00:00You hear about a woman being raped and you think, oh, that's just so awful, poor thing, how is she going to get over this?
00:06And I didn't want to be that person.
00:09The fact that it had happened to me was bad enough, but then to communicate in a single word what had happened to me, to someone else, was very real and, you know, comes with a whole basket load of emotions.
00:30It's almost as though those times are blank.
00:40There was shock and everyone was so upset and disturbed.
00:49When my husband found out what happened to me, he was really angry and hurt.
00:55And being a police officer, how frustrating, you know?
00:58He's the guy that helps to solve the crime, that locks the bad guy up, and it's his own wife.
01:07You almost can't avoid having this event having an emotional impact, a sexual impact.
01:15That was her, both of us, the kiss of death on our marriage.
01:19You know, I mean, sometimes I just needed a hug.
01:28Sometimes I just needed space.
01:31Sometimes I needed to just scream in a pillow and beat something up with a bat.
01:36But, you know, reality is, I can only stay gone from teaching for so long before I had to get back to work.
01:45I had students to deal with, you know, some of whom had, if not outright knowledge, some idea that I had been through something that was bad.
01:56They tested hundreds of people, and things just weren't coming back.
02:08There was no match.
02:10As time went on, I really had to come to terms with the fact that my case might be one that was never solved.
02:18The truth is, particularly important.
02:25This is a matter of recognition.
02:26This is the fact that I don't have to be second of time.
02:27I feel like it is a joystick.
02:28This is the fact that my które is 둘 of us.
02:30And this cannot be very stable.
02:35This is true.
02:37As long as possible, like to speak.
02:38Such a treasure.
02:39This is the fact that I cerc previously loved you.
