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00:00:00Previously on Love After Lockup.
00:00:03Me and Demadric got together when I was in high school.
00:00:08What's up, mama? Give me a hug. You doing all right?
00:00:10Yeah.
00:00:11Joela is still in love with Demadric.
00:00:13Do me and her got anything going on?
00:00:14I don't know. You tell me.
00:00:15Demadric's cheated on me with her twice.
00:00:17Today, I'm going to make a promise to be with you forever.
00:00:19This is more of a promise that we will get married.
00:00:22I got engaged to Kiana.
00:00:24Who wants to play with who feelings?
00:00:26I have some messages in Demadric's phone.
00:00:29He's been entertaining his baby mama.
00:00:31Get your get the hurry up.
00:00:34What's up, beautiful?
00:00:36Who the are you talking to all morning?
00:00:38You talking to your ex from Block and Alex on his Facebook.
00:00:40Can I come see you tomorrow?
00:00:41Okay.
00:00:42Let me check this for his location.
00:00:43He's in Mark. Alex lives in Mark, bro.
00:00:46Hey.
00:00:47I'm not doing the anymore. I got to go.
00:00:50You and Brian, he's going to live with you?
00:00:53Yes. I'm going to have children with him and everything.
00:00:55I'm so excited.
00:00:57So I just wanted to give y'all some ground rules.
00:01:00He needs to be back here by 3 o'clock.
00:01:02Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
00:01:03I'm about to take me to a strip club.
00:01:05I just told you I'm on my way home.
00:01:08I can't believe we're about to be out.
00:01:10I can't wait to see you and just hug you.
00:01:12Hi, babe.
00:01:13We're not in a relationship?
00:01:14No.
00:01:15He's lying about everything.
00:01:17It ain't nobody else.
00:01:18It's just me.
00:01:19Yeah, it is somebody else.
00:01:20And that's the end of it.
00:01:22I'm putting a little air tag on my car.
00:01:25I can see for myself where he going.
00:01:27No, my God.
00:01:28You're pregnant.
00:01:29I'm scared.
00:01:30Where is he at?
00:01:31He had vengeance.
00:01:32We got to go to vengeance.
00:01:33Who are these girls?
00:01:34Why you ain't answer the phone?
00:01:35Why are y'all letting me leave in my house?
00:01:37It's a wrap.
00:01:38Hey, babe.
00:01:40I thought we were, like, gonna consummate things, but I wasn't feeling it.
00:01:44All right.
00:01:45Call me when you're done.
00:01:46I'm not used to having someone watching everything that I do.
00:01:49What do you need all your contacts for?
00:01:51Maybe we can grab something and eat together.
00:01:53Whatever.
00:01:54We should go our separate ways.
00:01:55Like, you didn't even want a better life.
00:01:57No.
00:01:58I don't want to talk to you right now.
00:01:59Okay.
00:02:00Hi!
00:02:01Courtney and I have been dating for about six months now.
00:02:03We've spent no physical time together.
00:02:05I do.
00:02:06I'd never thought that I'd be dropping my bride off at a halfway house.
00:02:10on my wedding night.
00:02:11Hey, baby.
00:02:12How you doing?
00:02:13It's just temporary.
00:02:14Temporary.
00:02:15We were acting kind of funny last night.
00:02:16It started making me ask questions.
00:02:18Maybe she's using drugs.
00:02:19We just got married and you don't trust me?
00:02:21I don't understand why we're at a sandwich shop for our first date.
00:02:23Are you broke?
00:02:24I just damn there shelled out, like, ten grand on you getting out.
00:02:27Wow.
00:02:28Oh, lord.
00:02:29Oh, lord.
00:02:30Oh, lord.
00:02:31Here we go.
00:02:32Tell them to give me the crime.
00:02:33Give me the crime.
00:02:34Yeah, I want it.
00:02:35Party.
00:02:36You're ungrateful as hell right now.
00:02:37You had sugar daddies that are giving you money all the time.
00:02:38That's not...
00:02:39And I know for a fact that you didn't get rid of them.
00:02:40Okay, okay.
00:02:41Maybe if you provided for me a little bit more, I wouldn't have to go to them.
00:02:42Take the bus.
00:02:43No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
00:02:56.
00:02:58you.
00:02:59I didn't ask him for a single dollar when I was in prison.
00:03:04Because he knew I had people taking care of me.
00:03:09And he was totally cool with that and now all of the sudden he's not and he's throwing
00:03:12and he's throwing it in my face what kind of is that like this is the day after our wedding
00:03:18that's crazy i can be a single woman all day
00:03:23i had people who took care of me and provided for me in prison if you want to take that and
00:03:32called a sugar daddy then that's on you i accumulated 25 000 roughly from the people who
00:03:43took care of me but i was in for 15 months and i spent anywhere from 15 to 1700 a month for commissary
00:03:52hair products and snacks and food i only saved a 1400 why does it even matter like
00:04:02you're not giving it to me so what do you want me to do
00:04:07i thought i knew her but i didn't expect her to be this spoiled she never really talked about money
00:04:12like that we've been arguing all day i'm pretty bummed out good thing about diamonds is the resale
00:04:18value stays high
00:04:32so
00:04:42barbie stop stop stop stop stop stop let me drive you home what is there to talk about will
00:04:49you don't trust me you obviously think i'm not worthy
00:04:56why are you demanding my money my wallet let me see your bank you're a broke boy what do you think that
00:05:00does to me i just don't know what to expect from me when i get in the car we're not talking fine
00:05:06your sandwiches are ready uh could we get those to go to go yes okay thank you so much
00:05:10this is not what i signed up for this is not how i want to spend the rest of our lives
00:05:20i think rushing into marriage may have been a mistake for better or for worse i guess right
00:05:39last night was just draining i actually don't know where julius is right now i have no clue so he
00:05:50he didn't come home last night
00:06:00your life is definitely overreacting
00:06:02like i wasn't doing nothing with them girls so like and she ain't have no reason to be tripping
00:06:10i know girls are going to be involved he has to have girls in his videos and stuff i don't know
00:06:16it's gonna be hard to get used to being able to separate if it's work or you know something more than
00:06:22that if i would have did that to julius pulling up in his car with guys coming out not answering his
00:06:29call all day he would never let nothing like that fly i just feel like that he just don't respect me
00:06:36but it's just time for me to be standing up for myself and especially now that i'm pregnant
00:06:41if you can't accept my boundaries then it's just not gonna work
00:06:50damn it smell good in here
00:06:54what's up babe
00:06:55where you been at was at drew house why you ain't text or called me last night where the food at
00:07:09i didn't know if he was coming or not you ain't come home
00:07:11you know when i come home you didn't come home last night
00:07:22good i was just chilling so you can't tell me you're chilling and then drew house
00:07:29that was my bad but it wasn't nothing though you gotta realize that this the career that i'm taking so like
00:07:40is gonna be females at the studio sometime well why you can't communicate and tell me that they
00:07:46there you making it a secret i shouldn't have to pop up and see him
00:07:51i apologize for not communicating with you
00:07:56i got bigger stuff i need to talk to you about play like what i'm sure
00:08:10so what does this mean say i'm pregnant
00:08:23you're pregnant yeah i'm pregnant we pregnant
00:08:33damn
00:08:36i don't know that's
00:08:39that's crazy i thought he was gonna be kind of more just like happy but nervous like i expect him to be
00:08:47nervous that's a lot for anybody but it's not like he didn't know it was a possibility we don't use
00:08:52protection so it's like you knew that could happen
00:08:57hey are you sure though yeah he don't too though you know sometimes they don't be right though it's
00:09:03right i'm pregnant i missed my period i've been nauseous and sick my boobs hurt
00:09:10i'm pregnant
00:09:14yeah that's a lot man that's crazy i don't know what to say
00:09:21it is what it is i guess
00:09:22it is what you mean you guess i mean that's what it is
00:09:30we got a lot going on right now we gonna be able to handle that yeah what you mean
00:09:36what other option we got
00:09:37it's here now so what the is we gonna do
00:09:50oh who are you saying what the
00:09:51makes you see like i'm saying i don't say
00:09:56we've only been serious for a certain amount of time
00:10:00and i just got out of prison not even a whole month
00:10:03i'm not really trying to have no kids right now
00:10:10no i'm over
00:10:20what's a lie and what's the truth you literally left me and ran into someone else's arms
00:10:31i'm on my way out of this house right now i don't give a
00:10:34i don't know who he's with what he's doing daddy gonna have to go to work soon all right what you
00:10:40doing you're done ready all right i'll see you in a second you don't have to use over this
00:10:46how do you feel like i may have made a mistake
00:10:58these hundred dollar shirts you don't give a what they are do you know how much money i put in your
00:11:02books and this is what i get cheated on the
00:11:14i went through the modric's phone and i found out he was cheating with joyla why did you cheat on me
00:11:20with her
00:11:24because when i was gone i gave you all my trust
00:11:28i made decisions off of what you did and you opened that door first you you started this platform
00:11:34you were young you don't think that's a little it doesn't matter it doesn't matter
00:11:36i did have a slip up while demodric was in the shoe because i found out that he was texting his baby
00:11:45mama so i saw he was entertaining someone so i started entertaining someone if you want to go fling
00:11:52and have your phone go do that that's not just don't entertain me while you're doing my face
00:11:57but that's what i'm getting what i'm saying is that's what you did demodric is definitely trying
00:12:02to justify his excuse with my wrongdoing but let's be for real if the roles were reversed you would have
00:12:09not been faithful you couldn't have even done it while we were together we can move forward if you
00:12:16want to but that's all on to you how are we gonna move forward when you keep reaching back
00:12:19you don't have that situation taken care of so how can you start a situation with me okay we separated
00:12:31cool
00:12:33matter of fact hold on you want your ring back no i want my grab my ring back if you don't want it
00:12:40matter of fact i'm gonna kill your wine first
00:12:42hey damn you couldn't hand it to me no you couldn't do right
00:12:55enjoy your evening bye
00:13:01joela is the mother of my kids giving a key under the ring definitely changed the momentum
00:13:06it's a lot more pressure on me a lot more weight so one day i kick it with joela and one thing led to
00:13:14another and that's how it went not proud of it there's definitely some uh regrets there
00:13:20i feel like a fool i feel embarrassed i feel betrayed i feel dumb
00:13:33oh man i'm sad
00:13:39this just isn't how i imagined it to be it's just very hard
00:13:44i just love him is love enough no
00:14:06this bitch is at alex house like i don't care anymore i don't give a
00:14:14alex house like alex house like alex house like alex house like alex house like alex house
00:14:19yes i did start hanging out with troy but we did not have sex while you and i were together
00:14:26and that is the truth at this point like i'm trying to differentiate what's a lie and what's the
00:14:32truth because everything you told me there was lies built into it so like at the end of the day how am
00:14:40i supposed to believe what you're saying now it's crazy that alex still denies everything and that
00:14:47she still can't take accountability for her actions and honestly i just it just makes me lose respect for
00:14:53her i heard the recording of her admitting that dude did y'all like every night or no
00:14:59we only had sex four times i don't like having sex with men who can't go longer than 38 seconds
00:15:06you're woman enough to do you know be woman enough to man up and and admit it
00:15:11like i was finna give you my all i was finna give you the world like a diamond for like scrap
00:15:16metal i don't understand that because as a man i did everything i was supposed to do i gave you a
00:15:20fair chance like i did i gave you like 100 fair chance and i need you to like respect the fact that
00:15:26i'm really trying to make work with brooke because i'm trying to give her that chance now
00:15:32she wasn't there when you were locked up it was like i messed up once
00:15:36and you literally left me and ran into someone else's arms how the hell is that supposed to make
00:15:42me feel how do you think i felt in there obviously good because you left me to go to her
00:15:47jk is allowing brooke to push me out of his life
00:16:02i do not think that brooke deserves to be with jk he just deserves so much better
00:16:08i love batman and i believe jk loves me i think he just kind of covered it up
00:16:22it wasn't supposed to be like this it wasn't i gave you every piece of me you know i'm saying
00:16:26you shattered me bro i feel like you shattered me come here i don't want to you hurt me worse than
00:16:41i've ever been hurt in my life and like
00:16:45i just don't want to cry no more bro i don't want to hurt no more i just want to be happy i'm home
00:16:59i'm with my family you know what i'm saying like i'm trying to figure this out
00:17:03i have nothing in life like i have nothing all i have is my loved ones
00:17:08then go be happy james like if being happy is what you want then let me go because apparently
00:17:17i can't do that for you
00:17:25bro i'm on my way to alligus's house right now i left work early to do this i probably just lost my job
00:17:32over this dumb it sounds like he wants a cake and eat it too
00:17:36like well he had that cake but he ain't eating this one no more i'm done
00:17:44if i'm not trusting you what are we doing bye see you later are you gonna leave me with a card
00:17:51what is your plan i love you i'm not about to be no delivery boy so i didn't support you in prison
00:17:58that's why you're in my presence i'm so over this
00:18:06i don't want to hear what he's got to say because whatever he's got to say is bull
00:18:24you've done enough of this all year do something different
00:18:30i did not go well i didn't never thought it was gonna go well he didn't get mad exactly
00:18:47he got sad he got hurt i broke his heart and i don't know how to deal with that
00:18:54this is a total pattern for me i everything up that's good for me you know i just like i cannot
00:19:03and will not promise him never to go back
00:19:08because there's a promise i've broken so many times to my closest people who i love unconditionally
00:19:13and i do love him and uh yeah i'm not gonna take him down with me
00:19:22i feel like i don't deserve a good happy healthy life because you know it's like the ugly duckling
00:19:29growing up to be you know some kind of princess it doesn't it doesn't make any it doesn't fit the
00:19:35storyline it's not my destiny or whatever i can finish the story but i can't pick up the pen and
00:19:43not i mean write it at all it's already been written hi what do you see you oh my gosh
00:19:53where's jimmy oh uh uh i just broke it off you just just like right before this yeah just right
00:20:00before oh wow um how do you feel like i may have made a mistake but like you because you broke up
00:20:07with him or because yeah because he's kind of like the best thing that's ever kind of happened to me
00:20:12but i don't think he was ever really you know what the attraction is the chemistry i never saw
00:20:18it like i just never saw you guys clicking like that yeah yeah well you were right i think it's
00:20:24for sure i just don't want to be in a relationship right now so it's not just jokes to anyone
00:20:34i think he cared for me but it's like he still wants to go news that's the whole thing
00:20:39i mean i seen his phone ding and it was his buddy calling him spencer so talk to spencer then yeah
00:20:47i don't even i can't even believe this is happening
00:20:53it's the thing you can't take it back it's like guess what that's how you feel
00:20:58there you go i just wasted a year of my life on some somebody
00:21:06i envisioned i mean i envisioned a lot of things
00:21:09i have a whole i had a whole life prepared
00:21:16um
00:21:21that's the thing i i have no clue i'm still in shock i'm like what the just happened what
00:21:27like i don't know if i'm being punked
00:21:34i just think now that i look at it it was the whole thing
00:21:39maybe the whole thing was just a scam
00:21:42maybe that was his plan all along i don't know
00:21:50what are we gonna get together like for real for real
00:21:53i do want to spend more time with you i know i know we've been like tomorrow
00:21:55okay okay all right yeah let me know
00:22:07i don't know who he's with what he's doing daddy gonna have to go to work soon all right
00:22:12all right i'll see you in a second i'm trying to tear down these walls that you have up around your
00:22:15heart so we can build a life together
00:22:18life i just want better for our kids well actually she's toxic for sure
00:22:33we're here come on jump out tripping come on bro it's 236 so you want to go home and deal with
00:22:40that headache oh yes let's go it's my headache bro it's your dog i don't care if you was my cat
00:22:45all right bro i'll get you on
00:22:49acting like a bitch
00:22:56he gotta get there nah i got you bro i got you my bad me and adrian was gonna go to a strip club
00:23:06in the heat of the moment hell yeah it was a good idea lost your holiday hell nah that was some dumb
00:23:11man
00:23:14over you know we didn't go in i know brooklyn's still going to hit so lose lose
00:23:29hello
00:23:30where the are you but i'm like 26 minutes away
00:23:37like that's not making sense bro it's traffic bro i'm gonna get there
00:23:47yeah all right yeah
00:23:52brian has an ankle monitor so if brian is not here on time then guess what he has to go back to the halfway
00:23:58house i'm asking you to be on time the system is asking you to be on time and you're not taking
00:24:04either one of those serious so what are we doing here
00:24:09yo
00:24:10i don't know maybe we driving too fast i don't know
00:24:20what the take it serious this is not a game hang up arm bro
00:24:27i don't understand the nonchalantness of everything that's going on these people can take away your
00:24:36freedom in a snap of a finger
00:24:38hey you just missed the phone let your mom back at the house
00:24:42and then he pulling up in my garage
00:24:48what the
00:24:52why is he in my grass
00:24:55it's 301 and if they would have got to calling your phone then what
00:24:58i just said i'm at home just like i'm at home right now bro you're about to really piss me off
00:25:02he ain't late he ain't late he was late yes he is 301 you're supposed to be here at three
00:25:09get out my grass
00:25:13take my phone you slowed up the process
00:25:15bye see you later
00:25:20and then you just sit here letting him oh we're on time we're on time and you're not saying that
00:25:24you think it's funny bro give me anything else boss bro bye
00:25:33i'm irritating because i'm trying to make sure you get home on time
00:25:38so what y'all was doing i wanted to go get clothes came back here where'd you go after the clothes
00:25:43store well he tried to take me somewhere like where you ain't go in there you didn't go where
00:25:51a little club for what like a strip first of all that don't even make sense you went outside to
00:25:58look at the building i cannot believe that this man pulled up to the strip club with my man with
00:26:07him is he crazy and i knew y'all was up to something because don't know man need three hours at the mall
00:26:17i don't want you with him that's not gonna happen that's my guess your friend just took you to a
00:26:24strip club and then you came in this bitch lying you came in here lying well you wasn't telling the
00:26:30truth you didn't say where you was at when you asked where i was at we were on the highway coming
00:26:33home bro talking about you holding out on the truth that's what's throwing me off how how i asked you
00:26:40where'd you where'd you go you said to get clothes and i came home and now it's i went to the strip club and
00:26:44i sat outside the strip club make that make sense it was one second he ain't we ain't going that
00:26:49bitch i don't care how many seconds it was why you leaving that out and see and i said for all this
00:26:55i should have went in that bitch you probably did and you just holding out maybe i need to ask you
00:27:01ten more times and then you'll answer it's about trust if i'm not trusting you what are we doing
00:27:15i'm feeling pretty bummed out this morning courtney and i had a pretty big blowout yesterday
00:27:20i'm worried she might re-offend and the fact that because of the interstate compact i don't get to
00:27:26take her back with me to sacramento today's my last day and all of that's kind of making me feel pretty
00:27:33insecure my plan is to get to her street and park and then just text her i'm hoping she wants to talk
00:27:45it out hey you look nice thanks i slept horribly last night you didn't return any of my calls
00:28:06i miss you yeah well i didn't really sleep well either we both said some that we shouldn't have
00:28:14said if we really love each other and i apologize i want nothing more than to have you in my life
00:28:20courtney but we can't do that if we don't try i'm just really stressed out i just feel really
00:28:31insecure about our relationship right now but whatever dude let's just go
00:28:40i can't believe will would think that i would jeopardize my freedom by using drugs
00:28:46because it makes me feel like you got any plans today no i had a couple plans what and maybe light
00:28:55some candles run a bath i mean i'm kind of still in the doghouse for how yesterday went this is not
00:29:10the type of stress that i need to be dealing with i haven't even been out for a whole week and like the
00:29:15things that i should be worrying about are my job or getting calls or doing things that are like a
00:29:23necessity that i need you're right and this is my last day here courtney we shouldn't fight like this
00:29:32i just want us to have a good day enjoy each other's company i'm hoping you're willing to do the same
00:29:39i'm not trying to spend the day mad at each other either
00:29:46i want that sweatshirt when you leave it's my favorite sweater but you're my favorite human
00:29:53if i'm going to be married to somebody i want to be able to work through anything
00:29:57i'd like to give this back to you if that's okay okay
00:30:02him and i are still learning each other and learning to trust one another
00:30:06but i mean
00:30:12if anything now he knows you definitely need punished for last night maybe tie me up
00:30:18you are to be judged for your punishments inside he knows my expectations and my worth
00:30:33where are your ropes at since we're building trust
00:30:37why don't we build some trust i've never done it before this might start off as like a wholly
00:30:42unsexual experience we're gonna learn a little bit shibari is about giving over trust to your
00:30:49partner and i think that that's a really cool bonding tool i was never a boy scout so knots
00:30:55not really my thing that's crazy because we just tied the knot
00:30:59i had a moment of weakness where i didn't trust her i'm gonna try to to extend that trust now and in
00:31:06the future i was thinking if you take these ropes and come across you like this the distance is going
00:31:11to be rough this looks like some clothes i would wear i'm telling you you look pretty hot i feel pretty sported
00:31:19but i feel like we made a bond during this trip that i think is going to last for a lifetime
00:31:25i don't need to up you fix some hours what i can't pay my bills and support another human i'll go get
00:31:37some real money right now i'm sure you're in shock i'm terrified i'm going to be alone the rest of my
00:31:44life of course i'm broken you don't have to use them for this
00:32:04i don't want to tell you to merge
00:32:14all right man i'm sorry i'm sorry
00:32:27i'm sorry
00:32:32i was just surprised at first caught me out of war but i'm happy
00:32:39i wouldn't want to have a baby with nobody else
00:32:41i grew up in a single mother household my mom she did it all on her own she didn't have like
00:32:54my dad's help or anything i really didn't really meet my dad so i was like 13. and even then he
00:33:00wasn't really in our house he just would come up here like every other summer that's just crazy
00:33:06it's crazy when he was locked up always talked about having kids he always talks about how he
00:33:16wants to have a son and push his son to go to college so they don't get caught up in like the
00:33:21street life but guys talk about wanting it and then it happens and they're just like
00:33:27i don't know they switch up so i don't know i i hope that he just sticks with what he was saying before
00:33:32and now that i'm pregnant we need to get our together yeah for sure like i think you really
00:33:40need to go ahead and try to get that job and get your license you don't need no job you talking
00:33:44about you pick some hours up what i said what i don't cut that because i already work full time
00:33:52what do you mean i don't need no job if i want to if i want to really go get some money i'll go get
00:33:59some real money right now i'm not about to be no delivery boy that's not me but we need a job
00:34:04i can't pay my bills and support another human i just got you don't have you don't support me at
00:34:10all what do you give me so i didn't support you in prison what do you give me now a roof over your
00:34:14head a car to drive a car to drive okay you talking about but that's what i'm saying you like what you
00:34:23talking about put money on my books exactly more than the next one what are you talking about in the
00:34:39position you're in but make it you're not making sense you're like i don't do you're in my presence
00:34:44right now what are you talking about i'm so over this why are you taking it there no you took it
00:34:54there because at the end of the day you don't support me you don't do nothing for me but i still stick
00:35:00around and with you he just is so arrogant like that's why you're in my presence now like it's a
00:35:06privilege to be in my presence to have a woman that's willing to do all this for you to even give you
00:35:11money hurry and get out mom i'm trying to go on my team how are we doing it it's a privilege to have
00:35:16a woman like me i can't i can't even pay my school payment right now because of while i was having
00:35:21him in jail you got the nerds always like you don't do for me i'm already pregnant and emotional
00:35:27i work two jobs and i go to school and you got the nerds telling me to pick up more steps
00:35:32i don't even know what you say just bunch of are you gonna leave me with a card
00:35:43so i'm gonna spend like more than my earth thousand where the you're at i'm coming from a job search
00:35:50it up we're being a liar you're at alex's house bro
00:36:11i'm mad sad i'm all of the above
00:36:14so what's up i just i'm in shock i don't know what to do well i'm sure i'm sure you're in shock
00:36:35michael's back in prison he was out for i think three weeks
00:36:40the only time he checked in with his parole officer was the day that i took him
00:36:46and then he only stayed at the halfway house that one night and he was gone all the stuff
00:36:52that he said is he doesn't want to leave his mom anymore and he was lonely like me and we
00:36:57talked about the loneliness and i'm like what about all that what does that not mean anything
00:37:05do you know if he's used oh yeah he used i mean he told me he used i did reach out to him one time
00:37:12and i asked him where he was at he said he was at his friend spencer's his response to me was pretty
00:37:18like i was bothering him so i was like okay i didn't have a plan b joey sweetie honey if i could
00:37:28take it take it away i would but i can't i just don't want me to go through all that oh god
00:37:43i know it's gonna be a process but
00:37:45i'm terrified i'm gonna be alone the rest of my life i don't want to be i'm terrified that
00:38:04i'm never gonna find that true love i'm terrified that no one's gonna love me the way i love them
00:38:08you don't have to use over this you don't have to oh i know i don't have to get up over because
00:38:15that was the first thing i thought i was like no way would i use give him that that's the thing i'm
00:38:20in a good headspace other than him good it's a blessing in disguise i think i didn't think it was
00:38:26gonna work anyway he's a con i never trusted him and that's the other thing joey you trust people too
00:38:33easily i know i'm done i'm done crying over him i'm done being sad over good good you need to just
00:38:44do the next best indicated thing
00:38:48and forget about him i've got to make some decisions and where i'm headed with my life without michael and
00:38:54i got to give up on the fairy tale but it's not going to ruin me i'm not going to let it because i
00:39:00have too much to look forward to my family loves me i have a great support system of friends that
00:39:07don't use the sad thing is is you know michael had all that that was all his too you know he had a seat
00:39:15at my table i'm at st anthony's work camp after i broke up with joey they started using that afternoon
00:39:25i did hook up a few times probably like once every other day or sometimes every day i don't know but
00:39:33probably only like 14 different people that's a guess though i don't know but i feel like i wasn't ready
00:39:38really to like give up my old ways or like i wanted a party still and i got in a collision like
00:39:47at a stop sign when the officer finally showed up i violated parole by moving out of my halfway house
00:39:54and missing appointments with my parole officer they blocked me for three years i'm kind of accepted
00:40:01this way of life already i kind of like i'm used to prison i really love joey i still love him and i
00:40:07still care about him i really had a lot of hopes for us joey i'm really sorry for the way things
00:40:15ended i wish you'd still talk to me because i really do love you i do cherish the time we had
00:40:20together and you are very special to me and who knows maybe something could happen in the future
00:40:27but i got to get this out of my system
00:40:28i don't know who he's with what he's doing daddy gonna have to go to work it's going all right
00:40:41all right i'll see you in a second all right i'm coming from a job search love
00:40:44i'm being a liar you're at alex's house bro i got you on a tracker
00:40:58i just want to be able to trust you
00:41:00i want to last forever this time i want to have kids get married all types of stuff with my
00:41:14daughter's father i just kept trying trying trying to a dead situation if it comes to light that
00:41:23me and brian's relationship is dead i will bury it you want to do all that but you bitching
00:41:30complaining me about three o'clock and i was here on time bro i bitching complain about three o'clock
00:41:36because you have to be there on time i had to go through being out here by myself without you
00:41:43and since you've been here i can't see myself without you do you understand that so do you
00:41:50understand why i'm tweaking and i'm going the off because i'm not trying to go through that
00:41:58i appreciate you you feel me i understand that you care but you got to understand like bro my
00:42:05whole life i've been independent bro you see what i'm saying so for you to be all up the crack of my
00:42:10ass that loki be throwing me off because it'd be like i'm not doing i'm just trying to be up the
00:42:15crack of your ass okay i understand you explain it i get that i got you thank you brooklyn i appreciate you
00:42:26thank you i just felt as long as we always stay willing to work with each other
00:42:32and adjust to certain stuff that we do or don't like we'll be fine i started my period
00:42:38of course this is discouraging we've obviously been trying and it has not happened so i don't know
00:42:46bro i'm just tired of getting my hopes up it's gonna happen but you believe it's gonna happen it's
00:42:52gonna happen i believe it's gonna happen you can try a million times like i don't know where i'm happy
00:42:58where i'm at yeah you happy where you at but i know you want kids like i feel like i'm i'm gonna let
00:43:03you down and that's scary in itself what if you know you get to a point where you like i want to
00:43:11go have a baby with somebody who can have a baby what if i can't have a baby then we ain't gonna have no
00:43:18more kids we get there when we get there it's not nothing i wouldn't do for you or show you
00:43:26mm-hmm yeah yeah
00:43:38it's okay
00:43:45i don't like you
00:43:47i don't like
00:43:56good job you know what to do next uh then we have to mix it
00:44:09bestie loves my mom a lot and also me he takes care of both of us our dogs and himself too
00:44:19well we need to get the waffles a bowl no and that no a toaster oh
00:44:30you silly
00:44:32bestie and mommy i think they're just a good girlfriend and boyfriend because they kiss a lot
00:44:40and all that stuff
00:44:41it's breakfast time mommy oh y'all are so sweet
00:44:52it might sound crazy but if anything prison it made me more positive don't make me a nice little
00:44:59drink like a lot of people in prison anything gets over with or people telling me not gonna get out
00:45:05of there or whatever the circumstances may be and y'all couldn't let myself fall victim to that
00:45:11oh thank you i made it to try to go spread something positive to somebody else
00:45:22and i gotta just keep her sane that's my job and my objective is keep brooklyn sane
00:45:28this is so nice i make all of it and you made all of it and what bestie helped me with or without a
00:45:35baby me and brian are gonna be good like putting us together it's like beyonce and jay-z power couple
00:45:42you feel me we got the whole family in here hi gg hi g we have so much stuff to do because of like
00:45:53the lost time that we have had you might get your own i want a crazy wedding and at least two kids
00:46:04in the house that we plan to buy together more for me it's gonna be lit
00:46:10oh look look look look she took it
00:46:17kissing you for the first time send me weak at the knees
00:46:26i miss you harder i miss my best friend feels like i'm losing the will
00:46:33maybe i'm crazy for chasing memories we had crazy for science when i'm feeling sad
00:46:43crazy for loving you crazy for loving you so bad
00:46:50hey baby where the you're at i'm on the highway i'm coming from a job search love
00:46:57we're being a liar you're at alex's house bro i see it on your location you've been there for 45
00:47:04minutes yeah yeah you are bro i got you on a tracker like am i a goddamn dog am i being chipped now or
00:47:12what you're literally just like the rest of them i'm gonna pull up look i'm already on my way to waco
00:47:19just meet me somewhere in waco or something bro how i send you my location
00:47:27tracking me to alex's house is bull
00:47:31i'm on a hanker monitor you know i crave freedom
00:47:38i love brooke but i really don't know where we going i don't know if it's forward if it's backward
00:47:43i'm trying to figure it out
00:48:04they know what you wanted so i just order nothing
00:48:13i don't know what you're doing
00:48:17baby the only reason i went over there was to close that chapter of my life
00:48:21to let her know that i have a lot of chapters not closed
00:48:28i need her to know that i'm with you and that whatever i have her was dead
00:48:32i let her know that she had her chance that she brought that up
00:48:42then you had to go to her house to do to her house
00:48:45and she it up and then i'm with you and i need her to respect her house to do it
00:48:49and i need her to respect that that i'm with you yeah and i need you to respect my wishes too
00:48:54i know that which did not happen
00:48:59what did you really have going on over there
00:49:04i went in i said my piece i got it out the way
00:49:11and i came back out
00:49:16like i need you to know i love you when i choose you
00:49:18and i'm trying to prove it to you baby
00:49:23now i will go to see your next is not the way to do it
00:49:26so in case you wondering he wants me to sit here and trust him
00:49:32but he turns around and he's knowingly breaking my trust and wants to sit here and act like it's
00:49:38not a deal like he was not even to be in contact with alex for any reason
00:49:48i'm over it
00:49:59baby not happening
00:50:06i'm sitting there trying to close these chapters of my life
00:50:07because to tear down these barriers that you keep putting up with our relationship
00:50:11i'm trying to tear down these walls that you have up around your heart so we can move on so we can
00:50:15better our relationship so we can build a life together that's what i'm trying to do
00:50:21too late late what do you mean late
00:50:28jk absolutely has broken any little bit of trust that i had in this man
00:50:34i feel betrayed because we had an agreement that none of these things were supposed to happen
00:50:52and it just like it really really me up because it's like he don't care
00:50:58i am scared for what the future holds
00:51:05it's like baby i need you to know that i love you and i need to know that i'm gonna do whatever i need
00:51:10to do to earn their trust
00:51:18i gotta go get the boys okay tell brodie we're going fishing
00:51:22okay i promise okay not we might we are we'll see okay
00:51:28after today even with jk trying to sit here and reassure me that there was
00:51:37nothing for me to freak out on that i should trust him like it's just the fact like i feel
00:51:42disrespected that he would even have the nerve to do that at this point i don't know what i don't
00:51:48know what to do like i got absolutely no idea well we got to figure things out because we have a baby
00:51:59on the way tired of just talking to me about for real she toxic for sure
00:52:03so demartic was over here last night about to put up the rest of his clothes kiana put him out
00:52:20because she found out some text messages and stuff but i knew he was going to come back because he
00:52:26could not resist this and i just wanted my family back so i got what i wanted
00:52:44you want to go get on the trampoline well i'll say no you're going to stay with me did you just try
00:52:50to hit me did you just try to hit me you're going to stay with me you're still seeing the wrong answer dude
00:52:55do you ever stay with me yes sorry come here let me show you something then see this
00:53:00ah the claw got you kiana kicked me out because she found some messages between me and joeyla
00:53:11oh right now i stay with my baby moms when i have to watch the kids and she has to go to work
00:53:15oh what you gonna do a front flip go dj go dj oh daddy gonna have to go to work school all right
00:53:25yeah yeah come on yeah sometimes it does feel like when i'm with joeyla and the kids we're a family
00:53:32i can see my kids and not have to sneak around but uh i am single at this moment my title is single
00:53:39oh i love you oh i love you give me a hug my boy love you all right mama i'll see y'all later bye-bye bye-bye i love you
00:53:54as far as the moderate coming out and trying to be in a relationship what i will say as an older man is
00:53:59you have to make the most honest decision for yourself the one that you can live with because
00:54:03you're sitting over here 10 years now it's like damn i should have been over there then that's the
00:54:07decision you made staying single it is always an option though you know hello what you doing getting
00:54:16ready yeah i'm about to be on my way over there all right just let me know we can get here all right
00:54:23i'll see you in a second all right all right my relationship with joeyla has been all right but
00:54:28it's definitely not the vibe me and kiana have definitely not that vibe i love kiana and when
00:54:34you're in love with somebody it's damn near like you can't go without that person you know i mean you
00:54:39can love other people from the distance when you're in love with somebody there's no distance that can
00:54:43keep you from that person don't leave me in the distance
00:54:48you feel so far away right now me and demodrick are single but i mean he i still talk to him every
00:55:02day i see him from time to time of course we still fool around it's definitely hard
00:55:08to just cut him off but i'm trying honestly i don't know who he's with what he's doing
00:55:17like yes we talk every day but i try not to like overplay my part
00:55:24when you see your life with someone like the rest of your life with someone it's hard to just turn
00:55:30that off i don't know what it is i i guess we just can't leave each other alone
00:55:47i'm just gonna see where it goes from here
00:56:00what are you doing i'm about to leave
00:56:20i'm about to leave
00:56:25are you coming back
00:56:29you leaving leaving
00:56:35you don't have nothing to say
00:56:38tired of just talking to you real
00:56:40we gotta figure things out because we have a baby on the way
00:56:44we're good
00:56:48you're not even looking at me
00:56:52i feel like you're just taking my energy wrong you feel like i'm coming at you and really i just want
00:56:57better for our kid than than what we had that's all i'm not telling you to stop your dreams i want
00:57:03you to do everything you want to do in life i just want to make sure that our kid is good and that
00:57:10they have what we didn't have are you ready to be a father i mean right now i'm i mean i'm i'm gonna
00:57:21be ready for whatever i'm gonna deal with it but i'm young and i got a lot to focus on right now so
00:57:27you know what it is it'll be whatever though
00:57:34we didn't come from two-parent households we wanted a two-parent household for our kid
00:57:39we wanted a healthy household for our kid a stable life for our kid that's all i'm saying i just want
00:57:45better for our kid than what we have you make it impossible to do that how
00:57:51how you be acting but it's not just how i be acting
00:57:55but a lot more often than not it is
00:58:00a lot of people be toxic and alexis she toxic for sure my car about to pull up
00:58:11like sometimes i'll be feeling like she like arguing she like arguing and getting into it and
00:58:18seeing how i react because if i argue with her maybe that's how she feel like
00:58:23somebody loving her or something you know what i'm saying but you ain't got to do that with me like
00:58:30you don't got to do that
00:58:35i don't feel like i just need to get away and go do me for her mini
00:58:50we probably really just want to break them i do believe that i deserve a healthy relationship
00:58:59and if he wants to go just let him go like no more chasing him i'm gonna love myself and prepare to
00:59:06love this baby if you really do just take advantage of the fact that i'm really nice and i'm really forgiving
00:59:14that i probably do just need to love myself more
00:59:27you
00:59:29they told me to stand still so i'm gonna keep on running they try to bring me down but i'm the one that's
00:59:36hunting yeah am i dropping off at home um no i'm coming with you and catch a car back
00:59:42it's awesome
00:59:48so bummed out that i don't get to take you back with me me too
00:59:53i'm pretty sad that i'm going home now i can't believe that the week is already over
00:59:57i'm gonna miss courtney so much i'm gonna miss you so much same yeah this sucks i'm gonna miss you too much
01:00:09having to leave you almost a thousand miles away is
01:00:13yeah i'm hoping by the following month we'll be moving you out to me me too
01:00:21try not to buy more than like two suitcases
01:00:27i can't have like that many belongings anyways uh at the house perfect um speaking of buying things
01:00:39are you gonna leave me with a card what is your plan yeah i have a credit card
01:00:46i can't believe in it
01:00:50try not to spend like more than a thousand dollars on my phone
01:00:57i love you
01:00:59i love you too
01:01:01i'm so happy you're able to come and see me
01:01:04yeah it sucks it's like the worst part
01:01:09i don't want to go
01:01:10are you going to be able to trust me from a thousand miles away yeah i think um i think you
01:01:18were right and i need to get out of my head we're going to be able to
01:01:23facetime and talk all the time i know i'm definitely going to be able to trust you
01:01:28they're just saying no coming back from this those shabari ropes are cool yeah that was tight
01:01:35fun i had a fun time with you
01:01:41when i was in prison me and my sugar daddies we would have like video visits and we would talk on
01:01:47the phone um i had one come visit me in person and that was cool
01:01:52but will and i had such a deep connection i knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life
01:01:59with him i'm gonna dump out my suitcase and put you inside i wonder what would happen
01:02:04they go through the scanner and then charge me with human trafficking
01:02:10like i've always been worried about whether or not i would find my soulmate and i have
01:02:17i just i'm not ready to say goodbye yet
01:02:22all right beautiful i'm not gonna make you wait here with me the whole time
01:02:25i want to yeah but i gotta go through security and stuff i love you though i love you
01:02:36we're gonna talk all the time all the time all right are you gonna call me when you get home
01:02:40right yeah of course i'll facetime you first thing i'm gonna miss you i love you too
01:02:52i hope that there are many pros to courtney living in this halfway house i hope that i'm
01:03:00just heavily overthinking this whole thing but she's been acting pretty weird these last couple
01:03:04of days hey siri call for a ride share the limited amount of freedom she has and and our inability to
01:03:11see each other as much as we want to see each other as much as we want is making this pretty hard
01:03:15but i think we can make it through
01:03:29it's
01:03:36We are now going to start applying abdominal to help you with fertility.
01:04:06Take me to your home where I come from.
01:04:19The gardens are true love like I've been born again.
01:04:26You hold me so I know that I belong.
01:04:33I don't need to fight a moment.
01:04:37You have one.
01:04:40You have one.
01:04:45You will never let me go or your love is stronger.
01:04:54One word from you and I know that I will.
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