Mozzy returns to Genius to dissect his song “IF I DIE RIGHT NOW.” Produced by KXVI & Mozz (RU), the track is from his latest album, Children of The Slums. In this deeply personal song, the rapper dives into his journey in the rap game, his family, his recent jail stint, and more on today’s episode of Verified.
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00:00 Fans run up on me, "Bruh, you helped me get through my bed, nigga.
00:03 I did 19 years, nigga.
00:04 I did eight years."
00:06 Even the young life, they be like, "Bruh, your music raised me, bruh."
00:10 I just know what other people's music did to me.
00:12 Rest in peace to Jack.
00:13 I know what DMX shit did to me.
00:15 I know what Pac shit did to me.
00:17 And so I'm just trying to reciprocate the love.
00:20 We wouldn't have "Children of the Slums" without this song.
00:29 This song kind of gave me the direction.
00:31 You know, I just came home, and so I know they expecting that rah-rah, you know, that
00:36 celebratory situation where, you know, fresh out, nigga, we finna bite down.
00:40 I think this song right here is them that with the game beat missing, and just that
00:45 vulnerability.
00:58 You hear me?
00:59 That's where a lot of training came from.
01:01 You know, "Granny" a different type of loss.
01:04 That's your hero.
01:05 That's the one you do it for.
01:07 So, yeah, that couch do something to me.
01:09 I got a lot of people talented in my trenches, man, and they was doper than me.
01:25 If they would have got the opportunity to showcase they talents, they'd be bigger than me.
01:29 A picture of Lil Tim.
01:40 Red dreads, front of a scraper, Buick Century or something like that.
01:45 Fake animated.
01:46 I wouldn't be him without Lil Tim.
01:48 Shit brazy, we really made it.
01:50 Square footage outrageous for this location.
01:53 Overly spacious.
01:55 Forgiato sitting under the spaceship.
01:57 Pure motivation.
01:58 I think my pure motivation is my children.
02:01 I just wanna make sure they financially legitimate.
02:03 They ain't gotta pull no desperate skits, you know what I'm saying, me to pay rent.
02:07 That's a motivating, if not the biggest motivating factor for me.
02:17 It's like you still gotta deal with the heartache of this shit.
02:20 We lose a couple niggas every year.
02:22 Niggas that we done spent 20 plus years with.
02:25 And so, when you take a good nigga, it just feel like, damn.
02:29 And we know who responsible is the streets.
02:31 I had to ask the streets, "Why you breaking?"
02:33 You know what I'm saying?
02:34 It ain't just one individual.
02:36 It should have been going on for a lifetime.
02:43 When you lose someone you love and nigga you just heartbroken and you head down, fuck with your mentality.
02:50 But you gotta shake that shit off and get back to work.
02:53 I got kids.
02:54 I'm raising kids.
02:55 And I'm dealing with heartache.
02:57 I'm at my lowest, 'cause I done lost somebody that I love dearly.
03:00 I still gotta be little Tim to them kids.
03:02 I still gotta be there.
03:04 That's what I mean by "Hell my head high even when I'm incapable."
03:07 To see how far we take it, gonna continue to hustle.
03:10 Strength and growth is birthed through continuous struggle.
03:13 Hey, look what we endured and we still ain't crumbled.
03:16 Still ain't fumbled.
03:17 I know they waiting for that.
03:18 I endured the beautiful struggle.
03:20 I told you.
03:21 I been making music for a lifetime.
03:23 Niggas wasn't tapped in on my shit.
03:24 They didn't give a fuck about my shit.
03:26 And I was the dopest back then.
03:28 At my lowest, I kept writing.
03:30 And nigga, that shit paid off.
03:32 Nigga, we been here for 10 summers with this rap shit.
03:35 We still present.
03:36 We still relevant.
03:37 When that judicial system lock in, they can't do nothing to save me.
03:49 Rest in peace, Trayvon Martin.
03:51 My grandmother used to always warn me, "You a target."
03:54 Young life.
03:55 I didn't understand what she was talking about.
03:57 And during the harassment of the peace officers, that's when I realized,
04:00 "Okay, this is what she was talking about."
04:03 Ain't say nothing about them skits on my gangsta in tact.
04:05 Two broke the league, feel like I was chained to the trap.
04:08 Disappointed whole time we raising a rack.
04:11 Missing my nigga, ain't trying to talk to the sky.
04:13 We was just making plans to live right before blood died.
04:16 We was just making plans to live right before blood died.
04:19 It's still a gangsta party.
04:21 He ain't making it to the gangsta party.
04:23 We going on tour.
04:24 All the little overseas trips.
04:27 This what we was making plans to do.
04:29 Run it up.
04:30 I'm just putting on time.
04:31 That's what I tell the homies in the pen that be mad that I won't answer for weeks.
04:35 Like y'all remember times when I was broke and I hit you niggas phone full of put on,
04:39 you ain't answer for me?
04:40 Damn it feel good finally land on my feet.
04:43 Damn it feel good finally stand on my feet.
04:46 As a man should.
04:47 I feel like I finally landed on my feet in 2015.
04:51 And I came home and life was different for me.
04:54 Labels tapping in.
04:55 You feeling like big dog status because you turning shit down.
04:59 Nah we broke.
05:00 I'm missing granny fried chicken with the canned goods.
05:03 It be the streets that prepares for our manhood.
05:06 It be the streets that prepares for our manhood.
05:08 But I've sent them down.
05:10 Or you know they running the streets.
05:11 So nigga that's who teach you how to.
05:13 I'm saying bruh little bruh you gonna get burnt you don't strap up.
05:16 You better still don't.
05:18 Come on get it together.
05:19 You hear me?
05:20 Had to squabble up just making sure our hands good.
05:23 Yeah never hold me down the way that aunt would.
05:25 Nah niggas will never hold me down the way that aunt would.
05:28 That was my thug.
05:30 You know he jumping the line of fire for a nigga.
05:32 I'm talking about we go back like 20 plus years.
05:35 Always been the same way.
05:37 Stuck in a gang related mentality.
05:39 Political mentality.
05:41 My fans fuck with me heavy.
05:53 And that's why you know that's why I was even able to versus them against my brothers.
05:57 Cause they love me like that.
05:59 And them fans though they love you wrong or right.
06:02 It's like they right for you.
06:04 See these rap niggas man they able to get on documented paperwork nigga and still be the niggas.
06:09 You hear me?
06:10 That's that fan base.
06:11 Yeah I come from that Coke, whitey, blue jean, Nike era.
06:17 You know what I'm saying that Jabot era.
06:19 That Mitchell and that Stoback.
06:21 You know what I'm saying?
06:22 Yeah them full booze and Johnny Blaze hoodies.
06:25 You know what I'm saying?
06:26 We ain't wear the dot eyes though.
06:27 Shout out Chris Webber.
06:28 We weren't fucking with the dot eyes.
06:29 The hyper flights was like that.
06:31 Ken Griffey's.
06:32 Oh you sleep.
06:34 You sleep.
06:35 [laughs]