Kristen Doute Welcomes Baby Kaia with Fiance Luke Broderick

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00:00it's crazy that we have an actual human like she's ours and she's here and i'm like you get

00:05we just take her home now and that's what it's it's wild

00:09it is very wild to have the tiniest little human i feel so incredibly connected to her

00:23it's like she's literally a part of me like and she knows my smell my heartbeat she knows my voice

00:29she's she was she grew as a part of me so i like i don't even have words it's it's a very wild

00:37feeling to just have this like small baby who you just have to like look at each other's eyes i mean

00:43she can't really make eye contact yet she can't see a damn thing but it's like she hears my voice

00:48or she hears luke's voice like their bond is incredible as well and it's so wild like how

00:53how similar they are in the way that they're both very strong but how different

00:58each of our relationships are with her at seven days old i hope that i am not a helicopter mom

01:06because that is just so my style um i think luke will definitely be more of the disciplinary that's

01:15not really up my alley at all i just feel like and i've said this before that like if she she looks

01:22exactly like luke like that is his twin but if she has a lot of my personality i mean there's no one

01:27better on this earth to raise a little kristen than me i know exactly what to do i know exactly

01:32what not to do i know how to get her to listen i know what's gonna make her rebel so i'm i'm not

01:38worried about any of that i think i'm worried about being a little bit of a pushover i'm a little bit

01:45worried about being maybe too much of her friend than like a hardcore parent because i was such a rebel

01:53like against those kinds of things but i want her to be more adventurous than i am i want her to be

02:00less anxious than i am i want her to be a lot more like luke in those ways like i want her to tell me

02:06that she's gonna go bungee jumping and go surfing and go swimming with sharks and like all the things

02:10that i would never in a million years do that will terrify me if she says that she wants to do them

02:15that he's gonna be like cheering her on for i want all those things for her i'm an extremely impatient

02:21person um but with her it's completely different like all i have is patience and grace for her

02:28like it we're learning like i said earlier we're all just learning together i am like i just want

02:35to make life easier for her even seven days old like if she cries i want to fix it and i know that

02:40i can't her whole life i'm not gonna be able to fix everything but that's what i will do my damn best

02:46to do is like fix what i can and teach her to fix the things that she'll have to do on her own but i

02:52have incredible patience for her and i think that will not change over time at all she's maybe the

02:58only person that i have patience for i mean again like i feel really lucky i feel really fortunate but

03:03just that like you just have to trust you just i mean if it's god if it's the universe whatever it

03:10is that you believe in like you just have to trust the plan and and kind of take it day by day and see

03:16how things go um it's it's really easy to think the worst because for me especially after us having

03:25a pregnancy loss the year before it's really easy to start duping yourself into thinking like this is

03:30impossible and it's easier to think it's not going to happen because i don't want to get my hopes up and

03:35if i get my hopes up and then i'm let down i protect you know it's like i need to protect myself

03:40but manifesting the best thing that can happen and once you're pregnant manifesting an easy labor

03:47like why think that it's going to be scary and bad and everything's going to go wrong

03:51if it happens it happens and you have to take that with a grain of salt take it step by step but it's

03:57so much healthier a much healthier mindset to say no this is going to be good we have each other's

04:03kickbacks everything's going to be amazing everything's going to go swimmingly and great

04:07so what i would have what i know moving forward like we would love to have a second if if that's

04:14possible for us um i'm sure we'll need the help again with our fertility doctor which

04:20let's rock and roll i'm super down i hope that you know we're that lucky but i don't i also feel

04:26like i know what to expect a little bit more next time around i think it was just really scary of being

04:31like my first i was very vocal like on my podcast and on social media like my first trimester was

04:37really awful and i did get some negative feedback of people being like i mean how dare you say that

04:43it's hard at least you can have a baby but i want women to know that it is okay to feel like

04:50and it is okay to not enjoy your pregnancy and it doesn't mean you don't love your baby

04:55um kylie kelsey's podcast i remember when she first started her podcast and she is pregnant with

05:01her fourth and she said she hated being pregnant and she has four kids but she was like it's a means

05:06to an end you don't have to enjoy the pregnancy to be grateful to have the baby oh 100 i after our

05:14pregnancy loss i was like this is it like what are we what are we even going to do is he i mean luke and

05:20i had talked about this well before we were living together even i'm like i'm eight years older than

05:27him it was like well what if you know what if none of it works what if we try every last thing and none

05:32of it works and he was still standing by me because i'm like he could go be with anyone he could be with

05:36a younger girl he could go marry a young girl that is super fertile myrtle and not have to like deal

05:42with my geriatric infertile ass you know and he would just down to down to stay with me he loved me and

05:52he was like we'll figure it out as we go um yeah so i don't know i just feel lucky i mean he luke is like

06:01someone i say this a lot but like he is someone who really lives in neutral i am not someone who lives in

06:07neutral like i am roller coaster high and low i'm super happy or i'm really anxious and he's just

06:14kind of very even keeled and that's how he was throughout our entire fertility journey it was just

06:19he was there to like just keep me calm he allowed me to cry he allowed me to be upset he allowed me to

06:27feel all the feelings but at the same time never let me live like in that low and i think that was the

06:35most important part was like keep keep our hopes up but not say like oh get over it or like it's

06:42gonna be fine like i don't even know why you're upset about it or things like that because that's

06:45like my self-talk was i i should be so grateful right now what am i being sad about or you know the

06:53opposite like it shifted so much and him being so even keeled was really helpful

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