Feeling emotions is nerve-wrecking for me: Rashmika Mandanna

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On Rashmika Mandanna's 27th birthday, here's a throwback to 2021 when the actor opened up about having trust issues and self-doubt, and how she overcame them.  : Bollywood Bubble

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00:00I have fear of emotions when you're just smiling and saying I'm fine

00:03You're not fine. If I give my heart to anyone, it's just completely I'm so scared of that

00:30When people are happy, I feel you try to hide my sorrows behind a smile like you said

00:38But what happens is people sometimes who are even close to you, they fail to see the pain. Have you ever

00:46Felt that in life? All the time. Like those sleepless nights when I see sleepless nights

00:54Though in number of nights, I have cried myself to sleep

00:59I would just look at something and just get lost and in my

01:03Like it's been hard like I think in 365 days at least and without exaggerating

01:09I think 100 days, 150 days. I'm just been with crying myself to sleep

01:14It's not been easy. And I know when you when you say, you know

01:20People can't really tell that you're not doing fine when you're just smiling and saying I'm fine. You're not fine

01:27That's because you don't want to worry the other person. You just want to get a smile from that side. I know how this feels

01:32I

01:35Know how this is, but again, what can you do? This is something that I think I've just learned to deal with and

01:43You can't talk to your parents again because you don't want to stress them out

01:47You can't talk to your friends because you can't stress them out. So I think of my other people more than myself

01:53So yeah right now, thank God for my puppy because that is the only

01:58living thing that I cry in front of

02:03And she'll be like what is happening with this chick

02:06What is it that still haunts you or like or worries you on days?

02:11And how do you deal with that those days when you're trying to be brave?

02:15You can't I think

02:17One thing my mom's always told me is never show the big side of you to the world

02:23This is one thing. She's been saying it since I was a child and I think somehow it just

02:28is in my brain, I think the fear of

02:33Like I have fear of emotions like I'm an extrovert like I if I give my heart to somebody if I give my heart

02:41to

02:42anyone

02:43It's just completely like I don't know. What is the border? Like I don't know. What is the right? Yeah

02:49I don't know. It's the boundary. So I'll just give everything and like I don't know man

02:55Like I'm so scared of that. Like what if that person doesn't yeah, like doesn't appreciate

03:02You like even my friends. In fact some

03:06I've had bad experiences trusting people and all of that. So now trusting has also become an issue for me

03:12Self-doubt is an issue and

03:14Loving people too much is also an issue

03:18Not being able to express it. It's just it's just endless

03:22No, no, no, and I think like

03:25feeling emotions is

03:28one of my most

03:31Nerve-wracking things. I'm scared of that and

03:35like what if that one person doesn't understand me completely and just I don't think anyone will

03:41Actually, I understand this. I think I'm gonna start a scrooge

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