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00:00What is this?
00:00It's Tondra's VDA.
00:02What?
00:03Previously on Virgins.
00:05Embrace.
00:06To just start touching women right away,
00:09especially being a virgin.
00:10It's just awkward for me.
00:11Can I unbutton you a little?
00:12Go ahead.
00:13Your first match was with Andrea.
00:16I am blown away, because this woman is very good looking.
00:22I want you to be open to maybe somebody average?
00:26A little bit?
00:27Let's not use the word average.
00:28She needs to get over the pretty boy syndrome
00:31and get back to reality.
00:33I'm trying to help you.
00:34I want sex in my life.
00:36I want to find someone that I want to have sex with.
00:39Hello.
00:40But I knew from the second I sat down
00:43that this was not my man.
00:47I am going to use the dilators
00:49that the pelvic floor therapist gave to me
00:53to stretch out my pelvic floor muscles.
00:56Oh.
00:57If this is so painful, then sexual intercourse
00:59might be out of reach for me.
01:02I am driving to meet Mr. Zach.
01:07Meeting the right person does open me up
01:09to have a sexual encounter.
01:12Well, my situation is I am still a virgin.
01:19My nerves is, they're getting really bad.
01:23What if he walks away?
01:24What if he walks away?
01:26Well, my situation is I am still a virgin.
01:40Well, is it?
01:43Well, is it?
01:44Are you OK with that?
01:45Um, I don't know.
01:49Are you religious like that?
01:50To where it's like that?
01:52Because I'm not going to lie, I'm not.
01:53I'm not religious.
01:54I'm spiritual.
01:55It's not like I am waiting for marriage because I'm not.
02:00You're dropping some heavy news on me right now.
02:03I know.
02:04What is going on?
02:06Yeah.
02:06I am vibing with Rasha, but not going to lie,
02:08it definitely threw me for a curve.
02:11I wouldn't suspect somebody like Rasha being a virgin,
02:14especially at her age.
02:15The only concern that I would have is just what kind of
02:18difference is I'm not religious.
02:19I'm spiritual.
02:20It's not like I am waiting for marriage because I'm not.
02:23You're dropping some heavy news on me right now.
02:26What is going on?
02:27Yeah.
02:28I am vibing with Rasha, but not going to lie,
02:30it definitely threw me for a curve.
02:32I wouldn't suspect somebody like Rasha being a virgin,
02:34but I don't know what I have is just what kind of damage
02:36or what kind of things were going on in her past
02:39relationships.
02:40But I enjoyed our witty banter.
02:42I really enjoyed our jokes.
02:44I kind of enjoyed the spicy, you know,
02:46comments that we were making to each other.
02:48So that's what kind of made my nerves
02:50a little bit easier going.
02:52Yeah, I mean, shoot, um, well, I respect you for that.
02:57Wow.
02:58He's okay with it.
02:59And I think he sees the integrity in it
03:02and that makes me feel good.
03:04So, no worries.
03:05We'll break that barrier sooner or later.
03:10Lord, let me get a drink.
03:12I'll drink to that.
03:14The conversation that we are having is real.
03:18Mm-hmm.
03:20I have never felt chemistry like this with anyone before.
03:28This, this, it was real.
03:32And I'm glad I got that off my chest, too,
03:34because, you know, I want to be honest.
03:35And that's all I want in a person.
03:37That's kind of the qualities I want is straight forward.
03:40Mm-hmm.
03:41Honesty.
03:42And the number one thing is communication.
03:45I am feeling like, is this guy, like, the one?
03:48I'm actually really digging this date.
03:50Yeah.
03:51Yeah?
03:52Mm-hmm.
03:53Is he, like, the one that I'm going to, like,
03:57be intimate and have sex with?
03:58What would it be like having sex with him?
04:00Ooh, it looks a little windy.
04:02I hope my dirt will fly up.
04:03Mm-hmm.
04:04I want mine at all.
04:07You know, just interacting with him
04:09and having that comfortability makes me feel like,
04:14is this the guy I'm going to, like, be clapping cheeks with?
04:17Possibly.
04:19Well, I had a great time with you.
04:21I had a great time with you.
04:21I hope to see you again.
04:22Mm-hmm.
04:24All right.
04:44Hi.
04:45Welcome to Laura's Head-Turner.
04:46Hi, man.
04:47It's cold.
04:48Yes.
04:48I am ready to lose my virginity, but I'm feeling nervous
04:53because I'm going on my first date with Andrea.
04:57So I think this is the perfect opportunity
04:59to get a whole new look.
05:01All right.
05:03You know, my sisters have been on me about my hair.
05:07When are you going to get a haircut?
05:08Dude, I could see.
05:09Oh, my gosh.
05:10If you were sitting back there, you'd be able to see it.
05:11Listen, I'm going to get that cut soon.
05:13I can see the hair growing over the side of the ear.
05:14You know, my beard, my back hair, my chest hair, my eyebrows.
05:19Literally my whole body.
05:20Alex, your eyebrows.
05:21I've got to work on those.
05:22I feel like you're going to fly away.
05:24I know.
05:25Okay.
05:26Even though Andrea liked me looking like this, I'm hoping the new look keeps her interest.
05:32However, I'm not just doing it for the date, I'm also doing it for myself.
05:37Hi.
05:38I'm Stephanie.
05:39Nice to meet you.
05:40Nice to meet you.
05:41So what are we doing for you today?
05:43Um, well, I want to get this waxed.
05:46Okay.
05:47What I'm going to have you do is remove the top portion of your clothing.
05:50Okay.
05:51And then I'm going to have you lay down head up.
05:52All right.
05:53All right.
05:55You're welcome.
05:56I know it's going to hurt, but it's getting done by a professional.
06:02So I know it's going to be quick and it's going to be clean.
06:05I'm not sure which is going to be more painful, my chest or my back.
06:09You excited for this?
06:12Oh, very.
06:13Okay.
06:14We're going to start out the belly first.
06:15Count that one.
06:16I'd rather have it.
06:17Oh, okay.
06:18You feel that one?
06:23Yeah.
06:24I feel that one a lot.
06:25I feel like the higher we go, the more painful it's going to be.
06:28Ah, ah, ah.
06:29Okay.
06:30You're actually slightly true on that.
06:32Oh.
06:33Yeah, that one was really thick.
06:36Am I regretting any of this right now?
06:38Oh.
06:39There's a lot of hair on that one.
06:42One thousand percent, yes.
06:44You doing good?
06:45Great.
06:46This pain feels like a thing.
06:54It feels like a thousand needles being pulled out of my skin.
06:57Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah.
07:00Okay.
07:01That feel good?
07:02Not really.
07:03Okay.
07:04Ah.
07:05Oh.
07:06I'm going to have to get more wax.
07:09Ah, ah.
07:11Got your belly button length.
07:18I think we're good.
07:20Do you want to do your back?
07:21No, thank you.
07:22Okay.
07:23Right now, it is burning.
07:26Um, there's a little, a little blood, but I do like the way it looks very clean.
07:32I feel disconfident.
07:35I think we're good.
07:36So no going into a sauna or a pool for 24 hours.
07:41Hot showers?
07:42Can you do that?
07:43You can do a hot shower.
07:44We just don't want the bacteria in like something like a hot tub.
07:47Okay.
07:48And then I typically suggest people not to have sex because the rubbing sensation can cause a little chafing too.
07:53That's a good note.
07:54Okay.
07:55Appreciate that one.
07:56Being a virgin, I think I can avoid sex.
07:59I don't think it's going to be a hard one for me to follow.
08:03Ah.
08:04Ah.
08:05Ah.
08:06Ah.
08:07Oh.
08:08I don't know if I'm going to do this on the regular.
08:11Ah.
08:12All smooth?
08:13Oh, dude.
08:14That was painful.
08:15Oh.
08:16So what are you thinking here?
08:18You said you want to do something different.
08:20Yeah.
08:21I got a date.
08:22You got a date?
08:23Yeah.
08:24That's cool.
08:25Get rid of this mammoth mess.
08:26Yeah.
08:27100%.
08:28Get your neck.
08:29Yeah.
08:30Make me look handsome then, Johnny.
08:31Alright.
08:35The fear of rejection is still there.
08:39I don't like making excuses.
08:42But in order for me to find a partner, I feel like I have to change something.
08:48It's tough.
08:49You know, I'm 34.
08:50I mean, maybe I peaked in high school.
08:51It's tough to deal with in your 30s because you feel like you're not where you should be
09:04like other people are.
09:06And then being single and virgin, it's commendable to some people, but I don't know.
09:19It's just, it's rough.
09:21I don't know.
09:22I don't know.
09:23My eyebrows are just horrible.
09:26Everyone always says they look angry.
09:28Don't wear angry eyebrows.
09:30We're going to take the beard down a good bit.
09:34I am 100% obsessing over everything because it's important to me because this is the first
09:41date I've been on in so long that I don't just want it to go well.
09:47I need it to go well.
09:49I really want to find that connection, that intimacy, the love.
09:53In order to do that, you need to look good and you need to feel good.
09:58And this is just one step closer to that happening.
10:02Ready?
10:03I'm ready, dude.
10:04Is it really that bad that you're going to take it out on these crunchy mugs?
10:11Yes.
10:12I think it's frustrating to really be trying to meet someone and there not being anybody
10:15there that I'm super into.
10:17Everyone's just like, give them a chance.
10:18Give them a chance.
10:19I'm tired of not having a sex slave.
10:21Hey, boy.
10:22How old are you?
10:24But I get frustrated when people push me.
10:26Go ahead.
10:27Go have that conversation by yourself.
10:29Go yourself.
10:30I don't think I'll ever be able to have sex.
10:33I have this whole psychological obstacle when it comes to sexual intercourse.
10:37Had you ever masturbated?
10:39I see you giggling.
10:40I feel so uncomfortable.
10:42The first thing you need to do is make friends with your own vagina.
10:46Like, ew.
10:48Ew.
10:49All right.
11:03I got some tea to spill, you guys.
11:07So, a couple things have happened since I've been on my date with Zach.
11:14As the conversation began to continue on, there were some red flags.
11:22You know what?
11:23Matter of fact, let me let y'all know what happened.
11:25So, I sent him some selfies that I took of my Halloween costume, which I thought was very cute.
11:30He wrote me this.
11:32He says, it looks really fun.
11:35And I said, it is fun.
11:36And so, I set up a date to go to the selfie showroom where you just take selfies in different rooms and different backdrops.
11:44And I thought that was going to be fun.
11:47But I guess he didn't feel the same way.
11:50He goes on to say, and I'll see you tomorrow for the stupid self .
11:54Now, that, I feel that's disrespectful.
11:58You know, I put effort and time into planning something like this.
12:01And for him to say that, kind of this was like a red flag to me.
12:05So, I don't think I'm ever going to see him again.
12:07From my past experience with my ex-husband and how he made me feel horrible.
12:14Now, when I see a red flag in a man, it makes me shut down immediately.
12:18Like, I don't even want to entertain it.
12:20I am not ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever going to give a man another opportunity to hurt me.
12:28And that's on period.
12:37The dilators address the physical obstacle I have when it comes to sexual intercourse, i.e. vaginismus.
12:54But it's more complicated than that.
12:56I have this whole psychological, emotional barrier.
13:00My pelvic floor therapist is the one who referred me to a sex therapist.
13:05Because I want to have a sexual, physical relationship with a man.
13:11Sonali.
13:12Hi.
13:13Hi.
13:14Nice to meet you.
13:15I'm Kimberly.
13:16Hi, Kimberly.
13:17Ready to come on back?
13:18I'm ready.
13:19Okay.
13:20My name is Kimberly Resnick Anderson.
13:21I have been a sex therapist for 32 years.
13:24Because I work with a lot of women with vaginismus,
13:27Dr. Heather Jeffcoat referred Sonali to me to address the psycho-emotional parts.
13:34How are you feeling today?
13:35I'm excited and nervous.
13:37Yeah?
13:38What are you nervous about?
13:39The topic.
13:40Okay.
13:41I'm a proud prude.
13:42A proud prude.
13:44I understand you visited Dr. Jeffcoat for some pelvic floor physical therapy.
13:49She did a pelvic floor exam.
13:51She did?
13:52She was able to go in a little bit.
13:54She gave me a box of dilators.
13:56I've only tried the smallest one and it's only gone in that much.
13:59Okay.
14:00It's an unusual sensation.
14:01Yes.
14:02A sense of fullness that you're not used to experiencing.
14:05I don't think I'll ever be able to have sex.
14:07Yeah?
14:08Because it'll just be too painful.
14:10So you would like to get to a place where you're able to have penetrative sex.
14:15So before I clarify, I need to share with you two other things.
14:20Please.
14:21My parents are from India.
14:23Mm-hmm.
14:24And the way I was raised, I was forbidden from dating.
14:27No boys.
14:28The boys are bad.
14:29So what were the messages in your family about sex?
14:32Yeah, we never talked about it.
14:34I learned about sex from fourth grade health class.
14:37Mm-hmm.
14:38I used to actually believe that you couldn't actually do it until you were married.
14:43So my first kiss didn't happen until I was 26.
14:47I've only been kissed by six men.
14:49Okay.
14:50I'm a beam of love who's bursting with passion.
14:53I fell in love with just one kiss.
14:56Prior to age 26, had you ever masturbated, even as a girl or an adolescent?
15:04Yeah.
15:05No.
15:06And the thought of that, I see you giggling.
15:12What does that conjure up for you?
15:15It's dirty.
15:16Dirty.
15:17It's bad.
15:18Okay.
15:19I think Sonali is a really good example of how early life messaging and cultural beliefs
15:26around sexuality get so deeply ingrained.
15:30That is a clue to me that there is more of a psychological component to her vaginismus than a strictly physiological one.
15:41Do you ever feel any energy in your body, like pulsating in your loins?
15:50What's a loin?
15:53In your pelvic area, do you ever feel like a tingling?
15:57Do women have loins and do men have groins?
16:00Is that how it is?
16:01Whatever I know, I've learned from television.
16:03I used to watch Sex and the City.
16:06It is a juvenile approach to sexuality and an immaturity around sexuality that feels like she might be stuck in young adolescence.
16:18Do you know where your clitoris is?
16:21Where the G-spot is?
16:27I know there's three holes in our lady parts.
16:31Okay.
16:34I know that I've never worn a tampon.
16:36It's always been pads.
16:39Quite frankly, it is really awkward for me to talk about the female lady parts.
16:45This is completely unchartered territory for me.
16:48I feel so uncomfortable.
16:50I think the first thing you need to do is make friends with your own vagina.
16:57Let's box some boys.
17:15Entering the most eligible bachelorette.
17:18Ready?
17:19Easy money.
17:20Let's go.
17:21I'm tired of not having a guy in my life.
17:24I'm tired of not having a sex life.
17:26So it does get annoying when you really be trying to meet someone and they're not being anybody there that I'm super into.
17:33Sometimes I'm just like, just go have sex with someone you don't care about and be like, here, teach me how to do all these things.
17:40But then I'm like, I don't want that.
17:41There we go.
17:44Do you hear those smacks too?
17:46Has dating really gone that bad that you're going to take it out on these crunchy mugs?
17:49Yes.
17:51Like I want to just snap my fingers and be in a relationship and not have to do the same thing anymore because I hate it.
17:57There's no chemistry, no spark with anybody.
17:59I've been going on a bunch of dates through my matchmaker, really trying to find some sort of spark there.
18:05Hello.
18:06Hello.
18:07How are you?
18:08Deanne, nice to meet you.
18:09Hello.
18:10How are you?
18:11Hi.
18:12I'm Deanne.
18:13Nice to meet you.
18:15It has been a struggle.
18:17There's been no sparks at all.
18:18Like I haven't been attracted to any of these guys except for maybe a waiter.
18:25I've given them all a chance and I've learned even more that I need that initial attraction.
18:30I need that initial something there to even go on a second date.
18:34Nevermind start a sexual relationship.
18:36Have you had a lot of relationships in the past?
18:40Let's do it.
18:41Let's do it.
18:42Yay.
18:43Yuck.
18:48I'm also not finding guys that I like click with chemistry wise but also like I haven't been finding any to guys that I'm attracted to physically either.
18:57So I've been trying to give them a chance even if I'm not physically attracted to them.
19:00Watch me.
19:02And everyone's just like give them a chance, give them a chance, give them a chance.
19:06And then I'm giving them a chance and it's going nowhere.
19:09So I need to stick to what I think.
19:10And if I don't find them attractive, I just need to not go on a damn date.
19:13We really want Deanne to find a man and start having sex because she's in her mid-30s.
19:17So now she's overthinking it.
19:19She is trying harder.
19:20And I think she's learning that in this process that they're not going to just appear in front of her.
19:25Since she's the one that has like the pickiness of what she wants, she's the one that needs to go find the man.
19:31Yeah, there's plenty of guys that would like her.
19:33She just doesn't like them back.
19:35Do you think anyone's cute in here, Deanne?
19:38I don't.
19:39I'll put you over there.
19:40I think they're 17 years old.
19:42Too young for you.
19:43What if we just ask them how they are?
19:45They're just young.
19:46Just like get a radar.
19:47Just correct our radar.
19:48We're going to say it's enough.
19:50No?
19:51Hey, boys.
19:52Listen to me when I say you.
19:54How old are you?
19:59What?
20:00I get frustrated when people push me to do things I don't want to do.
20:03She doesn't care how old they are.
20:05Yeah, she doesn't care how old they are.
20:06Go ahead.
20:07Go ahead. Ask.
20:08Why?
20:09For the fun of it.
20:10Go ahead.
20:11Go have that conversation by yourself.
20:14Well, I think we need to find you a situation where it's going to be a lot of guys and you can like speed date and have a lot of options.
20:21Okay.
20:22I am down with this conversation.
20:24Sometimes I get like annoyed with them when they're like pushing like, what about this guy?
20:27What about this guy?
20:28Just go out there and give him a chance.
20:32It's frustrating that I'm pushing Deanne to meet guys and she gets annoyed at me, but I think Deanne has built sex up over time in her mind.
20:39So now it's like a big monster.
20:41She's scared to go after.
20:43That pressure intimidates me and I get nervous and I don't really know what to do.
20:50Like, go on guys.
20:51Never.
20:52Ugh.
20:53Just leave me the hell alone.
20:54Like, I'll find someone when I find someone.
20:55What do you want us to say?
20:56I don't know.
20:57Just say whatever.
20:58I don't know what to say.
20:59Oh.
21:00Oh.
21:01Okay.
21:02I definitely want to get suspended, but I don't want to die.
21:06I'm not a virgin.
21:07Legs up.
21:08Yeah.
21:09Wow.
21:10So this is the clitoris here.
21:17I want you to put your hand inside this puppet.
21:21Like this?
21:22Yes, exactly.
21:23I am a little embarrassed as Kimberly is educating me about the female lady parts.
21:29And that is where your G-spot is.
21:40Do you know where your clitoris is?
21:44Where the G-spot is?
21:46I am a little embarrassed like a little girl as Kimberly is just educating me about the female lady parts.
21:54The first thing you need to do is make friends with your own vagina.
22:00I'm going to show you a puppet that I have here.
22:03Okay.
22:04This is a vulva puppet.
22:06Anatomically correct.
22:07Okay.
22:10So this is the clitoris here, this little fleshy bulb.
22:15This is the most sensitive tissue on the human body.
22:20I think the vagina puppet is interesting.
22:23It is pretty.
22:24It's red and pink and assortment of other colors.
22:28And then this is the urethra, the little rose in there.
22:33Do you see?
22:34I want you to put your hand inside this puppet.
22:37You're going to put your fingers inside and push that area up behind the urethra.
22:44Like this?
22:45Yes, exactly.
22:46Like the come hither motion.
22:47And that is where your G-spot is.
22:49What do you think the G in G-spot stands for?
22:53I have no clue what to say.
22:54Maybe?
22:55Gosh, oh gosh.
22:56I would encourage you to explore your own genitals for yourself or help guide a man's hand in the future.
23:14The problem is I need a man who will take the time to earn my trust before I can let anything physical happen.
23:21Okay.
23:22When I selectively go out on dates, 99% of men don't want to take the time to do that.
23:27They want sex just like that.
23:29Yeah.
23:30Do you assume that any man you meet will be that way?
23:33Yeah.
23:34Do you feel like your pain might be a defense against getting hurt emotionally?
23:39I agree with that.
23:40Yeah?
23:41I'm on guard.
23:42I'm wondering if you would be open to considering a sexual surrogate.
23:48Is that something that you've heard of?
23:52No.
23:53A sexual surrogate is someone who is trained to help people feel more comfortable in a sexual capacity.
24:04It's quite rare for me to recommend something like this to one of my patients, but I think in Sonali's case, her vaginismus is so tied to comfort.
24:15I do worry that if she doesn't try broadening her sexual expression, that she'll be stuck.
24:22It can be all the way to intercourse or just receiving touch.
24:29If we keep clear parameters that this is for sexual exploration only, working with a sexual surrogate might unlock something for Sonali.
24:40It's an opportunity to sort of practice in a safe environment.
24:45Um...
24:47Don't...
24:50Sexual surrogacy sounds like having sex with a stranger.
24:56I am absolutely terrified.
24:58That's just not something I would ever want to do.
25:02This is new stuff.
25:04Well, I'm going to tell you, you're going to have to make some changes and tolerate some risk and some vulnerability.
25:10This is your problem.
25:11I don't want to...
25:13If you're not changing it, you're choosing it.
25:16Then we go round and round like a carousel.
25:26It did bum me out that Zach turned out to be not the person that I expected.
25:31I just want to be able to lean on somebody.
25:34You know, I'm tired of being strong.
25:36It's like the whole damsel in distress thing.
25:38Like, I really do want a man to come sweep me off my feet.
25:41All right, this is it.
25:46But if I'm ever going to lose my virginity, I have to keep on putting myself out there and exploring my sexuality.
25:52So I signed myself up for a class.
25:56It is a Shafari Japanese rope tying class.
26:01And I'm going to get tied up.
26:06What's attractive to me about BDSM and bondage is because, I don't know, just like letting go of control and just a powerful man is sexy AF.
26:18And to be like submissive under that, baby.
26:24Hello, welcome.
26:26Come on right in here.
26:27Hi.
26:28How you doing?
26:29I'm Scarecrow.
26:30I'm Rasha.
26:31How you doing, Rasha?
26:32Good.
26:33Nice to see you out here.
26:34This is Lady.
26:35So you're looking to learn some rope here with us today, huh?
26:38Yes.
26:39All right.
26:40You ever had any experience with this before?
26:41No.
26:42No? Okay.
26:43Well, we'll certainly get you learning some stuff here.
26:44We'll get you all tied up.
26:46No, I don't have experience with ropes.
26:49And no, I don't have experience with anything, Scarecrow.
26:52What we're going to be working with here is nylon ropes.
26:55I've seen things.
26:57I've looked things up.
26:58But I don't know anything about BDSM besides just being tied up and hung from a ceiling fan.
27:04Hog tied.
27:05Slept around.
27:07Am I nasty?
27:08Yes.
27:11If I can have you hold on to these two.
27:16Oh, okay.
27:17Mm-hmm.
27:18I am excited to experience my fantasy and to see how it makes me feel.
27:25Mm-hmm.
27:26Today, I'm getting ready for my date with Andrea.
27:32I got a new look, new haircut, and I'm feeling very nervous because I don't want to mess it up.
27:39I want it to go perfect.
27:40Well, hello there.
27:48I want to show you the full body harness.
27:51Okay.
27:52That gives you that feeling all over.
27:54Okay.
27:55What I do is the art of shibari, the Japanese art of binding.
28:02We're binding to set people free, to let who they are on the inside really come out.
28:12I am actually still a virgin.
28:15Have you ever had anyone do this that was still a virgin?
28:19Oh, there's been all sorts of people here.
28:21We popped a lot of cherries, so to speak, when it came to that.
28:25Believe it or not, that's not as uncommon as you may think it is.
28:28A lot of people here have been late bloomers or just never experienced anything like this at all.
28:35Everyone's welcome here.
28:38When you tie up people like this, do you, like, do, like, the spanking stuff?
28:42Mm-hmm.
28:43Yeah, we can do that, too.
28:44Wow.
28:45We can use our floggers or paddles, any kind of impact play or wax play.
28:51I mean, if you've got a kink for it.
28:53What's a flogger?
28:54Uh, this is a flogger.
28:56Oh!
28:58Okay, can I try it?
28:59Yeah, sure.
29:00Okay.
29:01All right.
29:02All right.
29:03Is it going to be hard?
29:04No, no, it ain't going to be hard.
29:05We'll start out nice and soft here.
29:07We'll use a check-in system here.
29:08Red, yellow, green now.
29:09All right.
29:10Green.
29:11Green.
29:12Ciao!
29:14Wow.
29:15Green, yeah.
29:16And it's very exciting.
29:17I feel really good.
29:18Mm-hmm.
29:19There's also thuds.
29:20I like that one.
29:21You like that one?
29:22Okay.
29:23Okay.
29:24I think she likes it, yeah.
29:25Okay.
29:26I like it.
29:27It's fake with the flogger.
29:28Okay, a couple more times.
29:29Let me see.
29:30It did not hurt at all.
29:31It was just like something that I needed all my life.
29:51This harness that they're working on here is going to be a suspension harness.
29:56suspension harness as we can put these harnesses on you and then suspend you
30:02from something like this ring or the bamboo oh wow you want to go up i do trust
30:12scarecrow because he's a professional but i am nervous because of my weight you
30:18know i know i lost weight but i'm still conscious about that may have you open
30:21up open up a little more thank you i definitely want to get suspended but i don't want to die
30:28i'm not a virgin now are you ready yeah okay all i want you to do is lean back okay oh oh okay
30:38oh wow do you feel more comfortable with your legs up wow when somebody is experiencing
30:58their first suspension they normally just light up and are radiating joy
31:04oh do i look like a honey-baked ham but rasha is absolutely blissful i can feel the enthusiasm
31:14coming off of her like heat wow all right now um scarecrow feel that whole harness vibrate and
31:30run around oh my gosh yes that's the idea oh being suspended and having this experience definitely
31:37confirms this is what i want to get into oh my god i need to meet a man with ropes and a flogger
31:49i like a scarecrow i like it i'm glad you like it having this experience definitely makes me more
31:55sexually charged i am definitely getting closer to wanting to have sex with the right guy you know
32:02i'm waiting for the right guy come on bro with the right man i definitely can get things moving where
32:09where is he yeah big purd needs him like she oh my god man oh wow
32:26all right all right all right look the new me i love the new look all right let's go sorry
32:48um yeah do that one
33:00so today i'm getting ready for my date with andrea and i haven't gone on a date in like
33:0510 plus years i knew i got a new look new haircut new beard style and i'm feeling very nervous because
33:10this is the first step into leaving my celibate life behind you know the fact that i was able to set
33:17up a date with andrea it's making me feel more confident but if it goes bad i really hope i don't
33:23get back into that slump
33:34i'm really trying to get myself not to overthink the situation and then just calm myself down
33:40i don't want to mess it up and i don't want to say the wrong thing or do anything dumb i wanted to go
33:45perfect well hello there
34:02well hello there oh my gosh
34:06okay you look awesome you look awesome you look amazing i am so surprised because the alex that i met
34:24the other night had a bigger beard you know he was wearing this plaid shirt and crinkly jeans let's go
34:31all right all right i love that he got dressed up for me and that he's so clean shaven it really
34:37tells me that he put a lot of effort into seeing me today all right well let's like do the thing
34:42shall we let's go i picked go-karting because i don't know what girls like i just hope andrea's into
34:48it or i'm messing this up before it even started oh you're about to get your butt whoop just prepare
34:53yourself alex i like a little friendly competition okay listen i'm as competitive as they come so
35:00if you think you can handle the track let's go all right ready three two one go
35:07i'm really happy that this is the date alex planned
35:24this is an opportunity for us to really just like have fun oh my god and play up our energy
35:31that we've already connected and been like together oh i'm gonna get you
35:41seeing andrea's adventure side is a big turn on
35:47you know we're vibing we're having a good time we're laughing it's tough to even think about actually
35:52telling her that i'm a virgin or that i live at home and i feel like if i told on the first date
35:58this might be our last i've done these kinds of dates before not quite this first date go-karting
36:06is is the first have you done any kind of adrenaline-like dates like this either oh i've um rode four
36:14wheelers before sorry four wheelers four wheelers okay so that's outdoors yeah what else what are your
36:25favorite spots in town spots well this strip right here is pretty fun uh they shut down the street and
36:32they have festivals no i don't go to all of them because it's just i like to be social i like people
36:37but like too big a crowd is one thing and you know listen i'm all for being extroverted but then i need
36:44time at home i want to be like a little bit of a hermit and read a book and snuggle in yeah it's nice to be
36:50at home with you know my family and hanging out you know watching football on sundays but uh what
36:55does that look like tell me go-karting was the easy part but now talking one-on-one that's where it
37:01always get in my head and now we're drifting dangerously close to me telling her about my situation
37:08i'm one of three so so i have i have two older sisters two older sisters yeah i'm the youngest of
37:13three how did you end up getting like your you know your your dose of boy time i played a lot of
37:18sports so like i didn't really have a lot of time to even hang out so were you the you know the star
37:23baseball player no actually i was um into soccer and i ended up playing varsity you played varsity
37:30must have gotten all the girls come on varsity soccer player no didn't really get any no it's i wasn't um
37:42i wasn't really uh i feel like i'm kind of walking through a minefield during this date
37:51my mind's going a mile a minute trying to figure out if i should reveal to her that i am a virgin
37:57because i don't want to ruin this everything's going great i feel like if i tell her too soon
38:02she's going to take it as a red flat i feel like i need to push this off for a little longer
38:06you know dating like kind of sucked in high school i didn't really i didn't really date and
38:16high school it kind of like leads you to like college it didn't help better either oh really
38:24interesting where did you go to college university of north texas i majored in broadcaster oh cool
38:29yeah so like hold on okay do you have a like a voice do you have the ever reporter voice good
38:37evening cincinnati this is andrea reporting to you live that was awesome i won't i won't i won't that
38:47that was amazing alex and i have so much chemistry it is so important for me to have someone who can be
38:56this silly and this goofy and i am excited to see what happens uh just curious would you be interested
39:06in going on another date hmm that's a hard one to answer no no of course i would like to see you
39:16again alex sweet yeah this was a lot of fun all right awesome i'll just clean the stuff up here all
39:21right we sat yeah we'll get out of here i'm very relieved that andrea said yes to a second date but
39:28i'm also thinking to myself you know i'm not being 100 honest about my past can i give you a hug
39:40thank you i really enjoyed myself me too alex walk me to my car of course awesome let's go
39:47i've never connected with someone like her i feel nervous i feel overwhelmed i don't know what i'm
39:57doing
40:02and not having the experience
40:06and not knowing what i've what i'm not knowing what to do i don't want to mess it up
40:13all right bracing the cold let's go
40:20don't look so nervous it's just cold water this is the first time that i'm feeling some
40:25type of excitement about a guy are you guys ready to take the plunge but is he gonna run
40:30away when he finds out that i don't have sexual experience
40:32you know what this place reminds me of like a bdsm dungeon like what are the odds we did not talk
40:43about bdsm in our messages at all funny story i just went to a place like that oh
40:51you know i never brought a girl up in my room and having a girl not just in my room but on my bed
41:01is really nerve-wracking you're the king of the castle here that's awesome i actually live in the
41:06parents
41:09kimberly mentioned that i should talk to a sex surrogate i feel like it's so uncomfortable for you
41:15the idea of touching yourself where is this going here like do you see what is going on in circles
41:20really right because you're different genders we're different cultures this is different
41:24you wouldn't understand i can't help it this is who i am