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Gayze
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00:00:00I'm not sure what you're doing.
00:00:07I'm not sure what you're doing.
00:00:13I'm not sure what you're doing.
00:02:23Oh, come on, come on, pick up.
00:02:26Don't tell me the key got jammed again.
00:02:29No. Karen, there's a woman in your bed.
00:02:33I don't think so.
00:02:34I'm not talking about your bed where you are.
00:02:36The bed here in your flat.
00:02:38Eh?
00:02:39Jesus Christ, will you listen?
00:02:41There's a woman in your bed.
00:02:45Really? Are you sure you're in my flat?
00:02:47Yes, of course I am.
00:02:49I'm not bloody senile.
00:02:50And you're sure it's not my bed?
00:02:51Your bed?
00:02:52Yeah, you know, the one that looks like a human.
00:03:01No, Karen.
00:03:02It's not.
00:03:04You sure?
00:03:05No, no one lets your bed drinks alcohol and mumbles in their sleep.
00:03:10Look, I'm freaking out here.
00:03:11I'm going to call the police.
00:03:12This isn't funny, Karen.
00:03:18I know, calm down.
00:03:19I totally forgot to tell Jay to crush on the sofa.
00:03:22Jay?
00:03:24Who the hell is she?
00:03:26My mate.
00:03:27She needs a place to stay until she gets back on her feet.
00:03:29She's going through a rough patch at the moment.
00:03:32And you didn't think you want to tell me?
00:03:34Come on, be fair.
00:03:37You only asked to stay at my place today.
00:03:39I didn't realise she'd be there tonight.
00:03:41So, what am I supposed to do now?
00:03:44Go back to bed.
00:03:45She's harmless.
00:03:47I am not sleeping with a woman I've never met before.
00:03:50When did you start getting so big?
00:03:52When I stopped being an eye teenager.
00:03:55Look, do what you want.
00:03:57I've got to get some sleep.
00:03:58I'll teach you in the morning.
00:04:04I'll teach you in the morning.
00:04:34I'll teach you in the morning.
00:05:04Hey Evie no I'm Nicky Karen sister Evie no Nicky look
00:05:34let's get you back to bed wait don't you dare be sick on the bed
00:06:04hey you okay do you want me to call her please don't go
00:06:26will you please
00:06:33tomorrow's gonna be so awkward
00:06:56Headlights illuminate the million steps I have to take
00:07:22I escaped the masquerade heading for the light of day
00:07:29I found love in a silver bin wanting more than diamond rings
00:07:37lift me up against the wind and I will follow through
00:07:44what if it was destined wasn't it always you and me
00:07:51what if it was destined weren't we always meant to be
00:07:59what if it was what if it was what if it was
00:08:06what if it was destined wasn't it always you and me
00:08:14you and me
00:08:21you and me
00:08:23you and me
00:08:25what if it was destined
00:08:32weren't we always meant to be
00:08:34what if it was
00:08:39what if it was
00:08:46what if it was
00:08:56Weren't we always meant to be?
00:09:00What if it went?
00:09:03What if it went?
00:09:07What if it was this time?
00:09:26Who the hell are you?
00:09:31Charming.
00:09:32Naves me thinking last night was a memorable one.
00:09:35Memorable?
00:09:37Oh God.
00:09:39Did we?
00:09:42Did we?
00:09:43Jesus, do you want me to spell it out for you?
00:09:47Last night.
00:09:48Did you and me?
00:09:50We...
00:09:51Did we hook up last night?
00:09:53My sister never said anything about you having memory problems.
00:10:00Your sister.
00:10:03Oh, you're Karen's sister.
00:10:05The one that's a magnet for relationship train wrecks.
00:10:14Shit.
00:10:15Sorry.
00:10:16I didn't mean to...
00:10:18Hey, don't worry about it.
00:10:20No point sugarcoating my reality with women.
00:10:23Besides, I'm sure I'm not the first woman to still be single in my 20s.
00:10:28I don't know about you, but I need coffee.
00:10:31Not for me, thanks.
00:10:33I can't drink this stuff before midday.
00:10:36Why's that?
00:10:38If I drink coffee too early, I become an instant morning person.
00:10:43I prefer being a night owl.
00:10:47You're alright.
00:10:48I'd say no.
00:10:48So how long are you planning on staying?
00:11:18Funny, I was going to ask you the exact same thing.
00:11:25Well, seeing as the chances of getting a new place any time soon are pretty slim, I'd say
00:11:30I'm here for the duration.
00:11:32I think we've got something figuring out to do.
00:11:37I need to speak to my sister.
00:11:44No, no I didn't.
00:11:49This place isn't big enough for the two of us, Karen.
00:11:53Are you serious?
00:11:59Next you'll be telling me to welcome three dodgy wise men with open arms.
00:12:06I'm glad you find this so amusing.
00:12:13Oh what good you are!
00:12:21Well looks like we're stuck together.
00:12:46Yay.
00:12:48It's not my idea of paradise either, but it is what it is.
00:12:53So how about we lay down some ground rules?
00:12:58Such as?
00:13:00Rule number one.
00:13:02Let's respect each other's personal space.
00:13:04And we keep the place clean and tidy.
00:13:07Rule three.
00:13:09No loud music or TV after 9pm.
00:13:12Oh come on, you're just treating me like a kid now.
00:13:14It's about mutual respect.
00:13:16We need to co-exist peacefully.
00:13:18Peacefully?
00:13:19We're not at some peace conference.
00:13:22Look, if we're going to be roommates isn't it about give and take?
00:13:26Okay.
00:13:27But can we at least agree on being as quiet as possible during the night?
00:13:31Deal.
00:13:33But only if weekends are exempt.
00:13:37All right, that'll do for now.
00:13:41Look, I'm going to try and grab a few hours sleep.
00:13:44We can try again when I get up.
00:13:47Try what again?
00:13:50Getting off on the right foot.
00:13:53Oh.
00:13:54Right.
00:13:55Oh so I take it you get the bed then?
00:14:00Unless you want to share.
00:14:06How about...
00:14:07No.
00:14:08No.
00:14:09No.
00:14:10No.
00:14:11No.
00:14:12No.
00:15:14Oh, you're awake.
00:15:17Your music woke me up.
00:15:20Shit, sorry. I was trying to keep it down.
00:15:24No, it's okay.
00:15:30Hi, I'm Nikki.
00:15:32Yeah, I know who you...
00:15:35Oh, is this the starting again on the right foot up?
00:15:40Jay.
00:15:40A drink?
00:15:44Yeah, I think there's some wine in the fridge.
00:15:48Do you think you should be drinking again after last night?
00:15:51You were pretty wasted when I found you.
00:15:55Was I?
00:15:56Yeah, you was.
00:15:57Well, in that case, a hair of the dog is exactly what I need.
00:16:02So you're a musician?
00:16:24Sort of.
00:16:25I like to play around with instruments and make some noise.
00:16:29Come on, you're being humble.
00:16:32What I just heard was incredible.
00:16:34Did you write it?
00:16:36Yeah.
00:16:37I'm still working on it.
00:16:38It's my masterpiece in the making.
00:16:39Do you mind me asking what the inspiration behind it comes from?
00:16:47I'd rather not say.
00:16:52Okay.
00:16:53Well, whatever it is, I'd say carry on.
00:16:55Music's always been my sanctuary throughout all the highs and lows.
00:17:09I'm drawn to the power of storytelling.
00:17:13So I write my own songs.
00:17:15I find beauty in words, even in the darkest moments.
00:17:20We can have a jam session, if you're up for it.
00:17:29Yeah.
00:17:29Yeah.
00:17:32Let's start with the basics.
00:17:34Meet your new best friend, the guitar.
00:17:43Oh, it sounds so beautiful when you play.
00:17:47But trust me, it's not as hard as it looks.
00:17:51Here, take it.
00:17:51Oh.
00:17:58You want to feel the strings under your fingers.
00:18:01They're your friends.
00:18:03Place yours right there.
00:18:05Let me ask you the things I still don't understand.
00:18:22Answers you gave.
00:18:26I don't comprehend things you say.
00:18:31I mean, that's a lot.
00:18:33I mean, that's a lot.
00:18:33Ways you've behaved.
00:18:36Nights I've laid.
00:18:40Next to you awake.
00:18:44Trying my best.
00:18:47To fall asleep somehow.
00:18:51Wrecking my brains.
00:18:55Over things you said just now.
00:18:58They hurt so bad.
00:19:00I don't think you realize the impact you have on me.
00:19:14Who's she?
00:19:27That's enough for one day, I think.
00:19:30Alright, pick this up another time.
00:19:44I think I don't see, things you try to hide, feelings you feel, you keep them deep inside.
00:19:58In your eyes I see, every little thing you cannot hide from me, I feel it through your skin.
00:20:14I can't tonight.
00:20:32I haven't actually. I've got a date.
00:20:38Yes, a full-blinded one.
00:20:40Look, Sal, it's just a drink. It's not wedding bells.
00:20:49I've got to go.
00:20:52Hey!
00:20:54I've brought you something.
00:20:57Oh.
00:21:00A guitar spoon!
00:21:02I do like it. I noticed how much music meant to you.
00:21:06Evie, it's perfect.
00:21:10My pleasure.
00:21:11Sail on, off the radar
00:21:24And venture, away from this
00:21:29Trouble, it will fight you
00:21:36It's behind you
00:21:39It always is
00:21:42Unfold from my mind
00:21:45I don't want you near
00:21:49If you killed me with kindness
00:21:52I'd no longer feel you here
00:21:58You've fallen for someone new
00:22:02A feathered heart forgets everything that's true
00:22:11Thank you for a lovely evening
00:22:13You're welcome
00:22:14I'm holding on to somebody like you
00:22:24You're here
00:22:26In every
00:22:28Melody
00:22:31That I sing
00:22:36I'm returning the table
00:22:39I refuse
00:22:44To let you in
00:23:00Oh, painkillers
00:23:03I need painkillers
00:23:04Wait
00:23:17Where's my drink?
00:23:19In the bin, where it belongs
00:23:22You threw away my booze?
00:23:24Are you crazy?
00:23:26Quite sane actually
00:23:28I'm not going to live with someone who's got a drink problem
00:23:31A drink problem?
00:23:32Yes
00:23:35Trust me, I know the signs
00:23:37Yeah, I'm not your dad
00:23:41My mum actually
00:23:43And that's besides the point
00:23:45I'm not going to live that nightmare again
00:24:03What the hell?
00:24:05Is this some kind of OCD nightmare?
00:24:07It's called being organised
00:24:09It's how normal people live
00:24:11Normal?
00:24:12This isn't going to work, is it?
00:24:14I thought we'd already decided there isn't a better alternative for either of us
00:24:17If I wanted this much order
00:24:20I'd have joined the army
00:24:24I'm going to get something to eat
00:24:26And a hair of the dog
00:24:27If that's okay with you
00:24:28It's okay with you
00:24:29I can sense your chaotic energy from here
00:24:43Well let me know when you're back from the spirit realm
00:24:46I need to say something
00:24:48I'm listening
00:24:52I'm listening
00:25:05Look
00:25:12About earlier
00:25:14I'm sorry
00:25:16I'm
00:25:18I'm not quitting the booze
00:25:20But I will cut down
00:25:22And I won't get wasted
00:25:24How's that?
00:25:26It'll have to do I suppose
00:25:29And
00:25:31I'm sorry for being so anal
00:25:33It's alright
00:25:35You weren't that bad
00:25:37But the sticky notes
00:25:39There's got to be a better way of getting your point across
00:25:44I'll work on it
00:25:46Good
00:25:50Do you want to watch a film?
00:25:52I've got goodies!
00:25:56Seriously?
00:25:58After what you said about not drinking
00:26:00Relax
00:26:02It's alcohol free
00:26:04You're right about one thing
00:26:06I definitely need to give my liver a break
00:26:09Good
00:26:11I'm glad you've come to your senses
00:26:13I said break, not retirement
00:26:15So come on
00:26:17Do you want to watch a film or not?
00:26:21Sure
00:26:25Horror or rom-com?
00:26:30Definitely a horror
00:26:38Lights on or off?
00:26:40Off
00:26:50Horror?
00:26:51What the fuck are you doing here?
00:26:53To put an end to all this?
00:26:55If I were to ask you to leave Genevieve alone would you?
00:26:57It doesn't matter what I do
00:26:59She's with Paul now, she doesn't want to be in a relationship with me anymore
00:27:00Nice try but I know you told her the truth
00:27:02And don't you fucking use the word relationship as though it's normal
00:27:04A relationship is something human beings have, not fucking animals like you
00:27:06What the fuck are you doing here?
00:27:07What the fuck are you doing here?
00:27:08To put an end to all this?
00:27:10If I were to ask you to leave Genevieve alone would you?
00:27:13It doesn't matter what I do
00:27:15She's with Paul now, she doesn't want to be in a relationship with me anymore
00:27:18Nice try but I know you told her the truth
00:27:21And don't you fucking use the word relationship as though it's normal
00:27:25A relationship is something human beings have, not fucking animals like you
00:27:27Fucking animals like you
00:27:57Oh
00:28:16Are you expecting someone?
00:28:21Oh crap yeah I forgot I ordered a pizza earlier
00:28:25Mind pausing the film?
00:28:27Becca?
00:28:50Hungry?
00:28:52Not for me Hanks
00:28:58You only need an ambulance
00:29:01Now
00:29:02Fuck
00:29:10Sure I can't tempt you
00:29:16Don't know what you're missing
00:29:18Well
00:29:21In that case
00:29:23I better find out
00:29:24I better find out
00:29:30Easy come
00:29:32And easy go
00:29:34You're an unfading star
00:29:37A gentle love
00:29:38A gentle love
00:29:39The kind that it
00:29:40Lifts you out
00:29:41No matter how far apart
00:29:44I guess you could call it chance
00:29:47But we know it's more than that
00:29:50It's like we've always
00:30:09Hey, where are you?
00:30:11At home, in bed. Where are you?
00:30:14Just wandering around.
00:30:16I was hoping to bump into a certain someone.
00:30:19Stalking me, are you?
00:30:21No, I just thought you might be around.
00:30:24Yeah, it's too early for me.
00:30:26Oh, so you're a night owl like me.
00:30:29It's unbelievable how alike we are.
00:30:32Well, they do say opposites attract, but I guess we're the exception.
00:30:37Or maybe we just have impeccable taste.
00:30:41Okay, I'll go with impeccable taste.
00:30:44Seeing your face as early makes waking up worth it.
00:30:48Smooth talker, eh?
00:30:50Yeah, only when I'm talking to you.
00:30:55Where are you?
00:31:01The spot we shared our first kiss.
00:31:03Yeah, that one.
00:31:05Yeah, I should be out with you because you seem like you're having way too much fun without me.
00:31:11Wow.
00:31:12You could always come and join me.
00:31:14It's not the same without your gorgeous smile.
00:31:17You think my smile is gorgeous?
00:31:19Yep.
00:31:20It's got this magical ability to make my heart skip a beat.
00:31:24Or maybe I should start charging an admission fee for the heart skipping experience.
00:31:31Definitely.
00:31:32I would pay top asking price for that.
00:31:35Or maybe I'd give you a discount.
00:31:37How generous.
00:31:39Discounts aside, can I expect you to grace me with your presence today?
00:31:43Shall I meet you in, say, half an hour?
00:31:46Great.
00:31:47I'll try to contain my excitement until then.
00:31:49Yeah, you do that.
00:31:50See you soon.
00:31:51Can't wait.
00:31:52Me neither.
00:31:53Me neither.
00:32:53Um, did you sleep all right?
00:33:00Yep.
00:33:07Hope I didn't snore.
00:33:11I was out of it. I wouldn't have noticed.
00:33:23Watch out for the incoming sugar crash.
00:33:28I can handle it. Besides, you weren't exactly shy about eating all the pizza last night.
00:33:38Touché.
00:33:38Touché.
00:34:03Problem?
00:34:04them? Yeah, you could say that. My business is flatlining. Business? You never said anything
00:34:15about owning a business. Well, it's not exactly a corporate empire. More like a niche service.
00:34:22A niche service. Spill the beans. I curate travel packages for lesbians looking for romantic
00:34:29getaways. Really? What's it called? Suffig escapes. That sounds really exciting. How did you get
00:34:39into it? I spent four months travelling and met so many lesbian couples frustrated by the
00:34:46lack of options for inclusive and welcoming travel experiences. So it got me thinking there
00:34:53was a gap in the market and I figured I could help fill it. Sounds like a smart idea.
00:34:59I'm sure it will pick up again soon. I hope so. There's something special about couples
00:35:08going on a trip together. Making memories. Building a stronger connection. It's magical, really.
00:35:20I never pegged you for being a hopeless romantic. I'm not. At least, I'm trying not to be
00:35:32anymore. I've been way too trusting and naive when it comes to love. Even when the red flags
00:35:41were waving right in front of my face were waving right in front of my face.
00:35:46It's not easy. I can change you in ways you never expected.
00:35:52It sounds like you've been through a lot. Let's just say I've had my fair share of
00:36:01lessons. Heartbreak just seems to be part of the learning curve I guess. Maybe love's about
00:36:09finding balance. Not to be too naive. Or not too guarded to let it in either. Hmm. To finding
00:36:19the sweet spot. Right. I'd better get my shoes on. I've got a meeting at ten. All right. Who would?
00:36:34I'll tell you when I get back. I don't want to jinx myself.
00:36:37Um, look, Jay, um, about last night. What about it? Well, doesn't it feel a little strange?
00:36:55Strange? In what way? Us acting like nothing happened.
00:37:00We had sex, Nikki. We didn't rob a bank. Yeah, I know. But still,
00:37:09I don't want things to get awkward between us. It won't unless we make it. Let's not overthink it, yeah?
00:37:15What's up?
00:37:30Oh, yeah. Um, Karen's just sent me a silly cat meme.
00:37:36All right. See you later. Yeah, see ya.
00:37:45I don't feel
00:38:13Blimey, he'll scrub a hole in it at this rate.
00:38:34Was that meant to be funny?
00:38:36Yeah, I figured a little humour won't hurt.
00:38:39If you weren't a walking tornado of mess, I wouldn't have to do this.
00:38:44Mess.
00:38:45Okay, I admit I'm not the tidiest person alive.
00:38:47Jade, living with you is chaos.
00:38:49I thought I'd be able to handle this, but I can't.
00:38:51This is all too much.
00:38:56You really are like Jekyll and Hyde.
00:38:59One minute you're easygoing, and the next you're acting like you're unhinged.
00:39:04If you need space, I can go stay.
00:39:06No.
00:39:09It's not one, man.
00:39:13Why is it so hard for people to just be honest with me?
00:39:22Is it too much to ask for some straightforward answers?
00:39:25It's the way I hope, and someday I won't feel enough anymore, cause it's hard to say.
00:39:37But every day I wake, I wish, wish that I won't wait.
00:39:42I get it, you know, about needing order to feel safe.
00:39:48But life isn't always that way.
00:39:51It's messy.
00:39:52Sometimes it's in the mess.
00:40:00We start figuring stuff out.
00:40:05Maybe you're right.
00:40:06I can't believe that you just admitted that.
00:40:13Neither can I.
00:40:18I've got to go.
00:40:19I don't want to be late.
00:40:21Nikki.
00:40:23You need to be kinder to yourself.
00:40:26Nobody's perfect.
00:40:27Not even you.
00:40:29And that's okay.
00:40:31So you don't have to be.
00:40:36I don't feel, I don't feel the way I should.
00:40:48When I look at me, I don't recognize that girl.
00:40:55Hey, where's the fire?
00:41:10Something amazing happened today.
00:41:13Come on then.
00:41:14I got a gig.
00:41:16Oh my God, that's amazing.
00:41:17I need to find an outfit.
00:41:23Do you want to help?
00:41:24Yeah, sure.
00:41:25Okay.
00:41:37Okay.
00:41:40Wow.
00:41:41Definitely not this one, unless you want to sparkle like a disco ball.
00:41:48Yeah, I don't know what I was thinking when I bought that.
00:41:51Obviously wasn't thinking, that is.
00:41:56Oh.
00:41:58How about that one?
00:42:01Nah.
00:42:02That's my Monday motivation shirt.
00:42:04Okay.
00:42:05What else is in here?
00:42:06Wait.
00:42:11I've got just the thing for you.
00:42:15Look at that.
00:42:17What do you think?
00:42:19You look so hot.
00:42:23I, um...
00:42:25You want to stand out, don't you?
00:42:28I suppose.
00:42:31Oh, right.
00:42:32I'll wear it.
00:42:33I'll be there when you're giving up.
00:42:59Nothing is missing here.
00:43:01You don't need to shed a tear, no doubt.
00:43:04If you feel like you just don't know.
00:43:07When it's getting emotional.
00:43:09Don't need to have my feelings.
00:43:13You seem like there's something else in your mind, Nikki.
00:43:16What's going on?
00:43:18It's, um...
00:43:20It's Jake.
00:43:22What about her?
00:43:24I meant to be going to a gig tonight, but...
00:43:26I don't know if I can.
00:43:28Why?
00:43:29What's the problem?
00:43:29I don't know how to explain it.
00:43:34I mean, she's just a roommate, right?
00:43:38But lately...
00:43:39I've been feeling...
00:43:42Confused.
00:43:46Confused how?
00:43:48It's like...
00:43:49I can't stop thinking about her.
00:43:51And every time we're together, I just...
00:43:54I feel this pull towards her.
00:44:00Are you saying you have feelings for Jay?
00:44:06I think so.
00:44:08Does she know?
00:44:10I hope not.
00:44:11To be honest, I don't want her to.
00:44:13It would just make things awkward between us.
00:44:15You can't keep your feelings bottled up inside.
00:44:18Maybe Jay feels the same way.
00:44:20Maybe she doesn't.
00:44:21But you won't know unless you talk to her.
00:44:24God, it's been so long since I've had a girlfriend.
00:44:27I don't even know how to speak to women anymore.
00:44:31But I want more than just casual sex.
00:44:33I don't know why.
00:44:34I mean, let's be honest.
00:44:35With your track record,
00:44:36you should know more than anyone
00:44:38that love is not all it's cracked up to be.
00:44:42Maybe.
00:44:44Unfortunately, I'm one of those people
00:44:45who can't do without one or the other.
00:44:47So what are you going to do?
00:44:51What would you do?
00:44:52Depends how I was feeling.
00:44:55If I was in a sadistic self-flagellation mood, I'd go.
00:44:59Sadistic self-flagellation mood?
00:45:01What does that even mean?
00:45:03You know, the kind of mood where you do things
00:45:05that are probably a bad idea,
00:45:07but hey, they might be entertaining.
00:45:09So you're saying I should go for the drama?
00:45:11Exactly.
00:45:12Embrace the chaos.
00:45:13Worst case, it's a good story for later.
00:45:16And if you weren't up for that option?
00:45:18Hmm.
00:45:19If I wasn't feeling like subjecting myself
00:45:22to a potential emotional rollercoaster ride,
00:45:25I would skip it.
00:45:27Probably curl up with some chocolate
00:45:29and binge watch a show.
00:45:30If there's one guarantee in life, Nicky,
00:45:33it's that chocolate never, never disappoints.
00:45:38Hey, Nicky, what's up?
00:45:44Hey, Nicky, what's up?
00:46:00Hey, Jay, not much.
00:46:02Just out running some errands.
00:46:04What about you?
00:46:05Good, just getting ready for tonight's gig.
00:46:08Speaking of which, you coming?
00:46:10Oh, yeah.
00:46:12About your gig, um...
00:46:14You know, I really want to support you.
00:46:17Why do I feel like there's a big buck coming up?
00:46:20And I don't mean that in a literal sense.
00:46:24Um...
00:46:24I really want to come, but...
00:46:28Oh, I just remembered I have this, um...
00:46:31cheese tasting.
00:46:33Yeah, it's a good appreciation night.
00:46:36Can't miss it, you know, so...
00:46:38What?
00:46:39Cheese tasting?
00:46:42Nicky?
00:46:44You hate cheese?
00:46:47Oh, come on, Nicky.
00:46:48Don't bail on me now.
00:46:50It won't be the same without you.
00:46:53Hey, Jay, um...
00:46:54Sorry to cut this short,
00:46:55but my batteries are only really low.
00:46:57I'll try and make it tonight,
00:46:59but, um, I can't promise anything, okay?
00:47:02I'll, uh, I'll let you know.
00:47:03I'll let you know.
00:47:33I'll let you know.
00:48:03You're still up, are you?
00:48:12I couldn't come to my gig, huh?
00:48:17I told you I might not be able to.
00:48:20Save it.
00:48:22I'm not interested.
00:48:26I'm sorry, I...
00:48:27Oh, you don't owe me anything.
00:48:33Jay, I care about you.
00:48:36A lot.
00:48:37Yeah.
00:48:38Just not enough to come to my big night.
00:48:41Some cheese event was more important.
00:48:46Cheese?
00:48:47Oh, I didn't end up going there either.
00:48:50You know, I've got a lot on my play at the moment.
00:48:54Yeah.
00:48:56You and everyone else.
00:49:00You don't understand how much it would have meant to me.
00:49:04You being there.
00:49:05I know it was important to you.
00:49:11I really am sorry I missed it.
00:49:14It is what it is.
00:49:17I'll know better next time.
00:49:20No, you're just being petty.
00:49:23Petty?
00:49:23Really?
00:49:24Really?
00:49:26Who's the one making excuses?
00:49:31It's not as simple as you think, Jane.
00:49:40What isn't?
00:49:46Jesus Christ, will you just tell me?
00:49:49What, like you told me that you're still in love with a woman that I can't compete with?
00:49:58That I know I haven't known you long enough to be feeling like this, but I can't help myself?
00:50:04That I'm going to get hurt again like I always do?
00:50:09Is that what you want to hear, Jane?
00:50:13Does it change anything?
00:50:14No, I didn't think so.
00:50:21So, no.
00:50:24It doesn't matter.
00:50:25Well, of course it matters.
00:50:27You can't just drop a bombshell like that on me and walk away.
00:50:32I'm sorry.
00:50:34But like you said,
00:50:36life's a mess.
00:50:39I just don't have the energy to clean it up anymore.
00:50:44I think it's time for me to leave.
00:50:55I can't keep crushing and burning in someone else's orbit.
00:51:02Not even yours.
00:51:03Why am I always my own enemy?
00:51:16Stronger is something I want to be.
00:51:19Hope keeps on breaking on the kitchen floor.
00:51:22I want more than this.
00:51:24I'm not good at being nice to me.
00:51:27Always something else I want to be.
00:51:29Every time I feel different than before, I get torn from it.
00:51:36Ooh, I got knocked down again.
00:51:42Ooh, but I get back up from it.
00:51:48Time turned out to be a thing that burned me in the end.
00:51:55But pain is just a season all the worst things always meant.
00:52:00My heart doesn't break even though I'm trying to learn to be okay with it.
00:52:06Because if I came up in pieces...
00:52:09I've been staring at this blank page for hours.
00:52:12Trying to find the right words to tell you.
00:52:14But it's so hard.
00:52:18I know I've hurt you.
00:52:20And I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am.
00:52:25The thing is...
00:52:28Losing Evie broke me in ways I never could have imagined.
00:52:30A part of me died as well.
00:52:35And ever since, I've been struggling to move on.
00:52:39But I can't.
00:52:41I hope someday...
00:52:43When I'm in a better place...
00:52:46We can reconnect and start over.
00:52:50With love.
00:52:52And regret.
00:52:54Jay.
00:52:54My heart doesn't break even though I'm trying to learn to be okay with it.
00:53:02Because if I can't love me in pieces...
00:53:05Then it won't work when I'm facing you.
00:53:17My heart doesn't break even though I'm trying to learn to be okay with it.
00:53:23Because if I can't love me in pieces...
00:53:27Gotta feel it keeping you...
00:53:32Till the pieces are fixed...
00:53:39I'm glad your new place is working out.
00:53:42Me too.
00:53:43It's perfect.
00:53:45For the first time I'm free to breathe and just be myself.
00:53:49Sometimes a fresh start is exactly what you need.
00:53:51Yeah.
00:53:56I caught up with Jay recently.
00:54:04And?
00:54:06How's she holding up?
00:54:08She's doing much better, actually.
00:54:09Grief counselling has helped her to work through her emotions.
00:54:15She's had to face her guilt she felt about Evie's accident.
00:54:18Why did she feel responsible?
00:54:21They'd been arguing.
00:54:23Jay called it quits.
00:54:25But just as she walked away...
00:54:27A drunk driver jumped to the curb and hit Evie.
00:54:31She died right there in Jay's arms.
00:54:32That's so sad.
00:54:33I just wish she could find him in me sooner.
00:54:34I wouldn't have acted so clueless.
00:54:35You weren't clueless.
00:54:36Sometimes we don't see the signs when we're too close to the situation.
00:54:37I'm proud of how far you've come these past few months, eh?
00:54:38I'm proud of myself too.
00:54:39For the first time in a long time.
00:54:40It's not about being a bad self-server.
00:54:41So sad.
00:54:43I just wish she could find him in me sooner.
00:54:46I wouldn't have acted so clueless.
00:54:48You weren't clueless.
00:54:49Sometimes we don't see the signs when we're too close to the situation.
00:54:53I'm proud of how far you've come these past few months, eh?
00:54:56I'm proud of how far you've come these past few months, eh?
00:55:03I'm proud of myself too. For the first time in a long time.
00:55:07It's not about fixing my control issues or chasing perfection.
00:55:13It's about embracing the messiness of life and trusting I can handle whatever comes.
00:55:21Hey, what are you two up to?
00:55:24Oh, hey Jay. What a surprise to see you here. Oh, you know, just soaking up the view.
00:55:35How about you? How's your living situation going?
00:55:38I'm still crashing at my mates, starting to feel like a guest who's overstaying their welcome, so I'm starting to think about other options.
00:55:47Options?
00:55:50I'm thinking of moving back home.
00:55:52You left because you hated it.
00:55:56Well, I don't really have much choice at the moment, do I?
00:55:58I have space at my place. You could stay with me.
00:55:59Well, that's a very tempting offer. But I would need to move in as something other than just a roommate.
00:56:08I think that would work for me.
00:56:09Oh, and one more thing. No more sticky notes or labels.
00:56:10Oh, come on.
00:56:11How else am I supposed to go to school in place?
00:56:12I don't think this is going to be a beautiful one.
00:56:13No other way.
00:56:14No.
00:56:15I have space at my place. You could stay with me.
00:56:17I think that's a very tempting offer. But I would need to move in as something other than just a roommate.
00:56:22Just a roommate.
00:56:30I think that would work for me.
00:56:33Oh, and one more thing.
00:56:35No more sticky notes or labels.
00:56:37Oh, come on.
00:56:39How else am I supposed to keep things tidy?
00:56:52Keep going.
00:57:20All right, you two.
00:57:22Don't get too carried away in public.
00:57:24Keep it for the bedroom.
00:57:32Shall we go?
00:57:33Yeah.
00:57:38Oh, you think those post-it notes are bad by the way.
00:57:40When she was a little girl, she would be so organised.
00:57:44I want to have all her toys.
00:57:46I got labels of them.
00:57:48The way you let me on.
00:57:50To think that maybe I could be the one.
00:57:53And baby, I thought you would hold together.
00:57:56Flow forever.
00:57:57But your heart's been changing like the weather.
00:58:00Oh, I thought you were different.
00:58:01I had to take the weather.
00:58:02Oh, oh, oh, oh.
00:58:03Oh, oh, oh.
00:58:04Oh, oh, oh, oh.
00:58:05Hey, hey, hey.
00:58:07I thought, baby, you were different.
00:58:08Didn't need attention to someone decent.
00:58:10Now you're acting so nauseous.
00:58:11I'm calling this puppy love.
00:58:13So I'ma take my heart and go.
00:58:14I'm acting so nauseous. I'm calling this puppy love. So I'ma take my heart and go. I'ma take my, I'ma take my, I'ma take my heart and go. I'ma take my, I'ma take my, I'ma take my heart and go.
00:58:33Let my head fall over my high heels. And you're acting like it's no big deal. Then you say that we were daydreaming. I can't even believe you're asking why I'ma leaving.
00:58:52Oh, I thought maybe you were different. Didn't need a tendency so decent. Now you're acting so nauseous. I'm calling this puppy love. So I'ma take my heart and go.
00:59:12I'ma take my, I'ma take my, I'ma take my heart and go
00:59:18Fool me once, won't fool me no more
00:59:30Fool me once, won't fool me no more
00:59:34Fool me once, now I'm out the door
00:59:37Gonna take my heart and go
00:59:40Fool me once, won't fool me no more
00:59:43Fool me once, won't fool me no more
00:59:47Fool me once, now I'm out the door
00:59:50Gonna take my heart and go
00:59:52Fool me once, won't fool me no more
00:59:56Didn't need a change, just don't want to sit
00:59:59Why your hand is so nauseous, I'm holding this puppy love
01:00:03I'ma take my, I'ma take my heart and go
01:00:07Fool me once, won't fool me no more
01:00:10Fool me once, won't fool me no more
01:00:14What's the time, won't fool me no more
01:00:16unsë‚ , fail mine
01:00:17Ain't I good enough
01:00:18Fool me once, won't fool me no more
01:00:19Fool me once, won't fool me no more
01:00:22Optimism is all sweet
01:00:24And oneo spoonful
01:00:26Fool me once, won't fool me no more
01:00:29When the day I know
01:00:33Put my heart gibksam
01:00:36Wilma be fast