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The Summer I Turned Pretty Season 2 Episode 1
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00:00Previously on the summer I turned pretty my family's been going to Susanna's beach
00:10house and cousins every summer since I was a baby look who came back all grown up Susanna
00:15told me that when I was born she knew I was destined for one of her boys I always hoped
00:20it would be Conrad I wrangled belly an invitation to be a debutante now which one of you is gonna
00:26be belly's escort to the ball uh so are you and Jeremiah like a thing they're like basically
00:31related I'm not going with either of you I am going to find my own date I don't know what to
00:36think about you this summer you have new friends you have a boyfriend I don't even know who you
00:40are anymore is that why you threw yourself at my brother so that you could get back at me my heart's
00:44beating really fast you're having a panic attack it's my mom I know you said you didn't want to
00:49do chemo but I'm not putting myself through treatment again I'm gonna tell the kids when
00:53we get back to Boston why are you acting so different I mean something's going on just
00:57tell me Ellie I think about you I do you know I do I just can't you're my best friend three times
01:04I wanted to be more I was just waiting I mean how am I supposed to fully jump into something with
01:09Jeremiah if a piece of my heart still beats for his brother there you go with me to the temple
01:14hey does my mom seem okay to you I heard your parents talk about it and your mom seemed really
01:18upset hey have you guys seen Jeremiah
01:24Colorado we need to talk all right it's important it's about mom you've known this whole fucking time
01:31you didn't tell me I told them I do the trial it's going to work Ellie I'm sorry for being so shitty
01:37all of a sudden I mean you were going through all this alone I wish you had told me so you didn't have
01:42no matter what happens next I will always come back to this place and these people
01:47you live in my dream step
02:01you live in my dream step
02:10you're back
02:18I'm back
02:19we get it you guys are into each other
02:27don't listen to him you two are perfect together
02:32I wasn't in cousins
02:49Conrad and I weren't together
02:52and Susanna was dead
02:54nothing would ever be the same again
02:57you drop this
02:59Conklin
03:02what
03:03you said you dropped this Conklin
03:06you're reading the hunger games in
03:08in French
03:09trying to
03:10I almost know the English version by heart so it's
03:13it's not that difficult to follow
03:14very cool
03:17thanks
03:19escaping to your dreams is easier than living with your memories
03:24it's the being awake that's the hard part
03:28this almost doesn't feel real
03:37how about now
03:41I can't stop smiling
03:50you know you have the prettiest smile I've ever seen
03:54your whole face just lights up
03:57I wanted to say that to you all soon
03:59there's something that I need to tell you
04:09I don't even know how
04:13okay
04:14what is it
04:16figure it out
04:18I am a few days ago
04:23Jeremiah told me what she owns for me
04:26oh
04:32wow okay
04:35so what did you say
04:38I
04:42kissed him
04:44a few times
04:45so
04:54so when we both came to pick you and Taylor up from the side of the road
05:00you know and
05:01you went with Jay
05:02were you two already
05:03you know but there were
05:08moments of somewhere where I thought maybe there could be something with you and me
05:11and then
05:11you know you shut down
05:14and get really cold
05:15and I get it
05:15I'm sorry
05:16I'm sorry
05:16it's all my fault
05:18I mean it's mine too
05:21you want to be with him
05:27being with you is all I've ever wanted
05:32okay
05:33that's great
05:34be with me then
05:34what
05:35what is that funny
05:37no
05:38I'm sorry
05:39it's just weird
05:40I mean
05:40everyone in our house knows that I've had a crush on you
05:43ever since like
05:45wait wait wait wait wait
05:45you have a crush on me
05:48shut up
05:49yup
05:49you're it for me darling
05:54I don't want to hurt Jay
05:59me neither
06:00like I'll talk to him
06:03he might not even be that upset
06:04you know
06:05it's Jay
06:05he never takes anything too seriously
06:07it's not
06:08it's not like how it is with us
06:12uh
06:16I'll talk to him first
06:17I owe him that
06:18okay
06:19early morning walk on the beach
06:43uh
06:44yeah
06:45I knew it
06:53knew it
06:54I'm gonna go
06:58sit down
07:07so
07:10mom
07:11just let me change first
07:13all right
07:18enjoy your summer
07:19no but seriously
07:29it's gonna be wild
07:30it's the best team we've had in years
07:31oh I made us these matching crop tops
07:33they're pink obviously
07:34and I got a bunch of new knee pads
07:35ooh
07:36knee pads Taylor
07:37shut up
07:38hey bells
07:39it's not too late to sign up for volleyball camp
07:41you know
07:41oh our school is over bitches
07:45it's not just loud
07:47Steven
07:48hey
07:49if I were going to Princeton
07:50I'd be screaming about it too
07:52thank you Evelyn
07:53wait
07:53are you going to Princeton?
07:55that's so cool
07:55I couldn't tell
07:56oh
07:56you couldn't tell
07:57go
07:58go
07:59go
07:59go
07:59go
07:59oh
08:00this is fine
08:00what's up man
08:01what time is a grab party tomorrow man
08:03oh the band comes on at 10
08:04I'm dating the singer
08:05uh
08:06yeah the machine gun Kelly wannabe
08:08I tried to veto him from playing
08:10but I guess I couldn't find anybody cheaper
08:11oh
08:12wait so
08:14are you coming to the party?
08:17I don't know
08:19Belly
08:20Belly
08:21can I talk to you for a minute please?
08:25gotta go
08:26see you then
08:29bye
08:29sorry
08:29Belly
08:32I was reviewing your end of term transcripts
08:39and I couldn't help but notice
08:40that your grades have taken a serious dive
08:42I mean you kept an A in French
08:44but you won't impress colleges with just French
08:46is there something going on?
08:49uh
08:49there's a death in the family
08:50oh
08:52I'm so sorry to hear that
08:53but your grades have been dipping all year
08:56you even got your volleyball captaincy revoked?
08:59yeah
09:00I choked at regionals
09:01okay
09:02well have you um
09:04have you thought about where you're gonna apply next year?
09:06um
09:06I mean
09:06I know I'm not getting into an Ivy
09:08but there's always Penn State
09:10well that might be a reach at this point
09:11without volleyball
09:13you'll have to focus on less competitive schools
09:15have you heard about Finch?
09:18um
09:18yeah
09:19I know someone who's going there in the fall
09:21a family friend
09:21great
09:22well maybe you can visit them and grab a tour
09:24I doubt it
09:27come in
09:29good morning bells
09:33hey
09:35come here
09:36so I stayed up all night
09:43doing research on the trial my mom agreed to
09:45and belly I'm feeling really hopeful
09:48that's
09:49that's great chair
09:51I mean I'm so
09:51glad that
09:52Suzanne and I agreed to do it
09:54yeah
09:54I mean if I'm being honest
09:56I'm still kind of pissed
09:57Conrad never told me what was going on with her
09:59but
09:59you know at least it worked out right?
10:03right
10:04that's kind of why I think
10:05we should tell
10:07Conrad about us as soon as possible
10:09I don't want any more secrets
10:11and plus Stephen already knows
10:13actually that
10:18that's what I wanted to talk to you about
10:21okay
10:23see um
10:25the thing is
10:26um
10:26last night
10:28I really couldn't sleep
10:30all night
10:31so I went to
10:32watch the sunrise on the beach
10:36and Conrad was there
10:39and we just started talking
10:41and one thing led to another
10:43and
10:43and um
10:44and we
10:44we kissed
10:46you kissed my brother
10:54I'm sorry
10:57I didn't think that
10:58you know
10:59like he
10:59we
11:01I mean we wanted to tell you right away
11:02so you know
11:03you're already a we
11:04no
11:04no no
11:05I
11:06I just didn't
11:07I don't know
11:08I didn't want it to be weird
11:09oh yeah belly
11:09it is weird
11:10okay
11:10no chair please
11:12no
11:13no you know what
11:13actually it's cool
11:14it's cool I get it
11:15you know I was just a distraction
11:17to keep you busy
11:18while you waited for Conrad
11:19I'm glad it finally happened for you belly
11:21it's great timing
11:22it's not like my mom has cancer or anything
11:24chair I didn't want to hurt you
11:26you're one of my best friends
11:27no
11:28no you don't
11:29you don't get to call me that
11:30you don't mean that
11:35I do
11:36now can you please get out
11:39just so you know
11:44he's gonna break your heart
11:48we should already be in the car
12:00coming
12:01hey is this okay
12:09I swear I left the tickets here
12:10I thought your dad was meeting us there
12:13will you
12:14shoot I forgot to make the reservation for lunch
12:16yeah I figured so I did it
12:17well they're not gonna start without me
12:19we've got time
12:20I was supposed to iron that shirt for you
12:22take it off
12:23it's handled
12:24it's handled
12:24see
12:25I use the starch spray
12:27that makes it look real smooth
12:28yeah
12:29oh is that for me
12:32what
12:33sweet a laptop
12:38who sent this what
12:40oh my god
12:42it's from Susanna
12:44she must have planned it before
12:47classic Beck
12:48I wish she could have been here
12:50yeah Conrad and Jeremiah too
12:54they were busy
12:55yeah sure
12:57I feel awful
13:05right here
13:09he was so angry at us
13:11and he has every right to me honestly
13:14it's gonna be okay
13:19it's gonna be okay belly
13:19I promise
13:20how
13:24I think maybe we should hit pause
13:35what
13:38no
13:40I don't want to make things harder for you guys
13:44than they already are
13:44you're not
13:45I promise
13:46the most
13:46important thing right now
13:48is that you and Jeremiah
13:51are there for each other
13:52are there for Susanna
13:53and I
13:54us being together
13:57would make that impossible
13:58Ellie come on
14:00I can't do that to him
14:04I hate that
14:17and me too
14:21I'm
14:28this was always yours
14:35no matter what happens
14:40we'll still be infinite
14:42you should read this
15:10later we should go
15:12found them
15:13come on
15:15they say that everything happens for a reason
15:22now who they are exactly is unclear
15:25maybe a theologian coined it
15:28or
15:28I don't know
15:29whoever configured the simulation
15:30we're clearly living in
15:31maybe it was Rihanna
15:34no no no
15:36Rihanna can do no wrong
15:38definitely not her
15:39but we've heard it
15:43time and time again
15:45it's supposed to convince us
15:46you know that everything had to happen
15:48exactly so
15:50in order to teach us something about ourselves
15:52in order
15:53for us to grow
15:54and meet our destinies
15:57I think that's BS
16:03I'm sorry
16:04mom
16:05sorry
16:05you know breakups
16:07you know breakups don't always lead to breakthroughs
16:10sometimes a girl dumps you
16:12after an awesome summer
16:14and it just sucks
16:15and
16:15you learn nothing from it
16:17but
16:17you eventually force yourself to move on anyways
16:20you know but then
16:24the unthinkable happens
16:26and you realize it's pointless to think of life that way
16:29Belly
16:30hey I never see you in here
16:36your mom assigned me this room to clean
16:38it's the easiest since I don't think she sat put in here once to do any writing this summer
16:43don't you hire cleaners anyway
16:46shh
16:47I love that necklace on you
16:54Connie told me everything that happened with the three of you
16:59I'm sorry
17:03don't be sorry
17:04it's not how I wanted the summer to end
17:06especially not
17:09I just feel like I'm losing everyone
17:15you're not
17:16it just takes time
17:18you'll find your way back to each other eventually
17:22and this place is always here for you
17:26yeah but
17:27you've made every summer here so magical Susanna
17:31I mean what happens
17:32what happens
17:33Belly
17:34you love this place the same way I do
17:39if anyone can keep the magic going here it's you
17:44you're my special girl
17:49I need to call the cleaners
17:55promise me you'll never leave me
17:59never
18:00because everything just happens
18:07you know good things bad things all in ways that you never expect all in ways that are so completely out of your control that they could just drive you insane
18:18there are times where it feels like the world is happening to you but remember that you are also happening to the world so don't wait
18:32make what you want happen because tomorrow isn't promised so you better make fucking sure that you are living today
18:38so extra
18:40although he did earn it with that speech
18:44it was good yeah speech kind of pierced my soul
18:53don't laugh no no I feel like I've been in this nightmare ever since Susanna died maybe it's time to wake up oh
18:58I gotta go find Milo he needs my help putting together a look for tonight
19:03cool um do you wanna come over after and help me with mine? no fucking way are you coming?
19:16like I've been in this nightmare ever since Susanna died maybe it's time to
19:20wake up oh I gotta go find Milo he needs my help putting together a look for
19:25tonight do you want to come over after and help me with mine no fucking way are
19:32you coming yeah yeah and I'm I'm gonna sign up for a varsity volleyball camp
19:38too yeah this party's gonna be insane you are going to die when you see Milo
19:43play no yeah I mean you literally might cuz oh man I could smell them from the
19:47podium really yeah well I'm sorry excuse me my man doesn't have that Korean gene
19:51that makes you have no body odor okay all right come on okay mom and dad are
19:55meeting us at the restaurant it's a great speech Susanna would have loved it yeah I
20:03know you know I'm glad you guys are coming to the party tonight Wow I can't
20:09believe what I'm hearing you really want me and Taylor at your party Wow I've
20:13never said want I just I just think it's better than moping around at home
20:20hey you should drive I gotta read all the love in my DMs for my speech anyway so
20:25all right come on
20:30yo this is dope I'm going viral on tiktok is that a good thing what millions of
20:37people around the world watching my speech on a loop yes that is a very good
20:43thing yeah I gotta forward this to con and share man thank you so much thank you oh I'm
20:51sorry could I get a box for all this yeah thank you thank you happiness is an activity okay okay
21:07well everyone agrees you are the best it doesn't so random no it literally says it
21:13right here I don't know what you want you want to see it yeah I don't know what you
21:17want from me it says it right there I know what you're telling you we're so proud of
21:20you you're gonna have the time of your life at Princeton right Laura yeah I love college
21:24that's where I met Susanna so how are these going with your book my publisher is hounding
21:33me to do this meet-and-greet event with booksellers I said no why because it's not necessary okay
21:42uh well it's time for me to go get ready for the party mom mom dad thank you for lunch I'm gonna go
21:49with him uh it was delicious thank you all right have fun kids see you at home yep
21:55so you're not trying to promote your book I'm not gonna have schmoozy conversations about Susanna
22:06just to get prime placement in bookstores well you did write a whole book about her it might feel
22:10cathartic I wrote the book in a fugue state I have no interest in dissecting it just to come up with
22:17pithy insights on grief okay glad the whole not going to therapy thing is working out for you
22:25thank you
22:30look you wrote a beautiful book
22:35I think Susanna would want you to share it with the world
22:40she was always my biggest cheerleader guess now I have to be my own
22:49I'll wear the skirt but I draw the line at pom-poms
22:55I am so excited that you're finally here this summer can we do like everything that we never
23:05got to do together like parties pool mall we have to get you a fake ID let's start by figuring out
23:11what I'm gonna wear tonight okay okay Susanna's earrings they're perfect
23:20okay since my man is playing tonight I'm gonna need you to be the super hot friend standing next
23:31to his super hot girlfriend yeah let's get super hot I love it when you agree with me
23:36um I'm thinking this that's what you call super hot this looks so good on you no no I've got to have
23:46the call came the second week of September three weeks since the last time I'd seen him it felt like a dream
24:14unreal
24:16hey hey I didn't expect to hear from you yeah is it okay that I'm that I'm calling I shouldn't have
24:29called this was dumb I'm sorry no no no it's okay um we're still friends right yeah yeah we're friends
24:37yeah and um friends can talk on the phone yeah yeah nothing weird about friends talking on the phone
24:46so uh so how's how's college life um it's cool it's cool my roommate snores even louder than you do
24:59which oh come on I don't snore yes you do you a thousand percent do I've heard you through the
25:04walls for years only when you're really tired though how's school for you boring painful I mean
25:14like no no who invented trig and why do they torture innocent high school students with it
25:19can't be that bad no oh it's it's bad it's it's it's really bad I mean I can't keep up with all the
25:26letters well you know the first thing you gotta do is determine if it's a right angle triangle
25:30badly have you seen my uh big kettlebell the 20 pound one Stephen I'm on the phone we'll tell
25:34Taylor to go to bed hi Stephen hey Conrad it's not in here go away sorry about that okay um what
25:53were you saying about triangles again okay if you want to wear the t-shirt you know we should at least
26:06crop it it was Conrad's you know every time I think of him I still get this like pain in my chest
26:15I know sucks babe but eventually you're gonna have to let him go yeah I just wish I knew how it's like
26:26my meemaw always used to say the best way to get over a man is to get under a new one
26:31heading to a grad party yeah mine me and the guys are throwing it remember oh right well have fun
26:47and don't drink and drive oh don't worry I promised Stephen I'd be the sober driver
26:51oh and I ordered you a pizza okay so please eat it don't worry about me go
26:56all right I love you bye bye be safe bye I love you bye
27:00oh my god Milo hi thank god you're here
27:24oh my god hey so I need to be able to see you when I'm up on stage yeah I have to stay up close
27:35okay yeah yeah my boy yeah it's fun uh you call this a party where are all the hot ladies you
27:43promised uh we're literally standing right here oh uh no offense I'm into older women
27:49personal preference yeah hey babe I'm gonna go help the guys finish something okay all right
27:54all right bye
27:56okay well have fun everybody I gotta go make the rounds entertain the people
28:05you know oh shit okay come on spike
28:08you're so cute tonight you know that come on let's go get some drinks I can't drink I'll try it okay
28:15what oh my god but camp is gonna be so much fun I bought us all matching PJs oh you are going to
28:26need to buy one more set guess who finally decides to join us the killer B is gonna have her captaincy
28:31back from Donna in like no time you know what I mean yeah right but coach Shaw is okay with it you
28:37know come back I actually haven't talked to coach yet I wanted to talk to you guys first I mean after
28:45last season I totally don't blame you if you don't want me back on the team oh shut up you're always one of
28:50us yes right answer bump set hit swipe that's the way we like to fight come on come on team let's hear you scream
29:02it's game point miss Conklin bye bye Conrad hey you still there so my roommate Trusky oh did he sleepwalk in his underwear again
29:26no he didn't he didn't thankfully but uh we were talking and it turns out he's a 5G conspiracist
29:32so apparently that guy that Katie was seeing had a girlfriend the whole time I mean it just sucks
29:38like he didn't really seem like the type you know
29:42did you know my dad cheated
29:49Adam cheated on Susanna yeah the first time my mom was sick
29:54he had an affair with his secretary Kaylee
29:59I found out about it last spring I'm like the same day I found out of my mom's cancer coming back
30:06how'd you find out
30:10um I came home early from school one day and heard them fighting
30:16she was crying so much belly
30:22she I've never heard her cry like that before
30:24so I left I went back out I drove around town for two hours and came back and pretended not to know
30:34anything I'm so sorry it sucks that you had to carry that secret for so long
30:42yeah it's just exhausting like
30:44I couldn't turn my brain off it was like if you do that then this horrible thing is gonna happen
30:52but if you do this then you know just this catastrophic thing will happen
30:57oh my god that sounds so stressful
30:59oh my god damn it it's two o'clock
31:07you said you had practice early I should let you go
31:09yeah um off-season workouts suck
31:16but uh there's a rumor that a college scout from finch is coming to watch our club team play this weekend
31:22and there's a chance coach might make me captain
31:24what that's crazy
31:26I'll definitely let you go I didn't know that
31:28five more minutes
31:31wow you're uh really good at operating a keg
31:54wow hi conklin oh um come on what can you see peter
31:59uh um
32:01I didn't know you took friends
32:06we want one no no I'm okay thanks
32:10I'm the DD tonight
32:12cheers
32:14I can spend my life
32:20in this sweet surrender
32:23I can stay lost in this moment
32:28forever
32:30and every moment spent with you
32:35is a moment I treasure
32:38I don't wanna close my eyes
32:44I don't wanna fall asleep
32:47cause I miss you baby
32:49and I don't wanna miss a thing
32:51do you wanna know something so romantic
32:53Milo wrote this song for me
32:55it's a cover
32:57love that song from the movie Armageddon
33:01oh
33:03well it's still romantic
33:04okay wait don't make me beg you for details
33:07what did you and Corey talk about
33:08uh the book I'm reading
33:12I'm sorry you suck at talking to guys
33:15okay I'm rusty and also he's the one who brought it up
33:18and he spoke to me in French
33:20bitch what in French
33:22okay that's so hot
33:24like he sounds obsessed with you
33:25yeah I don't know I mean that combo took so much effort
33:29like is it supposed to be that hard
33:31I mean like look at you and Milo
33:34you guys just make sense
33:36I don't wanna close my eyes
33:39well Milo and I are soulmates
33:41I don't wanna sleep
33:42cause I miss you baby
33:44and I don't wanna miss a thing
33:47cause even when I dream of you
33:50the sweetest dream would never do
33:53I still miss you baby
33:55and I don't wanna miss a thing
33:58yeah
34:01yeah
34:16yeah
34:20yeah
34:27Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk?
34:32I didn't mean to call you that.
34:37I can't remember what was said or what you threw at me.
34:42Please tell me, please tell me why.
34:50Belly, I'm a crowdster. Hold my shirt for a second and make sure no one spills anything on it.
34:54Eww! Steven, no, I don't want to hold your sweaty teeth here.
34:57Woo!
34:59Yeah!
35:00What the hell?
35:01Are you okay?
35:02Ow.
35:03Uh, Belly, I'm sorry.
35:04No, yeah, no, I'm good. I'm totally fine.
35:07I'm just, um, I'm gonna go get a drink.
35:10Well, you're my sober driver, Belly Bells. Don't let me down!
35:14Steven!
35:15It's no surprise to me, I am my own worst enemy.
35:21I had this weird thought today.
35:23Yeah?
35:26I love your thoughts.
35:28I was thinking if my dad had cheated on my mom, she probably wouldn't have even cared.
35:36Is that harsh?
35:38No, but you really think Laurel wouldn't have a reaction?
35:41I mean, kinda.
35:42Like, nothing about my dad ever excited her.
35:45You know?
35:46They were, like, never romantic around each other.
35:49And you want to see your parents being romantic?
35:52Maybe.
35:54I mean, I just can't imagine marrying someone who didn't give me fireworks.
36:01You know, like, like electric jolts every time I saw them.
36:05Were you surprised when you found out your parents were getting divorced?
36:09Uh, yes and no.
36:12I mean, I always thought divorce meant fighting.
36:15You know?
36:16And there was none of that.
36:17I mean, they were cold for a little while.
36:19But, um, now everything's kinda back to normal.
36:23In a weird way, that must almost be a little harder to understand.
36:28Exactly.
36:31Oh, wow.
36:34What?
36:35I don't know.
36:37I've just never said any of this to anyone before.
36:41Me either.
36:43Hey, can I ask you something?
36:48Anything.
36:49Um, how's, how's Jer?
36:53Is he, is he doing okay?
36:55Um, yeah.
36:56Yeah, he seems good.
36:57Why?
36:58I don't know.
36:59I've, I've texted him a few times since summer ended and, uh, he never writes back.
37:03Yeah, no.
37:04I mean, he's probably just busy with senior year stuff.
37:06Right, right, right.
37:07Or, you know, it's said he'll never get over what I did and hold it against me for the rest
37:11of our lives.
37:12Belly.
37:13Never mind.
37:14Forget I said anything.
37:16I learned something kind of cool.
37:26Tell me.
37:27Did you know that Venus is an evening star for 263 days out of the year?
37:34And then it disappears from the sky for 50 days before returning as a morning star for
37:40another 263 days.
37:42I did not know that.
37:43That is very cool.
37:44And right now it's an evening star.
37:46It's really bright next to the moon.
37:49I'm actually looking at it right now.
37:54It's probably against the rules to say this, but, um, I wish we were looking at it together.
38:06And Billy?
38:16Yes, Comet.
38:18I couldn't be with someone who didn't make me feel electric either.
38:23Hey.
38:36Hey, Conklin.
38:38Hey.
38:39Long time no see.
38:52Yeah.
38:53No, I know.
38:54It's been ages, right?
38:55Yeah.
38:56Is that seat taking?
38:57Uh, nope.
38:58Nope.
38:59I'm right ahead.
39:00I wonder if Venus is a morning star or an evening star tonight.
39:12I think Venus is a planet.
39:14No, actually, uh, ancient astronomers, um, you know what?
39:20Never mind.
39:21Okay.
39:22It's dumb.
39:23You know, you can hardly see any stars this close to the city anyway.
39:27There's a lot more by the beach.
39:30I, uh, used to spend every summer at this beach in Massachusetts.
39:36Hmm.
39:37Are you going this summer?
39:40Uh, no.
39:41No, I'm not.
39:43So then you'll be here for the fourth, huh?
39:46Well, my folks are gonna be out of town, and I'll just think about having a few people
39:51over.
39:52You and your friends should totally come.
39:54That sounds cool.
39:55All right.
39:56Cool.
39:57Come here.
40:01You kind of have something.
40:03Okay.
40:04Yeah.
40:05Uh, Belly, no, I was just...
40:08Oh, my God!
40:09No, I was just...
40:10You had something in your...
40:11I have something in your head.
40:12Yeah.
40:13You know why?
40:14Because I just...
40:15That's right.
40:16Holy shit.
40:17No, no, no, I'm totally fine.
40:18I'm just, um...
40:19Oh, my God.
40:20I'm gonna go.
40:21Okay.
40:22See ya.
40:23Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
40:24Hey, yeah, Belly, actually.
40:25Yes!
40:26Yeah.
40:27Could you do me a favor?
40:28Could you put in a good word for me with, uh, your friend Marcy?
40:31Yeah.
40:32Marcy?
40:33Yeah.
40:34That makes sense.
40:35Yeah, I totally will.
40:36You guys are cool.
40:38Thank you for this.
40:39Yes.
40:40Okay.
40:41Bye.
40:42Belly.
40:43Belly, come here.
40:44Hey, sis.
40:45Sis, sis, sis.
40:46Check it out.
40:47Check it out.
40:48Check it out.
40:49Check it out.
40:50Oh!
40:51Oh!
40:52Oh!
40:53Oh, my God!
40:54I can't believe you did that.
40:55This party sucks.
40:56Dude, it's beer, man.
40:57It'll dry.
40:58Chill.
40:59I'm leaving, okay?
41:00Wait, wait, did something happen?
41:01No, nothing happened.
41:02Whatever.
41:03Uh, Steven, can you just get Spike to drive you home, please?
41:04Spike?
41:05No, Spike is drunk.
41:06You promised to be my sober ride tonight.
41:07Okay, well, I'm ready to go now.
41:08Okay, well, I'm not.
41:09Great.
41:10Then can you just call an Uber or something?
41:11Why are you being such a buzzkill right now?
41:12I'm just kidding.
41:13I'm just kidding.
41:14I'm just kidding.
41:15I'm just kidding.
41:16I'm just kidding.
41:17I'm just kidding.
41:18I'm just kidding.
41:19I'm just kidding.
41:20I'm just kidding.
41:21I'm just kidding.
41:22I'm just kidding.
41:23Why are you being such a buzzkill right now?
41:26Oh, I'm sorry.
41:27Am I ruining your fun night, Mr. Perfect Valedictorian?
41:30Kinda, yeah.
41:31Okay, well, in case you forgot,
41:33which it clearly seems like you did, Susanna just died,
41:35so I'm a little bit sad, but please,
41:37don't let that stop you from having the time of your life.
41:39Fuck you.
41:40You know, I lost Susanna too.
41:42Okay, you don't think I'm sad about that?
41:44Oh, what, were you crowd surfing the pain away?
41:46My apologies.
41:47No, you should apologize.
41:48You screwed up and out.
41:49Now everything is weird with Conrad and Jeremiah.
41:52I mean, they won't even text me back anymore because of you.
41:54Okay, guys, wait a second.
41:55That is not my fault.
41:56Isn't it?
41:57Hmm?
41:58I should be celebrating with them tonight,
42:00but they wouldn't come because you made things messy.
42:03You had Jeremiah and it just wasn't enough.
42:06You had to have Conrad too.
42:09God, you are so fucking selfish.
42:11Steven.
42:12What?
42:13Serious?
42:14I had to have Conrad?
42:15Are you kidding?
42:17I was in love, Steven, like out of my mind in love.
42:20What was I supposed to do?
42:24Belly.
42:26Belly.
42:27Steven.
42:31Hey.
42:33Steven is a drunk idiot right now.
42:35Please do not listen to him.
42:36No, this is right.
42:37I mean, I ruined things with both of them,
42:40and then Susanna died, and I completely ruined her funeral,
42:42and I just, I wish I hadn't started any of it.
42:44No, you don't.
42:45Yes, I do.
42:46No, you don't.
42:47Yes, I do, and I'm so tired of feeling sad all the time,
42:49and I just, I don't think I get to feel better.
42:52You think that right now, but I promise you.
42:54No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
42:56Nothing is promised.
42:57You can't promise anything.
42:59I'm sorry.
43:00I'm sorry.
43:01I just, I know you're trying your best.
43:03I don't, I don't expect anyone to understand
43:06what I'm, I'm going through right now,
43:08but I think I just have to deal with it alone.
43:18I'm gonna go.
43:19I'll go, I can come with you.
43:20No, no, no, no.
43:21You stay.
43:22I mean, it's your boyfriend's debut,
43:24and I just, I just need to go to bed.
43:28Okay.
43:29Will you text me when you get home, please?
43:31Yeah.
43:32I love you.
43:33Love you.
44:02I got my driver's license last week,
44:06just like we always talked about,
44:09cause you were so excited for me,
44:13to finally drive up to your house,
44:16but today I drove through the suburbs,
44:19crying because you weren't around.
44:23And all my friends are tired of hearing how much I miss you,
44:33but I kinda feel sorry for them,
44:36cause they'll never know you the way that I do.
44:39Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs,
44:42and pictured I was driving home to you.
44:47And I know we weren't perfect,
44:52but I've never felt this way for no one.
44:57Oh, and I just can't imagine how you could be so okay,
45:05I know that I'm gone.
45:08I guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me.
45:16Cause you said forever,
45:17now I drive alone past your street.
45:20You said forever,
45:23now I drive alone past your street.
45:27Hey, happy almost Halloween.
45:43Conrad.
45:44I know I'm not supposed to be here,
45:46but I'm...
45:48here.
45:50I brought candy.
45:53Do you want me to go?
45:58No, no, no.
45:59Um, don't wait.
46:00Just, um...
46:03What...
46:04What are you doing here?
46:06Um...
46:07I wanted to see you.
46:09So...
46:10Yeah, yeah.
46:11Um...
46:12Yeah, but I thought...
46:13Right, no, I know, I know you...
46:16You were worried about Jared,
46:17but look, I had a chance to talk to him,
46:19and he's doing really good, actually.
46:22He's, um...
46:23He went on dates, you know.
46:25And, um...
46:26He's been on this high ever since he got made Homecoming King.
46:28That's great.
46:29So, um...
46:31He's over?
46:32Yeah.
46:34I think he is.
46:41Ellie, I don't think I could ever get over you.
46:45I mean, I'm not. I'm here.
46:47Whenever I talk to you, I'm just happy.
46:51And I gotta say, standing in front of you right now,
46:54it's torture not being able to kiss you.
46:57I'm gonna kiss you.
47:08Oh, man.
47:09Oh, man.
47:26Ellie, we need to talk.
47:28I'm kinda tired.
47:30Sit down.
47:31You didn't eat?
47:32Your guidance counselor emailed me.
47:33I didn't know you lost your volleyball captaincy,
47:34or that your grades were so bad.
47:35Yeah, I'm sorry.
47:36I'm not getting into Princeton like Steven.
47:37That's not what I'm saying.
47:38You can do better than this.
47:39I'm really disappointed in you.
47:40Sorry, Mom.
47:41You know, Susanna died, remember?
47:43You don't get to use Susanna's death as an excuse.
47:45This whole year has been hard for me, too.
47:47You were barely here.
47:48And I don't blame you for being there for Susanna and the boys.
47:50They needed you.
47:51But you need to be on your way.
47:53You need to be on your way.
47:54You need to be on your way.
47:56If you don't know what you need...
47:57Your guidance counselor emailed me.
47:59I didn't know you lost your volleyball captaincy,
48:01or that your grades were so bad.
48:02Yeah, I'm sorry.
48:03I'm not getting into Princeton like Steven.
48:04That's not what I'm saying.
48:05You can do better than this.
48:07I'm really disappointed in you.
48:08they needed you but you can't blame me either for things that happened because you were away
48:13this isn't about blame this is about you and the choices you made it's about taking responsibility
48:20for yourself even when things are hard life keeps going you can't just give up you want to talk
48:26about taking responsibility you won't even promote your book because you refuse to talk about Susanna
48:31you can't just suddenly be concerned about volleyball when you haven't gone to a single
48:36one of my games this year I waited all year for you to step up and be a parent you gave up way before
48:43I did I have to do that at every stop and it's kicking up my gag reflex if you'd rather walk
49:01we can let you out right here I'd probably be safer honestly hey you don't gotta worry man
49:07I'm fully sober fucking belly man taking my car and and leaving me straight into my own party
49:14who does that I don't know who yells at their own sister in front of everyone for being sad she yelled
49:21at me first so mature of you Steven how about you try some compassion next time asshole aren't you
49:28supposed to like come together and grief life cannot be separated from death wow so helpful
49:37man thank you Milo's very in touch with his emotions which makes him a great musician oh thanks babe
49:44you know I actually have a record label interested in Siamese what yeah you know cancel culture records
49:54babe they only have one post yeah that's what's so punk about it yeah congrats man congrats
50:06my darling Steven congratulations on your graduation this is the start of what is sure to be an
50:34exceptional journey I wish I could be there to watch you shine but you have an extraordinary mom who
50:41will be with you every step of the way remember the world is not only happening to you but you are
50:49happening to the world and don't forget to enjoy the ride love Susanna
51:04hey I know it's late but about the bookseller event I changed my mind I'll do it
51:28I knew I'd lose Susanna eventually I just didn't know I'd end up losing all of them
51:42in my memory the three of them will always be entwined forever linked there can't be one without the
51:51others
51:51no they're all gone
52:01the darkness at 158 the words that you whispered for just us to know you told me you love me so why did you go
52:13away
52:15away
52:16away
52:20away
52:24away
52:25away
52:27away
52:28away
52:29away
52:30away
52:31away
52:32away
52:33away
52:34away
52:36away
52:37away
52:38away
52:39away
52:40Just like our lives
52:47Billy?
52:53Hi, Jeremiah, I'm so glad.
52:54Are you with Conrad?
52:57No, why would I be with Conrad?
52:59I don't know, I just thought maybe you guys would...
53:01Jeremy, what is going on?
53:07Conrad's gone.
53:08Wait, what do you mean, gone?
53:12He's not answering my texts or picking up my calls.
53:15Since when?
53:16Yesterday.
53:18I mean, isn't he in the middle of finals?
53:19Maybe he pulled an all-nighter at the library.
53:21No, no, I don't think so.
53:23Apparently, he told us for me that everything is fucked,
53:25and then he just took off.
53:28I think I'm gonna go to Brown in the morning
53:29and see if I can track him down.
53:31I'll never get Susanna back.
53:33But I can't let Jeremiah and Conrad go, too.
53:36Okay.
53:38But I'm coming with you.
53:45Yeah.
53:45I saw you dancing in a crowded room.
53:50You look so happy when I'm not with you.
53:54But then you saw me, caught you by surprise.
53:59A single teardrop falling from your eyes.
54:02I don't know.
54:03I don't know why I run away.
54:11I'll make you cry when I run away.
54:19Take me back, cause I want to stay.
54:23I don't know why I run away.
54:24I don't know why I'm not with you.
54:25I don't know why I'm not with you.
54:26I don't know why I'm not with you.
54:30Take me back.
54:38I don't know why I'm not with you.
54:40I'll run away, I'll run away
54:48I'll make you cry when I run away
54:57Save your tears for another day
55:03Save your tears for another day
55:12Save your tears for another day
55:33Save your tears for another day
56:03Save your tears for another day
56:33Save your tears for another day
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