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YOURBUDDY
  • 5/22/2025
#gay #gaymovies #gayfilm #lgbtq
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00:00I can't see it coming.
00:10Why not?
00:11Because then I'll tell you to stop.
00:14Is that so bad?
00:16Yes.
00:18Just promise you won't let me see it coming.
00:22I promise.
00:25But I wouldn't know where to start.
00:27I'll help you.
00:57We should set some rules of engagement.
01:13Alright.
01:17Let's set them.
01:20What are they going to be?
01:21It has to happen when I least expect it.
01:45When I'm distracted or unaware.
02:06Preferably when I'm at my lowest.
02:21Not like this.
02:26You mean when you're happy?
02:29Exactly.
02:34Not when I'm happy.
02:59You mean when you're happy?
03:07You mean when you're happy?
03:09Yeah.
03:14You mean when you're happy?
03:16Yeah.
03:16Um...
03:17You mean when you're happy?
03:17I might even know if you don't know where I'm at my house i want.
03:18I might know if I can see it coming.
03:19It doesn't count here.
03:21Are you going to miss me when I die?
03:45I don't think there will be a moment I won't grieve you.
03:49Is that what you want from me?
03:51I think you'll be fine, after a few months.
03:59Do you really believe that?
04:02I'd like to.
04:06How am I even supposed to do this?
04:11Just wait for my cue, you'll know when you see it.
04:19What's the big plan?
04:33So, what's the big plan?
04:47I could micro-dose you with poison over a long stretch of time.
04:57Okay, but now I'm going to see it coming, because you swirled it, so you can.
05:04How do you know that?
05:07Maybe I've been doing it this whole time.
05:10That time will tell.
05:13I can't.
05:14I can't believe it.
05:18I can't believe it.
05:20I don't know.
05:50Fuck.
06:20Fuck.
06:22Fuck.
06:24Fuck.
06:26Fuck.
06:28Fuck.
06:30Fuck.
06:38Why do you want this?
06:44I'm tired.
06:48Of what?
06:51Pretending like I have a future.
06:56But you do have a future.
07:05Knowing that I want.
07:07What kind of future do you want?
07:21The one where my family wants to be in the picture.
07:25Where they'll celebrate me and my partner.
07:37At a big stupid party.
07:39One of my brothers would talk to me.
07:49One where I knew that I wasn't doomed.
07:53No matter what I chose to do.
07:55No matter what I chose to do.
07:58Because it was a choice I could stand behind.
08:02And not regret.
08:07I don't see why you couldn't have that future.
08:09I don't think I'll live to see you that day.
08:20Why not?
08:24Well, it's not like you're rushing to take me to an altar.
08:28No.
08:29I'm too busy wondering if I have to rush you to an emergency room.
08:36Fair.
08:43You don't think about our future though.
08:49No.
08:50I don't have to.
08:52Why?
08:56Because no matter what.
08:57I'll always love you.
09:02That's enough for me.
09:10Convenient.
09:27You don't see me in your future?
09:33When did I ever say that?
09:38You didn't.
09:40But you also didn't say that you did.
09:44So I'm just curious.
09:45I haven't really thought about it.
10:00And even if I did.
10:02I don't know.
10:04I don't know.
10:07All I would think about is how I want my whole family there.
10:10Maybe my sisters.
10:12But it's like.
10:14What's the use in reaching for something if I can't celebrate my love with all of them?
10:18Don't look at me like that.
10:27Like what?
10:29Like we're doomed.
10:31You know I got a text from my mom last week.
10:45My brother's getting married.
10:47Apparently he wants the whole family there.
10:49A text.
10:51I got invited over text.
10:52And it wasn't even from the man of the hour himself.
10:53You know to your point.
10:55What's the use if we can't celebrate it?
10:57There isn't one.
10:59I just die a little bit inside.
11:00And then I die a little bit more.
11:01And so I ask my partner to help me embrace death.
11:03And what am I supposed to do with that?
11:05Hmm.
11:07Dementia.
11:08Carlito.
11:09What am I supposed to do when all I want is to feel loved and grounded.
11:13And to believe you whenever you say it every morning.
11:15You know because.
11:17I definitely can't self love it away.
11:18And I can't routine it away.
11:19And I can't therapy.
11:20What's the use if we can't celebrate it?
11:22What's the use if we can't celebrate it?
11:23What's the use if we can't celebrate it?
11:24There isn't one.
11:25I just die a little bit inside.
11:26And then I die a little bit more.
11:27Until I ask my partner to help me embrace death.
11:30And what am I supposed to do with that?
11:31Hmm.
11:32Deme.
11:33Carlito.
11:34What am I supposed to do when all I want is to feel loved and grounded
11:37And I can't therapy it away.
11:39And I definitely can't fuck it away.
11:41So what am I supposed to do?
11:47Face the haunt.
11:57What do you want?
11:59With you?
12:01With me. Without me.
12:03Humor me.
12:05What does Carlito want?
12:07I don't want you to die.
12:11I don't want to help you die.
12:13I never wanted to live to see that day, Tonito.
12:17What day do you want to live to see?
12:21The day I'm not worried.
12:25I have to bury you in a grave of your own making.
12:31To death do us part, right?
12:35You don't want to marry me.
12:37That doesn't apply to us.
12:39That's perfect.
12:41You know, I want to live to see that day too.
12:45But I don't have the luxury of making somebody else's problems the centerfold of my existence.
12:51Now I'm doomed to live a circus show full of exhaustion and neglect that's just too much for you to handle.
12:57But wait, wait, wait.
12:59What do you want to say, Carlito?
13:01You get what you want.
13:03You get to live your existential crisis-free life uninterrupted.
13:05You know, a lot of people live with suicidal ideation.
13:09I want nothing more than to be with you the rest of my life.
13:15But I can't do this if you don't believe that this is enough for me.
13:19That you are more than enough for me.
13:22But I'm fucking sick of you not understanding how hard this is for me.
13:30You're not the only one that wants to die, Tonito.
13:32You're just the only one wallowing in it.
13:34You're just wallowing in it.
13:44I think you should go.
13:57You know, one thing's for sure. I wasn't expecting this.
14:04Let me know in the comments.
14:08I'm doing a lot of work.
14:14I'm doing a lot of work.
14:16I can't do them.
14:18I can't do it.
14:19I can't do it.
14:20I can't do it.
14:22You can't do it.
14:24I can do it.
14:26I can't do it.
14:29I can do it.
14:30Hey, Luis, yeah, it's me, your brother.
14:58I got Mom's text.
15:03Congratulations, by the way.
15:07You know, I thought about going, but it's really fucking shitty that you couldn't invite
15:12your brother yourself.
15:14You know, it really makes no difference whether or not I go.
15:19So I'm calling just to tell you that I am fucking done.
15:24I don't need the person who abandoned me when I was 12.
15:27Letting me know how much they love everybody else more than they love me.
15:31I don't need to be reminded of that.
15:34So, here's to the fucking group.
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18:07The fear, the grief, and we will let those things die when we're ready to try again.
18:37Yo no te quiero perder, tampoco me quiero perder.
18:50Yo no te quiero perder, tampoco me quiero perder.
18:59Pero porque me pruebas las cosas no son como son
19:05Pero me señas que no puedo confiar en tu corazón
19:12No puedo confiar, no, no
19:29No puedo confiar en tu corazón