It’s Showtime: Ivan, lakas-loob na ibinahagi ang COMING OUT STORY! (EXpecially For You)

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00:00You also mentioned earlier that you chose to believe, right?

00:06That you wanted to believe more than anything else.

00:10You wanted to believe more than anything else.

00:14But now, you've reached a point where you're thinking,

00:18Do I really believe in myself? Did that really happen to me?

00:22But I don't want to villainize him.

00:25I want to villainize him.

00:28I'm always a villain. No, we will not villainize him. We will try to understand.

00:32It's not his fault if he doesn't love me.

00:35But that's it.

00:38At least now, he's answered my question.

00:43It's not his fault if he doesn't love you because love doesn't force you.

00:46But it's your fault if you believe the person you love,

00:50even if the truth is that it's not true.

00:52But the whole truth,

00:55did he tell you why?

00:57Did he tell you if he really loved you back then?

01:02Did you really want to kiss me back then?

01:05Did you really...

01:07Did you really love me when you first kissed me?

01:09What's the real reason? Did he tell you?

01:12Even when we're friends,

01:14I don't have the courage to ask him because I'm afraid to answer.

01:20What's the real score?

01:24Honestly,

01:25right now, I'm the only one who understands what happened before because...

01:34Of course, I'm the one who broke up.

01:36And I want to...

01:38I'm the good guy. I'm still a good guy. I'm not bad.

01:41And now I realize that

01:44I took a lot from him.

01:48I wish I could give him something more authentic.

01:53Or he gave you what he gave you.

01:56What can you say that's more authentic?

01:58Because now I realize, I understand that

02:03I'm doing everything because

02:05I need to look like a man.

02:08Why do you keep on saying that? You need to look like a man.

02:12What is your gender identity?

02:16Because...

02:20I'm gay.

02:23And then, I told him that.

02:27I know. He told me that in the second part of our relationship,

02:33the three-fourths of it,

02:35after the three-fourths,

02:39there was one time when we were on our way home,

02:43and I was just staring at him.

02:45Then I asked him,

02:49do you want to confess something to me?

02:51But at that time, my intention was just to hear sweet words

02:55because I'm a words of affirmation girl.

02:58But then he suddenly confessed that

03:02at that moment, he had internal struggles with his sexuality.

03:08At that time, I didn't know how to handle that

03:15big of a problem or that big of a confession.

03:20So what I did at that time, since I'm a psych major,

03:24I was more...

03:26There are signs that you understand.

03:29Yes. And at the same time, I prioritized his welfare.

03:33Because he told me at that time that I shouldn't leave him

03:37because he has a dark base.

03:39What does that mean? What is a dark base?

03:42Since I was a child, I was forced to have a dark base.

03:48My sexuality. Because my family is religious.

03:51Of course, if you're gay, you're going straight to hell.

03:54That's what they're telling you.

03:56That's what they believe.

03:58If you're gay, you're going straight to hell.

04:00Yes. Until...

04:03I didn't...

04:05In my childhood, I didn't know myself.

04:10Because I was hiding.

04:13I had to hide.

04:14Because if I didn't, what would my relatives or parents do to me?

04:21I didn't know what they would do to me.

04:23My classmates bullied me every day.

04:28I didn't know if I could handle that

04:32if I acknowledged to myself that I was gay.

04:36So...

04:38It was really hard.

04:40That's why...

04:45And then, during that time, I confessed to him.

04:49There were other family problems.

04:52Because our family is dysfunctional.

04:56So...

05:01I needed to be able to handle him.

05:05And then, that time, I also remember that

05:08I told him that I wasn't gay.

05:11But I told her I was bisexual.

05:13Because that's more acceptable.

05:16But the truth is, you're gay.

05:17Yes.

05:19Now, we understand better why...

05:23Why it's not clear to you if you're in love.

05:26Why it's not clear to you what you felt when you kissed.

05:32Right?

05:33What's the reason why you're chasing him again?

05:36Now, it's clear that...

05:41Those are your ways to protect yourself.

05:46Because you felt like, all your life, you felt like you were in trouble.

05:52And that's what a lot of gays feel.

05:56Or a lot of members of the LGBTQIA plus community in society.

06:00That's what a lot of people go through every day.

06:04You felt so unsafe, right?

06:07Every day, I needed to fight.

06:11I needed to be strong because...

06:14No one...

06:16No one wanted to accept me.

06:22It really hurts.

06:29I think what you're saying is that you need to fight every day.

06:32Not everyone goes through that.

06:35Some people need to hide every day.

06:39Not to fight, but to hide.

06:44He's the only one who understands me.

06:50In the beginning, you used him to hide.

06:53So that you'll look like a man.

06:57Because you have a girlfriend.

06:59So that they won't fool you.

07:01So that your family won't think that you're not going to hell anymore.

07:06Because he already has a girlfriend, right?

07:08Yes.

07:09Right?

07:12Because of the hate that you feel towards that person.

07:18Where will he go?

07:21Where will he go?

07:23What decisions will he make?

07:26I'm not saying that what he did to you is right.

07:28I'm not saying that it's right.

07:31Because we used him for our protection.

07:35But we hurt him.

07:37That will never be right.

07:39But I understand where you're coming from.

07:41Why you went to that decision.

07:45It's hard, right?

07:50I don't want to stop.

07:52It's okay, Ivan.

07:54It's okay.

07:56When did you find the courage to say,

08:01I'm gay.

08:03You thought it was easy, but it was hard.

08:09Because before this, you already admitted it.

08:12That's why he was open to saying, I'm gay on TV.

08:17Today, right?

08:18But before this, when did you have that courage to say,

08:23I'm gay.

08:25Because you already know that.

08:27But you can't say it with your tongue.

08:30You're hiding it because you're afraid.

08:33He already knows that.

08:35He already knows that.

08:37But he can't say it.

08:39He's hiding his fear.

08:41When did you lose that fear?

08:43I felt, or I acknowledged myself,

08:48the moment I broke up with him.

08:53That was a new year.

08:55December 31.

08:58That's not a new year yet because January has no new year.

09:01It's almost there.

09:03New year's eve.

09:05You just took a photo.

09:07Desperation.

09:08New year's eve.

09:11I can't stop you.

09:13Just kidding.

09:15I was just trying to make it light.

09:17I'm sorry.

09:19It's hard to accept that

09:21when you're like that,

09:26you'll go to hell.

09:28Right?

09:29When people say they're religious.

09:32How can we say that God forgives?

09:37Where will that go?

09:39It's not their fault

09:44that this is my heart.

09:47This is what I want.

09:50I just became real.

09:52All religions are coming from love,

09:57and empathy,

09:59and sympathy,

10:00and compassion,

10:01and kindness,

10:02and respect.

10:04So if your religion is teaching you otherwise,

10:07it's about time you re-evaluate yourself

10:10and your faith.

10:13Right?

10:14There's no religion that teaches people

10:18to have guts.

10:20You should be mad at him.

10:21You should have guts.

10:22Don't accept him.

10:24You should be cruel to him.

10:26What kind of religion is that?

10:29All religions are coming from love.

10:33That's the basic teaching of every religion.

10:36Love.

10:37That's where all true religions come from.

10:40Right?

10:43So,

10:45I am very proud of you

10:47that you, again,

10:48found the courage to speak your truth

10:51because your truth will allow people to understand you.

10:54Because before you say that,

10:56people will look at you like,

10:57he's crazy.

10:58He's fooling a woman.

11:00Right?

11:01Why is he like that to a woman?

11:02He has no respect for a woman

11:03because they won't understand where you're coming from.

11:06That's why,

11:07I've been saying this for a long time,

11:09I want him to speak his truth

11:11so that you can understand him.

11:12Not to say that he did the right thing,

11:15but to understand

11:16why he went there.

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