'In My Room' With Mikayla Pasterfield

Rolling Stone Australia

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00:00 Hi, I'm Michaela Plasterfield and I'm here in my bedroom for the Rolling Stones in My Room sessions.

00:05 I'll be singing a couple of songs that I've written in here. This is where I've written all of my music

00:11 and where all of this kind of started for me, which is fun and exciting.

00:17 This first song that I'm going to do is my first single, my debut single, Damage You Still Do.

00:25 This song started everything for me and without it none of this would be happening.

00:30 So I have, it holds very close to my heart I think.

00:34 It's basically about somebody reaching out after years of no contact and

00:41 it affecting you a little bit more than it probably should have and

00:45 yeah, in my case I had a humongous panic attack.

00:52 Yeah, I wrote a song about it instead of therapy. So this is Damage You Still Do.

00:58 [Music]

01:00 I was 18 again

01:02 Begging for you not to leave again

01:06 Too eager to be demeaned I guess rolled over and let you in

01:14 I was a mean back then I wish that I'd cut you off clean so well

01:24 Thinking of reaching to me regret

01:29 seeps into your skin

01:32 But it won't and it hasn't

01:38 You're a danger

01:41 You're a hazard

01:43 Nothing inside

01:45 To panic like you

01:49 Lost a good thing while I had it

01:56 'Cause you reached out I went manic

02:00 Now the thought of him reminds me of you

02:07 All of the stories I'd heard about you were true

02:16 Oh, what a shame all the damage you still do

02:25 Had on back there again

02:27 A scared little girl too much pain to share

02:31 Prayed to a God but he wasn't there

02:35 I put all my faith in you

02:39 You were too young to care

02:43 Put up your hand now you crossed a bear

02:47 Wanted to hate you but only to hurt you

02:53 Wanted to hate you but I wouldn't dare

02:57 Sometimes I think I do

03:01 But I don't and I haven't

03:07 So your savior in an attic

03:11 Nothing drives me erratic like you

03:21 Lost a good thing while I had it

03:25 'Cause you reached out I went manic

03:29 Now the thought of him reminds me of you

03:35 All of the stories I'd heard about you were true

03:47 Oh, what a shame all the damage you still do

03:53 It's no use you've been barking up the wrong tree

04:03 Have no excuse for your vile treatment of me

04:11 I ain't gonna lose all the things that make me happy

04:19 You don't get to choose when and where you get to love me

04:29 'Cause you don't and you never can do this forever

04:39 Wish you well on the endeavors you choose

04:47 Need to decide which is better

04:53 Cutting all ties, leaving tethers

04:57 Now the thought of him reminds me of you

05:07 I am no longer 18, neither are you

05:13 Oh, what a shame all the damage you still do

05:23 Oh, so that's damage you still do.

05:29 This next one is called Bindi in the Dirt

05:33 and it's my second single and it's come to my attention that a lot of people don't know what a bindi is

05:38 because it's a very regional Australia slang word

05:42 but it's basically this prickly little weed in the grass

05:47 that stabs into your foot if you're dancing around barefoot

05:51 and it absolutely ruins your day. They're very hard to get out, they're very painful

05:56 It's a whole thing and the whole kind of song centres around that metaphor of being vulnerable

06:05 and wanting to just have fun and not make any type of meaningful attachment

06:12 and one coming along anyway and really causing a lot more pain than it should have

06:20 So yeah, that's kind of the gist of this one

06:25 It's my personal favourite that I've ever written

06:29 I, well I fell and I tumbled right into you

06:45 And I, I should be more careful but you waited for me like bindi's in dirt

06:56 Oh, hit me right where it hurts

07:01 Oh, I love you for all that it's worth

07:06 And pierce me right in my soul

07:11 I just want to let you know that

07:16 Don't think I'm letting go

07:20 'Cause I felt you all the way home

07:25 Oh, oh

07:42 I, well I cried on the impact it didn't hold back

07:51 And I, I kept it intact

07:57 I know that you hate when I make you concerned

08:02 Oh, guess that I'll never learn that

08:08 Your love isn't mine to be earned

08:12 And promise I feel the burn

08:17 When you tell me that it doesn't hurt

08:22 I don't think I'm letting go

08:26 'Cause I felt you all the way home

08:32 Oh, oh

08:41 Oh, oh

08:49 You, you starred in my skin

08:56 Felt like wildfire, pure and serene

09:05 I've never felt so alive

09:12 And you, yeah

09:15 Told me just about the time

09:21 I knew you'd win

09:25 Oh, while you were mine

09:30 Oh, while you were mine

09:35 Oh, while you were mine

09:40 Oh, while you were mine

09:48 I felt the pressure you never forgive and forget

09:56 So I, I learned my lesson

10:02 It's best to not let any stone be unturned

10:07 Oh, but I still feel the yearning

10:13 Fire the door on the burning

10:18 Loving you took its toll

10:22 Oh, Lord, just want to let you know

10:27 That I don't think I'm letting go

10:32 'Cause I felt you all the way home

10:38 Oh, oh

10:48 Oh, oh

10:58 Yeah. So that one's been in the dirt.

11:02 This next one, I'm changing the key.

11:06 This next one is unreleased.

11:09 I'm excited to release it soon.

11:12 I wrote it a few weeks ago and it's called Masochist.

11:15 It kind of centres around the idea of

11:20 craving to be hurt the same way that someone wants to hurt you,

11:25 emotionally speaking, of course.

11:29 And yeah, kind of falling into that a little bit and yeah.

11:35 I'm not really entirely sure how to describe this one.

11:37 I think the lyrics really speak for themselves.

11:40 It's a little bit dark.

11:43 But yeah, this is the new one.

11:46 guitar plays softly

11:49 You're quick to anger

11:54 I'm even quicker to please

11:59 You want to hold on

12:04 I crave the release

12:09 Of the brutal inhonesty

12:15 That I love when you tell me straight

12:20 That you want your hands 'round my neck

12:25 And I love to suffocate

12:30 You want to tear me down

12:35 I need to feel small

12:40 You want to take command

12:45 And I need to be controlled

12:50 You'll claim a higher ground

12:55 I've made peace with this floor

13:01 You want to get a rise

13:06 I want to take that fall

13:11 I hate affection

13:16 You want to hold me down

13:21 I need direction

13:26 You'll never leave this town

13:31 I'll ask a question

13:36 A bushel be beat around

13:42 I'll never mention

13:47 How you make me feel now

13:52 In a funny way I guess I think it's fate

13:57 In a fucked up way I think our star's alive

14:02 I guess I'm a punisher's recipient

14:07 You don't want to hurt no skin but mine

14:12 In a funny way I guess I think it's fate

14:18 In a fucked up way I think it's you and I

14:23 A mass of cases craving to be heard

14:28 Sadist always ready to oblige

14:33 You want to tear it down

14:38 And I need to feel small

14:43 You want to take command

14:48 And I need to be controlled

14:53 You'll claim a higher ground

14:58 And I've made peace with this floor

15:04 You want to get a rise

15:09 I want to take that fall

15:17 So yeah, that one is "Massacist".

15:22 Yeah, so once again, I'm Mikaela Busterfield

15:25 and you can find me on Spotify or Apple Music

15:28 or all of the fun things.

15:30 So, thanks.

15:32 [BLANK_AUDIO]

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