Sonali Bendre On Fighting Cancer

Sonali Bendre opens up about why she chose to go to the US for her cancer treatment.

Transcript

00:00I did go to the U.S. I went to New York for my treatment. My husband was very clear about

00:08it. He said I don't want to take any chances. My husband was very clear about it. He said

00:25I don't want to take any chances. He had got the appointments and we had just taken

00:29them off. So I kept fighting with him saying that you know how can you just stop everything.

00:34But when I reached there and I got to know the extent of this, somewhere I did honestly

00:38feel thank God I am here. He said that you know I know we would have got great care here

00:42and touch wood we have the means to and the connections to and the relationships where

00:50we could tap on people. But the fact remains that we went to a place where this is what

00:56they dealt with. The only disease they dealt with was this. So his logic was that if for

01:01so many years they are only dealing with cancer and its various types of cancers, so much

01:06so that the place that I went to, the entire building was dedicated to just these types

01:10of cancers. That means there has to be something in which when you are obviously doing it constantly

01:16for so many hours, there is definitely going to be more data that is collected, there is

01:19going to be more intuition that is going to be there. He said you were at the stage where

01:22I did not want to take a chance on this. And in his words what he said was that I would

01:29rather say that oh I overthought it and I overreacted rather than later on feel that

01:36I should have done it. He said I did not want to take that chance.

01:46I would say that if I was at an earlier stage, I would have definitely not gone. Because

01:51I knew we could be dealing with it. But when you were at a stage where it was like we don't

01:55know where this is going to go next, then you didn't want to take a chance on it.

02:09I did not look at what was happening to me and did not ask too many questions as I should

02:15have. A couple of points to that. Probably it comes from the fact that as women, without

02:22knowing in the subconscious, we are all taught that you have to bear a child, bear the pain.

02:32We are all being told that somewhere. So you kind of internalize that and you are always

02:38thinking that you know what, I can bear the pain and you can go on. And I kept telling

02:43myself that I am putting in an 18 hour day, so obviously I am fine, I am not dying, but

02:48I was. And when I look back and I say how did I do that? So then the question was that

02:54why did I put up with this pain? What was I waiting for, for me to collapse? To understand

03:02what my body was trying to tell me. So it comes down to that, that the body was sending

03:06me signals, I was not looking at it as I should have looked at it.