on up
45:23i'll be up soon well it's all right go on have a look at junie for me will you yeah yes all right then
45:31good night mr drake she looks more like you than me yes that's just as well perhaps isn't it
45:54what do you mean you think you're winning me round don't you david you're trying very hard i want you
46:05it means a lot to me to hear you say that it was all i ever wanted to hear
46:11well things do sometimes turn out for the best you know as you said yes i believe that now
46:18oh peg no don't touch me david please
46:27well don't you feel anything for me no i don't
46:31well we've had a good time tonight haven't we i mean you saw us yes i saw you and because i've
46:38seen you i can marry tom without cheating him without having somebody else on my mind
46:43but the answer's no david i wanted you once very much so if you really think you need me
46:54and i'm sorry because i know how it feels don't i
46:58hi
47:19did you speak to harry to your father yeah yeah he's coming tomorrow
47:23how do you feel all right sort of
47:32that's a bit like the baby i suppose the fire's warm and the light's bright
47:39talk is just the noise that goes on around you you know not really i wish i did
47:45i said i'll be all right after a time they said i'd be all right with me old self you know
47:55yes well you mustn't worry about that just now sorry
48:02has it been is he asleep what oh yes yes he's fast asleep
48:09you miss people being kind but they were kind to me in the hospital but
48:21when people are kind uh makes you feel as if you want to cry i don't know sorry i'm such a mess
48:30you look tired don't you think yes yeah um oh let's go up
48:41they gave me these um these tablets to to sleep you'd better look after them in case the boot
48:49oh no it's all right i took him an hour ago i should have gone up earlier my legs are shaky
48:57come on i'll help you upstairs it's a stupid thing to do sorry don't keep saying you're sorry sorry
49:09come on i'll take you up
49:27oh i'm sorry i'm late why didn't you ring me i'm not that late am i i meant last night
49:33but didn't frida ring oh yeah frida rang it wasn't really i wanted to speak to i was expecting you
49:37here i'm sorry it was difficult but i but i'm here now i'm here
49:43hey do you mind if i take my coat off
49:55i can't put the cat on
49:57i've never seen the river looking so gray at this time of the year
50:00there was a troop ship waiting to leave prince's landing and they were all up on deck
50:04having a last look i suppose waving at just anybody
50:07it's funny but since the bombing stopped you sometimes forget that out there it's still going
50:12on for people like them but not people like me
50:18i said but not people like me
50:20you haven't told him have you he's ill
50:31i expected to say it personally i remembered but he's ill it's his mind
50:39i don't seem to be able to reach him to tell him even if
50:42even if you wanted to
50:47all he needs is a little time we can afford to give him that much can't we just a little time
51:12so
51:17so
51:19so
51:21so
51:25so