High Resolution ( Drama )
High Resolution ( Drama )
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00:00:00 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:00:28 There's no line right now if you want another one.
00:00:30 I didn't know we were getting drunk tonight.
00:00:32 I'm getting drunk tonight.
00:00:36 More than welcome to join me.
00:00:38 We can vlog hungover, you know?
00:00:39 Maybe we should just go.
00:00:50 I don't know.
00:00:51 I thought we could dance.
00:00:52 Don't you think that sounds fun?
00:00:53 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:00:58 Do you not want to be here anymore?
00:01:00 You could text some people.
00:01:05 Can I finish my drink at least?
00:01:08 I'm going to go get your Coke.
00:01:10 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:01:14 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:01:17 I just wish they'd respond.
00:01:32 They said the notification date for accepted pros was noon
00:01:35 today.
00:01:36 Fuck.
00:01:37 I'm trying to figure out a good way to describe Berlin
00:01:39 in under 140 characters.
00:01:42 For the internet?
00:01:45 No, for right now.
00:01:47 We're taken.
00:01:55 I'd hope so.
00:01:57 Leah, this is Poe.
00:01:58 We've been dating for one year and three months.
00:02:01 So this is the famous Leah?
00:02:03 Do I curtsy now?
00:02:05 You'd have to stand up to do that.
00:02:06 Well, I was living in Europe.
00:02:12 There's a party at a friend of a friend of Amy's.
00:02:15 Well, if you do decide to stay, my friend Dan
00:02:18 just ordered a lot of Coke.
00:02:21 Really?
00:02:23 I guess we're staying now.
00:02:25 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:02:28 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:02:32 2.1 miles.
00:02:55 That's how far the city is.
00:02:57 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:03:00 Google Maps.
00:03:05 Siri.
00:03:06 Uh-huh.
00:03:07 Wait, really?
00:03:13 No.
00:03:14 No.
00:03:15 Aaron.
00:03:16 Actually, Aaron Bauer.
00:03:19 First and last.
00:03:20 I like that.
00:03:23 Apologize.
00:03:26 For real?
00:03:29 Oh, I'm sorry.
00:03:31 That was rude.
00:03:32 I didn't mean this to be an interrogation.
00:03:34 It's not like--
00:03:35 I do know who you are.
00:03:36 I mean, I've heard your name around a lot, I guess.
00:03:39 I haven't read your book, but I mean, I want to.
00:03:42 I've heard it's really, really great.
00:03:45 Can I start over?
00:03:50 I didn't mean to convey displeasure to you
00:03:52 by sounding like I was just--
00:03:54 I had a reading earlier, and I took a few bars of--
00:03:58 yeah, just put me in a weird mood.
00:04:00 It's OK.
00:04:01 I'm, like, always in a weird mood.
00:04:05 Well, it seems like we can come to some kind of understanding.
00:04:09 I'll drop the DO memo.
00:04:11 My secretary faxes to you.
00:04:13 What are the terms?
00:04:15 Quite favorable.
00:04:19 Oh.
00:04:21 Hello?
00:04:24 No, I think you have the wrong number.
00:04:28 What's that?
00:04:30 It's Joe.
00:04:31 Don't call me.
00:04:34 Yo.
00:04:36 You're always vanishing.
00:04:38 Oh, please.
00:04:40 What?
00:04:41 Oh.
00:04:42 Did I make you angry?
00:04:44 It was good to meet you, Aaron.
00:04:45 I'm going to head back inside.
00:04:47 Yeah.
00:04:48 Um, have your secretary drop off the DO memo?
00:04:55 Oh, yeah, yeah.
00:04:56 I'll have it notarized ASAP.
00:04:58 Yeah, I really like that.
00:04:59 OK.
00:05:00 What?
00:05:08 Is he from a magazine?
00:05:09 Slow down!
00:05:15 Slow!
00:05:17 Help!
00:05:18 Oh, please slow down.
00:05:20 Oh, please.
00:05:22 Can you tell me what's going on?
00:05:25 I mean, you've been acting bizarre all night.
00:05:29 You're on drugs.
00:05:32 Oh, is it worth it?
00:05:34 Are you having fun?
00:05:38 Just sleep at your place tonight.
00:05:42 We can't have this conversation right now.
00:05:44 We're way too fucked up.
00:05:46 Why does it feel like if I go now,
00:05:48 things are going to be over?
00:05:49 Maybe they are.
00:05:53 Are you-- are you breaking up with me?
00:06:01 I feel like it's what I was supposed to say there.
00:06:07 Are you fucking serious?
00:06:13 Oh, my--
00:06:14 Erin!
00:06:15 Asshole.
00:06:16 Please.
00:06:17 These need to be cataloged.
00:06:39 The guy who dropped them off said one or two are first editions.
00:06:42 OK.
00:06:43 Is this any good?
00:06:45 Oh, uh, actually, I was thinking we could book him in for a reading.
00:06:51 He's been doing a bunch around the city.
00:06:53 You know him?
00:06:55 Well, not super well, but he's a friend.
00:06:58 Oh.
00:07:00 Hey, uh, Erin, I've been meaning to talk to you about something.
00:07:04 OK.
00:07:05 Things, um-- things have been tight lately.
00:07:09 Long and short is I can't afford to keep everyone on full time.
00:07:13 I'm going to have to cut your hours a bit.
00:07:15 I'm sorry.
00:07:16 It's-- it's fine.
00:07:21 I need more time to write, right?
00:07:23 Waking up at 3 AM,
00:07:27 I wonder if it can really be possible
00:07:30 that I've gone through 25 years of my life now
00:07:34 without forming a truly genuine connection to another person.
00:07:38 The kind of connection where you know instantly
00:07:41 what that other person is thinking at any given moment
00:07:45 and where that horrible, serious gulf between the two of you
00:07:49 is permanently bridged.
00:07:51 The dissolution of subject-object connection.
00:07:56 The way you know what they'll say in telekinetic advance.
00:08:00 The way a writer knows her character's next desire she must repress.
00:08:05 The unpublished needs still met.
00:08:08 The finger.
00:08:11 Key.
00:08:13 Connection.
00:08:16 Muscle memory.
00:08:20 Muscle memory.
00:08:23 Muscle memory.
00:08:29 There are times when his memory, like an external hard drive
00:08:35 that had been taken from him and hidden inside
00:08:40 an unwieldy series of cardboard boxes
00:08:43 or placed at the end of a long and dark and messy corridor,
00:08:50 required much more effort than he felt motivated to exert
00:08:56 simply to locate.
00:08:59 In fact, he felt increasingly unmotivated
00:09:05 to exert any effort towards anything.
00:09:10 [The End]
00:09:12 Any questions?
00:09:30 Uh, can you hear me?
00:09:33 Yeah.
00:09:35 Good. Do you even know how to grow mushrooms?
00:09:38 Mushrooms?
00:09:40 Yeah, in your book you take mushrooms.
00:09:42 Do you know how to grow them, sir?
00:09:44 Not really.
00:09:47 I have a problem with you.
00:09:50 Classifying your books as fiction when they're obviously about you.
00:09:54 Doesn't that make it a memoir?
00:09:57 If I wrote a memoir...
00:10:00 I would call it my memoir.
00:10:06 I also would write, I think, before every sentence.
00:10:12 You can't pretend something is fiction.
00:10:15 Either it's based on your experience or it's not.
00:10:18 But why can't he?
00:10:20 He's the one who writes it, right?
00:10:23 You saved me.
00:10:34 I am forever in your debt.
00:10:36 Have people at your readings always this weird?
00:10:40 Yes.
00:10:42 That's why I have to take sedatives before them.
00:10:44 You're on drugs at all of your readings.
00:10:47 Do you want some?
00:10:49 I think it's cool you work in a bookstore.
00:10:54 Is that a sentence from your memoir?
00:10:57 It's a hyperlink to the question of
00:11:00 what else do you do when you're not in this bookstore?
00:11:02 But I write and vlog.
00:11:05 God, that's embarrassing to tell you.
00:11:08 What's it called?
00:11:10 Here, it's a tumblr.
00:11:13 Can you hold this?
00:11:29 I don't want to sleep, but I don't know what I'm waiting for.
00:11:32 It's a nice name.
00:11:36 Modern.
00:11:39 Actually, I already knew about it.
00:11:42 I googled you.
00:11:45 You googled me?
00:11:47 Oh, yeah.
00:11:49 We met a couple months ago.
00:11:55 Cal's friend. Calvin.
00:11:58 Oh, yeah. Calvin.
00:12:00 Anyway, I didn't know you were a writer,
00:12:05 but my girlfriend, Maggie...
00:12:08 Maggie is a big fan of your books.
00:12:12 So we came out, and I was like,
00:12:15 "Oh, fuck. It's mom."
00:12:17 I read all your books when I was in San Francisco two years ago.
00:12:24 I was really manic. They helped.
00:12:26 I told all my friends that I had this feeling when I came here
00:12:31 we were going to meet and become friends.
00:12:33 Okay, maybe don't.
00:12:35 Anyway, I was wondering if maybe you want to come tonight
00:12:39 out to my parents' mansion in Jersey.
00:12:41 I'm having some friends over.
00:12:43 Your parents' mansion?
00:12:45 Yeah.
00:12:46 It's a really big house.
00:12:48 It's a foyer.
00:12:50 Do you want to put our mansion in New Jersey?
00:12:52 I don't know. I can't.
00:12:53 We could drive. We have a car.
00:12:55 Well, Calvin can drive. I can't drive.
00:12:58 Actually, it's really funny.
00:13:00 When I was in San Francisco and I was manic,
00:13:03 I stole my ex-boyfriend's car.
00:13:05 Okay.
00:13:06 Yeah.
00:13:08 You should come.
00:13:10 Okay.
00:13:11 Do you mind painting this?
00:13:23 Yeah.
00:13:25 I don't sign that book anymore.
00:13:28 Oh.
00:13:30 Do you have a pen?
00:13:41 Always.
00:13:43 I almost thought you were going to pull out a computer.
00:13:50 I was surprised it was actually a pen.
00:13:53 [laughs]
00:13:55 You're so funny.
00:13:58 [sighs]
00:14:00 I think you were going to a book signing.
00:14:02 That's a much more appropriate time.
00:14:04 I have a surprise for you.
00:14:06 Okay, well, this is a cool situation.
00:14:08 What?
00:14:10 What's this?
00:14:12 Hold on. Wait.
00:14:14 I got it from your store.
00:14:16 Yeah.
00:14:17 You bought it from...
00:14:19 I don't pay enough. You're the gift.
00:14:22 Oh.
00:14:24 Oh, yeah.
00:14:26 Do you accept?
00:14:28 I accept.
00:14:30 Oh, man.
00:14:57 Are you sure you want to?
00:15:00 I don't want to be...
00:15:02 Corrupting and innocent or anything.
00:15:04 Oh, no. You...
00:15:06 You are.
00:15:08 You definitely are.
00:15:10 Here.
00:15:15 That's good shit.
00:15:16 My friend Jasper makes it on his houseboat in Red Hawk.
00:15:21 Mags?
00:15:26 Yes.
00:15:28 Yes.
00:15:36 I'm really glad you guys came.
00:15:41 How long have you been dating?
00:15:43 Oh, we're not... We're not dating.
00:15:46 Really?
00:15:48 Really seemed like you were.
00:15:51 Really seemed like you were.
00:15:55 What about... What about you guys?
00:15:57 Oh, yeah, we've been dating for two years,
00:15:59 but we haven't had sex in four months.
00:16:01 Maggie.
00:16:03 Is it weird we're here?
00:16:11 Why would it be weird?
00:16:15 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:19 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:22 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:26 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:29 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:39 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:48 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:16:51 I wanted to put my hand on your leg just now.
00:17:08 Why did you?
00:17:15 [âȘâȘâȘ]
00:17:18 How are you today?
00:17:42 Do you want to go for a walk?
00:17:45 Have you tried acid before?
00:17:48 Only once, and, um...
00:17:52 I rode around on a Toronto city bus for five hours.
00:17:57 Beau and I do drugs sometimes,
00:18:00 but it doesn't always feel the same with him.
00:18:03 Beau's that guy at the party, right?
00:18:06 Yeah.
00:18:08 Um, I was gonna call him my boyfriend,
00:18:12 but I don't think that's true anymore.
00:18:14 We don't have to talk about it.
00:18:16 Oh, no, no, no, it's just, um...
00:18:18 In a process of reconstituting--
00:18:21 Reproductualizing.
00:18:23 [laughs]
00:18:25 Renewing.
00:18:27 Hey, look, we're in sync.
00:18:34 When I was in fifth grade,
00:18:39 I used to wear purple and pink glitter on my eyes every Friday
00:18:44 because I thought that...
00:18:47 [sighs]
00:18:49 If the aliens came, they'd see me, and they'd just...
00:18:55 They'd just, like, take me away.
00:18:58 That seems really good.
00:19:01 Can I tweet that?
00:19:04 But I--I--I said it.
00:19:06 I'll just save it to drafts.
00:19:08 Let me think about it.
00:19:10 Where'd you think they'd take you?
00:19:13 Just away.
00:19:16 [chuckles]
00:19:17 Anywhere.
00:19:19 Um, when--when I was in the fifth grade,
00:19:23 I was on a plane,
00:19:27 and I saw this brown dot.
00:19:30 I thought it was a UFO.
00:19:32 Um...
00:19:34 I think at first I was aware that I was faking it,
00:19:39 but I think I convinced myself so hard
00:19:44 that I made myself fall apart.
00:19:46 Did you tell anyone that you saw a UFO?
00:19:49 I didn't care if anyone knew.
00:19:51 What?
00:19:54 I was just like, "I saw a UFO."
00:19:58 I was extremely bored back then.
00:20:00 I was like a bored robot.
00:20:03 [sighs]
00:20:05 Hey, where are you going?
00:20:07 Hey, wait. Wait.
00:20:09 [sad music]
00:20:12 âȘ âȘ
00:20:14 [sighs]
00:20:16 I'm--I'm sorry.
00:20:18 I just...
00:20:20 I had, like, this crazy rush of emotions,
00:20:24 and it's just, like, being here with you,
00:20:27 and I don't know how to talk to you.
00:20:30 I mean, you're just, like, in the idea.
00:20:33 You're not--
00:20:34 Okay, okay, just--just breathe.
00:20:36 Okay? Just breathe.
00:20:38 It's so weird.
00:20:39 It's okay. In. Breathe. Breathe in.
00:20:42 [sighs]
00:20:43 In.
00:20:44 It's so weird.
00:20:45 In.
00:20:46 [sighs]
00:20:47 [coughs]
00:20:50 Is that better?
00:20:51 You think I'm crazy.
00:20:54 [laughs]
00:20:57 âȘ âȘ
00:21:02 [indistinct chatter]
00:21:05 âȘ âȘ
00:21:12 âȘ âȘ
00:21:16 - âȘ Baby âȘ
00:21:18 âȘ I'm not the same me âȘ
00:21:22 âȘ I can never be myself âȘ
00:21:26 âȘ When you're around âȘ
00:21:29 âȘ âȘ
00:21:31 âȘ Baby âȘ
00:21:33 âȘ It's not a new thing âȘ
00:21:37 âȘ All the dreams we had âȘ
00:21:40 âȘ Were more than what we found âȘ
00:21:44 âȘ âȘ
00:21:47 âȘ When you leave just now âȘ
00:21:52 âȘ âȘ
00:21:55 âȘ When the night is falling âȘ
00:22:00 âȘ âȘ
00:22:02 âȘ Every time I rise âȘ
00:22:07 âȘ âȘ
00:22:10 âȘ As our hearts beat still âȘ
00:22:15 âȘ âȘ
00:22:17 âȘ Baby âȘ
00:22:19 âȘ It's not that easy âȘ
00:22:23 âȘ I can never be myself âȘ
00:22:27 âȘ When you're around âȘ
00:22:29 âȘ âȘ
00:22:32 âȘ Baby âȘ
00:22:34 âȘ It wasn't all for nothing âȘ
00:22:38 âȘ We tried to reach so high âȘ
00:22:41 âȘ But we lost it when we hit the ground âȘ
00:22:45 âȘ âȘ
00:22:49 âȘ When you leave just now âȘ
00:22:53 âȘ âȘ
00:22:56 âȘ When the night is falling âȘ
00:23:01 âȘ âȘ
00:23:04 âȘ Every time I rise âȘ
00:23:08 âȘ âȘ
00:23:11 âȘ As our hearts beat still âȘ
00:23:15 âȘ âȘ
00:23:18 âȘ âȘ
00:23:23 âȘ âȘ
00:23:26 âȘ âȘ
00:23:31 [music ends]
00:23:33 [wind blowing]
00:23:36 [clicks tongue]
00:23:38 Sometimes I wonder what the point is.
00:23:46 Why anyone give a shit in five years?
00:23:51 And two...
00:23:54 there's a project I've wanted to do for a while.
00:23:57 Basically, I would document everything that happens to me,
00:24:01 uh, livestream it,
00:24:03 or maybe just record it and edit it later.
00:24:07 Make a movie about life.
00:24:10 Um, just like a collection of unrelated scenes.
00:24:17 But I never started.
00:24:20 I think I might be more likely to complete it
00:24:24 if, uh, someone else did it with me.
00:24:27 Me?
00:24:29 Yeah.
00:24:32 It'll just be our lives, but we film it.
00:24:35 [phone ringing]
00:24:46 [exhales] Okay.
00:24:49 Just pretend like it's not there.
00:24:52 [sniffles]
00:24:55 Okay.
00:24:59 [sniffles]
00:25:01 [sniffles]
00:25:03 You don't have to.
00:25:09 No, if-if you want to.
00:25:12 I want to.
00:25:14 Yes.
00:25:16 [sniffles]
00:25:18 [coughs]
00:25:21 [sniffles]
00:25:24 [coughs]
00:25:26 [sniffles]
00:25:28 Greetings.
00:25:30 So, what scenes is our movie gonna have?
00:25:33 First is heroin. We inject each other with heroin.
00:25:36 Then we're g-- [laughs]
00:25:38 Then we work on stuff on our laptop.
00:25:40 Have you ever been to love?
00:25:42 Oh, no, okay. Cocaine.
00:25:44 We go to nightclubs and bars
00:25:46 with no other plan other than to snort cocaine every 15 minutes.
00:25:49 That's great.
00:25:51 [phone ringing]
00:25:53 Do you ever feel like you're a robot, like you're just on autopilot?
00:25:57 I don't feel like me feeling like a robot.
00:25:59 I feel like--like everyone around me is one, and I'm the only one who isn't.
00:26:02 Do you think I'm a robot?
00:26:04 Check this box to prove you're not a robot.
00:26:07 You've come up with one.
00:26:11 Um, how about--
00:26:13 Or something.
00:26:15 No, if you were a robot, you'd do it. If you're a robot, you'd do it.
00:26:18 Ooh, Powerdale.
00:26:20 We say, or something,
00:26:23 hundreds of times in a montage,
00:26:25 sometimes to the context to convey a wide range of meaning.
00:26:28 Or something. Do you have an example?
00:26:31 I'm tired of your uncertainty and specifying commitment.
00:26:35 Or something.
00:26:37 [laughs]
00:26:38 I like it.
00:26:40 Are you afraid of dying?
00:26:42 I honestly don't care if I die.
00:26:44 Really?
00:26:46 It's fine if I die.
00:26:48 Life won't matter if I'm dead.
00:26:50 [laughs]
00:26:52 What about drugs in terms of your life?
00:26:54 I'm not sustainable as long as I'm healthy.
00:26:56 I don't do drugs very often, but...
00:27:02 it seems okay with you, like we aren't...
00:27:06 using them long.
00:27:08 I don't normally do drugs often, either.
00:27:11 I've never done drugs two days in a row.
00:27:15 Unless you count prescription drugs,
00:27:17 then I've done drugs lots of days in a row.
00:27:19 âȘ And I don't know where you are âȘ
00:27:22 âȘ You seem so far away âȘ
00:27:27 âȘ But you're so far away âȘ
00:27:38 âȘ And I don't expect to see you again âȘ
00:27:49 âȘ And I don't expect to see you again âȘ
00:27:54 Do you ever feel like it just sucks to live in the world?
00:28:02 What do you mean?
00:28:04 Like you don't feel like the world can provide us with enough to satisfy us.
00:28:10 I think the world's good enough.
00:28:13 On average.
00:28:16 I haven't killed myself.
00:28:18 If I killed myself...
00:28:21 I could say the world is bad.
00:28:25 Because I would have evidence.
00:28:29 Sometimes I even think I'm happy.
00:28:35 Like a good level of happy?
00:28:38 Like more of a flatline.
00:28:41 [chuckles]
00:28:43 [silence]
00:28:46 [music]
00:28:52 âȘ Hey Lord âȘ
00:29:07 âȘ Who is this? âȘ
00:29:13 âȘ Lord, what we might be âȘ
00:29:19 âȘ Please go âȘ
00:29:24 âȘ Say hello âȘ
00:29:29 âȘ The things I leave to you âȘ
00:29:35 Aaron!
00:29:37 Hey, Aaron.
00:29:40 I thought that was you.
00:29:43 How've you been?
00:29:45 I'm okay.
00:29:47 Well, like, I know that it's a Sunday, but Daniel's throwing a party tonight.
00:29:52 I told Bo, but he said that you guys weren't really, like, talking.
00:29:56 You're talking to Bo now?
00:29:59 What happened with you guys?
00:30:01 It's nothing. We're just on a hiatus.
00:30:03 You should come. It'd be, like, so good for you.
00:30:07 I was thinking of reorganizing my closet. There's this video I saw online--
00:30:11 Fuck! Oh my God. Okay.
00:30:15 God, it's everywhere now.
00:30:18 Life is hard.
00:30:20 I gotta go.
00:30:22 But you should come.
00:30:24 I'll try and make it.
00:30:26 Peace!
00:30:28 [music]
00:30:32 [music]
00:30:36 [music]
00:30:39 [music]
00:30:50 [music]
00:31:04 [music]
00:31:07 [music]
00:31:18 [music]
00:31:28 [music]
00:31:31 Stealing alcohol.
00:31:48 You scared me.
00:31:50 Can I ask you something?
00:31:53 I thought you were getting offended.
00:31:56 Okay.
00:31:58 How are you holding up?
00:32:00 You're looking a little...fraid.
00:32:03 I'm fine.
00:32:05 I'm just asking just to make sure that you're okay. Breakups can be difficult.
00:32:09 What?
00:32:11 You know, I actually thought you were gonna say something nice,
00:32:16 like maybe you were gonna act like a human, but now what?
00:32:19 You're fucking Leah?
00:32:22 Leah's just a friend.
00:32:24 I'm seeing someone tonight.
00:32:27 It'd be rude not to tell you. He's a writer, a seven-famous.
00:32:30 He's being called the voice of his generation.
00:32:34 I don't want to do this with you.
00:32:40 You know, I'm making my own movie now.
00:32:46 It's a documentary.
00:32:48 About what?
00:32:50 My burgeoning new relationship.
00:32:52 Your burgeoning relationship?
00:32:55 Yeah.
00:32:57 Can I just give you a hug?
00:33:00 Only if it's platonic, huh?
00:33:04 [siren wailing]
00:33:07 [siren wailing]
00:33:10 You saw Bo yesterday?
00:33:36 Yeah.
00:33:38 He, um...
00:33:44 He told me that he wanted to hang out, and I told him I was...
00:33:48 I was doing other things.
00:33:51 Do you think you'll talk to him again?
00:33:57 Probably not.
00:34:04 I have a surprise for you.
00:34:07 Really?
00:34:09 Yeah.
00:34:11 It's MDMA.
00:34:15 You brought me ecstasy.
00:34:18 My mom keeps sending me these panicked emails about...
00:34:22 all the drugs she thinks I'm taking because of stuff I posted online.
00:34:27 I don't understand why you must reject me with your terrible behavior.
00:34:32 When I send you an email, I would like you to respond to it.
00:34:36 Your father may continue to unblinkingly support you,
00:34:39 but I see what you post on your web feeds.
00:34:42 Actions speak louder than words.
00:34:45 It doesn't matter to you whether you have a mother or not.
00:34:49 Do you feel bad reading this?
00:34:52 While I'm on drugs?
00:34:55 No.
00:34:57 No, I just feel like...
00:35:00 I just feel like she's ruining the drugs.
00:35:04 My dad used to, like, smoke weed,
00:35:08 and make me smoke weed with him every night.
00:35:11 I used to be really sad about it,
00:35:13 but he'd just get mad if he didn't smoke.
00:35:17 Yeah, I don't want her to feel like she's failed as a parent,
00:35:21 but I don't really want to respond to her emails either.
00:35:26 We used to have these crazy screaming fights.
00:35:29 What about?
00:35:30 When I was in high school,
00:35:32 I used to think the only solution to the anxiety
00:35:36 I was feeling all the time would be for me, for her,
00:35:40 to create all these rules and punishments
00:35:43 that went way beyond reasonable,
00:35:47 to take my control away.
00:35:51 She didn't get it.
00:35:55 I wanted to punish her back for not understanding me.
00:35:59 You know, they moved here so I could become a doctor or a lawyer
00:36:05 or something else immigrants want their American kids to be,
00:36:09 but then I told them I wanted to be a writer.
00:36:15 You know, when I was in college,
00:36:17 they gave up and went back to Taiwan.
00:36:20 I don't think they went back to Taiwan,
00:36:23 but because we used to, it was part of it.
00:36:26 Yeah.
00:36:28 After that period, I decided it was just easier for me
00:36:32 to be emotionless, you know, more like when I was a kid.
00:36:37 How much more?
00:36:40 A lot.
00:36:43 Can I read you something I wrote?
00:36:45 He walked on an island down the street.
00:36:47 Reality hit, taking on a looker.
00:36:51 She was broke.
00:36:53 Joanna asked Alex if he'd ever been in love.
00:36:58 Alex thought about it for a moment.
00:37:02 A light gleamed on and off in the sky.
00:37:06 He imagined being taken up in a UFO
00:37:10 and bathed in the rainbow of many tentacles
00:37:16 of every examination he'd ever taken.
00:37:19 That's where love fell in.
00:37:24 I want to go somewhere with you.
00:37:26 We could fly somewhere.
00:37:27 We could go to Niagara Falls.
00:37:29 If I go to Niagara, I would peak on XT
00:37:33 in a one-size-too-large rain slicker
00:37:35 while the boat takes you under the water.
00:37:37 It's too cliche.
00:37:38 I would sit at a high-stakes poker table
00:37:41 at an Indian casino wearing sunglasses
00:37:44 and a baseball cap, smoke a cigarette,
00:37:48 and say, "Too rich for my blood, baby."
00:37:52 You can't marry a woman this stupid, Jack.
00:37:54 There's a lot of ions in the water.
00:37:57 So it's really romantic.
00:37:59 âȘ Jingle bell, jingle bell âȘ
00:38:02 âȘ Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh âȘ
00:38:06 âȘ Happy new year âȘ
00:38:07 âȘ Jingle bell, jingle bell âȘ
00:38:09 âȘ Oh, what fun it is to ride in a one-horse open sleigh âȘ
00:38:12 âȘ Jingle all the way, jingle all the way âȘ
00:38:16 [laughing]
00:38:18 âȘ Jingle all the way âȘ
00:38:21 Oh.
00:38:22 So this is what the universe created
00:38:24 after whatever billion years.
00:38:26 How do you feel?
00:38:32 A little defeated.
00:38:35 Why?
00:38:37 I'm kind of tired.
00:38:39 You should not even start feeling it yet.
00:38:42 What?
00:38:43 Wait, we only took the MDMA, like, 20 minutes ago.
00:38:45 [laughs]
00:38:47 I forgot.
00:38:49 Oh.
00:38:51 I thought maybe the drugs were fake.
00:38:54 [sighs]
00:38:56 [music playing]
00:38:59 [music playing]
00:39:27 You see, when God is working, a prophet is not a preacher.
00:39:31 No.
00:39:32 They speak from the mouth of God.
00:39:34 And he said, how you will know my prophets?
00:39:36 He said, you will know them by their works.
00:39:39 So I have to show you the proof that this here
00:39:42 is made by God himself.
00:39:44 You see, when God is using you, it's different from you
00:39:47 in your normal body.
00:39:48 I see.
00:39:49 He take you out of you, and he control your mind,
00:39:52 and he control your thinking.
00:39:54 And you will hear his voice talking to you from the heaven.
00:39:57 Praise the Lord.
00:39:58 And this symbol here represent the sun.
00:40:02 This one right here.
00:40:03 Everywhere you go in the world, you see the same sun.
00:40:06 Hallelujah.
00:40:08 [music playing]
00:40:12 [music playing]
00:40:16 [music playing]
00:40:44 [music playing]
00:40:48 [music playing]
00:40:52 [music playing]
00:40:56 [music playing]
00:40:59 [music playing]
00:41:03 [music playing]
00:41:07 [music playing]
00:41:11 [music playing]
00:41:15 [music playing]
00:41:18 [music playing]
00:41:27 [music playing]
00:41:31 [music playing]
00:41:35 [music playing]
00:41:38 to get you married now.
00:41:39 - No.
00:41:40 - Here we go honey.
00:41:41 There's Paul right there waiting for you.
00:41:43 Paul, how are ya?
00:41:44 I believe you know this girl.
00:41:46 All right.
00:41:48 Want you to get up there.
00:41:50 Great, great.
00:41:51 Well guys, here we are in beautiful Niagara Falls.
00:41:54 And ready to join you too in beautiful marriage.
00:41:56 Now marriage is a beautiful bond
00:41:58 that grows and grows and grows.
00:42:00 And as you grow, you share.
00:42:02 And you share your lives together.
00:42:03 You share times together.
00:42:05 You even share with Elvis.
00:42:07 No, no, Paul, I'm only joking.
00:42:08 You know what kids, let's get started.
00:42:10 Paul, please place the ring on Erin's finger.
00:42:13 - The ring?
00:42:13 - The ring.
00:42:14 - The ring?
00:42:15 - The ring.
00:42:16 - The ring.
00:42:17 - You got a ring, didn't you?
00:42:18 - No.
00:42:18 - You didn't get a ring?
00:42:19 - No.
00:42:20 - You know what, it doesn't matter.
00:42:21 We're gonna start off like this.
00:42:22 All right, Paul, I want you to look in Erin's eyes
00:42:24 and say, Erin, I take you to be my beautiful wife
00:42:29 in sickness and in health, for richer, for poorer,
00:42:31 till death do us part.
00:42:34 - Erin.
00:42:36 - Erin.
00:42:37 - I take you.
00:42:38 - You know what, Paul, don't worry about it.
00:42:42 We'll get the gist.
00:42:44 We'll get the gist, okay.
00:42:45 And we got it.
00:42:46 Erin, look in Paul's eyes and repeat after me.
00:42:48 Paul, I take you to be my beautiful husband.
00:42:50 - I take you, Paul, to be my husband.
00:42:54 - In sickness and in health.
00:42:57 - In sickness and in health.
00:42:59 - For richer and for poorer.
00:43:00 - For richer and for poorer.
00:43:02 - I'll always be your teddy bear.
00:43:04 - I'll never give you cause to have suspicious minds.
00:43:06 - Never have you cause to have suspicious minds.
00:43:11 - By the power vested in me,
00:43:13 I now pronounce you husband and wife.
00:43:15 Paul, you may kiss your beautiful bride.
00:43:17 A little more, you got it.
00:43:23 A little more.
00:43:23 - Oh!
00:43:27 Happy day!
00:43:29 (cheering)
00:43:32 (clapping)
00:43:35 (upbeat music)
00:43:37 - Dance with me, Charlie.
00:43:42 (upbeat music)
00:43:45 - So good.
00:43:45 âȘ I always believed âȘ
00:43:49 âȘ That love lasts forever âȘ
00:43:53 âȘ Like the force of nature âȘ
00:44:00 âȘ And when I saw you âȘ
00:44:05 âȘ You were soft as a teardrop âȘ
00:44:13 âȘ Strong as the flood âȘ
00:44:15 âȘ But I was falling for you âȘ
00:44:20 âȘ Falling for you âȘ
00:44:23 - Here's to me wife.
00:44:24 âȘ So I kissed you again âȘ
00:44:26 âȘ And the rain was over âȘ
00:44:27 - Hold my hand!
00:44:28 Hold my hand!
00:44:29 (cheering)
00:44:32 (upbeat music)
00:44:34 - Get closer to the bank.
00:44:40 Get closer to the bank, just smile.
00:44:42 Smile.
00:44:44 Just smile.
00:44:44 - Mary!
00:44:47 (cheering)
00:44:49 Mary!
00:44:55 Mary!
00:44:56 Mary!
00:45:00 (cheering)
00:45:02 (upbeat music)
00:45:05 (upbeat music)
00:45:07 (upbeat music)
00:45:10 (upbeat music)
00:45:13 (sipping)
00:45:16 (laughing)
00:45:27 - I'm just kidding.
00:45:28 (heavy breathing)
00:45:35 (beeping)
00:45:54 (beeping)
00:45:56 - Yes, Mary.
00:46:05 I don't know, like a week.
00:46:12 We're in Niagara Falls.
00:46:14 Uh-huh.
00:46:21 Uh-huh.
00:46:24 Uh-huh.
00:46:25 Okay, yeah, yeah, okay, okay.
00:46:29 Yeah, I'll call you back later.
00:46:31 Yeah, no, it's good.
00:46:33 It's okay.
00:46:35 - What happened?
00:46:48 - Um.
00:46:49 - What happened?
00:46:50 - Um.
00:46:51 - What happened?
00:46:53 - Um.
00:46:53 - What happened?
00:46:55 - Um.
00:46:55 - What happened?
00:46:57 - Um.
00:46:58 - What happened?
00:46:59 - Um.
00:47:00 - What happened?
00:47:01 - Um.
00:47:02 - What happened?
00:47:02 - Um.
00:47:03 - What happened?
00:47:04 - Um.
00:47:05 - What happened?
00:47:06 - Um.
00:47:07 - What happened?
00:47:07 - Um.
00:47:08 - What happened?
00:47:09 - Um.
00:47:10 - What happened?
00:47:11 - Um.
00:47:12 - What happened?
00:47:12 - Um.
00:47:13 - What happened?
00:47:14 - Um.
00:47:15 - What happened?
00:47:16 - Um.
00:47:17 - What happened?
00:47:18 - Um.
00:47:18 - Is she okay?
00:47:20 - Yeah.
00:47:20 No, they want to fly us out to Taipei
00:47:25 to see her and for her honeymoon.
00:47:27 Two for one.
00:47:30 - Um.
00:47:34 Wow.
00:47:37 Are you okay?
00:47:42 - So you'll come?
00:47:44 - Of course.
00:47:48 - Are you sure?
00:47:49 - Absolutely.
00:47:50 Absolutely.
00:47:53 - Sometimes you say yes to things you don't want to do
00:47:57 just because you're in your yes phase.
00:48:00 - That's not true.
00:48:02 Like when?
00:48:04 - Sometimes I feel like I make you do more drugs
00:48:08 than you want to do.
00:48:10 - Sometimes I don't want to do the drugs
00:48:13 but then I convince myself and usually it's a good idea.
00:48:18 - Are you convincing yourself right now?
00:48:19 - No, no I'm not.
00:48:21 I promise you I want to come, okay?
00:48:24 I promise you I really do.
00:48:27 Okay?
00:48:28 I really want to come.
00:48:30 I promise.
00:48:34 (dramatic music)
00:48:40 (airplane engine roaring)
00:48:44 (dramatic music)
00:48:46 (airplane engine roaring)
00:48:50 (dramatic music)
00:48:53 (airplane engine roaring)
00:48:56 (dramatic music)
00:49:23 - Can you think of a new word for computer than computer?
00:49:28 - I don't know.
00:49:30 - I don't think my question makes sense.
00:49:36 Maybe there can't be a new word for the same word.
00:49:39 - Maybe.
00:49:40 - Sorry.
00:49:43 I'll let you sleep.
00:49:51 (door opening)
00:49:54 - Hi Mr. Tan, I'm Erin.
00:49:56 It's so nice to meet you.
00:49:57 - Thank you both for coming.
00:49:59 Come in, come in.
00:50:00 - It's kind of heavy.
00:50:02 - Erin, it's so nice to meet you.
00:50:10 How are you feeling?
00:50:13 - Old.
00:50:15 - You put sugar on your tea.
00:50:17 You're not supposed to use sugar after a heart attack.
00:50:20 - I think it'd be best if no one used sugar,
00:50:21 not just people in recovery.
00:50:23 (speaking in foreign language)
00:50:27 - You look tired.
00:50:30 - I'm all right.
00:50:31 - I'm taking Erin sightseeing tomorrow.
00:50:33 We'll meet in my room.
00:50:34 Come on.
00:50:36 - We can make a breakfast.
00:50:38 - No, we'll be fine.
00:50:40 She wants to eat local food.
00:50:41 - I'm...
00:50:46 (sighing)
00:50:48 - I think my mom put them in here
00:51:00 to make me use less drugs.
00:51:02 - There's so many, you look so cute.
00:51:04 Look at you.
00:51:06 (laughing)
00:51:08 - It makes me uncomfortable.
00:51:24 - Why?
00:51:27 You look so happy in them.
00:51:28 - I would be uncomfortable seeing that many
00:51:30 of anyone's face.
00:51:31 (laughing)
00:51:34 (sighing)
00:51:37 - Paul.
00:51:37 (crunching)
00:51:48 - You see this app?
00:51:54 It calculates how many times you're gonna see
00:51:56 your parents before they die.
00:51:58 You put in where they live and where you live in their ages.
00:52:00 - God, that's so morbid.
00:52:02 (laughing)
00:52:03 - I got six from my dad,
00:52:05 but my mom's heart condition gave her two.
00:52:07 (knocking)
00:52:09 - Put that away.
00:52:10 - Okay.
00:52:14 - All right, they're leaving, let's take them.
00:52:22 - I still can't get them open.
00:52:24 (camera shutter clicking)
00:52:28 - This thing.
00:52:53 - The laptop.
00:52:54 - This and the writing are connected for me, okay?
00:53:05 - It's a good thing we came.
00:53:21 - There's this app I wanna show you.
00:53:24 It calculates--
00:53:25 - Oh, hi.
00:53:25 - I feel like my mom knew we were on drugs.
00:53:33 - She seems nice, I wanna get to know her better.
00:53:38 I feel like we're deceiving her.
00:53:39 - I wonder what it's gonna be like for us two weeks here.
00:53:42 - Do you think she likes me?
00:53:45 - Yeah, I can tell she likes you.
00:53:48 - I just think she thinks about drugs a lot.
00:53:51 - Is she addicted?
00:53:52 - Wildly.
00:53:55 - Do you ever have to distract yourself from us?
00:53:59 - In other relationships, I use food or drugs
00:54:04 to console myself, but that's not us, so that's good.
00:54:09 - Oh, we do use drugs.
00:54:13 - But not to console ourselves.
00:54:15 - I think the thing that really matters to me the most
00:54:18 is just not getting fixated on things neurotically.
00:54:21 - What kinds of things?
00:54:23 - Anything.
00:54:25 (eerie music)
00:54:34 (eerie music)
00:54:37 (eerie music)
00:54:40 (eerie music)
00:54:43 (eerie music)
00:54:47 (eerie music)
00:54:50 (eerie music)
00:55:19 - When my first boyfriend, Ken,
00:55:21 he used to go down on me,
00:55:24 and then we'd do it maternity style.
00:55:25 It just got really boring really fast.
00:55:27 Beau and I had a lot of sex.
00:55:32 - What?
00:55:36 - Sometimes it felt like he was having sex with himself.
00:55:40 - How did that make you feel?
00:55:44 - People have different priorities in relationships.
00:55:47 (eerie music)
00:55:49 I don't think sex is a big thing for me.
00:55:51 Train's coming.
00:55:54 (eerie music)
00:55:59 (train rumbling)
00:56:05 (sobbing)
00:56:11 (sobbing)
00:56:13 - Hey, what's wrong?
00:56:19 What's wrong?
00:56:21 Let me know what's wrong.
00:56:29 - I don't know, I just...
00:56:31 I feel like I'm an insane person.
00:56:36 - It's okay, you...
00:56:39 - I'm so sad.
00:56:40 - It's okay, your serotonin receptors are just misfiring.
00:56:43 Okay?
00:56:44 - I know, I know.
00:56:49 (sobbing)
00:56:50 You're right, you're right.
00:56:51 You're right, you're right.
00:56:54 (sobbing)
00:57:08 (speaking in foreign language)
00:57:12 - I don't wanna do any readings while I'm here.
00:57:18 (speaking in foreign language)
00:57:26 The advance on my last book
00:57:27 was large for a writer my age.
00:57:29 (speaking in foreign language)
00:57:34 (speaking in foreign language)
00:57:38 (sighing)
00:57:40 (thudding)
00:57:43 (sighing)
00:57:45 (clicking)
00:57:47 (clicking)
00:58:15 - This place is beautiful.
00:58:18 - Yeah, I used to come here with my mom and her sister
00:58:21 when I was really little.
00:58:22 I have these strange, disconnected memories
00:58:27 that feel really religious.
00:58:29 - I don't know if I can feel that way about something.
00:58:36 - It's supposed to represent the light of wisdom.
00:58:39 (water running)
00:58:42 - What's up?
00:59:03 - Nothing, nothing, it's fine.
00:59:08 - Really?
00:59:08 - I just think my body's all out of luck.
00:59:15 I'm fine, I'm fine.
00:59:17 Anything.
00:59:18 - And the drugs?
00:59:21 - Yeah, and the drugs.
00:59:26 - Okay.
00:59:26 (coughing)
00:59:34 (coughing)
00:59:36 (coughing)
00:59:39 (coughing)
00:59:41 (coughing)
00:59:43 (sniffing)
00:59:45 (wind blowing)
00:59:48 (wind blowing)
00:59:51 - Did he have a glass of water?
01:00:18 - Oh yeah.
01:00:19 - I remember going to Epcot as a kid
01:00:27 and the show said that families were gonna have
01:00:31 two robot dogs and a robot maid
01:00:35 and live in self-sustaining underwater spheres
01:00:39 by like 2008.
01:00:40 Technology doesn't have that kind of wonder for me anymore.
01:00:48 It's like someday the universe is just gonna be a computer
01:00:53 and we're all pawns in the universe's grand plan
01:00:59 to become a computer
01:01:00 and life is just a cosmic replay.
01:01:06 - That seems kind of paranoid.
01:01:11 I mean, you can't just opt out of day-to-day experience
01:01:16 without being stupid.
01:01:17 - I'm being studied by millions of entities
01:01:19 a billion years from now.
01:01:20 - Can I tell you something that's been on my mind?
01:01:27 - Yeah.
01:01:28 - You just, you kind of speak to your mom like she's a kid.
01:01:42 I mean, I'm surprised I've never heard you talk like that.
01:01:46 - She used to be much worse.
01:01:48 - Just saying, okay?
01:01:50 (people chattering)
01:01:54 (dramatic music)
01:01:56 (dramatic music)
01:01:59 (dramatic music)
01:02:02 (dramatic music)
01:02:05 (speaking in foreign language)
01:02:08 (dramatic music)
01:02:11 - You're gonna be fine.
01:02:37 (dramatic music)
01:02:40 (dramatic music)
01:02:43 (dramatic music)
01:02:45 (dramatic music)
01:02:50 (dramatic music)
01:02:55 (dramatic music)
01:03:00 - Yes?
01:03:08 - We should take a lot of MDMA tonight
01:03:12 so we don't fight.
01:03:13 - Cool.
01:03:17 - So, what's the plot of Taipei's
01:03:20 most Michelin star restaurant?
01:03:21 - We'll improvise.
01:03:23 Are you feeling your MDMA?
01:03:24 - I feel it, it's big time.
01:03:25 - One big time style, please!
01:03:29 - Let's go!
01:03:30 (dramatic music)
01:03:33 (dramatic music)
01:03:36 - Hey, use the NPR voice to help us, bro.
01:03:43 - We're here at the flagship world's
01:03:44 first four star Michelin restaurant
01:03:46 in beautiful Taipei, Tai--
01:03:48 - Let me do it, let me do it.
01:03:50 (dramatic music)
01:03:53 This is the first four star Michelin restaurant
01:03:56 in the world.
01:03:57 They had a grand opening tasting menu of fish patties.
01:04:00 It's been said that he's actually
01:04:02 the rightful founder of this place.
01:04:04 Someone stole his idea,
01:04:05 now he comes and eats here every night
01:04:07 and weeps in the toilet.
01:04:09 (crying)
01:04:11 Over there is an installation art piece
01:04:16 meant to represent world peace.
01:04:17 - Fantastic.
01:04:19 - This is where the district managers
01:04:20 hold their weekly meetings.
01:04:22 This little lady, she's been employee of the month
01:04:26 36 months running since she was four years old.
01:04:29 Amazing!
01:04:31 - And him!
01:04:32 - This little bad boy, he's the next candidate
01:04:35 for the new chicken sandwich.
01:04:37 You could be eating him next month, folks.
01:04:39 We'll miss you.
01:04:40 - Fantastic!
01:04:42 - It took them five whole years to Photoshop this.
01:04:46 - They had to wait for Adobe to answer questions
01:04:48 that they had on their vintage mobile phones.
01:04:51 - It's the mother of brain.
01:04:52 (cheering)
01:04:54 - Skype?
01:05:02 - Skype?
01:05:03 - Vacation.
01:05:04 - Oh.
01:05:08 - Vacation.
01:05:09 - Skype.
01:05:10 - Vacation.
01:05:11 - Skype.
01:05:12 - Vacation.
01:05:12 (upbeat music)
01:05:15 - Oh, it's deleted.
01:05:16 - Hey, can I ask you a question?
01:05:32 - Oh yeah?
01:05:37 - Did you take a pregnancy test?
01:05:39 - Did you go through the trash?
01:05:43 - It was just in there.
01:05:44 - Well, then you'll see that I'm not pregnant.
01:05:47 I think it was just the drugs.
01:05:50 - Do you think you should be on birth control?
01:05:53 - I don't like how I feel on it.
01:05:55 - It doesn't matter to me if I cum somewhere else
01:05:58 or use a condom.
01:06:00 - Okay.
01:06:05 - I just feel like if I was pregnant,
01:06:07 we'd both be on the same page.
01:06:09 - Can you explain about the page?
01:06:13 - Paul.
01:06:15 - I mean, I just--
01:06:15 - We're not married.
01:06:16 - Yeah, for the movie.
01:06:17 I just feel like we've gotten over it.
01:06:21 Hey, Erin, wait, wait.
01:06:23 No, Erin, wait, wait.
01:06:24 That's not what I meant.
01:06:25 - Well, then what do you mean?
01:06:26 What do you think all of this is?
01:06:27 - No, you're my wife, okay?
01:06:28 This means a lot to me.
01:06:29 I don't wanna lose you.
01:06:30 - Do you want a kid right now?
01:06:31 I mean, you always talk to me
01:06:32 when you're not in control of my life.
01:06:33 - What are you talking about?
01:06:34 - Erin, I just-- - I said let go of me.
01:06:36 - Okay, no, hold on.
01:06:36 - I said let go.
01:06:37 I'm not doing this to you.
01:06:38 - Erin, okay. - I'm your mom.
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01:07:26 - I'm sorry if I ruined our evening.
01:07:38 I was enjoying it.
01:07:41 - So were they.
01:07:44 - Are we okay?
01:07:48 - I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled.
01:07:50 - It's okay.
01:07:51 - Everything just got really confusing, really fast.
01:07:57 It's just like really fast generalized sadness.
01:08:05 - Try to be happy.
01:08:10 - I'm worried I'm broken.
01:08:13 - You're gonna have to replace me with a new model.
01:08:17 (birds chirping)
01:08:20 And it's just really weird
01:08:24 doing this every night while we're here with your family.
01:08:29 - I'm a tourist here too.
01:08:35 - Sure.
01:08:37 - It's true, so it's not just you.
01:08:45 - I'm gonna go back and go to bed.
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01:10:16 (papers rustling)
01:10:38 (footsteps)
01:10:40 - Could you not touch my stuff?
01:10:57 - Okay, I'm sorry.
01:11:00 - I feel like you're not respecting my space.
01:11:04 - Your space?
01:11:08 Hey, can we talk about this?
01:11:11 Hello?
01:11:14 - What?
01:11:18 - Well, what's happening here?
01:11:20 - What's happening?
01:11:23 - Get off of this!
01:11:24 - Don't grab things from me.
01:11:26 - Why won't you listen to me?
01:11:28 - I am.
01:11:29 - You're not.
01:11:30 You're just multitasking me like another device.
01:11:33 - That's not true.
01:11:34 (sniffles)
01:11:37 (sniffles)
01:11:39 (sniffles)
01:11:42 (door slams)
01:11:54 (door slams)
01:11:57 (door opens)
01:11:59 (door closes)
01:12:02 (door opens)
01:12:04 (door closes)
01:12:07 (keys clacking)
01:12:24 (keys clacking)
01:12:27 (sniffles)
01:12:47 This isn't me.
01:12:48 I can't control my emotions.
01:12:54 My circuits are all inspiring.
01:12:57 Maybe I,
01:13:04 maybe I need to go on medication.
01:13:08 - It's not good for you.
01:13:16 - Well, how do you know?
01:13:17 - Could become dependent.
01:13:21 - Did you read that somewhere?
01:13:23 - No.
01:13:24 - Well, then how do you know?
01:13:26 - I just don't wanna fight.
01:13:29 - I think I need to,
01:13:35 I think I need to spend tomorrow alone.
01:13:39 Is that okay?
01:13:40 (traffic humming)
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01:15:21 (somber music)
01:15:23 - Paul spoke about how eventually
01:15:46 the universe will just be a computer,
01:15:50 which I'll also be a part of.
01:15:51 From that computer's perspective,
01:15:56 it won't even matter if I'm never a famous writer,
01:16:02 or I'm too anxious to communicate with the world around me,
01:16:09 or have no friends.
01:16:17 Everything will make a sort of monochromatic sense.
01:16:20 Everything will be equal.
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01:16:30 - You should sleep before you travel.
01:16:56 - Oh, I'm, I'm not tired.
01:17:00 - You and Paul always stay up late
01:17:03 at the computer, I suppose.
01:17:05 - Yeah, we're making a project.
01:17:07 Did he tell you about it?
01:17:08 - There have been many projects.
01:17:10 I never understand this videoing.
01:17:15 - It's like a movie, but real.
01:17:18 - Real, yes.
01:17:24 - I'm sorry we didn't get to spend more time
01:17:26 with each other, maybe next time.
01:17:30 - Good night.
01:17:34 - It's been very nice having you both here.
01:17:46 - Thank you for hosting us.
01:17:49 (dishes clinking)
01:17:52 - Please!
01:18:08 (dishes clinking)
01:18:11 - It's pepper.
01:18:20 - Yeah.
01:18:24 Thank you.
01:18:27 (dishes clinking)
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01:18:55 (phone ringing)
01:18:58 - Hello, everyone.
01:19:05 I'm Erin, and I wanted to talk to you about today.
01:19:11 Well, today has been,
01:19:16 I was thinking of reorganizing my apartment,
01:19:21 and I just thought there might be something in that
01:19:25 for people, like reorganizing your apartment
01:19:28 for a life of isolation.
01:19:31 I'm just thinking about apartments and solitude,
01:19:34 and I just feel like in each successive phase of your life,
01:19:39 you should reorganize.
01:19:44 (knocking)
01:19:47 Oh, hold on a second.
01:19:50 (door slams)
01:19:52 (chuckles)
01:19:57 - Whoa.
01:19:58 - I came to get some stuff.
01:20:01 - Yeah, I'm really busy.
01:20:04 You can't just turn up.
01:20:06 That's not how it works.
01:20:08 You have to text.
01:20:09 - I'm gonna see Calvin and Maggie at Birdie's tonight.
01:20:16 You should come.
01:20:19 - I don't think that's a good idea.
01:20:21 - Yeah.
01:20:25 We're going, we're going at night.
01:20:26 - Bye. - Wait, hold on, wait.
01:20:27 What about, what about my stuff?
01:20:28 - Okay, bye.
01:20:29 (sighs)
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01:20:57 (phone beeps)
01:21:00 - There's just too much pressure to be depressed.
01:21:13 - I don't know what you're talking about.
01:21:22 - As a writer.
01:21:26 - Is there anything I can do to help?
01:21:28 - No.
01:21:31 No, I don't think so.
01:21:33 âȘ I can't seem to make you mine âȘ
01:21:38 âȘ Is mine ever âȘ
01:21:42 - Is there anything I can do to help our relationship?
01:21:44 - Best to work on it.
01:21:46 - We are still married.
01:21:49 - I just don't wanna tell anyone what's still.
01:21:53 Least of all you.
01:21:55 âȘ Let the crowd blow you away âȘ
01:21:58 - You wouldn't be just be answering my question.
01:22:01 âȘ To the rhythm and the beat âȘ
01:22:05 - Do you ever feel like
01:22:09 you're relating to someone else,
01:22:13 but really you're just relating to yourself?
01:22:22 - Was Taipei really that bad?
01:22:25 - Terrible.
01:22:28 - Paul told me he enjoyed it.
01:22:31 - Really?
01:22:33 - I mean, you could get a divorce.
01:22:41 - Why do we even get married?
01:22:48 - Why did you get married?
01:22:50 âȘ You were there when it all âȘ
01:22:53 âȘ Just stopped and you showed âȘ
01:22:55 - I was pissed off at my mom.
01:22:57 - Wait, actually?
01:22:58 âȘ You're always late âȘ
01:23:02 âȘ I'll have to wait âȘ
01:23:03 - No.
01:23:04 No, not really.
01:23:06 - Explain this to me again.
01:23:12 - We take them, but we don't talk.
01:23:14 We only communicate non-verbally.
01:23:17 Not talking, I think, is the kind of communication
01:23:19 that will help us.
01:23:21 - Oh no.
01:23:43 (panting)
01:23:46 What are you thinking about?
01:23:55 What are you thinking about?
01:24:01 No.
01:24:05 No, no, this is not what I was expecting at all.
01:24:11 No, I can't breathe.
01:24:12 (mumbling)
01:24:15 Oh God, please, oh God.
01:24:17 I think I'll overdose.
01:24:18 I'll overdose.
01:24:20 - Oh, you can't overdose on mushrooms.
01:24:23 - Yeah, God.
01:24:24 Hey.
01:24:25 Hey, hey, you have to console me.
01:24:29 Hey, you have to console me.
01:24:31 Hey, you have to console me.
01:24:32 You have to console me.
01:24:34 Please.
01:24:35 Please, you have to console me.
01:24:36 You have to console me.
01:24:38 (crying)
01:24:40 You're just a projection.
01:24:42 You're just a projection.
01:24:43 (laughing)
01:24:45 (laughing)
01:24:47 Oh my God, you're just a projection.
01:24:49 (mumbling)
01:24:51 - I'm sorry, I can't.
01:24:55 (moaning)
01:24:56 - You should not let us do this.
01:24:58 (moaning)
01:25:00 Am I going insane?
01:25:02 (moaning)
01:25:04 Please.
01:25:05 (moaning)
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01:25:45 (coughing)
01:26:09 (silence)
01:26:11 - To combine whole gears to focus on this.
01:26:32 You have to wait for Doge to answer questions
01:26:34 that you want to make your research part.
01:26:36 - It's the mother brain.
01:26:38 (moaning)
01:26:40 - You have to.
01:27:00 - No, I'm not leaving.
01:27:02 - You want to.
01:27:03 I want to.
01:27:05 - Yes.
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01:27:38 (soft music)
01:27:40 - Morning.
01:28:07 (soft music)
01:28:09 You know what?
01:28:28 I'm happy I'm alive.
01:28:31 (sniffling)
01:28:32 - I tweeted it.
01:28:33 (soft music)
01:28:36 - Deleted what?
01:28:40 - I deleted our footage.
01:28:42 (soft music)
01:28:45 I'm sorry, I just...
01:28:50 I really wanted it to work.
01:28:54 - But we didn't back it up, why?
01:28:56 - I know, it's just we...
01:28:58 - I'm talking about the footage.
01:29:02 - It was something we made together.
01:29:04 - We don't have to stay married.
01:29:06 - It's not that easy.
01:29:10 - Why not?
01:29:11 There's so much out there.
01:29:13 There's so many places to go.
01:29:17 So much to see.
01:29:20 And I just don't want to wake up one day
01:29:24 and realize that it's too late.
01:29:30 I want you to know that I tried.
01:29:32 I did, I really, really, really tried.
01:29:36 I'm trying to find the words.
01:29:41 It's so hard to describe.
01:29:43 It's this movement.
01:29:48 That's the word I...
01:29:50 That word, it's...
01:29:52 Movement.
01:29:54 - What?
01:30:00 - I'm just...
01:30:01 I'm trying to work out where I am.
01:30:04 And I haven't found that out.
01:30:08 I gotta go, I'm sorry.
01:30:18 - Bye.
01:30:19 - Eric, wait!
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